#ranttt

[larz-barz]

oki so lately i’ve been feeling rlly stressed and stuff when it comes to drawing

like, basically it’s felt like a chore? idk if that’s the right word or not but- basically i think i’m going to stop taking drawing requests

lemme just describe my feelings to y’all rq-

i love to draw, but lately i’ve been less and less focused on drawing what i wanna draw and more focused on i think y’all would like

and if i feel like something just- fails in some way, i get all upset about it (like the eye drawing i did, still not a big fan of it btw-)

i just wanted to let y’all know that none of y’all have ever contributed to these feelings (that ik of- but i srsly doubt it)

this is all me and my anxiety and perfectionism

it’s me getting scared of having my head bitten off because smth wasn’t of my usual standards or of my usual quality

anyways- enough ranting, i love each and every one of you so so much

ima prob take a mini break tmr and maybe another bigger one at some other point this coming week (i don’t wanna do it wednesday since that’s my first day of school and i’ll need yalls moral support)

also, anon, i don’t think i’ll do your request since it’s not one of my fandoms, i’m rlly sorry🫂🫂🫂💖💖💖

i just wanted to thank y’all for being so supportive and sweet to me ever since i joined tumblr

this is definitely one of the hardest decisions i’ve had to make in regards to my tumblr, but i do think this will help my mental health

i will still take suggestions from ppl in my community, but no more art requests

i’m sorry this post is so long omg- ;-;

aaaaaa i love y’alllll

ima tag the whole tag list in this cause this is rlly important imo:)

(also rq reminder that this is only for drawing requests, i’m still gonna take fic requests when i turn them back on:3)

tagging: @hotelcaliforniaenbydancer @nothingtoseehere1-2-3 @rosalinastan1 @ayunakatsukiwolfhashira @pinkwisteria @kimetsu-chan @shycroissanti @slayfics @night-mince10000000000000000001 @zenitsustherapist @frostburn-shoto @floofgryph @aceofstars0 @pulim-v @muichirolover14 @muichirosboba @kiyokatokito

[bieru]

do you guys ever have different types of procrastination like I’ll list mine

I want to do it soooo bad but also I don’t wanna do it like DO YOU UNDERSTAND this is the worst brand of procrastination like my body doesn’t but my mind does and it sucks

I just really really don’t wanna do it UGHHHHHRHEHJEHSNSNSNAN *insert that one bluey scene where she’s moaning on the ground bc she’s lazy*

I’ll do smth else so I don’t have to do it like I’ll be productive in one thing to procrastinate the other and so on and so forth it’s nice but I’m still procrastinating yk

YouTube is one too like I’ll go on YouTube and watch smart people videos on how to improve life or the worlds most confusing theories just to feel better abt myself

this one I call the genius smart kid procastination like an assignment will be due in an hour and then I’ll procrastinate for 40 minutes and then lock in the last 20 and still get a hundred on it

DO YOU GUYS HAVE THE PROCRASTINATION PIPELINE OR IS IT JUST ME

[cicad4s]

i discussed this with a friend but it really feels like the writers went, "yo, it'd be interesting to have an amnesiac romance a childhood friend, because you assume it'd be a safe choice when it's actually not!!" and then they poured all their heart into portraying that, just to give up on creating a meaningful ending because they didn't think that far.

route spoilers below the cut

the climax point is so rushed and dreadfully ooc. they didn't successfully build up to that scene, they didn't justify it in any way. you get no explanation for why he pulls that; it just happens, and you're left going... ???? . and then, you're forced to forgive him? it's no wonder people hate toma so much.

here is my toma good ending rewrite proposal/stuff they could add to the route:

you coax toma into opening up to you and that's what eventually leads to him learning that the heroine was in love with him the whole time. no diary BS. toma triggers a core memory, (maybe of the heroine saying she'd always be there for him or something idfk) subsequently freeing her from the amnesiac chains that bind her , and the heroine's return to her old self allows her to confess her feelings entirely.

imagining the scene more directly: toma gets so angry at the situation and the stress that he shuts down; we see toma's self deprecation that the game touches on but never rlly delves into. the heroine uses the broken part of the cage to escape, and you have the choice to either escape or comfort him. escaping is the normal end or another bad end (ukyo)

in the route: toma's stress is more emphasized. there should be a scene where something almost happens/does happen to his thesis paper, and it frazzles him. we see a lead up to the shut down that happens later in the route. maybe to cope with this stress, he tells a story about their childhood, and it highlights how much he relies on nostalgia/the heroine's existence in his life as a numbing agent. maybe he's also struggling to sleep; the scene where you wake up and toma's just staring at the cage could be prefaced by orion saying "he was tossing and turning earlier... i don't think he could sleep at all." you find out that he's an insomniac, but he felt too guilty to take the melatonin he was prescribed. i think that could also be interesting when you think abt how he drugged the heroine: he sees her as being worthy of sleep, but not himself.

i know toma is someone who is very physically put together, but this is a taxing situation for anyone and he doesn't get any real respite from it. i think there should be situations where he doesn't realize he's being watched and he slips because of it. i think orion should mention that toma looked really tired more often.

in the route, ukyo is a more present threat. he should be looming even more than he already looms. he should be the one who tried to kill heroine twice, not the fangirls. that's wayyy more justification for tomer pulling out the cage.

you hate toma's route because he does something bad. i hate his route because he was woefully mischaracterized. we are not the same...

[aokuni]

i saw your rant and i agree with you alot.. i am just disappointed. i think the finger isnt a threat anymore like yuuji stated and it just there in original place since sukuna is gone and chose a different path.. i know sorcerers die and move on but like i am upset that we didn't get atleast get an acknowledgement , reminiscing ir a funeral to their beloved sensei friend and comrade in their lives even after using his body ik he said he didnot mind but still- I see we got a reflection from yuuji from his flashback with gojo but man what about the adults including shoko and the other students. BTW KUSAKABE the bum NEEDS TO STFU. What happen to gojo body? ig we will get it answered in his fanbook. To me it is kinda ooc to why they reacting like that and it is ruining my perception of them a little bit like i just want to see the acknowledgement to gojo. Sukuna got a nice conclusion. What do you think change in jujutsu society ? What do you think will happen? they seem happy in those panels and the mission. i wish gojo embraced the future too and wanted to see some growth in him and strengthen his interactions with everyone i see he had something with ichiji but - ig gojo was truly the happiest in his youth that why he stayed in south and he died without regrets. Maybe the anime in certain scenes would do better but ughh. Overall the story has flaws and sure they have nice moments but is it a masterpiece like what people glaze and claim? imo no. Also another question what are your problems with jjk overall and what is your interpretation gojo's character since many people have their interpretations. Alot of people have been saying its narratively beautiful and we do not get the meaning behind the ending, gojo's death and the flashback with gojo and yuuji.

omg my first ask;;,,,

the fact that its known that every sorcerer dies eventually (not even from old age most of the time) is known, but it’s absolutely not right that the one who had the highest and most important contribution to defeating sukuna, we don’t see ANYTHING of. in fact, gege’s just going like “forget him hes not important anymore” yeah like anyones gonna listen. you kill him off after hes taken straight L’s the entire series. hes trying to play him off as “hes all happy and no worries haha” but NO. I Refuse To Accept That. he was supposed to move ON.

also about the yuuta body thing, to me, he sounded like “uhhhh sure buddy, i mean, that won’t happen in the first place anyways so knock yourself out” he clearly wasn’t planning to lose. and he seemed a bit off put by the idea, but he still said okay since whats the point, he’s just a corpse now. it hits him that even when he’s dead, he’s just a weapon. and he was genuinely upset with shokos nonchalance of the idea, like as if he’s saying “you’re just gonna let my corpse be used like that??? no respect.”

anyways, getting sappy for a moment, i wanna see the adults reactions too. because shoko, ijichi and utahime are the only ones left alive now who were very close with him, and for gojo who was always a constant to just be gone?? imagine ijichi sitting in his office getting a call or text message and he thinks its from gojo but its not, and will never be again; and then shoko never bar hopping with gojo ever again, or, utahime never seeing, nor being teased by gojo, ever again. like dang its a little too quiet here….sob

moving on, it is definitely out of character for everyone to act so relaxed or simply not acknowledging what the hell happened with gojo. what about yuuta and the fact he’s gonna live with the notion that he used his sensei’s corpse like a puppet (and didnt win)? What about yuuji who obviously would never want to forget gojo. he was literally both him and yuutas live saviors. it also shows that gojo is gojo and his ‘the strongest’ title does NOT make him for who he is. they need GOJO.

SCREW KUSAKABE. why would you say that in front of YUUJI????

i dont think anything will really change in jujutsu society. gakuganji will take over, and idk make jujutsu society a little better. In the end, nothing changed. Everything is back to square one, and all the sorcerers will die, like a sorcerer. their lives didnt change for the better, or for the worst. but hey this means that yuuji really will kill mahito when he reincarnates.

gojo is like eren, “move forward”. he was, like i said, supposed to move ON. he is supposed to see that the future ahead could be bright and he could be able to change jujutsu society with gakuganji and anyone else. but no. gege decided the worst possible choice to leave him there with his dead friends who, by the way, DONT even understand him either. nobody ever did, not even geto. (seriously, who gives their best friend an existential crisis for the rest of their life because theyre jealous of their power?) buut, sukuna could’ve, theyre both not even seen as humans, because one is not, and the other is just a weapon. theyre both just stepping stools of power if you could defeat them. (sukugo!(&:$;8/!9 stop it gege.)

my main problem with jjk is that its very rushed, right from the very beginning, and straight to the end. none of the characters are even super fleshed out. i couldnt tell you something as simple as gojos favorite color. because we dont know. or other things nobara likes to do besides shop and try out new things. i cant say ANYTHING. its all left in the air, ripe for misinterpretation and misinformation to rot it if it stays open for too long.

my interpretation of gojos character? hoo boy…hohohoh;..,,, so i see him as a very emotionally distant man. he keeps to himself, and doesnt like to let others in, because he thinks “what does it matter? whose going to really care? they wont understand me anyways.” and also because if he shows vulnerability he will get exploited from it, from people who have things against him. just like how kenny sealed gojo. he took advantage of him mentally. he’s a very cocky man and he uses this arrogant facade to hide himself in. he also takes peoples opinions of him to heart. like it genuinely hurts him to hear someone have a low opinion of him, like with ijichi. and he also listens to what people tell him, like with shoko and the wallpaper. he really cares about people, he just cant bring himself to open up at all. also he is just very confident, FOR A GOOD REASON. It tends to reassure people too in battle. Like with yuuji when Gojo got jumped by jogo in season one.

“narratively beautiful” get a load of this guy, whoever says that is just a gege stan. what he wrote in terms of story couldve been amazing if he actually knew how to write. the gojo and yuuji scene, is gege just self inserting into gojo. how could gojo, the oh so arrogant man, just tell someone to forget him? he would be like “if i die, which wont happen, you BETTER NOT forget me or i’ll haunt you…” or something along those lines. it was very out of character, even yuuji acknowledged it. nonsense.

thats all, very long rant awawaaa

[boynarcing]

♱ dark content blog ♱ cw for rape, abuse, incest, ⬇️age, etc.

max || 18 || he/him || minors dni || strawpage. ao3. twitter. art. fics.

[iwanttobepersephone]

Tell me more about ur OC Samantha NOW (this is a threat)

LOL OK

So,, Samantha!! (I wanna give her her own last name but I can't come up with one)

She's technically a scribe, but spends most of her time teaching farmers how to read and write, and also showing them how to avoid getting scammed and stuff, I don't remember how to describe it. She's really popular among the people in the village, and helps people out a lot.

Gilan first met her when she happened to be there at a farmers' house. He was just there to kill a wolf or something, but he ended up striking up a conversation with her after he finished the job. He, of course, fumbled every joke he made. Samantha was mostly just debating whether he was charming or pathetic because of that

They ended up getting closer, and they started helping each other out on jobs more often. At some point, the whole "dinner for 2" story ends up happening, but instead of Jenny, it's Samantha, and Gilan is returning from a mission, not going on one.

I have more than a couple skits in my head where Halt hears Gilan mention her name, in no romantic context, but immediately goes, "Oh, who's she? Tell me more about this Samantha" (Gilan never did, Samantha ended up introducing herself after like 2 years)

They ended up getting married, as I said, and the whole reason I came up with this girl while I was reading the 6th book was I wanted to make a skit where Will was an uncle. So,,, guess who ends up having kids? Gilan and Samantha! They have a son, and the best name me and @iwanttobepheonix could come up with was "Matthew",,,, PLEASE SOMEONE SUGGEST A BETTER NAME

That's really all I got about her so far 🤷‍♀️

[asssdirector]

actually sickening to me how stede was clearly shaken up (and a little bit turned on but thats not for now) by killing ned, but hes still caught up in his fantasy of being a suave, cool-guy pirate captain that he starts to panic even further. he grabs onto ed because he wants to bury how unmoored he's feeling and how he's afraid that he's made a huge mistake.

whats interesting to me is that stede seems to be at his healthiest and most balanced at the very end of s1. he is the most grounded version of himself and he's ready to make things up properly and move forward as a unit, irregardless of whatever fantasies he used to have.

but in the space in between, after meeting the crew again and seeing what he did to ed, he starts to second guess himself and ends up going way too far and basically trying to be a different person. he takes that little bit of confidence and overstretches it into the idea of a person that ed doesn't actually want. who ed wants is stede, the stede who calls him his friend for the first time and has a secret wardrobe of fancy clothes and just.. a guy who is gentle and nice to him and doesn't define him by blackbeard or what blackbeard has done. and of course stede doesn't know that. he sees the old version of himself as inadequate, because the old version of himself broke ed's heart and wasn't actually, like, a good captain.

there is very clear symbolism of this overreach when he succeeds in getting ned's crew to turn on him- everyone seems satisfied, and the mood is very light. but stede can't let go of ned's humiliation and cruelty and he takes it one step too far. there is a noticable stopping point between the situation being resolved and ned's death. ed starts to get visibly uncomfortable and unhappy because all of the sudden stede is acting like a real pirate- exactly what ed was trying to escape. there is no humor or unique stede-ness about what happens. its all about who stede thinks he needs to be. also, once it actually happens, ed thinks he'll know what to do- after all, he was in that position too, once. so he expects to comfort stede, but instead, stede surprises him and they have sex.

it happens for a lot of reasons, but largely because they're very much attracted to each other and a) ed doesn't know exactly what he wants or who he wants to be yet enough to reaffirm and ask stede to take it slow and b) stede thinks that maybe, if he does this, itll fix everything, because he still has the idea that he needs to be more masculine and assertive to be worth something as a person and that being less emotional is how he can achieve that.

even if its painful it does feel like one very natural progression that the characters could take. they have yet to address stede's feelings of inadequacy and the fear that ed is better off without him, and in the leaving it for too long without proper communication, it manifests into this whole mess. sickening!!!! but super interesting!

[spcebarr]

things to do to make me happy: -make a friendship post abt me; I LOVE THESE. LIKE YESS PLEASE TELL ME HOW YOU LOVE ME<3 ily 2!!

-give me kandi; i like how it feels!! fun to fidget with!!

-make me a sandwich; im a fatass, i will eat it and love it

-give me a hot topic giftcard; my house btw

-TALK TO ME!!; this tells me you like me and this makes me happy :3

-like my posts; i love feeling seen, when i get zero likes or one like it makes me sad :(

-listen to my rants; please, i love talking, ofc lmao

-send me medic stuff; medic.

-send me cat stuff; KITTYYY

-send me j.d. stuff; i love him<3

-dont make fun of me; i have too many people making fun of me irl :((

[matchacoded]

i talked to a friend about this last night. im country as cornbread. im in the dead middle of the bible belt in appalachain georgia. but i will not touch southern cooking. i never have! i just cannot do it! i rarely eat friend chicken (unless its zaxbys pfft) so country fried chicken is a no, i dont drink sweet tea but i will sometimes have half and half, will not lay a finger on boiled peanuts, im sick at the smell of grits, and so on.

we dont eat peaches by the way. ive never had a rlly good georgia grown peach. if ur gonna come here eat a mf apple. we grow some good apples.

What’s a food from your culture that u HATE #hatersonly

[babystarrbunny]

my god im wracking my brain trying to write my final 6 page essay of the year and i swear i have nothing left in me, plese god strike me down with the wisdom to finish writing this paper iam at my limit

[arjtogruta]

"2 FULLY GROWN STRAIGHT MEN- one of which I married??" congratulations on your union

Oh shit ooooopsss -yeah thanks that deffff wasn’t a typo😭 - the wedding was beautiful ✨✨

[kawwaiikisses]

SUMMER MOODBORD BUT LIKE A MORE MASC VERSION!! I BASED THIS BASED OFF MY OWN BROTHER BC I DIDNT HAVE A BOY CHILDHOOD😖 BUT ILL MAKE A POC ONE(mostly for me) BCCC I JUST NOTICED THAT THERES NOT ANY POC😔 BUT IGNORE THIS RANTTT

[jirai-dirt-2009]

I think I need to get a screening for autism

I have so many issues that I play off as adhd that would better fit with autism. I know I would obviously be high functioning but still a diagnosis would help me get better support .

But my mom is against Me even get a screening. I honestly just want to be seen to rule it out.

I also think I might not even have bipolar and it’s just bpd and anxiety but that’s a whooolllleeee other ranttt

[mutts-n-maws]

RANTTT bc im GRRRR

Cw: Paraphillia talk, Grooming, Desensitization

I don't think I'll ever forgive my ex friend group. I expressed and showed a "sinful" side to my therianthropy, which was my packer because I was extremely proud with how my own DIY one came out. Days later I was harassed and called horrific things like a zoophile and rape fetishist.

I'm traumatized and upset over this still, whenever someone tries to call me a "zoo" for being a physical therian, I feel sick, the mere idea of being called a zoophile for how I want to express my body, is disgraceful and disgusting. I am a physical therian. Created through trauma, hatred and anger. Physical therians are not zoophiles. As a fucking VICTIM I am for sure not a rape fetishist.

My moral compass IS flawed I will admit, but that's due to trauma and years of grooming and desensitization. I'm unfortunately desensitized to nasty shit such as zoophillia and pedophillia, and I AM working towards getting better, but I really really wish people would understand that grooming and trauma isn't just "triggers" or "things they don't like".

It's genuinely disgusting that people expect victims to suddenly be COMPLETELY NORMAL after grooming, i was groomed 2-3 fucking years ago, and it still affects me, and I don't think it'll ever truly leave me, the memories, the scars, everything. from numerous people. that shit does not fade well, it scars and it sticks out, and people point it out. Pointing flaws out that either are expressed in areas where they're allowed or seen as accepted is insane. I thought these people accepted and supported me, saw me as a friend yknow? No, the second I showed my actual therianthropy and how I express it, I'm a "disgusting zoophile".

The therian community is not exactly a space for discrimination like this, I've been ashamed since this incident happened, but I've slowly been expressing my therianthropy more, and I really hope one day people understand that people go through fucked up shit.

[mitskienthusiastnstuff]

I have a few questions for the jirai community:

What exactly is it? Ik it's a Japanese subculture but I'm still a bit confused.

Are there requirements for being jirai?

Can anyone be jirai? Bc I'm super interested in the subculture but I'm not sure how to start being a part of it.

And how do you be a part of the subculture?

Ty for listening to me ranttt😋

[babyniigo]

i think niigo miku is also a regressor :) niigo taking care of her would be so cute !! since she’s all alone and doesn’t know much about the outside world, she doesn’t really understand the feeling of regressing, but niigo soothes her and helps her understand and softly takes care of her

Little! Miku and CG! Niigo ૮ ྀིᴗ͈ . ᴗ͈ ྀིა · °

Omg yeah! I think it starts when Niigo give her a cats cradle to complete, and she feels so fuzzy and small when they coo at how well she’s doing

Mizuki is the one who notices and they all become her CGs ૮ σ̴̶̷̤ . σ̴̶̷̤ ྀིა

She is very confused and quiet little at first, not sure why her head is so fuzzy but she feels so happy when they coo at her and play with her

Mizuki reassures her immediately ofc ૮꒰ྀི∩´ ᵕ `∩꒱ྀིა !!

“Are you feeling small? That’s okay! It just means you’re regressed and we will take care of you, don’t you worry!”

I think Niigo find so much joy, comfort and peace in caring for her, because being in a caregiver headspace makes them feel so happy too

Ena loves to come to the Sekai and dress Miku in cozy clothing, undo her hair and softly brush it for her while Miku sits on her lap, before she cuddles her ૮ ྀི◞ ⸝⸝ ◟ ྀིა

Mizuki loves to pick her up and play with her, always bringing her new toys and doll for the two of them to play with ໒꒰ྀི˶˃ᆺ˂˶꒱ྀི১

Kanade loves napping with her baby, they eventually have enough blankies and plushies in the Sekai that Kanade just cradles miku in her arms and sings her to sleep ໒꒰ྀིっ˕ - ꒱ྀི১ 💤

Mafuyu loves to cradle her in her lap, and read her soft story books, making special sounds and pointing at characters while miku clings to her ς꒰ ´‌ ତ ˋ‌ς ꒱ა

I think by being miku’s caregiver, they all feel at peace because they are healing their inner child and both them and miku feel completely at peace and calmness ૮ ོ≧ ⩊ ≦ ོ𑁬

She’s a very non verbal little, and has one of those clip on pacifiers, so if she’s feeling small she has her paci on and it helps niigo know when she’s regressed ૮꒰ ྀི◜๑◝ ꒱ა

So, she randomly pops up on their screen and they all rush to the Sekai to play with the baby!

They always fight over who gets to cuddle her!!! They all want a chance to hold their baby

I think Miku struggles a bit with human emotions, but the one that she feels the most when she’s small is overstimulation, and it makes her cry. She gets scared easily! ૮ ⸝⸝o̴̶̷᷄ ·̭ o̴̶̷̥᷅⸝⸝ ྀིა

Hence, they pick her up, shush her gently, wipe her tears and coo at her softly,

“Shhh, it’s okay baby, you’re okay! Was that too loud? We’re sorry we promise to speak softer from now.”

Niigo set her up a little play area that’s sooo cozy so she can relax in it with them, she loves baby shakers and the soft baby tunes she can make with them!!!

Also I’m firm believer of kitty niigo miku, she has kitty tendencies she wants to be picked up, and wants to cling to them and loves to nuzzle her head against them ૮ ྀིᴗ͈ . ᴗ͈ ྀིა · ° ᙆᙆᙆ

Miku lays her head on their chest for cuddle eepy times, cause their human heart beat is her favorite lullaby!  zᶻ૮˶- ﻌ -˶ა⌒)ᦱ

AUTHOR RANTTT I LOVE THIS

this is my favorite thing ever I might make it a fanfic

Also like caregiver headspace is so underrated, cgs also feel so happy to care for their little ueuejeje