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mitahanvittua · 2 years ago
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u know im like 99% sure i have ocd? my old psychologist made some tests for me but also told me that i probably wouldnt be diagnosed since i dont have any compulsions (which ive now realized isnt actually true!! rumination is a compulsion!!!) and since my symptoms kinda fluctuate and i do have like long (like actually long periods when i feel like 96% alright (-> when im ok i will have intrusive thoughts but the anxiety isnt as high and im able to stop the ruminating before it even properly begins) idk if it actually counts as OCD or if im just an anxious person with some ocd-like symptoms
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gomzdrawfr · 3 days ago
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wrote out plans and stared at my calendar, putting my hands together and mutter a quiet "you do need a break"
#i am#insanely bad at time management#ive been actively burnt out since 2025 i think#i have the mindset and ideas as the 19 y/o me but energy and productivity of late 20s#meaning. my current hands and energy can't keep up the expectations and hype of the better past me#but both of me hope. and that's where it's going downhill#LMAO#I talked with my mom#very hard talk. lots of tears involved. but I just gotta work harder#its a weird feeling bcuz im actively sabotaging and healing myself what the hell man#really /really/ need to shake off the guilt of doing nothing and the habit of doing everything so i don't feel like im lagging behind#it feels like im being swallowed every day#idk what doing but i know what im doing#im self aware but im not enough#GRAH#long story short. im going to FORCE MYSELF to let go a few things and take shit one step at a time#AND STOP. JOINING. MORE. OBLIGATIONS.#burnt the contract and prob pissed off my boss but we balling#i think i just dont want to feel#dont want everything to catch up#but that just leads to accumulation and when i do stop and pause everything just crash over#with an intensity that i cannot bear but have to sit it through#being in 20s is weird....i thought it would be easier...in same capacity it is but other times no....#doesn't help with the *gesture* current state of things too#im sorry i dont mean to vent but. im. idk just felt like sharing#to more people than i should bcuz duh its gomz#ASDHGK#anyways i will now forget about this by inhaling my sushi plate#having inari set :3#gummmyspeaks
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pencilofawesomeness · 7 months ago
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Which member of Team Natsu do you think would be the most challenging for a bad guy to hold captive?
The woman who casually rips holes in the fabric of time and space on the daily? The man who can freeze anything he looks at? Or the girl who gets her power by breathing?
(Assuming anti-magic devices aren’t in play)
oooooo Anon you have given me a mental treat with this one XD
Magic suppression is definitely a game changer, though without it (even assuming the mage in question isn't magically drained/exhausted, and possibly kept that way) I think the power of heavy duty materials still go a long way.
That said, my answer would have to be Erza. She's a tank *and* a swiss-army knife. There's no way she can't summon the exact armor or weapon needed for the job... even if the weapon in question is just lock-picks. There's no way to plan for her vulnerabilities without knowing her entire inventory. Now, there might be a way to circumvent this by simply giving her no room to summon anything or available hand to use it, though it's hard to say if Erza would still be able to, say, displace a bunch of chains by summoning armor in-between them and her body. Since she requips directly onto herself anyway, her control is proven to be immaculate. Plus she's just all around scary and badass XD
Next in line of difficulty might actually be Wendy. Her buffs and enchantments can be a game-changer, and as you mentioned, she can pretty much always have access to her element. (Though I do imagine that, say, some dank dungeon wouldn't be that magic-rich sky so I wouldn't really count on that as a big boost.) Although wind itself might not be that effective if any metals are in play. It would mostly be the array of enchantments, whether that means giving herself an inhuman strength boost previously unexpected or enchanting up a debuff on whatever is holding her. (However to this point, baby Wendy as we know her might not be this versatile yet.)
Gray is close in my internal ranking, because he can make anything, but unlike Erza he has to *make* it, and if he doesn't have both hands available, then it might not be as sturdy. Plus there's stuff that won't break from the cold, and would be more durable than ice in a clash. They might have to get a certain type of alloy/material to withstand the flash-freeze, but honestly Gray doesn't have as much raw strength as Erza or Natsu anyway so there's still the breaking issue.
Natsu is definitely a beast of a guy but if he's up against fireproof and highly durable materials then he would be out of luck. (And they might have to be magicked to be fireproof, but I think that's fairly doable.) Once the brute-forcing option fails he's a bit cooked.
Then poor Lucy is really easy if you get her away from her keys. The trick might be if somebody like Virgo or Loke summons themselves to mount a rescue, but that also falls into any Fairy Tail rescue which could apply to all of them. (And I'm assuming that if she's separated from her keys then locating her would be tricky.)
Oh and Happy and Charle would also be really easy to hold captive. Poor little guys.
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holmsister · 1 year ago
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Kinda gets me when people age them down in AUs and stuff because to me those characters wouldn't be half as interesting if Chilchuck, Senshi and Mithrun were the tallman equivalent of in their twenties
#just something about having a lot of history you know#like. chills is divorced or thereabouts. senshi spent like 30 years living in dungeon wilderness. mithrun knows kabru's mom#none of this would be possible if they were 20-somethings#dungeon meshi spoilers#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#somewhat i guess#like. yeah kabru and laios and falin (and marci for an elf) are really young BUT have a lot of life exp#but like. the fact that so much happened to them while they are so young is TRAUMA. its BAD#meanwhile chilchuck had like. a pretty average life for a halffoot his age. maybe even successful from a professional standpoint#senshi didnt have an average life but had the time to accumulate an amount of knowledge no 20something could have#and of course mithruns whole life story is like. slowed down because hes an elf#but even then i think its really important to show that it might take several years to start recuperating from a traumatic event#like its what makes his character such an interesting commentary on disability and depression#when you're 25 bouncing back is easier. when you're 40? 50? showing that theres hope#even when you've lost your whole youth to your pain... thats a whole other thing#sorry i started writing serious commentary in the tags#chills#captain mithrun#senshi#even in senshis character up to a point. he spent more years out of society than in it#and YET! even he manages to find a place. somewhat#like. they are all here to show that life goes on even after horrible or simply sad shit happens to you#they are survivors!!!! thats important
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scituss · 19 days ago
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bmpmp3 · 1 month ago
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vaguely speculating on the vocal synthesis industry like its fantasy football completely unprompted: if somehow either synthv or cevio managed to get a hold of nurse robo type t for a commercial AI voicebank i think that would usher in her era fully. we're already basically there with how much her talk banks and occasionally her utau banks are used in so many songs..... i keep saying this but i think the nurse robo era is nigh..........
#i mean this not in a vocaloid6 haterism way but i dont think her getting a v6 bank would give her much original song usage popularity#like i dont really hate v6. its a little expensive for me for its quality rn. but i like hearing others use it and see what they do!#but straight up i see so few original songs using v6 banks. like im actively looking im not joking where are they#i liked that one tsuina v6 demo song by eo a lot i thought v6's vocoder worked well with an odd piano tune like that#but i barely see any v6 originals its crazy. im going deep in vocadb. im doing boolean searches across the internet...#actually there is a few exceptions - i see a lot of kazehikiv6 originals. una too. sometimes gumi but not as often anymore#i dunno maybe its hard to mix v6 voices? it lowkey sounds hard to mix in my humble onion orz#actually the more i use cevio/voisona the more i understand why its so popular for japanese original song producers#i dunno it has a speedy workflow + a sound that works well for japanese pop music i think#i would love type t on either software but i do think shed do fantastically in synthv2 because of how much that software thrives in#whispery breathy vocals. i think shed sound great. cevio seems more likely tho. or. cough.#something that rhymes with bace budio. but recently theyve been burning more bridges so maybe we're safe. maybe.#of course id personally also love a diffsinger or neutrino or i dunno. voicevox song. no one ever makes voicevox song banks.......#but the commercial software is easier to use and especially for original songs: u can use em in ur dawwww#of course i say all this but i dunno if type t's management is like. active.#im just saying all this because nurse robo type t keeps whispering in the background of half the new songs ive been into recently#so shes on my mind LOL
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orcelito · 3 days ago
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LARPing as a productive and clean adult is Going Well! Cleaned and set up the cat food/water station, then cleaned their litter box (and even SWEPT afterwards!!!!). Also brought in all the new stuff, & the dishes r set aside for now, but i went and washed all the towels... and FOLDED them after!!! And for the kitchen towels I bought, i even set one out in the kitchen!!! Hung on the handle of the oven like a normal person!!!! I may even dry my hands after using the kitchen sink instead of just letting them drip dry or wiping them on my clothes!!!!!
Having in-unit laundry is helping a Ton honestly. While my previous apartment had the laundry room in-building and it was next to my unit so I didnt even have to walk far for it, I still had to worry about quarters and all that business. And about grabbing my clothes from the washer and dryer as soon as they were done. It was an entire Production every time. But now, I can just toss some shit in the wash and get to it when I get to it. Still don't want it to sit for more than a few hours at the most in the wash, but theres still wiggle room!! And i did a 2nd load for blankets, put them in the dryer... and now im in bed!! Blankets still in the dryer, bc it doesnt matter!!! I will fold them tomorrow and they can stay in there for now. And since I don't have to pay per cycle, if my clothes arent entirely dry after the cycle ends, I can just put them in for a little bit longer!!!! No longer have to fucking hang dry my clothes on my bathroom shower curtain rod the rest of the way!!! Dry clothes every time!!!!!!
It's freeing. It makes it a lot easier to Do Stuff. And it's really really nice.
#speculation nation#i also did a little rearranging of my furniture in my spare bedroom. it rly does accomplish the vibes well#of being functionally a spare/guest bedroom while also being a. study of sorts. im mostly gonna use it for stuff i dont want my cats#to bother me for. like lego building or if i pick up dice making. also so i can keep plants that are mildly toxic to them#never gonna keep anything that could outright kill them just in case they do manage to get in#but there r loads of plants that can make cats sick if they eat them that i couldnt easily keep. bc tally is a fucking plant eater#and june likes to chew on anything in front of her. sometimes this includes plants.#but there r plants id LIKE to keep that would make them sick... like geraniums#which wont kill a cat but will make them sick if they eat it. and so having it sectioned off where the cats arent supposed to get to it#is the best way to accomplish that. also i can probably keep some plants outside. i DO have a table out on my patio for this now#it used to be my coffee table and then TV table. but it's a metal and glass table. i think it was originally intended to be an outdoor tabl#it served its makeshift jobs well. but now i own a proper coffee table. so the outdoor table is now where it belongs. outdoors.#im like legit nervous about anyone trying to steal it bc theres rly nothing stopping someone from it if they decide to.#but it's been a solid day and a half and it's still there... a good sign... and it'd be less likely to be stolen if it's got plants on it..#anyways my goals for tomorrow will be to do another run from my apartment (since i didnt do that today)#including packing up my plants (i just left them in the windowsills there lol) and bathroom essentials and kitchen stuff#i also wanna sort out my kitchen Here. which will include clearing the counters of boxes and lego sets#bc i just kinda dropped them in there so theyd be out of the way. but now i dont have open counterspace. kinda cramping my style.#my current dish drying rack is kinda... grody. so im gonna assess whether i think it's reasonably salvageable.#clean it if so. toss it and get a new one if not. and in the meantime i can set dishes to dry on a towel laid out on the counter#but to do THAT. well i need counter space. and thus it comes full circle. id like to make it easier to wash dishes.#tho to set the lego sets elsewhere i need to have my furniture positionings finalized. at least somewhat.#so furniture arranging... also a goal... AND ALSO i need to head to home depot to buy some boxes and look at shower heads#im a busy bee!!!! so much to be done!!!! and this past day was mostly a rest day. didnt wanna leave my apartment.#but my 'rest' day was still spent doing a lot of cleaning and arranging things 😂😂 but it's kinda wild how much im able to do#like theres still SO MUCH to be done. but im doing it. i feel like im getting peeks into what it's like to be neurotypical.#cant stay up much longer tonight if i wanna make the most of tomorrow... i ALSO wanna go bowling lol#if im feeling up to it. we'll see.#i also trimmed my nails today and took a nap :3 im keeping busy and taking care of myself.#not been on tumblr much bc of it all but i shall continue to chat about what ive been up to. bc im proud of what ive accomplished.
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cartoonghosts · 1 month ago
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how am I both unspeakably beautiful and incredible and also never enough or never the right person. Come onn im so close why cant i have the one damn thing I want
#The thing he refers to is to be able to magically solve all or some of his friends problems#I feel like im cursed with always being slightly less than whats needed#Im gorgeous im kind im gentle im sweet#But I am not gentle enough and I am not sweet enough and I am not gorgeous enough and I am not kind enough#And i know its just- different people need different people#But something in my soul wants so badly to be the answer for everything#I think its cause ive experienced it- my qpp is so deeply in love with me#Hes always said that the reason he didnt talk much abt his mental health with me when he was struggling was bc#It felt like I was an oasis like i took away the pain or struggle and just by being there made stuff easier#Im his person im his answer to everything and it feels so so nkce#I dont have to agonize over how to help him because I know he just wants me#No matter what no gift i give him or words I say or event I plan will be better thsn just being there and talking to him or watching a show#Or hell just fucking playing like cats on his bed#I think my first healthy friendship being with him really messed up my perspective#Because now I see people tslking sbout how they need x or wish x person was here and part of me is like#'Oh I can be thst. Im perfect let me be that'#And like yes I am incredible bjt I am incredibly at myself#I am a perfect Blackberry and unfortunately a lot of my friends thougj they love me#Do not need a perfect Blackberry#They judt need someone else#And thst part of me hasnt yet managed to wrap its head around thst concept#That we're incredible and beautiful and lovely because we are us#And thst also becajse we are us we will not be perfect for everyone#Its not podsible and thst little part of me judt like. Stomös its foot and screams thst it idnt fair#It isnt! I wish I could be the person to hwkp everyone with everything#But trying to warp myself into what I think migjt be perfect for them 1) idnt healthy and 2) wont work longterm#I judt need to stay Blsckberry and even if im not who they need#They still have me and I will still do anything for them#Blackberry accept that being everyones perfect soulmate is not actually possible challenge level impossible
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arionaleilani · 4 months ago
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hello hey howdy hi. i'm sorting through my projects from the past few years and establishing where i'm at with them and what next steps for them are. i'm scheduling hours to write more consistently (creating "shifts" for me to clock in/out for, essentially) because i know how my brain works and i know approaching it as an actual job of sorts with stricter hours is what i need, at least right now, to kickstart my brain into being productive again. this will likely change once i'm back in the groove of things and finding balance again, but this is what my head needs for now, so it's what i'm gonna do.
once i've sorted through everything, reorganized it and have a game plan crafted, i will recreate my writeblr intro post and start making new wip posts for the projects that i decide to work on finishing first. so that'll be cool! i miss being more active in my writing and posting about it like i was in 2023. last year slowed me down and the start of 2025 has been kicking my ass, but hey, i turn 25 on the 15th and i've been saying i want to be published before i turn 26, so i'm gonna work on that and make some god damn progress on shit.
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mezimraky · 5 months ago
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been doing lil things on our minecraft server and it's. so nice. to have these tiny projects that add up to big things. i made a flower farm. then i decided to build a greenhouse around it. then another day i changed the shape of it up so it would work better. then another day i shaded it. then, today, months after starting, i filled it in with a bit more greenery on the inside. next time i'm going to add the quirky scientist set-up ladders and hanging bed included. it's going to be lovely!!
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lifesupreme-if · 1 year ago
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desperately relying on backing up my documents from here on out because my laptop does a hard reset every time it restarts now and so it doesn't save ANYTHING and ate my prologue rewrite
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eebie · 8 months ago
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played DTI with the boss and i]t was really fun
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vriskabot · 1 year ago
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purpldawne · 1 year ago
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oh yeah uhhhh rikapure update 😭😭😭 i got halfway thru the boots before running out of e6000 so i am currently stuck until i can get some more. rn the only thing i really need to do once the boots are finished is the back bow thingy and then im done
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chatpileroan · 1 year ago
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YAAAAAAY i decided to see how fast i could do a full run of ds3 to get the link the first flame achievement since im trying to 100% the game and Needed a run where i dont have to keep like lists of shit and track of quests i was like UNGA BUNGA RUN. we get a BIG STICK. and we HIT THINGS WITH IT. and they DIE. reinforced club that i didnt even max out, no clothes except some tattered pants, no levels in anything but vigor, stamina, strength, and a dream.
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nexus-nebulae · 1 year ago
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Ive gotten so used to not being able to play most games bc of my hands and reaction time n stuff so ive basically gotten used to hitting a ceiling in a game where i can't play normally anymore and need to use assists/cheats so every time i find a game that i Don't need to do that for whenever it ends im just like wait huh thats it???
#cannot decide if Jusant was too short or it's just more accessible than I'm used to so i was able to blaze through it-#either way i would love another game with mechanics like Jusant the climbing was so fluid and satisfying#i thought with my directional confusion n shit i wouldn't be able to get it#but i got a controller and the joysticks and trigger buttons REALLY help with that somehow???#and i managed to get to a point where i was just spidering up walls in seconds#i wanna play more so im actually kind of glad i missed collectibles#this is why you dont 100% run on your first playthrough so you have More Fun to have with it later#i play most games for The Movement (something i Very Much Cannot Do A Lot Of irl) bc its satisfying to Zoom#and that game just has a really solid climbing mechanic its so fun#and so easy to like. make it easier on yourself somehow.#like using pitons to anchor yourself halfway up a wall and then just rappel down to the previous ledge#to regain stamina and then just reel yourself back up to that anchor and keep going#or you can use a piton to just dangle and assess your surroundings#as well as stamina doesnt drain unless you're in motion or under duress (like from weather) so you can pause and look around#plus it's just very fun to climb up this big ol stack and look down and see Wow! I Fuckin Did That!#bc each section is just one real big map so you can fall from top to bottom (of each section)#if you could fall i dont think. the game lets you#cause i tested and if you're not tethered you just do not walk off ledges#which is also nice i like that too it makes me less anxious
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