#or maybe a diff ask at a later date

[skeletonlvr22]

Hey! I was wondering which state do the other skelies live in?Like Wine seemed really surprised when he found out that Coffee was in Indiana, so is Indiana really far away from the state that they live in? Where on the map do the rest of the skeleton bros live?

Hope this question makes sense. Love the fic BTW ❤

Hiii!!! This is actually such a fun question!

So, when planning the fic out, I wanted Mt. Ebott (both the mountain and the city) to be in a place that IRL there wouldn't be mountains (I think it adds something that there shouldn't be a mountain there, but there is anyway) but also a place that a fictional one wouldn't be too out of place.

So, strangely, I looked up where some of the Appalachian plains are! I figured it was in a close enough area in a semi-mountainous region that could theoretically house a mountain but typically doesn't.

Funnily enough, there is some in Ohio, so I choose that as their genesis, specifically somewhere in the southeast.

Plus, if magic and monsters were going to burst out of a random mountain anywhere in America, I believe Ohio is definitely in the top three areas, even if the closest thing to a mountain in Ohio is an overzealous hill. 😭 Basically, the skeletons are from Ohio because of course they would be.

Oh! And about Wine, Indiana isn't exactly far from Ohio (in my opinion lol), but to Wine it totally is especially in reference to Coffee. If memory serves correct, it's about a four hour drive from Ohio to Indiana. Realistically, walking from one end of the underground to the other would take maybe a few hours on foot and Coffee's driving. In contrast, it's a huge distance, and one that makes Wine feel wildly out of (control) reach.

Thank you so much for the love 💗 I really enjoyed answering this 😊

[mejaemin]

caramel!hyuck 500 event ₊˚⊹ ᰔ

⋆𐙚₊°｡⋆♡ a q&a event celebrating my 500 follower mark !!!

18+ mdni !!! wc: 2k warnings: fluff, cursing, suggestive for questions 3 and 4, smut for #5! (mentions of exhibitionism, nipple play, leg.. humping? idfk…) slight angst in question 2 an: tysm for 500 followers guys !!! i hope you all enjoy this !! finally more caramel lore !!! sorry that they’re all diff lengths tho…

⋆𐙚₊°｡⋆♡ questions below! ￬

question 1: “AHH i deffo wanna see how caramel hyuck and yn first date was like!”

it was the cutiest thing ever !!! you saw (hopefully) how starstruck he was in lovestruck, so imagine how he’d be on the first date !!!

he was soso nervous, all clammy and fidgety upon meeting you at your apartment to take you to your first date w him: the movie theater!

he didn’t know much about you then so he picked something basic, allowing you to choose the movie

“what if you don’t care for this kind of stuff?” you asked, and all he knows is that you’re so gorgealicious he’ll like anything you pick..

hyuck meets you at your door exactly one minute after he said he’d arrive. truthfully, he was there on time, but was too scared to knock and wasted an entire minute.

you opened the door to his sweet smile, and a bouquet of pastel pink flowers with hello kitty inserts. some of them even have glitter, and you take them with a smile to go put them in a vase. once done, you finally greet him properly with a hug and make your way to the movies

he drives the both of you there. it’s kind of awkward, both of you sitting in silence save for the music he lets you play. eventually his hand slips over the middle console, slipping it into your own. heart fluttering, you wait until he turns his head to pull your phone out to take a picture. that’s definitely going on your story later.

once you arrive at the theater, he pays for the movie of your choice. any snacks you want, or movie related merchandise, he pays for. once you finally sit down in the room, you take a few selfies with him before the movie plays. in the darkness, his hand finds yours again, and by the time you walk out your tongues are purple, although you each had a red and blue slushy.

question 2: “them meeting e/o parents maybe!”

im gonna start with you meeting his, because i think hyuck will require a little more discussion…

truthfully, there’s not much you have to be afraid of!

hyuck knows just how to reassure you, taking any and all worries out of your head

and his reassurances were right! they adored you <3

him on the other hand… let’s just say he’s a wreck meeting yours

donghyuck calls out to you, using your real name, sounding so distressed you’d think he’s dying.

you run to your bedroom, finding him standing in front of the full body mirror on the verge of tears. walking behind him, your arms wrapping around his midsection.

“one,” you start, slipping one hand under his shirt, gliding it over his stomach. it isn’t something done with suggestive intentions, rather for comfort as he enjoys having skin to skin contact. “you’re not allowed to call me by my name anymore.” he mumbles a ‘sorry baby,’ and you peck his jawline before continuing. “and two, why are you so nervous? there’s no reason to be so worried.”

he looks at you in the mirror, lip between his teeth. he’s fidgeting, and you take one of his hands to keep him from picking.

“am i dressed nice enough? i don’t know.. i’m actually so scared right now i could throw up.” he says, eyes wide and serious as he speaks.

you move to stand in front of him, arms wrapped around his neck. he hides his face in your own, pulling you into a hug so tight you almost can’t breathe. “you look soso cute hyuckie, promise. and they’ll love you. so much. so stop freaking out, okay?”

he picks his head up. “but-”

you cut him off. “shh. they’re gonna like you so much, okay? but if we don’t leave right now, we’ll be late and then that might change.”

that’s all it takes for him to run for his jacket, dashing outside to start the car. the whole ride there, he’s nervously rambling, until the moment you arrive. your mom coos at his anxious self the moment she sees him, already in love.

he had nothing to worry about.

question 3: “what do you think the most romantic date him and yn went on is??”

i think the most romantic would be any date that you’re going on to celebrate you

every time you go out together, he makes you feel special, always going out of his way

however, times that it’s for a milestone of yours are always more grand

for example, one that he’s the most proud of taking you on is your one year anniversary!

he went so hard with it that he ended up eating ingredients for the next month because of how much money he spent..

arriving home, you walk in the door and simply lean against the wall in exhaustion. it was a long day, spent strolling through your area’s shopping district, walking around with so many bags you might tip over. after the fact, your arms could finally rest after the bags were all put away in hyuck’s car, him driving you to a restaurant so expensive the prices weren’t even on the menus. with candles lit and expensive wine in hand, you held hands over the table while having a meal so well made it nearly solved all your life problems.

being the gentleman he is, hyuck carried all your bags inside for you and set them in the living room for you to take care of later. coming back to you, he gets on one knee (no, not for that yet!) to help remove your shoes. you smile down at him tiredly, sighing when he massages the pain away. standing up, he takes your hand and starts leading you down the hallway. there’s pink and red petals scattered over the floor, trailing all the way to your bedroom door.

he pushes it open, gently pushing you in front of him to enter the bedroom first. as soon as you step in, you could nearly cry. there’s a big ‘1’ balloon above your headboard, electric candles on the nightstands, along with more rose petals on the bed in the shape of a heart. right in the middle is two small boxes, and he follows behind you to watch you open them.

“god, this was so cheesy. sorry. anyway, if you’re too tired for anything that’s okay, but i really want you to open those first.” he says, fidgeting nervously.

opening the boxes, there’s two matching rings. your favorite kind of metal, encasing your favorite gem. handing the bigger one to your boyfriend, he slides it on before snatching yours to put it on himself.

he kisses your ring finger. “i promise to marry the shit out of you someday.”

with teary eyes, you smile, kissing his palms when he goes to wipe your tears away. “thank you, thank you so much hyuckie, this is all so sweet of you.” your lips connect for a sweet, teary yet loving kiss, and you pull him down onto the bed with you. “and i’m never too tired for you.”

question 4: “would love to suprise him with pearl jewelry adorning me, after only having worn plain jewelry around him, only for him to be adorning a necklace of our intial…”

YOU KNOW HIM SO WELL

he’s so obsessed with you, so much so that he finds himself actually doubting if you’re as crazy as him

given, this is pretty tame, but if he saw you with his birthstone on your neck, in your ears…

not only are you getting pounced on, but he’s fighting the urge to get your name permanently inked into his skin, settling for jewelry of his own, similar to yours

you’re minding your business, sitting at your vanity. there’s a designer shop bag next to you, one you finally were able to buy yourself after sneaking out to shop without hyuck so he couldn’t pay for you. there’s a stacked necklace set, with three necklaces inside it. putting the first one on, it’s a thin chain with pearls dotted along it that rests right above your collarbone.

the next one lays right underneath it, a simple chain with his first initial dangling from it. the last one is matching the shortest necklace, save for a larger pearl pendant in the middle. you take a few pictures in the mirror, including one where you put the necklaces on the longest setting, taking a picture of them hanging in your cleavage to send to your boyfriend later. for now, it‘d stay a surprise. giggling, you readjust them to how they were before, before going back to lazing around.

eventually, you’re dozing off on the couch, when hyuck unexpectedly walks in your front door. standing up and stretching, you walk over to greet him with a hug and kiss. however, when you pull away, you see a new piece of jewelry around his neck. smiling, you realize that he had coincidentally bought his own initial necklace, this time with your first initial.

running a hand over the cool metal, you look up at him with what can only be seen as pure joy and amusement. “when did you do this?”

“just got it before i came here.” very much intentionally, he stares down at your chest that was pressed against his, when he spots your necklace. “..and those are for me?”

when you nod, he groans, pulling you into him closer before letting his lips connect to your neck. “oh, mama, you’re doing crazy, crazy things to me…”

question 5: “I wanted to ask about what r their kinks and how did they found out about It? Like they just talk It out or It was in the moment?”

you and hyuck have a type of relationship where it’s hard to keep your hands off of each other, and so they all came to be in a situation where it sort of just happened

but… i’m sure we all know a really big one for them is exhibitionism ( ¬ᴗ¬)

it’s rare for you guys to have this be a proper conversation, save for it being a sort of icebreaker when you guys first started dating (he’s weird okay?)

sometimes he’ll bring it up, but bc it’s kind of an awkward convo he only talks ab it with you if it’s like a 1am extremely delirious random convo thing

you can tell hyuck’s tired out of his mind with the way his head keeps rising and falling against your stomach, yet he refuses to fall asleep. if it weren’t for the weight of his head constantly being dropped on you, you’d be right there with him.

“donghyuck, go to sleep please.” you groan.

using his full name was supposed to make him listen, but apparently he doesn’t care at all when he looks at you, eyes bloodshot and nearly rolling back into his head with fatigue.

“can i please put your tits in my mouth?” he begs, taking your hand and giving you his best puppy eyes.

your eyebrows nearly reach your hairline, jaw on the floor. “are you serious? what the hell is wrong with you?”

he laughs. “what’s wrong with me is that i can’t have your tits in my mouth.”

you sigh, aggressively pulling the blanket up to your chin (covering his head in the process) and closing your eyes. “fine. you can do all that in the morning. but please, please, go to sleep.”

‘okay,’ he whispers, and he’s actually silent for a while, until he starts speaking again, “can i have them right now too? pleaseee? i don’t think i can sleep without them..”

you groan, yell, even, pulling your shirt off. immediately he’s grabbing one, before taking the other and pulling your nipple between his lips. he hums, and surprisingly he actually stays silent, falling asleep just like that. you finally do too, however it feels like you barely slept a minute when your eyes open to the morning sun, hyuck desperately humping your leg with his face in between your boobs.

caramel!hyuck 🏷️ @chenlezip @coquettejunnie

[reidsc0nverse]

pov your instagram when dating spencer reid pt 5

so it seems everyone loves these lol (i can do other characters from diff shows too btw just ask!!)

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(y/n) So babysitting was fun

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AaronHotchner You guys are never babysitting Jack ever again.

-> (y/n) it was his idea hotch 🙄

-> AaronHotchner For Reid to hit him in the head with a baseball bat???

-> spencerreid1 Yes.

-> (y/n) go ahead and ask him

-> AaronHotchner ...

jjareau Y/n I really hope this isn't how you guys get the boys to sleep...

-> emilyprenty I mean if it works 🤷🏻‍♀️

-> (y/n) @/emilyprenty exactly

paparossi Maybe you two shouldn't be parents...

-> spencerreid1 This method was never in any parenting books but it should be.

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(y/n) power outage in the bureau ‼️‼️

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derekm The generators kicked on literally three minutes later

-> (y/n) didnt stop spence from screaming like a little girl

-> spencerreid1 @/(y/n) I did not.

-> emilyprenty We all heard it reid don't lie to yourself

princesspennyg Squad 😎

-> (y/n) ong 💯

-> jjareau For real

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(y/n) Brought him to barbie (he cried)

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princesspennyg Okay but who DIDNT cry??

-> paparossi I didnt

-> AaronHotchner @/paparossi Dave you were a blubbering mess don't even.

-> (y/n) HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

-> emilyprenty LMAO

spencerreid1 I'm glad to say I'm not a Ken.

-> (y/n) but you are kenough baby

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(y/n) Im obsessed with him

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jjareau Awwwww

-> spencerreid1 I know right. :)

-> (y/n) @/spencereid1 shut up

derekm You have to wake up to THAT every morning

-> emilyprenty yeah instead of me

-> (y/n) @/emilyprenty ��‍♀️🤷‍♀️

[syluses]

What does step!dad Sylus thinks if he finds reader constantly hanging out with bois that aren't twins?

GASP

OR WORST! WITH OTHER DILF! LIs!?

i think to some extent,�� some versions of stepdad! Sylus wouldn’t feel all too cozy with the idea of her spending an exorbitant amount of time with even just the twins. we know how playful (but overall good-spirited) the twins can be- and they genuinely enjoy their stepsister’s company; it’s only natural they’d want to monopolize her schedule, right?? they fail to see the issue with it. that is, until they notice someone else, their pops, has an issue with it … 👀

i really can see sylus reacting in diff ways but if we’re strictly talking about HWWIW sylus, he’s more or less completely fine with mc hanging around his sons- perhaps a little worried they’ll get on her nerves or let something slip that they shouldn’t, sure… he’s nothing if not the concerned stepfather after all- but there’s no real jealousy involved. he actually sees it as a great thing if they are in fact bonding— if only because it instills in him the spark of hope that mc will come to see the three of them as her true family someday. preferably sooner rather than later.

if the boys, with the genuine, welcoming warmth they show her beneath all their teasing and sometimes infuriating pranks, can kinda serve as the ‘gateway drug’ if you will for mc’s heart to open up to more of their company, affection, etc- and indirectly encourage a fondness for them in her- then sylus is very pleased with that.

In any case, what daddy wouldn’t like to see his two impish rascals pouncing around with his sweet, does-no-harm, perfect hates his guts little angel? 😇

Any boys or men that aren’t the twins (and lets be clear: any guy younger than sylus even by a whit is absolutely no more than a boy in his eyes), though, loitering around his stepdaughter?? …Oof he don’t like that 👀 not at all.

I shant say more on the matter 😭

OH but okay. Other dilf LIs. Hypothetically, of course, if any of the other lads men were to weasel their way into this series’ universe— i dunno, maybe mc is getting a routine checkup from a very reputable, silver-fox doctor; she meets an older military man at a local cafe she used to frequent and he asks for a date over coffee; she runs into a retired painter who still sometimes takes small commissions on the side just for the love of the game— this is dangerous territory to sylus.

If they’re dilfs too, then he’s already kinda forced to look their way and acknowledge them because one) if they were to try to romance his perfect girl, this likely isn’t with the same intents as a flirty jock or an immature, doesnt know what he wants boy around her age. and two) sylus is quietly aware of the, ahem, father and family issues that mc wordlessly struggles with, and if there’s the off chance that she might end up looking to them for guidance or love instead of eventually him— oooh boyyyyyy that’d boil his blood like nothing else. So while he might scoff at a boy coming into the picture, he has no choice but to take this thing seriously.

Okay i really shant say no more 😭👉🚪

[elliespassagerprincess]

Could you write Ellie x reader where they’re both in high school (but in diff schools) and Ellie goes to one of reader’s school events (like football or something) and reader just introduces Ellie to all her friends and her fav teacher and stuff? And she’s just so proud and it’s just so fluffy and adorable?

ANYWAYS LOVE U AND UR WRITING, MWAH MWAH!

Headcannons: highschooler!ellie williams x reader

masterlist

☆ Ellie’s been counting down the days until she can finally go to your school event.

☆ She literally asks for the day off school under the excuse of “a very important educational visit.”

☆ Tries to act cool about it, but you catch her checking the weather so she knows what jacket to wear.

☆ She lowkey stalked your school website and memorized your mascot, colors, and football record.

☆ Wakes up early the morning of the game to get ready like it’s a date.

☆ She steals Dina's hair gel to make her undercut look flawless.

☆ She has two options for her outfit laid out on the bed: grungy Ellie™ or approachable girlfriend Ellie™.

☆ She chooses the outfit that smells like you the most — because it “feels lucky.”

☆ Texts you twenty minutes before arriving: “Are u gonna be wearing ur lil school colors?”

☆ Brings you a Gatorade, your favorite candy, and a Sharpie because she wants your signature on her hand “like a rockstar.”

☆ She walks in like she owns the place… but you can totally tell she’s overwhelmed.

☆ She's taller than half the students so everyone kind of moves out of the way for her.

☆ Holds your hand the second she finds you — tightly, like she needs grounding.

☆ She tries not to blush when she hears people whispering, “Who’s that??”

☆ Someone asks if she’s your “college girlfriend” and she smirks.

☆ Your friends instantly start teasing you — Ellie smiles like she’s proud of that.

☆ She brought her sketchbook and doodles a little cartoon version of your school mascot with devil horns.

☆ You introduce her to your best friend, and Ellie tries so hard to impress them.

☆ One of your teachers comes up, and Ellie stands a little straighter.

☆ When you say, “This is Ellie. My girlfriend,” she just melts on the spot.

☆ She shakes your English teacher’s hand like she’s meeting a celebrity.

☆ When your math teacher says you’re one of their smartest students, Ellie literally beams with pride.

☆ “Yeah, I know… she’s kind of a genius,” Ellie whispers, holding your hand tighter.

☆ She makes awkward small talk but it’s endearing — “So… uh… what’s your favorite historical war?”

☆ One teacher compliments your good behavior and Ellie nearly bursts, like, Yes, she’s an angel. Tell me more.

☆ When a teacher makes a joke about you being too quiet in class, Ellie just says, “She’s loud with me.”

☆ The look your teacher gives the both of you is one of approval — and maybe a little scandalized.

☆ She tries to remember every teacher’s name just to ask you about them later.

☆ Someone mentions your academic achievements, and Ellie tells them you’re “the smartest girl she knows” without hesitation.

☆ Later she says, “I should’ve told them you also smell good. That’s an achievement too.”

☆ Ellie’s pretending to watch the game but she’s mostly watching you.

☆ She sits behind you with her hands on your waist or arms wrapped around your stomach (the broke boyfriend hug lmao)

☆ “Is that your school’s quarterback? I could totally take him,” she mutters.

☆ Someone shouts your name from the field and Ellie nearly jumps up with excitement.

☆ When your school scores, she cheers like she’s been a fan her whole life.

☆ You give her a school pin and she wears it like a badge of honor.

☆ She lets you put war paint on her cheeks in your school colors.

☆ Tells the person next to her that she’s “only here because the love of her life goes here.”

☆ You buy her a soda from the snack shack and she insists it’s the “best one she’s ever had.”

☆ Tries to get a picture with you under the bleachers like it’s a romcom moment.

☆ She’s so obviously smitten that everyone in a five-mile radius knows you’re hers.

☆ You walk her past your locker and she insists on leaving a sticky note in it for you to find later.

☆ When someone flirts with you, Ellie casually wraps her arm around your shoulders and kisses your temple.

☆ She insists on taking a million selfies together: by your school sign, in front of your classroom, under the bleachers.

☆ When you talk about your plans for college, she listens like she’s planning your future home.

☆ She offers to walk you to class “just to see what it’s like being the pretty girl’s boyfriend for a day.”

☆ Ellie asks if your school ever throws dances and says she’d rent a suit just to match your dress.

☆ Asks if she can attend your prom even if she’s technically a year older.

☆ Whispers “I love you” into your ear during the halftime show when no one’s watching.

☆ She plays with your fingers the entire time like it’s her favorite fidget toy.

☆ You walk her around the empty halls while everyone clears out.

☆ She gets weirdly nostalgic even though she’s never been a student there.

☆ Says, “If I went here, I’d sit next to you in every class. Even if I failed.”

☆ Traces your name on your desk like it’s sacred.

☆ Steals one of your pens and puts it in her jacket pocket for “emotional support.”

☆ Tells you you’re the prettiest girl this school has ever seen.

☆ Walks you to your car like it’s a date, opens your door, and buckles your seatbelt.

☆ Kisses you in the parking lot like a movie moment — long, slow, and full of love.

☆ Hugs you so tightly like she never wants to leave.

☆ Whispers, “You’re my favorite place in this whole school.”

☆ Texts: “Your school’s kinda lame but 10/10 would go again if you’re there.”

☆ Sends you a photo of your note from the locker, taped to her bedroom wall.

☆ You get a notification that she changed her profile picture to one of you two at the game.

☆ Posts “My girl >>> your whole school” on her story.

☆ You FaceTime her in bed and she’s still wearing your school pin.

☆ She shows you the page in her sketchbook where she drew you in your school hoodie.

☆ Says, “You don’t even know how proud I was to be introduced as your girlfriend.”

☆ Tells you that seeing you in your world made her love you even more.

☆ Whispers, “Next time it’s your turn. I’m dragging you to my school. Everyone needs to see the girl I brag about.”

☆ Ends the night with: “I’ll dream about kissing you under those bleachers for the rest of my life.”

[tara-the-star]

special agent browning x special agent towns

the pair met in the academy (i dont really know what the place where fbi agents train is called so all my knowledge comes from agents of shield so). browning was insanely obsessed with our favourite quiet, tall, brooding, jock- towns (number 9)((he played baseball)). to the extent that towns often joked that browning would get recruited by the fbi sooner if they knew about how much time he spent analysing towns' behaviour, trying to decode him.

they dated for a bit back in their final year but broke up before they graduated(on friendly terms) bc they were assigned to diff departments. while both of them did try to find new people after that, you can never really forget your first love now can you?

now imagine towns's surprise when he opens his latest case file, only to see a name that was all too familiar to him. it was a classic stakeout (browning absolutely hated stakeouts but with the right company, maybe-). let's just say it's a good thing the reason they were on a stakeout was in fact a false alarm because i assure you no one was paying attention to the mission

while they didnt get back together immediately after that, they did have to spend the rest of the mission working together and towns asked browning out the day the mission ended. so browning submitted an appeal to switch to towns' department and after seeing their work on the previous case, their supervisor simply could not reject it. the pair have been inseparable since <3

towns moved in to browning's place a week later (fast, ik) and the rest of their department picked up on it soon after. eventually the two stopped being assigned cases with anyone but each other, not only because they didnt want to work with anyone else but also because their efficiency together is simply unmatched

[malewifeharem]

CELEB JING YUAN?? ☁️

celebrity!AU jingyuan

彡- ,, a collection of my brainrots about dating jing yuan as diff types of celebs!

cw ⁞ none unless ur allergic to rich hot general fluff. not proofread.

an ⁞ this may be a little ooc, i apologise ehe. I TRIED PLEASE I PROMISE RGRGGRHRGHGRHG

imagine ceo!jingyuan picking you up from work at your office, patiently waiting for you in his car. he doesn't understand why you want to continue working when he's already mentioned countless times how he could provide for you. you'd never have to work a day in your life again! (lets pretend we're hardworking in this) he gets out of the car to greet you with a smirk before opening the car door for you.

"get in, princess."

you smile at him and thank him for sending you home again — this has become a habit of his, though he sees it more as his duty. you quickly arrive at his residence and were about to bid him goodbye when he suddenly stopped you — his hand gripping your wrist, reluctant to let go. you ask him what's wrong and he just has the saddest pout on his face, looking like a dejected, kicked puppy. (lion?)

"why won't you let me spoil you... i know how much you hate your boss, if you resign, you'll never have to deal with him again. i'll pay for whatever you'll ever want and need, darling," he murmurs sleepily, pulling you closer to him so he can rest his head on your chest. how are you supposed to say no to him like this?! you don't notice his smug smirk as he hears your heartbeat fasten rapidly — he already knows you'll give in to him this time. (sly mf)

imagine artist!jingyuan who sits in his studio everyday, painting his beloved lover onto countless numbers of canvases — his work forever preserved. they all lay untouched, scattered on the floor. he's displeased. you'd visit his studio occasionally and always find him grumbling and utterly frustrated with himself. usually, when he's hit with a creativity block like this, it passes within a couple of days but he's been in this state of discontent for weeks at this point.

"i've been painting for ages now but nothing is appealing," he groans.

you turn to look at the multiple canvases strewn all across the floor and you beg to differ but ultimately decided to stay quiet — you won't be able to understand an artist's grievances anyway. you comfort him to the best of your abilities and you can tell that he appreciates it a lot — the weight of his eyebags lifting slightly. you return to the studio a few days later to see it in a completely different state of mess, the canvases from before are now replaced by sludges of clay.

"oh, you're back. ah, so you've seen the ceramic statues. it's you, my love. it seems your beauty is so breathtaking that it must simply be portrayed in multiple forms of art."

imagine world renowned author!jingyuan who sits in his garden everyday, inscribing his poems on scrolls — the work forever preserved. he hums in satisfaction as he rolls up the piece of parchment, slotting it into a case before sending it off to you via his personal cycrane. you're already reading his first draft within a few hours and pointing out any mistakes he's made so carelessly — making sure to add sarcastic comments by the side to add salt to the wound. after a few days of corrections, the work is ready to be sold to the collectors — the two of you meeting up to thank them for the smooth transaction.

"must you be so cruel every time you mark my work, my love?"

"it's because you're so sloppy with your work, 'yuan. aren't you a famous author? hm?"

"sorry, i work best with a reward-based system. maybe you should give me a kiss for every grammatically correct sentence."

"if that's what will solve your problem then fine."

"don't act so cold, we both know you'd like that."

you notice that his writings have become longer and you haven't been able to spot any mistakes either. (rip your sore lips)

[seiwas]

Hi 🥺👉👈 I heard you wanted prompts for writing practice so I came to offer help 🤲🫡

It can be for any character (maybe whoever has the nearest birthday if you can't choose?), but the word is "salmon" 🎏💦

P.S. Do you pronounce it "sam-men" or "sayl-mon"?

hi there! thanks for sending in a prompt! 🥺 i'll do kiri! hehe and i pronounce it as 'sah-mon' 🥹

help me get back into the writing groove! send me a character + any word and i'll write a short blurb about it!

contains: food (salmon), brief mentions of cheating (of a diff couple)

kirishima + salmon

"mama, what does love mean?" you ask your mother, wide-eyed and full of wonder.

you were 10 when you first truly wondered what love meant. in your small town, it was hardly ever the grand things. handpicked flowers from the side of the road, sometimes fields if the seasons permitted; baked goods prepared in the early hours of the morning, its scent wafting down your neighbor's porch.

it was the soft goodbye kisses that your mother would give your father as he left for work, and his insistence that she makes the best damn pie this town has ever seen (even though he's allergic to blueberries). love was simple, and it was easy.

so when you moved out of your small town at 18 and faced the big city, you were shaken by the reality that that wasn't always the case.

"he said he still loves me," your first roommate cried to you, heartbroken as she held out the text on her screen. she had caught him with another girl just hours prior.

at 20, the consensus among your friends was that good sex was just as good as love itself.

"dating these days is fuuuucked," yuki plops down on your couch. at 23, the dating scene has proven to be a challenge for most of your friends.

it's either someone isn't enough or they're too much. sometimes, the truth comes later, months into a budding relationship, and the rest of the group has yet another name to add to the growing list of "people who deserve to eat uncooked rice and stale bread".

you agree, but also don't. because you've lucked out, it seems.

though kirishima believes it to be fate more than anything.

who would have thought that spraining your ankle in sophomore year would land you here, now, sharing an apartment with the cute, kind boy you so embarrassingly tripped in front of.

from across the room, you listen vaguely to yuki rant the third time about the girl who stood her up for the guy who was leading her on for months. you've already set out a plate for her to join you and kirishima whenever she's ready, but you know that it won't be until she's told the story the fifth time that she'll notice she's hungry.

the meal in front of you is miso glazed salmon, a favorite in your apartment. you don't make it so often because salmon is expensive, especially the good kind, but kirishima believes that life is all about the treats you let yourself have once in a while.

there's only one slice of salmon left on the serving plate and it's a given that it belongs to yuki. with how busy work was for you today though, it's hard to hide that you're still a little bit hungry.

and kirishima sees it, in the way you attempt to scoop up any remaining sauce on your plate with your spoon; in the way you go for a bit more rice, even when it has nothing to go with anymore.

so he takes one more bite and cuts off the rest of his slice, scooping it up to place it on your plate.

you look at him, confused, furrowing your brows at the fact that there is no way he's done eating; kirishima eats twice as much as you do, thrice even, on heavier gym days. but he only gives you a sweet smile, red eyes twinkling as he motions for you to go ahead and finish it.

warmth fills you in this moment, fuzzy flutter feelings swirling in your belly.

it reminds you of when you were 10, asking your mother what love meant, and she said, "sometimes, it's when they give you the rest of their food even when they aren't finished, and especially when it's their favorite."

[skz-streamer]

My First Love

Simptober Romance Tropes M-list

Pairing: Chan (skz) x fem!reader

Genre: Fluff

Notes: first time doing head cannonsss :) I thought It was a more relatable way of explaining it? idkkk lmk what u think ;0

-please read responsibly, and remember that this work is fiction and meant strictly for imaginative fun. the idols used in fics are more accurately faceclaims and personality outlines for imaginary characters, and should not be interpreted as factual representations of existing people

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when I say this man if first love coded I MEAN IT

such a gentleman omllll

takes you out of a first date to a picnic (haha my other fic)

and after that date you just know that he's the one, there's no way to explain it.

the two of you exchange numbers and you start texting each other casually (just when ur bored)

def the type to make you giggle over text, like the ",yeah?" at the end of everything

ur sitting at home on your couch

its been 2 months of small dates and texting nonstop

you hear a knock on ur window its rlly late at night and ur home alone

although you might just be over reacting you don't really know what to do

so you text him, chan.

he responds in a literal heartbeat like this man was waiting for a text from you

you text him and you ask for him to come over, you wanted to take it slow w him so he had never been over to ur house before

you were nerrrrvoussssss

he shows up about 10 mins later with a big brown paper bag

'whats that?'

'gotchu something' he says back

AHHHH imagine it with him winking at youuuuu BUTTERFLYSSSS

You grab the bag and he locks the door for you while you open the bag

he got u food :(((((( WAHHHHH SO SWEEETTT

diff ur favorite too, you had mentioned it before during one of your past dates w him

you both plop on your couch. you lean into him and you can tell that he's blushing a bit

his ears are all redd :(((((

ahhhhh image him in his big hoodie with a beanieeee

and like ur just eating w him half sleepy maybe watching a movie or something

just an absolute sweetheart

falling asleep together on the couch

HES JUST SO BF MATERIAL

"the one" first love and will always be

morning walks to late night walks in the rain to snuggling at home

going to the mall together and him absolutely spoiling you

there for you 24/7

so understanding omlll

actually giggles the first time you call him by a nickname

pure sweetness until the day he takes you back to that same park you had a picnic at

AND HE PROPOSESSSS

From first love to forever in love

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[kroosluvr]

kept openign adn closign tumblr forgetting what i wanted to type. BUT I REMEMBER. SHUAKESUMI model/actor whatever au that i didnt put much thought into

aheem heem. hey guys

they're playing roles in the new movie "repaint your heart" goro akechi as crow, sumire yoshizawa as violet, akira kurusu as joker. etc. let's justr say the tactica game was also the prev movie but repaint ur heart is like a major hit bc ppl LOVE these 3

maybe they were in a movie a long time ago but schedule diffs made it hard for them to star in a movie at the same time again (bc they're always so busy w their own things, modeling, and the like) so everyone's psyched to see them together again

the tension is like unbearable half the time. lets justr say some shit happened btwn goro and akira so theyre really passive aggressive and hot and cold w each other half the time. sumire doesnt really have a hand in this fight but shit happened btwn her and her sister (havent decided if kasumi like Dies lol or if its just.... yknow. smth else) so shes like also kinda fed up w it

i ahvent played the DLC yet HELPPP but ik crow is rather passive aggressive despite being Detective princekechi. so lets attribute that to goro's irl disputes w akira but the director thinks its funny so they keep it

idk. they start dating at the end of the whole movie cycle. idk. or everyone just thinks they are and theyre like nu uhhh no way in hell (4 months later) oh. well. uh. awkward. anyways

also i want them to be on those talk show interview things and they ask like “haha ok joker do an impression of crow and vice versa” and they both do the most insane shit and sumire is cringing out of her skull like i don’t know them. i don’t know them

“so like u guys r friends right what do u-“ goro and akira: no we don’t even hang out. (the tabloids r literally of them kissing) ok well that’s

to be added to.

[pin-crusher2000]

Earth 66 Headcanon Asks

1) Since they’re dating, how common is it for Mar’i to purr like a kitten when Jake is cuddling her?

2) Since they’re twins in your version; which one is technically the older sibling as they came out first, Mar’i or Jake?

3) Any storylines you’d like to do for the Grayson-And’r Family?

4) Similar as 3 only for the Super Family?

Good questions! @paladin-of-nerd-fandom65 :D

before I start, it’s actually Chris not Jake XD *sweet home Alabama plays in background.*

1: very common! Maybe like every 2nd or 3rd cuddle time. Mar’i would cuddle close to Chris, head on shoulder, hand on chest, & maybe legs & feet intertwined, & softly purrs. Chris does gently ruffle her hair like a pet. ;)

2: mar’i is the oldest, being 21 seconds ahead of Jake. (Since mar’i was create 21 years before Jake; 1996 to 2017)

3: hmmmmmmm top of my head I got 3! :D

1-Court of Owls: the idea of them being nightwing’s villains is pretty cool. (So I’m gonna borrow that from you if that’s ok?)

A lot of people are going missing in Bludhaven, & rumors spread around of mysterious black ninjas running around at night kidnapping people. The Grayson-And’r family, after some research, interrogation, & clues, mange to find an underground labyrinth with an army of talons (black ninjas) & “dead” people, plus some people in owl masks.

The main villains are: rich folk/mobsters (people who wears the owl masks) & NightWing’s ancestor: William Cobb (who wears a white/Gray talon suit to differentiate from regulars)

After the family beats up the majority of the villains, using ice equipment (cause talons are weakened by cold temperature) & the tamaerans starbolts (in my universe, you can kill these guys by turning them to ash) the only bad guy left standing is William Cobb. He decides to overdose himself with a chemical compound called: Electrum; which allows talons like himself to gain immortality, regeneration, & the typical superhuman stuff like strength, speed, & durability. When he did that, he grows super big & transforms into a giant bird monster.

He chases the family, knocking down everything causing the labyrinth to crumble down, the family got separated, dick with Kory and Jake with mar’i . Fortunately, Jake & mar’i did mange to reunited with their parents, unfortunately, mar’i got hurt during the battle hurting her legs & Jake had to carry her bridal style; Jake had to slide down a broken pillar while escaping a transform Cobb & there was a raised bump that hit Jake in the crotch, that causes his eyes to cross when he went over it. Jake: “d’oh! I think I peed my pants! (From the “famous” dragon escape scene from Shrek)

Heading close to the exit, the family does one final ice/fire combo that traps Cobb & have rocks to crush him to death & turned into ash by beams of starbolts.

(The next might be a little NSFW/dark, a little warning)

2-Doctor Light: Doctor Light (a major teen titans villain) decides to attack the family with a upgraded suit & kidnaps Kory, Mar’i, & Jake causing Nightwing to go rescue them.

Doc Light traps Kory & mar’i in chains while laying down on a table, arms spread & legs are facing forward. Jake was free but was getting beat up by him. After a small beating, he goes over to Kory & mar’i & starts touching their hair & (you can choose) starts climbing on top of either Kory or mar’i, rubbing his hand across “their” cheek. Jake gets back up & grab & throws doctor light across the room. Doctor light gets back up & tackles & starts choking Jake. With Doc being distracted, Jake uses whatever strength he got left & presses his foot into his crotch & headbutts the doc out cold.

For the final battle later on after rescuing his family: Nightwing is hurt & alone facing Doctor Light who powers up to the max, becomes pure light, pure energy but after digging out a picture that shows Kory, mar’i, & Jake, he gets back up & blocks hard light energy with his electric escrima sticks & blows Doctor light up. There is two different endings:

1- Nightwing dies similar to iron man in endgame (& Jake gets to become NightWing 2/3)

2- he gets knocked out for a few days & gets back up after that XD

3- Red Hood: in my universe, Jason Todd is either: permanently dead or comes back like how he did in the animated movie under the red hood, but he is fully a antihero/villain like his early comic book counterpart.

After the battle with Batman, (note: he didn’t blow up bludhaven yet in this version) he goes after the Grayson-Anders family (for reasons XD) & holds Jake & mar’i hostage. The house does get destroyed during a battle between him & Nightwing, fortunately, everyone is ok but Jason is injured from his fight with Batman & Nightwing & escapes into the unknown; injured.

4: I got 3, 2 original & the 1 from the above question.

1-Red Hood: in the original story: A death in the family, Batman really wanted to kill joker, but Superman talked him out of it. After learning that Batman WAS supposed to kill joker but was talked out of it, Jason decides to go after the Superman family years later after the battle with Batman & Nightwing. (Jason lost his memories & stayed at a church as a priest, he gains back his memories years later when seeing Superman on tv.

Red Hood creates a vigilante group called the red hood gang that has kryptonite weapons & attacks the superfamily (this is around the time the Super-Twins are a thing, probably a few weeks after the Blue Earth story). The SuperFamily (& a little help from Batman, & the Grayson family) managed to stop the red hood & his gang, but he sacrifices himself to take everybody out with a kryptonite bomb, but fails. The only thing that remains is a semi broken red hood helmet/mask. (Hinting that he is still alive)

2- Fire Of Olgun: this small “moment” in the comics has revived Osul-Ra from death on war world by mongul; & in one of the action comics, he was almost taken away from the New Gods (Orion). Annnnnd then it went nowhere XD I say use that to somehow age down Jon Kent (or retcon it saving osul as a potion not a “power up.”)

3- Slices Of SuperLife: mostly just slices of life moments of the superfamily like how we saw during Superman 2016 with the carnival & the road trip.

[ivegotdaddyissues]

Copybat Ch. 3

Bale!Bruce Wayne x Trans!OC

Warnings: Toxic friendship, mild transphobia, no Bruce Wayne(He'll be in the next chapter, I promise!) Word Count: 1,235

Victoria dials her best friend’s number, needing to tell someone about tomorrow night. “Toriiiii!!!” The other line exclaims. “Where’ve you been? You didn’t answer me at all yesterday!” “Hey Liza, yeah, I’m sorry about that!” “Where were you, girl?” “It’s a long story, but basically I was assaulted and ended up in the hospital! Concussion!” “You were probably over dramatic,” Liza laughs over the phone. “I’ve had concussions before, and I just slept it off for a few hours.” “My head was bashed into a wall,” Victoria states. “I blacked out and someone had to call an ambulance for me. I spent the night in the hospital and was out cold for at least three hours.” “Okay, jeez!” She groans. “No need to make it a competition!” “I DIDN’T--” Tori catches herself from screaming over the phone. “Whatever, anyway, I haven’t told you the best part.” “And what’s that?” “The aforementioned person that called me an ambulance, wanna know who he is?” “Oh my god! Just tell me!" “It was…” Victoria lowers her voice again, even though she’s alone in her apartment. “It was Bruce Wayne.” Liza is silent for a minute. “Liza?” “BRUCE WAYNE CALLED YOU AN AMBULANCE?!” “And… I’m going on a date with him tomorrow night.” “YOU’RE GOING ON A DATE WITH BRUCE WAYNE?!”

“Mhm!”

“HOW ARE YOU NOT FREAKING OUT RIGHT NOW?”

“I don’t know,” She shrugs. Her heart is beating but she’s cool on the outside. “But…I was wondering, wanna help me choose what to wear tomorrow night?”

“Is that even a question? What time should I come over?”

“Later today, maybe at like, 6?”

“See you!! Love you!”

“Love you too!” Victoria hangs up the phone before going to clean herself up. Showering, changing into fresh clothes, she goes into her home office to look at her creation. Fresh eyes looking at her hand crafted batsuit, working weapons and all.

Without the mask, she’s not the most confident in herself. She has the skills to fight back, but when she’s faced with a situation like being cornered, Victoria tends to freeze up. With the mask, she knows it’ll be different. It has to be if she wants to be what the Batman is. She holds one of the arm pieces, smooth and sturdy, and just admires her work.

The rest of the day passes by, a slow Saturday for her, until Liza comes over at least. The more she thinks about it, the more excited she is about her date. She can’t begin to fathom how the prince of Gotham is interested in her.

Her doorbell rings, and she rushes to answer it, but not before making sure she locks her office door.

“Liza!” Victoria exclaims, opening the door. “You’re on time!”

“Babe! You’re going on a date with THE Bruce Wayne! Of course I’m gonna be on time to help you pick out an outfit!!” Liza rushes through the house and to Victoria’s closet. “Okay! What did he tell you to wear?”

“He said something nice,” She followed her friend to her room, sitting on the bed.

“That’s it?”

“Yep.”

“Then text him! At least ask where you’re going!”

“No! I’m not going to text Bruce Wayne on a Saturday!”

“Why not?”

“Because he’s Bruce Wayne! And technically my boss!”

“Ugh, I keep on forgetting that you work at Wayne Enterprises!”

“How? You constantly bring it up!”

“I don’t know,” Liza shrugs. “I just forgot. Maybe it’s because I haven’t seen you in two months!” Victoria can’t argue with that. She had essentially shut herself off from the rest of the world, using her built up vacation time to avoid being fired.

In her defense, she doesn’t have many people she could contact. Since coming out, and more so transitioning, her family has cut her off, and Liza is the only one who’s stuck with her.

“I know, I know, and I’m sorry.”

“You texted me like, twice!”

“I was busy.”

“FOR TWO MONTHS?”

“YES!” Victoria crosses her arms. “What about when you went radio silent when that rich ex boyfriend of yours took you to the Bahamas for a week?”

“That’s different.”

“Is it though? You didn’t tell anyone.”

“Whatever, I’m done talking about this if you’re gonna have such a bitchy attitude about it!” Almost as if it’s a different person, Liza is smiling and happy again. “So, what are you thinking of wearing?” “I don’t know,” Victoria’s voice is quiet, crossing her arms in a defensive manner. “A dress, I guess.”

“Short or long?”

“Long. I’m thinking my black strapless one.”

“That would look soooo cute!” Liza squeals. “Oooh! And you could wear those Christian Louboutin’s that I got you!”

“Yeah, that could work.” Victoria takes a deep breath, resetting herself. “But won’t it be cold? I should have a jacket.”

“But don’t you want to show yourself off?”

“I don’t want to die from freezing.”

“He’d lend you his jacket!” Liza suggests. “He’s a gentleman after all! He called an ambulance for a concussion and asked you on a date! He’s so into you!”

“But what if he learns my personality and doesn’t like it? What if he’s creeped out by my knowledge and love of the Batman?”

“Girl, you serious?” She snickers. “If I were you, I’d be a lot more nervous about him finding out about…other stuff.” Liza motions to Victoria. “Are you gonna tell him?”

“I don’t think I should have to,” She grips the hem of her shirt. “I’ve transitioned fully so if we do anything…he won’t be caught off guard.”

“What if he wants kids?”

“Tomorrow is my first date!” Victoria jumps up. “We’re going to dinner! THAT’S IT!”

“Okay Jesus, I was just trying to be helpful!”

“It’s not working!” She raises her voice. “I am nervous as all hell about this and I wanted you to help pick me out an outfit!” “FINE! I HELPED! I’M LEAVING!” Liza storms out of the house, slamming the door in the process.

Victoria flops down on her back, sighing, and just spaces out for a while. Her energy is completely drained from Liza, and she turns on her tv to try to clear her head. She doesn’t have anyone else, though, so she can’t really drop her best friend. On the TV, there are reports of a robbery and shootout at the bank. All of the assailants, wearing clown masks, are dead. She’s heard of this psycho criminal, known as the Joker. Leaving a Joker calling card at every crime scene.

Victoria has been trying to find as much about Joker as possible, but when he surfaced, she was locked away, hardly paying attention to anything else. She’s been picking up things about him, and he fascinates her. All his methods seem to be provoking Batman. One thing she completely missed was Harvey Dent. He was being appointed as the District Attorney the next day, and it completely slipped under her radar. Victoria’s phone buzzes. A text, from Bruce.

You don’t care that I’m introducing you to a few of my friends tomorrow night, do you?

She’s not good with new people at first, and Bruce Wayne’s friends? What is she going to talk about with the ultra rich? But seeing as it’s Bruce mother-fucking Wayne, she knows he’s expecting a ‘yes’ and the question was nothing but a courtesy.

No, not at all.

Great. I’ll see you tomorrow night.

[robot-rarepairs-dotcom]

don't really have a proper ship name in mind for them, I really just call it CyMixRod but omgoooorsh they consume me sm. Should mention first my Mix I'm this case uses She/It and Cy uses she/her just to prevent confusion :3

My story with it is, Rodimus and Cyclonus were originally dating and then Mixmaster joined the Lost Light crew. Mix like very fast caught feelings for Rodimus, but ofc he was already with Cyclonus (didn't really stop her from trying ti get his ass!!) so it started hanging out with Cy too to maybe stirr feelings there. Took FOREVER because Cy is the most aroflux mfer sometimes. So they ALL started dating. Rodimus gets two scary dogs (and boobs to gaze at) and strong badass women to love.

I've drawn them a lot as of late bc the brainrot hits strong as a damn TRUCK

I have more drawings in the making but gehehehehe. I love them sm

And with like. Humanformer lore. Golly there's. Lot. It's a somewhat diff story where Rodimus is asolo preforming guitarist who falls for a widowed librarian (Cyclonus), and then later is joined in that love by a scarred up butch constructicon worker (Mixmaster). Rodimus originally helps Mixmaster out of a cement mess she'd gotten itself stuck in and Rodimus being the hopeless romantic she is kinda falls into a puppy crush on Mix. Cyclonus doesn't mind too much, in fact she agrees to meet Mixmaster in an offer to join their poly. Takes a few dates, but Mixmaster does eventually.

The amount of headcanons I have for all of them is mental illness. But I'll get outta ur ask box now :3 ty for hearing me ooout

NO WAIT PLEASE COME BACK IM INVESTED SO MUCH I LOVE IT WHEN BUTCH WOMEN KISS AHHHHH

Also ty for colour coding names it was nicer to read! No ones forced to do this or has to but I liked that

And your art was so cute wth…

[wanderrlust0]

sorry i wont shut up about this but i feel so conflicted right now!!D; and maybe typing it all out will help???

and I highly suggest to not read this unless you want to be here for an hour reading nonsense LOL

im seeing my bestie friday so im gonna tell her everythinggg and get her opinion on all of this before i see him again in a few days.

i just started to hang out with a "new" friend but it makes my bf uncomfortable and idk what to do about it... and tbh im not going to stop being friends with them:/ ik that sounds kinda shitty on the surface but its like asking me to cut someone off right after getting to know them.

im gonna explain almost all of the context....

okay, so... 2020 was a ruff year. it was covid and quarantine. my mom was super super strict about it. once people began to hang out in small circles bc cdc said it was okay to, while still being careful, i was still not allowed to leave my house. i felt soso isolated and alone and it was def one of my lowest moments. me & my bf were basically in a long distance relationship.. or thats what it felt like. all we had was facetime. he started to hang out with his friend from school more often (i had stuff to say to him about that & its in another post). after a couple of months, my mom finally let us see each other.. but it had to be in my backyard only and we couldn't be close. it was okay at first but after a while we got bored and wanted more. he got impatient and petty about it. i understood where he was coming from but i was trying to be as optimistic as i could, even tho it was hard. its bc even for like the 1-2 hrs i got to see him, it made my day. (my friends were also starting to hangout in their backyards but i never told my mom bc i figured she wouldnt let me go.. but when i told her afterwards, she said she would have..??)

it was getting colder outside which made it harder for us to see each other. it was also just a sucky situation and it was creating some resentment. he wanted to talk with me on ft about it and i knew it would be serious. AND IT WAS. he did most of the talking and it was leading to a breakup. BUT (this is important) he couldnt for the life of him break up with me, let alone say the words.. SO.. he suggested that we do a break. neither of us have done that before but its obvious that it means its temporary and you use that time to figure things out and get some space (we DEFINITELY shouldve been clearer about it). he got emotional and i held mine in. he was saying all these good things about me and how he still wants me in his life and that we can get together again; that we would still talk everyday and be friends. at the time, weve been dating for about a year and a half. right after we hung up i bawled my eyes out and immediately facetimed my best friend in FL.

days go by and me and him are still talking everyday, only in a more friendly, platonic manner. eventually, he starts replying later and later, he turns off his location, and its like i feel forgotten about. im so used to knowing what hes doing that now it feels weird to not know and its hard to adapt to these changes.

I download tinder to find some FRIENDS to talk to (only for girls). he was barely talking to me and i was questioning our friendship relationship (situationship i guess). although i dont remember the details of my profile, i DEF made it clear that i was on there for making friends only. i had no intention of pursuing anyone for a relationship... bc i had my "bf" still. HE clearly went a diff route during our break....too much to unpack there but in the end, it just made him want to come back to me.

So.... Snow (that is their nickname ive given them for tumblr) was one of those people who i chatted with on tinder. theyre female but identify as they/them (i dont think they used those pronouns when we first started talking tho). they msgd first and our convo was actually really long-lasting so we followed each other on IG. (theyre also not the only one i've exchanged IG with so its not like i only gave it to them). Yes, I thought they were pretty when i swiped. sue me. i think many people are pretty. its just me acknowledging when someones aesthetically pleasing. eventually, we talked less and i also went on tinder less. After about a month into me and my bfs break, he begins to talk to me more like he used to. Then he asks if he can see me bc he missed me. Still cant leave my house with him but we hang out and its nice. HE ASKS ME IF I MET ANYONE NEW. i say no and hes like ...really?you sure? I ask him the same and he says no (while breaking eye contact,, literal red flag but i was blindsided). he tells me the truth over FT and that ruined me way more than i let on. (i think he's feeling a similar way now but for diff reasons)

we got back together after and the rest of the year (2021) was super fun. weve now been together for almost 4 1/2 years! since our BREAK NOT BREAKUP (not me @ ing him when he wont even see this) me and snow comment on each others IG posts now and again. for ex, ive said they looked so prettyyy & i would compliment their makeup skills. they would reply in a cute/flattery way. thats how they reply to comments. theyre also very embellished, like with emojis. theyve commented on my pics saying i look cute and hyping me up with compliments as well. it just turned into a natural, mutual thing; idk how else to describe it. its like having an online friend where you only interact thru the comments to show kindness. LOL IDK that sounds corny but yeah. girly things i guess. & then irl its so subdued.

so aside from the comments, we would react to each others stories like once in a blue moon. they posted about watching demon slayer so i said its a good anime. i posted me and my bfs halloween costumes and they said we looked so cute. fast fwd to the end of last yr... we said happy bday to each other and i brought up the idea of possibly hanging out one day if theyre down. so yes, i asked first. they said they would love to and that they were glad i asked bc they were too anxious to ask themselves (mood). im surprised at myself that i even asked but i guess i felt comfortable enough.

(i feel like im writing my own biography omg..) anyways, we get each others numbers and talk about our schedules. we were both very busy so nothing happened. we sporadically made small talk, as one does with their internet friend, over a couple of months. we talked on IG more & also thought about the plans for when we hang out. its now like almost summer and they text me asking if i was free last minute to hang out bc they were gonna be in my town but i was busy.

its now like a month later and i see them at the mall with their friend when i was with my bf. (i already spoke about this so i wont repeat it). after that day, we finally made a day to hang out. bf wasnt happy about it; i tried to reassure him; he saw and still sees them as someone to worry about; he thinks im gonna do something stupid and act out on any fantasies i may have. he knows im bi; he sees snow as someone who looks queer. he thinks that our intentions are to get closer to each other in a way that crosses a friendship.

he saw me listening to a playlist titled sapphic energy. it just consists of songs i enjoy by female artists and ive had that playlist for a long time now. i only edited the title.. but just now i switched it back to what it was before so thats ONE thing "fixed" to make him at ease.

he doesnt believe me when i tell him that my only intention and motive here is to make a good, new friendship. THATS ALL I WANT. AND THATS ALL SNOW WANTS. i can see how it can look like its more from an outside perspective bc of our IG comments but it was not like that in person at all!! it just felt like hanging out with a friend and introducing new things to each other like shows and foods. snow even made it clear that once someone is their friend, they cant see them any other way and that formed to protect their feelings. when we hung out there were literally no signs of feelings or anything that would cross boundaries. i didnt get that feeling i get when i have a crush and lose all my brain cells. by our second hang out we were past any awkwardness and it felt like a regular day out with a friend.

I did look cute that day but i always dress up!!! i dress up like every time i see my bf. i dress up for work. i dress up when im going out with friends. i enjoy fashion and makeup and looking pretty,,

last yr he was using bumble friends and he met up with a guy but they havent hung out since. ive helped him swipe on people before and i was okay with it, except when it was like an attractive girl.. would that be hypocritical of me tho?...idk. we def both get kinda jealous over these things. i can get territorial, like he is mine lol i am his. we would never be open or add a third and the thought of him befriending new females made me nervous. especially after what happened during our break. like idk, that still sticks with me and makes me think of bad feelings..and even more especially now after finding out about what he and his friend did.. but me feeling nervous about that is like what HE is feeling (T-T) I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT I CAN DO TO HELP AND IT SUCKS. i dont think i catch feelings easily. i dont get butterflies over people easily. im not an openly sexual person.

like. am i being unfair by continuing this friendship? snow doesnt know how he feels about us. idek if its worth telling but im gonna wait till more time passes and see how things go. would him hanging out with us make him feel better?? would it be too weird? he already doesnt like the idea of snow so how would he be in a room with them.

i wanna fast fwd to friday so i can tell my bestie about it and then fast fwd to sunday so i can see him. he is still not back to his usual self when we talk on snap. he tries to save serious confrontations for in person bc he sounds angry thru text so even tho itll make me nervous, i still wanna work this out so it doesnt ruin our relationship.

[lenabenaacena]

everything in life is hard. love. living. finding what you want. just everything. every little desire you want just feels like it’s out of grasp. that’s what i love about it. it feels so out of place for the most part but when it feels right. you know it. you wake up and you just know that you just gotta do this and this and you’ll be okay. sometimes i don’t feel that way. most times im thinking i have so much to figure out with myself before i can do anything else. but me and my self will for something just isn’t right. i dont have self will. i have been sober for almost 5 months now and i guess ill count that. i do think about it sometimes but i have a little sober app on my phone. last time i checked it said 133 days. i wanted to break that bad but at the time i looked around and felt okay. not maybe happy fully but just alright. life is never just gonna be happy. i understand that so hard. i remember seeing one girl and we weren’t even dating. and i just remember it being so hard like always having to constantly talk about this and that and what to do and what not to do. i get it. but at the same time we were just not the same person. she lived a sober strict life. she wanted what she wanted and got it. i don’t shame her for that. congrats to her you know. but it’s the fact that she wanted to somewhat change me to a person i wasn’t. i believed that short term goals were for me. she didn’t agree. i didn’t ask for her to agree i just shared what i felt. i didn’t text her for a bit because i was doing family stuff. she said i should’ve let her know which i did. i always did. i went to a trip with my friends for my birthday and she got mad bc i didn’t text her back in time. i texted when i could. since i moved to a whole diff state i would like to spend time w the people i have been around the most. she didn’t like the fact i smoked weed. she then tried to say what was i doing w my life im getting older and im jus not serious. i get it. i so get it. sometimes i think about it. what if i was serious? but at the same time most people that live opposite lives than me probably feel the same way. i enjoy my life. i might not agree with it and some people don’t either but i have the experiences i have so i dont grow old and say what if. i hear that so much and that’s not the person ill be. i would be so damned to be what if. i make stupid mistakes, spend money i barely have but guess what. i’m making memories to tell for my future and i am enjoying it. it’s what gives me joy. sometimes i feel down but overall i enjoy my life, decisions and actions. my life is for me to firhure out. in my 20s i will do all that i can do to enjoy. we’ll never be this young again. when you’re this young you gotta do all you can fun wise. when you’re 30 you think about how serous it all should be. i get it. but at that point you’ll just keep getting older and older. lots of people can’t figure it out to a lot later. it’s okay. it’s not a race. life is good as long as you treat it to be.

[gelley-thoughts]

Now, my question is. Has your feelings changed? Do you like me now? The things you are doing to me, do you also do those things to your other friends? Or was I the exception?

Kasi sometimes, I feel like I was special but then it would also occur to me that maybe you are just that kind of person to all of the people that surrounds you.

If you'd ask me, why I was writing this when I always include in my other write ups that you are that kind of person to all is because. I see changes. Sometimes it felt weird. Sometimes it felt natural.

So okay, the weird thing is bigla nalang kaming di nag-uusap. Like starting noong univ week. After niyang di sumama sa concert. And then, it also felt weird na lumabas kami ng kami lang. Like, does she do that to his other friends? Hmm maybe. Although wala pa naman akong kilala na nakakasama niya ng ganun (friendly date, oh right, it was with ammir but that one was diff kasi they both know na ammir has feelihs for him— or baka di lang ako aware but he also know na may weird feelings ako for him, which is wala naman na ngayon)

Anyways, ayon nga. We also go sa photobooth to take a pic. Then idk pero nagpahatid siya sakin sa bus station before umuwi. That time, kakabati lang namin—di naman kami nag-away but parang ganun yung feels? Ewan. So, nung una, I'm still uncomfy pero later on it just felt natural. Tawa lang kami ng tawa. Kaya medyo nalungkot kami nung sumakay na siya ng bus. So yeah, that the story. (Na habang tinatype ko feel ko wala namang anything pala na weird? HAHAHAHA pota gulo ko. )

And since parehas kaming nas bakasyon. We don't talk. Just like noong Dec. 2022. But it felt different ngayon kasi madalas siyang mangulit at magkwento ng random things this year while we were on vacation. Sinend niya pa ss ng story ko — which is btw a thirst trap— sa kapatid niya. Pero saming dalawa kasi it's normal to complement each other. Kasi ganun din siya sa kapatid niya eh. Hmm ayan. Tapos ngayon he immediately congratulated me asking if nakapasa ako sa lahat ng subj (isa nalang inaantay kong subj to know if nakapasa ba ako, aud prac 2) Literal na kakalabas lang din ng grade namin nung nagchat siya. So I am yet again flattered.