#now im in a shitty mood

[funshinebf]

hate when i go to refresh the vashwood ao3 and all the newest fics are fucking disgusting. i hate people so much sometimes

[birdblorbo]

I cannot express my hatred for the famous Reddie fanfic nickname for Richie that is ‘Chee’. I can’t even explain why but i hate it. I think it’s cause it was started when infantilizing and feminizing Eddie was a big thing. Aka the pastel uwu skirts Eddie x bad boy always smoking Richie.

Anyways I vote to let that nickname die. Thank you.

[kendallroysmethpipe]

Everything is pissing me off

[andyridgeley]

getting work news that's presented like it's amazing but it's not and you just gotta

[altruistic-meme]

OUGHHH I FOROGR

[meaningtotellyou]

[wizardnuke]

hhbh

[joelletwo]

crying and sobbing when i have to talk to first-time fish owners and gently corral them into the least murdery setup i can while an experienced fish regular waits for me to be done so i can help them and is hearing every word i tell the first customer

[aggressionbread]

walking around and looking at cosplays / showing off my own used to be my favorite con activity like a decade ago, but the con i go to blew up in popularity and also changed venues, and now the whole convention center is like shoulder to shoulder busy all weekend and my bf has to pull me through the crowds so i don't just get stuck in a sea of people

[hella1975]

‘you’re all i got, cousin’ crying over richie of all people. can this day get any worse

[butchviking]

could u describe your feelings about Cheerard

ogh man. i am like always going off about this 2 people but u put me on the spot like that i get scared. um.

well. first of all she represents freedom 2 me. gerard has clearly always been kind of a feminine dude, "i was a girl to a lot of people growing up" "i have always identified a fair amount with the female gender" "masculinity has always made me feel like it wasnt right for me".. he expressed this 2 some degree w stage looks, w all the makeup & everything, and sure mcr have always had adoring fans but he also very much has always always been called a fag mcr have always all been called fags on the regular people have not always been kind. and hesitant alien era he was clearly going thru a lot and thinking about a lot. and from that angle it just meant the world to see him like. openly crossdress in the public eye for the first time (we know he's crossdressed before but never in the public eye u know?) and look so HAPPY. with his friends who support him. and u could feel the love u could see it u could almost hold it in ur hands. that was true of the whole tour ofc but it made me wail and cry seeing his buddies giving him a hug and everyone cheering and loving and supporting him. as a gnc person who has also gone thru Gender Issues. and the fact that he was doing it all at 45 with grey hairs and wrinkles and sinewy middle-aged-man legs. there is a future u know. there is a future. and theres happiness there. and he just looked like he was having so much fun and not giving a fuck.. again, vibe of the whole tour, but it was so special 2 see him dancing and jumping and twirling..

also. hm. hard to know how to phrase this one without just copying out a previously written essay. as a woman, who also was once a girl, feminity is something that has often been forced on me. the world has tried to make it a prison for me and i have chewed through the bars kicking and screaming. and over the years ive stubbornly gone very much the other way and eschewed anything that could b considered feminine and viewed all things feminine as evil and as a cage. bc thats what that was to me. but the thing is that not everything deemed feminine is necessarily bad. ive avoided gentleness and vulnerability as much as ive avoided superficial aesthetic markers of femininity like skirts and pink and whatever. (and i have lost some kindness but i was a girl too and you were just like me and i was just like you..) and. hm. you know that thing transmascs sometimes say about looking at transwomen and being like "i forgot that womanhood could be enjoyed i forgot that it isnt the burden to everyone that it was to me"? well obviously i dont agree with that. but as far as feminity rather than womanhood i think thats a fair parallel for how i feel about gerard way. there are things i have run from that i see him enjoy and it makes me see them a different way. and it makes me see that it doesn't have to be a prison and by god i do not have to move myself from one cage to another. i'll never be an aesthetically feminine person it's just not who i am or what i enjoy.. and dresses and skirts are superficial things.. but him doing his silly little twirls in his silly little cheerleader dress is a very visual representation of something more. its very symbolic 2 me. and i'll also never be exceptionally feminine in my behaviours or personality either and that's not a bad thing its who i am and im proud of who i am. sometimes anyway. but. there are traits i could do with letting in. that have been hard for me to let in. he/she (that is gerard/cheerard fjdksk gerard is a he hes a real human man but cheerard is a symbol a concept a character and she's a she to me. sorry i dont make the rules my brain does) is a representation of all of this 2 me.

all of this 2 say gender is fake and u can do what u want and u just have to be yourself and be what u want 2 be and be what makes u happy and what brings love and joy. and u dont have to sit in a hole about it u dont have 2 write emily or drugstore perfume u dont have to wish u could bring her back from the dead or whatever. sometimes u just gotta wear a silly little cheerleader dress and go have fun. metaphor but also very real 2 me i WILL be buying a custom made cheerard dress and it will probably b the only dress i'll ever wear in my adult life fjfkkdj

[puzzlekinq]

cant sleep because im seething with anger

[waheedawolf]

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[jujulebee]

hmm back reading was a mistake LMAO

[fagmegumi]

THEY FUCKING CANCELED TBOYS CLUB LMAOOOOOOOOO

[mxlooker]

thinking about romantic love just. ugh. idk. it hurts ? not even because of the break up. idc about his stupid ass. im just frustrated that this shit happens every time i try and put myself out there. and i know i'm not the only one, but damn it sucks. every time i think "maybe this could be it. maybe i can let my walls down and things'll be okay." and then they do stupid shit and ruin everything.