#obvs my current pcs

[andromedasummer]

coming up with four bg3 ocs to be in a party together in my mind. i love my girls. they live in my head.

[demacianpuppet]

Trying to list a few things I got done despite feeling so shitty today. Wrote 300 words for my Jayvik Big Bang and actually listened two CDs of my ever big "to-listen" pile. Also checked things for my trip next week to Dokomi (and watching Cats for the third time).

[sleepdeprivedsurgeon]

oh my god please tell us about your girldad and his relationship to a cannibalistic house in the pnw bc that sounds so directly up my alley i LOVE pnw horror as someone from there. southern gothic this southern gothic that lets talk about when youre so far in the woods no one could hear you scream and the forest feels like it's closing in on you and was that branch snapping a deer or something else through the fog and the old houses creaking under mildew and rot.. yeah sorry anyway please do tell us. if you're willing to. obvs

first of all LITERALLY PNW GOTHIC IS THE MOST UNDERRATED HORROR/AMERICANA GENRE. the more i talk to my friends from the south and especially Appalachia the more i'm like wow we are the same just one of us has a lot more fog and our white people experience slightly different flavors of spiritual psychosis. twin peaks and gravity falls are documentaries to me. look at these pictures from my camera roll

ANYWAY Alan was originally an NPC for a high school campaign where i played a 14 year old sharpshooter who realized he was gay because of Humphrey Bogart, but then my bestie let me play him in the sequel game and i got a little too crazy about him. he was a cop in the 70s and then he got recruited to work for this setting's version of the X files with a team of 2 other people (the previously mentioned t4t4t psychosexual throuple). eventually they get sent out to yakima WA to investigate a magic occurrence and said occurrence is an eldritch monster that's taken over a house in the woods hermit-crab style. it eats Alan and one of his partners, but the organization they work for is only able to revive Alan via magic. they do not tell Alan that he died and he doesn't find out until like 35 years later in the final arc of the campaign <3 also the house did successfully eat one of his legs.

he adopted one of the PCs of the high school campaign along with her like,,, magic mirrorverse twin? and he is just okay at being a dad but he loves it so much. he reconnected with his other partner during the campaign and they've been having a beautiful transsexual middle aged romance. uhh what else. he's ex-catholic and he has a full back tattoo of Saint Lucy. he ran a semifamous paranormal blog in the 90s. he's a movie nerd. his mom tried to have him exorcised. he has a dog named Buttercup. he smokes weed every night. his current best friend is a 20something werewolf who's trying out they/them pronouns. i think about him once a day and when i don't i start feeling nauseous.

[swallowtailed]

palisade 50 / finalisade pt. 5

structure thoughts

okay, i have a lot of thoughts re structure this week. i had these last ep too, but i wanted to give it another episode to see how a few things shook out, because fatt tends to move quite slowly in that way. (also i had just gotten cursed with dawn work and had no brainroom for real thoughts.) i do still think there's room for some of these things to develop, and fatt tends to hang together much better in retrospect. but this is my read right now.

the reintroduction of cas'alear & co: i am content to wait a bit for some interaction with them or some explanation of why they're here, because palisade is currently being forced through seven separate funnels and a brand new problem won't fit somewhere instantly. that said. bro we better find out what's up. they're physically on the blue channel, that can't just get handwaved

and re material circumstances of blue channel & crew--to my eye the dice valuation of relationships is causing some real siloing off of characters and storylines. which is really unfortunate because the bonds between the crew were a huge strength of palisade and it just feels like an oversight to miss that in the finalisade. (this is also a factor of not doing a ton of rp in this game. one thing i'm really missing is bringing the misfortune options into the result of a scene.)

and on a similar note, i really liked august's scene with righteousness, but it could've been even better if palisade had engaged more with delegate characters and what it means to be a delegate throughout the season. instead this & a bunch of other thematic threads are being advanced way more actively than before now that it's the finalisade, which feels kind of hollow.

i also really wish eclectic was still around. having had a leap scene, i've solidly come down that it was a bad narrative decision to kill eclectic. introducing a new (to the season) character in the middle of the finalisade, on top of a bunch of other new/er pcs, was always gonna be awkward, and leap doesn't work here. his goal, to take kesh for every last cent, has a very similar problem to clem's--kesh isn't there. which is less of a direct issue when the end goal is just "steal", but it's still a goal from a partizan paradigm, not a palisade one. you know? like, leap's fixated on kesh and kesh is a shrinking speck on a planet with new and different problems.

also ideally leap's reintroduction would create contrast for the ways brnine and thisbe have changed since partizan. maybe we will get to that later.

hey i actually think talking about a justice system would be extremely relevant given how many characters have goals in that direction?

i think overall my sense is that finalisade feels disconnected from the rest of the season due to all the character changes and some rushed thematic work.

anyway obv this is fatt so there's every chance all of the above will be resolved by the end of finalisade but from here i'm feeling a little doubtful

various other notes

jesset's gun arm! i stopped to wonder which it was back when that happened, but since it wasn't addressed i figured it was intended to be his prosthetic arm. wild.

the autonomy reveal... love when a reveal is so well seeded and rings so true that you have to be like "hang on was that not already canon". very cool. very perennial. miserable, also.

taking a minute though to sit and think about perennial and loneliness. also taking a minute to think the phrase "did perennial effectively utilize girl power in creating autonomy itself".

re cori's scene: the suggestion that perennial's consecration might change the flora and fauna really caught my ear. not beating the "millennium break is also colonizing palisade" allegations. it seems like they went another direction (just the sky changing?) but that rang really weird to me, especially when the colonial angle of gardens wrt the bilats had just been raised a few episodes ago.

very much appreciated janine taking the time to explicitly bring up the framing of unction's fate as something that would, in-universe, be a question and a conversation

[glitchyvoice]

hey guys, figured i should probably let you know i cant draw for the time being. i no longer have access to my phone which is what i used to draw and idk when/if ill be getting it back.

i have an art tablet but it doesnt work with my current pc, my hope is to eventually buy a laptop that it would work with but as of now i cant afford to do that so i wont be able to post any art or open commissions.

ive also been a lot less active on tumblr due to time restrictions getting worse and just generally being busy in the time i actually do have, though my schedule on that should clear up soon.

when it does i plan to stream more!! zenless zone zero is out and i wanna experience that for the first time on stream, ive been super excited to see what its like.

lastly, i wanted to apologize for not talking to people as much as i was. i do still want to interact as often as i can, but due to my current schedule i havent had nearly as much time to reach out. i dont get notifications when people message me on tumblr, so i miss some of them.

if you still want to chat (and are comfy with this. obv i dont want to force this on anyone) im a lot more likely to see messages on discord!! so feel free to add me or shoot me a dm over there. (my. user is the same as it is here. i use the same user on everything lmao) i always respond unless im physically unable to at the time. :))

and thats everything i wanted to say!! just wanted to give an update since ive been a lot less active here recently.

[rosykims]

please tell us more about your second worldstate!!! 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 i'm so intrigued by your ocs and i saw you mentioning playing amell currently

thank u for asking omg !!!! i have 3 worldstates loosely planned out which is a Lot for me since i have a tendency to get deeply (perhaps pathologically) attached to one worldstate and one pc lol. but im being brave abt it !

worldstate 1 is my canon worldstate, and the overarching theme for it is self-mythology/loss of personhood. i wont go into detail since i yap enough abt them already lol but i have elspeth (warrior f!cousland romancing alistair) cillian (a rogue m!hawke romancing anders) and ashara (a mage f!lavellan romancing/redeeming solas) all going into datv head first. my canon datv pc will likely be an elven archer f!rook romancing either davrin or taash hehe <3

second worldstate is all mages and obv thats the main theme i wanna have fun with

lucander amell (he/him, blood mage and spirit healer, romances morrigan) unassuming, distant, and polite and also kind of unnerving. used to being seen as a bad guy and is willing to act accordingly, but otherwise is a pretty decent, honorable man. does morrigan's ritual, kills the archdemon, leaves alistair a grey warden. doesn't become warden commander in awakening bc he goes into hiding from the wardens before they can ask too many questions abt the ritual and why hes still alive. he tracks down morrigan in the hopes of protecting her, and then stays with her and their son after that.

cecilia hawke (she/her, spirit healer mage, romances fenris) a blue!hawke who's sweet and motherly and soft spoken and has an enormous guilt complex/self hate for being a mage lol. carver joins the templars, and she later sides with them in act 3 and kills anders which </3 anyways. she survives here lies the abyss in dai and hopefully goes on to attend biweekly couples therapy with fenris <3

thomasin trevelyan (SOFTEST of launches on that name) (she/her, knight enchanter mage, romances cullen. maybe.) socially adept, politically cunning, with a love for the game and a desire to regain her place within the trevelyan family nobility. sides with the mages, doesn't drink from the well, negotiates a truce between celene/gaspard/briala, pardons the wardens, redeems solas, disbands the inquisition post trespasser. shes a good girl and she's got her head on straight!

might do a qunari f!rook mage to romance taash or davrin for datv! we'll see !

lastly my third worldstate places value on the eluvians so its very elfy or at least elf-adjacent. and also the lineage of ameridan > garahel > maherial and so on. i just think its neat . still VERY much underdeveloped tho so no names yet

f!mahariel, she/her, an archer who romances leliana (prev tamlen :c) who dies killing the archdemon

half elven f!hawke mage, romancing merrill!! she sides with the mages but probably still kills anders :( shaking my head in disgust so u can tell i do not approve of this choice ..........

an m!trevelyan warrior romancing ?????????????? IDK. cass maybe. this is going to be exclusively a 'piss off solas' speedrun so hes siding with the templars, putting gaspard on the throne, doing war crimes, etc. wont be redeeming him i fear </3

i hate to say it. i HATE to say it. but if there's a way for me to make a solasmancing rook for datv i Will find a way in this worldstate for the comedic effect of antagonizing my m!trev. even if its just thru headcanons exclusively lol

[lovevalley45]

decided that i’m gonna recreate character sheets for some of my PCs from scratch as a visual aid for my project on D&D and the obv choice are my current PC n my last PC

but it feels unfair putting them against each other bc one is an OP rogue who got to level 20 and the other is a cleric that i did not roll above a 13 for on any of her scores

[girltakovic]

time for everybody's favorite game: jaime waxes poetic about whether or not im transgender

so im less concerned with labels now that im a little older than i have been in the past but this shit is so confusing dawg. i always say that if i had been born ten years later i would have transitioned because i spent the first six or so years of my life believing wholeheartedly that i was a boy. but i eventually just kind of had to cave to the expectations that were set for me (interpersonally, at church, within my family, etc), and had a very very hardcore "not like other girls" phase to cope with that. when i got to high school i kinda gave that up and got really into makeup and fashion to try to make femininity "my own," and i still enjoy both of those things today but it's always felt very costume-y to me. like i don't wear makeup to feel like a "better version of myself" (to use substance parlance), i wear it to play dress up. to be something that *isnt* me. its me but its not. its caricature. its pastiche. i very rarely dress up in a way that isn't some kind of like. reference or something. maybe that's not the right word but my outward appearance is very intentionally constructed and not necessarily representative of the consciousness inside. dgmw dressing eclectically is very much a part of my personality and something that i enjoy doing, but it's performance at the end of the day.

but to switch gears a little i don't know if i want to be a man per se either. like ive never felt like a woman but idk about calling myself a man either. like my lesbianism is a huge part of my identity and i don't want to give that up for the sake of ideological cohesiveness. hang on sorry i just realized im describing the plot of stone butch blues. carry on.

but anyway i definitely want the respect that men are afforded both just in general and within my industry specifically (being a woman in a professional kitchen sucksssssss sometimes) but on the flip side would that be worth all the fuss? and idk about testosterone and all that bc i don't want to deal with the side effects quite honestly. but at the same time i hate being looked at as a "woman" and ogled and harassed and all that jazz. if i had it my way i'd be 6'2 and have no tits but alas i am on the surface a conventionally attractive skinny white woman. and i hate that. it disgusts me like genuinely. i know that makes me sound like a total cunt and like im fishing for compliments but im not. maybe im just too substance pilled but i feel like meat when im reminded of what i look like.

i think part of the disconnect im feeling comes from the fact that im intersex (turner syndrome nation rise) and i have all the indicators of womanhood but still other things about my body that point the other way. and identifying as nonbinary feels the most coherent to me but it just comes with so much societal baggage that it's just not worth it to me. like i HATE being they/themmed bc it feels like a pc way to say "what the fuck are you" and "you're just a girl who wants to be quirky." and obv i don't believe those things abt nonbinary people but i feel like that's what the current sentiment is from most people on the street.

ughhhhh anyway. i saw this image and it really made me think. like this is objectively silly but this is exactly how i feel.

but anyway it's 1:15 in the morning and my phone's about to die so i should go to bed BUT if you have any words of wisdom please feel free to share because i am in truth extremely jealous of the self actualization my trans friends and those on hrt have bc i am a pussy who hates going to the doctor and can't get out of their own head enough to decide if they even want that. but i think i might. if you read this far im sorry for the word vomit but thank you for reading anyway. mwah y buenas noches

[moonkitty]

anyone here know pc stuff? i really wanna upgrade my graphics card on my pc (pretty much any game that is semi powerful runs like shit now) and i have my current NVIDIA graphics info obv but i dont even know if the info itsself is good or bad. anyone here techy and can give advice or direct me somewhere that would help?

[pictureamoebae]

Omg i feel so stupid now lol.. thank you for helping! That seems to be the problem why DOF doesnt work for me in bg3 since i’ve only tried using the regular shaders like cinematic or adof.. i’m gonna try Otis shader and see!! I have another question tho, you said it can take long like 30min to render the picture - is that the case even if you chose to not hotsample too, or only when hotsampling? And in cutscenes etc when I wanna be quick with getting a specific shot or serveral, is that possible like can i screenshot serveral times after another immediately and it renders like 2-4 pictures then, or do i have to take one - let it render - before i can move on to take a new one? Hope that makes sense. I usually smash the screenshot button sometimes cause i dont want to miss a specific scene/shot. Or get several screenshots of like the same moment. Thank you so much anyway!!!

If you want to use IGCS DoF you have to be slow and considered.

Otis' website has instructions how to use it, make sure you read them carefully and you'll understand what's involved, but the tl;dr:

Basically, the way the DoF works is completely different to a DoF shader. It moves the camera very slightly over and over again and takes a temporary screenshot each time to slowly build up the final scene (all of those temporary screenshots will be deleted once it's done). This way it gets very accurate information about what's in the scene, which is why it produces such an excellent result.

You set up a shot, you go into the addons tab and choose IGCS, click start session, and the DoF controls will come up (make sure you have the IGCS DoF shader enabled first - that shader does nothing, but it's required for the addon to work).

Then you choose your bokeh strength, and you set up your focus. You have to be very, very precise with the focus. You choose a few other things, like the shape of the bokeh, and you choose the quality. (Those settings will carry over to next time, but you'll have to set up your focus again.)

The quality is what determines how long the shot will take to render. It will tell you at the bottom how many pictures it will take. The higher the quality you choose, the more of those temporary screenshots it needs to take to get more accurate information and a better image quality. Imagine pressing the print screen key 1,000 times and how long that would take.

The lower your fps the longer it will take. If you have high fps it can fire off those screenshots nice and quick. If you have low fps each screenshot takes a bit longer. If you're hotsampling, you're going to have lower fps.

Because my PC is old, I have a quality that results in about 800 screenshots. When hotsampling and using RTGI etc that can take a long, long, long time to render.

Once the shot is rendered you take your own screenshot as normal, and then you end the session.

One thing, anon. You know you can pause cutscenes, yes? Any current dialogue animation may keep playing until that line has finished, but otherwise it will pause.

The thing about using premium tools from Otis and others, if you're just firing off cutscene screenshots hoping one will look okay you're never going to get the most out of them. They're designed for serious screenshooting (obv anyone can use them if they want). Taking your time to set up a shot, being precise about the composition, the lighting, the aspect ratio, the whole scene, is a lengthy process. I'm not especially great at composition, so my screenshots are only so-so, but I try very hard with each one, and it can take me an hour to get one I'm happy with (this is why I'm still in Act 2). Slowing down improves your skill.

[contessaxchaos]

Tag Game!

tagged by @solavellan--hell and @phoenixqueenwrites -- thank youuu!

Rules: tag 10 people you want to get to know better! (obvs only do this if u want to)

Last Song: Death is the Road to Awe (Clint Mansell, soundtrack to The Fountain). I have a 6-hr Spotify playlist of just instrumental music which I listen to to get me in my writing headspace.

Last Movie: Hit Man (2023) - it's Richard Linklater. I like his "Before" movies so I watched this. Before that, I watched Dune Part Two and was momentarily struck by a fever to write PaulxChani fanfic but I know if I did that, I wouldn't be able to finish my current project. It's better if I stick with one writing project at a time.

Last Book: The Fifth Season, N.K. Jemisin. I've already read the Broken Earth Trilogy years ago but I leafed through it recently to analyze the prose and the narrative voice.

Last TV Show: Law & Order SVU because it can't influence my Solavellan brainrot lol

Sweet, Savory, or Spicy: Sweet!

Relationship Status: single

Last Thing I Googled: on my pc: "fruit cake"; on my phone: "predestination" (just to double-check the meaning)

Looking Forward To: the next chapter, always!

Current Obsessions: my Solavellan fanfic; learning what I can from this writing project before I return to my own original scifi work; Solavellan; DanDaDan; starting my own business; earl grey tea; and Project Hospital and Project Highrise (management games are zen to me--cozy AND stressful at the same time lol).

Tagging my mutuals @blightbright, @pixelhilma, and @fadeboundheart!

[krmzyn]

What I’m manifesting!!

(Note: I’m going to link my successes onto these as I go! This isn’t a script, more like a little checklist and motivation ^u^)

(Double note: Most of these aren’t really like the massive kinda stuff you see on most of manifesting tumblr, just stuff that I want/ would make my life easier!)

(Last note: These aren’t in any order.)

── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ─

More interesting games!!

I haven’t really been able to find many cool games recently, and I’m getting kinda bored lol. Mostly roblox but I’m not opposed to standalone games! (Cough cough a remake of the new mw3 bc it SUCKED 😇).

Slightly altered face!

Just kinda different face proportions, nothing big just some little edits. Also less acne because it’s annoying 😋👍

Gaming laptop and/or pc!

Kinda self explanatory. My laptop atm (as much as i love her) cant rlly run most games well sosoooo ya!)

Good grades and general academic success

Again, self explanatory. I’m doing pretty alright in school but I kinda just wanna boost it a lil

Better luck

I have a stupid little habit of doing stupid little things so yep. Also, it’s better luck. Duh /lh

Generally just stuff I like! (1, 2)

Mostly more like. ‘Surprise’ stuff so i stress less about surprises, but also just cute stuff!

Bigger and differently decorated room

Mine’s a little small for me atm and not really my style as much now

Closer friends & interesting convos (1)

Also extending to not having to reach out as much bc. I’m bad at it 💟

More financial stability and abundance

Speaks for itself 💟

Shifting whenever I want

Again. Duh /lh

Higher pain tolerance

Mines honestly really bad 😭 Like I’m writhing on the floor after leaning my back in the wrong direction like. It is not that big a deal /j

More motivation in general (1)

Depression is folding me rn so. Here we go

A different artstyle! (1)

I love my current one, but I wanna explore more realism and also like cutesy/chibi stuff if that makes sense.

Being less tired

Tbh it’s mostly bc my sleep schedule is horrible but still. Its annoying ��

Less anxiety / more support (1)

As usual, self explanatory. Mine has rlly sucked lately so I wanna improve on that obvs. From like social anxiety to general ect ect.

More stable body image and body generally

My brain hates me so. No <3

Money!

Yup. Just general money.

More fun/exciting experiences! (1)

My mental health issues and general financial state hasn’t really given me much wiggle room with this kinda stuff, so I wanna experience it now while I still can :D

A good job/career

Def a more long-term thing, but obvs I’m gonna have it.

Less greasy hair

Simple one. It’s not that bad or anything, I just don’t really want to wash it as much.

No allergies

Yup. They’re annoying and I don’t want em

A cat!

I love cats.

── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ─

Began manifesting: 17/12/2023

[bonkmp3]

got my new work pc last week and obvs i logged onto tumblr but i couldnt remember my current xkit password and only managed to log into an old version and im jsut now realisign all the old auto tags are still on it so embarrassing to see my old queue tags

[bloodpotency]

answers under da cut

My favorite clan personally is nosferatu, both as npcs in my games and as a (theoretical) player. A close second is ventrue who I think are funny as hell and their clan relationship dynamics are fun for me to explore

Tbh idk who I would be embraced into... I don't think I fit most of the qualifications each clan generally has for childer XD and lately I've been going to bed at like 8 pm lol

Id love to be IN a vampire or mage game one day, but idk how soon that'll happen cuz I'm the only one dming wod for my irls but obvs I'd be willing to do an online one on my own if the scheduling worked out amazingly :P I have so many ideas for PCs and I have yet had the only option to make them npcs even tho sometimes I feel like they'd be better if the story was "about" them

I think more ppl should think about/include mage lore in their games even though they don't involve mages at all. I think it just makes the world make more sense and makes including other game monsters smoother if you think about how flexible reality is... like mage taught me to not ever stress about things making "sense" in a world construction sense and to instead focus on keeping the themes consistent no matter how large or small the situations I'm writing about

I also agree touchstones should be more of a horror focus. Over the course of my irl game I've learned how critically important it is to make touchstones directly involved with the current narrative and that they should be built from the start to do that. My hunter game with the same group of irls has several of the PCs share the same touchstones, which makes it easier to get them involved with each other and get invested in the same story beat involving them. My vampire game, I still am struggling with the consequences of my ignorance at session zero and have to work overtime to make everyone have a good reason to be working together! (That's not to say wildly different ppl with different social circles can't willingly be involved with each other, it's just harder and I didn't give them a solid reason to start with so I've had to improvise)

I'm love world of darkness ! Talk to me about it. Give DMing advice. Idk. I'm very nice and smart and cool

[seafleece]

“son, i am older than your bones” pauper’s grave, the first pc i actually got to play!! in @for-lonely-giants ‘s campaign, they’re a tiefling druid lost in a swamp some five hundred years ago as a child and just woke up. they don’t remember their name or just about anything from their previous life, they’re totally blind and kinda sorta undead, and they’ve got a bunch of plant life growing on them that blooms into little red flowers when they’re angry. feat. my favorite thing i got to say during our session when the other tief in the party joked about eating them first if we starved

[residentevil2remake]

still waiting on capcom to release a classic RE collection or something...