#started from the bottom

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

#You Know What That Is? Growth

[deepsandwichunknown]

Meet Frank.

Frank says 👋

Frank wants to know if you have any goldfish to share.

[coogi-pants]

cali vibes 🌴 💨

California, 2022

i love photographing my friends and of course myself lol

also that cali weed hit different 👀

[howifeltabouthim]

And he had come down in the world and must start on the lowest rung of the ladder.

L. P. Hartley, from The Hireling

[erinella98]

Belfast Books and Ballgowns is less than two weeks away! Threads are finally starting to pull together on all the pieces for my table 📚

Speaking of my table, my assistant Niamh or I (most likely both!) will be at table 15 as circled below. There will be signed books, swag and goodie bags available. It'll be first come first serve so get it while it's hot! Remember that every purchase of a goodie bag will come with an entry into a raffle to win a tiara 👑

I can't wait to meet everyone! 💞

Where to Find Me

[bowyer35]

Started with a locked door, now we're here...

Dan's door factory days have more weight than we once thought, maybe?🤔

[mansorus]

[swan2swan]

Okay, I think I'm settled in.

Mood's right.

Late start, but let's see my man DO THE THING

[starry-night-lite-bright]

I’ve always tried to avoid thinking about this because it’s too painful.

Instead I think about the person I could have become if I hadn’t broken the cycle of abuse. Hurt people, hurt people—including themselves.

I think about how far I’ve come despite the odds being stacked against me.

who else mourning the person they could've been if they were treated kindly as a child

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

My Co-Writer → My Head Writer

[dubnah]

[hiphopvibe1]

Drake’s “Started From The Bottom” single hits diamond eligibility

Continue reading Drake’s “Started From The Bottom” single hits diamond eligibility

[pixendrit]

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[commotionpotion]

long post lmao

does anyone else wish they had something to say… like in an existential way but also in any way at all? people make such put-together posts and videos and responses and i just wish i could think of anything like that at all. and then i consume beautiful art and music and poetry and media of all kinds and i am blown away by the beauty that others are able to create with their hours of dedication and practice and love that they pour their souls into. and i just wish i had the passion and dedication to do that for anything at all. and i look back in time and i just think oh if i had practiced more then… if i had set myself up for now in the past… and i know it is never too late practically speaking but i feel so behind already even though i am young. like i was supposed to already cultivate a born-in, innate talent for the things i crave. and because i haven't, i am a failure of being able to create the things i feel are inside of me but i cannot get them out. i feel like there is restless creativity itching at my seams but i do not know how to get it out of myself because i have been so trained to think of the things i create as a failure. and i know this is a failing not just of myself but of the support systems i grew up in and the society we find ourselves in. that we have come to think that art is not worth making if it is not beautiful, and i know practically speaking that's a lie. humans love to create and be joyous and do wonderful things badly. but even though i know it's a lie i am still so victim to it. and breaking out of that is so difficult. and i just wish i had something to say. an audience to scream my thoughts at. sometimes it's nice to scream into the void but it's also nice to know that there are people who care about what you think who aren't even supposed to, who don't even have to. and i feel like the way people begin to care is from seeing the wonderful things you can create. but i feel as if i cannot create anything at all because of this insurmountable barrier in front of me that is all-encompassing to my mind. i cannot create something beautiful because i never got all of the bad creations out of myself, but i cannot make those bad creations because it is so mortifying to have made something bad. and i wish we would just let ourselves do things badly. another symptom of gifted kid syndrome: if i cannot do it perfectly the first time then what is the point of doing it at all? and i see beautiful things and i think i should be able to make them even though i know there is so much bleeding practice that went into those things. so complicated and deep. how arrogant of me to wish to scratch what they have without even a fraction of their dedication. but it's so hard to dedicate myself to things i am not perfect at because what if i do not become the kind of good i was inspired by? what if i do not become good at all? i feel like i was sold such a lie of greatness by all of the fantastical things i absorbed myself into as a child that now, looking at my normal life of mediocrity and office wages, nothing is worth it if it is not beyond what is possible. i have written so circularly that i cannot even hope this would make sense to another, probably not even to myself. but i feel like it is such a core issue to me to grapple with the illusions of greatness and fantasy that i was so enamored with and then trying to accept that those things are never going to be real. it's like a fandom kid version of what i have been talking about this whole time. it's like a pathetic version of "still waiting for my hogwarts letter" of course there are real things that are achievable and good and exciting but i was sold the idea of being great innately so that when i see all the effort that goes into truly being great at something, especially something creative, i just give up. it's too much work. if i was really meant to be great, it would come to me with no work at all.

[landoslastnerve]

DEADPOOL (2016) dir. Tim Miller DEADPOOL 2 (2018) dir. David Leitch DEADPOOL & WOLVERINE (2024) dir. Shawn Levy

[hinamie]

oversaturate