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ineffable-ducks · 11 months ago

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Work and personal life irl has been absolutely KILLING me this past month

Luckily I have someone who cares a lot about me and makes all the shit worth it and I can't wait to see them again soon @cosmic-horror-statements I'm coming for you bish

Hopefully things will calm down and I'll upload some of the art I've been making here soon as well but for now I hope yall enjoy the comic

#queer platonic relationship #queer platonic partner #hes my best friend and i dont know what id do with out him #probably fall down and cry #im so tired yall

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sysig · 9 months ago

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Can I request a pokemon drawing? Was thinking mewtwo but idk whoever whatever!

Day 11 - Quiet pls

#My art #Requestober #Pokemon #Whismur #MewTwo #I'm pulling out my excuse from a couple years ago - I may have gone overboard but in my defense I really wanted to #Lol #Of course I had to!!! My beloveds!!!!!#Whismur's been on my mind again lately - thinking again of the little doodle of me holding one among others things haha #And I mean if you're going to specify MewTwo who am I to say no <3 #So both! Both burple babies! Although Whismur is classified as pink?? Mm???#They're more purple than MewTwo arguably??? He's more grey due to the alien influence - that scrembaby is purple #I really wanted to lean a bit more into MewTwo's catlike traits and have him nosing around lol #Sniff sniff what are you identify yourself #Couldn't swing the posing >:P He's too dignified to lie down completely but how do support himself on those legs!#If not for his tail he'd definitely fall on his face haha #Well I might try again another time - and it's not like I'm DisPleased with how it turned out!#I didn't re-line Everything but I did a lot of it........I actually like lining a lot now........it's fun lol #His little body expression differences were very fun haha especially his tail - an agitated thump in the last one!#MewTwo dearest you're very intimidating to the little speaker just turn down the glare #Being screamed at doesn't help the glower lol #Poor little Whismur haha just not used to MewTwo yet! He's fairly friendly to most Pokemon...now #He'll still probably just make a clone and leave the original be at this point lol #As least that one won't cry at the sight of him! Probably! Maybe! Haha <3

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iapologizeformyactions · 13 days ago

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Do u like rayman

I LOVE RAYMAN, RAYMAN IS MY FAVORITE GAME OF ALL TIME!! RAYMAN ORGINS IS THE BEST THING EVER!!! BEST GAME EVER!!! ITS BEEN 12 YEARS UBISOFT CMOIONNN!!! GIVE ME RAYMAN!!! RAYMAN LEGENDS IS PICK AND I HAVE 1000 HOURS ON THE GAME IM NOT LYING!!! I REPLAYED RAYMAN ORGINS ABOUT 5 TIMES!!! I PLAYED LEGENDS ABOUT 4 TIMES AND PLATINUMED THE GAME!!! I FUCKING LOVE RAYMAN SO MUCH!!! BEST PLATFORMER

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liiizzard · 1 month ago

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low key having a crisis over finances right now actually

#liz losing her mind #you would think growing up poor and working at a bank would make me good at money #i make all my payments on time and everything but right now im paying down my credit card just enough to max it out again #literally it was just pay day and i’m already fucked and i’m genuinely not sure all the automatic charges i have coming are going to work #i don’t know how i got here i know i get a little impulsive but im usually so good with not spending too much #how did my credit card balance get that high #i’m gonna cry #how do i make some extra money really quick #i haven’t even bought groceries for this pay cycle #oh my god i’m supposed to go get coffee with some friends tomorrow and i genuinely can’t afford it #like i probably need to go apply for another credit card but i don’t want it to get worse #what if i max that one out too #why did i get such a nice car #why do my parents think i’m rich i have nothing #i genuinely have no savings whatsoever #i don’t know how i’m going to afford that trip to florida in the fall #and my friend wants me to visit her in new york #and my aunt wants me to visit her in hawaii #and i would LOVE to #but how #and i want to go see roby so so so bad #i don’t even think i can blame capitalism for this one #i’m so so fucked actually

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mars-ipan · 8 months ago

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interesting to me how when i turned 19 i was kinda terrified bc i was like “oh shit this is my last year as a teenager….. i won’t be a teenager after that… i wanted to be a teenager for all of my childhood and now that part’s almost Over. aaaaugh” and now approx. 9 months later i cannot fucking WAIT to stop being a teenager oh my god i am ready to move on. 20s please i would like to be in them. i am done being 19 thank you !!!

#marzi speaks #it’s . probably bc of the vasculitis thing #which like. while it is a traumatic thing that i need to work through and plan on going to therapy about #it also put a LOT of things into perspective for me #and like actually i do not think i am afraid of growing up anymore !#i mean i still have like. the imposter syndrome and the fear of getting overwhelmed and falling behind #that’s not gonna go away overnight that’s been there for as long as i can remember #BUT!! i know deep down that i can figure it out now.#bc i figured out a lot. i figured out how to gauge my physical well being #i figured out how to be someone who can regularly make phone calls without crying #i figured out pharmacies. and i’m figuring out how insurance works #and appointments and withdrawing from school and reapplying to school #and all of the lifestyle changes that come with having an autoimmune disease #i’m learning self advocacy. i’m learning how to respond when people treat me poorly (always accidentally so far)#yeah getting my license has been hard and slow just bc i have all the anxiety shit about it. but i AM putting that effort in #i dunno it’s just. adult responsibilities are horrifying and the prospect of existing independently in our current society #is horrifying. and i think i’ll always be scared.#but i used to think i might not be able to handle it. that i would fall apart #i know now that i won’t. i will find a way to move forward and be happy. because that’s what i’ve always done #if i can take the scariest couple of months in stride the way that i have. then i think i can handle it #anyways. 19 was eventful enough can i be 20 now. i think being 20 would be good for me #still a Weird thing to think about. two whole decades. but like i can do it methinks

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wayfinderships · 6 months ago

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The Snow yearning is so strong tonight

#pan gushes #f/o: ❄️#AUGH...#We've been married for years and yet here I am still getting butterflies and stuff like when I first fell for him #I just...gkdnfkdnfkdj #I'm so bad at putting my feelings for my f/os to words sometimes #But I love and adore Snow so much #He brings me so much comfort and makes me feel so safe which means so much to me #I like feeling safe around someone and being able to just lower my guard around y'know?#Also in true ff13 Panchi fashion- I too am quite a crybaby deep down #←Was getting tearyeyed because of how badly they wanted a Snow kiss and to be in Snow's arms #Speaking of crying. (Wait no that sounds bad but I promise it wont be that bad)#My S/I post-Trilogy often has nightmares about their death in the Old World. The downfall of said Old World. Stuff like that #If left alone they they just start sobbing even even more #But Luckily Snow tends to wake up and comfort them- He's really sweet and patient the whole time #even when Panchi is apologizing about waking him up and the past and how they feel responsible for everything bad that happened and-#But yeah. Snow isn't the best with words but he's good at comforting Panchi and helping them fall asleep again #Snow also has his fair share of nightmares Post-Trilogy. Though not as much as Panchi #His nightmares tend to be about those centuries he spent along in LR and seeing Panchi Die again #And since Panchi is a light sleeper. They wake up quickly and reassure him that he's not alone and that they're alive and well #On those nights it's most comforting for Snow to sleep in Panchi's arms with his head on their chest #He likes listening to their heartbeat since it's a reminder that yes. they are indeed alive and well. and their chest is comfy-#ANYWAYS! afksnfjs Got really sidetracked there my apologies! Could've probably made a whole second post there #Goodnight gamers <3 Hope everyone's night goes well

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wah-pah · 4 months ago

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That whole Argan plot made me laugh a lot though.

WTF did that come from?

#The laughter had a good timing though because the crying had already started.#Life is not like tv or films but K-Dramas and their epic love stories really have a way to mess with my 'you'll be forever alone' issues #Anyway...#all's well that ends well #I mostly enjoyed it but stopped watching after Hong Hee-joo said he wanted her husband back right there in her arms- I was afraid the plane #Was going to fall down or something - if it did don't tell me #I enjoyed it overall but will probably have to take a break from K-Dramas again for a bit #when the phone rings #Spoilers #Personal

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lightblueminecraftorchid · 7 months ago

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My roommate and I had a conversation last night and I keep rotating it in my brain and I Don’t Like It

#blue chatter #they called me a resilient person. and no the fuck I am not. I break down so easily over everything and my body is falling apart on me.#I scream in terror when someone knocks on the door too hard the fuck you mean I’m good at handling adversity #I pointed out that I freak out whenever my grade gets low even a little bit #and they were just sitting there like ‘yeah. and then you pick yourself up again and you do the work.’#and no? not always? oftentimes I give up and don’t try hard enough to fix it and let points go that I could have earned #I barely ever go for extra credit opportunities and I’ve never gone to office hours of my own free will #I can’t even think about talking to a professor about a bad grade without wanting to cry? hello?#but they were insistent that even with those things I am still managing Incredibly Well in class given the circumstances. which made me #uncomfortable. like. I don’t think of myself as resilient At All and I feel a bit like I’m lying or tricking them.#I start shaking like a chihuahua when people are upset and I’m In The Vicinity. even when they’re clearly not upset with me.#I really struggle to advocate for myself ever and even when I do I usually feel guilty and walk it back partway so I don’t cause a fight #and I always get way too emotional for the situation when someone has anything they’re upset with me for. which isn’t fair to them bc I need #to be able to take constructive criticism without taking it as a personal attack on me.#like what the fuck do you mean *resilient*. I can’t even handle seeing a bug flying near my face or getting a B in a class. or being told #that I did something wrong. I’m actually significantly worse at handling adversity than I used to be. high school me was a resilientish kid.#and it’s not like I was ever *good* at handling my emotions. even when it was essential for my safety. I’ve always cried way too easily #even when it actively made the situation I was in Much Worse. even when I knew better.#I would get angry and scared and sad and start shaking and crying and even screaming at my parents when they were mad at me even though #I knew that it would always make my life much worse. and extend an already beleaguered argument.#I brought this up with my therapist and she was like ‘well. anybody would have done that if they were treated like you were’.#which. okay. maybe so. I still feel like I should have been able to handle it and just shut up and move on and not make it worse.#but I am aware that this is probably a cognitive distortion. even so. that definitely doesn’t make me resilient.#I just. I feel gross being called resilient. I’m not. I’m weak and easily scared and unable to handle even small amounts of adversity.#the fuck is my roommate even *seeing*.#the annoying part is that they’re generally an insightful person about other people and I know logically that they’re probably right #which is why I’m not going to complain any more about this to their face bc I should just drop it and not make it a Thing #I talk too much about myself and my problems anyway. not every conversation has to be about my brain worms.#but the discomfort is Distinct and Unpleasant. and now I’m just having to sit with it. and Feel Uncomfortable. and try to accept what was #definitely intended as a compliment. I know it’s draining to talk to someone who doesn’t accept any of the kind things you say about them.

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mikayuumouse · 1 month ago

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top 5 bands/artists?

Hi I just died of happiness from how many things I had in my inbox

Also forewarning I'm like the most basic person in the world with music. I mostly only listen to Taylor Swift, she's my roman empire I love her so much and she's been my number one artist for years now. I'm addicted to her music tbh, I love all of it

So, #1 spot obviously goes to Taylor, one of the best humans to ever walk the earth

I'd say my second favorite artist is actually probably Conan Gray. He's super talented and underrated. His bridges and vocals are angelic

Third spot goes to Fall Out Boy, so many of their songs are so good. They're honestly just such a vibe of a band, I saw them live once, it was awesome

Fourth spot goes to Gracie Abrams :] I discovered her because of Taylor actually (they have a song together, called "us."), and now that I've listened to more of her music, I love it

Fifth spot goes to Mother Mother! Glad I decided to start listening to them, too. They should probably be more popular, imo, they deserve it 😔

Honorary mentions to TV Girl and Panic! At the Disco too :>

#Oh also mcr #I mostly just listen to Taylor though #I think my longest listening streak was 18 days of her music on Spotify #favorite songs are;#For Taylor I'd say Haunted or champagne problems #I can't pick I love all her songs #especially exile and seven and Sweet Nothing and The Great War and My Boy Only Breaks His Favorite Toys and Red and If This Was a Movie #and Better Than Revenge and Back to December and Castles Crumbling and Daylight and Cornelia Street #and All You Had To Do Was Stay and “Slut!” and Wonderland and Dress and Delicate and Don't Blame Me #and I Wish You Would and Wildest Dreams and Forever Winter and Stay Beautiful and Sad Beautiful Tragic #and Ronan and Peter and the Albatross and Fortnight and Shake It Off and Our Song and Picture to Burn and You Belong With Me #and Love Story and White Horse and Untouchable and Last Kiss and Ours and Superman and All Too Well and 22 #and Treacherous and Look What You Made Me Do and The Archer and Afterglow and invisible string and mirrorball #and mad woman and illicit affairs and hoax and my tears ricochet and the last great american dynasty and the 1 #and the lakes and ivy and cowboy like me and coney island and 'tis the damn season and gold rush and marjorie #and epiphany and Hits Different and Midnight Rain and it's time to go and evermore and Antihero and Maroon #and You're Losing Me and The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived and Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus and Down Bad #and Who's Afraid of Little Old Me? and Guilty as Sin? and How Did It End? and the Black Dog and cardigan and august #HELP THAT ENDED UP BEING WAY LONGER THAN I EXPECTED #I'm a big swiftie okay 💔#Favorite Conan song is definitely Alley Rose that song makes me cry #favorite FOB song is probably Favorite Record or Jet Pack Blues #Favorite Gracie song is Risk or Tough Love :>#favorite Mother Mother song is definitely Arms Tonite oml #also tyyyy for all the asks<33 #taylor swift #conan gray #fall out boy #gracie abrams #mother mother

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itspileofgoodthings · 1 year ago

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I say that you don’t need to know the Taylor lore to appreciate her music and I MEAN it and yet I’m not sure Taylor saying “now I’m down bad crying at the gym” hits quite as hard if you didn’t spend all of 2014 watching her coming out of gyms in NYC wearing her perfect little model ‘fits with her short 1989 bob perfectly coiffed only to learn later all the heartbreak happening behind the scenes then TOO.

#like. there are many planes on which to listen to a Taylor song #and the directly personal isn’t even always the most frequent #but one of the joys of a first album listen—amidst all the pain—is to suddenly get an inside picture of what was ACTUALLY going on #and the way the eras tour prep / personal fall out behind the scenes SLOTTED into place #when I first heard down bad #LIKe. I’m SO SORRY BUT SHE WAS PROBABLY LITERALLY DOWN BAD CRYING AT THE GYM AS SHE WORKED OUT FOR HER MASSIVELY SUCCESSFUL GLOBE-DOMINATIN #WORLD TOUR #it extends beyond that but the snapshot is SO. REAL.#the Ann Powers review captures this so well #it is Taylor directly filling us in because what she does to cope is Write Stuff Down #every time Taylor writes about someone around her being high? she just wrote that shit down #(sorry for saying shit)#and yet it isn’t just direct transcription #it is the selection of the right details #to make it transcend that #idk. it’s what I think anyway 😭 maybe I’m wrong but 😭😭😭😭😭#what a way to die (guilty as sin do not interact at this exact moment in time)

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phagodyke · 2 months ago

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pain so bad I woke up 2 hours ago and haven't been able to sleep again and I have work today :(

#i feel. so sick #i think im gonna stop w these meds i cant handle it anymore and its not making anything better #and its been 2 months now thats long enough probably #im so tired its making me stupid i keep crying over everything #being in pain so much makes me feel like a shitty friend & person in general sometimes bc i dont have the mental energy or resources to #be the person i want to be. like not in an anxious way its just so frustrating to not be able to live up to my own standards #and ik the ppl in my life are understanding of that & ive been shown far more empathy than i even deserve and im very grateful for that #but im tired of having to let myself down all the time i dont have endless patience and its just so fucking hard.#and it might perpetually be like this. which is near impossible to come to fucking terms with so im trying not to think abt it #god i dont want to work today. ill see how shit i feel when i get up qnd maybe ill call in sick #ough. wish i didnt feel so alone with this i could rly go for some comfort rn its a shame i cant ask anyone for anything #anyway vent over itll be okay. got a few other pain management strats to try over the next month im not at the end of the line yet #and yeah ill stop taking these meds. hoping i can fall back asleep soon im so shattered man #.vent

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connormoving · 8 months ago

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loveee when a character is crushed under the weight of someone elses expectations for them love when a character dedicates their entire life to something they never even wanted for themself love when the only reason a character keeps going is because theyre Supposed to and bc theyre supposed to make another person happy/proud. YES !!! CLAPPING !!! YES !!!!!!!!

#this isnt rly related to any character in particular i just thought abt this and it made me scream.#flirting at a bar Damn girl you look like youre trapped in a life you built to please someone else. and then i kneel down and pull out a 💍#sry i ran out of space for the full word ring. also why when i type 💍 Ohh theyre hiding it. bc now the emoji is 💍 Oh they changed it again #pox on their home..originally it was 🔐 sughested emoji #but then the second time it was 😭.... very anti marriage. well ig maybe the sob could be like OMG... YES!!!!! I WILL MARRY YOU!!!!!!#ngl getting proposed to is such a big fear of mine like. i dont think id ever be able to propose to someone so id have to be proposed to i #suppose but it makes me quite nervous not bc im like ohh nooo dont propose i just rly worry ill react the wrong way and theyll change their #mind. like its a very high emotion moment so ik i would be supposed to be emotional And i would be but idk if id do it in the right way . y #idk. what if my autism looms and i end up just being like 😐 on accident. fuckkk. what if i say somethinf dumb. like i try to be like YES !#but instead im like YEP! god. can you imagine. id have to just bury myself at that point. so embarassing. or like what if i get excited and #flap my hands but it was supposed to be more of a like. joyful crying type of thing... or what if im supposed to just be shocked and like .#Oh my god ....#and am I supposed to run at them and sweep them into a hug or do they do thst to me. UGH. ITS SO STRESSFUL. i suppose ill just remain alone #forever so I never have to confront any difficult situations ever again . Joke .#idk it just makes me nervous. but i suppose hopefully the person proposing to me will love me . that would be nice so hopefully they wont #mind if i dont respond the right way . and they wont be upset with me bc they love me eversomuch. a girl can dream i suppose... my head lik #is pounding sry. i need to sleep probably.. stayed up too late again -_- 8am -_- and im sposed to do laundry today But i dont want to . and #since im gonna fall asleep i fear it shant happen. UGHHH #wtvr. idk what my ideal proposal would be likeee. i don't want to be blindsided ig #i like surprises but Obviously im too worried abt like. my immediate reaction #+ i think its important to talk abt marriage Before proposing just so everybodys like #on the same page and such. Obvs... but ya. i dont think id want a super public proposal like. id like it to be somewhere nice with maybs #significance to our relationship and such. and its fine if theres like Some passersby but id hate for it 2 be like. somewhere crowded. or i #a restaurant or something #Altho if it was in a restaurant maybe we could get free food..#but maybe that can be just fake proposals later on. and our real proposal can be somewhere else. YIPPEEE. me and my imaginary future spouse #who is To be honest rather bare minimum #normal girl will be like Wistful sigh maybe my future spouse will even love me and wont scream at me and will like to listen to me speak 😍#but anywyas. my beddybye time. SURPRISE GN POST #woahhthis got off topic i forgot what the original post was this always happens. i do love characters like that

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nostraightgloops · 8 months ago

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yinufamily have been in my head. all. day.

#cry. cry cry crys.#mama and baby yinu attending one of papa concerts and bitty yinu starts giggling and reaching for him. he of course reserved front seats fo #the two of them and he gives her a cute little wave and then she settles down.#probably falls asleep.#gloopthoughts

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afmis · 2 years ago

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GUYS ITS ALMOST HALLOWEEN! IT’S FALL TIME! IT’S OCTOBER! THAT MEANS ITS C!BEEDUO TIME THEY’RE SO HALLOWEEN CODED ‼️ ITS THEIR SEASON

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praublem-child · 1 year ago

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Me: This 🤏 close to a room destroying meltdown due to a lack of sleep

Also me: remembering weed can fix this without the meltdown and tearing through my bedroom to raid my mom's stash because I haven't been to the dispensary in literally months now

#seriously guys #it's almost 5am #I've been up since 8am #I wanted to go to bed at like 6pm #I actually went to bed at 2am #and then tossed and turned in the dark and quiet for three hours #I was already to the point of crying and throwing shit off my bed before I remembered weed existed #how can I be so exhausted I'm having a meltdown #yet so unable to sleep #and I always wait too long to get weed #always insisting that I'll fall asleep on my own #or that I *really need* that rem sleep tonight #ffs rem sleep doesn't fucking matter if I don't sleep at all #I probably don't even get much rem sleep when completely sober lets be real #I don't dream #I have bi-annual nightmares about my father #and that's it #It'll be like 5:30 before this gummy hits #I have cottage cheese and meme videos until then #maybe an excedrin for my exhaustion headache and my cat if she'll cuddle me #god I'm so fucking tired #I should call my grandma and see if her offer to hit me upside the head with a hammer is still available #She used to joke offer that to me when I was a kid and couldn't sleep #If only she knew the sleep disorders I'd be diagnosed with a few years down the line #I'm rambling now so I'll do the actual informative tags now and post #sorry to anyone who has to read this /hj #autism #adhd #medical marijuana #cannabis

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blankinsidecards · 2 years ago

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can anyone tell me the names of the people in the Crying Club? like. there’s Fletcher. aaaand… at least two more people. Cannot for the life of me think of their names or anything else about them. Yet everyone the birdverse fandom has a very strong opinion of Tad Carruthers.

#maggie dearest how did you drop the ball this bad. the ball is still falling.#I’m writing a fic (do not ask me about it it’s idiotic and I will probably never post it) and I could get out my copy of cdth but :/#i dont wanna #the crying club #adam parish #call down the hawk #tdt #birdverse

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