#the relationship was doomed to fail bc of their issues

[bluedesertbruja]

my opinion on the cmbc episode of tendler's book is that i think her comedian ex husband made her look, not only good, but more interesting than she actually is.

[assiraphales]

this whole ross/joey thing is so funny to me bc i thought people had been shipping them for YEARS before this. like i have never seen the show but they are so shippable? i can't believe you were the catalyst in TWENTY TWENTY FIVE and not like. 94.

the issues i've seen that kept ppl from shipping them are

1. every finds ross so unlikeable that they turn him into the token straight or ignore him completely

2. its easier to ship joey x chandler

3. really just goes back to ppl not liking ross

but ross was my fave when I was five years old bc I thought it was cool he was a dinosaur doctor, so even as I rewatched at an older age I was still had nostalgic feelings associated w him. I also don't mind "annoying" characters bc I think they're necessary to all fiction / perfect characters are boring / all the friends are problematic in their own way (plus the man is just so clearly neurodivergent, ofc he's going to get in episode long fights about evolution)

so I have always looked at ross from a different perspective, and the evidence supporting "ross is a closeted man who was bullied relentlessly as a child and only associates his queerness with shame, married carol knowing she was a lesbian bc he thought they'd hide together forever in their lavender marriage, fixates on "unavaliable" women as his muses to prove his heterosexuality, fails so often in relationships bc he's never truly himself, and has tragic doomed crush on joey" is plentiful once you know to look for it

Its almost sad watching the series thru this lens bc ross is never brave enough to come out ("you made us call you bea") and joey n ross long for each other in a mournful way, close as they can get away w but never together. yah, their feelings are requited. but the closest they'll ever get to being able to express them is kissing under the cover of "practice for an audition" and their naps

[rimatsu]

prefacing this 4am tipsy ramble by stating that i believe bucktommy have endgame potential. that said. i'm of the opinion that the breakup was NECESSARY bc building on top of fragile foundations is only delaying/worsening the inevitable collapse. their relationship was not dysfunctional by any means, but it was admittedly surface-level. again the execution was pisspoor, but 806 highlighted bucktommy's biggest issues: a lack of communication, a superficial understanding of each other and opposite responses to stressors. neither of them attempted to redefine the initial parameters set in 705 (exploring something undefined, formless) even when their relationship clearly evolved past them. that is until buck had his questionable epiphany. point is neither of them wanted to disturb the status quo (having an effortless, uncomplicated good time together) so they didn't really attempt to know each other beyond the carefully curated facades they present (bc they're both complicated, troubled individuals with deep-rooted abandonment issues they'd rather not address.. same fears different font).

yes, buck is comfortable with tommy (his most authentic self, even, accepting of care unlike the way he behaved with previous SOs (masks my beloved <3)) — but he's not at ease (or in tune) with his sexuality yet, and frankly he's unprepared for the reality of committing to a man. so unprepared he didn't even consider it until josh led him to the realization that tommy could in fact become more than Cool Suave Boyfriend. yes, tommy wanted to be buck's last, but he never gave buck a fair chance: he had already unilaterally decided that he was nothing but buck's introduction to Men. a defeatist mindset that doomed them from day 1.

the good thing is that lacking communication can be easily resolved with a willingness to open up dialogue (versus the tidbits of information they shared before deflecting with Horny). buck and tommy didn't part because of irreconcilable differences/conflicting aspirations (taylor), or incompatible lifestyles (ali) or because they were attracted to each other for the wrong reasons (natalia). if anything tommy is a foil for abby, the other great transformative love of buck's life: they both entered a relationship with buck aiming for casual, just fun with an expiration date with the eager younger guy, except tommy actually fell in love with buck. except tommy wants to be his last. except tommy nearly reached out after the split but ultimately chose not to. we were shown the bubbles. that was DELIBERATELY emphasized: both parties have regrets.

i LIKE the breakup bc it could be exactly what they need individually to come back together as a stronger, cohesive unit. it could be the opportunity to reassess, reevaluate, correct.

now i have my (strongly worded) opinions abt the #letbuckfuck spiel.. but hell, i think seeing buck temporarily regress to past behavior could be interesting, if only to cement the fact that he's not cut out for aimless hookups. frustrating to watch, yes; a disservice to his character, certainly; but it could serve a purpose. multiple ones, even:

1. offer the opportunity to actually address buck's bisexuality and the hangups he harbors. reaffirm to the audience that buck is still very much so attracted to women (yeah we know how bisexuality works but the 70 yo liberal watching 9-1-1 on network television might still be a bit confused). confirm that buck's queerness exists outside of his relationship with tommy. that he's still queer when he's in a m/f relationship. have him state in no uncertain term that he likes men, plurals; that he does in fact identify with the bi label. bc labels are descriptive and helpful and unifying, they're the basis of community, and he shouldn't escape internalized/external negative connotations surrounding bisexuality by taking refuge in undefined

2. as previously stated, a string of failed flings can reassert the fact that buck craves emotional, romantic intimacy more so than carnal pleasure. that casual romps might be very enjoyable in the moment but are ultimately unsatisfying for a man that flourishes when he's in love and is loved in return. that buck doesn't feel the need to revert back to a previous version of himself (one he dislikes today) just because he missed out on having sex with another demographic in his younger years. i could even see buck internalizing what tommy said/what buck heard (what if he's right? what if i'm blinded by excitement? what if i need to fuck my way through a lineup of different men to figure out what i really want? can i really trust myself about this when i spent 3 whole decades in the dark?) and feeling vindicated when he reaches the same conclusion he did back in 806: buck knows his own mind. he's not a clueless child. impulsivity doesn't imply idiocy.

3. tommy is no longer buck's only man. his judgement is not clouded by novelty. and that doesn't change anything. he's still the guy buck wants to build a future with. buck spends months tentatively dipping his toes back in the dating scene without success because he keeps comparing everyone to his ex. there: renewed conviction, absolute certainty. passivity is finally abandoned.

i'm focusing on buck bc he's my beloved blorbo and the main character, but tommy could use some introspection as well — and some room for grace. seeing a character so terrified of being hurt he once denied himself a solid shot at love ultimately chase after his happiness is so delectable to me. there's no reward without work, no victory without effort, no battle won without risk etc etc. let tommy gain the family he longs for, let buck prove tommy is worth keeping, worth fighting for.

i'm losing steam here. it's been said before and i'll say it again: tommy slots perfectly in buck's life. he's been fundamental to buck's growth long before they even met, a pivotal figure in his journey to Self Actualization, linked to literally everyone buck cares about. they're so compatible, so complementary, so narratively intertwined it'd be ridiculous to leave bucktommy languishing in the '6 months lovers' category.

the material for endgame is there. there for grabs. but the showrunners might not grab it bc they see no value in that potential story??? which is so preemptively frustrating it's driving me insane with anticipated annoyance. please timothy do not fumble this gold mine you (accidentally?) stumbled upon

[just-some-sorta-person]

Nagi's "Hidden Path"/ Loophole

*featuring Isagi, Bachira, and Rin analysis*

I've been thinking a lot about how Nagi represents a "hidden path" in Bluelock, and the ways in which it seems the main manga and episode Nagi disagree on whether he should succeed- the key issue being his relationship with Reo. He plays soccer for their collective dream in a manga where depending on another character for your motivation is treated as soccer suicide, which should doom him, but his own manga starts with the statement that his genius is shaped by Reo - framed as a good thing.

I've said in the past that maybe Nagi will succeed by Episode Nagi's standards, but fail by Blue Lock standards, and I still think that would be an interesting path to take, but rn I wanna discuss the alternative that Nagi succeeds by both standards, even if to a lesser extent in the main manga since Isagi is the MC. And we're assuming here that his relationship with Reo isn't permanently severed in a way that makes him more similar to every other Bllk character bc that would make him much less interesting and also remove the "hidden path" aspect that we're expecting here.

So for him to succeed by both standards, I think what essentially needs to happen is that Nagi represents a loophole or caveat in Blue Lock's philosophy. And to understand why that would be the case, we'd have to understand WHY playing for anyone but yourself is a bad thing in Blue Lock. And there are plenty of examples to draw from.

Isagi and "All for One"

We can start with the "One for all, all for one" team Isagi was in- the most extremely dependent soccer we see. I'll be drawing from Isagi's Light Novel for this, because it really just spells it out. First, let's look at the reasoning for that "all for one" given in response to Isagi's request to shoot more:

“Up until now, You could have won matches with your individual skills, but high school isn’t a piece of cake... We win together, and become stronger together! If you do that, then you'll have double the joy! And half the sorrow!”

The reasoning given here isn't that the resulting soccer is better at winning games - rather there is an emphasis on safety. "the world is tough", "If we stick together, there's half the sorrow". And within that emphasis, is the implication that the individual isn't enough.

We can also see complacency in this ideaology. When Ichinan loses, the coach says

“You fought well. It’s frustrating, but this is what Ichinan is capable of now. The third years are leaving after this… and some of you might quit soccer after today but you can be proud of the days you fought together as a team." "To me, Ichinan’s soccer team…is the best team in Japan!!!”

Within this dream doping that Ego rants about later on, we can again see the acceptance on the individual not being enough - "You fought well... but this is what Ichinan is capable of now." We also see within the dream doping the injection of safety and lack of perceived agency. Because we are one unit, there is no blame, no frustration, no need for improvement. The point is the team, not to win, so be proud.

Most damning is the way we see this reflected in Isagi

There’s no need to take a risky battle. If they lose, it will be his fault and he will feel bad for the team. He makes an exquisite pass to Tada's feet. A perfect last pass.

What's emphasized here is the risk in making an egotistical decision for the whole team in believing himself good enough to make that shot himself. What essentially happens here is a devaluing of the self - " I'm not good enough on my own, its safer to trust others, trust the system, not your instincts" And that forces Isagi to not live up to his fullest potential, to chase what he wants. Until Blue Lock that is.

Bachira and the Monster

Bachira is probably the character most directly "punished" in the narrative for playing for someone else. Though I feel like punish is the wrong word because this problem with his ego reared its head and was resolved in the same game - once he realized the problem, Bachira resolved to solve it

According to Bachira's explanation

"...Until now, I was afraid of playing soccer by myself. I guess I wanted you to come save me. But, once I tried fighting on my own, like I'd done as a kid, I realized...

And so the problem with his habit of looking for another player when playing instead of focusing on himself was again the perceived lack of agency, and devaluing of the self. Longing for someone to play soccer with led to a dependency that negatively impacted his decisions on the field

So that's why his moment of growth was breaking through all on his own to steak back Isagi and win - ignoring the idea that he should wait for someone else to help him. He needed to believe in his own agency/value to prove himself on the field and achieve his goals.

Rin and Sae

I recently took a look at Rin's Light Novel and there was a line that stood out as kinda similar to Bachira's old habit of passing to an imaginary monster before coming to Blue Lock

he understood why things were not going well. Neither their coach nor his other teammates have the slightest idea of Rin’s image of play in his head. (If it was Nii-chan, he would have made a pass here……) he thought so many times during today's practice. He jumped out in front of the goal to a position where I said, “Here!” but his teammates were like, “Huh?” “There?”

So whether you're passing or shooting, a reliance can develop, huh...

(How do Bachirin shippers feel about this parallel? haha. And what does this say about what Rin says to Bachira "But afraid of fighting alone. It is a soccer looking for someone. That luke-warm ego won't make my heart dance". Cus it seems Rin is criticizing Bachira for doing the same thing he did. What does this mean about how Rin feels about himself? (I mean.. he did already call himself lukewarm later but was he thinking about himself in that moment?))

In the light novel, I think it becomes clear one reason why Sae is so against Rin using him as his reason for soccer - it definitely affects how Rin plays when Sae is away. And since Sae becomes aware of the competition outside Japan during his time abroad, he knows that Rin's mentality as it was wouldn't be enough and thus wanted to spare him the suffering and have him give up. And this is in combination with the idea of "I've found out, that I'm not strong enough to hold you up. If you rely on me you'll fail" At least, this is my interpretation of it - but moving on-

With Rin’s last pass, they score a shot. If his Nii-chan had been there, he would have passed the ball to him in front of the goal and he would have scored it directly….. He stopped thinking. No pass is coming. That is now the reality. Anyway, the team won for the first time in a long time.

We see a lack of agency and a reliance on others once again - "If only Nii-chan was here". Like with Bachira, Rin is waiting for someone to "save" him, which limits what he chooses to attempt and stifles his potential because of how it limits his perceived agency.

We can also see this limitation in how he wants to be 2nd best after Sae - not best (de-valuing). It causes Rin to seal off his ego in order to catch up to Sae, by being more similar to Sae instead of developing according to his own unique talents/ego.

In order to catch up with his Nii-chan he saw off at the airport, he has to make the team’s victory his top priority. To do so, he must hold himself back. Hold back the you who was trying to steal the goal with everything you have using that sense of smell for the goal and assemble an attack as a team play.

Even after Sae's return he's always on Rin's mind, and this still limits his soccer. It's only after Rin declares himself lukewarm and rejects the stories others create through their relationship with him that he is able to go all out by embracing his own personal style, rather than focusing on others.

Back on Topic!

So in summary, what is wrong with depending on others? What causes Blue Lock to default to individualism? Ultimately it seems like its the resulting lack of perceived agency - the idea that you can't do things without other people present. By constraining yourself into a narrative with other people, you limit what you can do, and you limit what you think you can do by molding yourself to their vision. Thus, your potential is stifled.

How can Nagi and Reo become an exception to this reasoning? Well, maybe Nagi's decision to leave Reo during 2nd selection is part of the key.

We know from Episode Nagi and Manshine that Nagi wants to improve for the sake of his and Reo's collective dream. And he (correctly) identifies following soccer that challenges/excites him as the proper way to improve.

Here, Reo identifies them playing together as a must, but Nagi corrects him and saying that them being the best in the world together is a must, saying (in his head T-T) that he likes being with him, but that in order to protect their dream, Nagi needs to change.

It's actually pretty much spelled out here. Nagi says he's fine with Reo playing with other people, but insists that Reo stay with him till the end. Its ok to play soccer with others, but keep me in your heart always. In other words, I don't mind not playing together, but you and our end goal is always in my heart.

This is different from Isagi, Bachira, or Rin's situation because in those cases, the team/monster/Sae were considered as key to success. However, in Nagi's case, success is key to Reo. It's completely reversed. It's that nuance of "I play soccer to play soccer with you, to win with you" vs. "I play soccer for you, I win for you". Because "playing together" is not a requirement for winning, it no longer acts as a constraint that restricts agency. Nagi's concept of being together separate from playing soccer together saves their partnership from being the same as the others and frees him to (for example) join Isagi to improve.

You can see more of this in epinagi

The Tag Game

You might say this is a bad example because Nagi relies on Reo to get him un-eliminated, but by Nagi's "I figured you'd do that, Reo..." we can guess that this was more from laziness than a belief that he needed Reo's help. Indeed, when Reo's in danger of being eliminated himself, when their dream is in any real danger, Nagi takes it upon himself to solve the issue

They didn't solve the problem relying on teamwork/partnership or anything. Nagi solved the problem because they're partners.

Playing Against Barou

The next time their dream is "Challenged" is when Barou says "Becoming the world's best striker means you'll be alone until you die", essentially a challenge to the viability of Nagi and Reo's dream. Nagi's response to that is to run off and instigate a 1v1 with Barou

So again, rather than deny Nagi options, his partnership with Reo provided the motivation to act out on his own.

Playing against Team Z

Even when they play against team Z, we see this in action. Nagi plays a more reliant soccer, his dream/Reo is challenged when he sees Reo's face, and Nagi decides to act out on his own.

Nagi will rely on Reo for the sake of laziness, but when it comes to their dream, there's this pattern of deciding to rely less on Reo, take destiny into his own hands, and make an effort. It's really that nuance of doing something to be with someone vs. doing something for someone.

Beyond 1st/2nd Selection

Brief mention here of Nagi's eyes shining when Reo says "But it's not enough" when Nagi praises him. I think this might be Nagi thinking its a sign that Reo in fact has not forgotten their promise and is also working to achieve it - consistent with the idea of being together without necessarily playing together (Whereas Reo is thinking the other way round - improving for the sake of playing together because that's the only way to be together)

So, where this theory hits its roadblock is the Manshine City Arc, where Nagi asks for Reo's help. But because of all the ominous foreshadowing afterwards, in addition to Ego's words that Nagi's deep ego (implied by timing of skull imagery +all the scenes I just listed to be Reo/dream-centric) is about to be tested, I think their dynamic is bound to change in some direction within the next game. So, their relationship is still in development and the theory isn't necessarily debunked.

**edited in addition** I think the key is that regardless of their behavior, the core of their partnership (ie their internal feelings) isn't dependency, but rather reciprocated faith and commitment, though especially with Nagi's communication and introspection issues, it may take some time for them to figure that out because Reo has no idea the faith that Nagi has in him. Reo actually assumes that their partnership can't exist without dependence - assumes its over when that dependence fades because Nagi will have no reason to stay with him, but this is him insecurely misinterpreting Nagi's intentions. They also can't really flourish until Nagi figures out his ego/motivation, though that's luckily foreshadowed to be addressed. I think with how Reo misinterprets Nagi's motivations on a shallow level in 207, and how Nagi's motivation is foreshadowed to be addressed soon, we will get nagireo communication soon timeline wise (not real life lol). And hopefully with that communication, Reo's insecurity + Nagi's motivation can be addressed and they can begin to figure out a functional partnership within Blue Lock. But really the key here is that faith and devotion don't necessitate playing with only each other in mind, while dependence/reliance does.

In terms of what will happen, I think we might finally get a confirmation of what Nagi's ego is - it certainly fits with their conversation in 207, where Reo tries to give a substitute that doesn't really fit. I'm not sure what would happen once Nagi and Reo have the clarity of understanding what Nagi's ego is though...

In Any Case!

I'm running out of fuel but just to let ya'll know I was thinking really hard about what the difference was between Nagi and Reo's dynamic in comparison to partnerships or teamwork criticized by the main manga and I did not expect the difference I came up with to be the difference between reliance and devotion. "I am not enough by myself" vs. "I will make myself enough for you". I still wonder if I'm just biased?

Plz lmk ur thoughts

link to a continuation of these thoughts - Hiori's Words, Reo's Insecurity, Nagi's Enforced Indifference

[aihoshiino]

I noticed you’ve talked a lot about the Goro and Sarina chapter in Spica, but I was wondering what do you think about Ai’s chapter and how she was written there?

so even tho I am Spica's Biggest Hater, I actually kind of like Ai's chapter even though I do think it's ultimately less than the sum of its parts. I think a lot of the things that Tanaka does kind of seemingly just out of habit as a writer are things that coincidentally just work for Ai as a POV character in ways they don't for Sarina.

Like, for example, something I really hated about Sarina's chapter was the way Tanaka was just like... idk, it's hard to explain it exactly but it felt like every other paragraph there was some random aside inventing some Spica-original fact about Sarina's life seemingly for the sole purpose of making it even more bleak and miserable than it already was in the main story while also completely failing to have Sarina herself actually be characterized in relation to or really emotionally engage with it. Which, in the context of Sarina's story, just felt excessive and kind of hamfisted.

By contrast, not only does Tanaka do this less with Ai but when he does do it, I feel it works a lot better for her? Not only is it already established to be in character for Ai to be casual/understated about the cruelty other people subject her to in a way it is very much not for Sarina but the persistence of this cruelty and the broader systemic failures to champion her that it represents are some of the most important structural themes of Ai's arc and subsequent tragedy.

I also think it helps that while ch1 of Spica does fall into the same trap of softening and simplifying Ai & Saitou's relationship in the process of focusing on it as it does with Sarina and Gorou's, this is less of an issue just because their relationship isn't quite as loadbearing for the series. After a certain point... idk how else to say it other than the series was really getting diminishing returns on the Gorou & Sarina relationship because it wasn't really doing anything to expand it beyond "sarina is sad, gorou does a nice thing, yey sensei kekkon shite!" whenever we went back to it. So a whole novel that is basically just... more of that stuff over and over without any real expansion on it was just doomed to feel tired.

By contrast, not only do we have a lot less of Ai and Saitou's relationship in the manga, so any extra time with them feels like a bonus, but again it's not really as foundational a relationship to the whole series. So Spica's take on it being a little shallow isn't like a crushing blow or anything.

I guess my feeling at the end of the day is that Sarina's (& Gorou's lol) parts of the story feel a lot less than the sum of their parts bc of the general jank of Tanaka's prose, that jank kind of accidentally suits Ai as a POV character very well in a way I think genuinely enhances her chapter. The result is that her chapter is a lot more than the sum of its parts by comparison and works better in broad strokes even if the zoomed in details still have a lot of issues.

OH, something I will say I just think is straightforwardly good - it's a little on the nose at times but I think Spica's depiction of Ai as an undiagnosed and non-masking neurodivergent person and the struggles she has with understanding, communicating with and navigating other people and their feelings is genuinely really effective and aside from a few flubs here and there, it gets her characterization pretty on-point. One of my fave Ai moments in the series actually comes from Spica; that beat where, when she hits an emotional lowpoint while confronted by her bullies, she begins to cry and immediately freaks the fuck out internally that it's happening because she had "already decided" that she wasn't affected by their words and is stunned by her own inability to simply tell her own feelings what to do <3 THAT'S my little freak!!!

[melodic-haze]

if you dont mind me asking, what happened between you and 🎀?

no need to answer if you dont wanna :)

Naw it's okay I can talk ab it :3c I can bitch about anything and everything HELP I'll just put it under the cut bc it's long as hell though. If I somehow sound toxic I AM SO SORRY

It's umm. I guess it all basically boils down to the fact that we basically jumped the gun with our relationship? LOL cuz there was that whole thing when I was flirting with the anons jokingly and then we found out I was in the same area as them this one day, and then we started talking from there but I shit you not it did not take us long to get into a situationship (basically less than a week into talking) and then a relationship (a month in)

We were talking nonstop until sometime in November when she got extremely busy with uni work, and there was this. Whole thing where I got really. Safe to say I wasn't GREAT, like I was saying that I'd happily be patient and wait for them but I got so restless that I started taking little things as an issue (tell me why I got jealous of the constant thirsting for fictional characters). And then it sort of exploded bc they forgot details and crucial shit about me (what tipped me the fuck off was them forgetting my HYPERSEXUALITY, which is like. One of the biggest things I need someone to remember bc it's really not easy), and then they ghosted me for a while (like completely aired me while I was going through the stages of grief), and then I was an absolute mess, and then when I was in a call with one of my besties they came back extremely nonchalant they said some shit ("I liked the time away from you") because they're an avoidant and I shit you not??? I feel bad for the bestie I was on call with because I was in such a state that I think if she wasn't there I genuinely would've attempted

But after that, the relationship just felt weird. Like even though I kept asking if they really wanted to stay in the relationship with me, they said yeah but it was just. Yk when you realise the whole thing's kinda doomed to fail now, no turning back? Yeah it felt like that. But I genuinely wanted to make it work because everything was great between us before!! They were like essentially the first person I genuinely fell for despite not being the first person I've dated cuz I don't??? I don't fall for anyone usually, so I think that had something to do w me crashing out. Like I looked back at my priv twt and felt BAD for myself. It didn't feel like they were putting in the effort though, but I tried to be understanding cuz they were busy!!! Much busier than I am

But it's the fact that this was a long distance relationship 💀 and it never became anything beyond that. There were times when we both were like "LET'S MEET UP" and talk about hypothetical plans but they either forget or back away. Which I get it for them bc they don't deal well with change and unfamiliar territory, but still it was a bit. Sigh. I think that's what drove me wild. Like as much as I wanted to be patient, and I really did try, but it was the constant bringing-up and getting my hopes up bc I really wanted to be with them. NOT EVEN A LONG DISTANCE AWAY MIND YOU IT'S BASICALLY A FEW HOURS, MAYBE LESS

BUT anyway. So that's the background right. Skip to December, where they're still busy but that's bc they went to a different country to visit family for Christmas. Or at least that's what I assumed anyway. Still low effort replies, and if they ever talked to me, it was never about stuff that relates to us, but moreso about either their friends (which fair enough friends are important to her) or Arcane (oh this was annoying. Cuz this was basically when they started to lose their attention on me. OVER FUCKING CAITVI?????) so I kinda. Got jealous. Which was so fucking stupid what is wrong with me 😞😞😞😞 but at the same time we barely talked, they barely asked if I was okay and everything, and only really talked if I did for a good while

One of the days, like literally a day before Christmas Eve, I was going on about how I missed them and that I hoped we'll be texting more after the New Year cuz I understood that they weren't free bc I mean. It's Christmas, and they adore their cousins and stuff and I wanted them to enjoy it esp when they LOVE the holidays. I just wanted to tell them like I felt sidelined recently bc we hadn't talked to each other fully in a while and I missed it. But I shit you guys not 😭 tell me why 😭 while I'm working 😭 they send me 😭 AN ENTIRE FUCKING ESSAY??????

The summary (iirc bc I'm not looking at that again bro) was basically that they apologised for making me feel sidelined, but this whole time they hadn't been hanging out with friends and stuff bc THEY TRIED TO DECIDE WHETHER TO BREAK UP WITH ME OR NOT??????? Bc of personal stuff in the past they'll never be healrd from and that committment was always gonna be an issue in our relationship. Said smth about how they were ready to be with me, but realised that they?? They basically said they couldn't handle my freak (and not the fun kind) EVEN THOUGH I TOLD THEM I WAS FREAKY BOTH WAYS 😭😭😭😭😭😭

And then they then say like they think it's best for us to go NO CONTACT. And I told them that one of the worst things that someone could do for me is decide in my stead. They did that anyway lol. This is so funny too bc I remember checking our social medias together after reading and finding out that they blocked me on every fucking thing (even SPOTIFY) like immediately. I could not say SHIT to them bro. They said smth about how we were two broken people trying to make it work, along with some flowery shit and how it'd be best if we went our separate ways and we'd be happier bc we really weren't meant to be (idk man we had like really coincidental shit going on like birthdays and stuff idk). And then at the end they left this Christmas gift which was this site thing with a bunch of songs that reminded them of us

Needless to say I was destroyed lol. I couldn't do anything or say anything and I genuinely think if we just talked it out, we'd still be talking bc I thought it was just massively blown out of proportion—not as a couple, probably, but still friends. I was absolutely gutted and the worst part was I couldn't let myself process anything bc at that time, I was at work 🤷‍♀️ and my house has really thin walls so everyone can hear me cry if I did

But tbh I could never hate them. Dislike the things they did? Yeah absolutely but not hate. How could I hate the person who made me happy for basically near half a year? Maybe in another universe, we're more stable and we met up and we're in a happy relationship, but not in this one ig!!!!! I know I'm not getting in another relationship again though HAAHHAA absolute hassle

Dude I can't even hoe around bc I'm introverted as fuck and I'm not classic beauty standard level holy fuck god hates me??????????

[fumifooms]

Howl’s moving castle dunmeshi AU

I’ve cracked the code I know why I love Marcille x Chilchuck so much. They’re literally just like Howl’s Moving Castle Howl and Sophie. Okok indulge me for a sec I’m about to dump so many pics and ramble for a bit. I want you to see my marchil vision. It’s fabulous extra cringefail hopeless romantic drama queen x grumpy old sad angry caring hardworking person cursed to be here & cursing fate and giving tough love to everything in a miles radius. No one is safe. From either of them. Calcifer or Micheal is Izutsumi. Wait wait no Calcifer is Senshi and Michael is Izutsumi. Senshi as Calcifer works bc Calcifer is just chained to Howl and is there reminding Howl to not die and take care of himself, giving hints about how to break the curse to Sophie, also the fire demon cooks the eggs and bacon checkmate. And then LAIOS IS TURNIP HEAD OH MY GOD THAT WORKS OUT PERFECTLY. Chilchuck & Marcille, screaming terrified of the weird scarecrow chasing after them, meanwhile the weird scarecrow that’s harmless: :(. Wizard Suliman is Falin and the second fire demon is Winged Lion, so bam everything comes full circle.

I’m assuming most people who’ll see this post maybe saw the movie but not the book, and what you need to know is that the movie makes Howl so much dreamier and collected and cool, whereas in the book he’s just a drama queen 24/7 that’s it. He’s a wet cat dressed in expensive sparkly glittery gowns that needs to be yelled at to do anything he needs to do. He complains. He bemoans. Meanwhile Sophie is, honestly pretty like in the movie? Less contrarian and anger issues but will grumble and yells while cleaning nonetheless. Hardworking but will pathetically sit down on a chair in a dark corner to cry about her aching bones and OHH this is ALL because she’s the eldest child and she was doomed for unhappiness and no one can ever love her… So she’ll whack everyone into order and purge her feelings through aggressive cleaning and using weed killer. IS THIS NOT GIVING MARCILLE & CHIL TO YOU?!

There’s this funny widespread take from the fandom:

And it couldn’t be more true in a marchil context either. Like come on. For all of this post just swap the names of Howl for Marcille and Sophie for Chilchuck.

(Last one with the art by Cookiekappa on Tumblr)

Tell me this isn’t so Marcille. Tell me Chil wouldn’t run away from home thinking he’s failed life and is no longer in shape to work and now has to waddle in self-pity, seeking out wizards which he hates and finds shady bc it’s his last option, and then end up a maid & cleans everything out of spite and also worry for the person living there. Tell me Marcille wouldn’t throw a depressed slime tantrum so bad that it causes a partial town evacuation because her wails summon unknown horrors, over her HAIR. Forget slime she’d blow up the house instantly. She would breakdance as refusal to go see the king. Chilchuck would call her a slitherer-outer and she would gasp in offense and they’d have a fight.

Marcille having full on poems laying around and then Chil & Izu seeing them and being like "Ah yes, this must be a spell, it makes no sense and is so extra, just like how silly our resident witch and her magic is". Izutsumi going "Okay peepaw I’ll teach you how to use a magical bucket just take one step forward-" and they immediately fuck it up and they’re left stranded in far unknown lands. Chilchuck complaining that HIS BACK HURTS. And at every turn or something mildly inconveniencing him "NOTHING GOOD EVER HAPPENS TO THE MIDDLE CHILD".

And can we talk about the aging motif, the curse… Marcille never letting herself grow close to someone even though she does all these grand gestures for them at first. Meanwhile her fear of loss stares at her straight in the eye whenever she looks at 90 years old Chilchuck, and her deciding to not run away from their relationship is what ends up healing both of them. She gets over her fear of intimacy and he grows over feeling like a terribly dull unlovable failure. Me sobbing when I remember how Sophie’s curse of being old is a self-inflicted manifestation of herself thinking she’s romantically unlovable and weak…….

This is it for now but rest assured that I want to make art of this, have these memes for now

[monstermoviedean]

i think there is a point where while the framing of dean and cas's relationship is frustrating, it's more indicative of like. the writers failing to understand dean and cas's relationship or a result of not hiring misha as a third lead for the show, so castiel comes off as extremely flaky and continues repeating his mistakes even when he says he'll do better.

basically we should all hope robbie thompson or steve yockey is the showrunner for a potential revival bc they seem to understand dean really well.

like while i Understand that these actions are consistent for castiel it also mostly feels like writers struggling to actually let him grow rather than entirely his fault?

like i've seen deancrit casgirls look at dean kicking out cas in the bunker and basically go "that's completely bullshit and out of character, i'm not gonna incorporate it into my understanding of dean as a character because that's very obviously the hand of the author preventing dean and cas from interacting while cas is a human, because it would be gay"

i kind of think that cas should be extended that same kind of grace in being like. the writers don't seem to see this as an issue and as a result even though it is one, it's hard to see a character grow when most writers dont seem to recognize it as a problem.

like steve yockey identifies it as an issue in lily sunder, when dean is mad/worried about cas the entire episode for making a call on his own (killing billie) but is still defending him from ishim. but berens doesn't seem to see it as a repeated problem in 15x09, so it's not brought up except as a snide comment from dean.

that being said i think castiel thinks of himself as disposable, so him using his love and devotion as a weapon to save dean is wonderful for him but ultimately devastating for dean, who has never viewed cas as replaceable.

like cas firmly believes that his emotions don't matter, that his feelings don't matter (his own insecurities and upbringing), so dean saying "no you do matter, of course you matter" is wonderful! but unfortunately he made the deal with the empty, and he probably realizes how bad he fucked up making that deal (it's claire and jimmy again, it's john and dean again, making a deal to save your child that dooms the people around you to grieve your loss)

it's just very very tragic, and sad. i wish supernatural was good.

sorry for rambling lmao.

it's a yes/and for me. yes, cas has to be off-screen a lot because of budgetary reasons, and the writers could have addressed that in different ways that made it seem less like cas being flaky. as for repeating his mistakes and not being able to grow, i think that's a separate issue, but a writer issue as well. there are ways to address cas repeating mistakes that don't blame dean for those mistakes.

i try to reserve my judgment of something as ooc to a few extreme situations. that's just my personal preference. i can think of a handful of actions across the show that are best-explained by ooc writing. dean telling cas he can't stay in 09x03 is not one of those. i don't like it, obviously, but i can see why dean did that and why it makes sense in his context.

i get what you're saying about extending grace to cas, and yes, writer actions are always at play here, but i try to view and interpret situations based on what is happening in the show itself. again, personal preference, and i don't always stick to that. but for me, if i only looked at everything through the lens of "writers made them do it," that wouldn't be very fun for me because yeah, writers made them do all of it and it's a work of fiction.

but extending grace to cas - i always try to extend grace to everyone. i really do. sometimes i fail! i get frustrated that i often see others extending grace to cas and intentionally withholding it from others who they don't think deserve it. it's a double standard i find aggravating.

[hypokeimena]

So i guess kind of doomed to divorce from the get go but then the dreamers books made them extra doomed? I think sometimes about if the dreamers series was always the gameplan or if it was the product of some major changes along the way

yeah i think so. i think the dreamer trilogy was. in many was planned but also in many ways underdeveloped and a response to fan activity like very much an attempt to wrap up her. Heart Universe as neatly as possible while trying to avoid harassment... like she made promises to her fan base and as a result half the character choices were locked in. like she promised adam and ronan would stay together when like 100% of their character arcs were diverging and their eventual evolution and resolution did not fix any of their underlying issue and then they just time skipped into a proposal, y'know? we see them having a bad time in their relationship and failing to resolve it, managing a lifesaving (but perhaps not relationship saving) mind meld, and then just getting engaged - never just. actually together with shared friends and a shared life. in fact huge chunks of the series are about them more or less failing to function without their other friends from trc and sort of replicating those dynamics as best they can alongside various other tdt-specific issues. but in conclusion yea it's hard to be generous with them in tdt bc we only see them struggling and. never happy.

[soulmining]

#personal time and a little sappy but my therapist pointed out to me that i’ve basically been working on doing ghis college transfer for almost a year and a lot of our work has been building up to this and like even though my life kind of fell apart earlier this year i’ve come back like crazy. it feels very good for someone to point that out but im also still very terrified of starting school and it’s not entirely the social aspect im just scared i won’t be able to handle it again and ive worked so hard to get here i don’t want it to fall apart. im trying to not predict failure bc that won’t help me and i haven’t even started classes. im trying to focus on the good things in my life right now like my awesome friends & my making moves in silence personal thang going on (positive). i also have more of a support system now & i don’t have someone telling me negative things about myself constantly so i should be able to focus on school more now instead of focusing on trying to save a failing relationship. on the note of that i am definitely #over him like he messaged me today bc i posted about columbia and was like “congrats” and even though it kind of pissed me off at first due to the way he acted over this situation in the first place i was cordial. i think i should finally block him though bc mannnnn he was awful to me. whatever it doesn’t matter anymore bc ive gotten a lot better in every part of my life and what really matters is my own progress. sometimes i worry that i think too much about it but i’ve just been thinking about it more this week bc ive finally reached my Big Goal and because of [POSITIVE RELATIONSHIP]. but yes things are better right now and it feels great to have a lot more fulfilling relationships in my life and more freedom and i hope to keep on this path but i also just need to take it day by day bc i still have a lot to do. i still have my inherent problems and issues and my terrible family but now things don’t feel doomed. o k awesome. if you read this far i love you forever. if you follow this blog i love you forever.

[proudfreakmetarusonikku]

to complain about sims more i'm still pissed the sims 4 is a gutted corpse of a mmo no one wanted. and that’s not the developers fault! genuinely, the sims development team seems really sweet and friendly and skilled, they were never the issue. something i've always appreciated about the sims is that the developers have always had a very positive relationship with the fans and their creations, they’ve always been super encouraging towards modding and cc and i genuinely think it’s awesome of them. mad respect to the devs for even making the sims 4 functional when it had to shift genre completely halfway through development they have to be insanely skilled to even get it functional and i don’t think they deserve any animosity. as far as i can tell, they’re a bunch of smart, kind, and clever people doing their best with a game doomed to fail to begin with.

but like. the fact the sims 4 was even meant to be such a genre shift is disgusting. genuinely fucking appalling behaviour from ea. like it completely strips the series of it’s identity and is a blatant slap in the face to its core audience. like, the sims audience is just straight up different to a lot of other games. it’s incredibly diverse, of course- more so than any other I’ve seen- but it tends to skew older, skew female, and skew towards those with an interest in programming and/or storytelling. and while obviously not all of them will dislike mmos, older adults have jobs and kids to care for, and those with an interest in creating their own mods or stories either cant or have to do it collaboratively. a lot of these are people who got into the sims specifically because of the features it’d lose as an mmo! and it’s such an insult they’d throw so many people under the bus for a quick cash grab and then leave their devs with a barely functioning mess when they got backlash from simcity.

and they’re!!! still trying to find ways to exploit the sims and make it online to get even more money from its audience! these are devoted people, they’d have to be to spend enough money to play the sims, and ea keeps looking to exploit that loyalty to get people to pay for products they KNOW they don’t want bc they’d rather scam people out of money than make good games for slightly less money. and it’s so fucking sad. all respects to the devs for trying to make the sims 4 fun and functional you all did a really great job with the parts you were given but like the sims 4 is an example of corporate greed (and performative activism- ea Says all this shit about diversity but I don’t forget that they whitewashed sims in the beginning including the franchises mascot like they were so scared of having a woman of colour as their icon) and it makes me sad

[freddie-77-ao3]

I have another question. 2/? 🙃🙃🙃

I know you like Percabeth and Valgrace, and you don’t necessarily like Caleo, but what other canon ships do you like or dislike? If you want to share. 🤪

canon ships? goddamn

alright lemme think about canon ships....

percabeth-- as you said, i love it (10/10 first ship i ever shipped, since tlt-- which i read when i was six. haven't wavered). ik some people use the judo flip scene as a gotcha about percabeth being abusive but i don't see it-- for one, annabeth thinks percy still has the curse of achilles (other stuff too but this isn't my main point so)

caleo- dislike. idk both characters needed more time to be single/more development. seemed like a shove two characters together bc everyone needs to be in a relationship. both of them could use a SIBLING or parent, not a romantic partner

chrisse-- it's okay. i mean both of those characters are mainly minor so most development happens offscreen but overall i think it fits (personally i prefer chrisse and charlena TOGETHER being poly, but post TLO it definitely works)

charlena-- exact same thing as chrisse. VERY sweet how much charlie loved silena.

frazel-- the age difference makes it iffy. like, three years at 13 and 16? weirds me out. if there was no age difference, my only issue would be the lack of development. let them get to know each other before jumping into a relationship. the way rick pushed it like oh they're praetors together was just weird. i like their personalities together though.

jasper/jiper-- no. so much no. i mean just. the relationship is built on a lie, there's no foundation, neither of them GET each other. it was doomed to fail.

solangelo-- i love it. great first canon queer rep. wish we saw more of the development on page but. that's what fanfiction is for ig.

paul/sally- 10/10 i love both of them and they're a great couple.

fierrochase-- again, love them. they're both so funny

i don't remember any others off the top of my head i'm sorry (if there's any big ones i forgot lmk and i'll do those too)

[misspickman]

WAIT ALSO ACTUALLY timcassie. lets go tragicomedy enjoyers

Don’t Ship It but specifically dont ship it romantically i do actually think they were very fun as a fail couple

Why don’t you ship it? they simply have no romantic chemistry + i think theyre way too similar in some ways. yea sometimes that leads to a good relationship but i do not think thats the case with them it would just drive them insane. and yes cassie is a lesbian and while i tend to think of tim as a trans woman the former reasoning is still too strong. they would not make it in a romantic relationship it would be disastrous. like it was already pretty miserable in tt03 and that was barely a relationship

What would have made you like it? listen the one single timcassie concept im interested in is a fwb deal in a scenario where tim is trans and cassie is also struggling with her many gender issues bc it would be funny. also potentially disastrous but mostly funny. that aside i mean i did like it in canon. as a doomed relationship that came out of grief, i think its pretty good

Despite not shipping it, do you have anything positive to say about it? yes i love them and i think their fail relationship was great as a grief/trauma response i love how messy it all was. i dont get people who hate it and want to pretend it never happened (i mean i do, in theory) bc its just too interesting and honestly funny + you know their friends would keep bringing it up forever. they will never escape the consequence of having briefly dated (their friends laughing at them)

[aregularhuman]

idk, something about House never really changing through the series. even when he did rehab n got sober, life was still shitty- he was still in pain and dealing with interpersonal issues and the repercussions of his childhood. something about how maybe the shittiness of life/mental illness can’t really be overcome, but dealt with, and how exhausting dealing can be, how easy it is to slip back to old habits. things don’t change, they move on. some people stay the same (Wilson), and some change and get sick of you (Cuddy), all because you’re unable to change. people don’t change, right? only seasons do- something about middle age can be so profound or so deeply sad. the first episode is everybody lies and the last is everybody dies- the same but more sad- it’s been a progressive journey downhill that everyone could see, but felt helpless to do anything about.

the way Wilson tried to change too! but just as he had three failed marriages at the start, he only had failed relationships throughout the show. he tried to break up with house, but he kept coming back to this codependent nightmare of a friendship. they’re doomed to be together in some way. are they simply too old and their neuronal pathways too set for them to change or are we all pathetically forever influenced by our traumatic childhoods and past experiences? are we pre-determined by our own trauma to fail? (me thinking about all those studies about the effects of child n adolescent anxiety on adult health outcomes)

and the way that kindest thing house did for anyone was letting thirteen go, releasing her from the rot around him that foreman and chase got sucked into- they both became like him in their own awful ways. the way she chose him to let her go from this life because of his emotional repression and the comfort it provided her and wilson at times. the way it can be so hard to even try to change when everyone, including yourself, have this idea of who you are and should be- what happened when house tried to leave the hospital to stick to his sobriety? how many jokes were made by the team that they preferred him on Vicodin? the distrust he faced from cuddy and Wilson about his sobriety? why bother changing if no one likes it? if no one keeps their word (Wilson making him move out)? and even Wilson’s cancer journey was so painfully real and them, the same they always were- house selfish and Wilson’s emotions not properly cared for? but could it have been another way? when I first got spoilered about houses faux suicide I thought it was gonna be entirely for Wilson bc I didn’t know about the jail thing, but when I watched it it made me so sad because it wasn’t the selfless meaningful act I was hoping for, but just them and their messy dynamics…. house giving up the one thing that gave his life meaning to stay with the one person that stuck with him- did he truly change, or is this yet another impulse decision the ocean of life will support him out of?

[kurtty-drabbles]

Howdy to the mun. It's been two years since the blue origins retcon and I still hate the crap out of it as much as when I first foolishly read it.

Because of the new origins Nightcrawler has, the X-Men timeline makes absolutely 0 sense now. Besides Destiny's age being whatever the f, besides Margali apparently being older than Destiny, besides the flunky time period which has nobility in Germany while people wear 90s outfits, besides all that, Spurrier like a dumbass decided to involve Xavier and have him be standing in the flashback. Xavier canonically loses the use of his legs to save Magneto around the time Legion was conceived and Legion is canonically at least 10 years older than Nightcrawler. Legion back in Quest for Legion was in his mid 30s while Nightcrawler was in his mid 20s. Nightcrawler's own age is a mess now and so is Rogue's age.

Mystique in the retcon has 0 agency, 0 brains, 0 convictions. After Destiny namedrops the woman who has the baby she's looking for for years "old witch Szardos", she doesn't investigate her immediately when it's literally the name she uses at the circus she's working at. It's on posters in every time as much as Nightcrawler's face and circus act is. Half of the work is done for her with this lead and yet she doesn't look further because she'd rather stay with the lover who pimped her, used her and abandoned her over nothing. The lover has her meet a powerful telepath, with a machine able to trackdown mutants, to erase her memories of the events she put her through and Mystique doesn't instead ask for his help to rescue her child back from a life her lover specifically stated had to be terrible and abusive. Every tool to get the child she wants back is right in front of her and she cannot connect the dots on this McDonald's worthy kiddies menu game.

The fact Mystique remains with her pimp abuser for decades and, after the wedding, ditches the now grownup baby to solely be with her again makes me feel absolutely no sympathy for her character, no care about seeing how this plotline with Nightcrawler and Destiny goes through and no feeling towards this family relationship.

Hi nonny wow this retcon has like 2 years now? Well, hope the white gays are happy bc it ruined not only romani characters to prop this stupid ship but also makes Kurt look so ooc.

If people want an edgy version of him...Kurt DARKHOLME existed.

Margalia is paying the sins of being a PoC woman in a comic book written by a white man- white women would butcher her too, representativity matters-as she is whatever awful thing is needed to make Raven and Destiny look better, and wanna know the worst part is...how this utterly failed. If we need to make this PoC woman the devil herself to make Raven look better....take a step back, writer, and think things through.

As for Margalia´s age...I don´t care, on this front, its not an issue. This is a comic book logic...she can have 100 years or be a perpetual 20-30 ish woman. The thing it makes me upset with the romani characters in marvel is how only Doom makes uses his power to make a place for them-while not ideal, he´s a villain, and for sure he has his many issues...Latvia exists and I wonder about, if we ignore the age, how about Margalia going to Latvia? But this is me not being educated enough about Roma...they have no home... The thing here is Wanda could use her power, either magic or her status as Avenger, to help but she doesn't ...bc no writer wants to touch on that.

Again, I´m not educated on Roma history.

Raven is frankly with someone she truly deserved...her pimp. Let them be miserable together. Honestly, I hope Destiny cheats on her with a man...I hope the next writer makes Destiny admit she always had a hard on for Azazel but he never want this woman(young or old) They frankly deserve worse.

[mystictyrantcollective]

Mind is fucked. Absolutely fucked.

And I'm exhausted. On so many levels.

I will not apologize for my feelings or expressing those feelings to you. And neither should you.

I will not apologize or feel bad for not knowing things and asking questions. Just bc it's something you know the ins and outs of doesn't mean it's easy. There have been plenty of things I have happily walked you through and explained to you and offered to help you with that I have experience in and would do it all again with no problem. Think about how you would feel if I turned around during those moments and had the attitude that you do with me at times or said to you I hate having to explain things to you. Which is paraphrasing what you tell me all the time. Appreciate you expressing your feelings, and you feeling how you feel, just asking you to think about how you'd feel if I said something like that to you about a topic you're trying to learn that you're not familiar with and trying not to screw up. Probably would make you feel dumb and inadequate is my guess. Then I read and research bc you tell me you aren't a good teacher, and what I read seems to be different than how you operate adding a whole other layer of frustration.

That comment we talked about was suspect AF. You tell me you don't even comment on things and then there's a damn invite to start a convo!?! Come on!!! You KNOW how I don't like to be caught off guard. Not to mention that there is absolutely no mention of us, our, we in that group that I saw when you told me to search your activity. Ya, there is overlap, like you said, but honestly I think it makes it look worse. You're not helping yourself on trying to shed any bad rep you think is out there. You look coupled up in other platforms but come off single in that one w your activity. You ever think that comes off like that to other people and it seems off?? And this is based off what I've seen other people do. When there's a Dms open comment, there is usually a tag of the SO, or a pic of the couple inserted into the comment is what I usually see from couples, from what I see from the singles is what you did. It's bullshit and you know it.

If this is supposed to be a fun thing for US and WE are a TEAM all I'm asking is that you act like it. Fucking communcate. I really don't think it's that big a deal. If I've learned anything in life you need to communicate w your SO the good the bad and the ugly or the relationship is doomed to fail. And If you don't want to be part of an us or a we that's a different Convo, but that's why I asked if you want this to actually work bc I swear every so often it's like you intentionally do stuff to piss me off to see what I'll do. But that could be me and my fucked up baggage so it's gray area for me. But going back to how this post originally started, I will not apologize for being new, anxious, and working through things a d having questions. If this is something you truly want me to be a part of then do the damn work. Do you know how weird it is to be OK w you rately giving compliments in person (you have been better) but then seeing you have no issue doing it online?? Again, put yourself in my shoes. Imagine if I rarely give you compliments but you go online and see me dishing them out? Think about it. Also some of them are a turn off for me bc they seem too thirsty. But that's just me being weird I guess.

Do what you say and say what you mean. You told me a long time ago that you would never tell me 100% of the truth 100% of the time. In that moment of our relationship that was acceptable, and I thought now that we are more serious I could disregsrd, but I'm putting it out there that now it's absolutely not acceptable, so I can always say I expressed this to you. No more surprises. No more. I've had enough surprises and being caught off guard for an entire lifetime at this point. I can't deal w anymore. That's part of my fucked up ness.

Oh and so we are on the same page this is totally me selfishly bitching at you bc I would like to actually get some fucking sleep.

Like, comment, post whatever. Seems to be something you need to do to be happy which I'm all for. But fucking communicate w me. Act like we belong to each other. Why is it so hard??? Is it really that big of an ask??? If it is why ???

This will be the last time I bring up anything like this. Going forward just do whatever you want to do taking this into consideration bc you're not the only one tired of having similar convos like this. I'm done talking about it.

And none of this is meant in any way to come off like I think I'm better than you. Just for you to read, digest and think about bc I will not talk about anything written here ever again unless it's a convo initiated by you. I'm done with it.

Xo