#space .. ellie and joel .. dad and daughter fun times ..

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💛Wonderwall

💛Wonderwall: someone you find yourself thinking about all the time; the person you are completely infatuated with

 

💛“Finding someone who saves you from yourself.” ~Noel Gallagher

 

💛Plot: It has been a few weeks since Joel and Serena have told each that they love one another~it is now the beginning of August and the family is throwing a go away party for Ellie, Sarah, and Dina

💛Warnings: None

💛Spicy Warnings: None

💛Chapter Eleven

~Serena’s POV~

Summer has gone by so fast. It is now August and the Miller family is having a go-away party for Sarah, Ellie, and Dina. All three girls will be leaving soon for college and we are all so proud of them.

However, I could tell that Joel was having a hard time with it. But, I have not pressed him on it. I wanted to give him space. I just made sure that he knew I was here if he needed to talk.

Joel is now talking with Tommy and Maria and I am talking with Ellie, Sarah, and Dina.

“So are you guys excited?” I asked.

“Yes. College is going to be so much fun.” Ellie smiled.

“Well hey, I am going to be there to keep you in line.” Dina smiled.

Dina gave Ellie a kiss on the cheek and Ellie smiled.

“What about you Sarah?” I asked.

“I am excited. I am a little worried about dad though.” Sarah said.

“Why is that?” I asked.

“Well, this is the first time we have been away from him.” Sarah replied.

“Well, he won’t be alone. Joel now has you.” Dina said.

“Yeah. I will take care of your dad. I promise. I love your father very much.” I smiled.

“We know. Just look out for him Serena.” Ellie said.

“I will.” I smiled.

Just then Tommy, Joel, and Maria got our attention.

“Well, I just wanted to say that I am proud of you girls. You’re going to have fun in college.” Tommy toasted.

After we toasted, Joel cleared his throat.

“Alright. Well, I am not much of sentimental guy. So I am going to keep this short and sweet. Ellie and Sarah, I love you both so much. I am proud of both of you and everyday I am grateful that I got blessed with both of you as my daughters. You’re going to do great at college. Dina, you have become like a daughter to me as well. You three take care of each other. I love all three of you.” Joel stated.

After we toasted, Sarah, Ellie, and Dina all walked up to him and gave him a hug.

I just smiled watching them. I loved all of them.

I had found my family. The one I had been searching for.

Just then Dina looked my way and extended her arm out to me.

I smiled and walked up and joined the group hug.

After we hugged, Ellie, Sarah, and Dina went back to talking. I was about to go and talk to them until I felt arms pull me in. Once Joel got a hold of me, I felt him kiss my neck tenderly.

I turned around and smiled at him.

“That was a beautiful speech Joel.” I smiled.

“Yeah, well. I just wanted to say what was on my heart. I am going to miss those girls.” Joel said.

“I know baby. I am going to miss them too.” I said.

Joel put an arm around my shoulder and I put my arm around his back.

Maria and Tommy walked over with Benji and all three of us began talking.

The rest of the party consisted of conversations, laughter, tears, and hugs.

After the party, Joel and I drove from Tommy and Maria’s house back to mine.

However, I could tell that Joel started to feel off again. I had kept calm about it.

But as soon as we walked in my house, I saw Joel walk into the living room and he sat down on the couch.

Before I realized it, I heard Joel sniffling and I knew he was about to break down.

I sat my purse down and went over to Joel and wrapped my arms around him.

“Baby, it’s okay. Just hold me as long as you need to. I’m not going anywhere.” I whispered.

With that, Joel held onto me right as he cried and I just calmed him and told him it was going to be okay.

@ali-r3n

[heroes-fading]

hello good morning you have altered my morning with your fic and here are my point by point thoughts

“Love is being there, it’s being solid, it’s being nothing like the back of a man he hardly remembers the face of now.” this line?????? not to trauma dump but as someone whose dad left her 🤪 I’m in so much pain over this one line because yes!!!!!!! it’s not that at fucking all 

“Joel isn’t his father. He’s worse” notes app apology right now. 

no bc Joel bringing up not leaving Ellie but I know this mf says the “You’re not my daughter” line and I’m balling my fists ready to Fight bc as someone (again not to trauma dump) but who has had something similar said, Ellie is better than me I would not forgive as easily LOL 

all I am is crying over the “You’re not my daughter” scene and Joel convincing himself he has to leave her god it’s too early to be hysterical 

“He hopes it’s not a death sentence” well. it’s not Ellie’s death sentence (TLOU2 stares in the distance) (hey let’s think about when that happens and leaving her and he can’t even do anything about it)

thank u for speeding up the forgiveness timeline bc my GOD nothing hurts me more than knowing it was Years they were distant

once again you have hurt me with taylor swift. joel is my emotion support father figure and this fic is the case and point. but this was SO FREAKING good you amaze me

this is me giving you a hug

joel is truly an emotional support father figure for the Community at large. we saw a mass murderer with attachment issues and went "yeah that man? that's my father now. thanks." a bunch of adults and teens went "yeah this is making me mentally ill again i can't wait to write and read a bunch of Scenarios about Fatherhood".

(fun bluestoplights lore -- my dad's dad actually bounced on him before he was even born, probably borne out of an affair. dude went on to become a heart doctor with a building named after him, had kids, married a few times, died nine days after my dad did when my dad was fifty-three and the guy was in his nineties...never once checking in on my dad after he got sick...my dad never said a word about any of it -- he just so happens to look exactly like the guy and i did internet research on obits with nothing but a last name that isn't ours -- but i think a lot about how he tried to show up for us and hung in through hell for the sake of his kids when his dad never once did it for him. add that in with my own deep seated fear of becoming my mother...YEAH oh i put a little flavor in here of my own trauma that's what makes the broth complex i suppose. i don't believe in 23andme or whatever but if i did i could make those kids' lives exciting. everyone loves family trauma!)

anyway, i think every time we write in this lil pool together we're putting bits of ourselves in there. not in the cannibalism way. just the trauma way. so to feel solidarity with that, to explore those feelings in a safe lil space, is so meaningful so i'm glad it resonates and i'm glad we get to feel these feelings together.