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Silver doesn't need another father. He's already got one of those, technically, but the man turned out to be a weak, cowardly bastard who couldn't face his own problems let alone raise a child. The way he sees it, there's no need to set himself for more disappointment. He's got a roof over his head and food to eat, and that's far more than he could ever depend on in the last... however many years he'd been living on the streets. Lance and Clair are annoying as hell, but while he's training in the Dragon Den, he doesn't exactly have much room to complain. Not out loud, anyways.
Lance doesn't particularly want to be a dad either. He's already got too much responsibility on his plate as Champion, and this kid clearly needs so much more emotional support than he feels like he can provide. Simply convincing him to move into his guest room was enough of a struggle, and it only really worked because Lance had promised Silver he could "earn" his keep. What the hell is up with that, anyways? He's not sure what Silver's past looks like, and he's not about to go prying, but the bare minimum he can do is make sure he doesn't have to rough it out in the woods anymore. At least Clair seems to be having fun training him...
Clair is more than ready to be an aunt. The other two refuse to admit to caring for each other, but unlike them, she's not afraid of something as stupid as her emotions. The brat's slowly but surely been mellowing out during his training, and her idiot cousin has actually been taking care of himself for once in order to be a "good example." Silver has even caught on to calling Lance "old man" like she does, on account of those ugly-ass reading glasses the all-mighty Champion has to wear, and she couldn't be prouder. Best part is, she doesn't have to spend a dime except to treat the kid every so often! That's a win in her book if ever there was one.
#‼️personal canon zone‼️#pokemon#pokemon hgss#hgss#rival silver#champion lance#gym leader clair#warning! lots of rambling in the tags >_>#love me some Father Figure Lance(TM) but the way i characterize him and silver doesn’t completely allow for it#they end up caring about each other deeply but as mentioned neither of them would feel comfortable labeling their dynamic as father/son#doesn't mean lance can't be silver's “old man” and silver can't be lance's “kid”#clair meanwhile is just delighted to have someone else to beat up on /affectionate. she's a big fan of tough love#she understands silver's not looking for a family and accepts it just fine but she's still going to adopt him in her head#the three of them are family now. he can't escape. he's going to be welcomed and taken care of So Help Her Arceus.#part of her likes to spoil silver in a way she never really got as a child#(though that doesn't mean she's ever going to go easy on him during training. if anything it makes her push him that much harder)#(this definitely doesn't make silver think she hates him or anything until lance explains she's Just Kinda Like That)#(she's actually much nicer to silver than most people---she's extremely assertive and has a very strong sense of justice)#(which makes her seem a bit bitchy to others at times (and they wouldn't necessarily be wrong))#((this is making me realize i need to just write a breakdown of my characterization for her tbh))#meanwhile lance tries to give him more freedom and space to breathe since that's what he always lacked growing up#he's still going to be there if silver ever asks but he also recognizes that trying to get too close too quickly will just scare him off#anyways#*vibrating in place with the intensity of a million suns* i am so normal about them. i love them a perfectly acceptable amount.
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new heretek bioloigis image bc ive neglected her and decided shed make a random drukhari into her walking servo skull
#why did she not just repair his wounds? thats what hes wondering tbh#as always she goes untagged because i am scared#i cant decide if she lives in commorragh or just finds drukhari raids and tags along for a bit until they realise wait that wrack isnt ours#also be aware this is very. she has a functioning vox. she just beeps. not binharic though#rare for her to speak. her servo skull tm is chattier though bc she took away his vocal chords for no good reason#ms heretek
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I've seen a lot of analizing outfits and pictures of the actors and trying to figure out if they have hidden meanings for season 3 of Squid Game. And while that's also really interesting I think the best indicator for what might happen and which characters survive the longest in season 3 is who is the most present for promotional stuff. The actors of characters that aren't going to be as important are a lot less likely to appear in interviews, in little promotional videos on the social media accounts and at live events. Now there's obviously always the possibility that an actor just didn't have the time to appear at live events or be a part of a lot of shoots for other promotional stuff but if we ignore that for a second I think it's very likely that three of the most important characters of season 3 (aside from Gi-hun and In-ho obviously) will be Hyun-ju, Geum-ja and Myung-gi. All three of their actors are in a lot of the promotional videos and photoshoots, especially when there are only a few actors that are part of it. Both Park Sung-hoon and Kang Ae-sim were present for the Tudum live events and while Yim Si-wan wasn't there he was the person who got the card with 'two' written on it in the days leading up to the Tudum live show and Myung-gi has also been very present in a lot of the official posters. Often with posters characters of bigger importance will be bigger/more in the front and I don't think they'd put Myung-gi this much in the center if he didn't have a more important role this season. I think Jun-hee might also get pretty far since Jo Yu-ri was also part of that Tudum countdown and that photoshoot of some of the actors with the light shining on them in the shapes. The only other actors of players (once again excluding Gi-hun) in that photoshoot were the actors of Hyun-ju, Geum-ja and Myung-gi. So in conclusion if we look at a lot of promotional content for season 3 that has been put out by Netflix and especially everything that has a limited amount of actors we can see that it's always the same 4 actors of players that are still alive (Myung-gi, Hyun-ju, Geum-ja and Jun-hee) which is why I believe that these four characters are most likely to survive the longest or maybe even make it out alive
#while netflix promotion obviously can't be a super clear indicator for what will actually happen#i think it would be kinda stupid promotion to for example have geumja's actress in so much when her character actually gets killed off#right at the beginning#that wouldn't make any sense#they will show you the most from actors of characters that you're supposed to root for#and it also subconsciously prepares you#you saw a lot of this actor on social media so it will make sense to see a lot of that character in the show#unless they're trying to mislead us but idk if that's really the case#it is possible that a character that wasn't as obvious is gonna have an unexpected bigger role#then maybe they'd hide it a little to not take too much away from that plot twist#but i also think those 4 characters have the most potential to get to the finale of the games#hyunju is obvious she's strong she's very smart she can fight but she's also caring enough to not throw her allies under the bus#myunggi i feel like might go a more extreme/agressive 'doing what has to be done' route a little bit like sangwoo maybe but he has differen#motivations#we've already seen with youngmi that he won't hesitate to make a tough decision to save himself and junhee#geumja i think will also get really far because she's smart very confident and kind and caring#and i also think yongsik might sacrifice himself for her which still doesn't mean certain survival for geumja#but i don't think they'll kill her off right after her son just died for her#that would just be cruel and also wouldn't make much sense for the show cause when similarly jiyeong sacrificed herself for saebyeok#saebyeok didn't immediately die in the next game#junhee i'm very conflicted on because i think she'll be important but i don't know how she's survive the jumprope game#she's very determined but i think if her child is born and they possibly take it away from her she might just give up#like how we saw in the trailer#but tbh if it's about her child and either getting it back or getting it out alive then she'll likely do anything to make that possible#but also that clip from the teaser of her crying scares me So Much because it just looks so much like her last moment#squid game#cho hyun ju#lee myung gi#kim jun hee#jang geum ja
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Just had something happen to me which was very close to a situation I often have nightmares about, and I thought those nightmares were a bit over the top, like, you know, the way dreams tend to be...
Well turns out the dreams weren't exaggerating at all. In fact it's worse in real life. The nightmares were the game turned on easy mode. :)
#untaggged#Definitely not the worst part of the thing but...#...tbh i'm very unnerved because a friend kind of knows about it cause i was supposed to see her and cancelled because of the situation#and i'll see her tomorrow and she's going to ask about it and i'm going to explain#but#she tends to give all too easy solutions to every problem i mention#and put the blame on me in a way i don't always find fair or make me wish for a bit more clemency#so i'm bracing myself for that and i can't help but kind of see it as a test and i'm kind of scared she is going to fail said test that i#don't even want to be a test in the first place...#because she's a friend and i like her but if she finds a way to blame me or tell me how i could have done things better as if it was easy#i'm going to be uncomfortable#and my trust will be a bit eroded whether i want it or not#But also maybe she'd be right to blame me? I *am* disappointed in myself and i do see that i could have done things differently...#not all my actions were particularly smart
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bringing positivity for once: today at work i was told that my coworkers said i'm good at tutoring 🥹 and yesterday one coworker sent me a message himself thanking me for my tutoring 🥹 and then my therapist told me the others in this group thing i'm taking part in all like me 🥹😭😭
#actually therapy was very... good today. like. made me feel good. i'm still like scared but i feel like maybe i'm not doomed#which is a new thing for me lol#also i made known again my desire to do more hours at work and the hr person said mh i see here they were already considering for you......#1 more hour. which lol considering how i'm already doing pretty few hours that almost feels like a joke like 1h and they're not even sure 😭#she said in the future it'll be more for everyone gradually. but she said she'd bring it up now with who makes the decisions and we'll see#i'm hoping the amount of commitment and quality i bring when i do my job will mean something otherwise i'd feel very crap lol#especially bc like i think they gave A Lot more than 1 more hour to a coworker that's been here for like 2 months lol ....... doesn't feel#very good tbh. like i do my best and more all the time and have for almost 3 years and i rarely get appreciation or smth lol but when it#comes up i'm told my coordinators are happy with me they've never complained i'm doing great....... but maybe getting smth back for all my#hard work would be good? i think they rely too much on the fact i really like it there but like i need to survive i need money and i also#don't want to be made a fool of. you know. i'm way too much of a doormat but how this will play out will be key. i love my workplace and#i understand that being a small company and a social cooperative means there's less money but if your budget is big enough to give#someone who's been here 2 months like 10 more hours than the standard it can be big enough to give someone who's busted their ass off for#3 years just as much. or i'll feel like i'm being fucked over lol#we'll see#i said i was bringing positivity lol i mean mostly i'm happy i'm just like. still dealing with a bit at work#and while being told i'm good is great i do hope it translates into something favorable to me bc i'm young and this is my first real job#and i love it there but i'm not dumb and i don't like being taken advantage of. i don't want to but if need be i can look elsewhere#anyway lol i'm glad that people like me and/or my ability to explain and teach? and apparently i'm not completely awful? go figure
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crying whenever i talk about Cookie9 because all my friends have these interesting and unique theories on them while i take everything too literally and they all just stare at me like “dude… uuugh we r TIRED” <-they dont actually say this they are very kind to me but i can Feel It
#my version of them is centered around their blog version with the ‘personality’ of their steam review and like a bunch of HC#i developed them with the implication that they’re Real but i’m a bit iffy on it#because all my friends have theories about how they’re from the narrator’s consciousness which is sick as hell#and i’m unsure how to actually structure everything or if i should go the same route so i can get approval from them </3#my friends r the real reviewer fans even though they dont plague themselves over them every day and im so sad that i don’t know anythinggg#gggggggggggg#like im p sure they genuinely hate the stuff i make about cookie9 and im just. scrumbles myself. sorry im Trying :( i’m not smart#or good at writing or even media literate#whatever that term means#all i have is love in my heart for them i don’t know anything at all#ouhghghhg they hate It so much but i cant do anything else and it’s all i have#like all my cookie9 stuff works on the ‘what if their blog self Was Real’ but i’m not actually sure how to fit it all into my actual parabl#stuff because i still havent worked out how my parable itself works#and people probably don’t think i know enough and i don’t think they’ll approve if i try. so i Don’t#tempted to blame this on my like. general crushing lack of intelligence caused by both physical and mental reasons#but i want to believe i could do better if i try? but that’s incredibly hopeful#i’ll be stuck here forever i think#<-guy who. whenever Anything wrong happens ever. just goes back to ‘oh yeah its because im dumb as fuckign rocks. due to the Incidents’#i am very scared of the possibility that it is possible for me to be anything more because that implies that i’m stupid because i didnt try#even though i’m trying very very fucking hard and every time i get something wrong way more than anyone else i’ve ever known#and they hate me for it . MAN!!!!!!!!!#<-brain is lying 2 me i think nobody hates me or . whatever. it still feels like it though im just saying this because i dont want anyone t#think people genuinely hate me for being stupid. i mean. people DO. but not my friends ☝️#man i can’t even get into the buglivia crap either because she is so abstracted from her actual review#girl w identity issues and also the general normal Changing A Lot Through Time. i scrumble her. around#her Self during 2018 would in fact be in character for the review.i want to draw her during that time. she took everything so seriously </3#tbh my version of her does react well to TSP humor but at the time she felt like she wasn’t allowed 2 Do Her Thing and tried to seem#more professional and Normal and it seeped into EVERYTHING for a bit#cookie9 though just genuinely found the narrator annoying and patronizing. its just not his thing and thats fine#<-random nonsensechemical reviewer bits hidden inside the vents. SEND POST.
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"bad decisions, that's alright; look, i'm still alive"
#&juliet#if you saw the old version of this... no you didn't#anyway. &j posting now... made this into what i like to call a public transport wip#in which painting on phone with fingers commences! usually it happens to doodles that get coloured and i want to clean up#idk about the colours here though... that said it's a livable error#smth smth reminders to not feel so scared... many many paths.#be less afraid of messing up? just live life? many many paths#one of my key takeaways from this show was along those lines#sobs.. if that isn't the premise of the musical huh? juliet is so young and has her whole life ahead to live...#still so much ahead of her- so what if she Didn't kill herself?#<holds tightly> many routes. many routes. i am young and have my life yet to be lived.#also this comes from the joint bit near the end where angelique sings to juliet#!! also just realised that the nurse and juliet's hairstyles parallel each other... such a cute detail..#// sometimes the stuff i make is really just because the themes resonate at this specific point in life..#i think it's getting more self-specific! tbh every time i catch myself creating for Myself specifically i go <333
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cringing inwardly at all my original content for my pcs … good god
#marzeyna im so sorry dear#why did i do that to you#reyna and evolet are the only pcs im still vaguely happy with tbh#everyone else is … weirdly juvenile for how old theyre supposed to be#but marzie in particular#how she fell victim to all that i have no idea#i … dont like how she turned out#Ill chew on her later#tbf#i was 15#but im also almost 20 now#surely i knew better right#why marzie leaned so heavily on cullen of all people#when she shouldve been something closer to a feral mage is beyond me#caged and a bit scared type beat#there shouldve been more wrong with these women
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Hear me out, IK from HSR AU (Idk if you play it but)
Thought of this after realising Welt coincidentally kind of looks like a cross between Lucifer and Zhaoxi. I think a little IK+Stelle/Caelus+Dan+March squad would be super cute. Irresponsible big sister + slightly overprotective big brother + cool big sibling for IK. It's what she deserves.
I was thinking she'd take the MC's role but I love their characterisation a lot so I didn't wanna exclude them... maybe IK is a sort of 'receptacle companion' who has to share the Stellaron with them to help stabilise it. So I guess in this case they kinda are genuine siblings lol.
Anyway, IK gets summoned to the Devildom and within a day the Astral Express has warped over and everyone (but especially Dan Heng) is ready to start killing
i do know hsr! i picked it up a little while ago, but i haven't really stuck with it so i'm still at a very early point in the game. i'm vaguely familiar with the lore (from what i've played so far and also skimming wiki pages)
i really like the receptacle companion idea!! though i suppose the disadvantage is that whenever things go wrong for one of them, the other experiences the same effects, like in that early cutscene where they block march... but they can also sense each other across universes, which is probably how they tracked ik down
love the little astral express youngsters gang (note to self: think of better group name) <33 their dynamic would be equal parts cute and chaotic and though it may seem like ik is on the sensible side with dan heng, she is actually on a very different level of unhinged that just looks sensible as long as you don't put her in front of a cool monster
in this case ik would probably also have a variable path and type (same as the trailblazer), but if they were fixed... probably either harmony or abundance for path, and imaginary for type
(should we pick a trailblazer to use?? might get confusing since i'm pretty sure everyone on the astral express is a trailblazer, and i'd probably refer to this as a 'trailblazer ik' au, so it might get confusing. we could always just pick whichever for any given thing about it, just for variety)
#answering asks#anon asks#also about the welt thing: i hadn't thought of that before but you know what i see it#jtta aus#hsr#i'm imagining possible combat animations#and i'm thinking of herta's with the massive hammer#i think ik should also have a comically large weapon that she swings around WAY too easily and tbh it scares the demons a little bit#trailblazer ik
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Continuity gets a little murky but I'm shook remembering how complicated Rose Tyler's relationships are outside the Doctor and thinking it's no wonder Jackie and Mickey were so upset about him.
Beyond the obvious, teen Rose running away to live with Jimmy Stone, a full adult, before he's carted away to prison is bonkers. There's no way Jackie wasn't thinking about Jimmy when Nine stepped into the picture. It's a miracle Jackie didn't kill him on the spot.
I want to pick all of them apart and study them (Rose and Mickey particularly) separately, then look at them as a whole. It's fascinating to see how their behavior in "Rose" and onward is disagreeable, but to also dig into them and see where that behavior comes from and why.
#anyway i think the tylers and mickey are actually a lot more dysfunctional and have a lot more issues than i think canon really touches#and i feel like those issues are understandably too serious for a show like doctor who to have time or want to explore#but i do think about them sometimes. and i wonder how unhappy rose must have been and how scared jackie was and?? idk.#mickey too really with all his abandonment problems and stuff with his mom. it's all a bit sad.#idk. i feel like people give rose a lot of crap for how she treated mickey and crap for mickey being jealous and whiny#and imo they both did some bad things to each other but like.#those two have so many problems. they were what each other needed at the time i think but they were also bad for each other and#not what they needed in the long run. i dont think its a case of one being ''worse'' its just a case of not being ''right'' yk?#i feel similarly with ten and martha tbh.#ten could have been more aware of her but he didnt owe loving her back romantically.#likewise martha sometimes seemed weirdly entitled to his affection (at first) but she was right to feel slighted by him for his carelessnes#again a case of two people who aren't ''wrong'' or ''worse'' they're just not ''right'' and i kinda hate how#ten and martha and rose and mickey are always pitted against each other. it's such a misunderstanding of how emotions and people and#relationships work or don't work i think.#anyway i got off on a tangent whoops. i'm just wondering about the drama and struggle of pre-docror tylers + mickey. there's something to#pick apart there i think.#merri mumbles
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you love them...... 0(-(
#today you're happy .#oh boy i gotta run thru the whole house this way. time to 100% this shit i guess#unless i can loop forward . hopefully#woageoahwoahwoah woah. hey. siffrin my buddy???????? are u good. holy shit dude#WOAH. okay. thats. hm. YOUR ATTACK LOWERED?#theyre literally nerfing themself so they dont scare the shit out of everyone. well#SADNESS WILL FLEE FROM YOU. OK#things are gettin weird today#ooo his title changed.. when did that happen..#HEY !! ANOTHER SIFFRIN AGAIN. is spacetime getting fucked over by all these loops. not that ive had too many.... this is loop 20-something#oh. oopsie. looked at too many things and Odile is onto me. uh oh#surely that wont come back to get me later right. right#that is actually a bit scary tho. tbh#oh shit bonnie WAS listening to that conversation huh#man it would suck if i lost this loop. but i dont think i could stomach doing that on purpose lmao#it would also be hilarious if i died to pineapple right now. which im assuming is a thing bc of Loops warning earlier#omg i love bonnies interactions when theyre not being mean to sif theyre so silly#why is everyone treating him like a puppy today.. except for odile . who is still suspicious.#even if she figures it out somehow i dont know how she'll like. bring it to light? or do anything abt it??#will she react badly to it at all ???? i mean its Weird but half of the evidence shows that sif did it to help more than anything#tho she could draw different conclusions..#isat#isat spoilers#'you feel happy???' 'even though youre not friends.' hey dont do that.
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#my post#im awaiting news from my friend abt her father its not about me but im so scared to know#i cant imagine what shes feeling#i know i need to ask but as long as i dont everything feels ok for a little bit longer#she hasnt called me or anything yet which might not mean anything tbh#they might not even know yet she just said in the morning#she might also be with her family dealing with the news#i need to ask i need to check on her i will ill do it ill do it no matter what#but. like in a little while#god#ok sorry folks LOL
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forget about other ship questions, the real one is: who takes the spider out / who is scared shitless and wants it dead
#outofcharacter.#i just had to. witness. the murder of a giant fucking cockroach LMFAOO and now to .. ..#forget.. .. about the horrors.. ...#i present u this.. ...#yuna would take the spider out. :pleading:#she's also scared by it tbh.. . a bit... ...#but she'd be a brave gorl and take it out instead of killing it!! !!!!#ur muse is safe with her. trust the source ( me )
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Introducing: Marina!
Marina is an omnic, initially built by a somewhat eccentric engineer as a 'companion model,' or 'sex bot,' in Spain. She is one of few omnics who have an expensive synthetic flesh attached to her metal plating, giving her a more human look and feel.
She's sweet, and a bit airheaded, because of her programming limiting her intelligence, but this does not stop her insatiable curiosity and childlike wonder about the world around her.
Marina finds many things in life to be beautiful and captivating, her absolute favorites are music and dance, painting, sexuality, and the ocean. But Marina's love encompasses many more things in life.
Despite her grim past, she still sees the beauty in the world, and has a zest for life, wanting to help fight for omnic rights. However, Marina's programming also bars her from committing violent acts, stopping her from being able to fight the good fight--but she can heal, and inspire others, and does her best to help.
Backstory briefed
Shortly after she was completed, Marina was sold by her creator to a wealthy Pimp named James Mercer, in Monaco, just before the omnic crisis began.
After the Crisis ended, Mercer tracked Marina down, and took her back to Monaco with him, to work in his high end brothel.
After several years, Marina managed to escape, and fled the country, hopping from shelter to shelter before she heard of the Shambali Monastery.
Having many unanswered questions about existence, and nowhere to go, she decided to travel there, and study.
Marina studied at the Shambali Monastery for many years, learning about the Iris, and her other passions and interests, to the best of her ability.
After she had learned to heal, and connect with the Iris, she felt a calling outside the monastery, to pursue her passions and help people through her art and healing.
#omnic oc#okay listen... im aware this one is kinda out there and also super self indulgent#but dont tell me there wouldnt be at least *one* sex-bot in a future with robots!#and also i thought theres so much interesting potential for a character like that you know?#and the shambali thing i fully admit is self indulgent af. i wanted her to do monk stuff!! and also meet my blorbos Zenyatta and Ramattra#i thought her being a monk and reaching enlightenment sort of was really fun! largely because shes a bimbo tbh#its like... u dont have to be textbook smart. shes a bit simple#but she understands the secret to achieving tranquility! so!#ill rp her just about any stage of her life tbh because theyre all FUN#anyway hii im scared!! i have so much social anxiety but HRRGG MY BLORBOS....#OUGH I keep coming back to this nervously;;; presenting my oc SCARY#not thst anyone will see her?? but still :(
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i think. i think. i think that gil would make a great father, even though i think he would 100% absolutely panic for the months leading up to actually having a child…
#and tbh gil’s very levelheaded in comparison to how chrysi reacts..#she is NOT okay!!!!!!!!!! like yay!! a son!! but un-yay.. she and azure wanted a child but they never got to have one…….#it’s jst another situation that sends her back to losing azure and it fucks w her head a bit#also she’s scared she’ll be an awful mother since she’s never had a good parental figure in her life..#ummmm. anyway. thiiiis is maybe a way for me to explore a pseudo-evil de//ad r/ise au. PSEUDO STRONGLY!!!!#but mm. i think chrysi might not even tell gil when she finds out in some aus.#if they’re not OFFICIALLY a couple that is.#because she knows gil has his hands full w oz and alice. she’ll figure it out on her own#shout out to jacks who—despite his jealousy issues—is yelling at chrysi for not telling gil#god. don’t even want to think of how BREAK will react.#listennnn chrysi’s jst coming to terms w it!!! give her a MOMENT she thought she couldn’t even HAVE a child!!#memorie.txt#s.chrysigil
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enzo would be worlds best big brother he loves other doggies and he knows how to play crazy with dogs that are bigger than him and play gently with dogs that are smaller than him wahhh
#gab gabs#i cant get a nother dog for a while but he would be so happy#he was so gentle with my moms 10 lb coton de tulear even tho she was scared of him at first#he also will run and play crazy with my friends aussie mix and has played with her since he was like 5 pounds#once dogs get bigger than 50 pounds he gets a bit nervous about the size discrepancy but tbh thats fine i get nervous too
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