#or maybe sometimes it's bc i'm probably going to delete it but i delete a lot of posts for no particular reason

[shopcat]

is there a reason you sometimes don't tag personal posts or am i reading into it too much sorry i love you bye

genuinely i just don't like clicking the extra buttons sometimes it's at least 4 extra clicks it's far too much. i love you too we will meet again in the kingdom of heaven one day Ok

[orphiclovers]

I'm thinking about a canon adjacent au here okay hear me out. what if pre-scenarios hsy actually thought/knew she had DID?

with the blank spots of memory and lapses of time and tiredness and weakness etc hsy started to worry she had a brain tumor or something. went to a doctor & all the scans came back clear so she was directed to a psychologist instead. she learns of DID and is kind of excited to meet this apparently other person living her life (she's maybe 20 yo atp) yet her hopes are shattered bc her alter is apparently the most. uncomunicative bastard in the world. ignored all her sticky notes saying hi, all attempts at journaling or deligating tasks or following appointments on the shared calendar or working together on anything. radio silence from them, except for throwing the notes in the trash so she knows they saw them.

hsy is annoyed. the therapist suggests they don't feel safe or secure enough to talk yet and hsy begrudgingly accepts that.

its not like the other hsy is actually putting them in danger, as far as she can tell, they spent all their time on the computer doing who knows what (browsing data is always deleted after)

their body was literally collapsing under the weight of stress though, so even if the other her wouldn't help, hsy had to start managing this shit somehow. she's forced to be the responsible one and plan her day around the other her. has to take care of things like cooking and cleaning and eating and bathing in her own limited time awake, on top of things like friends and events and of course writing for work. has to choose to rest sometimes when she wanted to go out because of the other her.

she resents the other hsy for this at first - this is one of the things she spent a long time working out in therapy (among other issues besides the DID. apparently her childhood had fucked her up more than she realized) the therapist suggested the alter may not speak directly, but they're still communicating through their actions - to try to understand them and what they might be feeling. hsy does, even though she didn't want to.

the other hsy didn't seem to have any friends or leave the house, they didn't feed themselves or drink water on their own - hsy often woke up ravenous and thirsty and they were paranoid- han sooyoung found knives under her mattress once.

hsy knew these things, they were annoying, but looked at them in a new light now. for her to act like this, her other half must be damaged and cautious - the therapist had expected it, says these conditions don't develop on their own. it was a sobering thought. hsy can deal with a couple of inconveniences if it means she can stay the carefree and extraverted person she is, not miserable and lonely like the other her. maybe that's selfish but she deserves to be selfish sometimes doesn't she?

in the beginning, she tried to force the other hsy to come out - they spent a lot of time on the pc, so she took a weekend and went to the countryside, hiked to a camping spot and set up. she had her phone but no internet and wanted to see what the other her would do.

she woke up at midnight, dirty and sweaty, muscles screaming, in the closest bus stop with her phone at 2%. she could still feel the panic and adrenaline in her trembling arms, the way she had ran here. it scared her, she didn't try to force the issue again.

as for 1863, when young hsy tried to talk to her through notes she thought "oh shit oh fuck" but then realized its not like she can get kicked out (probably?) so decided to ignore her until she gave up. she tries not to interfere with her life more than necessary.

one time she woke up in a shrinks office, freaked out, threatened to stab the therapist and fled out the door. in her defense, she hadn't talked to a real life person in a month and really hadn't expected this. (for young hsy this was actually a breakthrough in therapy. she was very excited, gave her weeks of material to work on. after apologizing profusely.)

I just love this dynamic of twitchy, very maladjusted survivor who cares about very few things in life and herself is not on that list, and the exasperated young writer who wants to enjoy her life but has to deal with bullshit at home. frustrated, but at the same time curious and sad for the other her.

How this ends is. han sooyoung wakes up at the train station, looks around, and sighs with exasperation. the other her must have left her somewhere again. there is an odd hollowness in her chest that she writes it off and then the apocalypse happens.

hsy gets the avatar skill and wryly thinks its like it was made for her. she had always wanted to talk to the other her and now after so long she finally got the chance. she creates her, sees her for the first time- older than herself, skin tight around the eyes and a hard twist to her mouth like she hadn't ever smiled. shoulders hunched, she's got a confused, lost look in her eyes.

hsy says "hey, calm down, it's okay- well. things are crazy right now but you're mostly safe, I can explain."

the other her looks at her own palms, drags them up her forhead to clutch her hair, shaking her head and groaning. she stumbles away. "what have you done?"

hsy's throat feels strangled. "I- wanted to talk to you. what- what's wrong?"

the other her doesn't answer, looking blank, and then she bolts. hsy shouts and gives chase but eventually loses her, panting for breath and holding her knees in the street. "Fucking damn it!"

canon proceeds as usual. epilogue happens and hsy remembers everything, or more accurately, the other her comes back but this time without the walls dividing them. hsy feels complete for the first time in her life, and the hollowness she felt the day the scenarios started is gone.

post epilogue domestic bliss ensues where they actually get to know each other and talk openly about their experiences, after so many years.

[motorsportbarbie13]

an update

i feel silly doing these bc on one hand i'm like 'eh who tf cares about what my plans are for writing the next few weeks/months' and on the other hand, i know i hate when authors go from writing consistently to radio silence so...idk. it feels self indulgent and a touch self centered.

but i digress

i'm tired guys. tired of pouring my entire creative soul into these fics and not seeing the engagement. i've whined and moaned about it enough so i'm sure you're like 'jfc shut tf up and get over yourself' (which i mean, fair lol). the thing is, i do write for the love of writing but i also don't want to waste my time if it's not well received. there is something so depressing about spending HOURS on a chapter and having it barely break 100 notes. i know it sounds entitled and it probably is but thats how i feel. its not anyones fault and i know my writing isn't going to be for everyone. it's just...frustrating to go from writing very well received/popular fics to...nothing.

i don't know what's changed that's effected my engagement so much but i've tried everything to capture that magic that my early writings had on here and nothing is working.

i feel wrung out creatively. and also i've noticed a spike in my anxiety around social media lately. i've deleted almost everything off of my phone. and its FREEING. like, i tend to hyper fixate on something to the point where it's just not healthy for me and i think i need to take a bit of a break from online spaces, F1 spaces specifically. i'll still be HERE on tumblr but that's about it.

so what's next for the next few months for me? im going to take it easy, be kind to myself, let the inspiration come as it wants. i have a kernel of an idea for a lando fic but i won't be posting it at all until it's completely finished. probably later this summer. i have plans to work on a little collab project with another writer on an oscar fic too. that'll probably happen later this summer too. and i'm going to rewrite A Package Deal as a OC fic that goes deeper and is longer. That will be posted on AO3 sometime this summer too. i'm also wanting to go and work on the novel i wrote last summer and get it ready for publishing? my goal last year was to have it ready to publish by this summer break in august but i won't be ready for that, so new goal! next summer, the goal is to have it published.

so like, i'll still be around. i'll still be here. i'm still writing. i'm hoping a bit of an absence will maybe reset my algorithm too? lol maybe the tumblr gods will be kind to me again in a few months?

anyway. sorry if this is cringe and embarrassing. i just needed to kind of get it all out. my asks are open if you ever want to chat. <3

[coralbae]

Hi, luv! I’ve gotten a few asks about our work being very similar and I wanted to let you know about it.

They say you copied my tattoo SMAU, but I know that is not true. As I addressed in my post, concepts exist for a reason. Yours wasn’t even close to mine! I’ve seen this as a trend lately tbh. People forget that we are humans and can have similar ideas without copying each other 💔

Sorry if this is weird. I wanted to let you know that these rumors are being spread so you may address them as well or just be aware of them. Love your works! <3

Okay guys who is trying to get me done for plagiarism 🫨🩴

First of all, what I'm about to say has NOTHING to do with Bitty, she has been nothing but kind and open minded about this whole situation so you'd better not hold anything against her for reaching out to me to let me know what is going on, but I just had a few things I wanted to say.

Tattoo's aren't a niche topic, I've seen a handful of tattoo SMAUs since I started reading. If it were something way more niche, and the dialogue near identical, then I would understand why readers would be concerned. I did have a look at the SMAU and the prompt is not even the same 😭 so I do think you were reaching a bit.

The smau was also a request, and I have previously done another tattoo smau so its not like I just discovered what tattoos were right after Bitty posted. I do delete asks containing requests, so maybe thats where the confusion came from? But once again, I genuinely do not think that they were similar enough to warrant suspicion.

I do believe anon also insinuated that this isn't the first time I've 'copied' Bitty, and I have no idea what anon is referring to but you can easily just come to me and ask about it and I would address it, there's no need for vigilantism here, it's really not that serious. And if i blow up, it's because it feels more like an attack than open dialogue, but you'd be on anon once again so I won't even know who to direct it at 😝

Lately I have seen a lot of policing, complaining and allegations against other creators and I am actually so sick of it bc some of it is so silly and it seems that some great creators are being discouraged because of this. Out of fear of being cancelled, I will not elaborate on this but just know sometimes it flabbers my gasters.

There are times I have little lightbulb moments but then I see another writer post something within that scope so then I just give up on it because I don't want to get body searched by the tumblr police, I'm sure other writers have had similar experiences.

If you’re coming from a place of genuine concern: thank you for looking out for creators that you like, but you really need to be careful with your wording in future instances.

If you’re a 16 year old looking to start drama: go do your homework bae <3

May we all use context clues, some critical thinking, our words and good intentions better 🙏🏻

If you made it to the end, thank you for reading all of this, it was just a coinkidink that got a bit too much attention. I try to be as nice as possible to everyone one here because we just wanna be delusional and have some fun reading, so if you have nothing to do with this hopefully my crashout was entertaining. I hope you understand where I am coming from and why i feel the need to defend myself 😤🤺

If you think I am overreacting, I probably am bc i have a short fuse but its your 🫵🏼 fault, just remember you're on anon so I have no clue what your intentions are and the fact that you didn't want this to circle back to me makes it seem more strange (if that was not your goal, just know that this it how it came across to me, we don't need to sneak diss like drake bc we all just want to have some fun at the end of the day) xoxoxo 🫶🏼

ps. hopefully this was a valid crashout, also i am not posting tonight or tomorrow because i spent too long crashing out over this to have spare time 💀

[aziraphales-library]

Lost Fic #195

1. Hello! I’m hoping you can help me find a fic, or fics as it was a series. In Eden Aziraphale’s wings got clipped because he failed to protect the tree, or he took the blame for the other three guards, and now he’s unable to fly. In the second part Aziraphale has to survive the flood while he’s still unable to fly and at the end a ladder is let down for him and he climbs back up to heaven. That’s so far as I got, but I would really appreciate the help! - @writerosaur

2. Hi! Thank you for all the amazing work you do. I was hoping to look for body swap fic a read a few years back, where crowley finds a tiny Aziraphale particle in his essence and flips out. And turns out Aziraphale also had a lil crowley particle with him. Thanks again! - anon

3. Hello. I'm looking for a fic, it's set during world war 2, Crowley is working for the British government with an alias, it's told from an outsider pov. I forgot to save it while I was reading it and now I can't find it anywhere. Thanks!! - @myspecialhell

4. hello hello hello happy holidays everyone I hope you’re all doing well and thank you so much for everything!!! I am looking for a fic: A/C, might be explicit, and I think the description was kind of magic themed (more specifically sleight of hand), w Crowley’s internal monologue describing his relationship w Az as a coin that u flip between ur fingers "now you see it" "now you don't" (bc sometimes u can see under the Layers bc they falter and then they cover it up again) i think az was running him a bath after the church scene? the fic was longer than that tho… i hope it didn't get deleted, it was p popular iirc and i loved it sm!! thanks in advance i hope u have a wonderful day!!! - anon

5. OH and there’s another fic i lost but that was forever ago (like 2019-2020 probably) it was very popular but i only remember 1 tiny little detail 😭 basically az had just found out/understood that Crowley Loves him (I think) and Crowley was very anxious abt it and they were in the bookshop and he was anxiously pressing the same key/button/numbrr on the telephone/bell or smth I think it was going ding ding ding lol anyway then az came up to him and soothed him I think but anyway maybe it wasn’t a confession and maybe it was just bc they were back in the bookshop after the fire I’m not quite sure anymore. I think it was rated T and it was in the first few pages on ao3 in 2019-2020! I hope this is enough hahah no worries if u can’t find it tho! Hope it wasn’t deleted it was v sweet anyway have a wonderful evening!!!! - anon

If you know any of these fics please include the number in your reply! Thank you :)

- Mod D

[diazsdimples]

Fic Writers Meme

Tagged by @inell

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

19

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

277,040

3. What fandoms do you write for?

9-1-1 but I did write a bunch of British Actor RPF back in high school lmao

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Buck's Baby (By Accident) (Buddie) How can this be wrong? (Bucktommy) For the rest of my life (for the rest of yours) (Buddie) Sweet child of mine (Bucktommy) The heat of the moment (Buddie)

5. Do you respond to comments?

I do, even though it takes me a second sometimes. I always appreciate people putting in the time to tell me what they thought of my stuff!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

None of them? All my fics have happy endings

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Probably For the rest of my life (for the rest of yours) just for the hopeful Buckley-Diaz family feels but honestly any of them could work

8. Do you get hate on fics?

The occasional "this wouldn't happen in canon!!" and I'm like yeah! That's cause it's fiction!! But other than that, not really no.

9. Do you write smut?

9 of my 19 fics are smut and my smut fics are usually my longest. So, yep!

10. Do you write crossovers?

Nope but I do write AUs based off premises from other things? Sort of?

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Kind of? I deleted a fic once bc it wasn't a vibe for me (it was a request that I didn't love and didn't know how to say no) and the original requester of the fic, with whom I'd fallen out, messaged being like hey!! saw you deleted it!!! good news is I copied it into google docs before you could!!! Which I did not love

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No

13. Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

I am currently co-writing 2 fics with @hippolotamus and one with @theotherbuckley, when I remember they exist 🫣

14. What is your all time favorite ship?

Buddie will always be my go to for writing. I'm compelled a lot by Bucktommy and Buddietommy (and Eddietommy lbr) but for the most part if I come up with an AU, it'll be a Buddie one.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Single Dads AU or Frostpunk AU. They've just been around for so long that I feel like people have either forgotten or are sick of them and I just have No Beans for them

16. What are your writing strengths?

Oof I don't know, I think maybe coming up with plots/ compelling storylines

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I feel like I struggle most with describing things and emotions and if there's a scene that very emotion heavy it'll take me a long time to write it because I agonise over the correct words to use.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language during a fic?

I wouldn't unless I had someone who spoke the language who was able to help guide me, mostly because I don't want to make mistakes

19. First fandom you wrote for?

British Actor RPF (specifically Tom Hiddleston/Benedict Cumberbatch

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

Play me like a fiddle is my baby, will always be my baby, and it is my most beloved. 34k of Music Nerd James with a whole load of Buddie feels and closet sex. Idk, I peaked there tbh

NP tagging @theotherbuckley @hippolotamus @daffi-990 @buckera @watchyourbuck

@spotsandsocks @bidisasterevankinard @bigfootsmom @wikiangela @jesuisici33

@rainbow-nerdss @steadfastsaturnsrings and anyone else who wants to share their stuff! (And if I forgot anyone, I apologise)

[neewtmas]

A Fateful Bus Ride

A/N: I'M BACK! wohoo! Hopefully at least some people are happy about that whoops

I finally somewhat dug myself out of this slump I've been in (writing and otherwise) and this is my reintroduction piece, if you will. It's not my greatest work (when is something ever lol) but I think it's decent and if anyone has any more requests, I'd be happy to write them. This request is from literal months ago (I'm so sorry it took so long, I hope you're still interested) and it's the only one that didn't get deleted with my whole inbox bc I had started writing it already elsewhere. anyways, enjoy &lt;3

pairing: george karim x fem!reader

wordcount: 2.2k

request: Could you make a George Karim x fem or gn reader where they are on their way to a mission and they have to ride a bus and there aren’t enough seats so she sits on his lap and he realizes he likes her and he confesses to her when they get home and he holds her in his arms (sorry if that is very specific It just came to me and it’s so cute) 💜💕 - by @iloveyousomuchhhhhh (it's not 100% exact but I hope you like it anyways :))

taglist: @maraschinomerry @marinalor @oblivious-idiot @lockwood-lover @givemea-dam-break (if you want to be added or removed, just send me an ask)

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George stood in the kitchen, pouring himself a cup of tea when he heard a commotion in the basement. The door to the staircase was slightly ajar, and he heard the clattering of metal chains against the concrete floor, followed by some curses and then more clattering. After a short silence, in which he contemplated if he should go downstairs to check, he heard the stairs creak as someone stomped upstairs, chains loudly sounding against the metal of the steps. The door got pushed open, and Y/N entered the kitchen, arms full of chains. She was breathing heavily as she unceremoniously dropped them next to the kitchen table on the floor. "What idiot put them into the closet like that? Of course they would just fall out and break my goddamn toes." George cleared his throat. He knew the culprit all too well, but a look at Y/N's face told him it would be wiser to feign ignorance. So he just shrugged. "Maybe Lockwood was feeling lazy last night", he offered and took a sip of tea to hide the small smile that fought its way onto his lips. From the way she glared at him, he was sure that she knew exactly who was responsible for putting the chains away the evening prior.

She left the kitchen and pulled the door closed rather strongly, as she always did when she was irritated. If it had closed, the bang would have probably shaken the pictures on the wall in Lucy's room in the attic, but it didn't. Instead, Lockwood came in, pushing it open again. He seemed to be in a good mood and full of energy, strutting over to the kettle on the stove, lifting the top to check for the tea inside before turning around to George. His gaze fell to the pile of chains. "Why are there chains on the floor?" He didn't even wait for George to answer, instead, he kept talking as he grabbed a cup from the cupboard and poured some tea in. "Just got the confirmation call, the case tonight is still on. Have you had a chance to gather some information?"

George filled him in on the findings the morning in the library had brought. It wasn't anything too special, it seemed to be a routine case. "Couldn't find any deaths related to the house or the ground it was built on. The lady on the phone talked about how the haunting started sometime after her great-aunt died. She wasn't living in the house though, so my bet is on some sort of haunted heirloom." Lockwood nodded contemplatively. "Sounds interesting enough."

An hour later, the four of them stood by the door, all packed and ready to go. Lockwood had the telephone by his ear, listening to what the person on the other side was saying. His expression turned from neutral to irritated quickly. He listened for a few more seconds, then said a curt goodbye before hanging up. "Can you believe it? Not a single cab is available in all of London. That guy must be mad!"

"What do we do now?", Lucy asked and Lockwood let out a long drawn sigh. "We take the bus. As the gentleman on the phone let me know, that is just as fine of transportation as a cab." He huffed, clearly of a different opinion. But complaining wouldn't get them to their destination any quicker, so they begrudgingly grabbed their equipment and left the house. Y/N had the straps of the duffle bag containing the chains thrown over her shoulder, and she quickly realised that carrying the heavy bag down the street would be much harder than simply carrying it a few metres to a waiting cab. She had a slight stumble in her step, the weight of the chains throwing her off balance.

"Do you need help with that?" George slowed down until she was next to him and extended his hand. "No it's fine", said Y/N through gritted teeth and attempted to keep walking. It was clearly not fine. George quickly caught up to her. "Just let me help you, Y/N." She sighed, setting down the bag and rubbing her shoulder with a grimace. "Fine. But let me at least carry your bag." George couldn't help but smile at her defiance. He remembered very well how long it took him to convince her to let him help her when she was struggling with something.

When she had started working for Lockwood & Co, she had been friendly but closed off - nothing that George hadn't experienced with Lockwood already. And after all, he himself wasn't known for being the most sociable person either. But something about her had caught his interest from the very first time she had walked through the door of 35 Portland Row. He handed her the much lighter duffle bag he had been carrying and picked up the one with the chains.

At the bus stop, they didn't have to wait too long, but that made their situation only marginally better. The bus that came to a halt in front of them was full, much fuller than one would expect at this time of day. But that's just how it was in the summer months, their work started when it was still light out, and that always meant that much more people were around. They hauled their bags and themselves into the vehicle and past the passengers already sitting inside. It was very apparent that the sight of their filled duffle bags, dark clothing and especially the rapiers that gleamed at their sides made the people around them somewhat uncomfortable. There were only three unoccupied seats left, and when Y/N, who entered the bus last, reached them, they were of course claimed by her colleagues.

It wasn't very comfortable, they had too much stuff with them and the bus was already overfull. "Do you wanna sit down?" George asked her and was already about to get up to let her have his seat, but she shook her head and motioned him to sit back down. "It's fine. I can just sit on the bags." They had stacked the bags to not take up any more space. But before Y/N could find a way to make herself comfortable on them, the bus driver started the engine back up and the bus lurched forward. She stumbled back, losing her grip on the pole she had held onto and landed on George's knees. She immediately started apologizing profusely, embarrassed by their sudden closeness. "It's fine, don't worry", George interrupted her, feeling a little overwhelmed by how flustered he felt all of a sudden.

She didn't try to get up and away from him immediately, and George surprised himself with his boldness as he pulled her closer so that she was on his lap completely. "Just stay here. If that's fine with you", he added hastily, not wanting to make her uncomfortable. Maybe that was a little too forward. He half expected her to jump up and get as far away from him as possible, but instead, she sheepishly nodded and didn't move. George turned his head to look out of the window, and he could feel the stares of both Lucy and Lockwood almost burning holes in the back of his head.

It was quite a long drive to the house they would be working at tonight, and George was happy to notice that Y/N seemed to get more comfortable with every passing minute. Where she was sat straight at the beginning, she was now leaning back against his chest. And again, with a boldness he didn't know he had he wrapped his arms, which had been by his side until now, around her waist and pulled her even closer to him. For a few seconds, his heart felt like it was about to jump out of his chest as he held his breath and waited for her reaction. But she just crossed her arms, placing them on top of his.

They spent the rest of the drive like this, and it was only when they reached the final stop, that George reluctantly pulled away his arms from her to let her get up. She didn't look at him, but her cheeks were pink as she grabbed her bag and dragged it off the bus. They were to only ones to get off at this stop, and so they stood alone on the sidewalk as the bus drove off. George prayed that no one would say anything about what had just happened. Luckily, neither Lucy nor Lockwood seemed to be in the mood for any teasing, though he could still feel them looking at him curiously. He chose to ignore them.

The case was just about as uneventful as he had predicted, and the source of the ghost - the great-aunt's necklace - had been found and cleared pretty quickly. Still, when they arrived back at the bus stop, it was dark. It was obvious that Lockwood still wasn't happy with this kind of travelling, but at least they didn't have to wait too long. This time, the bus was empty - no one besides agents was still outside now. The bus driver looked even more unhappy than Lockwood, and it was clear that he too would have preferred for them to have taken a cab.

But George was convinced that neither of them - neither the bus driver nor Lockwood - was quite as unhappy as he felt when he realised there was absolutely no reason for him and Y/N to repeat the seating arrangement from before. With them being the only four passengers, there were plenty of free seats available. But what somewhat lessened his disappointment, was the fact that Y/N chose the free seat next to him to sit.

Back home in Portland Row, George put on a kettle on the stove. Lockwood and Lucy had excused themselves to bed even though they came back earlier than usual from their case. Y/N on the other hand stayed with him in the kitchen while they waited for the water to boil. She was telling him about something that happened last time she had gone grocery shopping, but while he usually had no problems paying full attention to whatever she was saying, tonight it was different. He couldn't stop thinking about the bus ride. He had known before that he liked her, and that it was very different from how he liked Lockwood and Lucy - but it hadn't been clear to him just how much he liked her. And the way she had reacted to him - it gave him hope that maybe she felt something similar. He filled two cups with the water from the kettle and added the teabags. "Do you wanna sit in the library for a while?", he asked.

Y/N followed him to the library, where he sat down on the couch. She quickly contemplated if she should sit down next to him or if she should opt for the chair next to the couch. After what had happened on the bus, she was entirely unsure about how to act towards George. He smiled at her and she suddenly felt very nervous. Nonetheless, she decided to sit down on the couch, even though that meant they were now sitting very close next to each other. They were silent for a while, both sipping on their tea. The silence wasn't uncomfortable, it never was with them, but something was different than before.

Y/N finished her tea first and put the empty cup back onto the table. She was suddenly feeling very tired, but she liked the way she was sitting so close to George on the couch, and she didn't want this moment it end, even if she didn't exactly know what was between them right now. So instead, she leaned closer to him and rested her head on his shoulder.

George could feel his heartbeat quicken as Y/N leaned against him, and he had to force himself to finish his tea without choking on it. He quickly leaned forward to put his cup on the table as well, but the sudden movement had Y/N sit up straight again. "No no!", he said hastily, cursing himself silently for being so awkward in this moment. "Don't go away. That was nice." He almost bit his tongue. Was that too forward? But Y/N smiled shyly, in a way she had never smiled at him before. She resumed her position, and with his heart beating out of his chest, he slowly put his arm around her shoulder. A part of him was scared that this was too much, but instead of pulling away, she just cuddled closer to him and closed her eyes. "You are right, this is nice", she said quietly smiled as George leaned forward and pressed a kiss on her forehead.

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[thunder-opossum]

I just typed a lot. Im deleting it. I feel as if im nit posting about how i feel, everyone will assume im okay and all fine and dandy. This has something to do with my trauma of holding it all in and not feeling emotionally cared for by my parents. But I can't talk about that.

That's why I post all this sad stuff. Menacing and vague. I want people to acknowledge my pain. Listening or whatever. Its another "im not worthy of feeling this bad" kind of deal too. Im not okay. Bad stuff has happened to me. I dont want that to be erased. Although it often feels like that irl.

It feels nice to get acknowledgement here. Lately ive been kinda off put bc there's no interaction on my vent posts. Two likes maybe. Then I feel forgotten again. I know why its selfish to ask if and I know that people see it but don't like.

Fuck, I've already typed a lot again. Hah. Whoops

It matters a lot to me when people check in and rembered what im feeling bad about. Even though im a little pissy abt it sometimes.

So I'll try to convince myself to shut up about it again. I'm nit going to invest ti much of my time into communicating on here for now. Just know that I'll try ti leave a like. Somtim3s acknowledgement is better than advice. But dint just say "im sorry" hah. Words start to lose meaning after a while.

Augh. I feel like ive made fool out of myself to some of my friends on here, what's funny is they probably dont even know that. Sorry if I've shown disrespect. Somtim3s I gwt uncomfortable and in my head and it doesn't end well.

Im not spell checking all of that. Hope its readable

[salzartdump]

Hi blog OP, I don't really know you and just happened to catch this in the tags, so feel free to ignore or delete this if you would rather not further engage with the bitchy anons, but if you don't mind, I have a response: First and foremost, anon, what about yourself? Have you read the entirety of RHATO front to back, every shitty detail and every eye-searing panel of sometimes objectively horrific art?

I have. I'm subjecting myself to it repeatedly and in the long term in a project to write comprehensive meta about it bcs haters like you who are so one-note about the thing and have this agenda to harass people for having different thoughts than you seem to have scared anyone who might have interesting insights into the metaphorical bushes, and, frankly, that bores me. We engage with plenty of other horrific comic arcs with analysis and rewrites to turn badly-done slop with a core element that held actual promise into something Better. Why not this one? Why is this one so fucking taboo we can't even analyze it, discuss what it did wrong and how it could have done better, or acknowledge the rare few things it didn't do half bad (and trust me, when I say rare few, I MEAN Rare)? Who are YOU to try and dictate whether or not others are allowed to do so?

Fandom isn't a monolith. It's not meant to be a monolith. Ships don't have to be canon, they're typically not meant to be canon. Echo chambers stop being fun pretty quickly, you know.

Liking or disliking some portion of comics history isn't inherently moral. In fact, oftentimes a lot of people have far more nuanced opinions like "oh this part was bad, but I liked this one specific thing that they did." Oftentimes, people aren't even financially supporting the slop in question. And it's old enough and the certain type of property that, frankly, even talking about it isn't exactly giving them royalties. There's nothing you could do to support JayRoy or RHATO specifically that supporting nearly any other title in the entire history of DC comics wouldn't do anyways since it's all the same company.

Anon, you didn't even have the balls to leave your icon attached to your message, where's YOUR moral highground? I know comics breed a brand of fans that looove their superiority complexes, & I'm not even going to pretend I'm not one of them, because if I wasn't then I probably wouldn't have dropped in to respond at all.

Learn to curate your own space so you don't have to see content you don't like. And if it's popping up anyways, look at whether or not you're actually doing everything you can TO moderate your own experience. And if you are, and it's truly the fault of, say, a lack of identification, then request that people maybe add something that will allow it to be caught by your moderation, or just block them, or otherwise remove yourself from the space.

Life, and fandom, and especially superheroes, are supposed to be about love, not hate. I'm sorry that you've lost sight of that. I can only hope that one day you'll be happier, and find ways to embrace more joy in your life than you've ever dedicated to cruelty and harassment. I know right now things are pretty rough in a lot of places, and especially in America things feel pretty scary, but that's no excuse to turn on each other.

And, you know, if you or any other actually puts aside your pride enough to read all of this? I hope you have a good day ahead of you. If it's nighttime where you are, then I hope that day is tomorrow, and maybe even every tomorrow after.

Do better.

THIS THIS THIS ^^^

i was not expecting anyone to actually respond to my response and it sure was a Suprise to open my laptop to(not in a bad way)

but that was LITTERALLY what i was ranting to my brothers about, like if you wanted the goddamn attention of a blog whos small enough to read all the asks then you need the attention enough to put your name on it. and i dont know ANY JayRoy shipper whos EVER said they love RHATO, in fact we all HATE IT its objectively bad writing thats a chore to read. i read the first volume and liked it and thought the plot really made sense, but i had a Feaver and was half delirious when i reread it i aged 4 years every panel.

i admire liedownquisition's patients in not only reading that slop multiple times, and writing a project about it, but also just typing this response out, i wish i had that incredible drive and focus, i apricate the response

[skyfallscotland]

My chronic pain has been getting much, much worse lately (which means we need to go see another doctor cause the last doctor I saw's diagnosis is not right bc they said it would get better and go away), so I've been forced to start thinking about making decisions about everything. Specifically whether or not it's possible for me to swim in college. Which is something that I've thought would be the end goal since I was like 5. And it sucks that it's not a decision I'm making its something that my body is forcing me to make, and I absolutely don't want to.

So, anyways, I just wanted to say that your In Too Deep Violet is really important to me at the moment. And if I could have one wish, it would be that she was a real woman who I could talk to, even just get a hug from.

So, thank you. Thank you so much for giving us her. I really don't know what I would do right now, without the idea that there was a life after swimming.

I think every doctor I've ever seen has told me "it might just go away" right after the "sometimes things just happen to some people" schtick which means they have no clue what, why, when, or where. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this too.

I know what it's like to have your choices taken away from you by your body. It's robbed me of so many things too and I don't yet have the answers you're probably searching for. I haven't found them myself, I just try not to think about it as much.

Feel free to let me know if you'd like this deleted, but I'm answering this publicly to hopefully act as the bridge of missed connections because Violet in In Too Deep is (accidentally) a real person. A few real people, actually. More than one person has commented in the past that they had to give up competitive swimming due to illness and that ITD was important to them, so I'm hoping they might also be here on tumblr still in case they're open to chatting.

There is always an after, remember that. Even olympic athletes have to have an "after" and they all struggle with it too. Everyone's body gives in eventually. Maybe you are finding your after early and that sucks, but it's still an after and not the end. Swimming is a part of your life, but not your whole life.

I hope you do find a new doctor though, and that you can get better treatment options. Sometimes these things do go away, it just takes time and the right combination of treatment. I appreciate that sounds like bullshit, but one of my conditions eased after three years, so we live in hope, right?

Try and enjoy the small things when life seems hopeless. It's not all sunshine and butterflies, but there is literal sunshine and literal butterflies outside and they're nice to look at sometimes.

My inbox is always open 🖤

[get-caitjinxed]

Passed your page like 7 times bc I didn't know you changed your profile

Anyway came to ask what do you think the characters smell like? I'm trying to write and I suck with imagery/writing in general so you know trying to add to it. Smell is one of the senses I hadn't written but wtf does Caitlyn Kirramen smell like????? like flowers? Clean????? Bit of sweat???? I can't 😭

Also if you have writing tips you'd share please do 🙏

hehe sorry about that lol! i was getting tired of the other one, i'll try not to change it again 🙇‍♂️

this is the part where i have to admit that i'm terminally single and i don't have a great understanding of what other people smell like 😭 i don't think i'd even be good at describing how i smell? but in caitlyn's case i def think she would wear some kind of subtle perfume - nothing too extreme or too sweet, but just enough that you would be like "oh shit, she smells good". possibly smthn floral? 🤔 and then depending on the situation, you could go for some kind of fresh laundry smell bc i assume she keeps her uniform (and the rest of her clothes) as clean as possible. but also gunpowder! if she's been shooting, ofc. and if she's been running around in a fight, sure, sweat, maybe a little blood, etc. if you're going for the hextech rifle, i feel like i see a lot of people describe the scent from that as being a sort of ozone-y smell that lingers after a burst of energy

and if you're writing her with jinx, maybe she carries around a bit of residual grease/oil/paint/metallic smell ���

my overall tip for this would probably be to go do some research on perfurmes ig? this is some advice i should also take myself. gotta become a real jeremy fragrance type

AS FOR OTHER WRITING TIPS... i'll just rapid fire off a few:

when you're writing dialogue, try saying it to yourself out loud if it feels weird. your own voice might not match the character you're writing, but this is mostly to check and see if it sounds natural at all (sometimes i will literally talk to myself out loud and do voices if i'm thinking up a scene)

don't be afraid to interrupt dialogue (even mid sentence) to describe what a character is doing as they speak (or even how another character is reacting to something)! em dashes and ellipses are your friends

if you've written out something and it's just not working, don't be afraid to delete several paragraphs and dial it back. there are so many times were i get balls deep into a scene and go "this is NOT it" and delete everything i just wrote

less of a writing tip and more for brainstorming: when i'm stuck and i can't think of where to take a story next, or how to write out a specific plot beat, i just go for a walk and listen to music! this has been my brainstorming process since i was like 10 years old lmao and it's always worked well for me. sometimes you gotta step away from the word document and do something else for a while

your writing is always better than you think it is! i will post stuff and be like "wow this is garbage" and then have folks come along and tell me it's the best thing they've ever seen. you are your own biggest critic, so try not to be too hard on yourself!

also to anyone who is newer to writing or just starting out, write whatever the fuck you want! actually this applies to any experienced writers as well. don't feel like you need to write fics for other people! 90% of what i write is extremely self-indulgent and the other 10% is for my friends bc i know they'll like it. if you try to pander to your audience, you'll just make yourself miserable and you won't enjoy what you're doing. i'm churning out so much fic bc i genuinely just love writing caitjinx 🥺 everything i do is for me first

[wawamouse]

[bursts into your inbox as if we were having a conversation you were definitely not aware we were having] -one reason we need more slightly more modern outside AUs is: how unhinged could the texts between Chico and Miguel get?? The possibilities for conversational wtfuckery with these two!!

(I'm sure for the longest time it would be the most short and uninformative texting desert where they barely go beyond "u hungry?" and "k" level communication. But there would be bursts of amusing absurdist insanity that goes on and on.)

Yes this was prompted by something you reblogged on another blog, and I came here to tell you rather than politely musing in my own area.

Wow you’re so right, we need to make miguel and chico millennials…. or we just need to give them cellphones lol

(for those wondering, the post I reblogged was this )

also i do think “k” & leaving on read is miguel’s style of communication (toward chico) but probably only because i headcanon chico texting him like an insane person, both when he like-likes miguel and also when he hates him (bc that's hardly going to make him leave miguel alone lol). i could see him firing off an essay in single line texts and god help miguel when chico discovers audio messages (but at the same time, i think miguel would send audio messages more) (which chico would love because… come on 😂). i think miguel is better at cyber stalking someone than chico tho (ok now i’m just going into my Technology Headcanons). just, like, miguel is better at researching than chico. but chico knows more about torrenting and vpns and anti-virus stuff. also his bookmarks bar has a bunch of porn sites saved if we're being real

idk, i just don't see miguel as a texting person 😂 I think he prefers face-to-face communication or talking on the phone where as chico who probably has a really aggressive way of texting and also he uses T9 lol

i also think chico would send truly indecipherable memes sometimes, not because he thinks they’re funny (he doesn't get them) but because he just compulsively forwards every little piece of internet junk, clickbait, memes, buzzfeed quizzes, etc, straight to miguel, not really caring if he even responds or not bc anything he Actually wants miguel to see, he'll just bring up in person...

2 AU thoughts that immediately jumped to mind:

they meet as wrong numbers—like, one of them accidentally texts the wrong new contact or something—they got a fake number (haha), etc., and then the other person responds and they have a sort of curt conversation of realising they have theyre talking to a stranger before being like Whoops my bad! ...but then weeks later when the first guy (let's just say, chico - that' kinda what i'm imagining anyway) mistakenly texts miguel again bc he never deleted the contact info. and he's like totally shitfaced too so he just ends up calling miguel and being like HEY Come get me. I'm at xyz location!! … and that’s how they meet—because Miguel is moderately bored and curious and he thinks Chico will have drugs 😂 (maybe he’s mentioned it idk) (anyway he does have them) ...

dating app AU (cough hook up app) 💀 they chat/sext for a long time more as like friends for a while... idk, some people you just sort of end up befriending and having longer running fun conversations with / gossip about your other hook-ups on the app bc there's more to it in a way. they end up exchanging actual phone numbers and chatting bc they have a lot in common—even know the same clubs and know they don't live that far apart, but they just don't meet up right away. And then it gets kind of weird bc at a certain point, they're more lookng forward to meet up but then it's like damn, what if the spark isn't there in person 😵‍💫 what if they meet up, have sex, and then never text each other again or it all falls apart or something. And then something something, when they finally go Fuck It and decide to meet up and get it over with, they get completely sidetracked (just gotta do a minor job real quick! swing by a location!) in a Date Ends Up With Them Almost Getting Shot and Running For Their Lives type way. but good news: even though they bicker like hell in person, and each find the other vaguely infuriating, the spark is definitely there 👀

[verycoolsnails]

i hope u dont mind me jumping into ur inbox my good mutual snail but UR OCS SOUND VERY COOL PLEASE TELL ME MORE ABOUT THEM!!! i am staring with the widest eyes at them... hattie sounds wonderful ouhh...

No I cannot tell u abt Hattie.. he evades my mind every time I try to think anout her .....

Ok but seriously every time I try to write abt Hattie I end up either drastically changing their character or deleting any drafts I have of them bc they always end up feeling dry/boring (perhaps expodumping before every Hattie draft was not a good idea.) I wanna say it's been a year(?) since I've even attempted to talk abt her at length. So! I'll talk about her now ig. Let's hope I can keep his character somewhat consistent once I post this🫡

Hattie is, essentially, a god/goddess. This does not mean he is immortal (yet.) I can't into the lore too much much yet ok? ok.

I always feel like I'm horrible at describing personality but I think she comes off as arrogant + aloof + snobbish? As in he WILL talk very strangely and if you can't understand her perfectly then you're not worth it's time. The key to getting anywhere close to him is just to be persistently annoying lmao. Once you do get past that first barrier you realize he's just horrible at talking to other people. Loves showing off his accomplishments (aka wants praise RLY badly.) Becomes pretty clingy when she does eventually get attached to someone. I'd say she's hardworking but he's literally working towards nothing. So.

Appearance is kinda subject to change at any moment cuz im still deciding what would work best. But I'll tell u what I got for now. She tends to use a human-like form but with six arms instead of 2 (kind of like the humble s.pider..) Haven't quitee decided what his face would look like but maybe something in the uncanny valley? Like technically she looks fine but something about her is very very off .. (would probably be a constant smile that just doesnt look. right. ykwim?) Alternatively she could just have a bunch of eyes. Or he could switch between the two...?

Anyways. Exclusively wears the TACKIEST suits known to mankind. You will catch this guy dead before he ever willingly wears a plain t-shirt. Also has a tiny top hat hovering above her head at all times. By tiny I mean it's maybe the size of a fist.

The tiny hat is what Hattie names herself after! (He's not the best at naming things, including himself lol)

he built an entire city by himself! And by built I mean she designed it all and then it just kinda magically came to life (said city is in like. ohh how do I explain this. I guess you could call it a separate dimension from The Universe? It's just like. rly rly far away ig ... if u want me to go more in-depth into the worldbuilding I will. I need 2 be writing it down anyways lmao)

Anyways. Lives in the top floor of a BIGGGGG tower in the center of city-from-last-bullet-point-that-I-haven't-named-yet. Almost never comes out of the tower he loves it soooo much ..

OH AND BEFORE I FORGET. any pronouns and aroace! Figures that I projected my gender and sexuality on one of my oldest ocs (though I do tend to lean towards she/he/they/it cuz thats what the other characters use for her. and its mainly what I use for myself but we're going to ignore that lol)

LOVESSSS paperwork. Would spend the rest of their life pouring over paperwork but unfortunately it has these things called "friends that care about his wellbeing" or whatever...

For his motivations.. he'll tell u that he wants to become immortal (part of what previously mentioned Paperwork is about) but want he rly wants is a family. Said family could be literally anyone who he thinks even slightly cares abt her shes Very desperate at this point. (She doesn't consider her current two friends to be family since she thinks one of them hates him Rly Rly Bad. And the other one is just hard to get in touch with. So Hattie also thinks he doesn't enjoy being around her.)

Has MANYY hobbies .. even Hattie sometimes gets bored of paperwork. Ranges from archery (quit early bc she hated being out of her suits) to bartending (CRAZY good at bartending. Quite proud of it too) to lockpicking (Learned it partly bc they thought it would be a useful skill. Turns out she doesn't really have a reason to break into anything) Some of his favorite hobbies are learning different languages (makes him feel smarter + enjoys the challenge of it) and making dioramas! (first hobby he ever picked up besides making an entire city.[but she considers that more as a job] still has a soft spot for dioramas.)

Has perfect memory. Literally! Unable to forget anything he's ever seen/heard/etc. Has a hard time being alone w their own thoughts bc of this.

Speaking of sleep, Hattie feels things like hunger, thirst, and tiredness, things that a god normally wouldn't be able to feel. And she has absolutely no idea why!

(Uh oh! Turns out never being able to forget anything has it's downsides!)

Backstory is essentially mommy issues x2. What if all you ever wanted was to be loved but the people who were supposed to do that either died or left w/o any explanation. smh.

Turns out I don't know how to end this. uhhh Hattie is very silly. to me...

[rainix13]

just me venting lmao, will probably delete later

no real trigger warnings i guess, I just don't think anyone wants to read this and it's kinda long-ish lol

I'm so fucked and it's my own fault and I lowkey hate myself lmao

I was having a decent good weekend

I studied, did some cases (I'm studying law - at least so far i guess)

Last week we could send in one case and idk what it's called but it's Übungsleiter in german lol

I suppose you could say trainer or sth

Well anyway, he just sent me mine back

And to say the least I'm fucked

I knew that beforehand because hhhh

somehow I know a whole bunch of facts. And apart from that I know how to write a letter of advice (again, I'm not sure it's the correct term but it's better than Gutachten i guess)

But I just can't out those to together and obviously if I can't connect the what with the how both things are basically useless

I just feel like I'm too stupid for this shit bc I genuinely don't get it. I don't even know what I don't get, it makes no fucking sense. I should be able to connect it but I'm not. My friend here (yes it's only one lmao) doesn't have the problem and doesn't understand me.

Our exam is next Saturday, obviously I'll keep studying but istg it feels impossible.

From what I hear around me I seem to be the only one to be this...useless

I thought I finally left my 'shit, maybe i actually am a failure' behind when I finished school last year and started uni but no lol

If I don't pass I could technically try to get through 3rd semester and if I don't pass exams in 3rd I'm unable to continue to study law

The stupid stupid thing is that it's even fun sometimes but I'm just actually so bad at it

This already was my plan B, because my dream job thingy was to become a pilot at the air force here but my eyes are too bad lol

I'm just lost rn

Everyone's gonna be so disappointed if I don't make it, not just my parents (idgaf abt my mother honestly) but my old teachers, my friends idk

I just wanna stop disappointing people and myself

I just wanna be able to get one fucking thing right but for some reason I can't get right what everybody else here can ugh

And I can't talk to the guy I'm studying with bc he doesn't get it, my normal friends are just like 'ja das wird schon' (= don't worry, you'll be fine)

I just went back to say that I'm doing fine and everything is going fine whenever someone asks. I've been there, most people were I guess. I'm fine but inside is a battle that's been going on for weeks now and I don't even know for what end I hope anymore.

And my bestie is somewhere in between. That's for me rn somehow the worst

Because she believes in me

The one person who believed in me and went with me through everything and never judged me too hard believes in me. And of course she doesn't understand what I mean. She's studying something completely different.

But she believes. And I feel like it's impossible to live up to that unspoken expectation. My best friends are the ones from school and all of them seem so happy with what they're studying. They pass most exams and I'm so happy for them.

But I want that too. I want to have fun, which I do, but I want to be able to continue to do this. I for once want to be good at the thing that's fun as well. I wanna be at least decent in the shit I'm studying and not be ex-matriculated (?) because I'm to incompetent to be good at this.

Plan C is basically to go back to Plan A and join the army (either airforce or navy) and sure i'd like that to but like...

What if I fail again and again and again and again....

I can't switch subjects and jobs for the rest kf my life, I wanna be happy and good at something at the same time

I don't wanna disappoint everyone I care about

Why can't I? I m just so frustrated with myself because I don't know what to do to be better but at the same time it feels like I'm not doing enough

+ I'm missing almost all pride events that I could've gone to this year and it just really really frustrates me ngl

[realcube]

YOU GOT: TŌRU OIKAWA

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ matchup for @s0dium

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ if you would like a matchup, read this!

'I day dream about taekwondo and in another life I swear I’d be an Olympic taekwondo champion!'

𓆩♡𓆪 ok these first few are kinda rapid fire but

𓆩♡𓆪 i think this sort of ambition , especially for a sport, would be soo attractive to oikawa

𓆩♡𓆪 like he might not know much about taekwondo but he would SO listen to you rant about how you could've bet x fighter in a match or how you could've won y tournament

𓆩♡𓆪 and everytime he is like 'yes >:( so true queen... they're lucky you didn't compete bc you'd send them ALL to the unemployment office expeditiously'

𓆩♡𓆪 you feed his vb dreams and he'll feed your taekwondo dreams 💞

𓆩♡𓆪 shared manifestation

𓆩♡𓆪 although he would so be sneaky and coniving about it by signing you up for competitions without you knowing

𓆩♡𓆪 you'd just be minding your own business and he'll come up you like 'hm why aren't you training?'

𓆩♡𓆪 'training for what?'

𓆩♡𓆪 'your taekwondo contest next week.'

𓆩♡𓆪 'WHAT taekwondo contest!?!?'

𓆩♡𓆪 'the one i signed you up for. you should probably start practising. i heard the competition is pretty fierce this year.' he sips his chai and walks away.

𓆩♡𓆪 then you jump him and use your taekwondo moves to beat his ass

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'I’m a huge academic over achiever I always strive to be and do my best.'

𓆩♡𓆪 literally a match made for oikawa

𓆩♡𓆪 born over achiever , just in a different sense

𓆩♡𓆪 so much so he got a complex over a boya year or two younger than him catching up to him in talent , so he relates to the struggle

𓆩♡𓆪 i don't really remember anything ever being mentioned about how he performs academically buuuut

𓆩♡𓆪 considering how smart he is during matches, i'm sure that kinda intelligence is somewhat transferrable

𓆩♡𓆪 study dates???

𓆩♡𓆪 tbh he'd be the first to get distracted and start flirting with you

𓆩♡𓆪 meanwhile you're tryna grind

𓆩♡𓆪 though i do hc he kinda does well academically , and would be in at least some of your classes

𓆩♡𓆪 seems like a maths nerd ??

𓆩♡𓆪 one time y'all were doing hw together and thought he was being so intelligent by pointing out you didn't derive properly but then you're like??? nothing on this page is being derived?

𓆩♡𓆪 and he never commented on your work again

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'Muscular tall men is where it’s at 😎'

𓆩♡𓆪 i had to think for a moment if oikawa fits into this category bc like he's defo tall ( 6 foot) but idk i remember him being a bit skinnier compared to the other characters

𓆩♡𓆪 but mans has a lil smth going onnnnn esp post time skip

𓆩♡𓆪 source one (ARRRMMS?) , source two (LEGGGSSS???????)

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'Fun fact abt me is that I was in a blockbuster movie one time and that is how I pay a lot of my bills, I even got a IMDb page someone made that I can’t get taken down'

𓆩♡𓆪 he will never let you live that down btw

𓆩♡𓆪 oh and you can bet your ass that he's telling everyone he is dating a famous actress and will direct them to whatever movie you were in

𓆩♡𓆪 post-time skip oikawa will even be telling the press + talk shows

𓆩♡𓆪 and he maybe didn't make the imdb page but oikawa is 100000% using an alt account to re-make it all the time and add stuff to it so the imdb ppl never delete it

𓆩♡𓆪 he's a menace unfortunately

𓆩♡𓆪 and he is defo the type to pay for all dates

𓆩♡𓆪 (like don't even make eye-contact with your wallet because he's bark at you)

𓆩♡𓆪 ('just bring your lipgloss, phone and my phone too :P' he says, everytime y'all are about to leave the house.)

𓆩♡𓆪 BUT on the off chance you pay bc it's something small like ice-cream and you were too quick , he'll ALWAYS without a single doubt make a joke to whoever is taking the money along the lines of , 'don't worry , she's a famous actress. she can afford it.' AJFEURGFEIF

𓆩♡𓆪 literally everytime and sometimes the shopkeeper will ask for your autograph because of what he says, even if they don't recognise you lol

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'ideal first date would be ice skating or a snowball fight!!'

𓆩♡𓆪 that is literally so cute and aesthetic oml

𓆩♡𓆪 so perfect for oikawa

𓆩♡𓆪 he probably doesn't know how to skate but i don't think it would take him much time to learn and find the ropes

𓆩♡𓆪 he won't be stumbling for long so while he is, please make the most of every moment and tease him as much as you physically can lmao

𓆩♡𓆪 if you are an expert though, like if you can do the tricks n stuff, he is going to be outwardly sooo sour about it but inwardly impressed

𓆩♡𓆪 he says 'omg stop showing off 🙄' but he thinks 'wow my gorgeous ice princess 😲🥰'

𓆩♡𓆪 will take videos of you skating and post them on social media with corny captions 😌

𓆩♡𓆪 another good thing is that oikawa is so down to take GOOD pictures and is always taking candids of you

𓆩♡𓆪 he is not the type to complain about you making him pose with you, he just makes sure to serve extra hard

𓆩♡𓆪 as for snowball fights, he is soo competitive with it but will secretly always let you win because he loves to see you happy and celebrating

𓆩♡𓆪 he plays dirty though and WILL put snow in your hood then put your hood over your head

𓆩♡𓆪 it's just in his nature unfortunately lmao

𓆩♡𓆪 also playfully mean to you sometimes

𓆩♡𓆪 you see he made a snow angel and you lay down next to it and start to make one adjacent to his so it looks like they are holding hands

𓆩♡𓆪 when he notices this he gasps in horror, "hey! don't put your snow demon beside my snow angel !!!"

𓆩♡𓆪 (but it's okay because you use your taekwondo moves to kick the head off his snowman)

𓆩♡𓆪 (his name was snowykawa... rip...)

𓆩♡𓆪 but also the sweetest bf ever (at times)

𓆩♡𓆪 tells you how beautiful you look with snowflakes in your hair

𓆩♡𓆪 makes you hot cocoa with the marshmallows arranged in a heart

𓆩♡𓆪 gives you his mittens if your hands get cold

𓆩♡𓆪 carries you back inside if your feet get cold

𓆩♡𓆪 overall just whipped for you and does a bad job at hiding it

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for @s0dium: kinda thinking bokuto for you but i thought that might be too predictable. also the overachiever thing made me think oikawa sooo.

[torialefay]

Feel free to delete, and please take this with a grain of salt bc its just an outsider view that could be horribly wrong, but ive noticed that felix looks so tired and out of it lately. The only times i feel like his smile is genuine is on stage at concerts (not counting music bank and the like) and sometimes when his members says something he finds funny, otherwise, he just looks so *tired* in most pictures, interview, etc ive seen put out recently (idk if im delulu, probably am tbh, but i get a sense of annoyance/frustration from him at times too, but its veerry subtle)

no, i think you are 100% valid in this tbh. i mean i'd say all the boys are fucking exhausted these days with the comeback & all that they're doing, but i agree, felix seems kinda worn down.

i know i had mentioned it in the comments of one of my last posts, but the video of felix almost collapsing on stage from a couple of days ago paired with the messages he'd sent on bubble... my heart breaks for him honestly.

i can't imagine how hard it must be to be in the spotlight like that, but he's not even in the spotlight like most idols are... people expect the absolute MOST of him. like imagine being known as the biggest fucking visual in the industry (and i mean this in an objective way, like he's been the "it boy" for a longggg time). having that label put on you PLUS representing a well-known fashion brand & having a ton of sponsorships... it's a lot.

stray kids have worked extremely hard to get to where they are & definitely each have their own talents and strengths. but we have to be honest here... felix's visuals are what sells skz to a lottttt of people. you hear all the time about how people are so drawn to him & his looks, it's honestly crazy.

i wonder how anyone could not develop complexes about themselves when so much of their livelihood simply comes from being beautiful. and beauty is something you have to maintain. i'm sure he has to constantly think about his looks and how he will be perceived by others... especially now that he's (a tiny bit) pushing the "androgeny" concept. as thin as male idols are expected to be, female idols are expected to be even thinner. for him to maintain this androgenous look, it's possible that he feels like he has to realllly push this thin frame so that he can morphe himself to fit different concepts... i mean at this point, it's badically expected of him.

i agree that he seems tired & maybe a bit unlike the usual "sunshine lixie" that we see. i hope that whatever he is going through, that he will be able to find the love and support that he needs. whether that is through stay or through the people he is close to. there's so much more to that kind of life than what most people realize :(