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#i hope i'll be ok.. i hope im just in a bad phase of my life rn#but every era has an ending#and i mean things have to end one way or another#the situation at home is not good#and my mom says she'll move either way next years#next year*** in the beginning....#so like... if she moves this apartment.... wont be able to be in my name#so i have to move or end up homeless :'))))#bc bc of my financial situation (im on welfare) im not allowed to apply for apartments#so when my mom applies she can add my sisters bc they have student loans and a job#but she cant add me bc when you're on welfare you arent really allowed to apply for apartments 🥴#so i wont be able to move with..........#my mom isnt evil and she doesnt want me to end up on the street lnao#lmao**#but i am worried bc the situation at home is getting worse#and they all think im a worthless bum#my mom is getting sicker and sicker of me#so honestly... i think they would let me have nowhere to go as long as they dont have to deal with me anymore#i have to finish high school bc applying for a program and getting a studen housing apartment is my only bet#that is difficult too bc finding anywhere to live in these chaotic times is hard but#there ARE ways#im just getting so fkn stressed and anxious bc time is running out for real#and i do still have untreated avpd that i've asked for professional help for years now but they dont give me any treatment#idk what to do#i dont fucking know what to do but i have to do something#i dont even wanna be alive but ending it is too painful so i wont do that either#goshhhhhhh i hate this
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Kingdom Hearts Union χ - Dwarf Woodlands
#kingdom hearts union x#khux#dwarf woodlands#scenery#my gif#i'll be tagging all my union x posts as 'my gif' but they'll all be pngs due to the lack of access i have to the actual game#i'm only able to work with backgrounds that were provided by people who were able to archive these things#so of course that might limit certain aspects of the visuals. like if there's a separate asset for fire or running water then-#those moving parts wont be present#but that's okay. as long as i can showcase the overall world and its artwork then i'm happy#because the paintings are really well made#they fit union x's simplistic art style while still providing a lot of depth and detail
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Ride 809: The selected team's wish!!

Pag 1
1: Someone is catching up
2: Who is it?
The selected team's jersey!?
4: It's someone.... I've never seen before

Pag 2
2: Sugimoto

Pag 3
1: Terufumi!!
2: Kuaaaaaa
3: Kakaka seriously?
Seriously, seriously!? Sugimoto!!
4: Oi oi....do you know, Sugimoto... that this is.... the Inter High's

Pag 4
1: that this is the Inter High's lead!!
3: Do you know him, Sohoku?

Pag 5
1: Judging from his looks, he looks like an ordinary guy. Just a guy from the selected team
The selected team is usually just here to participate, so their abilities should be nothing special
2: Yeah, he's nothing special too
4: But he's a man who
5: honestly, seriously, and without resting
6: accumulated that “nothing special” for three years

Pag 6
1: Kuaaaaa

Pag 7
1: Higashimura-san!! One person from the selected team joined the lead now!!
Eleven people... even more!!
3: He accumulated....? For three years...!?
4: Oh
6: Number 201 is Sohoku's reserve
We shouldn't need to be cautious of his power, but he's come this far so we don't let your guard down
Yes

Pag 8
1: He's so disheveled... he's out of breath... and even his hands are shaking
How did he even got this far....
2: like that!!
3: Thank you
4: Thank you everyone
6: I caught up.....!!
I caught up to the lead!!

Pag 9
1: Thanks to everyone!!
3: One minute distance!!
4: We're just one minute behind the leading group!!
Very soon!!
Hyeee..!!
5: But, do we still have time? There isn't much distance left, but can we catch up?
6: That's right

Pag 10
1: I was thinking the same thing now
3: If we raise our pace a little more now, and somehow manage to see the pack all scattered, that will mean that the race for the finish line has started and that we're already too late
5: It's a race against time now
So we'll chose one person who's confident in sprinting and send him
6: And we'll sacrifice the other five to stay ahead and pull him!!
7: Babagome!!
Yes!!
8: You said you won the local sprinting race a couple of times
Can we leave the finish line to you?
9: With all due respect!! But I refuse!!

Pag 11
1: …... huh?
2: You? Refuse?
Yeah!! We all discussed it together!!
Yeah
Hyee!!
That's right!!
3: We'll ask Sugimoto-san to be the final ace!!

Pag 12
1: Huh
A...ce!?
2: Me
Yes!!
3: That's what will get us the most pumped up!!
4: That's right!!
5: Yes!!
6: As long as it's Sugimoto-san
7: I refuse!!
8: Now, we'll raise our pace!!
9: You guys....!!

Pag 13
1: Got it!! Got it
I'll shoulder the responsibility!! I'll shoulder it!! I will!!
2: I'll be the ace!!
Please!!
4: Sugimoto-san
5: Sugimoto-san
6: Sugimoto-san
7: Get in the back and rest, Shingi. I'll pull next
Hyeee
After that, I'll be the one to pull!!
8: Let's switch!!
We'll deliver

Pag 14
1: Sugimoto-san to the lead!!
I can see the pack!!
The lead....!! But
2: Some people are leaving
3: The back is falling apart
If we don't chase them, they'll take the finish line
4: The race for the finish line is starting!!
5: Babagome!! Kobayashi!! I'll leave Sugimoto-san to you!!
Iwatani!?
6: Sugimoto-san, get in the windbreak!!

Pag 15
1: I'll accelerate at full throttle!!
2: Iwatani!? What are you....!?
Did you forget, Kobayashi? About the Kyofushi guy who's been clinging behind us
4: Keep going like this until the lead
5: …..!! Iwatani!!
6: We can't allow Kyofushi's number of assists to increase and become two people!! I'll stop this guy!!
What...? This guy....
7: is in my way

Pag 16
1: Let's accelerate in one go!!
2: What, the selected team!?
Where are they coming from!?
They caught up!?
3: Be in tiiiimee!!
5: Hyeee, I can't do it anymore
Shingi!!
6: Please go, Sugimoto-san
Uchikawa!!
7: Oooooooh
Be in timeee!!

Pag 17
1: I see the end of the pack!!
2: Ahead of here
3: there is
4: the lead!!
5: Please!!
6: Please!!
Sugimoto-san!!

Pag 18
1: Please catch up!!
Kuaaaaaa
2: Will I catch up?
Am I too late?
3: I want to reach it somehow, our goal
4: Our goal!!

Pag 19
1: Kuaaaaa
2: Those are Gunma's jerseys!! Did they leave the pack later?
3: The last thread!!
4: This is the last thread!! If I can ride here!!
Sorry, but I'll cling behind you
Sorry about it!!
5: So, what do you say? Sonomoto-chan
Well, it's alright
6: Alright, if you can keep up
Thank you!!

Pag 20
2: I.... cau.... ght.... up.... finally....
3: This is the Inter High's lead before the finish line.... everyone..... I'll do my best....!!
4: Even thought I don't have much experience for what's next!!
#yowapeda#yowamushi pedal#yowamushi pedal translations#yowapeda manga#yowamushi pedal manga#yowamushi pedal spoilers#ride 809#the chapter came extra early this week! are you happy? yay#i moved as fast as i could since i wont be able to translate this weekend#and i was lucky watanabe loves me and gave me a chapter so easy to translate lmao#AND WHAT A BEAUTIFUL CHAPTER IS IT OH GOD#I dont think i have the words to say how incredibly proud i am of sugimoto#i wanna cry IM SO HAPPY FOR HIM HE MAKES ME SO PROUD#and i know imaizumi is thinking the same bc those heart eyes cant lie#btw it makes me laugh that higashimura judges him as 'nothing soeciak' as if hes so incredibly good#boy youve done nothing so far how dare you#anyway i'm so exciteeeeed#theres so many people!!! EVERYTHING COULD HAPPEN!!#i have no idea how this will play out and im so curious#please send me your theories im curious *eyes emoji*
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rory is still dipping into adolescence and changes to the routine (eg pike returning home) are really distressing her right now and i don't have the wherewithal to hold her hand through it so I hid her breakfast kibble all around the apartment for her to sniff out, get endorphined loser
#tricking her brain into making happy chemicals so she can chill tf out#shes not even being bad shes just not able to cope#i dropped my toothbrush and found her cowering in her crate#shes the kind of dog that if she were rehomed they would assume she was abused#extremely disheartening#im seeing less of it as she moves away from peak adolescence so hopefully#once shes grown we wont see this much if at all#dogblr#about aurora#dog enrichment
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Love having the desire to Do Shit but just no motivation or drive so im sitting here switching apps instead of doing anything meaningful
#or rather#i have a vague desire to Do A Thing but that Thing is very complex and#idk what smaller Sub Thing i should be focusing on#like yea dude you wanna Reconnect and Learn Culture but you gotta decide between reading book. reading language resources. or whatever idek#i go on facebook and read posts from cherokee friends and act like thats Reconnecting like bro you gotta say shit at some point#idk. feeling kinda stuck#and i gotta stop expecting a clear sense of Progress cuz it doesnt seen to work like that#i keep thinking 'oh i wont touch this aspect of the culture until [whatever]'#until i can talk the language until i have an actual community until im invited until until etc#which is fine i know there are lots of things that a reconnector shouldnt just dive into.#so i feel like im sorta waiting for shit to come to me / to be invited sometimes#ugh. i need to get back on the cherokee language coursesm#i keep falling off and then not taking the exam when im p sure ill be able to pass it easily at this point#ugh. anyway. im trying. just gotta keep moving#i think once i finish this carving im gunna get my clay back out and try to get back on pottery
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on forgetting impossible things
dear all trick or treaters by me // litany in which certain things are crossed out by richard siken // once more to see you by mitski // dirty valentine by richard siken // mitski on puberty 2 // pinterest // divination by me // time moves slow by badbadnotgood // ago by nick flynn // fireworks by mitski // dear c. by kelly caldwell
#poetry#web weaving#mitski#richard siken#mine#theres just something about#not being able to love someone and missing them deeply but it wont work out so u have to force urself to move on but u cant#“im afraid of the speed which everything is replaced” like yeah. yeah#i dont want to move on but also i need to but also i cant let go#oh crush by richard siken we're really in it now
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Finally using up the oregano stalks I dried the last time I moved house. I let them sit in the dyepot for a couple days on a low heat and then another day or so while I tried to figure out what to use it on. Settled on the recently frogged bulky sweater yarn, since 1) it's white which is really the only color I will never make a sweater out of, so any other color would be a distinct improvement, and 2) I don't really know what color dried oregano stalks give, especially 18 month old ones.
Mordanted with copper directly in the dyepot with the dye. I've been throwing in one skein at a time to try and get some variety. First one seems to have come out light brown after just a couple hours in the pot, so I'm hopeful I can dye all the skeins, and maybe some of the ones I leave in longer will get darker. Light brown is fine tho. Goes well with dark brown, which is the other color I've already got for this sweater, from the Jacob's fleece part.
I also finally finished plying the last of the yarn. I spun all the old rolags and had partly plied it when I gave up on my wheel. Came back to it only because my roommates moved my wheel and the drive band (cotton at the time) came off. I put my old drive band (rubber ? Idk, stretchy grippy plastic) back on and it spins way better than it had been.
This doesnt surprise me a ton, I had suspected that I was having an exceptionally hard time treadling bc the yarn was clearly just sliding along the wheel rather than turning the flyer sometimes. Im glad this helped, I can kind of spin again on it now that it takes less effort. Not much, but at least enough to ply a hundred yards or so. Idk how much longer that'll last. Maybe I could still use my floor loom, too. Of course, I would have to finish warping it to try 🙄.
#really hoping the partially threaded warp will survive moving#also hope the loom will survive moving. the front roller is super fucked up and i never did figure out why#it just falls off sometimes#also did a little more packing and took down my foldable desk so i could relocate the boxes there which has been nice#and was able to finally see if the height works with my powerchair which it does !!! yay#now i will need a new desk for the computer but wont need a table for prepping food which i was stressing abt#natural dyeing#oregano stalks#spinning#bfl cross
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scored a house with cheaper rent, in an extremely walkable part of the city, has a unique layout, and will be living with my bf can i get a Hell Yeah !!!!!!!!
#moving in september !!!!!!!#ill be living with 3 other people and theyre moving in during june#so i'll be able to slowly move my stuff over until my lease is up#and im so happy about the area its in its really cute and extremely walkable and theres a ton of cool stuff nearby bc its close to downtown#and theres a bus line to my job :'3#i wont have to worry about buying a car anymore!!!!!!!! no more stress!!!!!!#only getting out of debt stress and thatll#be easy since im not trying to save a ridiculous amount of money at the same time#everything is coming up for me things will be really really good soon
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The forces of E.V.I.L. invade a shopping mall!
God, I just love drawing the goofs being silly, it’s like putting them in their natural habitat lmao
Eclipses design is still a wip, hence the full body elf costume, but I’m liking where he’s going so far!
I can’t wait to share more about these guys, I think I’m going to make an ask blog about them once the main fellas’ designs are finished! (So far the only ones left are Eclipse and The Boss, Ehehe)
[ID: A Magma drawing of Solar Flare, Bloodmoon and Eclipse from the Working for E.V.I.L. Au running through a shopping mall with stolen presents and Christmas decor. Bloodmoon is located on the far right, he is a red animatronic wearing a twin tailed jester hat covered in snowflakes, multiple belts, a ripped sleeveless shirt, devil horns and a long split tongue. He tilts his head back with a close-eyed, devilish smile as he squeezes a piping bag of icing straight into his mouth, he holds a present beneath his arms. In the middle is Solar Flare, a boxy orange and yellow robot with triangular shoulder pads and bent sun-like rays. They wear a set of deer antlers on a headband, as well as a small red nose. In their arms is a stack of wrapped presents that tip over. Their expression is blank, but they keep their eyes on the toppling over stack. To the far left is Eclipse, an orange and brown animatronic with small, thin rays placed between his larger ones. He wears a green and red elf costume, a black turtleneck sweater beneath, and a necklace that holds a star pendant. He looks horrified, as sweat drips down his face, he carries a large brown sack over his shoulder. Each character is outlined in white, in the background is a large Christmas tree and a visible second layer of the mall, with large display windows lining it. /End ID]
#the Sun and moon show#TSaMS#sams bloodtwins#tsams bloodmoon#sams bloodmoon#sams eclipse#tsams eclipse#tsams solar flare#sams solar flare#working for e.v.i.l. bloodmoon#working for e.v.i.l. solar flare#working for e.v.i.l. eclipse#working for e.v.i.l. au#my art#the sillies#love my boys#although I’m worried a bit about The Bosses’ design#They have a lot of moving parts so to speak#I’m worried that he’s gonna take more trial and error#or that I wont be able to accurately portray how they work in my head#but bah#we’ll burn that bridge when we get there
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Guess who's the newest Shift Leader at Dunkin??!? It's me!!
#im moving in two weeks so ive been trying to find a job desperately#i have my current job that i get to keep remotely for 16 hours a week#but that wont pay the bills. it will be nice to have the extra income tho#itll account for like $800 a month which is rent and a couple bills. thats fantastic#and then this full time job will be great to have for all the rest. and saving up money#cant wait to be able to save money. thatll be nice#but today im filling out the onboarding paperwork and sending over my identification!!#and its only a 20 minute drive from my apartment!!#there were a couple of jobs i was looking at that were like 45-60 minutes away#not ideal but its a small area so jobs arent super abundant#so i got pretty damn lucky with this. im so excited. i have a job!!!!!!! can you believe???????#its a weight off my chest. like there was an elephant sitting there. and now theres not#things might be bad right now but at least i have two jobs and an apartment#god bless two jobs and an apartment#and tbh my office job has sucked for my adhd. food service worked a lot better. so im glad to get back into it#yippee yippee yay!!
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girl i had huge crush on in school who was a very good friend to me she's so smart and wonderful and kind just told me she's proud of me for inquiring about a breast reduction i literally started crying what the absolute fuck I'm so gay and so deprived of love in my daily life what the fuck kck .?? HELLO??
#yknow when your whole body freezes bc youre struck with the realization people SEE you and CARE about you#my fightflightFREEZE kicked in so hard all i could do was cry and pretend to act chill texting back sowkwowkwl#at one point i thought abt going through gender affirming means for a reduction (vs plastic surgery) but THATS ILLEGAL NOW <33333#😃😃😃😃😃😃😃#THIS IS WHERE I VENT NOW OK PLEASE BLOCK THE NOT TS TAG LMFAO#not ts#me @ myself: girl this is not the time or place#also me: IAOAKQKW 🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🫨🫨🫨😭😭😭‼️‼️😭😭🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🫨🫨⁉️⁉️#like I'm proud of myself too :)#i wish I'd done it sooner like everyone told me to. like this has been a reality for me since i was 12 or 13#when ppl talk about me they always mention my boobs. family friends teachers peers#at a funeral for a loved one when im 13 and an elderly relative brings up breast reduction surgery#but i was so scared (i have a surgery phobia and also extreme control issues when it comes to my body/safety) that i put it off#and now i am forced to be stagnant or else i cripple myself. which is a life i dont want to live#i dont want to lie in the floor unable to move bc my sciatic nerve is crushed btwn vertebrae.#crying hysterically bc i think ive paralyzed myself and there's no one to help me#being unable to dance or play volleyball or lift weights again.#i want to run :( for the first time since i was 8 i want to be able to run..#and that's just medical stuff. chronic pain stuff#that's not delving into gender identity or how this has destroyed my mental health in 7 billion ways since puberty#turning 25 this is the 1st time i feel like an adult and a Person. & i realize i need to accommodate myself & my own happiness#if i want to enjoy the life i have.#like i cant keep procrastinating my life#for a long time i've been like “my life just feels like procrastinating suicide” & that's very true. & i dont want to live that way anymore.#it's time i do things for myself. because i'm the only one who can. i can't live for other ppl anymore. it's destroying me.#this went off the rails sorry#i just wanted to make a quirky post abt the gay experience but it's much deeper than that and#i wont un-deep my thoughts and feelings for an internet post :) i am real & messy & multifaceted and#i seek for others to See me :)
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even tho i am not always at my best and i have flaws and a lot of sensitive painful spots i deserve love and happiness i deserve to have my needs met if they are not thats not my personal failing or because i dont deserve it i deserve love i deserve happiness i deserve care i deserve affection
#i need to to repeat these things frfr or im never gonna believe it#and if i cant believe it i wont be able to move the way i want ill keep being so raw and erratic and pained#iont need that#i show out about little shit situationship shit but its deeper#i do not believe that i deserve care and so i act in ways that reject it or get weird about it#imma do better#fake it till i make it fr
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i have started to think about a future this year which is inarguably a good thing
#caught myself like oh maybe i can make a ham for next years christmas party#(predicated on my having moved by then to be able to host my friends)#so many things can and will have changed by then and it wont all be for the better but.#maybe i'll be eating my own leftover ham out of my own fridge#wouldn't that be something.#i think my thirties will be about moving out of survival into living. i really hope so.#momo talks
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me batting my eyelashes at my gf because i wanna be engaged so bad
#but we prob wont b able to for a while because of money with moving and stuff#BUT HOPEFULLY IN A COUPLE YEARS I JUST WANT A RING SO BADDDD#and also i wanna propose to her#but she wants to propose to me.#the lesbian dilemma
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OH YEAH BTW AS A MINI PSA
I HAVE COMMISSIONS OPEN‼️‼️‼️
im gonna be moving for schooling in like less than a week so it would be super super awesome if i could get some extra funds for that !!!
my prices , examples and form can be found here!
reblogs are appreciated !!!! thank u!!!
(ill be taking about this on my art acc too eventually when i find time ! this post is just for those who follow this acc)
#ill definitely rb this when my slots are closed#hopefully ill be able to get these done quickly either before i leave or after#i wont be doing too much after i move so ill have a good chunk of time where im passing time#this isnt urgent or anything either just as a reminder i suppose!!!!!! i have comms lol#link's lectures
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adding to the bug miq pile. i want him to be centipede like. crawls around and skitters. has an astel esque grab attack. when hes talking sometimes he clicks his mandibles together
#er blogging#also kinda wasp like bc deltas influence . the parasitic wasp aspect is awesomes#doodle#i wanna add. more to this. but i have work :( and then tomorrow i move so i wont be able to draw
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