#my backstory for jensen in this

[writinginthesecrettrees]

Mad At Your Dad? Read On...

Jared's not entirely sure why he contacted the guy.

That's a lie; he knows exactly why.

He came out to his family earlier that summer and after the screaming was done, there were two months of complete silence from everyone. And then his mom had called and informed him that his presence was required at Thanksgiving. Seems Grandma had asked about him and then informed her daughter that "I thought I didn't raise a bigot," and then told the extended family about how his parents had abandoned him "for no good reason" and now Mom and Dad want him to show up and make nice so they stop getting shit from everyone.

Around the lump in his throat, Jared said "I already made other plans," and Mom told him to cancel because family comes first, and Jared said he would but "only if my boyfriend can come. It wouldn't be right to leave him alone just because you decided I'm not shunned anymore." A lie, of course, Jared has been tragically single ever since he figured out he couldn't like girls the way his friends do, but he wanted to see what Mom would say.

"Well, then. Bring him," is apparently what Mom would say, through gritted teeth, and now Jared's stuck. And Chad offered to play boyfriend, because Chad is awesome, but his family knows Chad and would never believe it. But then Chad found this weird post on Craigslist while he was scrolling through the personals and it seemed like a godsend, so Jared had emailed him a phone number and asked him to call if his post was serious.

It was serious, it turned out, and the 28 year old felon turned out to have a voice like smooth whiskey and his name was Jensen and when Jared stuttered out his problem, that smooth whiskey voice turned into a rumbling chuckle that tingled down Jared's spine. "Oh, I'm so in," Jensen said, "and please say we can 'accidentally' get caught sloppy kissin'."

"What if I'm hideous? You shouldn't offer to kiss people you haven't even met."

"Darlin', I'd make out with Dick Cheney to make a homophobe clutch their pearls. And I bet you're a better kisser than ol' Dick."

Jared didn't want to get into his (nonexistent) skills as a kisser so they moved on to logistics: things like last names and birthdays and a "how we met" story designed to twist the knife for Jared's parents. And sooner than Jared had expected, he's standing on the curb outside Chad's apartment, waiting for Jensen to pick him up for Thanksgiving.

The van is as old and dirty and airbrushed as Jensen had said, and it lets out a belch of exhaust as he pulls up. Jared's parents will hate it. Jared's grinning as he slides into the passenger seat.

---

Jensen's first look at the kid who's given him a place to go for Thanksgiving is like a punch to the gut. Tall, Jared hadn't mentioned being tall. Slacks and a button-down shirt don't normally do it for Jensen, so it's gotta be the body in those clothes that has his heart beating a bit faster. And then Jared looks up, sees Van Halen (and so what if Jensen named his van, it was a perfect name and practically begging to be used), and grins and it's like sunshine after a thunderstorm.

"What if I'm hideous, he said," Jensen mutters just before Jared opens the door, then grins back at the kid. "Nice to meet you. I'm Jensen, I'll be your long-term boyfriend for the day." That startles a laugh out of Jared. "Any last-minute things I need to know?"

Jared bites his lip. It's adorable. Jensen wants to bite it for him. "Well... I kinda told my grandma about this." He looks up at Jensen through his bangs.

"She's the one who doesn't like bigots, right?"

"Mmhm."

"She cool with it?"

"... she said she's gonna take a ton of pictures."

Jared's fidgeting and Jensen feels for the kid. Coming out's a bitch, even with supportive family, and Jared's family is a little late to the program on that.

"You thought about what you'll call me?"

"I... why wouldn't I just call you Jensen?" Jared asks, clearly bewildered.

Bet the kid's never even been on a real date with a dude. Jensen tries to feel sympathy rather than satisfaction at the thought. "Trust me. Pet names are like... a thousand times more torturous for disapproving parents to sit through. Babe."

Jared wrinkles his nose. "I liked 'darlin' better."

"So do I, baby, but which will your parents hate more?"

"Point." Jared sighs, then gets a look of pure mischief in his eyes. "If we're going by what my parents will hate most, I should call you 'Daddy.'"

"Now you're gettin' it."

---

Jared's almost vibrating with anxiety when they pull up to his parents' house. And thank God for Jensen; if he weren't here, Jared wouldn't even be able to walk to the door. But Jensen is here, pulling him out of the van and lacing their fingers together as they head to the front porch. And they stand there, staring at the door, for a good ten seconds, until Jensen says "Fuck it," and tugs on Jared's hand.

They'd talked about putting on a bit of a show, so Jared's not completely taken by surprise when Jensen's lips land on his. He's just not entirely sure what to do. With anything -- his hands, his lips, his height, and oh! his tongue, because somehow Jensen's managed to part his lips and now Jared has to figure out what to do with an extra tongue crowding into his mouth.

Jensen has a stud in his tongue, and that's a fun discovery that makes Jared's brain short-circuit and solves the problem of what to do with my lips and tongue because the answer is to play with the piercing. It's a good answer, because Jensen is groaning and pulling Jared closer by his belt loops so their bodies are crushed together. And that solves the what do I do with my hands problem because there's nowhere to put them except around Jensen's very broad shoulders. Jensen's arm wraps more securely around Jared's waist, and he pulls back from the kiss to murmur "that's right, baby, just hold on and let me drive" with a playful nip at Jared's ear.

Jared is more than pleased to follow Jensen's direction, whispers "okay, daddy," and smiles at how Jensen groans as he reclaims Jared's lips and lets one hand slide down to squeeze Jared's ass.

And the front door opens.

And the look on Jared's dad's face almost makes up for the fact that they have to stop kissing.

---

It's the best Thanksgiving Jensen has had in a long time, and not just because he was in prison for the last one. Jared is flushed, happy, and relaxed when his dad interrupts their kiss on the front porch. Jensen hadn't known that a human face could get that red, and somehow his face goes purple when Jared introduces Jensen as "Dad, this is dadd... um, I mean, this is Jensen. My boyfriend."

They don't shake hands.

Jared's sister asks them how they met over the turkey, and that lets them pull out the story they made up.

"You tell it, daddy. I barely remember," Jared says, and Jensen's pretty sure he didn't even notice the pet name but everyone else did.

"Sure thing, babe. So, I'm a line cook at this dive bar..." Jensen launches into the tale of clocking out and going to get a drink and having 6'4" of sloppy drunk fall all over him. And how Jared was loudly telling the whole bar about how his parents hated him because he wanted a dick in his ass. Jared's grandma cackled at that, so Jensen winks at the old broad and continues on: "and my baby boy's just about the prettiest boy in all Texas, so of course I took him out to my van."

Jared's brother just might throw a punch. "You didn't even take him home?"

"Well, I was kinda between places right now, but I got a nice air mattress in the back of Van Halen. Real cozy."

"Don't worry, Jeff," Jared breaks in, eyes so innocent Jensen would believe anything he said. "We moved in with Chad the next day." He turns to Jensen. "Or was it the day after?"

The shovel talk Jensen gets from Jared's siblings between dinner and pie is scarier than anything he faced in prison.

---

The silence in the van as Jensen drives Jared back to Chad's is sleepy and comfortable until Jensen suddenly says, "So you gotta talk to your brother about me."

"Hmmm?"

"I'm serious, Jay. I think he's planning my murder. And your sister's gonna be his alibi."

"Please. Jeff's a teddy bear."

"To his little brother, yeah. To his little brother's supposedly homeless felon boyfriend? Not so much. You gotta talk to him!"

Jared laughs. Jensen wants to hear that laugh every day forever.

"Okay, daddy. I'll call Jeff in the morning. Tell him it was all fake."

"Good. I'd like him to not hate me when I take you out for real."

[carryonlikewedidbefore]

Hi!

While perusing the lovely young Jensen photos you've shared, I noticed that you mentioned that you recently (?) found Radio Company and that's why you were sharing Jensen Ackles content. I gotta ask, did you know who he was before? And how did you learn about Radio Company? I'm just curious about how different people find themselves pulled into his orbit.

(For me it was Supernatural, although I knew him from his work on Dark Angel before that.)

Hey there!

Oh yeah I knew who he was, you don’t have a tumblr blog in the years 2011-2014 and not know who jackles is. I’d seen some of supernatural years ago, but he was Just Some Actor, no big deal (although I have always referred to him as illegally good looking) I’d even heard him sing (Angeles) but again I wasn’t fussed on it. Actually the first time I ever saw him was on the Australian show Good News Week and I always remembered how awkward that entire segment was. (Poor dude)

When I came back to tumblr a few years ago and after I started following a few spn blogs in the wake of 5 November I started hearing about Radio Company and knew they were somehow associated with Jensen but I didn’t think much beyond that until an IRL friend of mine who is a big spn fan mentioned them and said they seemed like my kind of thing.

That happened to be a couple of days before the city grown willow film clip got released. I watched that, and sounds of someday came on YouTube right after. That was about a minute in when I decided it was decent enough to buy the album, but genuinely not expecting much from it as I own a lot of actor-based albums and almost universally they’ve been “meh”.

30 seconds into cannonball I was in love. And unfortunately I’m a sucker for a good looking guy with musical talent so it was all over for me and I started looking to see what he’d done other than spn.

Then one day I found a blog that had young photos of him and when reading about the research that was going into it I reached out to jarchaeology to ask if she would be interested in some things that I could access as a librarian (not sure if this was before or after I tracked down a copy of his song from the Beatles soap sessions cd and sent it to her) and a beautiful friendship began.

And as for the slides etc… well I’m a Virgo librarian with a reasonably large disposable income. I like to collect. And of course I’m going to share them with jarchy because she put me onto it.

[wendichester]

hello, I love the vibe that Jensen and Jared have with their wives and all of them together. Sort of like a big family. Could u do something like that with Jensen x actress! Reader?

𝜗𝜚 ࣪˖ ִ𐙚 casserole nights,

pairing. jensen ackles x actress!reader ft. the padaleckis genre. domestic fluff

wordcount. 623

notes. thank you sm for requesting this, sweets 😙

It’s a quiet Sunday when the real magic happens.

Not the red carpet stuff. Not the award shows or interviews or film sets.

This is better.

This is casserole in the oven. A kid’s sock mysteriously on the stairs. Jared's laugh echoing from the back porch while Jensen flips burgers and pretends to be cooler than he is with a spatula in hand.

And you? You’re barefoot in an oversized T-shirt, sipping rosé in the kitchen, helping Gen prep salad while the smallest Ackles runs through the room yelling something about frogs and lightning.

It’s beautiful chaos. And it feels like home.

You met Jensen on set, of course. You were the new girl—that season’s mysterious guest star with a sword, a backstory, and the kind of snark that made Dean Winchester raise an eyebrow.

You were supposed to die in episode 7.

You didn’t. Because somewhere between fight training and late-night rewrites, the writers caught on to what you two already knew.

There was something real. Something honest.

Now here you are, three years and one wedding later, chopping cucumbers in his favorite house, surrounded by laughter and family.

Gen bumps your hip with hers. “Still not tired of him?” she teases, grinning. “That voice doesn’t get old?”

You snort. “Please. That man could narrate my nightmares and I’d still blush.”

“Gross.”

“You asked.”

Out on the deck, Jensen catches your eye through the screen door. He’s wearing sunglasses and a backwards hat, and he’s so smugly proud of whatever he's grilling. When he sees you, his whole face changes—softens. Warms. He mouths “hi, baby,” like you haven’t been near each other all day.

Your heart does that flutter it always does.

You mouth back, “hi, chef.”

Dinner is loud and messy and beautiful. Jared tells a story about Misha tripping over a fake demon corpse. Gen almost chokes on her wine. The kids yell over each other about superheroes and pancakes and something about Jensen snoring like a “dying rhino.”

“You love my snore,” Jensen mutters into your hair later, arms around you as you help clean up.

“You deny your snore every time,” you whisper back.

“Because it’s not a snore. It’s a—masculine exhale.”

“You almost broke the baby monitor.”

He tickles your ribs until you squeal and nearly drop a plate. Behind you, Jared yells, “Get a room!”

Later, when the dishes are done and the house is calm— (Gen and Jared asleep upstairs, the kids all finally knocked out, the porch lights still glowing) —you find Jensen in the kitchen, alone.

The radio’s playing something old and low. He’s leaning against the counter. Barefoot. Tired eyes. Soft smile.

You step toward him, hands still damp from the last towel-dry.

He holds out a hand.

“Dance with me?”

You don’t answer. You just slide into his arms.

There’s something perfect about it— the hush of the house, the echo of laughter still in the walls, the way his hands fit at your waist like he’s been holding you forever.

You rest your head on his chest. He smells like cologne and barbecue and home.

“I like our little family,” you murmur.

He kisses your temple. “I love it. I love you.”

Your eyes flutter closed. “Even when I eat all the fries off your plate?”

“Especially then. It’s part of your brand.”

You smile. “I want a night like this every week. All of us. Just—this.”

He nods against your hair. “We’ll make it a tradition. One big crazy table. You, me, our weird beautiful crew.”

And just like that, another piece of your heart roots itself here.

Not in the spotlight. Not in the script. But in this little pocket of heaven between the casserole and the quiet.

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[feelingthedisaster]

so, me and my mom's bonding activity is to watch shows together, so this means i get to hear her live commentary and opinions. i made a list of my favourites

(disclaimer: this doesnt mean i agree/support what she said)

she talked about jared padalacki and jensen ackles's hotness through supernatural, but not like who's hotter or aged like wine/aged badly, she talked about it in an analytical sense: how the producers used their physical attributes for views and how it changed their portrait as the fans reacted/the actores aged (she says sam started as the 'pretty boy' of the show but as it progressed it stopped)

she insists the actor of eddie was going through some health issues during the filming of season six of 911. her reasoning is that they didnt show his abs as much as they did in the previus seasons so they were covering something up (yep, she went "im not seeing my regular order of firefighter abs, something is wrong")

on the same lane, she also says he got better bc they did show his abs more in season 7

"is this by netflix, right? the intros are all the same"

she diagnosed castiel with autism (she is a psychologist btw)

intense staring at me when rosa diaz came out as bi (which i obviusly ignored)

*watching the harry styles fanfiction movie* me: "dont you ever do that to me" / her: "all your faves are dead"

a lot of complains about the recycling and predictability of the plot of supernatural

an incredible awkard car conversation about lockwood's survivor guilt (we googled his backstory) as the reason of his reckless/almost suicidal actions [she clearly did not want to add to the conversation but i guess the psychologist in her had to]

spn s8, aaron flirting with dean scene "they are making dean gay, arent they?" (didnt tell her anything, there some things you gotta let them figure out on their own)

*edwin payne exists* "well, that's a repressed gay"

[context: we watch shows in english with english subtitles but we are not from a english speaking country, she learned english when she was young and i currently go to classes] me: "i dont need to study for the english test i have tomorrow, i just need to watch one more episode. in fact, tv is actively studying for the listening comphrension part" / her: "right, then im not procrastinating work, im just helping my daughter study for her test then" / "right" / "right"

[storytellers-contest-tjac]

Storytellers Contest: TJAC FAQs

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FAQs (subject to change)  

Participants will receive a welcome packet with additional information. If you have questions not answered below or in your packet, please DM us on Tumblr or Discord.

What characters can I create for?

Below is the list of characters that can be used for this contest. Jensen* RPF is also welcome.  

Tom Hanniger (My Bloody Valentine)

Dean Winchester* (SPN/The Winchesters)  

Jack Durfy (Buddy Games)  

Soldier Boy/Ben (The Boys)  

Beau Arlen (Big Sky)  

Russell Shaw (Tracker)  

Mark Meachum (Countdown)  

*Jensen or his character should be over the age of thirty within the piece. 

What is the minimum word count?

There are two options. Each category will have its own prize levels.  

Novella (5k to 15K words)

Magnum Opus (25k+ words)

Can I include ships?

Yes. Except for the following (stated or implied).  

No J2/Wincest  

No Destiel/Cockles

Does the relationship of the main character(s) have to be romantic?

No. Platonic, gender-neutral, sibling, and parental relationships are also acceptable. No underage (18) sex or incest allowed.

Characters in romantic/sexual relationships should be 30+. 

Can I combine with another contest, bingo, or challenge?

No.   

Are crossovers allowed?

Yes. Crossovers with other fandoms, even ones Jensen is not involved in—MCU, Doctor Who, Sherlock, Star Trek, etc.—are allowed. The story's primary focus should still be on Jensen or one of his listed characters.  

Are AUs allowed?   No. Objectively judging characterization in AUs would be difficult.

Is canon divergence allowed?   Yes.

How is an AU versus a canon-divergent story defined for the purpose of the contest?

AU - Set in a completely different universe, and the character(s) have a different backstory. Such as Dean being a bakery owner or a photographer who travels the world instead of becoming a hunter. Or SB not being a supe but still dishing out toxic masculinity as a VP of Operations. The characters may be familiar, but the world they inhabit is not. More like original fiction with our favorite characters tossed in.

Canon Divergence - Set in the same universe/world, and the characters have the same life history. Beau is still a divorced sheriff in Montana, or Russell still works private security for the Horizon Group. It basically follows canon up until the author adds in a new character(s) or the canon characters take a different action that alters their storyline. The world and characters are familiar and true to the source material, but an event or choice not in canon changes the outcomes.

Is there a drop-out date or other checkpoint?   Yes.

Drop-out deadline: December 31, 2025

Check-in: March 15, 2026

Posting

Fanworks must be completed, edited, beta/alpha read, and ready to post by June 13, 2026  

Works should be posted, in their entirety, between June 14 and June 21, 2026, to be eligible for judging and prizes.  

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You may post on Tumblr or AO3. 

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Updated: 061625

[choppersconfirmedkills]

little talks⋇꙳

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✧˖° Hello there! I decided to make an introduction post for this blog! Some of you are new here, some of you have been here a long time and others only know me from social media platforms (tiktok).

✧˖° My name is Jensen, otherwise known as Century. I have a lot of nicknames from both here and my DRs so, you can just call me what you want.

✧˖° I am 24. I have been shifting (multiverse perspective) for 4 years now. I have shifted a variety of times. I have also experienced trauma whilst shifting so I have a bit of a differing experience than others.

✧˖° This blog is a shifting and fanfic blog. You will more than likely see both as it is my style.

✧˖° I am a practicing witch. I have channeled and spoken to multiple people from my DRs. I find that it helps me connect so much more when done so sparingly. I went through a very long period of time where I heavily relied on it.

✧˖° Most of my DRs are all over the place because I find myself more comfortable with repeated versions of me rather than coming up with a new name, background, backstory, etc. So in a lot of my DRs you'll see people in it from other media or combinations of different medias. (for example my transformers DR is a mix of transformers and jurassic park/world)

✧˖° In most of my DRs I am a parent in some capacity, and I adore my kids. It has become a trademark for me amongst my friends as to how many I have. ask @moonsdrs and @brocuntt.

✧˖° My ask box is open so please send asks whether it's questions regarding shifting or my DRs, or if you just want to ask anything nerd related (I'm a psych and cj major, I also love quantum physics, sharks, and star wars).

Now for my DRs which is what I'm sure everyone cares about more.

✧˖° Star Wars: The Clone Wars- Kaira Skywalker

✧˖° Transformers 2007- Jensen Grant

✧˖° Supernatural - Jensen Winchester

✧˖° Clusterfuck DR - Kaira Winchester

✧˖° Jurassic Park 3 - Jensen Grant

✧˖° Law & Order SVU - Jensen Grant

✧˖° The Rookie - Jensen Singer

✧˖° Fame DR - Jensen Grant

Other DRs

✧˖° Star Wars: Rebels. Transformers Prime. TMNT. Star Wars Jedi: Fallen Order. FNAF. The Hunger Games. Bookish DR. How I Met Your Mother. The Last of Us. Divergent. MCU. The Walking Dead (Group DR). Fame (Group DR). Fantasy DR.

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[zepskies]

Hey Zepskies! I'm a small writer but I'm starting on my ficlet about an oc x ben (soldier boy). I've read so much of your work and just think you are a very talented writer. Do you have any tips on writing ben? it can be vague and I know you're busy so I don't expect a response. :)

Hey there!

First off, welcome and thank you for reading my stories (and for that lovely compliment). 💕

As for your question, writing Soldier Boy (Ben) can be very tricky. It took me a while to fully figure out how to write the character, and I will say, it's a challenge every time I do dive back into this (loveable) asshole.

😂 That said, here are 3 main tips I have for writing his character:

1. Comparable archetypes:

When I started trying to do a character analysis of this guy, I started with who he would've likely looked up to and tried to emulate: Frank Sinatra, Humphrey Bogart, Cary Grant, John Wayne, Indiana Jones, John Winchester, and even Dean Winchester to an extent -- the strong, stoic, man of action archetype.

AKA: The Big Swinging Dick™️ in the Room.

These men are leaders, a "man's man," show no pain, weakness, or vulnerability. (So shove those "soft" emotions down your gullet as much as humanly possible. Real men don't cry, amirite? 🙄)

But the fun thing I find about guys like this is, even though they have a hard shell, being able to pierce the armor somehow and get to the creamy center of their heart can be a very rewarding story indeed.

2. The balance of SB's personality:

Based on what we got in season 3 of The Boys, I find that Soldier Boy's personality is a delicate balance of a few key things:

Arrogant Narcissist: He's a massive ego, selfish with a conflated sense of his own importance. Especially before his capture, he's reached the pinnacle of fame. He's bought into his own hype and the backstory Vought created for him, and he assumes that everyone in his life loves him for it.

As Jensen said of his character in Supes Ain't Always Heroes (check out my review of the book here if you like):

“He’s so fragile and his ego is fragile. Just like Homelander. These bigger-than-life powerful heroes really have a glass jaw… “And everyone walks on eggshells around him [Soldier Boy], and they tell him that they love him, and it’s the same with Homelander. Then when all of a sudden he faces his old team and Crimson Countess says we never loved you, we hated you—that’s a gut punch for him. Because even though on some level he may have known that, he never thought he would hear it. “And he probably propped himself up around trying to believe otherwise, because how can you walk around knowing everyone you’ve ever cared about hates you? It’s too painful.” (191)

Womanizing Misogynist: That entire scene with SB and Grace in Nicaragua tells you all you need to know about how Soldier Boy talks to, treats, and views women. 🙄 Again, he's a narcissist, so he assumes women are going to be into him because he's the world's biggest superhero, because he's handsome, because he's that guy.

The problem is, he is devastatingly handsome and impressive as a superhero. And my headcanon is he can be very charming when he wants to be. Again, using his skills as an actor and channelling that old-world debonair charm to get what he wants. (i.e. Cary Grant, etc.)

Violent and Indifferent to Collateral Damage: This is a key one, because this is part of what makes him different from Homelander. SB is not a psychopath. He doesn't necessarily enjoy hurting people. He just doesn't care about the collateral damage.

He also can't tolerate a perceived slight to his masculinity or status, like when Black Noir tried to rise up in the ranks and come into his own as a movie star. Soldier Boy, in his selfishness, saw that as Noir trying to come for his crown, in a sense, which is why he ultimately showed his mean streak through violence.

When he gets back to the U.S. after escaping Russia, he's on a warpath of vengeance against his team who sold him out, and anyone who gets in his way.

"If they have it coming," he tells Hughie.

3. Soldier Boy is both less and more than what he represents: (AKA: His insecurities)

As we know, Soldier Boy didn't really storm Normandy or fight the Nazis. He falls short of every definition of a hero. However, he's also not just a caricature of toxic masculinity.

Ben has deep-seated insecurities that he buries under all the bravado and the Soldier Boy persona. He was also emotionally abused by his father, who set exacting standards for what it meant to be a man.

It drives Ben to try and prove his worth to his father, though he’s never able to. It fosters the lack of self-worth he feels as he seeks validation through fame and what he believes power to be.

He won’t be one to easily admit he’s wrong, or need help, or express emotions he deems are “soft.” He doesn’t want to look weak or demean himself, let alone be genuinely vulnerable, despite likely wanting that connection with someone.

He uses coping mechanisms like drugs to mask and dull his PTSD, but even in his heyday, I think he drugs and parties hard just to pass the time, and to mask how actually empty he is inside. He has no real love in his life, and no family. It's why he admits to Hughie that he wanted kids. Deep down, he wants a family to fill that void that fame, booze, drugs, and meaningless sex can't fill in his life.

So with all of that flawed, internal mess that is Soldier Boy, the biggest challenge I find as a romance writer is trying to keep all of these aspects of his character, while trying to show the glimmers of the humanity in Ben -- the chink in his armor showing just enough softness to the one person who's brave enough to "try" with him.

That said, I hope all of this helps! 💚

[papermint-airplane]

List 5 facts about your favorite sim. Then, send this to 10 simblrs whose sims you adore. 💚

Ok I have two of these and they've been sitting in my ask box for a dang while because I couldn't make up my mind if I wanted to introduce my new characters from the new story I've been working on or if I just wanted to rehash Aiden facts. But fuck it, let's go with the new characters.

I've definitely posted him on this blog before but that was before I knew what kind of character he was going to be. Now that I know him more through RPing him with my friend @pixiepurr, he ended up very different from what I envisioned at first.

Bear with me, I have figured out so much backstory lore for this motherfucker and it's going to be so long and convoluted and if you read all of this, you have the patience of a saint. I've included tl;drs for the rest of you lmao.

Fact One: Tl;dr: There is a very complicated reason that his name is what it is. Jensen Fortescue IX is the ninth man in the Fortescue family to bear the name Jensen (obviously) but he was not the family's first choice to get the name. In fact, he only became Jensen Fortescue IX by default due to some subterfuge on his mother's part.

The Fortescue family is a very old, very powerful family of witches, known the world over for their talent in the magical arts and as you can imagine, this carries with it a great deal of pride…and pressure. The first male born in each generation has been chosen to carry not only the family name, but the first name of one of the most accomplished witches, Jensen Fortescue I. Each Jensen Fortescue has had to work tirelessly to prove that they are worthy of the name and maintaining their family's status in the world by contributing to the greater field of magic in some way in their lifetimes, whether through magical research or by performing great magical feats.

Jensen Fortescue IX or "Jen" as he is known to his family, is not the first male in his generation.

The generation prior to his only produced two daughters so there was no Jensen Fortescue born then. Those daughters went on to have sons. Magdalene, the oldest daughter, gave birth to the first son born in the generation but gave him his mortal father's family name instead of Fortescue, meaning he was out of the running to be named Jensen Fortescue.

Still with me?

Tabitha, the second daughter, also gave birth to a son but she intentionally kept the father a secret from everyone (including her son and potentially even the father) to keep the Fortescue family from treating her son poorly. Why? There's an even deeper backstory to that and trust me, I am sparing you from going into the entire family history here, just take what I'm saying at face value unless you want a three hour TED Talk about this fictional family's internal politics but when I say Tabitha had a valid reason to worry about that, I mean it. Since the child had his mother's surname by default, he was given the coveted special name Jensen Fortescue IX, meaning that he is now important in the family's eyes.

Yes, this is all very patriarchal and unfair for a multitude of reasons, but that's the way this family works, bullshit as it may be. The fact is, due to certain circumstances outside of Jen's control, his family would have completely discounted him as one of theirs if his mother didn't do what she did.

Fact Two:

Tl;dr: There's something weird about his familiar.

Jen has a familiar, a black cat named Melanie. She became his familiar when he was six years old and he's had her ever since. Strangely, she doesn't seem to help magnify his magical powers the way familiars are supposed to. Even stranger still, the bond between Jen and Melanie is much stronger than the normal bond between a witch and their familiar. If separated from each other for too long, both become extremely weak, almost like their proximity to each other is the only thing keeping them alive. But why would that be the case? After all, witches and familiars typically operate separately from each other all the time. Why is it different for Jen? And why do Melanie's eyes seem so...well...familiar?

Fact Three:

Tl;dr: He's not a very good witch.

For a witch, Jen isn't very magical. He comes from an exceedingly powerful bloodline, so it would stand to reason that he's more talented than other witches with less magical families, right? Well, that's not the case. Sometimes, he has surges of power that are on par with some of the older members of his family, yet most of the time, simple spells tire him out, leaving him drained and needing to sleep in order to recover his magic. This has lead most of his family to dismiss him as a hopelessly untalented witch. As a result, Jen spends most of his time studying every magical text he can get his hands on, hoping he can compensate with hard work rather than innate talent. This doesn't leave much time for a social life, unfortunately.

Fact Four:

Tl;dr: He loves science.

Despite being a witch, Jen likes mortal science more than magic. Maybe it's because science is something that anyone can do as long as they apply themselves to understanding the underlying concepts and it doesn't rely on a gift he was seemingly born without. When he doesn't have his nose shoved in some dusty old tome of arcane power, he's reading up on biology and chemistry. He finds it fascinating that mortals could figure out so much about the world without magic and often wonders if there's a way to combine the two disciplines for greater effect.

Fact Five:

Tl;dr: He hates his cousin.

He has quite the temper but only when it comes to one person -- his cousin. Despite the fact that Jen is two years younger than his cousin, physically weaker, and much smaller for most of their childhood (until puberty turned him into a six foot beanpole, anyway), Jen bullied his cousin relentlessly as a child. When asked why he did it, he'd always shrug and say, "I just don't like him". Jen would be happily playing with his friends without a care in the world but the second he laid eyes on his cousin, he would become consumed by rage so all-encompassing that he could focus on nothing else but hurting his cousin as much as possible both verbally and physically. It was almost like a compulsion. The only spell Jen was ever good at as a child was creating electricity in his fingertips and he used it almost exclusively to shock his cousin. Even as adults, nothing sours his mood more than being reminded his cousin exists. Does he dislike his cousin so much due to a simple personality clash or is there something deeper -- and darker -- going on?

Part two here

[winchesterwild78]

Captain

Jensen Ackles (pilot) x Reader (wife)

Warnings: Absolute SMUT! Do not read if you have no desire to read filth. 

A/N: Thanks for the idea @jackles010378 . I hope I do your idea justice. 😀 Jensen is an airplane pilot, based on the photo. Not too much backstory so I could get right to the fun stuff. 😃 Written and edited fast, please overlook errors. This is fiction and does not depict real life. No disrespect to Jensen or his family. 

This work is my own and I do not give permission for it to be taken. 

18+ Minors DNI!!

Jensen was a pilot for a major airline. The hours were long and the weeks he was gone were longer. He hated being away from you, his wife, for too long. The two of you had been married for almost 6 years and he loved you more and more every day. 

You sat at your desk watching the clock. Today was slow, so slow. You checked your phone hoping for a text from Jensen. Nothing. Your heart sank. You missed him. He’d been gone for almost 2 weeks. Flying all over the world and wasn’t due back for another few days. 

You sighed and stood up to grab another cup of coffee. As you turned the corner you ran right smack into someone. When you looked up you saw your husband’s green eyes staring back at you. “Hello, darlin.” “Oh my god! Jensen!” You threw your arms around his neck and kissed him deeply. 

He whispered in your ear “Get your stuff, we’re leaving..Now!” You giggled and pulled away to run back to your desk. You grabbed your stuff and headed back to him. The two of you walked to your car and he opened the door for you. Once in the car he started to drive.

“We’re going away for the next few days, sweetheart. You’re already packed.” “What? Jensen, where are we going?” “Somewhere private, where you can be as loud as you want.” He grinned and you clenched your thighs together. 

He was still wearing his captain’s uniform and it always turned you on when he wore it. About an hour later the two of you were pulling into the driveway of your cabin. You both wanted a place to escape to when life got too much. It was the perfect place to just let loose. 

When he stopped the car you both jumped out. Running up to the door with your hands on each other. As soon as you walked in, Jensen closed the door with his foot. Clothes were flying everywhere and Jensen’s lips trailed down your neck. He lightly bit your pulse point and you moaned. His hands traced your curves and slid up your thigh. 

He pushed you against the wall, pinning your hands above your head. His lips crashed on yours as he held you firmly to the wall. You panted and moaned as his lips trailed down your body. With his free hand he lifted your right leg and put it on his shoulder as he dropped to his knees. His lips and tongue found your folds and he licked a strip up to your clit. When his tongue lapped at your swollen clit you moaned and moved your hips. 

He was eating you like a starved man and you felt your knees and legs getting weaker. “Jens, take me to the bed. P..p..please.” You begged. He dropped your leg and lifted you up like you weighed nothing. He dropped you on the bed and you giggled. 

Jensen dropped to his knees and pulled you to the edge of the bed. He parted your legs and stuck a thick finger in your dripping wet hole. You moaned and he put in another. “You like that baby? Like it when I fill you up with my fingers?” “Mmmm, yes baby. I need you.” He leaned forward and started licking your engorged clit. You bucked your hips into him and ran your fingers in his hair. “Ohhh, fuuuck, Jens! Right there baby.” 

He could feel you getting close. “You wanna cum, sweetheart?” You nodded, not trusting your words. “Use your words princess.” Your walls clenched around his fingers. “Yes, Jensen. I want to cum.” 

You were close, so close. Jensen leaned up and removed his fingers. You whined at the loss of fullness and not reaching your climax. “Not yet, baby.” He smirked and kissed your lips. “Ugh! That’s not nice.” You whined. 

You leaned up and took Jensen’s hard length in your hand. “Two can play at that game.” You smirked as you licked his shaft up to the head, dripping with precum. Jensen sucked in air and hissed. You took his length deep in your mouth. Swirling your tongue around his shaft. Sucking him hard. 

He grabbed your head and helped guide you. “Yes, god your mouth feels so good. Fuck!” You grabbed his thighs as you sucked harder. You could tell he was close. You pulled away, wiping your mouth and smirked. “Damn it! That felt amazing. Oh you’re going to pay for that.” Jensen growled and you giggled. 

“Knees, now!” Jensen demanded. “Yes, sir” You rolled over and got on your hands and knees. Your body trembled with anticipation. As you waited for Jensen, you felt the slick from your pussy run down your thigh. You felt the heat from his body close to yours. You wiggled your ass at him. He bit his lip and slapped your ass. You yelped with pleasure and bit your lip. You felt Jensen climb in between your legs. Using his legs he pushed yours apart. Pumping his length a few times, he lined himself up to your entrance, grabbed your hips and pushed himself in. Bottoming out in one thrust. “Oh fuck, Jensen!�� You grabbed the sheets.

He leaned over and whispered in your ear “play with yourself while I fuck you from behind.” Your walls clenched around his cock. He hissed. You moved one of your hands to your already swollen clit. You started rubbing circles, chasing your release that he had denied you. Moans, grunts and the sound of flesh hitting flesh filled the room. “Oh God, Jensen! I’m so close. Please let me cum!” You begged.

Jensen thrusted harder, hitting that sweet spot that only he could hit. “Cum for me baby” he growled in your ear. You screamed in ecstasy as your release hit. You clenched hard around his hardened cock. 

Jensen pulled out and laid down. “Get on top, baby.” You straddled Jensen’s thighs and with one hand steaded yourself while you used the other hand to line him to your entrance. You sank down on him and started to rock your hips. Jensen’s hands ran over your exposed breasts as he leaned up and started sucking on them. Your head went back as you let out a deep moan. You started bouncing up and down, taking every inch of him deeper inside. Jensen pushed his hips into you and you groaned with pleasure. Jensen’s hands held your hips and he pushed in with each of your bounces. Moans filled the room. 

“Lay on your back baby,” Jensen said softly, helping you lay down. Laying on your back, Jensen lined back up and gently pushed back in. His hands slowly running down your body and his lips captured yours in a passionate kiss. “I missed you so much, Y/N.” “I missed you too, Jens. So much.” He moved slowly, savoring every minute he had you in his arms. You wrapped your legs around his hips and pushed yourself into him. His thrust picked up and you knew his release was close. Your hands went to his shoulders and ran down his biceps. Your fingers danced over each muscle. 

“I’m close baby, so close.” “Cum for me Jens, please cum for me.” With that Jensen came deep inside you. Spilling ropes of his hot seed deep in you. When he came down from his high he slipped out, getting up to clean you both up. Once you both were clean, Jensen laid down and pulled you close to him. 

“I love you, Y/N.” “I love you too, baby. I’m so glad you came home and we are here.” “Good, because I plan on doing nothing but this for the next few days.” He said as he kissed your forehead. 

Jensen was true to his word. Over the next few days the two of you barely got out of bed. Touching and exploring every inch of each other’s bodies with your hands and lips.

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[pollsnatural]

1)(The montage at the start where Dean's domestic life with Lisa is compared to) his hunting life with Sam was so silly. Dean puts salt into his meal, next shot - Dean puts salt on the floor to stop ghosts. Very funny, I liked it.

2)(I wish spn wasn't allergic to not having both Jensen and Jared in all of its) episodes. Because this episode should have been entirely about Dean's life with Lisa, about his grief and ptsd. Otherwise, the tragedy of Dean's carefully constructed life breaking down doesn't feel as deeply as it should. Sam should've showed up at the very end of the ep.

3)(I like how casually Sam shows up to Dean. It's a good way to show that there's) something wrong with him. Still, I wish it wasn't as rushed.

4)(It's funny that Sera Gamble offered to bring the angels to the plot and in s6) she decided that the show needs to go back to the simple monsters.

[laf-outloud]

As somone who still mostly likes Jensen, but is, I think, able to be pretty object about shows, I don’t think Countdown is terrible. But it’s also not that good.

I don’t think Jensen is exactly Dean, but he’s certainly reminiscent of Dean. But more boring.

I found the first episode interesting enough, until about two-thirds of the way in, and I as suddenly really bored.

Episode 2, I found painfully boring, except for one action scene, and one “emotional” scene.

Episode 3, I fell asleep before I could finish, but it was also very late, so I’ll try again.

Anyway, my point of writing this is that the Jensen fans who are claiming the show is “so good” are full of shit. The premise is not original, the characters aren’t deep. Their archetypes and backstories are clichéd. Jensen is fine, but not great. The second on the call sheet is not believable or good. The style is weirdly old fashioned in terms of graphics.

Jensen’s character is Martin Riggs, but less compelling. He’s wrecklesd because of a brain tumour instead of a dead wife. Riggs-lite. He needs a very strong “straight man/woman” to work off of (like Danny Glover or Jared), and he just doesn’t have that on this show. Even Eric Dane, who I tend to like, is not thst interesting.

Everybody is very obviously playing pretend on the show. And in the fandom. If people like it, that’s totally fine, but let’s not act like it’s great or TV.

Yep, I've heard similar things from casual fans who wanted to check it out. It's funny, because I ended up watching the first 15 minutes of the third episode with only the series description and details from the reviews and yet, I knew exactly what was going on and didn't need a recap of the first two episodes. That's not a good thing, especially for a streaming series.

And I completely agree about Jensen's character. I thought he would be more charming/engaging - more Dean-like, but he wasn't because it was the boring "The Winchesters" version of Dean. I think the showrunner missed the boat when he decided to write a much older main character so they could fit Jensen in. If they went younger, they could have someone much more ambitious, possibly arrogant, and also flirty, but young 30s flirty (which isn't nearly as cringe as mid-40s flirty).

As for the over-the-top, love the whole show fans, I can get some of that. It's been a while since Jensen's been on their screens and I'm sure some of them are so excited he's leading his own series that they overlook the problems within the series. But loving it to the point of crucifying anyone who doesn't is crazy.

When Walker was on, I knew it wasn't great television. I had issues with the romance, focus on kids, split storylines, but I also found a lot of the cases fun, enjoyed the relationships within the family and the Rangers, and most of all, I loved seeing Jared on my television, and loved that he was doing something he enjoyed. There were times I voiced my issues and other fans didn't care, or respectfully shared their opinions. That's how tv viewing should be. It shouldn't be an all or nothing endeavor.

I don't know how AAs handle dealing out all that vitriol and feeling that much hate for people with criticism. Just imagine how much nicer they would be if they just admitted the show is just okay, but that they enjoy seeing Jensen on screen so they'll continue to watch.

[according2thelore]

it always bothered me that in the show, when dean learns that sam kept the amulet at the end of s11, he didn’t immediately put it back on—esp since from what i heard, that was an actor preference, not a storytelling one!!! (the samulet chipped his teeth ☹️)

anyway i wanna imagine that in your time travel au it doesn’t happen like that 🥹 it takes es dean five days to notice that his older self isn’t wearing it (in his defense, he’s not used to looking at himself from the outside!), and when he does it makes him so mad. and that’s what drives ls dean to - out loud - say that yeah, he wishes like hell he had it, but he doesn’t, okay? what do you want me to do here, kid??….. cue older sam like uh well i mean hmm. do you mean that.

although now i’m thinking of es SAM being the one to notice, and he notices right away, but he doesn’t use at as a barb until all the little upsets boil over. oh man. that kills me too. poor kiddo. you don’t get to go to law school AND your loml brother threw away his wedding ring amulet.

anyway you don’t have to do anything with any of this!! just thank you for letting me play in your sandbox!!!!

hello!!!

YESYESYES!!!!

this ask made me start BARKING. let's discuss!

for those who didn't know--yes, the samulet leaving the show was a choice made by jensen because it split his lips a lot and eventually cracked his tooth. i can understand his choice to have it taken off of the character (as much as i simultaneously hate it) especially since it seems that it was chosen as a prop during preproduction of the show at random. they lost a lot of jewelry from S2-4 (i'm looking at you skull bracelet, ring, and jelly bracelet), but the amulet got an emotional backstory so it had a longer life on the show.

but as for ES/LS verse YOU ARE SO RIGHT!!!

ES!Dean is so distracted by how fucking huge these guys are (LS!Sam cough cough bouncy tits cough), and how discombobulating everything suddenly is (1 lb laptops? cellphones that are a flat screen? TVs thinner than a DVD player? IPADS???) to notice immediately. and you're so right! he's used to the amulet being a mostly physical thing--a weight around his neck so familiar that he hardly notices it until it moves--so not seeing it visually doesn't register.

but when he does, he's mostly confused at first. where is it? do we not wear it every day now? why not? we didn't fucking lose it, did we? did it get destroyed? i would know immediately if it fell off, so it didn't do that. hell, i don't even take it off in the shower, where the fuck is it? seriously, dude, look at me, what the fuck did you do to it?

LS!Sam gets more and more uncomfortable, because he's probably the only one at the table that knows it's not buried deep in a landfill in some random state. but he's not sure how dean will react to the fact that sam's kept it all these years, that he got on his hands and knees in a motel room and dug it out of the trash, wiped cold, damp coffee grounds off the pendant, and put it in his pocket with fingers that shook.

then, as you wrote so in character it made my teeth hurt (!!!!), LS!Dean snaps. i don't fucking have it. i threw it away, and i wish like hell i didn't, but it's gone. what do you want me to do here, kid?

and AHHHH!!! you are so right!!! LS!Sam goes fucking rigid like uhhhhhhhhhh...on a scale of 1 to 10 how much did you mean that be so serious rn 🥺 like hmm. well. hmm. let's say for argument's sake...🥺 👉 👈 ...

ES!Sam notices IMMEDIATELY that LS!Dean isn't wearing it, and it's one of the main reasons he's positive the LS!Boys are some kind of demon/shifter/ghoul/trick. because if this was actually dean, he'd have the amulet.

LS!Dean notices ES!Sam glaring daggers at his sternum, the spot where it used to be, as LS!Sam does all the usual tests and tries to calmly explain what's going on. he feels even more guilty as hell, whether or not he knows LS!Sam still has it yet. he crosses his arms over his chest and stares back, not quite able to muster the heat of a proper glare.

it breaks his fucking heart a little, because yeah, it is a betrayal, isn't it? even if his body is copy-able, or mutable, or not able to be trusted, sam should be able to trust a landmark that dean disposed.

but when ES!Sam finds out what exactly happened to the amulet?? oh lord. complete and total meltdown to be frank. "you don’t get to go to law school AND your loml brother threw away his wedding ring amulet." KNOCKED ME OUTTTTTT

because literally!! not only does sam not get a normal life or a nice job or an apartment that's not a windowless bomb shelter but he and his brotherwife got DIVORCED????? he's all but shaking LS!Sam back and forth like WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU???? HOW DID YOU FUCK IT UP THIS BAD??

no one tell ES!Sam that he and dean found out they were soulmates and dean threw his wedding ring necklace out on the same day. he will knock a hole into the bunker wall just so he can jump out of it.

on a more serious note, it is very much "not only are we still on dad's insane revenge mission," *points furiously at LS!Dean* "we're apparently not even a goddamn team anymore!" his voice cracks "can we even stand each other? are we still brothers?"

your characterizations for them were so spot on!!!!! canon to me!!!! this ask is a beautiful painting--babygirl (gender neutral) this is OUR sandbox!

thank you for this lovely & insightful & incredibly written ask anon!

-lizzy

[ndrv3expert1]

I Accidently Made a Game: The Origin of The Duck Game

Hey, pausing the not so regularly scheduled Danganronpa rants to talk about a passion project of mine that has complety taking over my brain for the past several months.

You ever start a joke and then wake up one day realizing it’s gone way too far? Yeah. That’s The Duck Game.

It started with a simple board game, a dumb conversation, and a Danganronpa fanfic idea that spiraled completely out of control.

And now, somehow, it’s a real, fully fleshed-out narrative RPG about the dark side of ambition, success, and power.

Let me explain.

One day, my friend Jensen brought in a board game called Abducktion by Very Special Games.

It’s a strategy game where you move colored ducks into formations to score points. The game had this story where you’re an intern at a UFO company abducting ducks, and in the single player mode you could gain promotions based on how many points you earned.

So, as my friends Jensen, and Braylon were playing, we started joking around. What if Abducktion wasn’t just a fun little game? What if the boss was actually using it to weed out the weak to find the best interns, promote them and get rid of the rest?

And that’s when I thought: Wait. This would make a great fanfic.

I didn’t want to write a fic about me and my friends, so I did the next logical thing—turn it into a Danganronpa fanfic. That same day, literally hours later, I had a draft for the first chapter, multiple endings planned, and a whole choice-based structure where readers would click links to different chapters based on their decisions.

Then I realized... that would be alot of work even for an over-obsessed Danganronpa fan.

So, I told my friend Braylon about the idea, and he said:

"If you come up with the ideas, me and my team could make it a game for you."

And just like that, me and his team partnered up. But there was one little problem:

Copyright.

I couldn’t just submit a Danganronpa fanfic as a standalone game and try to market it off as my own that would be a legal disaster.

But then I remembered—my stupid brain had already come up with HCs so OOC they twisted the characters beyond reconigtion.

So I took my favorite (sadly) non canon friend group—Tenko, Kokichi, Maki, Shuichi, Kaito, and Kaede—gave them new names, new roles, new backstories, new trauma, and new relationships and boom.

The Duck Game was born.

What started as a ha-ha funny idea spiraled into something way bigger than I ever expected.

When I was writing the idea down for the first time I literally wrote "The Duck Game, lmao no way this will go anywhere"

And now, several months later, here I am—actually making a real game. And honestly? I’m really proud of myself (which is rare, so that’s how you know this means something).

It's also really weird to be super fixated on something that isn't Danganronpa for once.

So What Is The Duck Game?

It’s a narrative-driven RPG about climbing the corporate ladder at a shady company called Luxus Enterprises. You play as Bennett Brooks, an anxious intern who slowly gets tangled in a world of corruption, power, and moral compromise.

Every decision you make shapes his relationships, his career, and who or what he ultimately becomes.

With multiple endings, branching choices, and a heavy focus on ethical repercussions, The Duck Game asks one question:

"How far would you go for success?"

If you're into narrative driven games, power struggles, and complex characters you'll love The Duck Game. It's got drama, tough choices, and dark themes, with a unique twist on corporate ambition and moral dilemmas.

It's still a WIP but I'm excited to share as it develops. Follow @theduckgameoffical for updates!

If you're intrested I'd appreciate you checking it out! Your feedback and support let me know people are invested, but no pressure.

Thank you so much for all the support you’ve shown on my rants and projects in the past—I’m really excited to work towards making The Duck Game a fully fledged game with all of your help!

[ardentpoop]

tbh I think “anti-hero” as a label is often meaningless given the hair-splitting that people do based on how sympathetic the character is to them personally

like if we’re using dean vs soldier boy as an example - which is my absolute favorite bc it is ridiculous - you have an outright villainous character in the latter both in terms of the original intentions of the writing and in terms of his characterization divorced from authorial intent. but because (jensen’s fault as usual) he is Charming and Attractive he starts being thought of by general audiences as an “anti-hero.” even primary antagonists like homelander (the trump caricature! as explicitly stated by the showrunner!) are argued to be “anti-heroes” if they are white and male and conventionally attractive and are given any sort of sympathetic backstory or inner conflict. these are characters that squarely belong in the villain bucket but that viewers like too much to feel comfortable leaving them there. notice that female villains rarely if ever get this treatment. it is female heroes who tend to get pulled into the same Nuance-Craving “anti-hero” conversations that male villains do.

and for the other half of this comparison you have dean, who fills a traditional hero role and whose actions are consistently justified by both the narrative and the audience no matter how frequently he dips into villain territory as the show progresses and he becomes larger while sam becomes smaller. sam is an “anti-hero” because of his Inner Darkness (monster status), but dean’s own Inner Darkness helps him do his job better, and his job is one that is noble and heroic. or so you are meant to believe. literally that jensen interview where he perfectly describes dean but he’s actually talking about soldier boy and the supposedly brand-new-to-him Toxic Masculinity that the character exemplifies. incredible.

[wellofdean]

Okay now I’m wondering what they told Jensen about that ‘secret’ that Dean has because it wasn’t Dean’s need for a ‘normal’ life and relationship, so to speak, because we had the dream sequence with Lisa and the picnic in season 3 (not to mention Cassie), and Kripke was pretty open about how Sam and Dean both put on masks about what they want with women, Sam is the secretly horny one and Dean is a secret romantic. So the secret has to be something else. If it were to be his bisexuality, which given that his character is queercoded from the very beginning of season 1, isn’t implausible.

From what I’ve seen, there’s multiple ways they do this, sometimes they tell the actor the secret (that their character is queer) and the actor plays it that way. Sometimes they just tell them “okay your character has a secret” and don’t tell them what it is (see Jensen’s character, Eric on DOOL) and sometimes they don’t tell an actor at all and just write it that way.

Hypothetically if the secret was Dean’s bisexuality (I mean, Dean Moriarty, James Dean? very bisexual), and they hadn’t told Jensen, I wonder at what point he would’ve figured it out. Because as much as people like to rib him, he’s not stupid and he’s a very intentional actor (maybe that’s why him and kripke get along).

Anyways that ask got away from me lol, fascinating topic, it’s fun to still be learning things about the show 4 years after it ended.

That IS an interesting question... Linking to the posts that likely prompted it. I would bet that he knew it was part of the DNA of Dean that he was not straight. I think Jensen knew who Dean was named after, and probably knew or was told it would always be subtext, and also that Dean was closeted, so...not admitting it to himself. How could he in that family? I think he knew the character backstory and what the writers were working from.

We know Jensen doesn't read scripts too far ahead so that he isn't too influenced by what is coming and can react to Dean's moment cleanly, so...If I had to guess, he knew it was in there, but bisexuals are able to blend and play straight. But, I think he knew, because otherwise, why that face when Sam clocks him for being butch and over-compensating? Why his full clown approach to tropey women? Why do they so obviously contrast that to how Dean treats women who aren't performing femininity as hard as he is masc-ing? Why say Dean is a 'promiscuous guy' when he demonstrably isn't? Wherefore Jensen's 'who knows how Dean scares up money' headcanon? Wherefore A LOT of things, honestly.

And, let me just add that nothing I have ever heard or heard tell of Jensen saying actually contradicts this if you realize that what he does is basically refuse to comment on anything that has not been explicitly shown on the TV screen. So, someone point blank asks him: do you play Dean as queer? And Jensen says No. Ok. Yeah. Dean is not ready to admit that to himself and Dean's vessel plays him straight.

If he elaborates, hesitates or prevaricates AT ALL, then suddenly Dean is queer, and the secret character note is no more, and it would blow the ability to let that thread of Dean's story develop in response to events in the narrative. So...

I mean, I'm only guessing, but that's my guess.

[bigmouthlass]

20 Fanfic Author Questions

Dreamer, thy wish is my vague suggestion that'll keep me up at night. Find my AO3 archive here. I haven't posted my full backfile on Tumblr yet . . . it's on my to-do list!

1.  How many works on AO3?

48

2.  Total AO3 word count?

408,047

3.  Top 5 fics by kudos?

'Double Booked,' 'Calling A Professional,' 'Housekeeping,' 'A Strange Detour,' and 'Training Films.'

4.  What fandoms do you write for?

Primarily Supernatural, plus a few of Jensen Ackles's post-Supernatural projects.  I used to write for Star Wars and Buffy the Vampire Slayer, but those were the pre-AO3 days and the fics were lost to the Internet ether.  I shipped Buffy/Giles, so if you catch me talking shit about controversial ships, remind me I got no room to talk.

5.  Do you respond to comments?

Yes!  Yes, every time.  Even if all it is, is a smootch and a thank you.

6.  Angstiest ending?

'A Borrowed Life.'  A S6 canon divergence which does not end in a good place.  Full of Broken Thoughts.  A S9 canon divergence which does not end in a good place.  Make It Do (Or Do Without).  A S10 canon divergence which does not end in a good place.  Supernatural has a bad habit of wandering off and not ending in good places.

7.  Fic with the happiest ending?

'The Professional.'  Dean's mate and wife just told him she's pregnant.  Because God damn it, Dean should have an ending in a comfortable and cared for old age surrounded by family who loves him.

8.  Do you get hate?

I haven't yet.  Impatience is as bad as it's gotten.  So far.

9.  Do you write smut?

Uh . . . (a higher-than-clouds naked Castiel wanders by, followed by Jellot the pygmy goat) . . . yes?

10.  Do you write crossovers?

I can conceptualize crossovers.  I even started on a Werewolf the Apocalypse one, but that's unfortunately dead in the water due to flawed concept that's going to require a 90% teardown to fix.

11.  Ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of.  If anyone catches it, please tell me ASAP.

12.  Have you ever had a fic translated?

No.  I have had a couple narrated, by the amazing and wonderful @talltalesandbedtimestories

13.  Have you ever co-written a fic?

No.  I've had the honor and priviledge of contributing to some work by @thoughtslikeaminefield, and some real world published novels by a good friend, Emmy Jackson.  Check it out-- Empty Cradle: The Untimely Death Of Corey Sanderson

14.  All time favorite ship?

I don't have a particular favorite.  Destiel and Wincest don't speak to me the way they do to some people-- Dean's not gay, y'all, he's just not.  Who he should've ended up with in canon?  Oh Donna.  They'd've made a deeply happy couple, provided there's a therapist on speed-dial and Dean sobered up at some point.

15.  WIPs you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

More than I can conveniently count.  There's the AU where Dean's a Viking, another AU where Soldier Boy takes a hostage escaping cross-country, an Omegaverse fantasy piece where Dean's taken as a prize of war . . . the biggest suspect is The Days Of High Adventure, I'm simply stuck on the next plot point.

16.  Writing strengths?

Uh . . . an obsession with backstory and a too-cute turn of phrase?

17.  Writing weaknesses?

I fall in love with aforementioned too-cute turns of phrase and recycle them a lot.  I have a hard time juggling ensembles.  Characterizations without resorting to cliches.  Inconsistant output.  Inability to take input-- I don't use a beta reader.

18.  Thoughts on mixed language dialogue?

I think it can be obstructive if overused.  On the other hand, sometimes we're not supposed to know right off the bat what's being said, as a way to communicate a character's stepping out of the usual and customary.

19.  First fandom you wrote for?

(blushes)  Rainbrow Brite.  I was six.

20.  Favorite fic you've ever written?

I love all my awful, wonderful children.  Put a gun to my head and I'm most proud of 'Man Of Constant Sorrow,' a 'The Boys' post S3 canon divergence fic. That one took a lot of time and attention, and the feedback I got was awesome.

Dreamer's already tagged everyone I could think to tag, so if you haven't been tagged, consider yourself tagged.  Add to the lexicon.