#onlinediary

[cherrye0]

online 💻 O_o

[xomicaiah]

she's back

there’s a quiet part of me that’s always wanted this — not a platform, not a brand, but a place to place things.

this is for the fragments: voice notes from the in-between, stills that never made it to the grid, poems i don’t need to perfect, things God said in the dark.

this is where i’m gathering what’s been scattered.

music, motherhood, faith, art, ache, light.

some things will be polished. most won’t.

but i’ll be here, piece by piece.

— xo, micaiah

[written-by-m]

Unexpected happenings.

We all met people for a reason. So make sure to be ready when unexpected things happens.

I was talking to a guy for almost 6 months, we always talk everyday talk about our lives and what happened to our daily work. Until I got attached, but I am so afraid that we might not have the same intensions with each other, so I still talk to him even though I am not sure if this is going somewhere. Until one day, it suddenly stopped. We lost our contact with each other, he starts not replying. And that's how I realized that there's nothing going between us. We are just friends. That 6 months of continuously talking with each other is just nothing.... for him.

That's why I decided not to message him anymore, cause remember no answer is an answer.

Until I met another guy, we have been talking for a few weeks, we connected a lot in different ways. Interests and hobbies. After a few weeks of talking, its weird and strange that I felt something different. He makes me feel happy everyday in that 1 week span. And I know he feels the same way because he is very vocal about it. He keeps saying that I am adorable, and likes everything about me. Until we decided to take it to the next step.

That's the time I realized that, it's not really about the timeline, it's about the intention of the person you will meet. You might be able to meet a someone and stay in your life for almost a year but in the end, their intention is not to pursue you. Then you will meet again someone and get to know them for a week but they will let you feel that you're their universe.

So make sure you are giving your precious times to someone who has the same intention as you are.

[pipers-hell]

Sometimes I wonder if I actually enjoy people. I think I like the attention I get from people or maybe I’m just saying this so it hurts less when they leave. Anyway I dyed my hair red and my bird likes it :) I’m really tired waiting for the Wi-Fi man.

[zephblogs]

life so far is based on routine and sometimes few surprises in between. latest addiction has been watching a lot of Criminal Minds and pasabuy. I've gone broke but finishing all my loans and I am forever grateful to my boyfriend and mom for lending me money. I cut back on my coffee spending, online pasabuy and foodpanda/grabfood habits to save the money to pay my debts.

i dont know shopping online and receiving things brings me joy. Anyways, I'm gonna sell some of the things I bought that I wasn't able to use due to the fact I already like a similar kind of bag. Hopefully I'll be able to sell and get a customer to buy.

[elykmbr]

Check out this post… "∷ Fifth For 2025 ∷".

http://aloststarinbetween.blogspot.com/2025/05/fifth-for-2025.html

[underoroverthebridge]

Day 1: A New Beginning

Date: May 15th, 2025

I wanted to start a blog, and I finally did. Honestly im both excited and nervous. All 15, nearly 16 years of my life, ive been trashing blogs. I sorta never understood it, sharing my life with some rando who didin't know me. Looking back, though, I think part of me was more afraid someone WOULD know me, and in turn, confront me for my thoughts. So maybe it wasnt failing to understand it, but fear I would simply enjoy it too much.

I also worry that no one will listen, however that seems silly when I really think about it. If no one looks, then its ok because that means im safe, but if everyone looks that's ok because it means I was heard. Either way, nothing too terrible can come of this.

I began today, now, at 10:40 on a random thursday because I felt an urge to talk to someone, anyone, about how I was expiriencing life. Yet, no one was available. Funny, isint it? I couldn't find anyone so I sent the message to everyone. I suppose thats one way to do it.

Quite honestly, this may feel more like a public diary than a blog, but oh well, right? If you know me, thats fine, and if not, that's great. I guess the hardest part is choosing a topic to share, but I could talk for hours on anything. I think for this first blog post, im going to share with you my goal, and plan.

The Goal

The goal is quite complex actually, even im not fully sure of the ultimate goal. I think right now it falls somewhere in the: "Be relatable and honest to make others feel better." Or something like that. I began writing this specific post to explain myself. I want a chance to write down how I feel, to explain the sickening feelings of everyday thoughts and emotions. Perhaps that makes this more of a rant.

Either way, my goal is for those who may or may not read it to nod along and know they have someone out there who understands, atleast to some capacity. However I dont expect too much, I mean, ive never even read a blog. Do people still read blogs? I guess we'll find out. Anyways, back on topic, the plan.

The Plan

The plan has multiple steps, most of which will likely at some point be changed to accomodate whatever tornado is currently ripping it's way through my brain. I think, quite honestly I may just pick a random topic, and write about it.

Time wise, I dont really have a plan. Im hoping to achieve atleast 1 post per week but who knows, it may be every other week or every other day. Perhaps I forget to do this for myself and lose it, even. I hope not, though. I quite enjoy writing, and to lose it because im afraid of failure seems futile. I also want to share a little background with you, reader, mostly because if I dive into random things, how would you ever begin to understand a fraction of my mind?

The Motherload of Honesty

Here's a little about me. I have quite a few friends, although most feel more like someone to talk to when no one else is around. If I only counted my real and true friends, I think i'd only have a handful. I wont ever use real names, mostly because it's a tad disrespectful to put people out there, but don't worry i'll keep a consistant theme.

Back to the point, Im not the most active person. Im not an attective person, but by no means am I considered, "ugly." I would say, im more of a conventionally slightly less then avarage person. Short, longer hair that I have probably damaged beyond repair from my use of straighteners in the 8th and 9th grade. Im in 10th now, or a sophmore for those who dislike numbers. I have freckles on my face and arms, scattered across my skin. Sure, this sounds like narrative writing but im being honest here. I wont add anything else appearence wise do to its non-importance, but I think thats enough anyways.

I actually play an instrument, the cello. If you know what that is, I love you, if you dont, it's a smaller bass or an extremely large violin. It's actually cool because it is the closest orchestral instrument to a human voice.

Im not a serial dater, but I have dated a few people. Particularly this one guy who i'll call Noah. Noah meant alot to me, but it didint work out due to the fact he found someone better. I can't deny I miss the relationship, but to say I miss him specifically would be a small reach.

Im actually still friends with Noah, yea yea, say im crazy. He found happiness and im happy for him, but to explain the situation of why im his friend, why he and I have the relationship we do and what that means would take a whole post by itself. I suppose I should wrap this up.

I want to lastly say, that I do plan on getting personal, because I believe it's the only way i'll recognize myself at this rate. Hopefully it works, and I wish us all luck on our journey to discover the world for what it truly is.

See ya on the flip side, signing out, ♤Bridge♤.

[mhaajtaer]

Diary

Hiii !!

I cant wait to watch sk8 ova !! Ive been waiting for SOOOO long. I read 13th nd 14th volume of spy x family. I love my sweet girl Anya sm. She's so cute. Tbh for me all manga could focus on her and I wouldn't mind💞 I also read Onyx Storm nd Crying in H Mart (or smth). Onyx Storm was better than two previous books. Tho I still don't understand the hype. I hate Xayden nd Violets relationship. Crying in H Mart was better! I really liked this, even listened to some songs of the band in which the author is the singer (ig).

This year Im having pretty important exams and today at school I had like mock exams of these. OML IVE DONE SO MANY STUPID MISTAKES😭😭 Like I wrote that - √ 20 is more than 3 √ -64 BECAUSE I DIDNT SEE THE 3 I HATE MYSELF A LOT. At least I could leave the school earlier. These exams arent very important for ME though. I won competition and Ill get into every school I'd like to anyway but I simply hate not being the best istg

Yesterday my ex's ex aka Z sent to me some stupid messages and checked my messages with my ex. I hate Z. I miss my ex :((

I hope youre doing great!

[xomicaiah]

I think I’m just at a point in my life where I don’t want to be identified by anyone—or anything—except me. I know who I am. And then, I don’t.

I’m not connected to my roots. They were severed.

But I am learning. I am growing. And I think I’m just at a point in my life where I need space to become.

When we are perceived through old lenses, it’s hard to emerge. Hard to evolve. Hard to be seen in the light we’re now stepping into.

Let’s face it— we are spiritual beings.

We carry our own energy, our own power, our own light.

We possess a spirit and a soul.

Energy is always being exchanged. And too often, it’s absorbed— by force, by habit, by history.

But I don’t want to absorb anything unless it’s born of my own cultivation, or poured into me by my Creator.

I want to be unstoppable. Untouchable. Rooted. True.

Unmistakable. Undeniable.

Firm. True. Me. Not you.

Do we find ourselves? Or do we become ourselves? Is there a difference?

Maybe in finding, we become. Maybe in becoming, we find.

This is the work. The becoming. The unbecoming.

Unlearning and learning. Noticing and removing. Transforming and cycling.

And in all of it— I am choosing me.

Becoming, still.

[uniwithgrace]

well then

tbh i've been in uni for 6 weeks now, lived here for 8 weeks - i've been so busy i forgot to even blog icl. it's been great tho, genuinely one of the best periods of my life so far so i'm very happy.

going to a halloween party tonight doing a duo costume with my best mate which will be so good.

ALSO GOT TICKETS TO SEE THE DARE NEXT YEAR!!!

anyway

i'll try to keep on top of updating this, sorry for the quietness.

[elykmbr]

Check out this post… "∷ Four of 2025 ∷".

http://aloststarinbetween.blogspot.com/2025/04/four-of-2025.html

[calistataylor]

i rlly think i want him 2 b mine #onlinediary

[science-plundered-our-moxie]

Hi Everyone I dont know why i dont use this app more

its like an OnlineDiary

[xomicaiah]

what do you do when you don't wanna do?

yeah, you read that correctly.

what do you do? when you don't want to go? when you don't want to see? when you don't want to speak?

what do you do? when you feel disrespected? when you feel manipulated? when you feel misunderstood, on purpose...?

what do you say when you don't want to speak? when standing up and speaking out makes you out to be mean?

what do you do when you don't want to lose? the losing game.

how do you win when you're so right within, and the others are tainted -- stains of scars and bruises. of pain and trauma. of things you have no sight of, for they are buried and bothered.

and i understand, for i have them too. yet, i do not let them bleed and bleed all over you.

...

i want to be free and i want to love.

i want to be open.

but how do i fly when there's so much wind???

it's raining and it's thundering and the windows are covered.

how do i be myself when i'm around the others?

[uniwithgrace]

uni so far

uni's been okay met some nice people but my accommodation is a NIGHTMARE