#ok i tried to like. put it in sections... at the very least...

[humanmorph]

palisade 22. kind of a mess of notes about that haunted moon

NOTES

"Mosaic Gyratory"

gravity changes ("like the wind changes direction", uneasy/sickening feeling. I only just realized this makes sense re: Austin talking about the tides rising when the Chimera's Lantern did [????] last time to help people fight off the Divine Principality. that is how those work)

murals of divines (immediately thought of the divine fleet. i just don't know how it fits if at all???. i guess the question would be divine fleet from when? from when (partial) palisade & co left?)

animal components in the structure (next to ceramic etc. there's also normal stuff): bone, vast insect shells (the insect shells made me think of signet&belgard immediately but its not like they have the. whats the word. theyre not the only ones that can be buglike or have buglike stuff.)

teeth beasts. teeth instead of muscle or flesh. teeth… (hm. hm. hm. yeah i dont know. hm. btw when i read 'description of teeth' in the content warnings i was a bit puzzled by it but then i went aahhhh i see when these things showed up.)

blue-ish glow / white-orange glow (2 different glows in different directions = different sources? Also i only remember austin describing the orange glow when talking about Chimera's Lantern weirdness, but not the blue one. Possible the blue is new/related to Nideo being there now?)

THOUGHTS re: mural of divines

i was trying to find something twilight mirage and specifically signet related but i keep just reading bits of transcripts and going man tm was so fucking good huh

anyways i found it and i thought of…. the crypt of the order from signets playbook. now. in retrospect im actually fairly sure it just came to mind because sylvi earlier in the ep mentioned the roman saints as a reference for coris new mech + the divine fleet connection i made (it's the murals. in my head that's just. it has Got to be related.) = crypt of dead excerpts & their things (the scene I'm talking about in TM18 is honestly one that makes me really sad about signet. man. signet). I don't know...

WHAT'S UP WITH THIS THEN

it cant just be A Divine. that's not it. But the way... it's talked about Sounds so. Divine Influence. does it not?

"It’s often about letting people determine the best versions of themselves. People are— the warriors of the moon are kind of described as having their natural capabilities enhanced. There’s a lot of verbiage that combines expression, like the idea of self expression and becoming a version of yourself that you want to be, with a sort of epic heroism."

"It gave them— the way that it’s written about here, the way that Crystal Palace saw it was that these are people who were raised with the light of justice and were raised as defenders against an empire vast in the future. They were trying to— they’re people who were trying to prune something that would take over, that would grow over the galaxy." (PAL15: Upon Our Grace Pt.2) (Honestly interesting to bring that up there as a metaphor, since we have… you know, it's not a field it's a garden (TM), and now in PALISADE: "I think one of the new Gur Sevraq’s most famous sermons is about how the galaxy in general, and Palisade specifically, isn't meant to be a jungle, or an overgrown field, it's meant to be a garden, you know? It's well-groomed, it's supposed to be maintained. You're supposed to attend to the world." (PAL01: Into The World Pt. 1) that just as an aside though. i noticed it and wanted to note it.)

oh my god the divine cycle timeline is so fucked i cannot make sense of it once i try to think about details i just cant.hell on earth 6 wiki pages and 9 transcripts open. i keep getting shit confused "Everything that has happened before will happen again." i fucking know right sorry i was trying to find Divine Fleet info from PRE-twilight mirage. and ended up just looking up the partial palisade stuff, which, they left when under attack from the NEH. ok. I just don't know... at what point did Palisade "die"... When did the Divines turn into Afflictions (they HAVE NEH names, so... after or during a time when the NEH was attacking Palisade? does this make sense?)? I'm lost. I got lost. Why am I asking myself this again. OH RIGHT

post by swallowtailed i just saw bc i looked up chimeras lantern on here talked about the moon being part of the planet (there's quite a big part missing up with that cauldron). I guess in my mind... a big part of the planet being blown(?) off or otherwise removed somehow COULD very well be related to a divine turned living planet dying. right? post also mentioned it being a tomb for his excerpt which funnily enough lines up with my crypt thought from earlier. and it IS a question on what happened to those god i just wanna know whats up with the afflictions!!!! not what this post is about though so im stopping.

it's all just so. i think it's in an episode without transcript yet and i don't feel like hunting for it but when austin implied that whatever is happening with the moon is as or more important for the world as. the WORLD BLOWING UP? its haunting me

[bloodibambiidoll]

ok so hear me out. rafe and weird!girl get into an argument and rafe calls her weird or says something about her being normal for once and my girl gets all upset as she should.

Nonnie, are you in my walls? I’m very much having a day like this. This is heavily based on the day I had today and writing it made me feel sm better. Slight angst. Fluff. 1.8K words. NO MINORS!! (Note: weird!girl is autistic coded bc I am autistic)

You were extremely overwhelmed. It feels like every single thing is out to get you today. Before you and Rafe left to go on your first grocery shopping trip since you moved in together you got into a bit of a disagreement over the list. You are extremely picky. You have set safe foods that you like to stick to and you don’t like to stray from them. But Rafe on the other hand would eat almost anything. He couldn’t wrap his mind around the fact that you wanted to live off of freezer waffles and chicken nuggets when he hired a professional chef for the two of you.

“Baby, why would I buy you the cheap freezer shit when I can have it made from scratch all fancy n shit?” It wasn’t about the price, you know that. It was just that Rafe wanted you to have the best of everything he could possibly give you and sometimes you just wanted the simpler things. Something that he’s still trying to understand.

“It’s just… I don’t want that. I want the ones from the store. That I always get. The ones I like.” Your lips were formed into a pout as you looked down at your lap and played with the rings on your fingers.

“Aight, Bats, if that’s what you want.” He shrugged and kissed your forehead before leaving you to finish getting ready. It was what you wanted. But you could tell it wasn’t what he wanted so you felt bad. You didn't want to be an inconvenience.

So after that you got in your head that you were too much for him. You spent the entire card ride to the grocery store thinking about how a normal girl wouldn’t want specific foods. A normal girl would be more than happy to have a personal chef make them anything and everything they wanted. A normal girl would be able to go to those fancy restaurants Rafe likes because she’d actually like anything on the menu. He tried to take you once and you spent the entire meal picking at your plate of chicken and veggies, so he never tried again settling to go places that had things you actually liked.

Then at the store you were so in your head that if you hadn’t made a list you probably wouldn’t have gotten a single thing you wanted. You couldn’t stop feeling like you were a burden to him because you needed him to buy you an entirely different grocery list from his own. You kept trying to put things back. Or tell him you didn’t need things that you did, in fact, need. You could tell Rafe was getting frustrated with you and it only made you want to shut down even more.

It didn’t help that the grocery store was easily one of your least favorite places. The lighting was awful. There were always so many people everywhere not looking where they’re going. The freezer section was always so cold that you spent that entire section of the shopping trip practically shaking. It was so goddamn loud. People talking. Kids crying. The squeaking of the old grocery cart wheels. So going there when you were already feeling overwhelmed was a recipe for disaster.

You fully lost it when you were checking out. The cart was extremely disorganized because you were too checked out to keep it in order the entire trip. The store you were at had it so you bagged your own groceries so the fact that the cart was a complete disaster made bagging them incredibly difficult. You were struggling to keep up with the cashier and also bag the groceries efficiently. He kept pushing the conveyor belt button, rolling the groceries that you haven’t bagged yet to pile up on top of each other at the end of it. The cart was full of bags and you weren’t even half done so you had to run and grab another one, only letting the pile grow further.

Rafe bought a case of beer and it the midst of you trying to frantically bag everything in a timely manner the cashier also asked you for your I.D. Which only frustrates you more. You don’t even drink beer. And it made you have to pause bagging again to dig in your purse. The cashier kept looking from the card to you and back again, like he thought it was fake.

“I know I look nothing like that, that was 7 years ago.” You didn’t mean to sound snippy, but you were pretty much at your limit.

“Baby, it’s fine, he’s just lookin’ for the date.” Rafe shot you a look and it only pissed you off more.

“Well he’s looking at it like it’s fake or some shit!” You scoffed as you slammed a full bag into the cart. Which only earned you another look from Rafe.

On the way home he hardly talked to you, instead he decided to blast trap music when you were clearly already overstimulated so you decided to put your headphones on and drown him out.

“Bats, the fuck is going on with you today, huh?” Rafe is towering over you the minute you enter the kitchen, backing you up against the counter.

“I just don’t like the grocery store. And you made me feel bad about the food. And everything was just so loud in there. And I felt like you hardly talked to me the entire time. I’ve felt like an inconvenience to you all day!” You snap at him as you stomp your foot in frustration, glaring up at him.

“All we did was go to the fuckin’ store. You’re seriously that worked up over it?” Rafe scoffs, running a hand through his hair.

“Yes! I am! The grocery store is extremely stressful for me and you’re not being considerate of that!!”

“That’s ridiculous, people go to the grocery store every day. It’s not a big deal. I don’t know why you can’t just be fuckin’ normal sometimes.” Rafe throws his hands up, letting them fall against his thighs with a smack. The minute the words leave his mouth your bottom lip starts to quiver as tears brim your eyes. And he knows he fucked up. Immediately he knows he fucked up.

“You know what? Why don’t you go find a normal girlfriend then!?” You push against his chest, running past him to your shared bedroom. You slam the door behind you, sliding down it as the tears in your eyes begin to spill down your cheeks. You knew it.

“Baby…” Rafe’s voice travels through the thick wood as he lightly taps on it. “ I’m sorry… that was- I shouldn’t have- Bats, can you open the door, please?”

“No. Go away.” You whimper as you curl further into yourself against the door.

“Baby girl, please? Just wanna talk. Lemme see you.” He turns the knob, pushing on the door lightly causing you to shift forward slightly. “C’mon, get away from the door, let me in.”

“Why don’t you go find a normal girl to talk to.” You snap at him before trying to push back against the wood but he’s so much stronger than you that it doesn’t even budge. Rafe shoves his foot into the crack of the door, pushing it until he can slip through. It slams shut behind him from your weight, causing you to yelp. He drops to his knees in front of you, taking your face in his hands. “Baby, look at me.”

“No.” You shake your head, subconsciously nuzzling into his touch. Your lips are quivering so bad your teeth are chattering as tears flow down your cheeks and Rafe kind of wants to kick his own ass.

“Listen I- I shouldn’t have said that, okay? I didn’t - fuck baby, I didn’t mean that shit. I was just frustrated. Doesn’t make it okay though, never wanna make my girl cry.” Rafe runs his thumbs down the apples of your cheeks, wiping away the salty tears that continue to fall. “I think I’ve gotten pretty damn good about knowing how you work. But with us living together now there's gonna be new shit that I’m gonna have to pick up on. I’m so sorry princess.”

“I just - I - just wanna be enough for you. Don’t wanna be a burden.” Your body tries to curl in on itself even more but Rafe doesn’t let it, he grips onto your hips and pulls you into his lap. He wraps his strong arms around you as he starts to rock you back and forth.

“Want you to listen to me baby, aight?” He takes your jaw in his hand, tilting your head towards his to get you to look at him. When you do it nearly cracks his heart. He hates that he made you feel like everyone else always has. “I never should’ve fucking said that shit. I didn’t mean it. Not even a little bit. I wouldn’t change a single thing about you, okay? I fuckin’ love you and all your weird little shit. Your weird little shit just makes me love you more. I’ve never known anyone like you. You’ve taught me so much. I guess I’ve just still got some shit to learn. But I’m trying, Bats. I’ll never stop trying.”

“You really mean it?” You sniffle as you look up at him through your teary eyes and Rafe has never felt more bad than he does at this moment. If he saw anybody else making you cry like this they would be so fucked and here he is, doing it.

“Of course I fuckin’ mean that shit, baby girl. I’m sorry for losing my patience with you today. I never, ever, wanna hurt you. Never wanna make you feel like all these other douchebags on the island do. Kind of want to run them all over, including myself right now.” Rafe lets out a dry chuckle when he sees the corner of your lips tilt up slightly. His large hand runs down the back of your head, smoothing down your hair as he continues to rock the both of you. “You know I love you more than anything, right?”

“It’s okay, Rafey. I know I can be too much sometimes. But I do know that you love me.” And you do. Especially right now. Rafe never opens up to you like this. And you kind of want to blow him right now.

“Hey, you aren’t too much, aight? Don’t ever let anyone make you feel that way. Including me, put my ass in check baby. God knows I need it.” He smiles down at you before leaning to place a gentle kiss on your lips. “Want me to put some nuggets in the air fryer for you and we can watch that movie you’ve been trying to get me to watch?”

“Mhm, that sounds perfect daddy.”

All things Rafe & his weird!girl here

[systematic-breakdown]

Simply Plural & Solo Server Organization Assistance

I noticed another uptick in systems requesting help organizing their simply plural. So that's what this post is. Featuring how we organize our system server on Revolt/Discord because it's safer for us than downloading an explicitly system-focused app. We don't talk about aesthetic or whatever since our Simply Plural is a wreck. If you're just looking for aesthetic inspiration sorry but you should go elsewhere. Also we're in the middle of remodeling so ignore the mess. Pictures and stuff below.

Ok I'm gonna start with Simply Plural.

We started by organizing based on system. Side systems aren't included in the main system category cuz why would they be.

The "Update" section has profiles that Anna or another archivist/manager wants to look at and profiles that alters haven't added to since making it.

Here's the inside of the main systems folder

"Age" is organized like this

"Littles" being 0-9, "Middles" being 10-12, "Teens" being 13-19, and "Adults" being 20+. Regressors can be any age but some of them asked for a section so they got one. We only really use the specific ages for parts who are stuck or who jump. Updating every alter who ages when they do is hard and not worth it when they can just tell us their age in the designated custom field.

"Extra" just has sections for dormant parts, integrated parts, and who the integrated parts went to. If we know who integrated into who, we have a custom field for specificity.

"Families & Special Groups" is for parts who are family members and parts who split off at the same time and are still together. The groups are usually in their own little bubble but there's no discernible effect on memories and memory sharing so we don't count them as a sub or side system.

"Formation Status" has 3 sub-sections for fragments, "in-betweens", and formed.

"Gender" has subsections for feminine alignment, masculine alignment, queer/GNC, and gender hoarders. Queer/GNC has subsections for any singular gender identity parts have listed that aren't exclusively feminine or masculine (e.g. nonbinary, agender, genderqueer, pangender). We tried to restrict it to "at least 3 parts have to experience this for it to be an official subsection" but we're pretty lenient about that. It gives parts trying to discover who they are or build themselves a little ground work at least.

"Interaction Status" has these subsections

You can probably figure that out on your own.

"Location" has subsections for various parts of our headspace where parts stay when they're not fronting.

Nutty added the "Name" section. He likes to alphabetize things and I guess our Simply Plural is no exception.

"Orientation" has subsections for romantic orientation, sexual orientation, and a section called "double down" which just means both orientations are the same (e.g. being biromantic and bisexual, being heteromantic and heterosexual). I think this is a messy way of doing this section, but I was outvoted.

"Preferred Language" has subsections for all the languages we or other parts know, knew, or have learned. We aren't fluent in much other than English, but there are parts who know a lot more than others in certain languages and that's really what this section is for.

"Religion" has more subsections than I thought but the division makes sense. Anyway you probably won't need to include this section unless parts have very different views on religion.

"Role" has a ton of subsections. Anna or whoever organized it tried narrowing it down. So "protectors" has subsections for aggressive, emotional, physical, preventative, sexual, social, and verbal. You probably won't need all that, but if it feels better having subsections for your subsections instead of putting specifics in your custom fields, to each their own. Lemme know if you guys want some role/function examples and how they operate in our system.

"Silly Groups" has subsections for silly groups. "Green Gang" consists of parts who have all set their profile color as green. "Freaks and Creeps" has parts who have a shared interest in supernatural and paranormal entities. I'm in "Gamers Anonymous" and we talk about video games and make fun of cishet CoD players. It's been really fun and Dr. Collins thinks it helps with integration and connection or something. So make silly groups. It's worth it I promise.

"Species" is for species. We got subsections for dead alters (like ghosts and Dacir and stuff), humans, nonhumans, objects, shapeshifters, voiders, and alters who don't know or don't feel like either. "Nonhumans" has subsections for different animals and anthros who identify as nonhuman.

"Subsystems" have subsystems. There aren't sections for roles since the roles are already established in other sections, but if the subsystem has roles specific to that subsystem, maybe put those roles in that section. That was a lot of S words. My bad.

Side systems have their own roles because they're not a part of the main system and it would be bad if the managers confused them and marked them dormant. But there's a similar process I think. We don't really have access to them so it's hard to tell if they even know about this stuff, but a couple of the side systems seem to have updated their profiles and groups so that's promising.

And here's how we do our Revolt.

We switched to Revolt after Discord announced their plan to switch from the current model - which is cool and good - to the stupid model - which is stupid and bad. Enshittification takes a while but so does transferring all of our stuff so at least we'll be ahead of it. Anyway Revolt is exactly like Discord but without the subscription and paid stuff so if you're using Discord this tutorial can still be helpful.

We have a server for the main system and servers for sub and side systems. Side systems are harder to communicate with — especially since there are presumably very few alters in the known side systems that know about this stuff (and care enough to look) — but this has made it way easier.

Anna started by putting the "Sysfo & General" category at the top. She thought it'd be easier for newbies if what they needed to see was where they opened up. I agree with this thought process.

"Read Me" is her introducing herself, introducing the server, and outlining the rules. Pretty simple - don't snoop, be respectful of boundaries and triggers, date and add context to body/irl pics, stuff like that.

"Roles" is describing alter roles and functions. Has basic roles like host, persecutor, gatekeeper and more system-specific roles like archivist, mimic, filters, and more.

"Innerworld Mapping" has pictures but it's more writing than I expected. Names places, puts pictures that relate to those places, and describes the layers and connections. A lot of fakes ("NPCs"?) listed there too which is nice when I go to clean out our Simply Plural. Parts get confused sometimes. I don't blame them. Fakes are confusing.

"Accounts" is where we keep account information. We put emails and usernames in without censoring but coded passwords so the only place we have those fully written out is in our real life journal.

"Recipes" is self explanatory.

"Body Pictures" is where we put pictures that are taken of our body. The rule for that section is that you're only supposed to put body pictures in there if multiple parts are fronting or if whoever's putting the pic in doesn't know who the fronter was. Other than that, Anna said that she wants the body pictures that specific parts take should go in their "Pictures" channel.

"Memes" section is for memes that we relate to but are specifically about our disorders or symptoms. "DID Pics" is for pictures that we relate to as a system but they aren't memes. Pretty dark place. I try to avoid it but I noticed some of the traumaholders really like it. I think that's concerning but it's none of my business.

"Shared Journal" is for communication or general logging.

"Example" category is a placeholder for the parts name. For dormant or integrated parts, we do this

Here's what Anna wrote for the example "Info" section

"Faceclaims" is self explanatory. "Front Tells" is self explanatory. "Triggers/Draws" are separated by message but are kept in the same channel.

Here's what she said about "Pictures" and "Videos"

Here's what she said about "Links"

And here's what she said about "Journal"

That's all from me if you have questions, need more advice, wanna check out our custom fields, or anything else leave it in the comments, mailbox, or reblogs and we'll get back to you 👍

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[adventurouslesly]

Pose

Logan howlett x fem reader

Word count: 2k

Summary: you decide to borrow Logan as a model for your clothing store

Small reminder: you have the same power as Logan but isn’t shown but is mentioned

Thanks to @thedenerts for the inspiration since they kept posting the 2014 photoshoot in the discord and I was like why not write something that Logan’s a model

After a couple of months of Logan proposing to you,you made the decision to take a break at the X-men mansion cause of Logan’s speech making you realize you do a lot for the X-men, which Logan supported you on that even though some of them tried to convince you to stay but you still visit the mansion at times cause you moved in Logan’s cabin.

2 years later

You had a random idea to make clothes and sell them online, which was very slow at first, but after a year you were able to buy a small store that you were able to afford, even though the store isn’t busy as you wish it be, but at least you’re getting customers.

You were due to take new photos of the clothes for your models, but most of them were busy with other companies, sick,or on vacation so you decided to grab Logan as your model, which took a lot of convincing to do this since he had to wake up early and just pose in front of the camera he would rather teach his history class during his day off.

You unlocked your store with the key and gets in Logan takes a look around while you greeted the employees Logan stopped at a section of clothes. “So this is where the flannels are?” Logan questions and looks at small picture display that someone was posing with the flannel, you walk towards him and he’s wearing his famous red and brown strip flannel shirt with jeans. “Yes it is you, know you could get some other color besides that one you love to wear.” You informed Logan he nods his head no. “I like this one, bub.” said Logan.

You and Logan headed to the break room, which is big. You and some of the employees helped cleared the area so no chairs or tables were in sight for the photoshoot and there’s was camera on a stand,some studio lighting, and a blank grey canvas backdrop that you set up last night,you set your bag down for clothes Logan’s gonna wear and gel for his hair even though his hair already looks perfect and you set your bag down. “So where’s your model I would figure they would be here.” Logan gruffly said. “They’re either working for someone,sick,or on vacation maybe on a yacht.” You told him then threw a black shirt and black blazer at him.

He buttons off the flannel leaving him in his white undershirt and puts on the shirt and the blazer and you open the cap of the gel, put some of it on your hand and rub it together. “Even though I love your cat hair, we need to spike it a bit and push it back a little.” You said and just before you touch his hair he leans back and grunts. “I told you the millionth of time to not call part of my hair cat hair.” Logan said. “Well what would you call them then?” You questioned Logan. “It’s call a cow lick since they’re always like that I can’t control it, bub.” Logan says as he defends himself.

As you fix his hair you chuckled. “Whatever you say.” Cause you’ll still refer his hair as cat hair after a couple of minutes later, you finished with his hair and adjusted his watch on his wrist. “Ok step on the x I marked in the middle of the room.” Which he did no problem so you go to your camera, turn it on and start taking pics.he glances at the camera with no expression and his hands on his side.

CLICK

The second pose he looks to his right again no expression and looking a bit awkward.

CLICK

The third is the same but he’s looking at the ground.

CLICK

You looked at the pictures and sighed at the result…This might be harder then you thought since you’re used to your models doing whatever poses without you prompting them, and Logan sees how he’s looking at the camera. “Sweetheart, you know I’m no model I kick ass for living.” Logan said and you were silent thinking of way to for him to be creative. “Plus you seen these baby in action they usually have blood on them by the end of the ass kicking.” Logan said and unsheathes his claws.

You look at the claws. “Remind me for Christmas shoot that you should be in it so I can put a bow on them.” You said and giggle at the image you put in your head. “Of course you want to accessories what would consider these a weapon.” Logan said and smirk and retracts his claws.

Suddenly an idea popped in your head. “Remember that whiskey Scott brought at the mansion and you loved it?” you said and Logan remembers the whiskey and could even the taste the feeling of it by just talking about it. “A man never forgets something like that, but why you ask?” Logan questioned. “How about this you do good in the photoshoot and I’ll buy that expensive whiskey.” You said as bribe him, Logan didn’t have to think if whiskey had to be involved. “You’re now speaking my language, bub.” Logan said he then pretends to fix his blazer and looks at the camera.

CLICK

You looked at the camera and was proud of the result. “Now that’s better.” you said and went towards the bag and threw at him a grey short sleeve that had 3 little buttons and pockets, while Logan changes into his shirt, taking off his white tank top, you went to the corner and pull out a small pull-up bar tower that you could easily wheel and put it behind Logan, and Logan raised his eyebrows questioning you of what’s going on.

You go towards Logan, unbutton 2 of the buttons, and made sure some of his chest hair is showing. “I need you to flex your muscles so it can attract more customers.” You said and stepped back towards your camera. “You’re really trying to make me look like a piece of meat?” Logan questioned you. “You’re getting shy now? When you tried on the crop top that I told you I was selling here, you didn’t seem so shy you even walked around the mansion in it.” You teased him.

You start to remember how he looked in that crop top, how his abs was visible, his v-line was showing, and my god his happy trail was in full view, you wanted to lick them, especially tracing the vein on his lower stomach in front of everyone, and Logan chuckles darkly knowing what you’re thinking. “How about I do this instead, sweetheart.” Logan huskily says and slowly walks towards you and you looked at him interested in what he had to say. “What if I take off my clothes and flex? that would get you loads of customers.” Logan grinned as he say that.

Your mouth drops open at his suggestion blush creeping on your cheek. “Logan!” You playfully push him on his chest and he laughs as he walks backwards. “Fine, I’ll just do this instead.” He grabs the bar with one hand and the other one rests by his side. “I do need someone to model for the poses of the guy boxer.” You suggested to Logan. “Deal I’ll do that instead.” He said then flexes his muscles.

CLICK

You look at the picture. “Hot.” You said, without you prompting him, he starts to pose again this time both hands on the bar flexing his muscles.

CLICK

Then he starts pulling up, his shirt going up revealing his thick stomach vein. “Alright now you’re showing off.” You said then bites your lip as you see his abs and vein this was something that always surprises you even though you had seen them a million of times.

CLICK

You look at the photos again. “Don’t worry, darling those last two pose was for you.” Logan said as he lets go of the pull-up bar, walks towards you, kisses you, and breaks the kiss. “I’m assuming there’s more?” Logan questioned you. “There is.” You said, going back to your bag, and threw at him a white shirt and a denim jacket to change into , while he changes you put away the pull-up machine bar.

He looks at you waiting for what pose he needs to do. “I think I’ll keep this one simple just look at the camera.” You said he nods and looks at the camera.

CLICK

You look at the photo. “Handsome.” You said as you smiled at the camera, then you went in your bag and threw at him a brown leather jacket similar to the one he owns he takes off the denim jacket and puts on the jacket. “Ok I think you’ll love this pose since you’re a natural at this.” You said. “What’s the pose?” Logan questioned you. “You just crouch down and give me your famous glare.” you informed him.

He immediately crouches. “Easy work.” He said and looks dead at the camera, one hand covering the other hand semi fiddling with his watch.

CLICK

You don’t even need to look at the photo cause you knew it was perfect but still decided to look through how many photos you got. Meanwhile, Logan thought you were messing with your setting still remains crouching down then you had an idea to have your playful revenge for making you blush since you saw your engagement ring shimmering from the lights “Looking through these photos, I can’t believe you’ll be my husband, I’m just imagining our wedding photos in Hawaii like we talked about, I know you’ll look handsome in your suit while looking at my white poofy dress, officially being yours with the kiss making us husband and wife and I can’t wait for us to be sillies with our future children.” You said you see him smiling and looking away, trying to hide the blush on his cheeks with the back of his hand. “Baby, stop let’s focus.” Logan said while imagining the scenario too.

CLICK

Yes, it’s been 2 years since you guys have been engaged, even though you guys wished you were married already, but you know…The life of being a mutant is crazy since, aside from you taking a break from the mansion and starting the business, there have been crazy missions Logan has been going on, which sometimes he comes home late or doesn’t come back home after a couple of days,so you guys are waiting till everything seems to be calmed down… Well, a day where it’s not THAT crazy

He stands up. “You’re going to delete that, right?” Logan questioned you and you smirked, taking the camera to the other room where there’s a computer, and you connected a cable to the camera so the pictures can show up and sits down on the swivel chair. Logan puts his hands beside you, looking at the pictures. “I thought this model shit was hard but this is pretty easy.” Logan says while his eyes is glued on the screen.

You turn on the chair and smile at him, squeezing his cheek. “You’re cute, Wolvie.” Then let’s go and kiss his cheek. “Those are for the store here, we still need a lot of photos for online I was going to switch photos everyday.” You explained to Logan he looks at you, at the clothes, and then back at you. “Let’s get ‘er done, baby there’s a whiskey calling my name.” Logan said and kissed your head.

After several hours of random clothes changes and poses, you guys were finally done, and a couple of weeks later, the big photos of Logan that you’ll put around in the store arrived, you already had the small display of photos throughout the store, which you love looking at them at times when there are no customers.

When you knew Logan didn’t have a history class to teach, you decided to call him to come over once he arrived with his truck, you ran out to him and hug him. “No peeking Howlett.” You said as you walk him in front of the store. “I’m not.” He says then when you guys were at the front of the store, you let go of him. “Ok open them!” You say with excitement.

He opens them, and he sees the giant photo of him, it was the white knit sweater he put on after you made him blush he had a smile which you didn’t tell him to do. “Jesus.” He cringes and looks away. “Isn’t this too big? Too much?” Logan questioned as he still looks away. “Come on, it’s perfect!” You said as you force him to look at it. “Do my eyes deceive me but is logan actually smiling?” Storm said as she arrives, since you invited everyone from the mansion to come see the store.

He glances between you and Storm. “You better take this down.” He said pointing at the poster, you giggle. “Oh, I would argue with you but I have customers to attend to.” You said and went Inside Storm puts her hand on his shoulder. “Come on, Logan you look good.” Storm smiles softly and walks in the store which he goes in the store too.

He saw how you were talking to the customers while they paid for their stuff and saw how the back wall behind you is the picture of Logan flexing, which he saw some of the ladies staring at the huge picture, and he saw at the back of the store was the picture of him smiling and looking away, which oddly he liked that picture, but obviously would never admit it if you ask him.

As promised, after you were done with the store, you bought the expensive whiskey that Logan liked, he didn’t waste any time drinking it after it was brought home. “Cheers to my pictures.” He raises the shot glass, to which you join him and fill the shot glass with whiskey and raise it up. “Cheers.” You said then, both clinked the glass and tilt your head back as you downed the shot and felt the burning sensation from the whiskey.

Hopefully yall get the gist the poses he did was in collage and the rest I didn’t include you seem them in the 2014 shoot

Bonus pic cause all his 2014 photoshoot were good I had trouble deciding

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The Unexisting Characterization OF James Earl Cash

This post isn't deticated towards those who like Cash, however I do feel the need to call out a few things. Please do not take this with a faint of heart.

Something I hear a lot is how Cash is a "better character" to put it politely, however anytime I listen/read anything about him it's either made up headcanons (there's nothing wrong with headcanons, I have a lot myself. However if you're going to talk about a character outside of those things and do it with whatever you have in canon, you do have to stick to only the canon), incorrect or just using shallow things from the game (mainly the situation with Cash's family, which I wouldn't have issues with if the game itself wanted to do anything with them, which of course it did not). Cash as a character was made to be a foil for the player, so it's why, outside of what I'm going to dive into, he doesn't really have a proper characterization like anyone else in the game had, including side character, so it's why I tend to find it eyerolling when I listen to people say that Cash is a better character than Daniel Lamb. In videogames games can get away with foils for players if everything else is good (fun fact: did y'all know that the reason Cash doesn't talk a lot is because they had a fan who won a contest voice him, and honestly he did a good job, will say Cash's voice still sounds stereotypical but I feel that it was intentional), so there's nothing wrong with the protagonist being bland with very little to them as long as the other stuff is done well, and whenever players prefer a protagonist who's a character or a foil is completely subjective, so whenever Danny or Cash are a better as a protagonist is subjective rather than objective regarding characterization. And that's why it irks me when someone stereotypical at best, bland at worst, who's made as a foil tends to get called better as a character despite not having much to them. A character can be mysterious without their backstory being told, hell, they sort of did that for Leo (and I admit that I do sometimes wish they fully did since people tend to paint Leo as some misunderstood guy who did nothing wrong, and for anyone that knows anything about the game should know how wrong that actually is), but they didn't intend to make a proper character (and I have a hard time believing that they did intend for that because Rockstar's protagonists have always had proper characterization, as far as I know at least I try to stay away from their games), so why is Cash getting treated like he is a "well written character" when he isn't a proper one in the first place?

Now, what I intend with this post is to go over whatever little characteristics James Earl Cash himself has in the game, because when I got into Manhunt I've tried my hardest to like Cash, but I just couldn't. And I like both Danny and Leo (more of love-hate towards Leo tbh, and I'm trying to stay away from things like comment section in the bad ending because my god the amount of bs in there, some are even straight-up ableistic towards those with amnesia, it will make me fully hate Leo if I read them) and I do like other characters form this series (some at ok level, some love-hate, some love, and Pickman is just hate-hate), so here I'll try to conclude what "characteristics" Cash has. Please note that a lot of what I've written is over exaggerated, because for the life of me…. I've tried…. Again….

To read the quicker version, scroll down to "Shortcut To Existing Traits".

Born Again - Grounds For Assault

In the intro scene he tries to escape death but fails (proving that he does care about his life, as the rest of the game would show since technically speaking he doesn't have much to live for), tries to bust open a door after just waking up, smacks the camera and after putting in the earpiece dumbly looks around. These are first points showing that he has a short temper, however he has enough patience to use stealth. This is also extremely identical towards Manhunt 2's antagonist's Leo Kasper's short fuse as well, perhaps they got inspired by what little they had with Cash when making Leo in the final game.

In the cutscene where he get's taken by Cerberus for the first time, his running is…. odd…. to say the least. I really can't make anything up regarding that other than "welp, animation", funnily enough it is feminine looking :P. And when he's getting up it looks more like he's drunk, I presume that whatever they have to him hasn't worn off yet.

I try to ignore what other characters state towards the character I'm focused on analyzing, and this isn't important for characterization as it is a race thing, but I am aware of Starkweather telling the Skinz that Cash is a half breed. Which he only stated to make them want to kill Cash, although it did lead to people questioning if what Starkweather said was true.

For some odd reason the game's cover box for Manhunt tries to paint it as if Cash is finding out how he's alive, despite the fact that the intro of the game makes it clear. Another also states that Cash awoke "to the sound of [his] own panicked breath" which wasn't shown in the intro cutscene. However if this is true this could point towards Cash being scared of dying.

Strapped For Cash - View Of Innocence

When rescuing his family, the lines can be randomized. He'll either be straightforward but rude towards them ("Get outta here, run!", "Go on, run you idiot!") or he'll actually be more caring but take longer to speak ("Ok, you're ok. Go!" "Run as far away as you can, trust no one. Now GO!" "Don't stop until you're outta here!"). The second sets of lines could point to him being different towards those he cares about, and the only time he wasn't a complete ass to someone (given everyone he meets in the game are people he's meeting for the first time, and only 2 of the new people he met were somewhat sane), where he can resort to a small comfort and give good advice. However not much is done with this side of him other than him being angered by his family's deaths and throwing the TV, but that's about it regarding this side of him, as (sadly) his family only existed to die regardless of what player does.

Speaking of him being angered by their deaths, he never brings them up again, but I'll get into that in a little bit….

Drunk Driving - Kill The Rabbit

In another scene with Cherubs he's tied up while being awake, meaning that he either let them tie him up or they just beat him for it.

He get's more startled by the door shutting, which could suggest that he can be paranoid (when he feels like it).

When he gets stopped by the van he goes "What the fuck….", which could mean that he only really speaks when shocked, therefore it could mean that everything else in the game that's normally shocking isn't much to him, or he speaks when he feels like it (edgyboy).

Weirdly he let's Cherubs carry him into the asylum despite being awake, which funnily could suggest that he felt lazy (or they truly have some roleplaying going on SORRY).

Divided They Fall - Press Coverage

Because some people will mention it…. Some Wargods call Cash nicknames usually used for military men, however these could be theories made by the characters themselves, as if Cash was indeed in army at some point (before 1992) I'm quite sure that Starkweather would've mention it as he did enough searching on Cash to find his family in the first place.

Quickly after Robin rescues him, he's very quick to make her stop her car despite the fact that she hasn't gotten them both that far from where the Snuff was happening (if she has, then the cutscene didn't edit it well). While it is understandable that he wouldn't trust her as she is someone he doesn't know (and a lot of the criminalist jobs, which also include human trafficking, tend to use their women workers for trust as people are more likely to trust a stranger woman than a stranger man, and apart from his family she's the first woman he saw, and he does recall her face which was there during his execution) he should've still waited a bit more until they were further away from the ruined hotels. This again could point to him being inpatient, and again similar to Leo Kasper. Funnily enough both of them could be viewed as people who's short end of the stick got them in the mess they're in (Cash rushing for the ends of the level in most of the cutscenes and Leo getting caught because he killed Sarah).

When asking Robin regarding the game's plot he's very straightforward with what he says, which could further prove 3 things (2 of which I've stated in this post), which are that he doesn't have the most patience, which are also proven with how he talks to both Robin and Tramp when guiding them. He's clearly very anti-social, which I feel is self-explanatory. If we consider how he can talk to his family this would further prove that he'll be straightforward but rude to those he doesn't care about.

He also turns his head back and forth when talking to Robin…. not sure what to make of that…. I guess he could be scheming in his head….?

"Just shup up and stick with me if you want to stay alive." "C'mon lady!" Again, straightforward but rude…. Robin, in her interview, even states that "[She] was speaking to him, threatened by him." (random but back when I was trying to like Cash I headcannoned that he basically became her father figure, mostly due to a sketch I saw, and since he did just lose his family and she never liked her own parents and he's definitely old enough to be her dad so…. But he's def the type of guy to ditch those he cares about to save his own skin too….)

To put his last interaction with Robin shortly, here's a comment that sums it up: "The way cash told her to "have a nice life" gave me "fuck you! I hope your family gets a nice Christmas!" energy" and his aggressive hand gestures add to it, but for the slightly longer….

His movements when talking are more…. "aggressive"? Or just visible, as he's using his hands to speak. This is the only time he really does this, potentially because it would've been awkward if he stood mostly idle when taking about his "revenge".

When talking about his revenge quest, he states that he's doing it to "thank him for [Cash's] second chance" (and that Robin is his "backup if [he doesn't] make it"). But the thing is that it's not too clear as to why he would go on a revenge quest. Let's go over the theories we have (and debunk some):

First thing that would come to mind is that he's doing it for his dead family, which could be the case. However, 1: they're never mentioned after "Views Of Innocence" in any way by anyone. 2: Some would say that he simply didn't want Robin to know about his family, which is laughably debunkable: He would have no reason to hide his family's death from someone he doesn't care about, knows is a reporter and therefore would've had to state their deaths on TV anyway, and who has all the evidence on Starkweather and was even able to find where Cash was at.

Some have tried to claim that Cash wanted revenge either because "Starkweather betrayed him (I guess Cash doesn't take being betrayed well, even tho he and Robin were using one another for their own goals)" or because "he wasted his time in the snuff film (the film which he clearly didn't care enough about for it to bother him)" and…. If either of these are accurate then that just makes Cash look extremely immature, because any criminal (who has already had a history of being on the run) would take the chance and flee the country, as usually those kinds of people wouldn't really go after you if you no longer pose them any threat.

Unrelated but since I haven't mentioned it in my Robin's story post (as the post was solely focusing on her "story") I'll write it here: Her apartment isn't too decorated, it could hint towards her moving places a lot (either for safety or for work) which means that she doesn't decorate often. Or it could be the laziness of whoever was designing the level.

He very awkwardly leaves through the window, which could suggest that he's not much of an athlete. I guess that explains why jumping over cover wasn't an option….

Wrong Side Of The Tracks - Deliverance

The moment when the Cherubs are saving him is the only time he ever ducks into a ball after hearing gunshots, as well as actively taking his time to get up on his feet and do his panic stance. This could follow the theory of Cash being paranoid that I've stated before.

When opening the door to listen to Cherubs he clenches his fist and it clearly shakes (which is also a rare instance of a hand being properly animated in this game) upon seeing the Cherubs, which also points to him having some sort of weird anger towards them. I guess he's just angsty because they kept on beating him this whole night.

…. I don't even know how to describe the cutscene where Cash actually gets to see Piggsy/ Mr. Daddy pig with his pork out…. It looks like surprise and curiosity, as if James never saw a chainsaw in his entire life (like ain't you hitting 50 if we base his age of his look?). Also that cutscene is the only time James ever climbs up something that's not the stairs in the game…. Meanwhile it's a constant thing in Manhunt 2…. Just a thought….

Weirdly instead of going for the head with the chainsaw when killing Piggsy he decided to chop off the arms (I assume it was done just to make it look more violent, as unlike the player Cash didn't even know about Piggsy's existence until this mission).

(For the funniest moment in my opinion) After Cash enters the room where Stockweather is Cash will lift up his chainsaw (for the funnies) to announce his full presence to Starkweather, I guess that's a first sign of Cash somewhat enjoying something, which in this case is revenge.

After Cash kills him James shoved the chainsaw onto Starkweather's dead body, very angsty (somehow no one found Cash's fingertips on that chainsaw, or anything else in the mansion Cherubs wear gloves-)

Please note that half if not the most of the cutscenes in the game are things that Cash never sees.

And to add to the whole aggression thing: When punching an enemy down his stance may become to look like heavy breathing, which could also point towards temper issues and could point to him using his fighting and killing abilities to release his anger (he did after all throw the TV and "breathe heavily" after seeing his family die). This could also point to the way he kills his enemies, where the potential reason he kills the gangs he does in the game is a simple "stress release". Don't forget that Cash is clearly a sociopath, so killing random people for stress relief wouldn't mean anything to him.

His kills are nothing special by todays standards, and in some the hunters appear to have died/been knocked unconscious before he finishes a kill.

He can carrying a body over his shoulder steady enough with one arm and doesn't move too slow, which does suggest strength from his legs and right shoulder.

As a Beta Cash model Easter Egg, he's (seemingly) showing a middle finger, edgy.

Shortcut To Existing Traits:

Low Temper:

Trying to bust open the door and smacking the camera before letting Starkweather finish talking.

Forcing Robin to stop the car before they got enough distance between them and the Wardogs.

"Just shup up and stick with me if you want to stay alive." when telling Robin to stop her car.

Threatening Tramp and Robin when guiding them (he doesn't threaten Robin that he'll kill her himself so that's something….).

Using aggressive hand language when talking to Robin for the final time.

Extremely vengeful.

Clenches his fist with it clearly shaking when spotting Cherubs.

After Cash kills Starkweather he shoves the chainsaw onto Starkweather's dead body.

Potentially using his fighting and killing abilities to release his anger.

However he still has enough patience to use stealth.

Straightforward Speech But Heavily Lacking Mannerism:

"Get outta here, run!", "Go on, run you idiot!" quotes towards his family.

Direct with questions towards Robin, as well as when telling her to drive to her apartment.

Robin stating in her interview that "[She] was speaking to him, threatened by him." which did happened.

Difference In Speech To Those He Cares For:

When rescuing his family he could also talk differently towards them ("Ok, you're ok. Go!" "Run as far away as you can, trust no one. Now GO!" "Don't stop until you're outta here!").

Throwing the TV in anger when he sees his family die.

Paranoid(?):

Potentially letting Cherubs tie him up in other to not get another beating.

He get's more startled by the door shutting.

He (obviously) doesn't trust anyone he meets, and even advises his family to "Trust no one." after rescuing them.

When Cherubs are saving him, it's the only time he ever ducks into a ball after hearing gunshots, as well as actively taking his time to get up on his feet and get into a panic stance.

Fear Of Death:

Intro scene where he briefly tried to escape his execution.

Game's cover box for Manhunt states that Cash awoke "to the sound of [his] own panicked breath" (which, again, wasn't shown in the intro cutscene).

Damsel Of Kidnapping:

Keeps on getting caught by the police (twice now) and constantly by Cherubs, oh and once by Ramirez.

And he's definitely not athletic as seen when he leaves Robin's apartment and climbing up the elevator when attacked by Piggsy.

Conclusion:

So most might be wondering what's the point of this post if I don't "like" James Earl Cash but still proceed to analyze him? Well for the most part it is because this kind of stuff irks me, I'm just extremely nitpicky when it comes to treatment of characters by the fans. And another point of the post was to show that even people who claim that Cash is "well written" or a "good/better character" never seem to point out these things (and do note the the other stuff I haven't mentioned are just an average thing anyone would do). But back to the first thing, some of the stuff I have read tend to be even confusing, like saying that Cash is better character than Danny because the premise of Mh1 is better than Mh2's which has nothing to do with characterization. And it may not seem like it to most, but I actually prefer the premise of the first game more (and again preference in premises is fully subjective), but Mh2 delivered more than a story which exists as much as porn story. Mh2 didn't have the best story but it still gave something more, which is why Mh2 stuck to me more, not to mention that it delivered the message about media's obsession with violence very well, which Manhunt 1 failed to do so badly it's even questionable if it had a message. And I guess it also provided more than 4-5 main characters which Manhunt had done (in Manhunt 1 we have: Cash, Starkweather, Ramirez, Robin and I guess the Cerberus leader, although he felt very basic to me outside of few funny lines).

Randomly made the sketch for venting. Leo me know if I missed anything in the post.

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It stood the test of enough commutes, so here it is !! A Sambastian Mixtape

If the comic idea was a TV series (pffft), this would be the soundtrack, so the songs are in chronological order. The lyrics are pretty on the nose but in case you're curious I break it down below

(I made this playlist for myself because I would like to draw the comic someday... Maybe one day... For now, I only have the music lol)

These are the first and the last song of each section for reference. I'll stay superficial bc you don't need to know the depths of my brainrot, just know that the songs are mostly either from Sam or Seb POV, few of them from other's characters POVs, and in the second half are mostly shared POV. I tried to keep all the songs in what I think are their vibes but sometimes my hand slipped for the sake of the plot I had in my head not me putting Lorde and LDR in a Sambastian playlist

✶ Ribs - Lorde ⏭ Cigarette Daydreams - Cage The Elephant

Sam and Sebastian are in their teens, they grew up attached to the hip and figured they always will be. Sebastian lightheartedly realizes there might be something more, which could be true for Sam as well if he wasn't half unaware half in denial because that's not how things are supposed to go. Surely he just loves his best friend so much and it's nothing more complicated then that! Right?? But Seb's feelings slowly become heavier and that mixed with the fact that he refuses to accept help for anything from anyone starts to strain the relationship as time passes.

✶ Let it happen - Tame Impala ⏭ Somewhere only we know - Keane

Bad times. Seb is depressed and it doesn't help that Sam and his savior complex are dating Penny (and they are actually good for each other for a while). Sebastian retaliates with Alex, something that Sam disapproves because he was one of his bullies (PSA: my boy Alex is not a villain!! just closeted young and struggling). Is it protectiveness or jealousy? That's between him and god. Much general angst when you add severe growing pains and bad mental health to a broken heart. They end up taking time apart and not seeing each other again. It's hard.

✶ If I ever feel better - Phoenix ⏭ Simple Song - The Shins

Healing hours 🖤 They really needed to work on themselves first and foremost. They figure out stuff, Sebastian fixes his relationship with Maru, Sam is finally honest with himself about his own issues. Friends help. Eventually, they meet again. They easily fit right back together and tentatively work out their feelings.

✶ Read My Mind - The Killers ⏭ Here It Goes Again - OK Go

It's Goblin Destroyer time!! Sam, Seb and Abby are living in Zuzu city, playing concerts, fighting the system, breaking the rules and having the time of their lives. Questionable decisions never looked so good (Peak ASS trio energy btw). Chaos and euphoria ensue. Everything seems perfect until-

✶ Social Cues - Cage The Elephant ⏭ Good Riddance (Time of your life) - Green Day

Why no one told them you never stop figuring shit out in life? Age 30 crisis. Goblin Destroyer are over. They wonder about what direction to take with their lives, and everything seems bittersweet. This time though, they are together, and that makes it all possible - and bearable. They did it before and they'll do it again, they're going to be alright.

✶ Everlong - Foo Fighters ⏭ Praise You - Fatboy Slim

When you've already spent a lifetime together, something very special inevitably takes form. I was thinking about their new timeskipped vibe once they get older and lose the dumbass energy (at least some of it) in favor of a deeper devotion (Hi Hozier). I might keep adding to this. This part is not chronological, truly just Sambastian basking in their love and celebrating everything they've accomplished

(and I'm just an old sap, byeeee)

By the way it's crispy talking: I had to take out several songs that were a bit too freaky lol, that would be a different playlist, also Body Talks is fully about @lily-alphonse 's Lonely Dancers fic, I had to include it 😇

[argumentalist]

There's just so many fantastic designs in Witch from Mercury that don't get nearly enough screen-time. And the Beguir-Beu is a great example.

I love the colors on this kit. The different shades of purple/lavender against the white are so striking.

And like the rest of the HGWFM line - there's no polycaps. This is a very solid plastic-on-plastic build. I guess maybe I'm a little worried about long-term wear from that? But right now, at least, it means a very solid and very poseable kit.

So, right off the bat, I'm annoyed by this head.

There's very unique clear parts - but they don't catch the light well. And there's nothing good to paint chrome behind those parts. There's some foil stickers, but I hate to put them over the clear parts.

I tried painting the underside of those clear parts chrome, but that didn't turn out great. I guess it's OK for now, but I'd love a better solution. Those clear bits don't pop nearly as much as I'd like them to.

The torso is just kind of one block. There isn't a separate waist section like you often see - although there is some good articulation in the middle, and you still get a decent ab-crunch.

There's a tiny little pilot seat under that clear bubble. There's no pilot figure, of course, since this is just an HG kit. But it's a nice little bit of detail. I don't think it's visible in this picture but I painted that seat black.

The arms and legs have the same shiny inset bits that I saw with the Michaelis - which just makes sense since that's a further refinement of this design. I think I mentioned it in that post... But this really looks more like it should be a Peil design than a Grassley one. It looks far more alien than the Dilanzas do.

Continuing the insect aesthetics... The backpack legitimately looks like a moth sitting on my desk.

Again I find myself somewhat annoyed by the accessories in this kit.

There's no alternate hands at all - just the two holding hands. And while we do get a weapon stand, which is fantastic, there's just one. So I can't display both non-kinetic pods at the same time.

I guess I'm just expecting too much from HG kits? I know they're obviously not going to contain as many bells and whistles as MG or RG kits... But I'd be willing to pay another couple dollars for two weapon stands in this box. Or an extra set of hands.

This kit is just straight-up striking. I don't think I've got anything else like it on my shelf.

The Michaelis obviously has a similar color-scheme... But this thing looks downright insectoid. The head and arms remind me of a preying mantis. The backpack looks like a moth. And then you pop off those non-kinetic pods and it looks even weirder.

As I mentioned - I'm a little annoyed that there's only one weapon stand and there aren't more hand options... And the feet are a little unsteady. It's clearly designed to be up on a stand. But those are really tiny little nit-picks.

It's a really fun, quick build that I can heartily recommend to anyone.

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MHA chapter 416 (rambles)

Ok so this was like mainly a conclusion chapter for many characters and I guess I like that we are getting clarity on what's going on with some of the characters.

This chapter definitely gives me some very mixed feelings I feel like it's one of the best chapters horikoshi has produced in a long time if we exclude whatever is going on with Izuku and shigaraki.

There are still some things I definitely do dislike in this chapter which are:

The overall dismissal of izuku in general by other characters. Like no offense but I feel like we should of seen more people being worried for izuku instead of dismissing their worry and being like oh Iam not putting my faith in him or something because what do you mean you're not worrying for a 16 year old who has to fight an insane psychopath killer?!?? I still hate how momo dismissed this like wasn't 1A's whole objective when it came to getting Izuku back in the vigilante arc was because they were worried and scared for him?!?!? What happend now it makes no sense?!?!? Also i still hate momos atrocious hero costume

Ochako and Toga's character conclusions?!?! Like excuse me what's going on where is toga how is she not in the picture at all if the whole point was that she sacrificed herself for ochako and layed their dying next to her now she is nowhere to be?!?! People just accept it and are like oh well she has been defeated no need to worry but you do realise that she can probably cause damage if she wanted to right?!?? Also Ausi deserves better because what's going on with her she was so out of place and somewhat irrelevant when it came to this arc like seriously hori did her dirty. Also who is next to ochako in that plane ?!?! Am I speaking to early and that could be toga or someone else

Monoma deserved better. Oh did monoma deserve more screentime to shine and actually do more instead he got injured and knocked out offscreen which is such a shame. I really wanted to see more of him

Lady nagant's take on izuku?!?? No offense but Iam sick and tired of characters having some wild takes of izuku. One minute it's oh he sees the good in everyone and he is a saint to the next which is oh he is a puppet who follows instructions to a letter and does more than he should. I still don't like kudo and his views whenever it concerns midoriya it seriously infuriates me. However, now that kudo is gone guess it's lady nagant's turn to take some of the role because hey is she saying that his pain is a good thing and that izuku has a morally grey view of villains which I cannot lie hasn't been proven at all. Don't get me wrong I love that idea but I think like everything in MHA it just has a horrible execution and I can't bring myself to like it. Lady nagant deserves better characterisation then this

This chapter was a 50/50 when it came to the character if Eri. I absolutely adored her interaction with Kota and I find them absolutely adorable also at least ectoplasm is doing something and didn't let the girl run into the battlefield which is good enough (bare minimum). However, it still feels all icky that the heroes used her or well tried to utilise her anyway even if it's with good intentions or whatever the fact that they tried to make her heal aizawa but she lacked energy so she couldn't or whatever. Her lacking energy also feels like somewhat of a horribly introduced plot point because wasn't the whole problem she had when she came to UA was that she had a lot of her quirk built up and shouldn't the power in her horn be enough rewind aizawa into a week back in time like ?!?!! She couldn't be lacking that much energy it makes absolutely no sense to me. Also dam it's sad that Eri is out here being the only one worrying for izuku. They deserve better

Hawks and tokoyami. They deserve their win section I love them and their dynamic just wish the series could of given us more when it came to them seriously the wasted potential the wasted dynamic and tensions get me

The ending of the chapter?!?! Why is izuku in his uniform what happend?!?! I still don't get how they're merging into one person or one entity with different and same memories. Also why is this all about shigaraki like they're sharing memories so why aren't we seeing Izuku's memories this feels iffy to me. The dfo truthers have risen but tbh I don't see how this can benefit izuku in anyway and why does izuku have to watch the shimura family murder. Also if izuku is in his uniform does that mean he has become part of the memory did they do some space jumbo thing where they time travel and now they're changing fate and reality or some shenanigans like that?!??? The kotaro and tenko parallel hit tho that was good but other than that this whole Izuku's Nd shigaraki fight falls flat it's really such a disappointment and disaster to me.

I LOVE THE CONTRAST BETWEEN THESE TWO IZUKU'S. I also adore his relationship with eri I wish we got more of them!!!

[uncleasad]

Worked a little bit on both Last Kiss and Burning Yelena today. Not sure how much more I’ll get written tonight (it’s either trauma or a write-research-write loop)…

I really like this section I wrote in Burning Yelena, and it doesn’t really spoil anything (OK, a few minor spoilers, so cover your eyes don’t click on “Keep reading” if you want to go in completely fresh), so here you go!

“Why are we going south on I-95? Shouldn’t we be going west on…something?”

“Have you ever been outside the city, Kate Bishop?”

“Yes, plenty of times! I’ve been to DC and Miami and LA and Vail…”

“And you drove?”

“No, of course not; we took the family jet…”

Yelena shot her a look that screamed ‘I do not listen to spoiled princesses.’ So of course Kate had to make things worse. “I don’t know how to drive.”

Yelena laughed again, the sound of unfortunately being proven right. “I do not take driving directions from someone who has never driven.”

At least the assassin hadn’t called her a princess—out loud—Kate mused; she’d take that as a win.

“We are going to Frederick, Maryland.”

“OK, I know I have never driven, but I did get an A in geography; Maryland is south and Ohio is west, and you don’t go through Maryland to get to Ohio.”

“My car is in Maryland.”

“Your car…wait, what?” Kate was now thoroughly confused. Yelena had a rental car in the city—in which they were currently riding, after Kate had used Eleanor’s credit cards to extract it from the clutches of the parking garage—but her car was in Maryland? And she lived in Ohio? This was starting to feel like a wild goose chase.

“Operational security,” the Widow replied, as if reading her mind—was that even possible? “If you are going to kill someone, you do not drive straight there in your own car.”

Kate nodded; that made sense. “So, Maryland, then Ohio?”

“Da. Also avoids the Turnpike. Too narrow, too few exits. It is the driving equivalent of very exposed.”

The archer hummed in understanding. Clint had tried to train her in situational awareness, but she had been in too few situations to be able to put it all together. Parties (upper crust or college), bars, maybe classrooms, she understood what she needed to do there. But listening to the Black Widow explain, it was clear that the gap between their skills was massive. But Kate was always eager to learn, and maybe the blonde could teach her some things on this road trip. “So…in a car, on the highway, what should I be looking for?”

Yelena smiled. There was hope yet that Kate Bishop would be able to keep herself alive.

[zacki0gaming]

Any Thoughts/Theories On Pink Corruption S2 EP 3 Part 2 Preview?

So when I woke 5am in the morning, I immediately got onto my phone. While scrolling on YouTube, guess what popped up on my screen, "the next preview"... and when I saw that thumbnail I was like, "It's gonna happen... God no..." If you know what I mean by that...

You know what let my analyze here start to finish.

*SPOILER WARNING WATCH THE PREVIEW FIRST SEEING THIS*

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The preview starts showing Ajaceare happily laughing after stealing even more tree pieces, most likely from the other Spherical Forest' Groups. But the way she's moving looks like she's like the fucking Little Red Riding Hood bringing her basket of goodies toward her grandma's house.

Anyway, Ajaceare receives a call from from Dub and gives him the news on the amount of tree pieces she collected inside a pink bag. How many damn pieces did she just collect...?

After receiving praise by her boss and hangs up the call, Ajaceare senses nearby unknown shapes, at least 3 who are most likely a new group we haven't seen before. OH SO NOW YOU SENSING SHIT LIKE HOW YOU OR LYCANTHROPY DIDN'T SENSE PENTELLOW AND THE OTHERS FROM THE BEHIND IN THE PREVIOUS EPISODE!!!

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Analyzing The Unknown Shapes

Let me put this down first for you guys!

Alright, from the look of this group, there is at least 3 individuals here while one of them isn't speaking. There is very high possibility that this is a new group we haven't seen before, but... One of their voices catches my attention.

It is because one of them sounds similar toward Iris's father's voice. Ok, here's what I want you guys to do, analyze Iris's Father's voice from the these timestamps I'm gonna provide for the "Circubit's Reoccuring Memory" and this preview together and see if their is anything off about it.

Timestamps

Circubit's Reoccuring Memory: Here

The Preview: Here

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Unbeknownst to them being watched by Ajaceare, the unknowns shapes were having a private discussion. The first individual wanting to return to the village because the area is giving them the creeps.

The second individual says that they knows, but they can still fight, tell off the first individual's to stop worrying about it. The first individual says that they never knows because they thinks that their is a monster somewhere around here, while the other yells at him to stop it.

Ajaceare than starts menacingly laughing, presumably gonna start attacking them or not. The scene than shifts toward Pyrare and the others finally spotting Ajaceare from the distance. Ajavex tells Pyrare the plan while cutely giving him a nickname, "Tri-Py". Alright...😂

Ajacenus pauses regarding the nickname, prompting Ajavex to clarify it. Ajavex explains that she bestowed this moniker upon Pyrare based on her perception of his appearance, as Ajacenus explains that it is because he looks like a "triangular-shaped pie." Alright...😂 Pyrare than tells the ladies to remain focused on the mission. Pyrare and the others notices Ajaceare disappearing in front of them as Pyrare asked where did she go.

Gold response as he says she's up there, presumably from the trees as the video ends.

Alright, finally done. Let me know your thoughts/theories down in the comment section below!

[kotoal1011]

v interested in a webshrine but i licherally have no clue what that is ( yes i am telling u to explain pls ty :< )

OMG ANOTHER CHANCE TO GUSH (kinda) ty ai 🫶🏻 (huge ass gush coming, sorry 😔 tldr below tho)

ok so, besides my physical "shrine" (which is just my ktk merch collection <3) I have what I like to call a webshrine! Or an online shrine. Instead of displaying merch, it's just kinda like a website about my wife and our relationship. like this!

everything looks better on pc prommy. but anyway– as you can see, I have different sections: an entire section for her, where I wrote a detailed description and what she's done in the story so far (kinda like a wiki but better because it was written with love <3 I genuinely tried to be as objective as possible when stating the facts because even her fandom wiki makes her seem like a villain ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯). I also listed most of the facts I know about her there! So you see, it's a great outlet for infodumping about her (you don't gotta read all of this lmao just wanted to show what it looks like)

Then there are the other sections: a little bit of main info about me, a huge ass gush about what our relationship is like (with more facts), a section dedicated only to gush whenever I feel like it (kinda like a diary), and a gallery of pictures of her (official pics, screenshots, but also picrews and merch stuff).

So, that's what mine looks like! Of course it depends from person to person, but the main idea is to have a kinda website dedicated to your beloved/your relationship.

Unfortunately you need to know how to code, or at least the basics. The first time I started to work on my webshrine I spent four hours learning how to put together a picture and some text (no joke, I really suck at it </3). It gets easier the more you learn and css/html tutorials help A LOT (the reason why I took so many hours was because silly me refused to watch a tutorial). You can also use templates to make it more pretty but I didn't because I wanted to do my own thing.

TLDR: a webshrine is a website dedicated to your beloved(s)! You can put whatever you want: info about them, random facts, a gallery, playlists, gushes, anything related to them. They're very fun to make! And a nice way to express your love for them <3

[rainbowspinch]

Alright Spinchers get ready cause I’m about to dump all my SB AU stuff/SB headcanons because I’ve got The Rot in my brain.

I’ll probably edit this later because there’s definitely stuff I’m forgetting. Anyway

Ok let’s seperate this into sections.

GLAMROCK FREDDY:

-“Superstar!”

-He really, really tries to be a stickler for the rules but it honestly doesn’t work. He tries so hard. But if he needs this door down and it won’t unlock, he’s going to call Monty to bash it in

-‘no swearing’ rule but there is absolutely exceptions

-Regularly uses “by the power invested in me” before sentencing the others to punishment (“by the power invested in me I sentence you to 15 minutes in your least favourite corner”)

-So much more patient and trusting than he reasonably should be

-Can, will, and does pick up the others simply because he’s able to

-Whenever Freddy is waiting for someone/something with Roxy, he looks extra hard to try see it before Roxy does to ‘beat her super eyes’. He wants to see it first and never does. Sometimes she pretends not to see to make him feel better

-Whenever they go on stage, Freddy and Monty Bro Hug It Out so no one knows they’re gay.

-⬆️Everyone knows.

-Goes out of his way to try and make the day better when it seems to be going south. He especially does this with Monty because he’s just about always having a bad day

-Was a little distant from the others, especially Monty, after Bonnie was put away for good. He focused way more on his definitely very important duties as the face of the Pizzaplex than interacting with them. This backfired on him completely because it just made everyone talk to him More.

-Has the weakest battery of everyone and needs to charge more frequently. He’s usually pretty good at making sure he doesn’t collapse in front of customers

-He knows they’re programmed to be good with kids and all but he still finds himself feeling all soft and mushy watching his friends get along with the young ones

GLAMROCK BONNIE:

-“Rockstar”

-Was always kind of grouchy in the mornings, but was fine after they had their first show

-Can drink 7 milkshakes in one sitting and postpone the regret for later

-he’s got a super sense for bowling. He Knows when someone is bowling like shit and they will be dealt with

-Had assigned bowling balls for each of his friends

-When Bonnie was randomly found mangled and broken, the staff had no idea what to do and kind of just- hid him away so they wouldn’t have to deal with it. The last person to talk to him was Roxy, who laid next to him while the Staff Bots tried to assess the situation.

-The Pizzaplex’ s Band originally started off with just Freddy and Bonnie, to imitate Fredbear and Springbonnie

-Shockingly, the one most adjusted to Bonnie’s sarcasm and occasional bad attitude is Chica, not Freddy. She became accustomed to his behaviour pretty quickly, and swiftly learned to level him out

-He goes and lays on Roxy’s carpet when he’s unhappy and she’s pretty much just gotten used to it at this point. She’s got no idea why he chose her room specifically but she’s adjusted.

GLAMROCK CHICA:

-Regularly hangs around the food court, shock horror

-Chica is super flexible. It makes the stretches and fitness aspects of Mazercise easier on her joints- however it does also mean she could fold herself into a ball if she really wanted to.

-If Chica is winning on the raceway, she’ll purposely slow down to let Roxy win

-While she comes across as very sweet and friendly, she’s definitely an enabler of chaos. She can and will encourage Roxy and Monty’s bickering.

-That being said, she does know where to draw a line. She knows how to tell when her friends are getting genuinely irritated, and she knows when things will actually be taken to heart instead of as a joke. She’s a good mediator, and a good calming agent

-Likes to bring snacks to the daycare for the little ones. After a gentle scolding here and there from Moon, though, she’s learned to bring snacks early on, and not too close to nap time, lest the sugar keep the kids up.

-Absolutely decimates in the arcade. She and Monty love to compete

-Adjusted to Monty taking Bonnie’s place the easiest. She loves Bonnie and treasures him dearly, but she wasn’t about to let her grief make Monty feel unwelcome. The two remain very close to this day

-She loves her friends but she’s not huge on sharing food. She thanks god every day that Roxy knows this and orders them seperate pizzas whenever they get them

-Absolutely the type to learn Tiktok dances and trends, and if she had a phone, would absolutely partake. It’s not uncommon to find TikTok’s filmed in the Pizzaplex that she jumps to participate in

-Hums a lot. Was pretty unhappy that they forbade her from singing, and started humming a lot to make up for it

GLAMROCK FOXY:

-“Laddie/Lassie”

-They aren’t supposed to store things in their chest compartments unless instructed to (like cakes, piñatas, etc), but Foxy tends to stash toys and merchandise in there and try get away with it. He usually gets caught

-Roxy was initially introduced as a prototype. She was small and child sized, and given to Foxy to train her up. It was supposed to be to test his aggression levels due to some recent bugs with Bonnie, but he got extra attached and kept her as his own.

-Following the previous, when Roxy was taken away from him, he was told she would be dismantled. Foxy was later taken from the stage and the band for maiming a staff member.

-Foxy is stashed behind some cutouts and other bits and pieces in Kids Cove. He won’t come out for fear of being decommissioned permanently. The others bring pizza and activities to do with him, so he can still be included.

-Uses the excuse of having ‘unspecified ailments’ when he doesn’t feel like performing. Depending on which technician is checking in with him in the morning, it sometimes works.

-Got a couple of broken parts that are lovingly held together by duct tape

ROXANNE WOLF:

-“Speedracer”/“Racer”

-Roxy gets along really well with the staff bots and caution bots. She’s like a celebrity to them, and she thinks they’re just funky little guys. She appreciates that they always make sure they’re clean before touching her (which they continue to do because she likes it)

-Whenever she walks by a caution bot, they always reach out to try touch her tail. This is especially endearing when she walks by a group and they all reach out

-Roxy brushes her tail exactly 200 times every morning. If she loses count she has to start again

-She and Chica go on lots of food court dates, going to get pizza and ice cream and such.

-Roxy spends a lot of time hanging around Mazercise waiting for Chica. She’s not shy about her favouritism

-Prefers older kids over the younger ones because younger kids can be a little messy, and she’s not one for mess. However, Cassie is her exception in all cases.

-She knows full well that by advertising and programming she’s supposed to be a winner, to be the epitome of sass and style. It’s exhausting to try be that perfect all the time, and she only feels worse that it makes her exhausted

-She deeply values her beauty and struggles to see her value beyond that. She needs to be good at everything, being average isn’t good enough.

-Used to struggle with giving compliments and often still does, but Chica has extraordinarily helped with this issue. Roxy loves her too much to not compliment her

-She’s actually quite the history nerd! She takes a lot of interest in older locations and older models, and will jump to get any information she can from whoever will give it to her

MONTGOMERY GATOR:

-“Champ”

-Monty is exactly as he’s described in the books. Dramatic and loud, but otherwise harmless

-Monty has a couple fried circuits; is prone to headaches, mood instability and light sensitivity as a result, hence his irritability and short temper

-He frequently visits the daycare, both as a helping hand and just to hang out. Sun and Moon insisted he has to dress as a clown if he wants to help out; they were joking but he took that 100% seriously and dresses the part if he intends to help care for the little ones.

-Roxy is like an older sister. When he was newly introduced, they quickly made the ‘new kid’ connection and she took him under her wing pretty swiftly.

-tail wags, hissing and swimming

-likes to ‘trade noises’. He’ll make a sound, normally a hiss, and usually whoever he’s with will return a sound (Chica with bawking, Roxy with a small howl, and Freddy tends to boop his nose to make the squeak sound. Bonnie is still pretty new to this and hasn’t exactly figured out a sound to make yet.)

-Tends to skip shows when he decides it’s too much, and goes off to hide.

-Following the previous, he used to hang around up on the catwalks in Gator Golf. However after being knocked off by the Hurricane hole-in-one, he’s since refused to even touch the steps up.

-Monty can easily be allured with the jingles of keys

-Used to address Freddy as ‘Captain’, but suffered through every stage of grief the day Freddy called him ‘Comrade’ in response. He hasn’t done it since

-Keeps track of regulars on his golf course and often gets along with them

-Spontaneously breakdances in the West Arcade

SUN & MOON (AND ECLIPSE):

-Sun was SO shit at being a daycare attendant after being moved from the Theatre. He was very used to seeing kids from a distance most of the time, and didn’t know how to handle taking care of them for long periods of time.

-Moon tends to jingle miserably across the floor whenever he’s up while the lights are on. Having been set up as a sleepy time animatronic, he has become quite nocturnal. Does that stop him from being up and about while the lights are on? No. Will he be tired and complain about it the whole time? Of course!

-Moon laughs at kids when they fall and Sun has to tell him off

-Moon throws ball pit balls at Staff Bots and gets told off for that too

-Before the events of SB, Sun and Moon were really close, damn near inseparable

-Sun and Moon used to share a body (which they resented a little bit). They took a nasty fall and the people who did the repairs went “you know what? Might as well” and separated them into two seperate bodies instead. The old body was left in parts and service, and later became Eclipse.

-At the start, Eclipse was a blend of Sun and Moon. They inherited both negative and positive traits from both ends, which created a balance of function and flaw. However this withered away a bit, and by Ruin, Eclipse was only taking on the positive traits. They lost Sun’s anxiousness and uptight personality, but maintained his patience and gentleness. They lost Moon’s pessimism and self preservation, but kept his playfulness and consideration. This has made Eclipse 100% In Denial Of All Bad Things, which does more bad than good.

-Moon doubles as a security animatronic. It’s his job to make sure everyone else is in their assigned station at night, which is why he can confidently leave the daycare, but Sun does not. He doesn’t care much for this job however and usually doesn’t do it.

-Sun tends to find a lot of the human staff incompetent. Between Moon’s bugs and twitches, the power issues in the daycare, the generators in the play equipment, and things regularly breaking down, he’s come to be impatient and exhausted with the maintenance crew. He quickly becomes exasperated when Moon starts to twitch out, because it means the past people to fix him did a shit job of it. Again.

-Sometimes ghosts of the past come to visit. Not to cause trouble, but just to check out how Freddy’s is doing. Charlie, being 3, is often snatched up by security and put in the daycare. Sun cannot figure out for the life of him how she keeps escaping so quickly whenever she’s brought in.

-Sun hates it when things are untidy. It’s just annoying to have stuff all over the place, and he prefers to keep it clean. Things being too much of a wreck can make him feel overwhelmed

-Sun occasionally calls Moon ‘Starlight’, and Moon regularly calls Sun ‘Sunny’ or ‘Sunshine’

-Sun manifests genders at Moon and he’s only very vaguely aware of it

-They both have a bit of merchandise, usually from staff bots handing it out near the daycare and Sun going ‘OOO we should have this!’ Sun has a Roxy graphic tee and Moon has one for Monty. It doesn’t fit the clown aesthetic but they wear them occasionally nonetheless

DJMM AND MAPBOT:

-Map Bot has the entirety of One Direction’s ‘You Don’t Know You’re Beautiful’ memorised

-DJ’s station is decorated with lots of maps, because Map Bot offers him a map every time he visits, and he accepts it every time

-Map Bot scares guests on purpose and thinks it’s hilarious

-DJ’s main body doubles as storage. That’s where all the mini men go.

-DJ tends to lose mini men because there’s too many for him to keep track of. Some have names. Some don’t. If he loses one, so be it. It’s every infant for himself in the Pizzaplex.

-Map Bot often carries Caution Bots around like they’re his babies. They enjoy it

-This might be the dumbest one yet but- DJ and Map Bot are possessed by Phone Dude and Phone Guy respectively. It started as a joke because we thought it was funny but now it’s stuck. They don’t remember ever being people, and nobody questions why Map Bot is significantly more expressive and talkative than the other staff bots.

-DJ gets along really well with the band members and occasionally talks them into performing along to his mixes. Roxy and Chica are most prone to caving, Roxy because she loves the attention and Chica because there’s no staff to tell her she’s not allowed to sing. They always have a good time

[bringcal]

Okayyy welcome to my first (kind of, I did do something like this one) blog post !!!! I finally finished school, so this past week and a half has just been doing my own thing, preparing for commissions to be open, and trying to sort out all my projects…

Here's all the stuff happening in my life that I'll touch on: I. Commissions and websites II. Schools over, my art plans III. Linux adventures in stupid-land

Commissions and websites I did, in fact, finish my commission page and commissions are open, I just haven't formally announced it here and have been taking them from smaller sources at first. Did a bit of a revamp of my commissions, and posted about making my own site page for people to use instead of a carrd or some graphic design poster type thing.

I'm really passionate about Neocities specifically and I really want to try to get other people into it because I believe a lot of my mutuals on here would have cool sites if they tried. I want people to understand its actually not that hard at all and they should not be taking the "coding anything at all is so intelligible and hard u need to be a super genius to understand anything" sentiments to heart about it because actually if you wanna make urself a nice little site on neocities its very simple to learn and even if your site is built like ass no one on there cares.

When I first opened my Neocities it took me a weekend to make a single page and honestly the longest part was just drawing all the assets I wanted. If you're a creative person like me maybe spend an evening just drawing out an idea of what you'd like your site to look like and congrats you're already part of the way there. Planning is the first step!

Schools over, my art plans NO MORE WORK !!! for the summer. Now I have to get a job. but I'm really considering what to do after this degree. I came in so set on being a psychologist and that dream got stomped out immediately. So then I just chose to be a teacher. and like, I still want that, but. I don't think I'm ready? I try hard to volunteer and get experience, but teachers college is extremely competitive I just can't sort my life out to get a lot of experience I need.

I'm thinking of going to art school for illustration first and putting myself further in debt cuz that shit slaps when you don't have to pay it just yet! I love free school!!!! future Ridley will hate me !!!

This section is much shorter cuz its more personal, but just know these considerations are taking up a LOT of my mind space rn X_X

Linux Adventures in stupid-land

Since school is over, I finally had a single braincell to try out Linux, and try out I did !

For some background, I am not really a tech savvy person, at least I don't think I am. I only ever got interested tech about a few months ago, and before that I just kinda used my stuff like a normal person (and I feel I honestly still mostly do? at least, I am not a programmer. I just play a lot of games and draw art.) and it was mainly my partner lecturing me on Basic Stuff is when i started to know a bit more of what i should and shouldn't be doing

I think because of this my partner has been really interested the entire time I've known them to see how a normal person would handle trying linux when all I've known my entire life is Windows and macOS makes me wanna cry!

At first it was not good, but it was pretty much because my partner took my laptop and put fedora on it and I hated it so bad it made me stop using my laptop entirely and treat it even worse than before. So my introduction was unwelcoming. It was only when I just decided to get Linux mint myself on my laptop when I was like oh ok this is fine actually. It was actually so fine that a week later I ended up backing up all my important shit on an external storage so I can blow up my Windows installation entirely on my desktop so I can exclusively try out CachyOS on my PC, which i use daily. 5 days in and it's been good! I've tried a few distros and nothing is as comfortable as Cachy is for me and it was very much the perfect introduction to the Terminal for me since when you're on mint you don't really need to use it for anything and mint is a lot like Windows 2, at least to me.

My desktop so far! It basically kinda just looks like how my windows did lmao, but I like it ^_^

It's really interesting because I think me alone trying it sparked a lot of people I am friends with and know to immediately ask for help so they can try out linux themselves and like. I don't even know much but I think that's exactly why they immediately asked because they know if I can do it they can too. I've written guides for them anyways despite being a new-baby because It's so unnecessarily complicated for new people to learn and get into cuz a lot of guides just Kind of assume the person is like, majoring in CS and already know 'basic' concepts. So I wrote one to make it even more basic. and doesn't assume where you're at coming in. I've been told to post it but I'm shy! ( and also, I'd wanna go back and make it even easier to follow)

I only had to give up a single game.. which is Infinity Nikki. Really soul crushing bc im obsessed w that game. I play it on mobile only now but its not the same because its so bad on mobile. weh! I at first also had to give up Davinci Resolve (program I use to make videos) but I found my way around that and now I can use it :3

[tennessoui]

may ko-fi: mer au part 3!!

ok so technically it is june now and officially no longer mermay but a girl was busy last night and watched challengers instead of writing mermaid sex and she's very sorry (disclaimer: there is no actual mermaid sex in this final part)

but i'm only a day late and i consider it a solid win!! the last part of the mer au fic has finally been posted on my ko-fi for monthly supporters to read and it puts the whole mer au at a completely unintentional 19k (that's not a special number i just thought the original fic would be like. 6k. so. whoops.)

here's a little snippet!:

“Yes,” Obi-Wan agrees. “For mers, usually when they’re courting, they—well. I suppose you know how mers court their intendeds.” Anakin blinks. “How would I know that?” Obi-Wan can feel his lips thin out for a moment, his eyes tighten. “You were the queen’s intended,” he reminds him carefully. “She must have courted you in the only way she knew how.” “Oh! Oh,” Anakin says. “Yeah, alright. She brought me things, yeah. Pearls and jewels and, uh. Fish at one point. So I gave her, like. A fork?” Obi-Wan closes his eyes for a moment and lets out a long breath through his nose. “She really liked the fork,” Anakin adds, defensive. “I’m sure,” Obi-Wan says, and the truth is he thinks she probably did love the human object. The queen has always been fascinated by the human world. Perhaps if she were born as any other mer, she would have tried, as Obi-Wan had tried, to live among them. Anakin looks over him critically. “You don’t have a fish, right?” he asks, sounding hesitant. “Only it was all bloody, and I’m not really…hungry. Right now.” “No, Anakin,” Obi-Wan says.

as a quick reminder to how these ko-fi fics work, every month i post at least one new ficlet (from 4k to apparently 19k) to ko-fi in the gallery section - each gallery post contains a link to a google doc in its image description, and you have to be a monthly supporter to access those image descriptions! there are quite a few at this point if you're interested but this is absolutely not at all something i expect or demand or any other hard action verbs from anyone who likes my writing (but im so so grateful and thankful for anyone who does ofc)!! im still posting fics on ao3 and on tumblr. it's just new and different fics up on ko-fi! they're all a bit silly, like superhero anakin x journalist (maybe villain?) obi-wan, jedi werewolf obi-wan and jedi anakin, divorce lawyer obi-wan x serial-groom anakin, etc etc

[oneforthemunny]

Always wanted to ask, how does each Eddie's house/apartment look like; where do you envision each of them living?

dom!eddie i picture living in a trailer sorta similar to wayne's. less stuff if that makes sense, since he hasn't lived there as long??? very boy decorated. mismatch, hand-me-down furniture. he tries to make it homey and tapes pictures of you and him on the wall lol. no frame, just packing tape and it's sweet and a little funny. quilts on the bed he got from wayne, posters in his room- maybe the living room. not a throw pillow in sight until you move in lol. probably like one plate, one fork, one spoon, one knife type vibe lol. very boy coded.

janitor!eddie i picture the same vibe as before (i'll call dom!eddie the default) until he moves in with you. i think it would be a small home. two bedrooms (technically three if you count the small 'office' space that you turned into a room). no garage, but he built a covering for you. it's very homey. he built shelves in the living room for all your books (i fuckin' lost the book blurb if anyone has it lol). lots of pictures on the wall, over the mantle. really just a very homey cozy vibe, and i'll leave how that looks up to you :)

older!eddie also has a house. it's not huge by any means, bigger than average. like a one story, three or four bedroom, two and a half bath kinda vibe. he got it after the divorce and he could afford it. he wanted brielle to have her own space and have some extra room for the hopeful future, and he's glad he did. probably very bare minimum as well before you moved in. like a nicer couch- no throw pillows, maybe one throw brielle bought at target, like one of those cheap ones from the $5 section lol. pictures of brielle in frames, but that's the only decor. not even a doormat. two flat ass pillows on the bed, but in nice sheets. a toothbrush holder, hand soap, and no towel on the bathroom. has a music room with his guitar and stuff, garage full of tools to do oil changes and stuff if he needs to. one half broken plastic laundry basket, and candles brielle brings home from bath and body works lol. please tell me you're getting the vibe lol.

mafia!eddie is a 180 entirely. ENTIRELY. mansion. he built it so it's new, but he wanted it to look gothic and ominous as fuck. like very unapproachable. dark exterior, steel gates at the front of the property. he bought land out in the middle of the woods in hawkins, off the beaten path for sure so you wouldn't see the entrance unless you were looking for it type? lots of dark red oriental carpets, red sheets, mahogany wood, chandeliers that are kinda dramatic and dark. all the furniture looks victorian but dark. i think it's mentioned in curiosity killed the cat that he was going for a vibe that was "a mix between dracula and the godfather" lol. large book shelves, candle opera lighting, dark grand stair well, bear skin rug (with the head bc he thought it looked sick). large, tall windows but all the glass is one way glass so it looks even freakier from the outside. very gothic victorian chic.

rockstar!eddie ok so pre-kids- he had a home in malibu, a penthouse in la. owns a couple different properties bc why not. he hired someone to decorate, but really it's like he put weird shit in there lol. like very rockstar- bachelor pad coded. like there's a fifty thousand dollar imported couch... next to light sabers on the wall that he won at a bidding bc they were used in a movie. bedroom is very... interesting lol. def has a waterbed in at least one room. has a bed post with clips for his... activities lol. probably a hook for a sex swing too. then a whole music memorabilia type room. plaques, his achievements, but also things he's collected.

tamed rockstar!eddie with kids- he lets nb decorate mainly but he also adds a few things. he designs the sex dungeon and it does in fact look like a dungeon. dramatic ass lighting, literal chain cuffs on the wall, a bed that with thick posts, mirror on the ceiling, a whole wall of toys. it's so him, like his mind. then he also has a studio in his basement. really, it started bc when he started having kids, he didn't want to leave his house. didn't want to drive into the city to record, so had one put there bc why not? he's got the $$ lol. he also gets the flowers pressed from their three weddings, the baby showers, any really big achievement- he'll get a bouquet made and pressed and preserved. nb always hangs them and decorates with them, and it makes him so proud lol.

bouncer!eddie lives in an apartment. it's very sketch, very cheap. like one bedroom, one bath, tiny ass kitchen and little living room. he literally just lives there. no personal touches beside a tv, a boombox. mattress on the ground, card table and folding chairs, leftover box as a nightstand, towel as a bath mat. he mainly stays at your place so he's not too worried about it, but the first time you come in, you're a little horrified.

cowboy!eddie- i know this is going to sound cliche but if you've ever seen the ranch on netflix lol. that's what i picture. like that wooden, ranch style house. a little older, i think it's been renovated since it was built like forever ago. small screened in porch, wooden dutch doors. a sun room in the back of the house with some house plants. an older couch and recliner, a wooden heater stove in the living room- it was apart of the original design of the house so he kept it, even with the ac/heating unit. patterned quilts on the bed, old school floral sheets that came with the house lol. really, he didn't do much to it besides add a few of his things when he moved in, because it was his grandparent's home before his.

modern!eddie had an apartment close to the park for a very small time. roomed with gareth, and then once he started staying with you, he didn't stay there anymore. probably didn't have a bed, but a futon they put in one of the rooms and had all their gaming stuff in it. he's victim of the striped, blue comforter that's faded as hell. has a rick and morty poster he put on the wall with thumb tacks. tv on the ground with his gaming stuff, wires everywhere. a closet that has shit spilling out of it. very messy lol.

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Hi Janelle! For the fic writer ask, I'd love to hear 18 or 19!

18. if you keep them, share a deleted sentence or paragraph from a published fic

Ok. I'm cheating b/c this is way more than a paragraph. This is an uncut scene from the potentially unfinished that night something turned in my heart (while you were sleeping, i fell in love). It's quite messy but i thought it was kinda fun so:

“Hey—! Give that here!”

Blue tries to snatch back the six-pack that J3’s swiped from Boss’s fridge, but J3 is quick, backing away and holding them far out of reach.

“Those aren’t yours!” says Blue.

“Seriously, Blue?”

“I mean it! Put it back, alright? Jace will kill us if—”

“Lighten up, will you? Ellie steals from Jaceprime all the time—don’t you, El?”

Ellie nods, but she’s too distracted to properly answer—or intervene. She’s been working through a restricted-section grimoire for handy spells, but she’s seen enough of their fights to still keep tabs on them from the couch, and seeing J3 lord over Blue, she clicks her tongue, shaking her head before returning to scribbling in her notebook.

Still. She’s not so disapproving as to turn down the beer can J3’s tossed in her direction. 

“Blue, c’mon. We can replace it. He’ll never know the difference.”

A beat. Recognizing an opportunity, a moment of doubt, of weakness, J3 goes in for the kill.

“I mean. Come monday, Boss’ll be saint to the god of war, I think he’ll be a little too preoccupied to care about the contents of his fridge.”

Blue eyes him warily, hesitates before saying, “Alright.” He holds out a hand. “Well?“

A beat. 

More forcefully this time. “Well?” he says again. “Share. Don’t hog it all for yourself, then.”

J3’s eyebrows raise, but he’s silent as he slowly hands a beer can over to Blue. Blue pops the tab and takes a drink before burping quietly, covering his mouth. “Oh! ‘Scuse me.”

J3 rolls his eyes. “El, can you believe this? He even burps adorably.” 

In response, Ellie shotguns the entire thing in one go and lets out a loud, drawn own burp of her own. 

Blue grimaces. “That’s so ladylike.”

She glares at him.

Blue mutters over his drink—“Excuse me for not jumping to get down in the muck with—”

“Yeah, yeah,” says J3 as he pops the tab on his own beer. “We’re a couple of heathens, I get it. Enough with the sermon, Blue, I swear I could—”

His head bobs as he pretends to snore.

“Very funny.”

J3 opens one eye. “Whatever happened to the whole ‘the meek shall inherit’ or however the Solesian saying goes—“

“‘Meek’? You?”

A beat.

“You sure you wanna take another sip of that beer? It’s a slippery slope for the fallen, Blue. Next thing you know you’ll be… having sex!” J3 mock-gasps. “Out of wedlock! The horror!”

“Ha ha, sorry, I thought that was your department.”

J3’s eyebrows raise—like he’s surprised by the retort. “Damn straight, it’s my department.” He grins, takes a swig.

A beat. Finally, Blue says, “And I—” His face scrunches up, turning bright red as he shouts—”I have sex! Damn it!” A tall, orange flame spurts from the open can in Blue’s hand, causing J3 to step back and yelp in surprise. A wild magic surge. Blue ignores it. “You—You know I—“

“Nice to see you guys getting along!” says Ellie pointedly, quick to interject—and cast Prestidigitation, snuffing out the fire. “I’m just—so glad we decided to take the night off.”

“Y’know,” says J3, turning away from Blue, sidling beside her on the couch. Leaning in close. “Taking the night off means taking the night off, El.” He places a hand on her wrist, trying to peer over her shoulder at her journal. Ellie snaps it shut, wrenching her hand away.

“Fuck off.”

He blinks. “Huh.” Ducks his head. “Guess I deserve that…”

Before Ellie can respond, Blue pipes up. “At least she’s working.”

“How does boot taste?” he snaps back. “I hear Boss’s are designer.”

Ellie tries to ignore the guilt heavy in her stomach. There may have been a time where she considered letting J3 in on her plan, but those days are gone. Still, J3 isn’t stupid. He knows she’s up to something—knows what she’s hiding from Blue. 

“For fuck’s sake!” says Ellie. “Can—Can you guys just—drop it already?”

A beat.

“Please?”

She can see J3’s throat bob.

“Alright. I’m sorry, El.” He glares at Blue. “I’m sorry for wanting to enjoy what’s left of my time on this plane .” His crystal chirps. J3 pulls it out of his back pocket. “Speaking of—”

Blue frowns. “You say that like—”

“I know what it sounds like.”

Silence.

“Look, the election is next fucking week. This isn’t just some second rate archfey. We’re waking a devil. The goddamn goddess of war. You think she’s just gonna take this lying down?”

Blue doesn’t answer.

“And it’s—” J3 laughs a wry, hoarse laugh. “it’s like you said, El, we don’t even—”

Don’t.

It’s enough. All it takes is a Message, a single word, and her voice in his head gets him to shut his mouth.

J3’s eyes flits toward Ellie—they hold gaze for what feels like an eternity.

(She doesn’t have to explain, he knows what she means. They both remember the conversation. It wasn’t easy to forget. How they’d argued for days about what to do when the Ascension came. How Ellie wanted to fight, and J3 had proposed a plan—pled with her to use her Ring of Disguise Self to run away, while he took her place.

How she’d threatened to break his nose if he tried.

He doesn’t get to do that. Ignore her for weeks, then come crawling back now that the God of War and his beloved Saint Stardiamond are reunited, intertwined once more.

It’s not fair.)

“All I’m saying—” says J3, and Ellie notices that for once, she can detect the concerted effort it's taking for him to keep his voice even, “—is that… a lot could go wrong. And—And if they have to throw someone in the line of fire, who do you think it’s gonna be? Porter’s Saint Stardiamond, or His Precious Little Gift? My number’s been up for a long time, we all know it.”

“J3.” Ellie wants to stay mad at him, but she can’t.

“What? It’s true. We all know it. I’m not the best caster or favorite like you, Blue, and I’m not the best researcher, like El. All I have is this—” J3 points to his own face. “And these.” He dangles the remaining cans in the six-pack. His crystal chirps once more.  J3 glances down. “‘Strongtower Luxury Apartments’?” She can see the jaw in his muscle flex as he hesitates, see the cogs turning as he mulls it over. “Sure, I can swing that.” J3 grins at the pair of them. “So to hell with both of you.” And with a flash of light, a loud crack, and the smell of ozone left in his wake, J3 vanishes.

Also I wanna do my due dilligence lest i get James Somertoned but the framework & some of the dialogue is shamelessly pilfered from this scene I also have a cut scene where I actually show the J3 and Ellie argument and i quite like that one too even if it is melodramatic. I'll probably post it sometime when i'm less bonked on the head by hammers....

19. the most interesting topic you’ve researched for a fic

Omg whenever this question comes up i feel so self conscious because i HATE doing research and i hate admitting that i don't like doing research…. But I did end up in this whole rabbithole about tolkien elvish and just conlangs in general… For… No reason…. I say as i stared at my wieldy unfinished xianxia wip….