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This is my first period since October and I've been in basically constant pain for 4 days now. PCOS is hell.
#for a few months i was taking semaglutide to treat the insulin resistance caused by my pcos but#Medicaid won't cover it for anything but full blown diabetes#so i stopped taking it last June#i haven't been able to get Medicaid to cover ANY of my meds since the end of January#so I've been going without#and I'm so tired of making a million calls and begging#semaglutide actually gave me a regular period without giving me constant diarrhea like metformin did
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The dichotomy of Brennan helping with ability score rolls for newer players:
Titan Takedown: Preps high-level base stats for the cast, with everyone having a 20 in their two most relevant ability scores and no one really having a genuine dump stat (no one's character has below a 14/+2 modifier in any ability), which allows the players to play to their class strengths and not have to worry about fucking up as much in a shorter, tighter campaign.
Fantasy High: Ally Beardsley rolls a 4 for Kristen's Dex and has to live with with the consequences of that for 6+ years
#Dimension 20#D20#Fantasy High#Titan Takedown#Just thinking about how funny it is when you look at it from the broadest possible angle#I know it's easier to have prepared high-octane PCs to make it easy for people who've never played#But without that context Brennan seeing Ally roll a -3 modifer and being like 'oh this is going to be hilarious' kills me#Ally: 'I got a low number for my dexterity but that won't matter right?'#Brennan: >:)#Seta speaks#Side note I can't remember if they rolled a 5 and dropped it to a 4 or rolled a 4 outright so disclaimer that that number might be off#top posts#EDIT: Man I've been here for like 4 months and the D20 fandom already got a post of mine to 1k this is awesome lmao
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3 years of this godforsaken show
#murder drones has genuinely shaped me so much#drawing stuff from it has been one of my greatest motivators to learn more art stuff#i've been able to iron out my interests and sense of humor due to it#i've corrupted the sekaiju discord with it#much to half the servers dismay#ive grown so attached to these characters. it was heartbreaking to see them go those months ago#who knows where i would have been without this show entering my life#wouldn't have obtained this audience without it. i owe you all that#i messed up the perspective in that one spot im posting this before i can get more upset about it#art#murder drones#murder drones uzi#murder drones v#murder drones n#serial designation v#serial designation n#murder drones j#serial designation j#a little bonus i thought of while sketching out the og poses#Tessa would've loved this.
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For moment, you are home.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#granny wen#a-yuan#wen qing#wei wuxian#wen ning#wen bin bin#Si-shu#I had hopes to post this for Valentine's day - but I chose to practice self-love and get some sleep.#Instead I am here on the day of this blog's two year anniversary to reminisce and give thanks.#Not quite about blog stuff. That's for another post. I have quite a few treats to share for this anniversary!#Rather...I've been thinking about my own relationships and the bonds I've forged and broken.#The transition between environments...when you leave somewhere and hear about how all the people you were once close with-#-have been moving on without you? It's so bittersweet.#You want to be happy for them. You wish you were at their side. You cannot be at their side.#Relationships change like the tides. They ebb and flow. Sometimes they crash so hard into the shore it reshapes it entirely.#The truth is that we are more surrounded by love than we realize. Even when we feel utterly alone - there is someone who wants to help.#And to me this scene strikes a chord in that way.#This is the reminder than even though you feel like it is all burning down around you - you are loved.#There are people who miss you. People who are so thankful for your presence in their life.#And most importantly of all. And I say this from the heart: There are people you have yet to meet.#Remember this in the darkest of days: The future is full of loves you have yet to see. The present is also full of love you forgot to see.#Another reminder to go tell someone you care about how much they mean to you today. It matters.
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Today I offer you, Double Tap. The beginning of a Resident Evil inspired Au!! ❤️🩹🩸
#Giggles.#I'm actually so nervous about posting this so i'm going straight to sleep ahah#BUT WOOO BOYYYYY#i've been rolling this idea in my head for a good long while with ideas that i'm super excited to make into reality!!#ALSO!! everyone go thank @/jackofallrabbits cause without them this would've never seen the light of day AHAH#Double Tap au#melly scribbles#FNAF#fnaf eclipse#Resident evil au#cw guns#cw blood#dca fandom#dca au
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The pylidaigh, a type of vampiric snow ghost, as imagined in folklore in and around the Highlands.
This is a ghost believed to come into being when a person dies in the snow and their body is not found before their soul (still trapped without its funeral rites) 'freezes' inside of it. The body then reanimates into a pylidaigh's twisted form. It looks like someone who slowly died of starvation, just a thin layer of flesh over bones. Its skin is as white as the snow itself, so pale it can blend seamlessly into a blizzard. Most of its body appears subtly stretched and lanky, save for its exceptionally unsubtle long, skinny arms, which drag on the ground behind it when it walks. After a big meal of blood, its belly swells like the abdomen of a tick.
A pylidaigh can only tread across snow and ice, and so doorways and windows are best kept clear of snowfall during the winter in order to prevent it from reaching inside. It mostly comes out to hunt during blizzards when there is little that can prevent it from catching its victims.
In spite of its fragile appearance, a pylidaigh is supernaturally strong, and can run at great speeds when it wants to. No mortal weapons can pierce its body, nor can any bonds known to craftsmen hold it in place. It is usually said that chains forged like iron but made out of ice can bind a pylidaigh and render it immobile, but this smithing technique remains tragically elusive to the average joe.
This ghost is either cast as a wildly dangerous but tragic figure, or one that is more simply malicious. In either case, it is described as experiencing nothing but bitter cold. It shivers endlessly. It retains distant memories of what it was to be alive, and it is motivated by a futile desperation to experience the feeling of warmth again.
In more sympathetic framings, it is described as using its freaky gibbon arms to capture its victims and pull them into an embrace, rather innocently trying to warm itself against their body. This inevitably fails, and the embrace becomes a bone crushing squeeze. When that too fails to warm the ghost, it rips out the person's throat and drinks their blood until the victim is as cold and drained as the pylidaigh itself.
In other cases, this more pitiable narrative of a ghost seeking warmth with no comprehension of its actions is discarded in favor of making it purely monstrous. Here it is a type of vampire with an insatiable thirst, practically a physical manifestation of the worst of winter itself. Some tales acknowledge both variants, suggesting a pylidaigh's violent attempts to warm itself may be initially devoid of malice, but turns into an act of furious jealousy of the warmth of the living after years of suffering.
The only (more or less) surefire method to permanently kill a roaming pylidaigh involves trapping it with fire. They are attracted to any source of heat, and will attempt to warm themselves with the flames (if not tempted away by a juicy living human body). The fire itself cannot kill them (as the sheer cold of their body is more powerful even than flame) but they can be trapped if kept near the fire long enough for the snow it depends upon to melt. This does not kill the pylidaigh either. The monster will remain in stuck in place (and potentially become a threat again if it snows more) for the duration of the winter. Only when the spring comes and all the snow melts does it revert into a normal human carcass (though mysteriously invulnerable to decay), at which point it can be cremated.
Pylidaigh in the wilds also revert to a human corpse during the snowless seasons, but will roam again each following winter unless it is burnt in the interim. It is of critical importance that any human corpse found in high mountain pasture is cremated- not only out of respect for the poor soul trapped as an earthbound ghost, but to prevent the threat of the possible dormant pylidaigh emerging next winter.
#Imagine this thing Naruto running towards you at 20 mph#This was loosely inspired by me getting hypothermia once while camping very close to a town but on a mountainside a few#miles above it. Think it would be considered moderate I knew what was happening but was very confused and disoriented#Knowing my body was too fucking cold and my heartbeat was too slow and I couldn't stop shivering#Looking down on the lights below and being like Bro I Have To Get There And Get Warm Or Am Going To DIE#I woke up from sleep while in this state which like. Thank god because otherwise I might have legit died but it felt like I was dreaming.#It was so surreal just like walking then driving towards the lights knowing I NEEDED to get there NEEDED to get warm.#I was able to drive down without getting into an accident and got to a hospital so it ended up okay and my arms didn't strecth#out like a gibbon or anything.#folklore#hill tribes#I've been working on a pylidaigh folktale for a few days but it's taking a while because I keep going back and fourth on whether#I'll write it in character voice or not
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a long but worthwhile journey
#disabled tyrant's beloved pet fish#dtbpf#tdtbpf#dtppf#li yu#mu tianchi#prince jing#crossing my fingers and hoping this posts without tumblr chewing it up and spitting it out#the canvas is like 3x bigger than what i normally work on so i'm anticipating it being blurred to hell#normally i stick to pretty strict dimensions when i know i'm just drawing something to post online#it was fun though#originally it was going to be a zine piece but since that didn't work out i've just been picking away at it#tried some things that are more ambitious than i would normally bother with so i got to stretch my art muscles a bit#there's some things i'm not satisfied with but i also feel Done With It so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#mostly it was fun to draw a ''progress'' picture though#from modern world system to lil soup carp to koi to fully human again!#li yu really is just Such A Character i find him very fun to draw in any form#(the only shame is that the man-mer form didn't get to join the party u.u)#my art
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diversity win! these two genetically modified organisms are trans, bisexual, and in love
#art#drawing#digital#trans#bisexual#nonbinary#honeybee#ocs#yarrow#grimm#my art#i think it's been a while since i've done any sort of pride thing...?#fun fact when i first designed the two of them their combined color scheme was subtly based off the nb flag#yarrow's still got his black/yellow with the bee stuff going on but grimm's purple motif color has been shifting more towards blue over tim#i think it's just bc slate blue + mustard/honey yellow have been my favorite color combo for Years so my color biases are taking effect lol#someday i will figure out. how to draw palo verde trees without fighting for my life. but not today
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spirk using telepathy to keep each other alive. kirk, desperate, psy-null and untrained, reaching clumsily into spock's dying mind and pulling, dragging spock's essence into himself, wrenching him forceably from the very jaws of death and holding him there through sheer strength of will, saying you can't die, i won't let you, you can't leave me, i need you, and binding him to life and to himself until it's impossible to fully separate them. spock, more skilled, carefully managing each one of kirk's vital signs - keeping his heart beating steady, his lungs drawing breath, his temperature within a safe range, all while suppressing kirk's pain, and at the same trying, vainly, to keep their minds from tying themselves inexorably together, but they're pressed too close and he can't, and he hopes that kirk will forgive him, for bonding them like this (he will, of course he will), but the alternative, letting kirk die, was - unthinkable.
#no matter which direction it goes the one who formed the bond feels so guilty about it because That's Marriage & they never got permission#and the other just looks at them and says “i would have married you the day we met if you'd only asked”#it works both ways because they are both so stupidly down bad#i think there's a special sort of devastation with telepathy like this because If They Fail - they have to feel the life drain away#you tie yourself to them and you know that if it doesn't work. if they die. it will feel like your soul has been torn from you#because you're in love! and in order to save them you've taken them into yourself and given yourself over to them#so when they die - they take you too. maybe not ALL of you but certainly part. neither one can die without tearing the other to shreds now#star trek#star trek tos#tos#spirk#james t kirk#spock#jim kirk#k/s#tbh i've got a fic (SLOWLY) cooking which features spock desperately holding kirk to life while bones (panicked) operates on him#(w/ some mcspirk vibes because bones is afraid that if he loses kirk he'll lose spock too but spock refuses to let go)#but i'm such a slow writer so. in the meantime here's this
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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SEVERANCE 2x10 | "They give us half a life and think we won't fight for it."
#severance#severance spoilers#severanceedit#myedits#as someone who is still pretty new to gif making i would like to whinge about the red light#it looks fabulous in the show - it is a nightmare to try and edit#that last one nearly fucking broke me i do not know how to noise-reduce any further than i have without making it look shit#because the red reflects off her face and then is actually ON her face and then asdalsdnlasknlaksasdkjk#i've seen gifs that have done it way better than this - someone teach me how to do that plz?#also i've never tried black and white and i'm not sure how i feel about it i 👏 have 👏 no 👏 idea 👏 what 👏 i 👏 am 👏 doing 👏👏#i don't think black and white really works with the flickering fireplace light tbh#but this is where we're at i guess and i'm not changing it now i need to go to bed#but also hi hello i need to yell about this show with somebody#i have no severance fans in my life and it is a PROBLEM because i need to make a lot of noise about it#i'm having a GA next week and i'm pretty concerned that i'm in so deep thinking about this fucking show that i'm going to wake up#and just instantly start talking fucking gibberish about innies and outies and ortbos and goats#apparently i woke up from a GA once and just started reciting a cookie recipe and refused to shut up#anyhow#someone come be my severance buddy because i need to discuss but fyi: i am firmly team#innie-mark/helly (but also outie-mark/helena because it's spicyyyy) and i love gemma but i'm ... okay? ... with how the season ended?#don't @ me - i contain multitudes#and for better or worse i will unapologetically chose helly in every universe#and in closing can i just say what a win this season has been for the hand-porn enthusiasts we are winning my friends#also cobel's hair looks like a bad wig for some reason okay goodnight everybody enjoy the internet
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Day 7 | Found | @sergeantsporks 's Dadrius Week
Darius watched this kid get indoctrinated, he wasn't able to stop the genocide, he didn't defeat Belos, and he never got revenge or answers. If you have all these morals, and your identity is tied to them, but you fail to see them through, who are you? Darius's legacy might have been as a villain who tore Hunter's family apart, or the Isles (and his friends, like Eda) might have seen him as a monster who stood by Belos. Darius couldn't afford to care about what people thought of him, even the people he loves, if it meant doing something. I think Darius did a lot of small things. Even if you can only save one life, you still saved a whole person.
After years of playing the game and being defined by other people, I think both of them need to find their identities again.
#the owl house#toh#darius deamonne#hunter deamonne#toh fanart#dadrius week 2025#dadrius#was thinking about why I like these two so much and I think it's because I've been both of them#i was like Hunter once and I grew into a person like Darius#I feel super helpless right now and I feel angry as a US citizen about what my country does and is#and I'm already grieving all of the work I've done being for nothing#im watching things i worked years for going down the drain and basic kindness being labelled as radical#I think Darius felt the same way#in the end Darius only could do so much. he only saved a few people. but he also gave people the tools to save others#he was able to help rescue Luz and Eda#he probably turned a lot of scouts into rebels.#he fought for years to combat Belos's actions without getting caught#and in the end nobody really sees that#his legacy is what people think of him#and maybe legacy doesn't matter.
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they've been potentially changing a lot with the shadow manga, but since maria's final words to shadow were how she loves him and amy's conversation with shadow in the joypolis collab was about how he is loved, i like to think sonic team is still hinting at amy's ability to touch his heart lol
#shadamy#the only tag i'm brave enough to add it too lol#ik we still speculatin on if the manga is meant to be canon but i think it both is and isn't lol#if only for the handful of beats the manga has that line up with dark beginnings#like sonic team can go crazy go stupid and actually make that gyoro alien a thing in the game LOL#black doom having that big of a role with maria's death is Much™#but i've personally been reading it as both black doom and gerald fcking with shadow's memories#gerald had a lot of rage towards the humans for raiding the ark in the first place#black doom is just an asshole who wants his 'greatest creation' all for himself so he used that alien to kill maria#but gerald never knew that himself and blamed gun so he altered shadow's memories without the full context#that's how i've been thinking it's supposed to go down lol#anyway here's to hoping down the road amy will still be leading shadow down brighter paths mostly unintentionally lol#that joypolis thing showed amy wanting to stand toe to toe with sonic and shadow and may she get that focus eventually 😌😌😌#vee is arting
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ur comics are very fun :3
I saw that almost tgcf is gonna get a second season/part
Is that outdated or will we get more almost tgcf comics?
Also good luck with the shop!
Thank you so much!! :D About season 2: the plan was to have it ready for... for this month (April), but I recently realized that I might have to delay it (again) because I've been informed that working at a library, taking care of a shop, and working on a webcomic with an editor are actually three separate jobs and not just me fucking around /srs. So, I've actually done all the sketches for season 2, but I'm still currently into the inking stage and going at it very slowly.
But since it's been 2 years sinc season 1, I think you guys deserve a treat, so here's a little snippet of it:
#almost tgcf#summarizing tgcf without having read any of it#you think I'm being sarcastic about me not realizing I had three jobs but I'm very serious#it had to be spelled out to me#I've been waking up taking care of my house working until midnight then go to my dayjob the next day to then fill out paperworks there#for about 2 to 3 months now#I mean it's great! I got jobs! I get paid! it's awesome!#I still thought I was a freeloader somehow imposter syndrome is strong#so yeah sorry I'm a bit slow lately because of that and also I haven't been posting much fanarts because of it too#I sketch a lot though so maybe I'll do another masterpost like last time#have been listening to a lot of audiobooks though which is cool#“you got a subscription to-” I was there when the shipped were sailed and gold was plundered I'm not giving money to the oligarchy#I will buy the books however rest assured
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they call me two the way i be timing
(ooooooo you want to listen to Honey I'm Home by Ghost and Pals sooooo badly..... charon and norman skin for two time and azure when?)
ref below cut you know the drill
dude. I wanna draw them and azure as the Matryoshka PV so badly. .... but also I wanna draw Elliot as Skeleton Orchestra and Lilia because there's literally an emote for thst ingame......oughhhhhh........
#im abnormal about this little backstabbing freak for no reason. how did this happen#why give the spy skin to n7 when there's objectively a WAY funnier option /lh#also. quickest drawing i've ever hashed out this one came in at one hour and forty five minutes??? how the fuck????#like girl i literally just got the motivation to draw this three hours ago??????#first time drawing two time be niceys cuz i don't have. headcanons to draw on them. sadly. how do i draw them they look so wrong#ALSO I COULDNT FIND THE TIMES NEW ROMAN FONT IN IBISPAINT SO I HAD TO USE THIS CORNY ASS FONT 😭#holy moly how did i ever draw without a stylus before. i had 2 go back to my fingers 4 this bc I lost my stylus and it HURTSSSSS IT CRAMPS#ok enuough yapping tag time#two time forsaken#roblox forsaken#forsaken#reallilystuffart#yeah that's probably enough right. im scared!!! why am i scared!!!!#its been a few hours since i put this into the drafts and tbh this looks like shit to me now but who cares. go my scarabs consume my art
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The different necklaces depending on who you romance. I'm missing the one where you don't romance anyone, I believe it was mentioned to be a moth as it's Swann's symbol but I haven't seen yet how it looks like.
#lost records bloom and rage#lost records#lost records b&r#dontnod#bloom and rage#swann holloway#kat mikaelsen#nora malakian#autumn lockhart#yep I still have no idea what triggers the hair difference exactly#I'm guessing is how aggressive you're overall in the game and if you go for vengeance instead of justice and similar#I've been quite aggressive in one of my playthroughs but without picking specifically the vengeance or the more rude song#so maybe it's that not sure
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