#she doesnt want to change and probably won't ever change

[deadchannelradio]

hello i've been loving all the stuff with tgirl jtodd. i've just been wondering what bruce's general thoughts and stuff are on it. i don't imagine that jason would ever "come out" to him so how would he find out? what is his reaction?

i think you're right in that jason is not Coming Out to bruce for sure for sure or anyone really! I think knowledge of it kind of spreads like fungus style through them all and is partially found by Using Their Eyebarls and Looking At Her. Firm believer in jay being butch as fuck (and not like fun fancy butch like... i don't think the way she dresses changes very significantly nor is she like, suddenly using moisturizer now or growing out her hair. shes always going to look like someone who would buy teenagers beer at a gas station for 20 bucks) but she is going to change the cut of her clothes a little and repitch the vocalizer so it's more Her Pitch and not "menacing growl lower than any human being is capable of". and also hormones are gonna give her D cups. the boobs are noticeable.

I think it kind of goes dick -> babs -> damian -> steph -> cass -> bruce -> tim

Dick knows first because jason goes to him to ask So Super Casually how dick knew he was trans (bc jason doesn't know the story) and dicks like Well i dont know i was Four. i've always been Advanced For My Age <3 and jasons like. ah. ok. and dick like looks at him and is like why do you ask. and jasons like. 'never mind just curious.' and dicks like 💡 and ends up giving the advice of like. don't worry about the Knowing. what do you Want? 'what do you mean' well it doesnt matter what you Are it matters what you Want and the I Want creates the I Am. so anyways do you want hormones. (jason looks at him bugeyed) just ask leslie she stabs me in the asscheek every six months with testosterone she'll give you whatever you want.

dick tells babs because dick talks to babs regularly and babs is the only one of them who isnt dick who talks to jay "regularly" (meaning jay will throw babs tips about cases she doesnt want) and dick also 'tells' damian (just starts using dif pronouns and damian gets it) because it's damian. and either jay texts steph to be like Do you have bra recommendations for us poor bastards with huge tits (whenever hers grow enough to be uncomfortable w/o a bra) or steph hears babs or damian drop a she/her regarding jay. steph tells cass bc cass does her best to never interact with the red hood/jay and as such won't know until either somebody tells her or she personally interacts with jay, which happens like once a year if she can help it. Bruce observes with his eyeballs and very awkwardly goes to dick about it like ...... so. and then doesnt continue and through like 90 seconds of what amounts to verbal charades dick figures out what bruce is asking about and takes pity on him and is like "she still goes by jay" and bruce is like OK thank you. and the next question is "does she need..... help" and dick is like she will shoot you a brand new double wide three bedroom two bathroom asshole if you try to give her money about being transgender of all things she's got her own money and will get whatever she wants with it and bruce is like right OK thank you. tim finds out last and probably from going over to Dick's house when jason is there and 1) seeing that she's got tits now 2) hearing both "jay" and "she" come out of dick's mouth.

I don't think bruce has any real big reaction to it but he probably feels guilty for not like.... catching it earlier. or pushing/asking when she was a kid. like this makes sense to everybody who Knows jay this isn't a shock, and i think bruce suspected when jay was a teenager but didn't. communicate about it with her. which i don't think was the Wrong choice. but bruce does feel guilty about it just because it just wouldn't be bruce without a guilt complex LOL. if he and jay ever communicated about it there would be a whole Oh My God You Knew. "i suspected." How Did You Know. "I Raised You." BRUCE!!!!

[mdanon027]

Back in his arms | Spencer Reid x FemaleReader

Back in his arms | Spencer Reid x FemaleReader

Masterlist

Summary | Three times Spencer Spencer Reid seeks for physical affection (Inspired by some of the Prompts from the list seeking out physical affection by @creativepromptsforwriting )

Word Count | 3095.

Warnings | I don’t think there’s any warning, if you found something triggering, please let me know.

Side Note: I don’t own any of Criminal Minds characters, words, or narrative. This is only a reinterpretation and fiction based on the Criminal Minds Universe they continue to develop. Also no repost is allowed. If you ever see this on another website, please let me know.

1. acting like they're cold to have an excuse to cuddle or share clothes or blankets

After a long case, the team was exhausted. The flight back to Quantico will take at least 8 hours, so they decided to travel back immediately after they ended the work. 

The flight was at night time. Close to the winter season, the weather is changing. So what better opportunity to get close to the person he was enchanted with, than get warm while getting close on the big couch of the plane? 

“Why are you so cold?” JJ asked Y/N.

“I really don't know, probably the warm weather before getting to the plane and the air conditioner here it's giving me chills.” She said while warming her arms.

“Did you know the average temperature in planes is about 22 to 24 degrees? That's because while we are flying the temperature outside is about -60 degrees…” He started to talk, until she interrupted him.

“So… I should be grateful?” She asked him while getting on the seats.

“They leave the temperature that way to have the average one on land, it is supposed to make you comfortable.” He said while passing her his own sweater.

“I was planning on saying no to your sweater, but I'm going to say yes because I'm really cold.” She told him while putting the sweater on.

They took their seats, and the flight began.

“Go Pretty Boy, it's the perfect time for a snuggle.” Said Derek passing by with a coffee, giving him a smirk.

“I don't know what you mean.” He decided to play it cool. 

“Don't play dumb.” Rossi told him from his seat.

“What are you talking about?” He knew perfectly what they were talking about, but he knew that if he admitted it, the teasing would have no end. 

“Leave him alone, if Reid doesnt what to make another move, then he won't.” Hotch said.

“Another move?” He asks now, curious.

“I mean, giving up your sweater even when you never ever take it off on a daily basis? For me it was a move.” Now Hotch was profiling him. 

“You are joining them?” He couldn't believe that the man was joining the fun.

“It's not that I'm joining, but if you want to make a move, you should start doing something.” Ended Hotch getting back to his report while smiling. 

After two hours of flight, everyone already had a quick dinner and some of them were almost ready to fall asleep. But Y/N was still cold, so he finally decided to use his knowledge to his advantage. 

“You may not say anything, but I can see you are getting colder, we can share the blanket.” He said while looking at her while she trembled.

“I think it’s a great idea.” She stood up from her seat and got close to him on the couch.

Spencer makes a space for her, and covers her up with the blanket.

“High stress levels can cause flu-like symptoms, such as fever, cold, nausea, and body aches. There's a high possibility you are about to get sick.” He said while looking down at her.

“Probably. This case was a mess, thankfully we resolved it.” She said while shivering.

“Layering clothes to get warm could prevent the colds. But right now, the clothes are limited, I can give you a hug, if you want to.” He said while feeling his face getting warm. He took the chance to have her in his arms. At that moment he could hear some laughs from the seats, apparently the interaction wasn’t as private as he thought.  He looked around to see his teammates giving him thumps ups while Emily said “Nice one!”.

He wasn’t sure on how to act properly on how to start a romantic “relationship ”. The few times he had experienced, were either brief and the closest he had, ended up in a tragedy. 

Thankfully he was learning to live with it, with a new hope of finding someone to spend his life with. But he was wheeling to take a try.

2. fixing the other's hairstyle to let their hands run through their partner's hair

He was an expert talking for audiences. He usually did not get nervous about it, after conferences, seminars or even giving classes at college, it was easy peasy. 

But it was the first time Y/N was going to talk to an audience giving a class of her expertise. 

She was good at talking to the press when needed, or even to groups to calm the masses in times of fear. But it was different to try to explain situations to people in dangerous situations than teaching young people how to act as a mediator in dangerous situations. 

She knew how to react, but one thing was doing it and another different to explain it.

Rossi invited Hotch and Y/N to give a lecture on how to act on situations that involve firearms and detonation objects. The team knew she was one of the best ones in that field, with no mistake shots, amazing disarmament skills and extraordinary knowledge on bombs (just like Derek teached  her on her Academy days).

They spend several late nights together (sometimes with the other members joining) practicing her lecture. It had anything and everything that could possibly happen, and she was ready for any possible question. 

All the team was there to support her. 

“I’m nervous.” Y/N said while fixing her hair looking through the window reflection.

“Garcia is inside getting ready with your slides. Take a deep breath, you're going to do great.” Hotch told her.

“Yeah, you practiced a lot and if anything happens, you just need to talk about the heroic job you do every day.” Said Rossi, while getting close to the door of the exhibition room. “Hotch and I are going to start, and then you will proceed.”

“A brief introduction and you will continue.” Said Hotch, entering the room.

“You will be doing fine! If anything happens, we are going to be inside, just look for us if you get really nervous.” Said Emily, while Derek and JJ get inside the room.

“You are going to do just fine, just like we practice, remember it's more a talk than a class. They want to know how it's going to be in their future work field.” Spencer told her while opening the door for her.

“You are right, in that room we are the only ones that know how things actually work.” She took a deep breath.

“Let me fix the final details from your hair.” Spencer told her before Rossi and Hotch started to talk. “All done. You can do it. If you get nervous, just look for me and start talking to me.” He winked, while getting to his seat.

Rossi and Hotch started the talk with certain facts and background about de BAU, and proceeded to let Y/N start explaining.

At one point of the lecture she got so passionate about it, that she started to pass her fingers through her hair thanks to the constant hair interrupting her view. While brushing it, she didn’t notice it was beginning to get disheveled. For sure her attendants didn’t care about it, they were deep into the information the expert was giving them for their future work field.

By the end of the lecture, the students were ecstatic with the knowledge they received, even asking for her contact info for future references related to their courses, some of them asking their professor if they could invite Y/N again in the future. 

Rossi was right to invite her.

The first one to arrive was Spencer.

“Let me fix your hair.” He said while brushing his fingers through her hair.

“Again?” She said surprised.

“It's kind of untidy over here.” He continued,

“Was like this all the time?” She said with little worry in her voice.

“For about more than half of your presentation.” He answered.

“Really? Why didn't you tell me something?” She asked him.

“That could be distracting for you.”He finished fixing her hair. “All done!”

“You could make me a sign.” Y/N told him.

“You didn't even look at us, and your hair gets that way when you start to talk really excited about the things that fascinates you, it always blocks your vision and you start to adjust your hair.” Spencer commented on that fact.

“Why haven't you ever told me that?” Now she was curious.

“Because you look cute that way.” He answered her. “Now come here, let me congratulate you.” He proceeds to give her a hugh, she is back into his arms. “You did marvelous over there! A natural instructor.”

“Thanks for helping me rehearse over 20 times.” She couldn't express how grateful she was with him.

“Actually, it was 34 times.” All he could hear was her laugh. “Not that I was counting.” He was in fact counting. She just smiled looking up at him.

The next one to approach was the team.

“Come here.” Penelope said while hugging her really tight. “You did amazing, my friend!.”

“You think so?”

“Yes! The presentation was amazing, really to the point and with the details that needed to be exposed.” Said Emily while joining the hug.

“Of course Y/LN.” Said Hotch while giving her a smile. 

“You were outstanding, I made a good decision to bring you with me today.” Said Rossi. “Whenever you want to come back and give another class, we can arrange you a spot.”

“And not forgetting that I teached you the basics back in your days.” Said Derek giving her a big hug. 

“You should give a class together.” Said JJ, getting close to congratulate her dear friend.

“Thank you, every single one of you for helping me get prepared for this.” Y/N with a big smile on her face. “Especially Spencer, thanks for listening to my lecture 34 times.” She said while giving him a hug.

“This deserves a celebration! Dinner at my house tonight!” Said Rossi from behind.

Everyone started to walk away, to finally celebrate another accomplishment that one of their teammates got.

3. reaching out with their hand without saying anything, wanting the other one to grab it

Spencer knew the basics of dancing. Really the basics, it took him time, but Derek and Penelope helped him during their free times. 

You may ask, why?

Rossi was doing his annual Christmas Celebration, only with the BAU team. It wasn’t a big deal of a party, but for sure a ball in small proportions. An attempt of dancing was another opportunity to be close (at least even more close than what they already are) to Y/N, and he was taking a chance. The team kept teasing him, but later he realized they were just trying to help him to get with her, and he was willing to take their support.

“Pretty Boy, it’s time.” Said Derek.

“I don’t know, we only took a few lessons.” Said Spencer unsure.

“Believe me, you will want to hold her close for a while.” Said Penelope.

“What do you mean?”

“You will know soon.” Ended Derek.

From afar, he could see Y/N and Emily talking, they were really into the conversation while JJ and Will made comments, they were really into it.

The music started to sound in the background and Rossi, as the extra person he was, made an invitation so they could start to dance while the turntable was in the works of preparation. 

Derek and Penelope were the ones who opened the dance floor, following behind Hotch and Beth, and JJ with Will.

Hotch gave him a look and a nod pointing to Y/N’s table. It was time.

He built up courage, got closer to the table and reached his hand so she could take it. Without hesitation, she took it. He started to walk to the dance floor.

He held her close. Was like a dream. And they started to dance.

“I didn’t know you could dance.” She said to him, in a low voice.

“You don’t know a lot of things about me.” Spencer told her.

“Well, I know a lot about you, but this one specifically wasn’t in my radar.” She ended.

They kept slow dancing for several songs, making small conversations between some comfortable silence moments. It wasn’t weird, they could almost talk through their eyes.

Until she decided to talk again.

“I’m probably leaving.” She said really low and slow.

“What do you mean? You can’t leave.” He wasn't expecting this type of news.

“It’s only for a time.” She wasn't looking at him.

“Why?” He was confused, wasn’t she happy with the team?

“Emily recommended me to the Interpol for a special training. Apparently one of the asistans from the lecture I gave, it’s interested in me teaching their team on explosive objects. Derek also sent a letter, endorsing my knowledge in the topic.” She finished.

“Why didn’t you tell me anything?” He really wanted to know, they were supposed to be close.

“I didn’t knew. They just told me this morning. I’m still thinking about it. Hotch and Rossi already knew, and are encouraging me to take it. But first I wanted to ask you, what did you think about ir.” Oh, that was it.

“Is my opinion that important?” Maybe they were more than close friends. 

“You are the closest friend I have, in my personal and professional life. Most of the time, you are my teammate.” She spoke. 

The next few songs were danced in silence, she kept her head close to his body listening to his heartbeat. What could he tell her? It was a great chance for her. He wasn't going to stop her professional growth.

“You should take it.” He finally spoke his mind.

“Really?” She finally looked at him.

“You are amazing at doing your work. It would be a waste of your talent not taking this opportunity.” It was the truth. 

“But it's a long time, and I'm going to be away from home and alone, and without you.” It sounded like she wouldn't take the chance of being far away trying new things.

“It's only two months, even though I’m not a big fan of technology, we can video call each other whenever you want. You already know I have a non average sleep schedule or even we can message all day.” 

He promised, now they were close, he took one more chance to hold her back in his arms as close as possible for the time they had before her departure.

+1 turning their cheek to get the other one to give them a peck

After being gone for more than two months, thanks to the fact that she was required for a special task outside the country (by Emily's and Derek's recommendation), she was finally back with the team.

He was waiting, with her favorite coffee, pastry and a flower plushie (he knew she was allergic to them, or at least the ones of this season). 

They talked every single day since she was gone. He knew all the things she did overseas. But he wanted to know about them again, even if he repeated them in his thoughts every time after they ended talking, he needed  to see her face in real life while talking and to get lost in her eyes. 

He couldn’t explain how he felt about her. She was more than a colleague, more than a teammate, more than a friend and he believed more than her soulmate. 

During this time afar, he realized what truly was to care for a person, even when they were not physically together. It was the same feeling he had for his mother, there was no day he didn’t speak to her, and the same thing happened with Y/N. 

While growing up, he was used to either getting ignored or being made fun of.

But she always listened to every single fact he had to say, when he talked fast about something he is passionate about, or only listened and talked to him about his thoughts.

For sure he was in love with her.

She arrived at the office, while everyone was there to welcome her back. She passed by a line of hugs and warm words. She was missed in the team.

After all the greetings,she started to look for him, she was wearing one of his sweaters he lent her for the trip, and proceeded to give him a hug. He had never received a hug as tight as the one he was experiencing. 

“I missed you so much, Spencer.” She said with an almost inaudible voice while burying her face in his sweater while catching his scent.

“I missed you even more.” He told her, while topping her head.

“Even if we talked every single day I was gone?” She looked directly into his eyes.

“It’s not the same, a screen can’t take a chance than talking to your pretty face.” He was smiling.

“Oh, Spencer.” She whispered close to his cheek ready to give him a peck, she was the only one allowed to do it.

It was now or never.

He turned around.

It was a small peck. And he looked delighted.

“I'm so sorry Spencer.” She said, astonished. While looking at him with those beautiful startled eyes.

“I'm not.” He said back, getting another peck from her. This time she was also smiling, but stayed silent. “If you want me to stop, please tell me something,”

She shut him down with a proper kiss. 

“The kid finally did it.” Rossi muttered to Hotch.

“He took his time.” He said while smiling. Everyone knew they eventually ended up together.

From the other side of the room, their teammates were giggling at the young ones.

“Well, it’s sad I have to break it to you, but we have a case. To the round table.” Said Hotch from his office, getting close to Spencer while giving him a palm to his back.

“Oh, come on Hotch, let the love birds have a little more time.” Said Derek getting close to Spencer and giving a small side hug to the both of them.

“Come on, we have work to do.” Spencer said, giving her a last small kiss, and started to hold her hand while starting walking. “You are never ever leaving my side, ok?”

“Ok.” She couldn't believe it. She was amazed with what just happened. 

There was no better welcome back.

Back in his arms. 

Autor’s Note: Hello Again! As I told you before, I'm in my Criminal Minds Era, so this is the second time Im writting about this!I wanted to post if before my +10 hours flight to my Holiday Vacation! Its probably the last thing I'm writting/posting this year related to an original work. I was feeling inspired this days. I hope you like it!

If any of the authors I read ever read this, to let you know I always go as anon (thanks that this is my side blog) and I always sign as -MD💜 or -MDanon027💜 (@mdanon027). Thanks for the inspiration!

Also, please be honest if you like it or nah. Any comment will help for future personal writing skills. And if you see any misspelling, I’m sorry, I already reread it several times, and English it’s not my first language. Please don’t mind on telling me to correct anything.

[npdkondraki]

making up for a deeply egregious wrong can you tell me uhh. why doesnt kondraki realizes shes tranfem like i know its in her subconcious but why doesnt she ever realize or act on that shit

the thing is i do think shes like. Aware. like she isnt completely clueless about it. kondraki is stupidly knowledgable about most queer things, probably primarily because her son draven is bisexual and like in his mid 20s and probably has taught her some things + just the fact that she works with a lot of people who are younger and, because of the way she acts around most of them, view her as a semi-safe haven* (*likely exacerbated by her being insanely supportive of her openly bi son). so i do think she like . Knows.

its just that i dont believe that she's aware its Possible for Her Specifically. she's aware that OTHER people can transition and live happy lives, but she doesnt care about herself enough to ever really consider that if she transitioned then she could also live happily. she doesnt reflect on her own actions in any way that actually makes her want to change, instead just beating herself up for everything she does. with the way she specifically talks about being a woman i think she does just view as something thats just . forever out of reach for Her Specifically. tbh i think even if she like KNEW she could transition she still wouldnt. shes deeply set in her ways and incredibly stubborn to any change, so bringing this up wouldnt really do any good and would probably just make her regress further.

also like. The Dreaded Emasculation. she firmly believes that she HAS to be masculine to be valued, and if she isnt then what good is she? she believes that if she cant fulfill what people think of her as* (*the big scary site director of site-17** (**important note that she views masculinity as something scary. glances at camera office style. just an interesting note i wanted to mention. for no reason. ^_^.)) then she won't be worth anything. this is in direct contrast to her genuine compassion and care for people around her which only further emasculates her and thereby makes her more stubborn to the idea of being a woman. being viewed by OTHER people as what she THINKS women are* (*weak, soft, emotional, hysterical, etc) is her worst fucking nightmare so she goes out of her way to be the opposite of that idea* (*which. inadvertently wraps around to her being exactly that. but thats a different issue kind of LOL LMFAO EVEN)

she views doing anything that would benefit her in such a bizarre idea of it both making her weaker and her deserving it that its kind of hard to say Exactly why she doesnt transition but. thumbs up hope this gets the point across ^_^

tldr it just doesnt register as something she can do bc shes too stubborn to ever even so much as Consider that she could just transition and live soooo so so happy forever + she views it as emasculating lol lmfao. sucks to be her

[kewpiekitty]

Could i get some jealous bf headcanons of jyugo? And his reaction to his s/o being jealous but she dont rlly show it she just watches and doesnt get mad rlly either just like sad and feels bad :c its ok if you dont want ^^

༘˚· jealousy looks better on you ·˚ ༘

haiii anon !! yes of course you can get some jealous jyugo !! i hope that i fill this request the way you wanted !! thank you so much for this request and i really hope you like it !!

୨⎯ when jyugo is jealous ⎯୧

jyugo wouldn't want to bother you with such a small thing. (in his mind) he would probably hold it in until his feelings spilled over and he'd start telling you what's wrong. he'd pretend that he's okay before that point but even the other inmates could tell something was up.

he'd be less inclined to break out, and just lay on the floor in his cell. (hajime would be so happy he doesn't have to worry about cleaning up his mess again)

he never would've thought that something so small could make his heart ache and his stomach twist.

everyone was playing in uno's game room, including honey and trois. that's where this problem began.

you were on the couch playing cards with uno when the troublesome duo came up to you.

"goodevening y/n, you're looking quite beautiful today." trois takes your hand and brings it up to his lips, placing a delicate kiss on the back of it.

"oh..well thank you trois..." your voice was strained, as you tried to be considerate with your reply. before you could take your hand from his hold honey comes up beside you, placing his hand on your shoulder.

"you know y/n, i've been dying to know something. if you don't mind me asking...what color are your panties." honey rambles on and on about what kind of panties and bra he thinks you'd wear.

uno slaps his hand off of you and yells at him. "you know she's a taken girl right? jyugo asked her out months ago!" he gets up and places himself between you and the pervert.

"now why would she want to get herself wrapped up with such a useless tool? what would he be able to do to protect her? he's not even a gentleman!" honey barked back to uno.

you want to excuse yourself to go find jyugo and remove yourself from this unbearable situation. just then you look up to see jyugo in front of you, with an unreadable expression on his face.

you've never seen jyugo with such a demeanor before. could it be anger? no you would be able to tell when he's angry. sadness? no when he's sad he usually crawls into your lap and lays there for a bit. jealousy? you look back up at him, his eyes narrowed and lips tightly sealed together. bingo.

he grabs you by the hand and leads you away from the three boys. his hold is tight and his hand is sweaty. "jyugo are you okay?" you stop walking and wrap your arms around his neck. "you can tell me when there's something wrong y'know."

his heart hurts when he looks in your eyes, seeing the innocence and care that you have for him. he falls to his knees and tightly grips onto your uniform.

"i know i'm not the strongest or the smartest or...really the best at anything, but please don't leave me. i can be the best version of myself with you and i'll do even greater things." tears fall from his face onto the floor, making a small puddle.

you kneel down to face him, putting your hand under his chin to make him look at you. you plant soft kisses all over his face. "jyugo, i'm not going anywhere. you really think i'd wanna replace you with one of those perverts? you've changed me for the better and i won't ever forget that."

୨⎯ when you're jealous ⎯୧

jyugo wouldn't be upset or angry at the fact that you're jealous he would have a hard time trying to figure out how to comfort you though.

he would get a small happy feeling at the thought of you being jealous. because you really like him so much that you want him all to yourself.

of course he wouldn't ever try to make you jealous on purpose. he cares about you too much to subject you to anything painful like that.

the two of you had been in multiple prisons together. and each time he would help you escape and you'd follow with him. you two went a long ways back.

he asked you out in the last prison you'd escaped from before being sent to nanba, and there was a female inmate who you shared a cell with. she was thrown in prison for stealing from men she went on dates with.

all the inmates had been called to the dining hall. that was the only time you and jyugo had really gotten the chance to interact.

you got your food and went to sit with him but you noticed that girl there already, taking the spot that you usually sat in. you tried your hardest not to let the feelings of jealousy take its hold on you.

you sat down on the opposite side of jyugo and smiled. "hey jyugo, the lunch looks like it sucks today right?" he chuckles and returns your smile with one of his own. "yeah it really⎯" he couldn't even finish his sentence due to the girl's high pitched voice interupting him.

"oh jyugo you look soooo cute today! we should walk together during our free hour. what do you think?" she continues talking without even letting him get a word in. even taking it a step further by letting her hands roam all over his chest.

you watch silently, playing around with your food, sadness written all over your face. you get up to throw your "food" away and began the journey back to your cell.

your heart felt like it was twisted and stepped on but you really didn't want to cause a scene. you didn't want to embarrass yourself either.

jyugo couldn't believe it. this girl had made you jealous. it wasn't like he was going to pick her over you, but it made his heart leap a little thinking about the fact that you loved him so much you would get jealous.

he pushes the girl away and runs after you, calling your name. he sees tears forming in the corner of your eyes. your bright beautiful eyes that he loves to stare in so much. the very eyes that made him feel so safe and loved when he looked into them.

his lips part as he thinks of what to say. he never has been very good with words, especially not in a romantic way. so he does the only thing he can think to do.

he wraps his arms around your waist and pulls you close to him, kissing you gently. "you know i love you right? and that girl doesn't compare to you in anyway."

[mrstellmeafuckingsecret]

wallytrix……

OKAY so i was gonna answer this last night but then it was 2am and i was studying and then school and then i took a nap but like whatevr I LOVE U oka so

tw brief mention of sh, dubcon and france. also like incest 🙀

ill make another post about this but since cygnus was only thirteen when bellatrix was born, i hc walburga raised her and adored her. andromeda came two years later and she raised her for a bit too, but she's only had the capacity to love one person at a time. bellatrix is four/fiveish when cygnus and druella graduate and she moves to france with them (narcissa's born after they've moved), but walburga checks in biweekly and bellatrix already calls her mum ,, and then when she's seven-ish, walburga's visits become less and less often till because she's pregnant, and after sirius is born she never visits except for occasions. (she coddles bellatrix a little more, but she has a new center of attention and it's awful.)

oh and for like the first eight-ish years of bellatrix's life she'd been in this tug of war between walburga and her parents, and then walburga just suddenly let go after raising bellatrix &her parents aren't as sweet as walburga and walburga always spoils bellatrix when she's there simply because she wants bellatrix to be fussy and bring her up when walburga's not there but like for bellatrix she misses her 24/7 and she's never been normal about her obsessions, ever. !! *

anyway so bellatrix's crush/obsession starts young, probably around that age, but she doesn't know it's that yet. she knows when she comes back after her first year at hogwarts (cygnus and druella moved to england) and she catches walburga changing and then she,,, keeps stalking her. and peaks in her shower. and she sticks to walburga every time sirius isn't in the room (rare) and goes back to sit in her lap and wants her to kiss her everywhere like she did when she was a baby but like she doesnt,,, "bella you're too old to be sitting in my lap" "bellatrix you're being childish" "bella you're not a baby anymore" , and it hurts but also like she kinda saw this coming. so she just tries to be very grown up and that also doesn't work. but yk what does work !? whenevr cygnus is dicky she goes to walburga and she 1. sets him in his place 2. comforts her and treats her gently so like fourteen yo bellatrix is slitting her wrists hoping walburga would kiss them better. and then she cuts other parts but walburga won't kiss them better ☹️

also little selfcest (?) moment when bella's like thirteen she's starting to realize how much she looks like walburga so she's constantly jerking off in front of the mirror 😟

. * even when bellatrix is older and walburga's let go, druella wants walburga to know bellatrix isnt hers and makes sure bellatrix is showing off every visit ("what book are you reading again? the OWL level one?" "i think you're mixing your japanese with mandarin, sweetheart, don't you know walburga doesn't speak japanese?") so druella knows what she lost and it's a way to get walburga's attention for bellatrix but walburga never pays any mind and bellatrix is strugglinggg.

anyway. sirius runs away and the only person happier than regulus is bellatrix . walburga's not exactly right after that, but she does prize bellatrix around like her own daughter and bellatrix can smell her underwear can sleep in her bed and shit and ermm walburga has a drinking problem and bellatrix takes advantage of that ,. it's very "ill make you feel so good" "i love you so much" kind of dubcon where she doesn't want to fully acknowledge what she's doing is wrong. anyway so they fuck a couple times &walburga is usually under the influence of something but she's. very dependent on bellatrix. and then regulus dies and she's completely sucked into her, then orion does and she's lonely and scared and needs bellatrix - but bellatrix's found a new obession (voldick!!!)

[my-castles-crumbling]

Questioning my sexuality

Okay so hi cas ive been thinking about this for a long time and i think i might be bi?? Tho im only 13 so i guess i still have a lot of time to figure it out. Im definetly attracted to men and i have always known that tho now im staring to think i might also be to women. The thing is i actually want to be bi if that makes sense because im genuinely so terrified at the thought that if i ever want romantical love and a relantionshiop it will have to be with a man, and therefor i dont know if im actually genuinely attracted to women or if its just because i want to be cause i definetly find some women pretty and hot but im scared its just because im forcing myself?. Like for example theres this older girl at my school that i get a little breathless and incredibly nervous around because shes just so fkn gorgeous?? I know theres also that whole thing about how a straight person doesnt wonder if theyre queer but i dont know if it applies to me because im generally just a huge overthinker.

I dont know if that made any sense but i need to vent and get some advice on this i think, anyways im also gonna take the ultimative bi test which is apparently watching pirates of the carribean?

You are absolutely right in the fact that I think you're overthinking it a bit. And I understand why! It a lot to figure out, and i definitely over thought it a lot as well, especially when i was younger. So please don't think I'm judging <3

Here's the thing:

You do not have to be in a relationship with a man if you don't want to be. If you find girls attractive, you can date them! But it sounds like right now, you're thinking ten steps into the future. I know it's honestly the most difficult thing in the world, but I need you to just let yourself feel. You are more than allowed to identify as bi right now, even if you're not completely sure that's accurate. If things change, then you can change that label too! You're also more than allowed to say you don't want a label because you don't know yet! You're also allowed to try dating all types of genders and see how you feel (as long as those are appropriate, consenting relationships).

What I'm saying is, you do NOT need to have all the answers right now. It's okay to figure it out as you go. Because I'm quite a bit older than you and I'm STILL figuring it out.

Also, POTC is a great movie, but it probably won't give you the answers either <3

[yuukei-yikes]

do i trigger tag this as child death mention in the children dying series.

the ayame thinking shes gonna get superpowers is even funnier when you consider that like... azami doesnt have any more spare snakes.

so even if, theoretically, she died and went to the daze on august 15th, nothing would happen other than shed be stuck there.

she cant even get a snake the way her parents did. but incredibly funny image of azami finding a mini ayano in there.

this is like. for some reason my brain is telling me the daze wont open anymore but. i do not remember mca so. i dont know anything.

DONT even bother with the child death tw like. i think over half the characters die as very young children

this is actually like. a genuine question i also have. if jin still did kagepro q&a's and i spoke japanese, MY question would be if the rules of the daze are still active post str. would it happen like u say, like the daze swallows the 2 people that die on aug 15 but since there's no more snakes, no one gets an out? or does the absence of the snakes mean the daze won't swallow people anymore at all? who can say... personally, i'd lean to think it's the first one. i dont see why the daze would suddenly change up just cause there's no more snakes. after all, giving the snakes was the "trick" azami found to be able to save at least some people. so running out of them would mean they'd just get swallowed and stay there forever lol.

so yeah if she died she'd be stuck in the daze, i guess. if we go by that headcanon. which is insanely sad bro i post about my fankid and ur killing her off? honestly great work, i bow to u. ayame meeting mr kisaragi and ayaka sounds sweet though LOLLLL

BTW. ayano is excited ayame's into superpowers but not excited about her getting disappointed over not getting any, so she encourages it from a more creative side of imaginative play. while shintaro's like ITS NOT EVEN A SUPERPOWER THEYRE CALLED EYE ABILITIES AND THEYRE NOT FUN🤓 so they probably butt heads here like omfg u hate her childlike whimsy😑 and stop setting her up for disappointment😑

since she thinks shintaro and ayano's eye abilities are lame cause she really doesn't understand them, she's like. i hope i get powers from mom's side of the family cause kido seto and kano have the Best superpowers😏 (bc maybe no one mentioned they're adopted. so even if it was a gene or something it still wouldn't work)

ANYWAYS what i wanted to relate this to is. maybe she tells this to kano specifically cause she tells everyone and also his eye ability is kind of really neat but kano responds like [complete deadpan] Actually for our Cool Superpowers we all had to die and also watch someone we love die. do u want that? and ayame Is a kid so it Does freak her out. so then shintaro and ayano end up lecturing kano who is omfg fine im not talking to her ever again

[alienhunteranonymous]

A gift for you, dear mutual

Hi!! Welcome to my page!!! For the 3rd time!!!!! Because tumblr hates me, we're on blog #3. I'm not mad i promise (lie) (i am fuming)

I'm Tsu, though I also go by Alien or Hunter. My real name is none of your business <3

My pronouns are He/Him but I do occasionally dabble in She/Her, and my type is extraterrestrial (also men, but if there are any aliens reading this no matter the gender please dm me I'm available this friday at 6 so please dm me if you want to go out this friday at 6)

On top of my busy schedule of being Chronically Online, I'm also the vice-president of my school's science club!

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Howdy, It's me!! The guy who runs the Teruhashi blog!!! This is my OC Tsukasa Oukenai, I hope you are all very polite to him he's my special little guy :D

Before we go down much further, here's the Google doc we have for the Cider-Verse! Feel free to peruse it if you wanna!

BASIC RUNDOWN

• This is a sideblog, I follow from @twosidedcherrytrees !

• When I'm talking Out of Character, I'll do so like ((this))!

• Any Important tags will be featured in my blog's search function until I make a post specifically for tags (which will probably take a minute but I will keep you updated on when I do!)

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• PLEASE don't hesitate to ask me to tag something for you!!!

• Feel free to block if you'd like, I won't be upset at all (genuine)

RULES

• No NSFW at all, please! I'm an adult, but my Muse isn't. So nothing sexual. Flirting is okay but like. Have common sense.

• Any type of Homophobia, Transphobia, Ableism or Racism is not allowed here. If you're any of those, do not interact with me, thank you

• Don't spam the same question over and over please! I appreciate your excitement but after a certain point it just seems draining for both parties lol

• Tsukasa is immune to magic anons but honestly might jokingly go along with them if he finds them funny. Reasons why in character info

CHARACTER RUNDOWN

• Tsukasa Oukenai is a 2nd year at PK Academy, in class 2-3!

• He's obsessed with Space and Aliens, as seen in the in character part of this post. However, he doesnt believe in Psychic's or superpowers at all. He also Idolizes Kuusuke and hopes one day he'll have internships so he can learn under him.

• Tsukasa is completely immune to any type of Psychic ability. This means his fortune cannot be read, he doesn't have a Guardian Spirit, No one can read his mind, and most damningly: None of Saiki's changes to the world effect him. The one that causes the most problems is the healing boost Saiki gave humanity- since Tsukasa never got that software update, he is considered to have an Immune Deficiency where he heals concerningly slow, and has a way longer recovery time than everyone else (it's actually just how long it would take for most people irl to heal, but if a kid took 2 weeks to heal from something that normally takes 2 days? That's probably worrying)

• He has a whole collection of funky non-prescription glasses he wears, which means he typically wears contacts, but he has a weird eyeball shape so he has to decide on wearing contacts and having his eyes hurt for ✨️fashion✨️ (because he doesn't want to ask his parents for fitting contacts) or wearing his normal glasses and looking "boring". Unless it's exam season or he needs a break day, he will be picking the first option. Yes it is damaging to his eyes. Please do not do this.

• He is a big Cyborg Cider-Man No.2 fan. He liked it as a kid and now it is a fundamental part of his personality. He also is absolutely draining to talk to about it if you don't agree with his takes- I'm sorry in advance. This is evident for anything ever cuz you curate your own experience but I wouldn't blame you at all if he got annoying and you blocked him LMAO-

• He's inspired by a few character's in Media like Danny Fenton (Danny Phantom) and Futaba Sakura (Persona 5), but he was also created because I just really wanted to have a Saiki K OC that was immune to Psychic Abilities because it let me make up fake episodes revolving around that

• More as I remember it lmao

Here's a fullbody photo of him!

[caramelmochacrow]

im think abt the white day event and yuka.eso.

short essay on the perception of yuka and esora's relationship at the beginning of the d4dj project, the changes w their relationship (rei) and how it would potentially be addressed in peaky white day.

at the beginning of d4dj, there were a few people that assumed because yuka and esora were the closest with each other compared to kyoko and shinobu, they mustve been childhood friends, right? an example is the first ever yuka and esora fic (as in, yuka.eso but also their first ever fics) on ao3 released in december 5, 2020 (yuka's birthday). the summary of the fic states that yuka and esora are childhood friends, even though it has been confirmed that they never met each other when they were younger. the reason why this was assumed could be caused by the fact that yuka and esora didn't have much information on them at the time, so the author made guesses on their relationship with the character bios. for yuka's, it states that peaky are all of her bffs. for esora, it specifically states that she is the one yuka "always messes around with." compared to kyoko and shinobu's where it sounds general -- "watches them smiling" and "enjoys the company" respectively -- esora's sounds more specific. yuka says that she always hangs out with her. for esora's, it states that "they [peaky p-key] taught [her] what friends mean." this gives the reader the idea that peaky were her first ever friends. but they were not. (rei was her first friend). however, she said specifically that they taught her what friends mean, so that could be the cause for the difference. rei was her first friend, but rei didnt rlly tell/show how friends are. i find this interesting because you would think yuka is the childhood friend and rei isnt, but in actuality, rei is the childhood friend and yuka isnt.

it really makes you wonder which friend esora sees is more "important". does esora value her technically first ever friend? or does she value the friends that taught her what it's like to have one? of course, either way, to esora both matter to her. rei was there when she was lonely as a child. the implication of esora wanting to stay with rei whenever she visited because she knows when she goes home her parents won't be able to give her attention is interesting to think about. yuka, kyoko and shinobu were there to show esora what it's like to be in the "real world" and eventually became a few of the dearest people to esora in the entire world.

then comes the white day event. i still dont know much about the white day event but all i know is that it involves yuka's relationship with esora and involves rei in some capacity. will it cover the fact that to yuka, esora is one of the closest people to her ever? that esora cares so much about rei, but to yuka, rei is merely a classmate/fellow performer? yuka doesnt even know that rei is her childhood friend, probably until they start working together. what if esora doesnt even tell yuka at all? so much to think, so little answers... (until april 7, anyway.)

[skybristle]

im jsut gonna shamelessly dump this from dms with mac idgaf

also been thinking abt how rays and sparks were friendss..................... The dynamic must've been sooo fun........... Sparks also probably knew reefs pretty well as its head technician. Can you imagine how much she would have had to trust it !!!!

mac: "God. to have to look back on all the good times knowing now that they'd BETRAY you like that. Sparks cant ever look at them the same even if she wanted to. She TRUSTED THEM!!! she let them into her most vulnerable parts, let them take care of her and tend to her structure!!! and they then went on to hurt her! that SUCKS. for all parties involved, but especially because of how much dependence sparks had on them...."

EXACTLYY !!! !ITS SO EVILLLL

Sure her trust breaks with ancients and her creators in general. But she really never has a personal realtionship again with anyone after the expansions. I wonder how much of reefs she sees in chimes. I wonder how much her skin crawls every time she sits through him talking about his ancients and city and his 'mama'.

i think thats why out of all of them sparks likes ochre the most despite flor being relatively quiet. she doesn't have that personal hurt with amber the way she does with reefs, since amber was long gone from her project by the time everything crumbled. even as chimes is so warm and friendly she just butts heads with him instinctually and really can't trust anyone, let alone reefs creation.

Of course that changes in off string and stuff where chimes and sparks relationship becomes Immensely important but in canon they're like. estranged.

they should be family. He should be like a little brother to her. He probably would have been had reefs just gone and built an iterator withotu all fo that happening. But that's not what ever would have happened

Rays tries to tell her about chimes construction [and ochres] as hes in development. as a late apology, as news, as whatever he frames it as in their tense conversations. but she just doesn't want to hear any of it anymore

mac: "She loses the people in her life who supported her the most, they betray her horribly, and she's expected to be able to trust people after that??? fuckkk no. And god,,,,, chimes. Chimes is so so close to reefs and. Sparks just has to. Watch that. FUCK"

ESPECIALLY WITH ALL THE POLITICAL DEVELOPMENTS IN CHORUS WHERE REEFS STRONGMANS SUCH A DIFFERENT CULTURE !!! ITS THE ENVY !!! WHY COULDNT HAVE THAT BEEN HER. HOW COULD REEFS SAY ALL THAT AND HAVE DONE WHAT IT DID TO HER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STARTS EATING GLASS

i dont think she ever hated chimes or anything its just every interaction with him is so tainted and he'll never really understand why. I think thats also why him specifically turning on her and getting into a fight with her is what sends her over.

sparks would have never TOLD him that this is what she sees, that she's been hrut like this, because chimes is a new generation past her expansions and theres no need. she doesn't need to burden him with that beyond what he already knows. i think he would have really tried to make up for it had he known. But he doesn't and so he lives his happy life as sparks just. watches with frustration

which fucks me up about off string because in my head she DOES tell him. she DOES !! FUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haah sparks you get to grow and be a better person and escape without suciide but you have to have these hard conversations and you have to put yourself out there and you have to have faith that you won't be stabbed in the back haha sparks

mac: "she HAS to learn to trust others. Which sucks. She's been betrayed so hard in the past, but part of healing is accepting that you can learn to put your faith into people again!!! she has friends!!!!!! GAGDH"

i need her to like. Get her ass beat by something and chimes [who is VERY much a coward when it comes to combat] doesnt hesitate to go in there to grab her and pull her away. I needdd a million little things to pile up to shore up the initially stringy trust she's put in her group. I need them to become her friends i need her to get better !!! RIPS SHIRT OFF

boooo shed your godhood and live the human experience and do dumb shit. fucking lsoer

[nerves-nebula]

So I'm the eldest and I love all my siblings but god ever since I moved out my brother has been such a lil shit to our youngest- back when I lived there I was always the one to deescalate situations (in general not just my brother)- and he in general wouldn't behave that way when I'm around (i always thought its cause me and him are close but once I talked to mom about it and she says that he probably doesn't because he's scared of me... which is not great- I have to admit when the two of us were little I was a lil shit the same way he is now - I only got my shit together at 14- 15 because I realised that there had to be one responsible person in the household and it wasn't going to be our parents- also I just didn't want my siblings to hate me after I died. But since me and brother are the closest in age he remembers more of that time when I sucked than our other siblings do - so I shouldn't be surprised he is behaving similarly especially since he never had to go through the same crisis that i did at 15 (thats not even getting started on how our parents have affected all this)) but that doesnt change the fact he's being a lil bitch to my sister!

And I can't go tell him to knock it off- I have been bullied in school before I'm not dumb- a figure of authority telling a bully to stop it is just gonna make the bully be pissed that the person they're bullying snitched

Idk- he'll be moving out in 2 years so she won't have to put up with him after that but I still feel like I should fix the situation- I want to shake him and tell him "I got my shit together why can't you!" But it would be a bit rich coming from me

He seems to be at least semi aware of it- he tends to avoid people after doing shit like that- but he never apologises and that still sucks!

Tldr I'm very used to being the one responsible for fixing things in my family , but now I have moved and I can't do that and I'm very frustrated about it

Idk, I want to ask if you have any ideas but I know that would be a bit much and I already dumped so much on you- I'm very sorry about that- if you want to ignore this ask feel free to do so

i dont have any ideas, sorry. though my oldest sister might hahahh. that was more their role than mine. for what its worth i feel a similar kind of guilt about moving away cuz my little sister is stuck with mom and my oldest brother and it's frankly terrifying to think about that situation for too long.

my oldest sister has made a lot of progress reconnecting with us though through honest & emotional conversation. they've apologized for what they've done and they've worked on making sure we all don't, like, kill ourselves or something. so maybe you could start with that?

like, instead of starting out shaking his shoulders and yelling at him you just start by apologizing for the way you acted and stuff. and if you can try to segue into a level headed, non-accusatory conversation about why he shouldn't treat his sister this way.

idk i am not incredibly smart when it comes to this stuff so if that goes bad you can't blame ME cuz you're the one taking advice from a depressed art student on tumblr afasdfsdf

[luckylolabug]

Tagged by the lovely @starwritingbri <3 <3 1. How many works do you have on AO3?

Currently 17, after I yoinked some down. We won't talk about how many WIPs I have that aren't posted haha.

2. What’s your total AO3 word count? 150,958

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Uhh, multifandom girlie here so. Lockwood & Co, the DCU, Yuri on Ice, I currently have a folder of Six of Crows stuff getting ready for Whumptober but they're not posted yet, sometimes I one off and write stuff for Star Wars or TAZ: Balance. Ive got a big project going for Heartstopper that isnt posted yet, and I have a secondary account for MHA stuff lol. Also some joint stuff for FMA with Bri eventually!

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

In So Many Words- Yuri!!! on Ice

Sorry, This Page Cannot Be Reached- Yuri!!! on Ice

Slow Dancing in the Dark- Lockwood and Co

Barrels and Bootlegging- Lockwood and Co

Shimmer in the Haze of Winter Lawns- Lockwood and Co

5. Do you respond to comments?

For the most part, yes! I can get behind on them a bit, but I do try and keep up with them because the support is important to me.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I don't write a TON of angst??? But I want to say Heaven is Not Fit to House a Love Like You and I just for the context. Ask me again once I get my Whumptober stuff up in October and that's going to change, though.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Most of the stuff I write has happy endings! It's hard to pick just one?

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Unfortunately. Weirdly, most of the fandoms I've dabbled in that have reps for being "the worst" have been the nicest to me as far as fics go, but I've gotten some very nasty comments on things for certain fandoms that don't have that kind of reputation. Fan culture is weird. I wish I could say it doesnt affect me buuuuut. There's a reason I stepped back from writing so much L&C and tend to drift with other fandoms more now.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I have a few times, and I'm not like. Directly opposed to it? But it's not really my Jam a good 99% of the time and honestly I prefer just keeping most of my stuff Fade to Black or vague and not in depth if it comes up. I like focusing more on other stuff, but I don't think smut is bad either!

10. Do you write crossovers?

Not as far as I'm aware. I have like. Some AU type stuff thats "This world but with these characters" but its not a direct crossover where the characters from multiple universes interact. I guess unless youre counting the DCU as a whole but??? Lol?

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

To my knowledge, no? But it could have been, I guess.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope! But I'd be cool with it! My mom helps me with Spanish in a few things for the Heartstopper project I have going since she's fluent, but those are just a few lines.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Not anything POSTED, but eventually that'll change!

14. What is your all-time favorite ship?

Y'all, I am in too many fandoms for this lol. I don't know that I even HAVE an all-time fav that shoots above the rest? I have favs in fandoms, but not as a whole????

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Uhhhhh. Probably Barrels and Bootlegging??? I hate even putting this out there but fandom politics and the amount of BS just was draining the hell out of me when I was working on stuff so I don't even really have any plans to go back to finishing any of my stuff for L&C at this point. I'm happier writing other places, right now!

16. What are your writing strengths?

uHHHHHH???? Bri says its details, so I guess that? Putting details into everything?

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

All of them. LOL. No, but honestly, I struggle with the editing process most because I think I end up re-writing things a good 5 or 6 times before I decide its fine and even then I struggle after stuff is posted just because I want to try so hard to keep things cohesive and correct. I spend way too much time Googling shit that shouldnt even really matter, but the small things matter to ME.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

The only thing I've really done it with is throwing in some stuff in Spanish, and I was only okay with that because my mom is fluent and offered to look it over for me to make sure it was correct. Otherwise I'm like.....Google Translate is inaccurate a lot and the idea of putting something in a fic that could be WRONG freaks the hell out of my OCD and I can't do it.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Oh, jeez. Uhh. Honestly it was either ATLA or the Halo games? I don't fucking know, it was pretty mid 2000s. I still have my log in for FF.net and LiveJ but I dont really want to go look because Im sure I'll hate it.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

This feels like a shit answer because it's not POSTED YET. But I really have been eating up everything I've written so far for this "Six of Crows but make it Modern" thing thats sitting at about 40k words right now. So probably that??? If its one that I have POSTED, then I think it's probably one of the 5+1s I did for Yuri on Ice just because those were really fun and light. I'm TERRIBLE at tagging people so uh. @fluffypinkkitties @twiilys and @chibiosaka I guess????

[thegreatimpersonator]

Okayy so I have a lottttt of thoughts but I won't share ALL of them since that'll get too much but I will however share some positive ones because I always feel when I send you an ask about taylor, it's always something negative that happened so I want to be a bit nicer today

1. I'm not the biggest fan of the two piece colored 1989 fit BUT she wore the color combo yellow and blue which are Swedens flags colors so that was something thoughtful

2. Her note belting (I'm taking about real belting, not screaming into the mic like during dbm) during the ttpd set where she sang "BUT WHAT IF THEY DID" or "IVE BEEN DOING IT SINCE HE LEFT" or "YOU DESERVE PRISON" gave my chills all over my body

3. The visuals during down bad are probably imo the most expensive and most fascinating visuals she's ever done because I was sitting very much at the top and from there it literally looked like she was floating and getting beamed up by the ufo plus projecting the ufo like that must've been very hard so yeah I was impressed

4. I already mentioned this yesterday but getting my two fav songs off 1989 and then a great red song AND HOW DID IT END was genuinely the highlight I think

5. This isn't something crazy but I love how she learned like those little phrases for every single country she's been going and how she changed little parts of her performances (cam saying "like ever" in different languages or her normally welcoming the crowd in different languages) based on the countries she's performing in. She literally learned how to say "fuck you guys are amazing" in Swedish and that was funny when she said it out loud lol

6. I know I criticise her for a lot of stuff but I will never deny the fact that she can put on a show because she's there on stage for 3 1/2 hours and just having the time of her life and you can see that. I'm not saying there isn't any other artist doing it like her but there are however a lot of artists that are on her level who just stand there and sing for 1 1/2 hours without really moving which is completely fine too! i just admire how she put big effort into this tour

Okay I'll stop now or else this will never end lmao but I'd love if you'd give your individual opinion on each things too! You mentioned that you're going to another eras show in Canada right? I'm sure there you can see what I mean with points 2 and 3

aw yayy! im so happy you had such a good time, all of these points are so true and rightly very impressive/cool. and yes im really interested in seeing points 2 and 3 in the future for my show in december (hopefully she doesnt change it up and take them away lol) the ufo visual looks so cool and as someone who's been pretty regularly disappointed/unimpressed with taylors visuals (like with album covers/merch/etc) it's extra exciting to see something so cool.

[princessflorida]

saying they've "lost their final bargaining chip" is so incredibly ludicrous and revolution fantasy to me honestly. no they didnt. their final "bargaining chip" is extortion and coercive force. it's how they got to where they are now. and force will be required to stop them. fascists dont just run out of bargaining chips. WE are the chips. and they're doing a very successful job at farming us. they wont run out.

if they truly had lost THEE FINAL bargaining chip for "keeping the masses working for them", then they'd lose. because we wouldn't be working for them. but we still are. literally no one has stopped. because we have to have a roof over our head and food, especially people that have kids. or people that have meds they HAVE to pay for or they die, etc.

IF they EVER lose "the final bargaining chip keeping the masses working for them" it will be because it was taken by force. the final chip is being allowed to stay alive. the final chip is not starving to death or dying from exposure.

i can tell when people say stuff like this they've never been homeless or lived poverty at best, and at worst are usually chronically online kids who have never had to pay bills and have never had to choose between having a roof or eating. i can telk they've never once had to worry about where their next meal was coming from, have never had to steal food to stay alive, had to do risky fucked up shit not to die in the heat or the cold, etc.

our compliance will not be rewarded with anything other than JUST barely getting enough food and sleep to stay alive. alive, not well or healthy. just alive. starve an animal and watch what it's willing to do to get food. itll do anything. so will we. our coercive forced compliance is rewarded with not dying. and the vast majority of people, especially those who have kids to make sure don't starve to death, will stoop to any level to make sure those mouths get fed. and i don't mean the snitch bitch from mcdonalds. she can rot. i mean that saying "theyve lost the final bargaining chip keeping the masses working for them" sounds like the chronically online teenage revolution fantasy from someone who's parents pay their phone bill, and their way through college, and bought them a car etc. like you're really not convincing me you've ever gone hungry once. clearly the masses are still working for them. nothing has changed.

the adjuster (luigi is innocent til proven guilty can yall stop saying he did it sybau snitches youre as bad as the mcds lady by doing that), whoever he is, did a heroic and powerful thing. and "the masses" simply ARE NOT willing to organize and follow in his footsteps. they'd rather keep working bc they need food and a roof NOW. until we combat that with community mutual aid and organization on a large level, their "last bargaining chip" is our lives.

think about what you're saying before you say it. seriously. the chronically online revolutionary fantasy shit pmo so bad. all i see nowadays trying to organize w people is that no one wants to ACTUALLY do anything, they just want to keep working for the masses while pretending that bitching online is some sort of radical revolutionary activist shit that actually does something (it doesnt). and those of us who actly are willing are so outnumbered and poor, disabled, sick etc that WE'RE the ones who need the fucking help. anyone above our tax bracket, middle class, who pretends to be into this shit when it comes time to try to do that? crickets.

let me know when yall are ACTUALLY ready to adjust the world in favor of humanity's sustainable survival ourselves. ill be waiting. ill probably die waiting. the adjuster has shown us we cant change the world alone. we need numbers. big numbers. enough of us that they can't just throw us in prison and make an example out of us.

bc right now the rich/elite/1%/politicians are sitting and laughing at dumbass tweets like this knowing the people posting them won't even break a single misdemeanor law much less do worse. they don't let the snitches in the club, and they know the people against them won't crash the club either. even losing 1 of their own, did that stop UHC? did it stop for profit healthcare? no. a lot more deaths will have to happen for any of that to stop, bc they will not stop for any reason other than being dead. and they know their club is untouchable both to snitch asskissers and those against them. bc we dont try. bc of the threat of violence and death. the end.

[insideoreoshack]

1.15.2025

I don't feel any sort of way necessarily but yet it's like my brain won't shut up? I have no appetite for anything almost no motivation as well, I feel like I'm just on autopilot and quite literally just want to hole up and hide? I don't wanna be in public i don't wanna do anything but yet the world doesn't stop for me and I have to show up and i resent that. I wish everything could pause and i could disappear for maybe days and just not leave my bed and not be bothered by my family and just pause everything. in the ideal scenario, i wouldnt have anything to do, and its not like im feeling overwhelmed i am just so tired of existing, and even though there are things to be excited about i just still wish everything could pause. my head feels like a prison at this point where im just fine i guess... i cant even put it into words with a stream of consciousness which is insane to me because how can my mind be quiet and yet so overstimulated by my own thoughts at the same time. everything feels right and theres so much to be happy about and excited for so why cant i just let myself enjoy that, i am getting ahead the way i want to with my classes and work is manageable and i have things i get to do with my family and friends and my boyfriend and yet i feel like something is wrong simply by me being involved in all of it and isnt that so sad? i wish i wouldnt feel this way i wish i didnt have the urge to fall off the face of the earth for days at a time and iwish my head didnt hurt all the time from always thinking about these things. I cant even feel like these are normal things to share but i just feel so out of it and its not exhaustion or being stressed or overwhelmed i just feel like i simply want to do nothing. sometimes i get envious that carriema gets to do that all the time she doesnt even understand the privelge she has with that, there are no expectations of her from our parents or even herself, she has zero obligations and gets to do fuckall but my family seeks me out for anything and everything and idk i just wish i could have a few days to not see the world and just be at home without interruption of being sought out by my family. its an unforeseen reality of course and can never happen but boy it would heal my brain probably just a little. silence with my boyfriend definitely would as well because sometimes its so hard to leave when even just sitting quietly with him makes my heart and head feel so at ease, i guess love really is peace and its always comforting to know that even whenever i feel like this i have him, even if its only a thought right now i get to be with him and be his and that consoles me. i just feel like i need a break from all responsibility ever i guess... again unrealistic but it doesnt change that i want it. even ranting like this doesnt change a numb feeling im having, i just feel like a shell of myself that just peeks through and it sucks because i know if i talk about it to anyone i might just cry for no reason or cry without knowing why i am.

[castlebyersafterdark]

these children conversations intrigue me! trying to remember what i thought at that age. seemed like everyone would say 'when i have kids' which is shorthand for 'when im a real adult' lol, even if you havent probably considered the reality of having kids yet. noah seems like someone who would def want a family tho, but i dont know about finn for some reason.

the idea of chloe being a traditional surrogate (using her own egg) is absolutely wild to me and i can't even imagine the emotional complications let alone the legal ones. its not even legal in some states. i can see what anon meant but if you think about it, its kind of odd... it would be noah's child AND niece or nephew, chloe would have to ensure she doesnt emotionally attach to the child enough so that she can both give it up AND continue to see it and be close to it for the rest of it's life? pretending she's just the aunt and not the mom lol? i doubt noah would ask that of her

if anything she could be a carrier of a third party's egg plus noah's sperm (but even that is a bit... weird. and giving that friends situation where phoebe carries her brothers kids lmao) ugh this has all got a bit too literal hahahah

why do you not think you'd be a good dad vinny? if you want to answer x

Thank you for the insight! I have to admit, this isn't really a subject that I've ever given much genuine thought towards so every ask is interesting, just because I'm kind of naive about it all. Won't even begin to pretend to understand all that would take in regards to the relationship between bio mother and child, surrogacy, all that. I know it happens in society but my mind can't quite wrap around the subject outside of television! There's always adoption, too, since a child does not need to specifically contain your DNA to be your kid. I am really supportive and happy of course about the continued strides and opportunities for same sex couples. Complicated, as any other family situation, but with so many additional hurdles though, that much I know to be true. It's just not one I've put too much general research or have practical knowledge about since it's not really in my future.

(Hahaha I think my only extensive experience with the subject is genuinely as you referenced with Phoebe and that's a wacky sitcom so unsure how realistic of a situation it is, or maybe the occasional romcom or comedy with the subject. So we see where my knowledge base resides haha)

Last question in your ask:

I'll keep it simple since you asked. I don't think I have it in me to be that sort of caretaker, to be a father. No parental instinct. Lack the temperament for it. I'm totally devoted to my partner, and want to grow old with him for all of life's journey and everything that entails - but I know I just couldn't be a dad. Some of it is mental health reasons, too, keeping that answer simple as well.

Believe me, I didn't want to run into incompatible future visions, covered all bases. I've had relationships where it was clear the guy had zero interest in the concept of marriage so... yeah. And that was something important to me (and here I am!!! 😁) but I really don't want to raise kids. We love being uncles!! That's quite enough.

I cannot envision making that sort of massive life and dynamic change and you can't take it back. If you're not passionate about becoming a parent and have the opportunity to evaluate and recognize that - well, I consider it responsible to not just check off a box on society's expected life path, even in regards to society not really expecting it of someone like me anyway. It's nice to know that there are instances for people like me to make it a reality - but I'm not taking it.

My son is a cat!!!