#queue attempt

[pocketattempts]

[artsymeeshee]

The magic 8-ball

[project-sekai-facts]

One of Mafuyu's nighttime interactions in MySEKAI has her talking about the moon. The player character tells her that the moon is beautiful, so she asks for clarification as to whether they meant it in Soseki Natsume's way (as an alternate way to confess love to someone) or literally. It was the latter, and she agrees with them that she thinks it's beautiful.

[princemonarchempress]

they're so normal <3

[fatalism-and-villainy]

I was trying to pinpoint the main appeal or most compelling angle of Garashir for me personally today, especially when it comes to Bashir’s perspective on it. And I honestly think it’s the idea of lost youth and innocence (and this is particularly pertinent to how a post-canon relationship between them might unfold, which is useful for me as I’m trying to find the right approach to them in this fic I’m working on).

It’s that Bashir initially saw Garak as a symbol of intrigue and excitement, of the sort of adventure that he fantasized about and went to seek out on the “frontier.” The way their initial dynamic and its charming banter was a fanciful escape for him. And then that fantasy gets steadily chipped away, starting with The Wire, where Garak lays bare for him the reality of what kind of person he was and what the life of a spy entails, and where Bashir stays resolute and doesn’t turn on him but nonetheless receives a dose of reality regarding Garak’s past. The events of Our Man Bashir unfold, in which they remain on breezy terms by the end, but which nonetheless serves as a reminder that Garak’s time as a spy was marked by ruthless pragmatism rather than altruism, driven by political agendas rather than heroic impulses.

And then Bashir gets caught up in his own spy arc, and it’s wrenching and traumatizing and disillusioning. He’s kidnapped and tortured and made an unwilling party in the plot to throw Cretak under the bus - the amoral political maneuvering that espionage actually entails in order to uphold nation states. And then, when pushed to desperation, he deploys the exact same interrogation tactics that he learned from Sloan himself. All of which makes him intimately familiar, through firsthand experience, with the kind of things Garak was getting up to before the beginning of the show.

And so when they’re reunited on Cardassia… I honestly think he has trouble looking at Garak or knowing how to behave around him. Because his associations with Garak have shifted drastically, and now everything seems so much more real and consequential. Garak isn’t a charming distraction anymore - rather, their interactions with each other are both bound up in local politics (as I see it), but also with the trauma that Bashir is carrying within him, and with the crumbling of the ideals he used to hold dear. And there’s what Bashir himself has been culpable for with the kidnapping and interrogation of Sloan, as well as the way the war has generally hardened him. Which leads to the fear that he’s no longer attractive to Garak because he’s lost the innocence that once drew Garak to him, and that he reflects the worst of Garak’s past in the way that Garak now reflects the worst of his.

On top of the fact that the fantasies of Bashir’s youth have become horrifyingly real, there’s also the matter of him contending with aging in general, and with the question of what his life has been dedicated to and where it’s going. The fact that he’s still serving an institution in which his faith has been shaken, but that he still believes, or wants to believe, enables him to do some amount of good; the fact that he’s approaching forty and still isn’t entirely sure of his life choices, or if he’s doing the right thing. He’s at an uncertain point in his life, and Garak complicates things further, because there’s the question of possibly entering a long-term relationship with Garak, and the commitment and sacrifice that entails, and the panic surrounding building his life around someone else.

Anyway, that’s what I’m aiming for with the Garashir portions of this fic. The melancholia, and the hope against hope that a new spark might be possible.

[apricoctopus]

Something a bit more light hearted after the last Shadowheart comic

[haunted-planes]

Hatsune Miku Cybertruck let’s goooo!!!

[kismetconstellations]

[pocketattempts]

[196. espeon]

[octoooo]

Makomo’s album 18 (Masterlist)

references

[catfindr]

[cirqyt]

2020 / 9 / 15

[murderbot-moodboard]

Life update: Hey y'all! I'm about to start in earnest on the process of moving. Over the next week, I'll be moving the rest of my stuff out of my old apartment into the place where I'm staying temporarily. Then in about a month, I'll be fitting my life into a few suitcases and a cat carrier (with cat of course) and flying from the US East Coast over to the West Coast. There I'll be making my new home with some old friends/adopted family who have kindly agreed to let me stay with them and even say they're looking forward to it. (And I believe them; I'm looking forward to it too.)

This is a much needed change and should improve my situation (physical health, mental health, social life, etc.) in a lot of ways. But it's also a big undertaking, especially when I'm simultaneously looking for a new job and dealing with the most severe autoimmune flare I've ever experienced. So my posting and reblogging on this blog may be haphazard for a while. I expect I'll still be on here a lot (especially when new episodes of Murderbot drop), but there may be less activity and some longer silences in between. (I am experimenting with making better use of the queue function, so we'll see how that goes.)

Basically, I don't know exactly what the next month will look like, but I wanted to give y'all a heads up so you're not surprised. I love Murderbot and I love this fandom community, and any going quiet is not because that has changed, but because I've got a full plate at the moment. So, yeah! Insert socially acceptable and preferably funny sign-off here. ✌️🤖💜

[uchiha-gaeshi]

Bitch Eating Crackers Inarizushi

Hashirama: Aww, don't worry Madara. With time, the people of the village will see you as I see you :D Madara: You don't get it Hashirama, even the youth of the clan don't respect me. One kid said, "look at that bitch eating inarizushi." They don't even use honourifics when referring to me anymore Hashirama: Naaah you're making that up

[misspoetree]

+ Soft Bonus:

KinnPorsche + Text Posts: Vegas Being A Terrible Flirt Edition <3

[Themed Editions: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | ?]

[Character Editions: Pete Part I & II & III | Vegas Part I & II & III | Tay Part I & II | Tankhun - Part I & II | Big Part I & II | Porsche Part I & II & III | Kim | Porchay | Chan | Kinn Part I & II | Macau | Pol]

[Episode Editions & Rewatch Editions]

[bunny--farm]

You should always assume there's more doodles I haven't posted!