#taking classes for it currently and everything

[nobodyfamousposts]

It all started with a smoothie that went wrong. And not even in the normal ways a smoothie could go wrong.

It had been a good smoothie. Honestly one of the better ones she’d had. A nice mix of flavors with the added satisfaction of the fortune that brought everything together to create it.

Someone had left a pomegranate in her locker. No idea why. She checked around to see if it belonged to anyone. Maybe someone put it in her locker by mistake? Or if it was a gift, she at least wanted to know so she could thank them.

Sadly, no one knew. And no one else wanted it. Regardless, it felt a little sad to just leave it there. Not to mention wasteful. And Marinette hated wasting food. She was sure she could make something out of the fruit! Macarons? Tarts? Molasses? 

She was still debating the options when she happened upon an outdoor fruit stand. Which was rather unusual but not completely uncommon. And the nice man seemed to have some good stock to choose from, even if they weren’t in season yet. So she walked away with a fresh pear.

How lucky to get a pomegranate AND a pear? She was a little surprised to get them. Weren’t they supposed to be fall fruits? How were they even this fresh and ripe? It was still summer, after all.

Regardless, she took them home planning to make something out of them…only to forget about them for a couple of days until an all-nighter and a particularly rushed morning left her needing to make something quick for the go and she figured a smoothie would be good enough. Especially since she needed to eat them before they went bad. So chopped up and into the blender they went.

Which in retrospect, probably wasn’t the best idea.

In her defense, Marinette was very busy. Very busy and on an increasingly tight schedule. She had exams coming up, a report to right, and a commission she needed to complete, and a mock up she needed to start for her project—which was going to be evaluated by an outside panel of judges in an official setting, which she was completely unprepared for as it was. And if she thought she was unprepared for that, there was no way she was prepared for…this!

This being two unnatural but still very handsome men in her living room arguing with each other over which of them got to take her home. Which would sound very flattering and maybe enticing under most normal circumstances if the “Home“ in this case didn’t refer to places that weren’t even on earth. And that she had only vaguely heard of in stories that she was pretty sure weren’t real.

Or at least she HAD been sure before today. Will wonders ever cease?

Or maybe she was hallucinating?

“She ate the fruit of the Land of the Dead.” The blond one insisted, his voice rich and sending shivers down her spine in a rather intense and interesting way she hadn’t known could be a thing before. “That puts her under my jurisdiction.”

“I would disagree. She ate the fruit of the Wilds and thus is bound to my claim.” The blue—yes, blue haired man countered with a smile that would make her melt if not for the teeth. The unusual and sharp teeth.

Both of these men were otherworldly beings summoned apparently by her smoothie.

Both were also ridiculously hot.

And she absolutely did NOT have time for this!

“Look,” she interrupted their stare-off, bringing both gazes to her. “I’m late enough as it is. If you two could break and enter some other time, that would be wonderful.”

They both stared at her. And yes, she should be more concerned about these two (incredibly handsome) strangers in her apartment, but she was going to be late if she didn’t leave now and run—literally run to her first class as fast as possible.

She slipped on her shoes and grabbed her bags.

“Thanks! Don’t steal my stuff—you probably can’t use it anyway. Bye!” She called as she left.

The door shut behind her, leaving the two men behind in silence and a now empty apartment.

“Did she just leave us?” Asked His Majesty Thanatos, God of Death, Judge of Souls, and the current Ruler of the Underworld.

“So it would seem.” Replied The Erlking, Lord of the Wilds, King of Fae, and current Ruler of Underhill.

The two sized each other up while considering their position and options. It would be difficult to continue the argument without the subject present. Though it was quite off-putting that she would simply leave when they were in the midst of such an important battle to determine her future.

At this point, it appeared there was little more to do but wait. That was fine.

They were nothing if not patient after all…

Somehow, some way, a human managed to acquire both a pomegranate from the underworld and fruit from the realm of the Fae, then made a smoothie out of them. Now, Hades and the Fae are in a fierce argument regarding who the human belongs to.

[twofrogshugging]

post s4 sydcarmy moments that currently live in my mind palace, ranging from realistic to delusional 🤪

- Carmy will eat Syd’s food at The Bear (realistic) It will be the best meal he’s ever ate (delusional)

- Syd will request Carmy’s feedback on her new menu (realistic) He’ll end up spending the whole day with her jamming on the new menu, we get to see them cook together again and talk about everything and anything (delusional) He might even get so carried away jamming with Syd that he accidentally stands up Claire (I’m sorry girl) in an inverse of S2 (extra delusional)

- Carmy gets into drawing and painting again (realistic) Carmy paints a new painting for The Bear’s decor. It’s clearly inspired by Sydney, perhaps inspired by all the different bandanas he’s seen her wear (delusional)

- Sydney, now officially part of family business via the new ownership agreement, meets with Donna again (realistic) Donna invites Sydney as a special guest to a family dinner that involves Richie, Nat, Pete, Sophie, and of course - Carmy. Donna does not hesitate to tell Carmy over dinner that Syd told her all about her visit to Empire and how she only did it to try Carmy’s cooking. Sydney reveals her favorite dish, much to Carmy’s confusion that the Hamachi with Blood Orange was NOT on the menu. It then clicks for him that Syd was the person who received the special dish he made that ONE time. The fate of it all weighs heavily on Carmy’s mind (delusional - but some type of reveal has got to happen cmonnnnnn)

- Carmy and Syd talk outside of work (realistic) Carmy will call Syd like how Richie calls Tiff. In my head, he would be calling Claire, but he’s currently on Claire’s shit list again for ditching her (delusional) (see second bullet)

- Carmy has his own Chicago food journey (realistic) Syd will be right by his side (delusional)

- Carmy takes a sewing class (realistic) He makes something special for Syd (delusional)

- Carmy meets up or runs into Shapiro (realistic) The conversation is passive aggressive af (also realistic) Shapiro makes a subtle jab that insinuates that Sydney only chose The Bear because they must be sleeping together. While he denies it, this definitely stirs something inside Carmy (delusional)

[boogersparkles]

ON LIVE

Influencer!Yuuna x gn!reader

Genre: fluff, establised relationship

Summery: Life with your influencer gf

Words: 990~

Note: MY MOM WALKED IN THE MIDDLE OF ME WRITTING THIS TO SHOW MY GRANDMA HOW TO TURN ON THE WIFI HELP😭😭😭 Wanted to write more but brain was empty. Constructive criticism is welcomed!

Yuuna has become quite popular the past few weeks on Twisted Wonderland's equivalent of Instagram. Cater had introduced her to Magicam, saying that she would get popular with her uniqe style and her bubbly personality. So she made an account, taking about about gyaru fashion, make-up tutorials and generaly surrounding her content with her interests.

She recently started live streaming too, mentioning your name every once in a while, making her fans spam the chat with questions about your identity.

Yuunaaaaaa partner reveal when??????

[Name] this [Name] that JUST TELL US WHO DIS MYSTERY PERSON IZ

I lowkey headcannon [Name] to be a 6'5 vampire

For now, you wanted to keep your identity hidden to not attract any unnecessary drama. Knowing full well just how problematic some people on the internet can be, especialy if they thought that you weren't good enough for Yuuna. But you didn't care about what other people had to say, you only cared that the two of you were happy.

Some followers were a bit intrusive, but thankfuly most of Yuuna's fanbase was respectful and called them out when they crossed any boundries.

Yuuna also tried to turn the camera away whenever you nearly reveal your face, which so far she has been succesful, but there were some slip ups. Like when she accidently dropped her phone, giving her audience a very, very blurry view of your figure, or when she took a selfie of herself and coincidentally included your toes in the corner of the photo.

Speaking of which, you had also become your girlfriend's personal photographer. She might beg you to take millions of photos for her, but you never turn her down. You'd also take pictures together where your face is just out of frame.

Ace teases you a lot for bending at your girlfriend's wimps, but at least you are in a healthy relationship. Besides, your photography skills have enhanced and some of Yuuna's fans noticed too.

I still remember when [Name] took shaky photos. Look how much they grew 🥺

6,8k ♡

I NEED to hire [Name] as my photographer NOW

5,2k ♡

Yuuna. Im gonna need to borrow [Name] for a bit...

1,6k ♡

One particular day, you came home tired. You got stuck in detention because the student you got paired with during alchemy wanted to be a smartass and decided to mess with his friend who was in a different group. Which led to them fighting and a whole spell brawl started. It got to the point where Crewel had to paralize them in order to stop them.

Since you were the student's partner, of course you had to be dragged into detention. You were also ordered to clean the class, but the others half-assed it so you ended up doing most of the work.

Despite everything that had happened, you were glad to finally be home. The sound of the door shutting snaps you out of your daze.

You see Yuuna on the couch, she had her hair in a ponytail, along with two hairclips holding her bangs out of her face. She was in her nightgown, with a mascera bottle in one hand and a mirror in the other. Currently, she was talking to her phone, probably recording another video for her fans.

You can't help but get butterflys in your stomach just by looking at your girlfriend, even if she had put make-up to only half of her face.

She perks up when she sees you, smilling brightfuly as if she was presented with a bouquet of flowers and not to you dripping with goo.

"Welcome home babe!"

"Glad to be back. I'm pretty tired so I'm gonna go take a shower and then a nap"

"Okay, rest well!"

You go up to her and give her a kiss on the top of the head to not ruin her make-up, muttering a little "Love you" before leaving.

Weirdly, instead of replying back she just freezes in her spot, not saying anything. You probably just got in the middle of her recording, but she could redo her video.

...Unless she wasn't recording a video.

"Hey Yuuna? Are you... live streaming?"

"...Yes..."

"..........Shit.."

Yuuna shyly scratches her cheek as she glances at her phone, which was being spammed with gushing comments in the chat.

PARTNER REVEAL OMS OMS

THEY LOOK SO CUTE TOGETHEEEERRR

OMS THE LITTLE KISS!11!!!1!

MY VAMPIRE HEADCANNON💔💔💔 (they're still a cute couple tho)

"...I'll let you deal with that"

"[NAME] COME BACK AND INTRODUCE YOURSELF PROPERLY"

To say that you weren't thinking about yesterday's incident was a simple lie. You were pretty emberassed to say the least, not exactly wanting to be seen with mysterious sludge on your hair and a disfigured uniform. At least nobody seemed to have paid too much attention.

At the moment, you were sitting with Yuuna and Cater in the school's cafeteria, watching edits of that one clip of you kissing Yuuna, who was squeeling along with Cater about them.

"Hey! Look at this drawing of us!"

"OMS!!! You guys look so cute together! #LoveBirds #HappyCouple"

"Did they have to draw the gunk?"

You honestly didn't expect Yuuna's fans to be THIS enthusiastic about finally seeing you, let alone all the fanart that they would be making of you. At least Yuuna seems to be enjoying it.

"Look at us here! The chibi artstyle makes you super adorable!"

"Just how many of these did you find?"

"Oh, you haven't even seen the start of it! Next time you should join one of my lives, so my fans can meet you properly"

"I'll think about it"

While you weren't up in arms to join her, you'd prefer to not look like a failed science expirement on camera. You would much rather take things slow and you know that Yuuna would support your choise either way.

So you'll appear on camera every once in a while, at least for now...

[motof1bfs]

my take on a post race results graphic!! (click 4 better quality) -🏁

[eyepatchdate]

Do you think some Mikado citizens ever figured out they could get their original works published as long as they threw King Aquila in there somewhere? And how much of it was actually fanfiction about Aquila, Mikado's state-designated blorbo? It'd be really funny if Aquila also got "and he'll return in Mikado's darkest hour" like King Arthur. Like technically he did!

@thonkphonk

OK......... THE FAERIE QUEENE IS AN INTEREST OF MINE. I read Books 3 and 4 for a class called 'Violence and Romance in Renaissance Literature'. We spent a lot of time on it, because iirc the only other thing we read in the class at all was some Shakespeare. So it was actually mostly a class on the Faerie Queen books 3 and 4 lol (and all of my papers were on the Faerie Queene instead of Shakespeare lol).

The whole deal with the Faerie Queene is that the titular Queene is the goal of King Arthur's quest, and yet Arthur himself only has cameos in the stories because he is the 'main plot' where all the books have different main characters (and focuses on elaborating on various virtues that each main knight upholds--Arthur is the perfect knight, who extols all virtues, whereas all the characters in the books exist to define specific virtues--ex: Britomart represents Chastity, Artegall represents Justice, etc). And Spenser never actually finished the Faerie Queene, which is why Arthur's quest never gets full attention.

To apply this to SMTIV would be extremely fun.

Absolutely I could see so many stories about King Aquila's times. Especially since Mikado is trapped in this sort of medieval stone-age ('holy times' as viewed by angels) so its not even like stories about Aquila would be dated, it would be so easy to write stories of modern times with Aquila present. Or, even easier, would be his inclusion in these 'fairy-stories' the Luxurors know.

Aquila means so much to people despite having lived so long ago, I would assume his knights are known the same way Arthur's are (with people inventing new knights all the time, as with Arthurian legends as well). So people would toss Aquila into all this often while writing their own stories about the various knights (with a focus on those knights because, like Arthur's presentation in the Faerie Queene, Aquila would be the 'perfect' character, meaning that the stories are more interesting if they can be about the flaws of the others).

But 100% Aquila would always come in to save the day, or to approve of the resolution the story reaches, etc. I am so on board with that idea.

That being said, this would mean the angels likely erase much of this when they take over Mikado, Aquila' name remains on the Obelisk, but his statue is destroyed, so I imagine many of these books are just straight up burned. A few would survive though, less objectionable ones,but the angels hate the influence Aquila still has on the people, and how he is still venerated.

Also you are SO RIGHT about the 'once and future' thing. Like. This has no support in the game because the game is so nebulous about Nanashi's birth, but I do somewhat theorize he was born in Mikado? He's literally just found in Sky Tower, so I'm like, okay was he born there and brought down somehow? I would KILL to know anything about this because like. Ok, they found a baby. How did they find him? In the hands of a demon, dead humans, or just like, on the ground? Hello? Can I have some information please?

But I've always assumed Nanashi was born in Mikado and then SOMETHING was a reason for him to be carried below, and then discovered. Because like. we don't even know why the HUNTERS were in Sky Tower--most people knew about Medusa back then and wouldn't want to go, and people even assume Medusa works for Tayama (which is false--I theorize she worked for Akira but that isn't confirmed anywhere). but if people just assumed the Sky Tower was controlled by the Ashura-kai, I don't know why anyone would approach--they KNOW Medusa kills everyone up there.

and Nanashi of course is randomly discovered after Medusa is there, he's only born well after Akira establishes Mikado, so the Hunters have long-withdrawn from Sky Tower and like. what. is happening.

But yeah a prophecy about Aquila's return and somehow that also including the need for Nanashi to go below rather than above, there's some sect of people somewhere that know something, this is just, one of those many holes left open in the SMTIV world. so we are free to make theories and headcanons and I am so with it.

Thank you for sending this, this was so fun omg. I went on a bit of a ramble.

[sourpeachpit]

adding to this that ballet is Very white. there are obviously ballet dancers of color, but they're relatively few compared to other specialty performing arts fields like opera, broadway-style dance, etc.

so combine this with the immense stress of dancing professionally (a single injury can fuck your whole career over like you're a racehorse, as can a pregnancy or scare, your hormones doing anything weird to your weight or appearance, etc.) where these very young, often white, women are being heavily pressured in such a way where their body is everything, where their value is a 1:1 with how they look and how they can physically perform. they know it's not fair. they know it's cruel. but ballet dancers don't go into it for money or fame, they do it because they Gotta dance or they'll just die.

"how does that connect to whiteness though," you might wonder. and that's where it starts getting really rancid, because the (very real) unfairness of the professional dance world leads to some very ugly complexes surrounding not only looks but also "I have to grab onto what I love as if it's the last one in the world, the last there'll ever be." everything they are (on a personal level) cannot be taken as good enough. and surrounded by others like them, they're not seeing the privilege that allows them to be considered the "default" that's obvious from the outside. so in all-too-common WW fashion they see the marginalized celebrate themselves and each other and take that to mean "AHAAAAAA, so THEY get to be loved and celebrated, but what about ME?? what about the work I do??"

which is myopic as shit. but going nose to grindstone on one thing 24/7 from literal early childhood well into early adulthood is going to breed that exact myopia. both sheltered by whiteness and wealth and left out to dry by the brutality of the field, they're primed to be DESPERATELY attached to the first man they fall in love with.

and the kind of men who like to date ballerinas are, too often, the types who know exactly how neurotic the job makes them. they're all too happy to hold their love up as a carrot with a stick in the other hand. and their (the ballerina's) whiteness makes them an even more appealing trophy wife for racists who want a pet woman to crank out white babies for them. ballet is a great career for the tradwife because it's inherently temporary. and once it's over he's got her full time and she has little else to fall back on because to excel in ballet often necessitates neglecting other things. and because ballerinas have to have ambition or they can't survive, really it's no wonder the side hustle of "influencer" holds temptation, especially because it allows them to soothe the fears of "what if I get ugly or fat or old and my husband leaves me for his secretary" by showing an audience of thousands "that's right I'm #goals, I'm hot and competent, because I work." every hand-sewn egg apron or homemade sourdough or weird raw milk recipe is a chance to prove that competence and sense of class, beauty, and fitting into the role that ballet, such as it currently is, forces them to fill.

the ballerina to tradwife pipeline must be studied

[quitedisastrous]

i wish i could just do nothing for a few days straight. maybe even just sleep for a few days straight. sooo excited for constant misery over the next 20 days

ranting in the tags. i would just scroll past if i were you

[fantasticalleigh]

Thanks for the tag! This is such an interesting idea and I’ve enjoyed seeing all the responses. I had to do some digging to find my oldest art and turns out i don’t remember where much of it is and i guess i haven’t backed it up anywhere so as of now some of the oldest stuff i have is from 2017/18.

OLDEST ART I CAN FIND: 2017-18

For a long time I considered myself as mostly a portrait artist. I loved drawing people's faces and had a fear and aversion to drawing full bodies. All of these are from 2018 (the black and white one might be 2017) but I wish I'd been able to find even older art than these because the skill jump was huge between high school and my first couple years in uni. In high school I never really used references when drawing and despite taking a ton of art classes I never really paid attention to the fundamentals so whatever I made would come out looking wonky. So fast forward to freshman year of uni and I really started taking that more seriously and I would find images I liked of celebrities and draw them as closely as I could. I was also dabbling in ballpoint pen drawings at the time but couldn't crack a proper technique until later.

I mainly did only traditional art until I got my first job after high school and could save up for an XP Pen drawing monitor and I started dabbling in digital art. I'd owned a pen tablet before from Wacom years before but it was also the kind that had no screen on it and I hated the experience of drawing on a blank slate but needing to keep my eyes on my laptop screen. It felt extremely unnatural so I only used it a few times and then gave up. So having a tablet with a screen directly on it opened up a whole new world for me but I really struggled with learning the ins and outs of digital art. I hated everything I was making but was determined to get better, and the most important thing was I knew I didn't want to go for the level of realism that I usually liked in traditional art. I liked doing cartoony stuff a lot too so I wanted to explore new styles through digital.

FIRST ART POSTED ONLINE

It was difficult to find the actual first art I ever posted online! I have some ancient Deviant Art accounts that probably still have that old art but I don't have the login stuff anymore ;-; I started using instagram in 2012 but sort of don't use that account on the left anymore. Once Instagram implemented AI a couple years ago I sort of nuked it and ended up deleting most of my archive on that account. I mainly use that account to message irl friends. But my earliest art on IG was all straight from my sketchbooks and most of it was like chicken scratch. Very messy, unpolished, and rushed.

I've pretty much always done tons of fan art. I drew the Draco Malfoy thing in the middle for a Dramione fic I was writing at the time--this must have been 2016 or 17... I was/am obsessed with Kylo Ren (and reylo in general) so I drew him a ton. I also was working on my own OCs (the Knight lady in the second image at the top of this post). My art professors at uni kept pushing me to get out of my box and focus on more conceptual/non fan art stuff which I found terrifying. By this point I was growing more comfortable with digital art--in 2020 I (perhaps irresponsibly) used my pandemic stimulus check to buy an ipad and apple pencil and procreate and having a smaller, more portable tablet made it so much easier to practice more often and I think that's when digital art really started clicking for me even though it took a lot longer to actually start developing my own style. I made a second art account on instagram (with this current username) to post all my fanart in since one professor told me it might be unprofessional for me to host fan art on my "serious" art account.

MOST RECENT STUFF:

The top two are admittedly from 2021 but I was and still am super proud of that entire body of work. For my art major senior 'thesis' I had to develop a body of work and set it up in an exhibition at uni. I threw myself into that and by then had really managed to nail down a good ballpoint pen technique that satisfied what I wanted to portray in my art. This process involved layers and layers of delicate hatching with ballpoint pens and it ruined my eyesight and because each piece took me so long I was experiencing wrist pain often. The whole series was supposed to be about fear and madness, hence the super garish and intense colors and weird imagery. I made like 10 or so drawings like this but I haven't really made any more ballpoint stuff since. It just takes way too long and I burnt myself out severely just completing that body of work but I'm still really proud of it. Maybe I'll return to the pens one day...

As for the digital stuff, since I graduated uni I jumped headlong into further developing my digital body of work. Most of it still is admittedly fan art but nothing else has helped me grow quite like fan art so no issue there. I've made several short and long form comics and worked on more illustrative stuff. I have other/new OCs and ships that I draw quite often when I'm not making wrestling fan art and I try to push myself to keep going out of my comfort zone. I have always haaated drawing backgrounds or ornamental stuff but for the past while I've challenged myself to really give a shit and actually put in the effort and it's slowly paying off. I'm still not 100% satisfied with where I am now but compared to where I started I think it's pretty neat :')

Ok here's a little thing i thought would fun for any artists to show off their progress at learning art (plus I'm nosey🤭).

Show off the oldest drawings you did (or the oldest that you can still find), the first things you were confident enough to upload online, and your most recent drawings and talk about them and show off how much you've progressed :)

Probably gonna end up missing some people, but I'm tagging a bunch of cool artists I follow/am mutuals with and am nosey to see how they started out, but no pressure :)

@fantasticalleigh, @thlayli-ra, @heelhausen, @stupidmarkzone, @2ndcitynightmare, @punk-o-ween, @normallypassingby, @tvheit, @seasonal-depression-of-punk

And if you wanna have a look at my old stuff, I've got it below =)

Oldest Drawings I Can Find

Of course, the first is an OC. Never did anything with her tho. Notice the lack of forehead and elbows, the arms that barely reach the hips, how indishtinguishable each part of the body is from one another. They're a perfectly smooth pole. and of course those wings. This is the first thing in my first proper sketchbook when I decided I was gonna start taking art more seriously. This would have been when i started secondary in 2014 at 11 years old. And I can't find anything from before that, since I never kept anything in a proper book/folder.

Second image is another of the first drawings in the book. It was my first closeup of a face, and also my first time drawing anime. I know I'm not the only artist who was desperate to learn to draw an anime-style as a kid. I remember doing this while on holiday, trying to follow an online tutorial, taking about 4 hours to get the outcome I did, and getting so frustrated that I couldn't get it to look right, that I was almost brought to tears. I'm pretty sure this was one of those "I'm never drawing again! >:(" moments, lol. Looking back, it was a pretty good first attempt. But I guess I was always a bit of a perfectionist, lol. Funnily enough, while I carried the anime eyes forward in my art style for years, to this day, I still can't draw a proper full anime style character.

First Drawings I Uploaded Online

I put these on insta to show my mates from school. The first picture was an attempt at a close up face with the new brush markers i'd got for christmas. This was 2017 just before i turned 14. Pretty sure I copied the design from an art tutorial book, that was supposed to be hyper-realistic (another christmas present). But I just couldn't bring that to life so just did what I could. Also, first time I used a signature. My signature's very different nowadays cos it's based on my tumblr username and not me actual name. But yeah. I was tryna get more professional I guess.

Second pic is the first full body piece I uploaded a few days later. Again, used the drawing books trying to learn how to draw flowy clothes. Think it was a book about drawing anime clothes that I used for this (another christmas present). By this point, each body part could move seperately and had joints. Also note the anime eyes, cos my simpler-but-still-anime-inspired eyes were something I stuck with a long ass time. This was the style I drew most often, and could usually do without having references (but obviously for this drawing specifically, I had the reference for the clothes). Had a lot of trouble with perspective, so all my characters faced forward, and later they would always face a 3/4 angle. And they could never lean or reach forwards cos I just couldn't get that to look right.

Most Recent Pieces

The most most recent is on the left, being my most recent closeup of a face. Still has a cartoonish edge with the lineart but much more realistic. And I'm fucking with this semi-realistic look atm. Tbh I dunno if i'd have the patience for the tiny details in hyperrealism. Also, fun story, in 2021 when I was doing my a-levels, I did an art piece that we were free to do in any style we wanted, and my teacher saw mine and was like “I wish you’d done it as realism instead of a cartoon style :(“ but it was actually my best attempt at realism and she hadn’t even realised. So I dunno, maybe I’m not cut out for realism 😂😂 I like my style rn tho so who cares

Then I got my most recent drawing of a (almost) full body. I got joints and decent hands and proportions and more body details.

Also this last year is the first time I've really got into digital. I always used to just do pen and paper. I even got a cheap drawing tablet, but couldn't get used to drawing on one surface and the image being up on a seperate screen. So I could never get the lines right. I did draw on my old ipad for a while which was easier, but the stylus was one of those with the thick rubber ball on the end, rather than a fine nib. Again, I had trouble cos I couldn't tell where it would register the contact with the screen and draw the line, which made it hard to do details. I got a new ipad a little while back that supports apple pencil, so I got one for it. And it's so much easier now that I've got a fine nib and can see where I'm drawing. I'm in love with drawing digital atm.

But yeah. That's how i've drawn over the years. Mental to see how much my style has changed and improved :) makes me feel better when I get frustrated with a drawnig and think I'm shit. Cos I know I'm getting better with each new drawing, even if it's only baby steps.

First: Now:

[southie187]

life is overwhelming rn and i be lost without my wife by my side...

iont kno what to do anymore or have the energy or motivation... i got so much on my plate man.

i fr jus wanna give up

[always-a-slut-4-ghouls]

I don’t get why people feel like the Duolingo owl is threatening, if I ever feel like he is I just get mad at him. I could fight an owl. I don’t know if I’d win, but I don’t think I’d lose (two things that can apparently coexist). I think I’d survive at least and that’s not really winning but also not losing.

You wanna be so threatening? Da bør du drepe meg!

[schrodingers-slut]

So actually, the core problem is not JUST the method of education. That is a problem. However realistically, we cannot change the education system in a way that will actually benefit those of us who are deemed ‘not worth it’ BECAUSE the capitalist system will not allow it.

A system’s function is what it does. If the American education system consistently has issues with academic dishonesty, then that’s one of the system’s functions: fostering the environment necessary to promote academic dishonesty and cheating.

If we want it to stop doing that, we do actually have to lead by example and SHOW the younger generations that things are worth doing without cutting corners. Even if it takes a long time.

If we were allowed to do that within the confines of capitalism, we would’ve done it already.

This is why while accommodations for disabled students are technically, legally protected and mandatory, you can and do still have disabled and other marginalized students being pushed out of academic spaces by social pressures.

Example: I was denied accommodations I was legally entitled to (as in my family had the money snd resources to do everything right and get me diagnosed and officially medicated) for. SIX. YEARS.

They dragged their feet and hemmed and hawed about whether I really deserved it. Whether I was faking it. Despite how, if we had the money to take them to court, we would’ve won.

I graduated, by the skin of my teeth, after being hospitalized, switching schools, and finally straight up hiring a world renowned therapist who could get away with screaming at my principal.

I got half assed accommodations for a whole two months. Because they were intending to wait me out.

Why?

Because they ‘didn’t have the budget’

Now maybe they did and maybe they didn’t (except my school district is KNOWN for being pretty much the best public school in the area with higher taxes to back that up)

But the fact remains, that when it finally came down to it, money was the reason no one could be bothered to teach me how to factor polynomials. They couldn’t afford to have someone help with my notes, they couldn’t afford to pay someone overtime to stay late and proctor my exams during my extended time. They couldn’t afford it.

And I wish I was an outlier, but I’m not because the “ADHD kid was never diagnosed and/or told they’d never get scholarships and never even applied for college” is SUCH a common story.

I made it to college out of sheer rage and because I’m privileged enough to have a family with the resources to do so.

I was academically dismissed because when COVID happened and enrollment lowered, less tuition meant less money. So guess what got hit first. The accessibility services. So I was hung out to dry despite originally choosing my university because of their disability services.

I’m currently fighting my way through another semester of community college. My professor is grading us on shit that’s not in our textbook, or that we haven’t learned yet, and our lectures are just YouTube tutoring videos. Why?

Because it’s a community college and she’s teaching 7 other classes and can’t even remember our names. Because they don’t have enough money to hire more chem professors.

She talked me out of taking my exam through the testing center and argues with me about my accommodations.

Because once again, the institution meant to teach me now does not have the money to teach the disabled kid.

Now if any of these institutions were given enough money (say by the government) they might have had the ability to allocate funds to maintain the resources to teach me and other kids like me.

But that wouldn’t be very profitable, because the money they COULD spend on hiring people qualified to help the disabled kids could be more EFFICIENTLY spent building fancier buildings in the hopes of bolstering enrollment rates. So that won’t happen. And if disabled kids were considered better investments, our services wouldn’t be the first things these places cut. But we are.

Yes. Eliminating capitalism is very difficult to do.

However as a disabled person I’m kind of sick to death of people who can work within the current system hearing “things need to change. If things do not change people like me will die prematurely in poverty, to say nothing of those already dying for our comforts in the global south”

Only to respond with “I mean. That slow and hard.”

It’s not about improving the education system. It’s about allowing people like me to survive. Because in this society survival is largely dependent on access to education. And right now people like me, with similar struggles but less resources to get help, they are using the most convenient (free) thing possible and cutting corners to succeed.

The issue is the system REWARDS cutting corners. You can crack down on ai. You can put a bandaid on this. It will help a bit. It will get the kids that need help kicked out and drive more of us to self medicate and ultimately die. And everyone will consider this a good thing because those lazy kids were stupid enough to use something to cheat the system.

And it will not fix everything. And the next method of academic dishonesty and cutting corners will come and we will have this conversation again.

And it will all come back to agreeing that yeah. Getting rid of capitalism is hard. And we’ll congratulate ourselves for having this talk and all agree to hope things get better.

And they won’t.

And the marginalized kids like me will learn once again, that people like us don’t get to be smart. And we certainly don’t get to weigh in on ‘intellectual’ topics (since we don’t have degrees) because we are and never will be good enough investments to be considered.

Also yes education on things like critical thinking, reading comprehension, attention span, and more are all very integral to social change.

However, a societal value shift in favor of marginalized, disenfranchised people, does not actually require much intellectual skill beyond learning how to shed this individualist way of thinking. Which actually does not require formal western education! And this is why it’s so important to consider other means of educating oneself and learning from one’s community!

Like once you start caring about and interacting with the people around you from a position of good faith, you inevitably learn things about how others live, and start to bring these concerns into how you live your life. Because suddenly you know a disabled person, you know a person without a degree, you know a recovering addict, you know an un housed person, you know sex workers who work street corners, these people on the fringes of society are no longer hypotheticals, theyre your friends, people you’ve shared meals and stories with. And suddenly you might care about things you never did before.

All without a single degree.

Here are a number of resources on how abolishing capitalism and colonialism is long overdue within academia.

If you have questions with any of those I’d be happy to discuss them, and if you’re feeling overwhelmed THIS is a fantastic primer.

I know this original discussion was about ai, however, as I said earlier, ai usage is a symptom of multiple much larger issues. To truly ‘fix’ the root of this problem is going to be long and complicated and hard. And it still needs to happen.

Kinda pisses me off that there ARE like. Actually effective ways the US could get students to stop using AI to do their schoolwork but those methods don’t follow capitalist and punitive logic and aren’t as easy and ego boosting as patting ourselves on the back and bemoaning how stupid and lazy kids are anymore.

So we’re gonna do the ‘calling kids spoiled and lazy’ thing once again and say “I got through just fine!”because actually taking this seriously and considering the use of AI for homework is a symptom of much larger issues, would force you to reckon with how you’re completely fine with a meritocracy so long as you aren’t at the bottom.

Cause fuck those lazy students, you got yours, right?

[lesbianlenas]

worst thing abt adhd and there are many terrible things but truly the worst is that everything is happening right now in ur head. like i have an interview on friday & i was trying to do my reading earlier but i was sitting there like i had the interview in 10 mins & also i had class in 10 mins & also the concert i’m going to next week was in 10 mins and i have to deal w everything at once in my head instead of doing things as they actually come i hate it. like if i have an interview on friday i spend the whole week feeling like i have it in 10 mins and i can’t just exist like normal. but this is how it is for everything that’s why i don’t only do late classes even tho i hate getting up early bc if my classes start at 3pm i can’t wake up & do work beforehand bc i spend the whole time like no i have class rn i can’t do other things. so annoying 😑 simply wish my brain understood the concept of time

[lagaans]

im just in a very contemplative mood today & frustratedly trying to find some non ugly curtains for my window, i want to get back to crafty stuff like my abandoned favorite albums poster i was making.. i have reblogged so many beautiful images on here i think it would be fun to print them out and collage them or edit some of them together and then print that out as like a wall art..

[aureatchi]

hiatus. (indefinite) reverie is in intense academic rivalry with fyozai. <3

ao3 (for all updates/new works): @/osaroseus.

return to tumblr mlist (rules).

[kohakhearts]

cons of going to a “good schoolTM”: insane workload, unbearable classmates, next to no support when you have any kind of extenuating circumstances Including literal hospitalization, etc

pros of going to a “good schoolTM”: the 9-5 lifestyle is genuinely a major improvement

[chuck-fag]

Chuck unironically inspires me to pursue intellectualism and to read classic literature. I read sections in his voice and pretend I am having a discussion with him about the novels.