#so it's a power struggle

[brennacedria]

I'm having Elissa brainworms about the blight in south during veilguard. Not sure if I'll get beyond dialogue, but it's too much for a banter post. Not sure how to handle this.

[dimeadozencows]

A few dumb ideas I had for a bit hehe

[wanologic]

always good to keep a screamhole handy

[bugssolarsystem]

They should require an actual wheelchair user to come test if a place is actually accessible before they are allowed to call it wheelchair accessible

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The Murderbot TV show is finally here!

[horrorjerk]

jester of breath - one who distracts with breath or distracts breath.

[parksrway]

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[the---hermit]

I am not saying here's a link to a free online version of the 1984 graphic novel but if it was there you should probably go read it.

[thestarfishface]

“There is no platonic explanation for thi-“ Sprays u with water. Sprays u

[inkskinned]

even 2 years ago people still said autism with a whisper. it was also how people sometimes whisper lesbian, like they're afraid of uttering a slur. autistic was either an insult or it was something terrible, a horrible burden only select people endure. "select people" were usually 9 year old boys and skinny white men.

they are not hispanic young adults with a dog and a life and friends. i can make (sustained, calculated, painful) eye contact. with certain people, i don't even have to count how many seconds i am holding their vision - i can just look at them. i can wear clothes that bother me, i will just have a worse day than usual. i might cry about any changes to my schedule - but change is scary! this is normal!

when i was 16 it was OCD. i mean that was the thing everyone said. i totally have ocd. they would arrange 6 colors of gel pen in rainbow order (no worry for indigo feeling left out) and they'd be "so ocd" about it.

if you struggle with intrusive thoughts, be careful at this next paragraph, but. at 16 i developed a compulsion that involved self-harm. my ocd was convinced i was simply forgetting that i'd hurt someone terribly - a thought that persisted for no clear or delineated reason.

at some point i will probably write about how the idea of "morally pure thoughts" was hell for me and others with ocd, but this was the odd dichotomy for many of us: they liked our "aesthetic", but were genuinely repulsed by our lived experience. "intrusive thoughts" now means "cutting your hair in the sink" instead of talking yourself down from believing horrible things. "so ocd" is a label without any true understanding.

it's something i've talked about before - in multiplicity - but i firmly believe in the veracity and necessity of self-diagnosis. i think it saves lives and it saves tragedies from occurring. as someone raised in a house that wasn't safe, self-diagnosis was, for many years, the only viable option. 15 and honestly googling: am i depressed or are there demons affecting my behavior.

but it is not genuine self-diagnosis anymore, most of the time. it is a strange, blanched version of that whispered word autism. now certain traits are constantly seen as "autistic" - any passing intense interest. any flubbed social interaction. people say it while laughing - a touch of the 'tism.

and i like the acceptance! i do. i like that people are talking about it. i like that if i self-identify, more people speak up and say me too, bitch. but there is something-else quietly happening, the way it happened to OCD. the quirky, "fun" parts have been washed and sanitized and removed of all suffering. now it is just something that makes you "a little bit silly."

it took me 27 years on this planet before i learned to make friends. something about me just seems incredibly odd, i guess, some kind of radiation monitoring. someone once (in a way that was almost friendly) told me i am doing the right things, but in a way that's off-putting. i have scoured myself raw attempting to be charming.

someone on tiktok does a deep dive into their particular passion. the top comment says "what kind of autism is this lol". like we are a breed of animal. like it has no influence on our experience. like our life is a fresh breeze, an open meadow.

more often for me, life was a drowning.

[incessantlark]

i just wanted to draw them holding hands

[rohirric-hunter]

You guys do realize that we NEED Barnes & Noble, right? Support your local bookstores but understand that if Barnes & Noble goes under that WILL destroy traditional publishing. Which will also eventually destroy your local bookstores too. Used books aren't some kind of infinite resource that just kind of spawns in the world. They have to come from somewhere. And like, yeah, I hate the big publishing companies too, but unless you have something locked and loaded to set up in their place or are just really enthusiastic about Kindle exclusives and Amazon print on demands, maybe keep your mouth shut. I'm not even saying you have to shop at Barnes & Noble but you do gotta stop actively wishing for its downfall

[puckpatties]

sammy's slumber party have a bitchin' time

[4dogs-in-a-trench-coat]

The funniest thing about g13 wanting to be real is that if he gets out of the vhs tape he will be going from a world where dogs can talk and drive cars and where his crazy tech skills lets him make a lunar powered car that can reach 5000 mph to our very real boring world

Like good luck living in a 100 year old body in a world with real consequences

[is-that-sand-in-my-waffles]

I'm going to need the Thunderbolts to maintain this energy about all their teammates going forward:

[safftums]

a bit of reassurance for anyone who needs to hear it:

shaming yourself for your vore thing is unproductive and ultimately hurts you. don’t call yourself cringe or whatever. genuinely just enjoy what you do, sincerely, without having to drench yourself in a layer of “haha noooo it’s okay i know it’s badwrong” irony.

literally, of all the fetishes in the world, vore isn’t going to hurt anyone because we all know cannibalism is wrong, and soft vore is impossible irl.

nothing has been healthier for me than embracing being weird. be free. be weird. eat bitches. whatever.