#so yeah and just reiterating again...idk okay

[cosmicswritings]

while megatron is a natural carrier and has carried many times in his life, starscream isn't, has never carried and it's not something he can naturally do, even though he wants to do it. in a lot of my aus, esp my tfp aus, the two of them run into a lot of trouble when they get together regarding starscream and carrying. it's weird to him because seekers don't ever carry, they are great sires- he's carried with seekers before during the war and even a bit after. And like all seekers, megatron just realizes starscream can't carry naturally, but it's still a desire of his and while megatron has only ever carried, he doesn't mind siring for starscream just because of how close they are. or at least, attempting to. starscream has to get a lot of procedures done to do it, many failed and unsuccessful. It's a first for siring for megatron too but he wants to do it with starscream.

the point of this little fic and running au of mine is that, while starscream has so many difficulties carrying, megatron is there for him. with every failed procedure and how depressed starscream is, he tells starscream about his own experiences to make him feel better. starscream eventually asks about it, how it feels, what it's like, emergence, etc. and when things don't work for starscream the first few times, megatron is always there to encourage him, and he convinces starscream not to give up.

eventually, things do work out and starscream is able to carry multiple times, but starscream enjoys hearing a lot about megatron's experiences. Starscream also listens carefully to what Megatron says about his past. He had many relationships where he was happy with his partners, and he carried and he and those sparklings are in close contact, but there are some more somber stories, where Megatron's sparklings were taken away from him when he was in the mines, where he was only used as property to produce more miners and he's lost those sparklings. Or where shortly after he had his sparklings, his partners took them from him no trusting him to be a good carrier (during the war)

Obviously, Starscream takes it upon himself to track down megatron's missing children, the ones he's lost contact with, the ones he doesn't know, etc. This isn't something unique to my tfp stories, where this au started. In most of my fics, Starscream goes looking for all the children taken from Megatron while he was carrying.

But the gist of this is that, Starscream has a lot of issues and difficulties with carrying because seekers aren't built for it, but megatron is always there to help him and make him feel like less of a failure and also help him after his emergances, because it's incredibly difficult for starscream.

[moremaybank]

#14 from the prompt list with JJ in the Twinkie :)

“if i have to pull over, you’ll be walking funny for the next week.”

warnings 18+, oral sex (m. receiving), unprotected sex. creampie, choking, public/semi-public sex (i think ??? idk which one fits better so yeah), language, dom!jj

author's note kinda but not really proofread, oops

prompt list (requests closed) / jj masterlist

"I'm bored, J. How much longer 'til we get there?"

"About an hour. Just like I told you the last time you asked me — twenty seconds ago."

You let out a loud groan, sinking into your seat. The restlessness was getting to you. Your legs ache, and the full body stretch you crave isn't feasible thanks to the space you're confined in.

"I can't do this for two more hours. I hurt, J. And I'm bored."

"Take a nap. Promise we'll be there by the time you wake up."

You roll your eyes, "I'm not even tired."

JJ shakes his head, huffing a laugh. His right hand reaches over the middle console, landing on your thigh. He massages your flesh, and gives it a light squeeze as if to say, it's okay, baby.

The action, while you know is innocent, sends a shockwave of flutters into your stomach, which, coincidentally, also sends them to your core.

His hand returns to the wheel faster than you'd hoped, and you're left with unfulfilled need. It doesn't matter how simply or casually he touches you, his touch will never fail to make your head spin. He's too hypnotizing, his trace too exhilarating.

The more you watch him from your seat, the more handsome he seems to get. He's a concoction of messy blonde tufts of hair, pink lips, and a dimple you'd truthfully like to lick. His eyes are focused on the road, and all you can think about is how much you want his focus to be on you.

Slowly, you creep closer toward him, leaning over the console just as his hand had earlier, and you place a wet kiss to his prominent jawline.

"You're so gorgeous, baby. Have I told you that lately?"

You tell him daily. Hell, hourly.

Still, though, JJ eats it up every time.

"Yeah, but I wouldn't mind hearing it again," he smirks.

"Well, you are," you reiterate, voice all sultry. Your hand lands on his knee as your lips move onto the spot right under his ear. "It's making me crazy."

JJ gulps when he feels you creep your way closer and closer to his crotch. Your hand reaches his inner thigh, your nails lightly grazing over the crotch of his shorts.

"Princess."

"Mhm?" You hum, fully palming his slowly hardening cock.

"You're gonna wanna be real careful about what you do next."

"Yeah? Why's that?"

Your fingers undo the button swiftly, and they soon tug the zipper down. JJ practically hisses, and his cock twitches when you come into contact with it, still covered by his boxers.

"You're so hard, J. You sure you don't want me to take care of this?"

JJ remains silent, trying to keep his attention on driving. Of course, you don't make it easy on him. Where's the fun in that?

You retract your hand, spitting on your palm and lubing it up. You tug his cock out of his underwear, and start to stroke him. His jaw clenches, and you see him struggling to keep his eyes open.

He clears his throat, "If I have to pull over, you'll be walking funny for the next week."

You snicker at his response but ultimately ignore it, giving his length a light squeeze. You shift in your seat, allowing yourself to bring your head to his cock. You lick a stripe up from his balls to his tip, letting your tongue run over the pre-cum seeping out of his slit.

"Fuck," he grunts.

Don't react. Don't give her the attention she so desperately wants. Do not react.

You feel his body tense further, clearly trying to keep his cool. He loses it, though, when you bring all of him into your mouth and let him hit the back of your throat. Your fingers brush over his balls, and you suddenly feel the car swerve onto the side of the road.

JJ throws the car into park and shuts it off, before threading his hand through your hair and pulling you off of him and carelessly tugging his boxers over his cock. In a snap, he's out of the car, slamming the door behind him and making his way around the front and yanking yours wide open.

"Out of the car and turn around."

The pulse between your thighs intensifies, the slick from your core now soaking your skimpy panties. You're sure you're making heart eyes at him.

"I'm not asking. Out of the car. Now."

You obey him, sliding out of your seat and turning around. JJ's hand pushes on your back, bending you over as his other shoves your skirt up your hips and exposing your ass to him.

"J...someone could see."

"Too bad, pretty girl. You wanna act like a slut, you're gonna get fucked like one. Right here where everyone on this damn highway can watch."

He rips your panties, the fabric snapping against your flesh, eliciting a sharp gasp from your lips. Your reaction happens all too soon, though, because before you can even collect your bearings, you feel his cock jam against your cervix. JJ's hands pull you back toward him almost violently as he fucks you.

"Greedy goddamn pussy. Look how wet you get from sucking me off," he grits out as he slips in and out of your pussy with ease, thanks to your abundant arousal.

"More, need more."

"I don't care what you need. We aren't playing by your rules anymore, sweetheart."

One hand abandons your hip and grabs you by the hair. You feel the slight tinge of pain on your scalp as he uses your locks as leverage, and you throw your head back even more.

"You're lucky we're on this side of the car. Otherwise, everyone would see how much you like to be fucked like a goddamn whore."

JJ punctuates the end of his sentence with a harsh slap to your ass.

"Ah, fuck!"

"Who fucks you this good, baby? This dumb?"

"You!" You cry out. "Only you, J. No one else."

"I know. That's why you're always misbehaving. You want this pretty punished every second of everyday, right? Couldn't even wait an hour, could you?"

You shake your head no, "Needed you now, daddy."

"Oh, fuck."

JJ loses it when you call him that. He pulls out of you, quickly turning you to face him and plopping you back on the passenger seat. He spreads your legs and wastes no time reentering you. He practically splits you in half with his cock, this new angle allowing him to go even deeper than before.

You lean back against the middle console, letting your head fall back.

"J, I-I'm right fucking there. Don't stop," you beg.

One of his hands leaves your inner thighs, gripping your throat with force and pulling your head back up. His forehead smushes against yours once he draws you close enough.

"Beg me."

"I-I can't even fucking— Shit!"

You were struggling to breathe, let alone fucking speaking. But JJ doesn't give you a choice.

"Beg me to let you cum or I'll stop right now. I'll finish myself off and won't fuck you for the rest of the weekend."

"Let me cum. Let me cum," you whine.

"Let me cum, who?"

"Let me cum, daddy. Please. Pleasepleaseplease."

"There's my good fucking girl, finally showing her face. Cum for me."

JJ kisses you hard, his hand strengthening around your throat. His tongue pushes into your mouth as he fucks you through both of your orgasms. You cum with a squeal that JJ swallows, only fucking you harder and making you see the whole damn planet, not just the stars as he stuffs both your releases deeper and deeper inside you.

"I can't lie, princess," he pants after breaking away from the kiss, "I kinda love it when you're bratty."

You give him a hazy smirk, "I know you do, baby."

[prentissluvr]

i dont have all of my sam thots and dean thoughts just yet but I had to send in this bc I completely forgot about meg! sam

and its a damn shame that we didn't see more of that bc it solidified my stance on being a sam girlie

we got at least 3 episodes of demon dean (i have not seen him yet i've only heard about it) but we got like less than half an hour with meg! sam and honestly we deserved more with him

meg! sam made me feel lots of things LOLL

(i wanted to be jo SO BAD in that episode LMAO)

now i need your thots on him please :p

KJDFSJL NO BECAUSE... NOOO I CANT thinking about the amount of meg!sam edits i've seen in the past few days. thinking about the one saved in my camera roll. thinking about throwing up pissing my pants projectile vomiting and passing the fuck out. i reiterate tho, i'm normal!! i'm so so so normal and i don't feel things about it!!!!!!!

i'm honestly still like borderline unsure about how nsfw i want to get on this blog, but uhhh i'm just gonna start typing and see where my dirty fucking mind takes me!

cw : highly suggestive!! no smut, but still absolutely no minors!! MDNI!! contains condescending/mean/possessed sam, but also sweet sam too <33. use of gendered terms, but it is gender inclusive to fem, masc, and gn as much as i could make it! horrible writing it's genuinely just me going feral :))

sooo basically for me the worst (best) part of meg!sam was his voice! it's so bad (never have i ever heard anything hotter in my life). IDK I DONT EVEN THINK I CAN FORM A COHERENT THOUGHT OVER THIS NOT GONNA LIE. uhm uhhh ummmm uhhhh uhmmmm.

so basically so basically, essentially, wwowowowowowowowifjhshf alright lets focus on one thing at a time.

we'll start with that goddamn voice of his. the way it goes from teasing, condescending to deeper, more gravelly and matter-of-fact and then back to condescending LIKE WHOO IM GONNA NEED TO TAKE A LAP. idk just thinking about his large hand on the back of your head, maybe tangled in your hair if the way you wear it allows for that, and his veiny forearm visible through your peripheral vision as he says "open up.. that's a girl" like he did to jo😭😭😭 (or he's says "thaaat's it" to keep things gender neutral, dragging out the "that's" for an extra second, that extra gravel in his condescending tone).

and while this is in possessed!sam context, he'd definitely say things like that normally, i do personally envision him to be less condescending and more sincere. either way, hot as fuck if you ask me. also this isn't meg!sam, but in season seven he says "good girl" and i do listen to that clip several times a day, i am so serious when i say that and i have no shame about it!! i have daddy issues so i do not care!!! so yeah he also says good girl/boy/whatever variation you enjoy best <3 uhmmm yeah but the main point is his hot as fuck voice, right next to your ear with his breath tickling you sensitive skin. especially with that whisper. oh god the whisper😭 and along with "that's a girl," there's atta girl and he'd use that one too so i'll go die in a hole :))) but yeah he genuinely thinks you're so good for him so expect that praise, whether you want it sweet or mean.

then we also have his facial expressions!! the smirk he uses to rile you up or that he flashes you, all mean and haughty because he knows he's getting to you. the fake pity too!! lord help me, once again the utterly fake pity just falls under that condescending persona that was so hot about meg!sam. i'm just gonna use photo evidence and you can imagine him looking at you like that!! enjoy!

last thing i have to say about meg!sam is manhandling!! ahahaahahahaahahah i'm normal and okay!! (this is a cry for help i need him so bad). um yeah while i hate the context of the manhandling of jo in the episode because it's crossing so many boundaries, i will still enjoy the fact that he is hot. so yeah! have fun thinking about sam whirling you around and pinning you between his chest and nearest surface, hand on your forehead to tilt your chin up and give him full access to the skin of your neck. his other hand is pinning your wrist to whatever surface is behind you, and your own free hand is tangled in his hair and he lays wet, desperate kisses all over your neck and collarbone. that's all hahahahaha :)))) feeling so sane right now!!

[mai-is-gai]

Hello, #maigai (or #mygirls even, or my #nichijou posts ig) peruser

ive been a nichijou fan and maikko shipper for 7 years now (apparently the 7th anniversary of the first time i watched it will be on the 28th of march yippee!!!! 🎉🎉). i was 17 at the time, and as such not all of the opinions i expressed in my old posts still reflect my current views

um basically so i have grown up and my eyes have opened and now i know mio is bi, and in a committed queerplatonic relationship with yukko, mai and nano (mai and yukko are still wives though obviously) i would like to formally apologize to all the mio x yukko shippers idk how openly i expressed it but i used to really hate that ship and ive never fully known why. i was probably projecting stuff i was dealing with irl. i still dont ship it but be yourselves babes 💋 if you cant forgive me for calling mio str8 that one time i understand, i cant either tbh

also on the topic of headcanons:

nano is still aroace

mai and yukko are both nb ace lesbians (this hasnt changed in a while but what has changed is i recently started identifying as ace and lesbian again <3 recently as in like in the past week lol)

yukko is transfem + left-handed + shorter than nano + adhd and maybe autistic as well (but ik people wont fight me about that last one, same with mai definitely being autistic)

idk what everyone else is but no one in all of tokisadame is fucking neurotypical have you seen them

about mai and yukkos cats: i have thoughts about them but the short version is theyre siblings, and they adopted them together after they started dating. (is yukkos cat's name confirmed to be Chissan?? bc while it's really funny to think mai not only picked a very similar name for hers but on top of that nicknamed her the name of the other one, its confusing for writing lol and on that note, suggests names i would love that!!)

and, okay. the ship is not literally canon. it's dubiously canon at best, but like there's a lot of fuel and it's real in my heart </3 (all those posts and tags about it being canon were 100% genuine though)

PLEASE DONT SAY ANYTHING ABOUT CITY I HAVENT READ IT

but anyway more importantly, like i said in a recent post the maikko hyperfixation is back in full force and im reviving the idea of making a big long video infodumping about why, bc it's something ive genuinely wanted to do for years but also GOD the original post about noticing mai is on yukko's bed in that one "subliminal" panel (which i made on the same year i first watched the show and read the manga) HAUNTS me i hate the way it's written. again reiterating another recent-ish post im happy people are still finding it and giving it notes bc of the message (obviously the thing its about but lowkey also me flexing that i knew the episodes rly well lol) but the words ew i hate it

if youre new here, hi, yeah im talking about this:

i have no recollection of when i first read volume 10 but i know i didnt immediately notice it. i just screamed like "omg what is happening why is she like that???? :0" but then one day it hit me- that is not her bed. this is:

i also liked joking about the big panel of that same page

"there's a high likelyhood that those are mai's legs- ohohohho so that's why she's so happy 😳😳😳" (notice how ive realized im ace since making that old post. i hate it 😭) but i mention it bc it definitely fueled my reaction

anyway yeah that was indeed yukko's bed

that's it. i noticed that mai is blushing on yukkos bed and it blew my mind. i mean it is huge like WHAT DOES IT MEAN IF NOT GAY, my point is i hate that original post if it wasnt clear lmao

anyway like i said it's still real in my heart and i intend to talk your ears off about why so stay tuned <3

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - February 9th

cool name anon (new), mocks anon, therapist anon, alabama anon, uni anon

Cool Name Anon

I'm new to Tumblr as a whole so hi. I'm 14, male and have attended this amazing high school for about 8 or 9 months. My girl best friend recommended Tumblr as a community. She gave me a list of blogs to look at and this was on here. Hello.

The anon advice stuff you do is amazing. I wonder if my girl best friend wrote any. (I'm too lazy too look, there's a lot). So I guess I do need help with one thing.

I kinda promised my girl best friend that my mum would tutor her but I live in a house with my 3 siblings, parents and grandparents. That's a lot of people. She also gets overwhelmed a lot and hates having people watch her fail. I've already run it through with her and she said she'll try but I'm praying it goes okay. I'd love to invite her over again if the tutoring works. I did promise we'd watch my favourite show together too so there's that.

I know she's had issues in the past and more recently having nightmares about future events that could happen one in a million and I want her to feel safe somewhere.

Can I have a cool sounding anon name?

Hi! I hope you like your name lol. Honestly, I think you're doing exactly what you should be doing for your friend. Be reassuring, be there for her, and remind her that he's safe and you care. That's all you can do, but sometimes it means a lot more than you would think, you know? You're being an amazing friend and I'm sure she appreciates it.

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Mocks Anon

hey it's mocks anon

I don't actually have much to say, I just wanted to tell you I've decided to talk the counsellors at school

Also I've tried researching a little about methods to help me study and i haven't found much (unsurprisingly) but hopefully I will soon

I'll update you soon (if you don't mind?)

Hi! I'm so glad you decided to talk to them! Yes, please keep me updated if you think of it! <3 I hope they're helpful!!

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Therapist anon

Hi cas! Therapist anon here (again I'm sorry)

Basically my school is shit, yeah? I live in the UK so that means gcse which kinda are the same as sats just a bit idk more? Or less? Whatever

I was really hoping to do biology as an a level in sixth form (essentially the same as college just most schools have high school AND sixth form which makes life so much easier) and I got a low b which was good hello! Higher than average! But not good enough.

They wanted a low a and I said in lessons I was at an a, a* but fumbled in the exam because MATH IS A COMPLETE BITCH OKAY

Teacher wouldn't hear of it (also didn't help she had been away on mat leave for the past two years so she didn't even know me!) We tried to get a trail but, again, she wouldn't hear of it.

Got my old teacher to email who was beyond suprised at my grade cos I was doing really well but last year's gsces were beyond mathsy and disgusting and when he emailed, the email he got back essentially said I'm not good enough for the school image and my grades were good

Let me reiterate, my grades were FANTASTIC HIGHER THAN THE NATIONAL AVERAGE I JUST GO TO ONE OF THE HIGHEST ACHEIVING SCHOOLS IN THE FREAKING CITY so it made me look atupid

I'm not stupid math is disgusting and deserves to die :)

But yeah the teacher said the highest i would get was a d and there's no point in taking me BUT PEOPLE OF THE SAME GRADE WITH SLIGHTLY HIGHER MARKS WERE ABLE TO DO IT SO WHY NOT ME

They took people from other schools and this school fucking knew mw ans my abilities but this stupid teacher wouldn't budge cos "omg the image of the school, we're all gonna die if we take on a student with a low b😱😱😱😱😱" also I genuinely think I could have done well I freaking loved biology and what they're doing now is stuff I know from gsces!!!!

Now! I'm beyond stuck cos i was really hoping to take biology and psychology (which I am taking and loving) but the only stupid careers I can get into is into freaking mental health and I genuinely cannot bring myself to do that (I went to therapy and couldn't imagine being a therapist/psycholigist)

So what I'm basically venting about is:

School wouldn't take me cos of THEIR IMAGE

I cannot go into my dream career

I hate this stupid ass school WHY WOULDNT YOU JUST TAKE ME IF I WAS DOING BADLY YOU COULD HAVE DROPPED ME AFTER THE TRIAL

I'm more mad that they wouldn't even consider a trial like? It actually does nothing to them whether I take the trail and pass or fail, it's literally all on me

Oh! I was also forced to take sociology instead (either that or physical Ed. Or IT) which is actually so beyond boring because the answer to absolutely everything is sexism or racism. Differential ethnic achievement? Teacher racism. Differential gender achievement? Tescher sexism

So basically with my a levels that I'm doing now I actually csnt really go into my dream career, my only choice is law and you cannot force me to become a lawyer I WANT TO GO INTO FREAKING MEDECINE OR PSYCHOLOGY BUT NOT THE MENTAL HEALTH SIDE AGAGAGAGAGGAGA

have an absolutely wonderful day :)

(ps also if anyone knows any careers that go into psychology that don't need a doctorate degree and don't go into the mental health aspect that would be much appreciated xoxoxo)

(Ps.s also the uni I want to go to doesn't care that much about gsces bur you need a 3.0-4.0 or higher to get in cos it's in the top 100 in the world but I'm actually praying they'll still take me. Worst case scenario I do a year or two of biology and then they'll take me but I don't really wanna be going into uni two years late all cos my stupid schools image is more important than me :/ )

Hi <3

I'm SO sorry this happened and it's so frustrating. I feel like education has become so political and like...customer service-y, and it's no longer about the individual student, and that's not fair. I'm glad to know you have other avenues to your dream career if you need it, but its annoying to know that will take more time.

Honestly, I'm not sure what else you could do with psych, mostly because I don't live in your country. Maybe something in research? Does your school have guidance counselors that might be able to help you think of some options?

Either way, that's so infuriating and I completely get why you're mad. I wish there was something I could do.

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Alabama Anon

hello again, Alabama anon here. I suppose I didn’t really say hello last time, but whatever. There’s nothing quite like being stuck in a house with people who make queer phobic comments so easily. By this I mean my parents. Sometimes I wonder what they’d think if they knew their daughter liked women too. Luckily, I’ve only got three more years. 

I appreciate the advice from my last ask. I will definitely try that idea out with my friends. Most likely not with my parents though. I do not feel like something happening to me because of who I like, I don’t think they’d, like, lay hands on me, but still. I may run it by my brother too. I’ve thought about anonymously coming out to my science teacher. She’s got this, like, box thing you can put things you want to tell her in (not sure about this one yet tbh).

one of the guys in my grade is so outwardly homophobic and supportive of trump. I actually want to punch him so bad. If this country keeps going like this I’m actually going to move to England. Especially since the thing about the people in Idaho wanting to get rid of same sex marriage. I’m not sure when this happened, but I just heard about it.

if I can’t marry my future partner because they may potentially be a girl, I’m actually going to crash out. I honestly can’t wait till I turn eighteen. I’m going to try to hint to my friends that I like girls too if the running it by them thing goes well. 

side note, I just found out about this woman, she was in the Olympics for some sort of climbing. She is so beautiful I actually can’t. I just can’t.

again, sorry for the rant and I apologize for the length. Thank you for reading this. I really do appreciate you taking your time to do so

Hi <3

I definitely feel like you're being smart by being more cautious. As awful as it is, prioritizing your safety is important right now.

I do want to say, as far as your teacher, I would look up the laws in your state as far as what teachers are and are not allowed to say and do. Many southern states are passing laws that make it so teachers can get fired if they talk about queer issues. So your teacher may react a certain way just to keep you and herself safe, you know?

I'm really sorry that I don't have better advice or that I can't do more, but you're always welcome to vent in my inbox <3

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Uni Anon

Hi <3

Okay so a couple things. First of all, I completely understand how you're feeling. It's a horrible feeling and you DO NOT deserve to feel like that. You deserve help.

Please, please, sign up for the waiting list for therapy. You have a right to be on there just as much as anyone else, and yes it's a long list, but you certainly aren't going to move up the list if you don't sign up.

Also, I need you to pick one club to join. Even if you don't make friends, doing an activity that makes you happy is something that can make a HUGE difference in your mood.

I want you to know that people care about you. I care about you and your family cares about you, and things will get better. But I need you to do those two things (put yourself on the wait list and join a club). I promise it'll make a difference.

[quodekash]

QUICK, GUYNAWA ARE HAVING A TENDER MOMENT, I NEED TO KEEP GOING

I love their flirting love language <3

the way he looks at him

THE WAY HE LOOKS AT HIM

yes, im crying because of them

oh that is so infuriating

they were facing the wrong way

I love these idiots so much but maybe if they'd seen the shooting star, they couldve had a magical moment and then kissed or something, idk

but no, they're such idiots that they didnt think to look in the other direction

I love them, but its infuriating sometimes

OKAY BUT GIVE US THE WHOLE STORY

THERES SO MANY GAPS

literally all we know about this so far:

1. evil boss guy wanted name to do one last thing for him before he could quit (presumably to rob the house)

2. name asked saifah for some help with some things he had to do

3. according to that one news report, a robbery probably happened?

4. saifah shot kong

5. name had "no idea saifah would do something like that"

so much is missing. what's the whole story here? I still believe that saifah is innocent. he might've accidentally shot him or something, I dont know

yeah, okay

but name is involved in the plot somehow

answer my questions bitch

okay, I love you saifah, but telling him to forget about you is really freaking selfish

it may seem self-sacrificing, like "he'll be happier without me on his plate" but it's not. it's downright selfish.

there are things at play here that you're not thinking about, and other things you're not aware of

such as, you dont know that sailom is now kind of hopeless. because of what you supposedly did, kang now hates sailom, so sailom can't tutor him, so sailom can't get the money to pay off yours and his debts.

as for the things you're not thinking off?

you forget, your parents are both dead. you are his only family left. he is your only family left. he wants to understand the situation so that he can get help for you to get out, so that he isn't utterly alone, and so that you can get out of the terrible environment that is jail. he can't just forget about you, because you are all he has.

and this is both not thinking of and not aware of, sailom doesn't like to accept help from people for free. he doesnt have kang's financial support anymore. and his friends are offering help, but he has no way to pay them back for that help, so he wont accept it. but he wants you back, deemed innocent, so that he can get his boyfriend back, his job back, his happiness back. he can't just forget about you. he needs you.

now anSWER MY QUESTIONS BITCH, WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED

HE CAN'T, THAT'S THE THING, THAT'S THE PROBLEM

IM GONNA REITERATE WHAT I SAID IN EPISODE FOUR: THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WRONG WITH BEING A SEX WORKER, AN ESCORT, ANYTHING IN THAT LINE OF WORK

THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH THE FACT THAT SAILOM IS STILL A CHILD IN HIGH SCHOOL, AND THAT'S A FULL-ASS GROWN MAN ABOVE THE AGE OF 40

IT MAKES ME FEEL GROSS AND UNCOMFORTABLE

THAT IS ALL, THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK

AND ONCE AGAIN, THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH SEX WORK, BUT THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH A 40+ YEAR OLD MAN HOLDING A DRUGGED UNCONSCIOUS BOY AND SMILING LIKE THAT

thank goodness for that

CRAP THIS IS BAD AH FRICK

IM NOT TAKING SCREENSHOTS OF THIS PART I REFUSE

OH CRAP KANG PLS ARRIVE AND PUNCH HIM

AAAAA FRICK FRICK FRICK PUNCH HIM PUNCH HIM PUNCH HIM

OHTHANKGOODNESS THANK YOU KANG

I had to go through that entire scene without saying anything but man the line "to me you're nothing but money" really hit hard

I sat there for like 2 whole minutes not wanting to press play after that line because it was just validating all of kang's worst fears about how sailom values him

I am not even remotely okay

I hate the writers so much for this

on the bright side, they didnt do a soundwin and give us absolutely zero guynawa in episode 10 so I appreciate that

but uh. now im sad.

THE FREAKING FLASHBACKS THIS EPISODE HAVE BEEN THE WORST THEYVE EVER BEEN

THEY WERE MEANINGFUL FLASHBACKS

SHORT SNIPPETS OF THEIR PROGRESSION AND THE THINGS THEYVE GONE THROUGH

okay well that was. truly something.

this episode took me nearly 4 hours to watch which is a new personal record and im not sure if I should be proud of that or if I should start crying about how exhausted im going to be tomorrow

Im excited for next week and for this mess to be cleared up at least a little bit, but im also not excited for next week because itll be the second last episode and im not ready for this series to be over yet

anyway, have a good week folks. uh. yeah. keep calm and love guynawa way too much

[donnydamakkk]

I was thinking about JJ’s speech about the unsub’s motivations to Hotch in 3x17 In Heat, the way she said it, and her reaction to the conversion camps in season 8. I kind of have a hc that her mom may have sent her to a conversion camp when she was young, maybe not a camp that was as bad as the one on the show but still enough to traumatise her and make it hard for her to express herself freely.

If you’re open to it, I’d love to know if you had any thoughts or hcs about this. Thanks and please feel free to ignore this if it’s not something you want to talk about!

okay, oh my god? idk know how this has never crossed my mind; i, too, have a hc of her mother bein a homophobic cunt so idk how i didn't consider this idea especially cus i am obsessed w moments where she says things that u jus know if she reflected for 2secs more, she'd unlock some things about herself.

i feel like it would explain a lot about her. cus yk there are several little moments throughout out the show where she says something n it sounds like she's right there. it sounds like she's 🤏🏾 this close to opening that door about herself n then she just... doesn't. n then she moves on n keeps living her comphet life. it's almost like she's always in front of the door of self acceptance and she even might touch the doorknob sometimes, but, at the end of the day, she always opts out of opening that door. w the conversion camp therapy memory in the back of her mind, i think she only allows herself to be the strongest of "allies" (hence those slip up moments) bcus while she's too afraid n unpacking that for her would b too painful for her, she hates the idea of other queer people feeling and living in her constant state of fear n strive for being the patriarchal idea of "perfect" n "normal".

my comphet lesbian jj hc that i posted once was that she's not as unknowing about her sexuality. she was just basically in denial n rejecting it the whole time n when she got close to maybe fully unpacking, she met will decided to try one more time w guys, jus to b sure, only to end up pregnant. my hc was by the time she got pregnant, she knew emphatically that she was a lesbian but she made the practical choice n opted for traditional "normalcy". i feel like ur hc of her having been to a conversion camp as a kid fleshes that out a lil bit. w that tidbit, i feel like her pregnancy n that man gave her an excuse to not fully live in her truth. she took as a " well see ig they were right im not supposed to b w women" n once again decided not to unpack bcus she was afraid of facing what she's been thru.

i like this hc. i like it a lot.

it also ties into another version of jj that i have n am currently working on a fic for. it could work this that particular reiteration v well actually. she's honest w herself there but i can still easily see how that experience would shape even openly gnc lesbian jj's life n mindset n how she navigates her gender identity.

yeah. this hc is jus genuinely good, to me. do u mind if i also adopt it?

[coldflasher]

Asks, you say? WELL THEN!

What's your favourite and least favourite ColdFlash scenes in the show?

reiterate previous apology for asking for asks and then not answering them till a day later haha

oohhhh this is a good one. i was really gonna be like "oh i can't choose but here are my top faves" and then was like please babes they have like 5 scenes together, just pick one. be brave. it'll be okay

SO. i'm gonna go for the whole ARGUS scene in infantino street. the whole thing in general but specifically the part where they're crouching outside king shark's cell bickering and handing the cold gun back and forth while len goads barry about whether or not he really has it in him to be a killer. infantino street really did give us that perfect glimpse into how WELL coldflash work together and it makes me a little sad that we never got a scene of them working together where one of them wasn't anxious and miserable—family of rogues!barry was all giddy and excited to be playing the supervillain while len was radiating stress worrying that lisa's head would explode at any second; infantino street!len was at his snarky best and clearly enjoying winding barry up, but barry was too worried about iris and the savitar situation to banter back the way we all know they can and do. and like yeah i know technically they'd never work together in the first place except in a dire situation so that would always have been the case, but a girl can dream

the ARGUS stuff is the most extended interaction we see between them and i think it really opens up new layers in their relationship and it's just a fascinating reversal of their usual dynamic with len being the angel on barry's shoulder rather than the other way around, when previously he'd have been the devil encouraging him to be bad... also i just have a thing for seeing barry with the cold gun for completely normal and non-horny reasons (i joke... unless....)

least favourite... that is so hard when we as a fandom have so few crumbs that it feels impossible (and somewhat sacrilegious) to not enjoy any coldflash scene lmao. i guess any scene where len is a hologram/flashback/speedforce avatar is always a disappointment cos i remember when eps aired and we'd find out wentworth was gonna be there and we'd all lose our minds and then it was like "SNARTBAIT OOH HA HA"

but even for those scenes, i found things to like. like one that comes to mind that isn't a fave is when barry comes across len as a speedforce avatar wandering around hospital corridors in wally's dead mom prison mindscape, but also that's the scene that brought us "you made him want to be a hero, just like you" so like... how could i hate her?

OR there's that scene from 2x01 where barry's fighting len and mick and len is like "I'LL KILL YOU, RAHHHH" which i don't love cos it doesn't feel very in-character (just the delivery idk it always gave off vibes) but then we get the funny but also kinda sad reveal that it's OOC because it's not real and barry is just having a pathetic little daydream about fighting len and mick whilst he's holed up alone in S.T.A.R Labs like :( so again. how could i hate her??

so if we're gonna choose i'll probably either go with the speedforce avatar thing OR, if it counts, when barry meets the legends and asks where len is and they're like "he's dead, but he died a hero though" and barry's like okay cool, i'm gonna smile wistfully and not gonna ask any follow-up questions. to be fair they did make up for that by having len's death haunt him for the rest the show's tenure but it was still a letdown imo

[ghoulangerlee]

sorry i forgot to tell you guys about the wildest thing that happened at work this past week (besides the ea who is trying to??? idk??? hunt me for sport i guess??)

but someone dropped off their computer on tuesday for us to look at; they called in and told me that it just would not power on. asked what time we closed and how much we charged and what our turn around time was.

explained all of that and they were wary bc like, they didn't wanna leave it with us for long. which fine. said they'd try to "do stuff" and see if that would fix it.

brought in the computer, reiterated that it just would not turn on. so i took their info and the computer and payment. went over our turn around time again (this is v important) (its 3 to 5 business days btw)

so, after they leave, i open the computer to inspect it (for physical damage bc we have to make notes of that just in case) and uh 1) there's no screws in the bottom case of the laptop (call the cust and they say its bc they forgot to put them back in after opening it up. uh)

next thing i notice is that the computer is on. there are lights on the side lit up and the caps lock light comes on (a sign Windows has booted)

okay weird. so the scope is now, the screen doesn't display but the computer is on.

we plug it up the next day, to an external monitor and uh. it works fine. we remove the RAM to test that just in case (bc my coworker had called the customer to get the password, the customer mentioned that before the computer "died" they were getting memory errors.)

RAM is fine. cool. we do more testing on it. and the...display? doesn't exist??? there's no integrated monitor under the device manager.

at this point we've done about an hour and a half troubleshooting on it to try and figure out how we went from will not power on to doesn't display.

call the customer back and they are not. happy. with us? somehow? why haven't we fixed it? even tho i told this customer that if we find out its a hardware issue then we'll have to order new hardware.

they were adamant it wasn't a hardware issue. okay.

anyway. its now friday at this point and they call for another update and we're like. starting to lean towards it being the upper assembly (screen + casing) but like it doesn't make sense to us bc this computer is newish (under 2 years old) and there doesn't seem to be any physical damage to it. the screen shouldn't just go out and stop working. esp if there were no other signs besides the "memory errors".

the person ends up coming in to get the computer, we talk about a screen replacement and the customer is for it. cool. they're taking the computer with them until we can get the screen ordered which is fine. i get payment for the screen so we can order it, i let the customer know that we do have to tack on an additional charge to the hours because we've spent about an hour and a half cumulatively on this--customer is not happy about it but understands. gets a bit huffy about it. says that we should have figured it out sooner etc etc etc

and then. then like. the customer hits me with.

"oh hey, so my friend closed a pen in this computer right before it stopped working. right down here where the plastic case is. yeah. do you think that might have messed up the screen?"

i am absolutely flabbergasted by this and go "oh yeah it can definitely damage the cables there. the plastic isn't very thick. we didn't see any damage when we opened it up though" and this person just

"oh yeah my friend cleaned up the broken plastic bits before we brought it by"

OH OF COURSE. how silly of me.

i am. so tired lmao. like i dont know what this person expected of us but? tell us this info? the only info (even after asking all the questions) i got was "the computer stopped working today and it worked fine yesterday" and "i opened it up and performed an ec reset just in case"

anyway. the customer is vaguely annoyed they're having to pay more for us to find out what the issue is but in my defense YOU DIDNT TELL ME THAT A PEN WAS CLOSED IN IT.

you know how you're not supposed to omit info from medical professionals if you're being treated for an emergency? its sorta in that same vein. don't omit stuff from us when you bring us your computer to fix lmao

[accirax]

Oh, and these too, from your two not my favourite people -

https://youtu.be/KSXz3tyfS6U?si=M8yFrYiTOPJMF8Yx

https://youtu.be/Hy9MF52hZSI?si=1YURLJ8TjxiVq2l9

https://youtu.be/fmqhl7LOd7g?si=fRfkF-69YPPRgzOX (Hopefully this one debunks certain people's theories of Fiore's parents putting her on the show themselves just to get the money with zero concern or knowledge of the dangers)

https://youtu.be/BY6LXdZXdis?si=gM1Brjr9ewN4Pavf (god not the skibidi toilet again)

so apparently you can only add 10 video links per post, which means i couldn't combine this ask with the other one. good to know for if i ever try to share, like, a playlist or something in the future.

(also, btw, Ellie isn't actually one of my personal favorite characters! i just have Chronic Forgiveness Disease and tend to let villains off the hook. my actual top 5 are probably Alec, Fiore, Grett, Aiden, and James-- not necessarily in that order-- although that was only the list i came up with after watching seasons 1 and 2. not that i disliked any of them in DCAS, but maybe some others could rise above with their additional content. Grett and Alec stock just rose even higher :D)

hey, this is Vi's greeting! idk if you sent me this realizing or not, but this is the same coworker who i said made that video about the history of greetings. they really popped off with the costume design on this one (same with that Gabby magician outfit that just came out). i'm quite familiar with the look, as Vi was using it as their discord pfp for a while ^_^

haha, another past pfp of Vi's. it would be cool if we could see some of Ellie's fashion designs someday, given that she doesn't have the typical super-expensive-and-stylish tastes that you would typically think of for a fashion designer. (or, maybe she just can't afford them... 😅) would her designs be more avant garde, or stick to her kinda emo-adjacent looks in canon? we need answers, people! (/j)

Hopefully this one debunks certain people's theories of Fiore's parents putting her on the show themselves just to get the money with zero concern or knowledge of the dangers

oh, dang, i didn't realize people were going that hard. i thought that Fiore's parents might've tried to sign her up for the show to get rid of her, but given what we know about Fiore's attitude, it makes sense that she would want to get rid of them just as much. speaking of, i want to believe that Fiore is either consciously playing down how much she cares about Alec or doesn't have a good enough read on her own emotions to realize that she does-- she's probably never trusted an adult figure before, so it makes sense that she would want to limit her emotional attachment to them, especially if there's no guarantee that she'd ever see them again-- but she also does keep reiterating that she doesn't really care about him, so at some point, you kinda have to believe her. just goes to show your/Raitix's point that they probably aren't best off as a true father/daughter duo :,)

(then again, there's also the fact(?) that, apparently, people can write things that they want the characters to "confirm" within the text of the greeting and pass it off as canon. again, this was brought up in the history video, although i can't find the timestamp of where. i don't know why so many people would try to write in that Fiore doesn't care about Alec, so i don't think that this idea is a victim of that, but it just makes me wary of trusting any lore given out in greetings in general.)

god not the skibidi toilet again

(like, see, in this one, she calls Alec her friend! what is the truth!!!)

not her saying that the other contestants would have a foot in the grave-- like, okay, Miriam, sure-- she'd be 82 by the time Fiore is 16. but, Fiore, the second oldest competitor is Connor, who would be 59 by the time you're 16. who's even the next oldest? Alec??? he'd be 40. maybe you need to go back to math class. or age class.

also, yeah, i guess people are really obsessed with the idea of Fiore knowing what skibidi toilet is. i don't really care, but the writers did sorta bring it upon themselves with her saying stuff like "bruh" or "boomer" in the canonical series.

[yalkini]

II2 EP 15 Thoughts and Observations

Because I really need to get this down and thought it'd be fun to get other opinions. So yeah its been 5 days but just in case. Spoilers duh.

0:02 - Taco seems to have lol idk how to say this but authorized herself onto Mepad like idk system restart i don’t know how electronics work but clearly this resets when she dies

0:16 - i didn’t really pick this up the other times i’ve watched but why does Mepad want to meet Taco in the first place? everyone knows about what she did last season and really it is in his best interest to not interact with her as an assistant. Plus his want to help comes during the events of the episode (he gets really attached) So i’m intrigued Mepad. why?

0:23 - hehehe this callback to to funny to just gloss over it. plus Taco’s reaction is golden

0:48 - Taco gets lonely. okay but like it makes sense since she was outcasted by everyone she knows but she also chooses people (Mic and Mepad) for her own gain, but they are also people who don’t know much about her. but also since she messed up with mic she feels like she cant go back insert tacos tirade

1:24 - when this is the most united the grand slams have been and they aren’t even in teams anymoreeeee

1:54 - gotta love lightbulb here cause compared to the grand slams the bright lights know how to talk, confront, solve problems and they grow from it. ill talk more about it when lightbulb gets eliminated and the hotel scene

1:58 - ahahaahah that look they gave to each other is so good cause lets face it the situation was not the same - as suitcase elaborates during the challenge but a fun little nod to it

2:02- when lightbulb reacts to ‘team’s gone’ - especially cause that’s where her insecurities lie - but gotta love that baseball’s trying to cheer her up

2:14 - oof the guilt on baseball’s face after ‘close with your allies’ but also again more contrast bt the grand slams and the bright lights - lightbulb never uses the word allies. she calls them her friends. while the grand slams really focused on the alliance they had though it really was only baseball nickel and suitcase. which is probably why suitcase focuses on what allies are supposed to be for far too long that and well it takes her 4 episodes to really answer knife. even with balloon when he gets eliminated, she characterizes his actions as something an ally would do even though they were also friends. basically suitcase has like no friends. that’s what i got out of this apparently.

2:46 - lol knife you can answer one of those questions

2:59 - realizing we see a lot of knife’s guilty face this ep

3:11 - ik suitcase is hyperventilating here but the green outline for invisibility is cool

3:22 - its literally paintbrush coloreddddd sobbing

4:28 - hahaha lightbulb you have no idea. so much foreshadowing peeps. so much

4:48 - ljhaujdivjkaouhdfjkan tacos tirade oh boy there’s too much here to unpack i had to look up so many words thank you cakebrunch for storyboarding this

5:07 - pfffftttt lightbulb i love you girl

5:31 - ‘i wont live in the past….. uh huh taco. yeah right

5:53 - “and we lose more than we gain. taco losing the two people who she cared about - also mic doesn’t have the gain on her back which is funny. but yeah basically taco saying that this games costs friendships which she reiterates during the challenge

6:14 - she has given up on the prize now after what was desperation of last episode

6:35 - lowkey mepad doesn’t really answer tacos question here. but he is indeed right. i feel like the things mepad says could have a bunch of different meanings, not sure how right they are but observations none the less. “incapable of starting over” could be a metaphor for revival based on the previous lines. but also since he’s just really observing taco just stating the truth and she can just start over, which he elaborates during his part of the duet. however the fact he says ‘i don’t know who you lost’ feels more like “oh taco lost someone who couldn’t get revived, which feeds into his “of course not” beforehand but also his whole thing with marshmallow. and lowkey it doesn’t have to go down the permadead route either, despite bow being dead she still exists and marshmallow found a way back to her and honestly, ‘is it not possible to get them back’ most likely means to mepad at least, ‘can you not just talk to them again’. But with taco, no matter what she does and she knows this, she can never go back to the way it was with pickle or with mic which segue back to the song—

6:55 - hahahahaha mepads partttttt its actually really interesting bc the more he trys to console her the more info he gets about taco. ‘the whole slate has fallen apart-taco that is not true there are other ways to’ (i presume fix it)’ its too late-its not to late- for me to restart’ (its here where mepad probably learns the severity of what taco has done so instead he) ‘lettuce taco bout it…’ sorry bad joke. basically mepad really wants to help taco and she’s why too riled up right now especially considering she’s just singing about how terrible the game is, so mepad is like’ lets talk after you’ve calmed down.’ can’t tell if ‘you’re no menace’ is supposed to be comforting or truthful but its probably both since mepad’s saying it. and well ‘how did they hurt you’ feels like a response to taco after she’s like’ but its not i its they….. spiel.’ ‘please think this through’- why does it sound like ‘please think about taking one therapy session with me. it’ll do you good’

7:20 - hahahaha foreshadowing to our finalists ey - and insert a free session of mepad’s therapy ‘healing is a process’ as we see the cracks form in tacos shell hahaah. well i guess dying and getting revived was a process but yeah not the kind mepad’s thinking of. anyways taco is lowkey ranting at the contestants which is hilarious as mepad’s there trying to help her. and again she continues this sentiment during the challenge

7:41 - ‘all the beans that get spilled wont be mine’ - again the challenge but also i would like to add that this episode made me realize that taco has what i assume is meat inside her and i thought all this time she was just lettuce and tomatoes. i even had to look at the plushie and low and behold there is meat. but then i was talking to a friend about how it would be funny if it were beans bc… well of this line and bc she’s british… so yeah haha

7:48 - ‘no i’m fine’ mepad’s little lean over to say something is everything to me but i really think he would have just said ‘but you aren’t fine. clearly your crack is affecting you but taco just shushes him hahahaha

8:22 - so like i wonder what questions mephone would have asked. because i don’t think he would’ve went down the whole twisted therapy session. but i also cant bring myself to see him ask stupid questions either…

8:37 - i really like how we get to see knifes reaction bc from his perspective, mic left bc of taco so he thought he was done with that drama as he so says, so when taco appears he’s just like ‘ what the heck why are you here i thought this was over with’

9:12 - ‘what are you doing’ i kinda forgot that mephone doesn’t know that taco basically kidnapped mepad so to him its like mepad left him to help her which at least by mepad’s answer makes it plausible

its challenge timeeeeee

10:04 - look how defensive knife is about all this bc taco will expose everything and everyone well… mostly him and he realizes quickly that she is targeting him

11:49 - i love this especially with the fact it comes right after lightbulb’s, well her first question anyways. bc baseball’s advice for lightbulb really hit for her like immediately but nickel’s reassurance for baseball has never felt true bc of what happens in his team. baseball even says that he missed everything that was going on in his team and that’s because baseball, i think anyways is pretty selfish. i’ll touch more about this during his elimination but he doesn’t want to admit that he’s a bad team leader, which is why he gets this outburst when the platform lowers and while bad team leader doesn’t necessarily have to equate to putting the team ahead of himself, except it does bc it mattered to nickel and it matters to suitcase. baseball needs validation. its easiest to see this through nickel and suitcase where nickel just gives it to him and baseball seeks it out from suitcase but most of all he doesn’t want to get his feelings hurt and we see what happens when it does so he needs someone to blame which was suitcase and then mephone but never himself

12:04 - there’s a good comment about how everyone answers i thought it was pretty high up but it might’ve dropped or its just me being blind but knife twists tacos words bc he doesn’t want to give anything up. but also this is just him retaliating against taco, him trying to find the loopholes of her questions to keep him save in the game and to the others

12:47 - pftttttttttttt tacos too proud of herself

12:53 - ill talk about suitcase eventually i swear but here’s just more of baseball being in denial ‘suitcase doesn’t care about’ what? who? testtube? who knows but also baseball speaking for suitcase like he knows her. he doesn’t. and he’s trying to justify himself through suitcase which is like huh. so yeah baseball here just cant admit his wrongdoings at the moment. ‘victim of circumstance’ here we have baseball pushing the blame onto maphone hurray even though was was partly at fault yayyyy

13:50 - hehe lightbulb raises her hand and foot okay but yeah. while knife lightbulb and suitcase’s choices make ‘sense i don’t really understand baseball’s? is it just so he can try to justify himself more? bc that’s what i’m getting from him

16:03 - its funny because they both describe the other like that but don’t really see themselves like that also love that we actually don’t see the answer suitcase gives but we know what it is. but it also shows how knife cares for suitcase to an extent that not even baseball gives (bc he really mostly cares about his feelings) and why suitcase eventually chooses knife for the final 2

16:38 - suitcase its time. so clearly suitcase is not ready to talk about it but she’s not going to back down either. ‘i see weird things like that all the time’ i like to think that she still has her back turned towards taco and is talking to the fire and turns around when she says hallucinations. i feel like that hits harder bc not only is she putting herself out there in front of everyone, this is the first time she actually says it and accepts it herself. and then she becomes so done with everything. such a mood. oh boy here we go with baseball againnnn just mentioning it bc this ties to his elimination

17:23 - tacos tirade pt 2

17:49 - gotta love how mephone is literally just sitting on the floor like a kid observing all this therapy session when he’s the one who needs it the most

18:05 - oh you knowwww just makes a whole new season and gets even more traumatized

18:51 - when it looks like knife and suitcase are giving each other another look okay this one is probably more incidental bc here tacos speaking from experience go figure. but it really only feels like knife got bridges burnt here after tacos questions. since well suitcases were burnt long before that…

19:05 - haha gonna learn something from season 3 buddy or what. i would love to talk about tacos speech but dang it feels like there is no explanation needed

19:42 - hello i wont live in the past taco so here’s i wont face my past taco instead. taco cracks bc she cant face her truths. she hides away from them. the real question is who taco thinks is coming but honestly it really could only be pickle. mic is the one who left her and i feel like she could explain herself, probably not in front of a crowd but this is an extreme reaction and well, knife knows more about taco than most

20:17 - mephoneeeeeeee noooooooooo

20:28 - THE PAINTBRUSH SIGNAL EVERYONEEEEE. so lightbulb talks about saving taco twice here and in the hotel but like are they actually going to do that that would be insane. anyways the bright lightssss ahhhhhh you guys are toooooo wholesomeeeee so back to lightbulbs insecurities about herself and her team. i love you bright lights the healing environment is too real. anyways the way lightbulb has to ask painty ‘like actually’ just to make sure its true and obviously it is. and when paintbrush tries to leave ‘there is nothing i want more than to win this game’ bc all lightbulb wants is to reunite with her friends again and it to adorable and shows how close the bright lights are and i’m going to talk even more about them

21:47 - mephone you are not fooling anyone

22:22 - ‘allies give you strength’ and while lightbulb doesn’t really categorize the lights as allies they are her friends and oh boi here it comes… to clarify i’ll be talking about the team composition from like kick the bucket or something. so anyways this line lightbulb says really rings true for all of the eliminations of the bright lights and there’s also the fact that, with the exception of fan, but that gets fixed later on cause his arc wasn’t done yet, none of them left alone. so let’s start with marsh. so obviously marsh left the show for bow. bow gave her the strength to do that and brought apple along. then with paintbrush, they left with baxter. fan well officially goes with testtube and lightbulb with paintbrush. arent they all cuteeeee we love their consistency. butt also each bright light elimination arc ends really nicely and its too wholesome

22:39 - mepad can teleport by himself bc taco died ? also i like how he teleports them up on a truth platform also i wonder how the melifetm app organizes the players cause its not alphabetical or by deaths. the way he has to clarify my show, he does it again later

24:03 - ‘for your approval’ where have we heard that before hmmmmm. yeah the wording here really brings back memories doesn’t it

24:13 - ‘i hate you’ mephone just drowning it out this guy

24:22 - baseball again with pushing the blame

25:12 - the way baseball smiles after the platform rises like his truth is going to fix something.

25:19 - so these close ups. baseball knows she’s not going to choose him. and then there knife who’s nervous for like the first time in his life and is surprised when she chooses him hahaha but hey after a couple episodes suitcase finally answers knife “what is an alliance to you”

25:39 - this has the same feeling as walking on ice around someone that has anger issues except its her anxiety. and while its a nice sentiment for her to not explain herself bc she doesn’t have to, baseball seems to say this for himself not for suitcase. baseball doesn’t want to hear the truth from her mouth. he doesn‘t want to face it bc he knows he was in the wrong and wants to preserve his feelings. he does get better though he finally confronts it in front of lightbulb bc she knows nothing about the grand slams so honestly just being away from the game can really help him learn to grow from his mistakes

26:18 - mepad giving taco strength to finish things though.

26:55 - they’re allianemies

27:10 - oh mephone. next episode you’ll get the closure and therapy you deserve. i hope.

final thoughts/ tldr

i bash on baseball too much for no reason, suitcase and knife become friends, lightbulb finally reunites with her team, taco and mepad are going to finish things, and mephone needs therapy.

the grand slams were always about the playing the game while the bright lights were about the experience and the connections and the friends along the way

and finally based on 4 episodes of Inanimate Battle… Knife be winning

I dont think any of this made sense but hey lets discuss. I spent 3 days on this... brain be fried

[veggiehomosapien]

'k. i just watched the last ep of the dw special.

***(SPOILERS WILL BE DISCUSSED)***

it had its fun moments, surprisingly was okay with neil patrick harris as the toymaker and it was lovely to see certain characters again, but i gotta say...not pleased. i just gotta get my thoughts out. very long rant incoming (feel free to skip lol):

bi-generation? really? i can vaguely see what rtd was trying to do but man...what a mistake i think that was. it completely takes away from ncuti's doctor having his own regen moment and the "passing of batons" -- AND the fact that fourteen is just what, chilling on earth with his own tardis and can come back at any time?? (and let's face it, he probably will. not that i don't love seeing david but we need to let this go now, it's time to move on!). and how ncuti's doctor has the "cloned" tardis and david's fourteen has the "original" like? idk i feel really icky about it all?? absolutely none of this was necessary. and don't even get me started on that line that donna had when fifteen regenerated ooooooooo *grumbles* they better have black writers writing for ncuti bc if this ep is anything to go by...yikes.

as if that wasn't enough lol, the fact that yasmin khan, the woman who fell for the woman who fell to earth, the first sapphic southeast asian companion, who JUST left the doctor, was not even acknowledged?? if we're name-dropping all of the previous companions, why ignore her? four eps ago we had her and the doctor sharing their final moments together, and the doctor absolutely cannot have just forgotten everything that happened given that they mentioned the flux. but also! we had kate stewart in the ep! and mel! where the fuck was the mention of the support group! "just saw yaz the other day, she's doing well." "dan and graham say hi" - LIKE HELLO?????? and the cheap shot of "who'd have thought. i ended up with a family" after thirteen called her companions "fam" (and i'll even mention amy and rory for that matter). like listen, i love donna and i love ten (and found fourteen very interesting!) but COME ON. the doctor has had, and will continue to have, family, in all of it's varying forms and connections. there is no need to differentiate between the other "families" (that have been explicitly mentioned as families) - as well as the "you came home" line. *eyeroll* yeah uh huh, thanks rtd. the doctor never had people to call home before. i just think that line was in poor taste. a complete disrespect to the previous characters who we know and love.

and i want to reiterate the fact that not only was yaz not mentioned or acknowledged, but martha too. she knew ten's face, she's met donna, why wasn't she a part of unit? why were yaz and martha the only two of the main modern companions to not be mentioned hmm?

anyway. apologies for this long-winded rant. i'm just. disappointed. and frustrated. this had so much potential but i guess i should have known what we were getting into with thirteen regenerating into david and him not wearing thriteen's clothes and then rtd saying that he didn't regen into her clothes bc a man dressing in woman's clothes could be considered drag and that would be a "delicate" topic (so what was jodie dressed in twelve's clothes? and if you went on to write the idea that the doctor's gender is outside of the binary, what's the big fuss, rtd?)

all this to say, i am excited for ncuti (so excited for him, he did wonderfully in this ep!!) and i can't wait to see what he brings. he deserved a better introduction. one to call his own.

[luescris]

*inhales* Okay. Spoilers for 56. I think I'm able to get my thoughts out now.

Listen. The urge to go through every single panel of this issue is so real. There's so much to talk about for every single one of them, so many things to notice. But TDLR???

I don't want to sound biased. Because I know the others need it too. But Sonic needs FUCKING therapy.

Idk how many times I've said this but I will continue to say it until the day I die (because I just know this ain't happening in the least 🙃). He's gone through so much shit, and the two faces he makes that shows this???

These are faces we never see. Ever.

One genuinely looks like he's about to snap. The other shows exactly just how much what she said, and what happened, truly affects him. He's so shocked and horrified. Again.

I will reiterate again that I know they all need therapy. Words can't describe what I feel about what happened to Surge and Kit yet, except for "what the fuck" and "oh my god". They're gonna need their own post about just how fucked up they are (and how I now personally hate Starline too for everything he did to these children). I don't intend to make this too long, and since Sonic's my favorite, he's gonna be the first-- not to sure I'm making one of these for Surge and Kit though so, yeah, haha. Maybe this will sound biased idk ajshdhhs 😅

a n y w a y

I want to start off by saying that what Surge said to him is definitely fucking with him big time. Like imagine almost your whole personality, your whole life, has been about fighting for yourself and other's freedom.

Only to find out that you can't give someone that freedom simply because you're living.

He can't offer Surge that kind of peace. Maybe by some miracle (which happens often so this potentially might happen), he finds a way, and maybe he's probably not discouraged about it. But who knows where they even went now? How would Sonic even go about trying??

Furthermore, Sonic was clearly not happy when Eggman was mentioned. Furthermore, he almost drowned, which is a big fear for him (obviously shown in this issue alone), and practically watched Surge like. Idk come close to dying or something

The way they framed it looked like she freaking di e d (I even thought she did but she just passed out but just. good lord). Even if she didn't, his face says so much, and he's tongue tied. There's no quips, no retorts at Eggman, he doesn't have the energy to continue. He couldn't even pull himself and Tails up.

And the way the Wisps we're always clinging onto him?? Could be partly for their own support, but could also be trying to comfort Sonic too. He doesn't even seem to mind it at all either.

I feel like it's going to take just a little bit more before Sonic finally snaps and let's everything out. Just some little bit. Even though we most likely won't get that, if anything the next issue he'll act like nothing ever happened again. 🙃 Just wishful thinking, I guess.

He's so tired. And this was just so much. And I'm genuinely still not really sure what to do about it. 😭

[tenderlyrenjun]

new axis [preview]

summary: Baseball Player Lee “Haechan” Donghyuck is not afraid to admit he wants it all: the trophy, the legacy, the pro-athlete career. And he isn’t about to let KU’s rival school undermine that. Joshua Hong’s younger sister constantly camps out at their practices and games, and no matter how many times Haechan has called campus security on her ass, she keeps coming back. One night, under the bright headlights, he finds her on his field, running laps. He stops her at second base, aiming a whiffle ball at her leg, but surprisingly, she catches it and throws it back at him. He barely catches it. 

a/n: okay, repost ... hopefully this sucks less idk ... eta 3/25/2022 (hard deadline) ... will eventually include ... enemies to lovers, friends with benefits (less emphasis on the friends), smut, angst, fluff, etc. etc. 

Haechan matches your glare, briskly stalking his long legs across the baseline. And when your head tilts up, he finally notices it: you stand on top of second base, on top of his spot. He pokes his tongue through his cheek, jaw tightening with it. You really do covet every space. 

“I’ve already told you,” he starts, toes landing just before the large rubber base, “and as I’m sure campus security reiterated: You. Don’t. Have Access.”

“Gotta have access,” you mock him, rasing two hands with lazy quotation fingers, “Without it, you can’t enter.” You pull down four fingers and flip him off, then jab that finger in his chest, bouncing back immediately when he puffs it out. “What a joke,” you sneer, “As if non-students don’t come here all the time, Lee.”

During game days!

Haechan rolls his eyes.

“Yeah, Hong?” he bites, throwing your brother’s last name in your face, almost slicing your hair even shorter. It comes under your shoulders now - probably another quote-unquote disguise to get you into his university, not unlike the KU basketball jersey you stole from Juyeon last year (granted, Haechan hardly saw you at the courts, but everyone knows that Joshua’s best friend, Jeonghan, was on the Yonsei basketball team, so you probably used Juyeon to camp out on their practices, too). “Your university is so boring that you have to sneak into mine?” Haechan scoffs, “What happened? Couldn’t get into KU? Couldn’t even transfer here?”

You lean forward on your toes, almost falling off the rubber base.

Haechan resists the urge to balance you again. He won’t have another batting cages incident again.

But his fingers still twitch at his sides. And you still roll your eyes.

“As if,” you repeat, “Everyone knows that Yonsei has the better baseball team anyways. You haven’t won a championship since Dongyoung left.”

“Then explain why I see you more than I see my own teammates.”

“Maybe you like me,” you taunt, wiggling your way into his face, breath warm and foggy and obvious, in the cold night. His gaze, for just a second, falters from your narrowed eyes to your narrowed lips, then blinks up again, meeting you with equal emotion. “It seems like you look for me.” You tiptoe onto him, clawing your way on his shoulders, holding him steady. He almost thanks Mark for making everyone on the team go to the gym regularly (though not as regular as Jeno or Jaemin). You smirk, snorting sarcastically. “Remember the batting cages?”

Haechan rips one of your hands off his shoulders, barely letting you keep the other one there, however brief or long. He steps onto the plate with you, officially looming over you now.

“We said we wouldn’t mention that. Ever.”

You roll your eyes again. Haechan wishes you would just look away, make a goddamn decision. 

“No, you said that no one can know.” You recoil from him, taking a step backward, a step off the plate, but he catches your hand, grabs you, pulls you back up. And you scoff again, turning your gaze to the bright LED light poles still on from the game earlier. “It’s not like you didn’t know what school I go to. I was wearing a giant Yonsei target on my back, literally,” you mutter, “Or is it that you single me out?” You look up at him, frown deepening in your pout. “For what? To yell at me when everyone is around? You like that? You like the screaming matches in public?” You punch his chest again, but he doesn’t back down. “’Cause I can do it, and I can criticize your form while we do it too.” He inhales sharply, and you take advantage of it, pushing him off the base. “Your hips don’t follow through when you swing. Your shoulders push your hands forward too far. Your head tilts up when y-”

Haechan grabs your face, his fingers latching under your jaw, and kisses you.

“Shut up,” he mumbles before starting a new embrace, tongue shoving down your throat, hands frantically feeling your body, searching for your hips. When he finds what he wants, he yanks you close, almost falling back on the ground had you not pulled back enough to stay balanced.

“Thought you said we weren’t going to do this again,” you whisper breathlessly. 

But you return the kiss anyways, stuffing your hands in his back pockets, meshing his pelvis with yours, unwinding between his arms. 

Neither of you actually said that, said you were never going to do this again.

“Technically,” he mumurs on your lips, ghosting little kisses, making you follow the further he retreats. You only stop when he starts grabbing at your shirt, sticking his warm hands, warm hands even in the late autumn air, against your cold skin, making you shive. “We’re not doing that again.”

“Okay, smart ass,” you glare.

Haechan unclasps your bra. But it doesn’t fall. He is too close, too tight against you, for it to fall completely.

“You don’t sound convinced,” he says with mock empathy, then kisses down your neck, bending his knees to reach your chest. “We’re doing something more.” Your hands slide out of his pockets, and his slide into your pants, slide under your panties as he kneads your ass. “Do you not want this?” He reattaches his lips to yours, unflinching without your hesitation. “Because I want you. Now.”

[fangirls-just-want-to-have-fun]

My Thoughts That No One Asked For on Dancing With The Stars season 31 ep. 9: 90s Week!

Taken down in VERY real time

I am once again reiterating that I would die for Daniel Durant

Not Vinny saying ���salt and pepper” 😭 

The pros are once again SLAYING

DANIEL AND BRITT LOOK SO GOOD OMG 🤩 

Oh I can just feel in my bones that Trevor and Emma are gonna slay this

THEY SLAYED I KNEW IT

8s???? Really?? I think that deserved at LEAST all 9s 🤨

Oh Shangela is KILLING it but I mean water is also wet

THE WAY THE AUDIENCE CLAPPED FOR LIKE A WHOLE MINUTE

More tens for shangela methinks?

ANOTHER 10 FOR SHANGELA THANK YOU CARRIE ANN

Wayne really said I stay booked and blessed 💅😌 

Carrie Ann is in SUCH a better mood tonight I’m living for it

Wayne ATE that ngl

WAYNE IS BACK ON TOP BABY!!! 🙌🏻 

The way Daniel talks about his moms makes me just  🥺   

Daniel’s literally out here about to make me cry

“I’m so happy I can share my heart and soul with Britt.” No one touch me I am SCREAMING

THEM DANCING IN SILENCE IM YELLING

Daniel and Britt’s matching necklaces I’m on the floor they are fucking soulmates idc 😭 

Derek tearing up and his voice breaking talking about Daniel’s dance 🥺 

TENS FOR DANIEL HOLY SHIT IM GOING INSANE

Daniel and Britt each doing half of the “vote” sign so that they’re both doing one sign together god help me

“I don’t want this to end for me and Charli.” Heidi I hate to tell you this but NOTHING’S ending any time soon for Charli 😅 

Heidi I want to feel bad for you but I also kind of want you to go home

Idk I’m still not feeling anything new babes

God this is the first time I’ve ever agreed with Len 100%

Bruno just GRABBING Derek all the time is so funny

YUH GET IT SASHA AND DANIELLA

I think it should have been two 8s instead of one I think she’s still being over scored

Can Gabby and Val stop being good please

I did NOT know Bruno could say “sex bomb” on Disney plus

NOT BRUNO AND DEREK TAKING OFF THEIR SHIRTS LMFAO

FUCK they got another perfect score 

“(Vinny) is living proof of the power of your votes.” IM SCREAMING THEY DIDN’T HAVE TO DO HIM LIKE THAT LMFAO

I swear to fucking god if Vinny survives the double elimination I’m gonna lose my shit

Koko is really doing her damn best my girl is fighting for her LIFE

“I am not supposed to be here right now.” Well at least he knows it

29???? Oh yeah my man is going DOWN

Listen not to be queer but like Charli and Mark both look SO GOOD BRO 😍 

CHARLI’S KICKS???

Ngl Charli and mark actually have such a good partnership 

ALFONSO THROWIN DOWN WITH THE PROS I LOVE IT

Jeez so much perfect scores tonight 😟 (I am getting very scared for Daniel and Britt)

Why did Shangela and Daniel have to go up against one another 😭 

I’m not joking I’ll cry if Daniel and Britt go home

OKAY WAIT DANIEL KINDA SLAYED THAT

Aw yay go Shangela!! But I’m sad for Daniel 😭 

Honestly they were probably the best to be paired up cause they’re both such good sports and I think they’re friends so that was fine

Okay I’m gonna guess right now that Vinny and Heidi are going home (update: yes the gift of prophecy is nice thanks for asking)

Yes of COURSE Trevor was the winner why did we ever act like that was actually a competition 

NOT WAYNE CALLING HEIDI OUT SAYING SHE’S A TRAINED DANCER LMFAO

Wayne and Whitney are slaying this don’t play with me Bruno 

WAYNE AND WITNEY FOR THE FUCKING WIN BITCHES!!!

Okay Charli and Gabby this is the one I have NO idea how this one’s gonna go (but I hope charli wins)

I’m sorry but Charli and Mark ATE that idk how Gabby and Val are gonna top that

YES CHARLI GET IT

I swear to god if Vinny and Heidi don’t go home I’m gonna lose it

God those five points really do make a huge different jeez 

YES DANIEL AND BRITT IN THE SEMI FINALS FUCK IT UP AAAAHHHHHHH

HEIDI AND ARTEM ARE OUT THANK GOD

Okay judges come on now you canNOT pick Vinny over Trevor

“By the beard of Zeus…” Derek Hough you are the love of my life

I love that NONE of the judges are even trying to act like this is a hard decision 

VINNY IS GONE FINALLY THANK GOD

This was a great episode!! It was so nice to see my favorite couple (Daniel and Britt, in case y’all couldn’t already tell) get the tens they deserve!! I’m so nervous but so excited for the semi-finals next week!

[melonsharks]

gonna uhhh explain? the homestuck hlvrai classpects? (is bubby space just cuz he likes space? lmao)

sure. lets go from “Im Most Sure This Works” to “I Dunno About This And Im Open To Spitballing.”

benrey: bard of void. the void aspect is so reliant on mystery and secrets and the unknown and it just immediately screamed benrey to me... whereas bards are like. careless, easy-going in personality usually, and it was what immediately stood out to me. Their whole thing is that they while they are very “nothing matters i do what i want” if they let meaninglessness consume them (im a bad and thats all ill ever be), they will become the big bad (thank u to my pal after for spitballing w me). this is the one that was both like Stand Out obvious to me and also the one I needed to do less research for. Bard of Void. Yeah.

gordon: maid of blood. maids usually rely on others for their aspect, for unity and connection. their whole thing is learning to rely on themselves to really get into like. the natural leadership role that is befitting for blood players. in gordon’s case, for this planet, gordon relies a lot on the structure the planet hierarchy and his job gives him. Especially given his lowblood status. so his whole goal is letting go of the dependency on those structures that don’t really matter so he can become a dependable leader instead of a dependent one. (super special thanks again to after for spitballing w me about gordon in particular, i was really unsure about this one and then he blew my mind with blood aspect.)

coomer: seer of time. always aware of time, always aware of things they probably shouldn’t be. when i think SEER, i think existential crisis. they’re always aware of how much time is passing and how much time they have left, the ambiguity of destiny and fate and which timeline is the right one. i originally picked seer when making my assessment and fuckgindjk accidentally switched darnold and coomer when making my original notes and i am, obviously, WAY more positive about this one because its the one I actually picked. DSKFJ but. seer of time. associating the fact that coomer has seen whats out there (there’s nothing there) + the fact that he consistently gave the ETA for the lambda lab makes this make the absolute most sense to me.

tommy: witch of hope. witches tend to be happy and bubbly and capable of fooling other people into thinking they’re harmless whether intentional or not! it seemed fitting to me. hope seemed right! He’s an unwavering source of hope throughout the series, this is why gordon trusts him so much in the first place. everything! is going! to be okay! mr. freeman!

bubbbby: thief of space. bubby is a thief idk what to say bubby is ABSOLUTELY a thief ok. thieves are egocentric, have CONFIDENCE in their aspect and but hide their insecurities. now space…..YEA OK SO WHAT IF I DID PICK IT BECAUSE HE LIKES SPACE? Look, space players, thief of space in particular, they’re pretentious, impatient, and take up a lot of space because they want to. Also he LIKES SPACE OK? And it is opposite to time, which is Coomer’s!! WE NEED BOTH FOR THIS SESSION TO WORK OKAY 😔

(Edited the order of these to reiterate that I wrote them down from most sure to least sure, coomer did get moved over tommy because Yeah ok my brain is making sense now.)

i usually look at dahniwitchoflight for aspect stuff cuz their analysis is really good, so! UMM UM. Yeah ok thats it for now.