#these tags are completely seperate from the post LMAO

[devil-meow-cry]

is jace prime even alive still? DOES IT MATTER?? are they four separate jaces that are split from one or did one jace create three other jaces?

[namazunomegami]

Mélange

Pairing: Okkotsu Yuta x gn!reader

Synopsis: Sometimes humans are not above animals. Sometimes they burn to fulfill the same basic needs and not strive for more in the moment. A full belly, safety, procreation. What happens when all three of them need to be satisfied? Tinged with spice. Under the influence of an unknown substance.

CW: aphrodisiac, dubcon, slight somnophilia, feral and animalistic Yuta, he has cannibalistic thoughts, licking, lovebites, scratching, biting, slight pain, handjob, premature ejaculation, fingering, Reader can feel Yuta’s ring during fingering, slight dacryphilia if you squint, implied multiple rounds, porn with feelings, good old unprotected sex + creampie, both Reader and Yuta are ultra possessive in their own toxic way <33

WC: 3.6k

Credits: my dearest @notveryrussian for proofreading this mess and doing a bit of rework on the tenses <33 the cannibalcore pics are from pinterest

Song rec: needles and pins by deftones and gibson girl by ethel cain both give a nice vibe to the fic as we slowly transition from Yuta's POV to Reader's POV

A/N: Can't believe I'm posting my first one shot here 🥹 After so many unsuccessful attempts to wrap up multichaptered fics, at least, this one messy smut got finished. My first ever finished fic 🥹 And the first to get completed in a relatively short time. Yes, a week is a short time for me. And happy holidays to y’all, this is gonna be the last fic in this year so expect only shitposts from me from now on lmao.

Likes and reblogs are greatly appreciated <33

Minors do not interact or else I'm gonna go apeshit, also a seperate warning for heavy dark content as usual. If there's anything mentioned in the tags that you're not comfortable with, this is not your fic.

Many sorcerers envy the title of special grade. Yuta thinks these people deserve a separate Naraka in Hell. They don’t realize the immense responsibility, they can’t fathom the challenges, the danger of the missions. The threat those curses pose. They only care about the power he carries.

During today’s mission, Yuta realized he’s not entirely an unstoppable force. Even someone like him is weak to certain fighting styles, he can’t counter everything with his wide range of copied techniques. This curse’s grade was well deserved. Whenever the katana slashed deep into it’s skin, a strange kind of gas was emitted from the wounds. Though he eventually exorcised the curse, he did breathe in the weird, sweet-smelling substance. The scent was hard to resist, it felt like the perfect mixture of all his favorite smells, inviting and comforting. However, he trusted his body to withstand the temptation, reinforced to near perfection with cursed energy and the usage of reversed cursed technique.

There was no problem until he finished reporting back to the higher ups and was on the way home. Maybe it was just the fatigue, the late summer heat, the humidity of the night but something made him feel weird. Almost sick. A thin veil of sweat glistened on his skin, his cheeks, ears and upper body were flushed. His chest was heaving, a burning, aching sensation tormented him between his legs, throbbing with a synced rhythm to his heartbeat. All his thoughts narrowed down to one single, inherently primal thing. A need. A hunger.

Shame and confusion swelled inside his chest. How can he lose his composure? How can he want it so badly? If he wasn’t so wired for monogamy, he would have fucked anyone who moved. And with every passing minute the feeling was getting worse. Descending slowly to the brink of madness. Hell, he was close to wheezing and growling like a rabid dog. He already had no patience to find the right key to the door. He could break that shit, he definitely could. He had no idea why, but he could stop himself from doing that. Maybe the insane price to get it fixed.

But the comfort of his home isn’t helping him. He can’t calm down, he can’t unwind. On the contrary, everything intensifies the strange urge in him to act territorial. But it’s only natural when he grew up feeling like he didn’t have anything he could call his own, whether it’s a material possession or a person. Every comprehensible thought vanished from his head. Leaving only the instincts. The need to claim. He immediately goes to the bedroom, not even bothering to have a quick shower or a light meal.

He gazes at your sleeping form, unknowing and peaceful. Innocent and vulnerable like a newborn lamb and he’s… he wouldn’t compare himself to a wolf, he’s a more vicious predator than that, all starved and keen on capturing its prey. Your limbs are thrown in every direction on the mattress, a thin, silk blanket barely concealing your body, but you’re hugging a some of it to your chest. Like you’re missing him, finding solace in the way the material is touching you. The windows are wide open, hoping that the night air can cool you down.

Yuta caught himself almost drooling at the sight. He can’t stop himself, he can’t fight the shameless thoughts plaguing him. The need, the want is stronger than what he deems right in the moment. His steps are quiet, that part of the floor that normally creaks is now completely silent. He looms over you, like a sinful, ungodly spirit, your very own kanashibari that’s bound to you. His weight is pressing down on the mattress ever so slightly, caging your form between his arms. He breathes in the smell of your freshly showered skin. A mixture of heady vanilla, milk and honey. He mindlessly licks a stripe up your thigh, wanting to taste you, to bite you, to tear out a big chunk of your flesh with his teeth to satisfy this torturous hunger he feels for you. More than anything he wants to devour you. Completely. Have you all for himself. The thought alone makes his dick so hard it’s outright painful.

He ascends towards your hips, leaving soft yet wet kisses that make you twitch in your sleep. Yuta swears that he’s more sensitive to all stimuli, his senses are working at their maximum capacity. He’s able to feel every morsel, every particle of you. The soft peach fuzz, the bumps, the ridges of your stretch marks, their pearl-like glistening texture flowing on the surface of your skin like a river. The material of your shorts, loose and thin, he can feel the seams on the band of your underwear through the fabric. Where the bones bend, where flesh folds. Your smell. Not just from the shower gel and the laundry detergent but your natural scent, so strong he believes it’s some kind of weird pheromone that’s driving him wild. To the point he almost considers nudging his nose between your legs, just like dogs do when they smell blood there.

Maybe it’s not entirely wrong to claim you this way. He can spare you from this more primal side of him, you won’t get to see it and despise him for it. It’s enough if he deals with the shame alone, self-deprecation is his ultimate talent afterall. But that can wait until after he finished soothing this excruciating itch. Because now the last remnant of his resolve goes out the window.

He pulls up your shirt all the way up to your chest. His shirt to be exact. It makes his heart flutter, a piece of him enveloping you, makes the boundaries between your sense of selves blend and blur. The thought of you using his stuff as your own feels so right, so promising.

He practically glues his face to the expanse of your stomach. The flesh is so soft between his teeth, feels so good to bite on it, so easy to suck on it until the skin turns a deep purple.

And maybe… maybe he can lower his crotch onto your knees. Just a little. Just for a little friction…

You stir, opening your eyes slowly, tiredness and confusion are still heavy on your expression. And then you feel teeth nipping at your stomach, fingers digging into the dips of your hips firmly, some wetness here and there along your leg.

Your first response is fear.

You start to squirm and fuss, kicking your legs up in the air, not even thinking about who’s doing this to you until Yuta grips your shoulders and pushes you back into the sheets, keeping you still by the weight of his own body, shushing you. You can feel his nails penetrating the skin, branding the crescent Moon itself into your flesh.

“It’s me, don’t panic.”

You’d recognize this voice anywhere, but you blinked a few times just to clear your vision. The striking white of his coat is easy to spot, even in the dimly lit darkness of the room.

“Yuta…?”

Your voice is an ode, a blessing. Even when it’s hoarse and faint after waking up. He bends down and kisses your temple, nuzzling into your hairline, breathing in your scent. His body feels oddly warm, almost overly so, radiating through you. Through your spine, to the very center of your being and that’s when you notice that you’re a little bit… hot and bothered. What has he done to you while you were asleep?

“I’m so sorry…” he whispers an apology. But his voice is just… it’s like his mind is not entirely here. Something is hurting him and he’s trying to conceal it. Barely. You can hear his voice is hitched from the deep breath he takes, in a futile affort to calm himself. “Have you been sleeping for long?”

He asks you for the sake of it, there’s no genuine interest behind it. Even if you were sleeping for hours, it wouldn’t stop him. He couldn’t stop. He genuinely feels like he’ll die if he can’t get it out of his system. He snuggles his face into the crook of your neck, listening to the rhythm of life coursing through your veins. The thought of puncturing your jugular with his teeth is so irresistible. He must do it… It’ll drive him insane if he won’t.

“N-not really.” your answer is weak, all your strength is used to move your arm freely, trying to locate your phone on the bedside table. The light coming from the screen almost blinds you as you’re checking the time. “I went to bed about… half an hour ago.”

He dips his fingers right into the hollow dips between your ribs, he kneads the skin in a way that has his nails slightly scratching you. And then you realize that you’re almost entirely topless.

He traps your earlobe with his teeth, sucking on the soft tissue.

“Y-Yuta…” your voice is more reprimanding that you want it to be. But your patience is starting to run thin. You want to know what the fuck is wrong with him, he never did anything like this before. Even if he’s horny as hell he would ask for your permission because that’s the way he is.

Instead of giving you an answer he bites your neck. Hard. It hurts, it makes you yelp. Shit, that’s gonna leave a mark. And he growls, just like a wild animal.

You squirm, you jolt, trying to get away from the source of your pain with a prolonged hiss. Only one hand of his is enough to stop you from fussing while the other fondles your chest. Your nipple is caught between his fingers, he twists it slightly. You can’t see it getting red, hard and swollen. His moves are awkward and tactless, but somehow they help with soothing the sharp pain in your neck. Your tensed body eases up a little.

He kicks the inner side of your knee with his own, creating a little space in between them, then forces your legs apart with one smooth movement. As he tries to settle right under your core, you feel him brushing the apex of your thigh.

He’s so painfully hard.

You’re sure he can read the instinctual reactions of your body. The rush of adrenaline, your pulse, how your heart is almost breaking your ribs with every beat. You’re getting more and more aware of your surroundings because you have no idea what will happen to you. He pins your wrists down on the bed. He doesn’t want you to escape.

What has gotten into him? Where’s your shy and gentle man, your sweet little angel? The one who needs so much guidance, who gets so awkward about his lack of experience compared to you. The one you need to encourage to talk about what he likes since you won’t judge him for it. Well, angels shouldn’t be benevolent and sweet, right? They’re the soldiers of god after all. And the depth of his psyche is still very much a mystery to you…

“I don’t want to hurt you… I just need you.”

He has no control over his own thoughts, everything on his mind gets blabbered out. Not just that he needs you, but that he wants to fuck you (he rarely uses that word so you’re even more baffled), that he wants to eat you up, bite for bite, digest you so nobody else can have you.

It sounds devoted yet utterly terrifying.

“You’re-“

He’s scary. Well, you knew this prior to crawling into his life. What people thought about him, one rumor more unhinged than the other and you have no idea how much truth there was to them. Everyone has some sort of admiration, respect for him or repulsion of him. You just tend to forget sometimes, how malicious his cursed energy feels, how his eyes never reflect the light, looking outright dead. But it’s all so contradictory to his personality… you know that you’re dear to him, he’s willing to risk everything for his friends, he’s so starved for connection, to carve himself a place within people’s hearts. You blamed the whole phenomenon on Rika. And you took pride in yourself, for taming a monster.

“I feel so…” he suspires, trying his best to contain himself. “… weird.”

And he’s a kind monster indeed, even now, controlling his impulses as he humps your thigh like a feral dog.

“I don’t know if I’m able to hold back, so I need to know….”

His voice is desperate, almost a plea. He’s afraid of himself too. With the last bit of his sanity, he wants to make sure that it’s alright for you, whatever he has in store for you.

You don’t protest.

His lips crash into yours in a violent, hungry kiss. Your teeth clang together, he shoves his entire tongue in your mouth. He grabs the hem of your shorts, peeling off anything that covers you below the waist. You hear the fabric tear. It’s the same with his own clothes too, in a few blinks of your eyes he’s already stark naked.

He takes your hand, pulls it towards him, you can feel him in your palm. So hot, hard and swollen to the touch. He closes your fingers around him and his hips start moving back and forth, fucking himself into your grip. You smear the precum along his length with your fingertips, squeezing lightly when you feel the base. It has him moaning, breathily, more vocal than he usually is. He’s so sensitive, his pace quickens and his voice is thinner, almost like a whimper.

And he groans. Unexpectedly. It bursts deep from his throat. You feel his cum pooling in your palm. Though you may be surprised, you don’t make a big deal about it. You search for tissues on the bedside table to clean your hand like nothing happened.

“Feelin’ okay?”

Your voice is calming, tender, it warms his heart but the mere sight of his cum on your hand makes the blood rush to his dick again.

You sit up to caress his face. You open your mouth to question him, but he won’t let you start your aftercare routine.

“It’s… not enough.”

He grabs your thigh, hooking your leg over his shoulder, giving him better access to your naked core. Your back falls onto the mattress again.

“I’ll take care of you.”

It’s a promise, you’re sure of it.

His fingertips sink into your folds, relief ripples through him when he finds them already wet. He goes all out on you, his thumb circles your clit and two fingers dip in at your entrance, waiting to loosen you up so they can be pushed inside. His nails gently caress your inner thigh, it’s a tickling sensation, goosebumps dot your skin, a sigh dies on your lips. Treating it as a sign, his fingers start stretching your walls. They curl and curl inside you to the point of the cold band of his ring touching your folds, your essence soiling the stainless metal. The symbol of the haunting spirit of his first love. Childish love that it is, unserious, all just a game. The promises… the word forever holds no weight. Or maybe it does but they have no idea how hard it is to maintain those vows.

Can you ever compare to Rika in his eyes? Have the same effect over him? You don’t dare to talk about it just yet. No, the nature of your relationship is not the same. Childhood love is not like adult love, you just want some reassurance. You want to feel important.

And your reassurance is soaking that wretched finger with your juices. Make that wretched ring yours. He spreads his fingers inside you, scissoring you apart, eagerly working to prepare you. You’re holding onto the sheets and the pillows desperately, your body feels so volatile you might as well float away.

When he pulls out you feel hollow, incomplete. But he won’t keep you waiting long. The head of his cock feels like salvation. Scorching hot and wet with the mixed arousal. And he completes you with one smooth thrust. You’re whole, fulfilled, a merged existence worth suffering over. He’s throbbing deep within your walls, pulsating through your nerves. You can’t tell if the noise coming out of him is a moan, a whine, or a growl, you only know that it’s bordering on bestial. Filled with need, an ache, coupled with something beyond your comprehension.

He drills into you, there’s so much strength and resilience in him, it almost makes you scared. But something else also swells inside your chest. An unknown kind of excitement, a thrill, it makes you feverish, wired. The dissonance between his absolutely feral state and the fact that he’d never hurt you. Or maybe he would, in a way that you’d like it. Nobody could bite through your throat with such force that your windpipe breaks, only him, him and no one else.

He holds you at the back of your pelvic bone, lifts you up in an utterly perfect angle. You mewl him that it feels so good, so perfect, so raw. You love this feeling so much. You get completely lost and immersed in it.

“…it?”

His voice is faint yet his broken self-worth shines through it. Poor soul… You didn’t pay attention to his most important desire. He’s a parasite living off of your kind words, but nothing can make him as blissful as knowing you love him, despite everything he despises about himself. And you’ll feed him. Prove it to him that he matters more than the things he does to you.

“Oh Yuta, my sweet…” the rest of the sentence gets stuck in your throat as you open your arms and he crashes into your embrace like a lost, lonely puppy. You hug him tightly, brushing through his locks with a free hand. The sweat makes the strands stick together. “Of course I love you, don’t be silly.”

He might as well have been a puppy in his previous life. And now your words eased his guilt about his temporary condition. He gained your forgiveness.

What he does next is much more instinctual. He folds you in half, where your knees bend, is pressed right against his traps, your heels graze the middle of his back. Now his thrusts have weight, uncovering spots that even you had no idea that existed inside of you. Tears of joy prickle in your eyes, calling upon whatever deity’s name you can think of, off the top of your head. You can swear his pace increases at the sight. It’s so intense a broken cry erupts from your throat.

He thrusts right into a sweet spot, which has you melting and trembling. Please is the only word your lips can form. At this point, you couldn’t care less about the lewd sounds of your skin slapping together or the squelching noises that make the whole act sloppy, shameless and primal, you only want to reach  your peak, and you’re not far from it as you’re clenching around him with a rhythm that you have no control over.

It crashes, it ruptures, sudden, sharp and hot like an electric spark. A scream empties your lungs, but Yuta muffles it with sealing his mouth onto yours. You feel yourself getting filled as you’re convulsing around his length.

After he fucks you through your orgasm you feel yourself shaking, your whole body is limp, numb, drifting slowly to sleep. You’re both soaked in sweat, your bodies stick together but there’s a need to bond further in each other’s embrace. You plant a kiss between his locks, praising him, telling him you love him. Satisfaction clouds your mind, like a soft, pillowy pink mist.

However, his cock is still not soft.

“I have no idea what has gotten into you.” you tell him, marveling, as you’re still catching on your breath. “I like it though, but you owe me an explanation.”

He handles you gently, like you’re some precious thing, made from glass, fragile. Your body is like a ragdoll’s, he has you lying on your stomach, lazily, flatly, you might as well fuse together with the mattress. Calloused fingers are drawing nonfigurative shapes on your shoulder blades.

“I’ll tell you right after we finish.”

Your blood runs cold for a moment.

“Again? Yuta, for the love of god I’m exhausted.” you whine.

He apologetically kisses your spine.

“Just this one, okay? Please? I’ll do all the work, I’ll make it quick. You only need to relax, you can sleep even.”

You want to tell him that sounds a little bit creepy, but you don’t have the strength to talk. He kisses the two shallow dimples right above your tailbone. His gaze lingers on your folds, admiring how red and swollen you are.

“If you manage to make me cum again, you deserve a fucking award.” you comment, face nuzzled into the pillow, your voice is obviously snarky.

You can feel teeth sinking into the flesh of your asscheek. The mark that is burning on your neck found it’s pair. He presses down your overly sensitive clit with his thumb, balancing the pain out with pleasure. But it gets overstimulated so easily, you feel the need to bite the pillow.

You brace yourself with a deep breath through your nose. You’re going to pay him back next time, you promise yourself that you’ll make a begging, crying mess out of him, and the thought makes you chuckle.

[beifong-brainrot]

Sorry about appearing in your asks again with another question about Lin you're probably getting sick of answering some questions about her considering you get backlash whenever you criticise her character. The main reason I'm sending an ask again is because I find your analysis of the absolute mess that is the Beifong family interesting.

This kind of relates to my previous ask about you saying you thought she was a bad chief of police; which you obviously answered that you joke about it a bit but you don't necessarily view her as bad chief of police but her judgement, morality, reasoning and motivation are questionable. I was wondering about your view on the idea of Lin possibly being mildly corrupt (please note that I am not accusing Lin of being a corrupt cop as in hiding evidence and taking bribes). This just occurred to me this morning, so obviously we have Lin damaging air temple island and trying to arrest Pema out of anger after Tenzin dumped her; but Mako is also a cop (also please note not saying he shouldn't be or is himself corrupt) and Mako and Bolin used to be members of the triple threat triad to get by meaning the both potentially have criminal records of course theres the possibility they never got arrested so even though their triad involvement is known theres no evidence, if there are records of their triad involvement for Mako to become a cop someone with authority like a chief of police would have expunge his criminal record for him even get into the academy or the force.

Please note you don't have to answer this if you don't feel comfortable or have an opinion on it especially considering how people react to your opinions on Lin.

Lmao, it's fine to send me these asks, though I'll probably be tagging them as anti Lin from now on, even if it's not exactly accurate to consider my takes as being 'anti' Lin. But dissection of a character's less palatable traits is straddling that fine line between analysis and critique so I'll fo so to be safe.

I can't say I would view Lin as corrupt in the traditional sense. I can't see her knowingly bending rules and laws for her own gain. She's been shown to value the law extremely highly, especially when on the job.

I do notice there seems to be an odd disconnect between Lin on the job, and when she isn't. Lin when she acts as chief of police is very strictly adherent to the law, but when she isn't acting as a cop, she seems more willing to act in... legally dubious ways.

Think about when she's in the Earth Kingdom and not doing her job and is completely ok with breaking international law. Or, more poignantly her absolutely wonderful and sadly wasted arc in B1, where she chooses to work "outside the law". She handed her badge over and immediately proceeded to break 3 people out of jail and doll out vigilante justice (something she previously berated Korra about). Some would call that the height of hypocrisy, but Lin has a seperate "Chief Beifong" persona she uses regularly, when her less legally adherent, and perhaps truer, persona lays dormant when she wears the badge or acts as police chief.

But there's more vulnerability and less safety to being just Lin, rather than Chief Beifong, which is why I believe we usually see Lin clinging to her job and pushing people away through it. I think when she was with Tenzin, she was more just Lin, which is why she felt comfortable wreaking chaos on Air Temple Island.

I don't exactly want to call this corruption, more a "this woman is using her work in the police force as an unhealthy coping mechanism and doesn't communicate properly ofc she's gonna be bad at self regulation". She's not acting out of malice or greed or anything, so it feels unwarranted to call her corrupt in the traditional sense. But she clearly has an unhealthy relationship to her job as a cop and it's affecting how she does said job. Frankly, I wish she had just stayed out of the force at the end of B1 because seeing her figure out how to live life without using police work as a crutch and emotional wall would be fascinating.

I also think that some wires may have become crossed for Lin, where she is so used to 'the bad guys' in her life being criminals and being in her police chief persona, that she percieves personal slights as crimes, and people who cause her anger or pain as criminals. Even if their actions technically aren't crimes, they have to be criminals because they're bad™️ and bad™️ in Chief Beifong's world usually means crime. An example of this could be how she got on Korra's ass about vigilante justice, while her actual problem with Korra lay more with her asscociation to Tenzin. This idea is reinforced in Lin's mind by the fact that Su did hurt her while commiting a crime.

So I can see Lin, for example, trying to dig up potential crimes that people who hurt her personally could be put away for. Because if they hurt her personally then in her eyes there's a big likelihood that they may be an actual criminal.

I'm not sure about the bending brothers' having a criminal record, since Mako stressed that they didn't seem to do anything illegal for the triple threats as kids. But then again Bolin did steal bread from an old lady and he broke into a pet shop to steal Pabu so I think the only reason he doesn't have a record is because he was never caught. Same for Mako.

Evil bread thieves here

[catboylesterr]

hi hi it’s @bamtwozled of “trying not to be completely insane in the tags of your failed ritual au” fame! (I hate using my main for asks forgive me lmao) this au compels me so bad and I was wondering if you had any lore for it you’d like to share besides what’s in the art 👀

AUGH thankyouthankyouthankyou for asking because I've REALLY been meaning to make a post talking about this au in more depth outside of art !!! I just keep getting preoccupied and forgetting 😭😭

(I had also specifically wanted to talk to u abt it via tags but even tho I've been on this app a couple years I still don't really know how reblogging other people's reblogs of your posts. works. so I'm glad you asked!! :3 )

Failed Ritual's lore is essentially the same as canon DAPC up to a certain point, that point being Slime, of course. Though we don't know much, we can assume the crafties met online in the same or a similar way as actual dnp. I personally think they split from real life events shortly b4 the first DAPC upload after they both begin to obsess over the occult. Maybe it stared from them looking at forums? Either way it devolves very fast.

We also know later on, pre-Slime, they were locked up together in a government facility for an undetermined amount of time and then escaped. I dont think just calling it 'obsessive occult practices' really comes close to scratching the surface of what they've been doing in universe at all, but we dont see all of their uploads, so we have to take what we have.

As for where I think it splits in Slime, there are so many things that had to go perfectly for the ritual to work that I think you can decide what you think the actual wrong move was for yourself, honestly!! It could've been like 10 seperate things. Maybe more than one, maybe just one tiny detail ruining everything. The actual Slime could've been made wrong prior to burning the night before, the ritual circle could've been sloppy, they could've just been out of practice from being in containment, even a candle accidentally snuffing out as Dan carved Phil's heart out. I like to think it was something very small that they were too preoccupied to notice.

Whichever you choose, when Dan begins to try and bring Phil back as he always has, [indicated by potato prints, Phil seems to be the one that usually dies and returns] it doesn't work. And Dan doesn't process it at first, waiting for a sign of life, but it begins to sink in quite quickly when nothing happens after a significant time. He tries everything he can think of to set things back on course and nothing works.

He doesn't leave Phil's side for days. But, eventually, he does, because otherwise he'll starve and have no way of even maybe getting him back. He doesn't have anything to dig with so he has to leave Phil where he is.

When he leaves, he absolutely takes Phils heart with him. He wouldn't dare leave it.

In regards to what happened on Phil's side.. he's not all gone, but it's arguably worse. The ritual only going partially right has left this soul in a sort of limbo, unaware and waiting for something he doesn't know will never come. With no physical body to return to, he remains. And though he can't see where he is, and doesn't quite know who he is, he knows something is missing. Someone.

Dans life post-ritual is something I want to touch on ALOT more than I have. I believe he and craftie Phil became codependent due to necessity thoughout the years, with being locked up and practicing carefully done rituals. He never really adjusts to being by himself. 15 years of Phil rattling on about something in his ear and suddenly it's replaced with nothing but rumors of police investigations and habits he picked up from him.

My most recent art regarding this au, a bloodied phil looking up from a dark red pool, is regarding nightmares I absolutely think craftie Dan gets. Trusted with Phil's life to bring Him back and failing and never ever recovering from the emotional turmoil. Sure, it may get a little better, but it'll never truly fade. He will be on the run forever.

At its core, intricacies aside, Failed Ritual, to me, is an au about grief. A bone deep grief and sense of anguish that will leave you haunted forever by your semidead cultist partner. You never really recover from that.

This au is also totally moldable to whatever someone's specific vision of a 'failed ritual dapc', I'm down to hear literally ANYTHING anyone wants to say because it's nearly been a yr since dapc has returned (and been put to rest) and I miss them really really badly everyday of my life it's agony like I miss dapc so badly oh mygod help help help he- (gets shot)

[moondragon618]

Uugh I've kind of been putting this off but since I've had a small influx of followers leak over from my rp blogs + apparently there's another Twitter migration happening or smth idk lol + my pfp seems to attract dream stans for obvious reasons + it's been long enough since October that the thought of talking abt it isn't super uncomfortable anymore I just want to be a little more clear abt this.

I do not support cc!dream nor do I particularly like him at all. And also due to personal trauma reasons I likely never will again even if the allegations are proven false or whatever (and tbh there would still be enough shit that is 100% true to make me uncomfortable). I generally block any hardcore stans and if you have a cc!dream pfp and follow me or interact with my posts you're probably gonna get blocked on sight lol.

But yeah the whole Situation in October was triggering as fuck so if anyone following me remembers when I was like a casual dream stan and then suddenly deleted 90% of my blog (and tbh it's probably a miracle I accidentally got my ao3 suspended when I did (I used "shippers will die by my blade" as a tag and that's against tos apparently) bc otherwise my one fic I had at the time might have been an orphaned work by now) then that's what happened. I was having a real bad time panicked tried to jump ship etc. but that kind of just made it worse I think so yk.

But yes I am still a c!Dream enjoyer he is a completely seperate entity with absolutely no relation whatsoever. To me. You could say I've built up an extremely strong impenetrable mental barrier between the two ig lol. Anyway I have taken legal custody of c!Dream lmao :)

[teslacoils-and-hubris]

is hallows end a whole town of spooky supernatural stuff, or is everyone just completely oblivious to butch and bug's weirdness?

Its the entire town! Jake is the odd one out as a normal human guy and he honestly stands out like a sore thumb lmao

You can go through my hallows end tag to find more info, I just went through and retagged some old posts that were missing it, but here's a pretty basic run down

Basically it's like if you threw every halloween aesthetic into one town that also had no form of government and no way to ever leave. You'll find anything from monster high type monsters to nightmare before christmas aesthetics to classic monster movies and horror movie villains. It is the platonic ideal of halloween. Even the way buildings work was semi inspired by spirit halloweens lmao

A lot of interpersonal drama comes from clashing of specific genres (kids halloween vibes vs slasher vibes vs classic Dracula vibes), which are broadly seperated into old town and new town by locals. Old town being the more classic grimdark, gothic, serious halloween vibes (classic slashers, tim burton aesthetics, etc) while new town is the more neon bright candy corn and jack o lanterns vibes (monster high is the best example aesthetics wise plus how they treat their monsters). It's mostly just a way for me personally to talk about the two general groups within the world and doesn't actually matter too much in canon. Butch counts as old town and Bug is new town

[seidenkaiser]

Requests

Moin!

I am taking sewing/design/moodboard requests.

Don't be shy and just put in the ask box what you'd like to see and we will see what comes of it.

Rules:

Designs/Drawings that come from Requests are free to use for everyone unless stated otherwise on the Design Post! | But please give Credit If you use a look for your OCs/Sew it yourself/use it in any way. (And Tag me if Possible lmao, I wanna See) I only do front Views for Requests unless you ASK explicitly for a Front/Back.

Sewing Requests can be nearly anything. Guides/Reviews/Insights for skirts/Dresses/sleeves/shoecovers/chokers/etc. You can also ask for specific Detail works Like ruffles, patchwork, Soutache, (bead) embroidery, decoratibe stitching, etc pp (If I don't have the Materials on Hand it might Just take longer)

I try to make Sewing Requests as detailed as possible. I will describe the steps and give Reviews on what works and what doesn't. But it won't be a full fledged Tutorial. If there are further questions Just ask away.

Photoshopped Moodboards are completely free to use and you don't even have to credit me since I use a very specific style to create those. That Style is a Hit or Miss for Most people.

What I DON'T do:

I do not make full design breakdowns with seperated layers, Material recommendations etc

I do Not Take sewing Requests for Giant Projects. E.g. Disney Princess Style Ballgowns. You can ask for parts of it like Princess sleeves or the bodice,...

What I LOVE:

I love weird prompts. You want an Outfit Design inspired by a Car engine? You want to See how I struggle with some odd shape to Sew into a project? A Designer Moodboard for birds shitting? I gotchu fam

[lee-of-games]

Suddenly remembered it’s Yugi’s birthday and I HAD to draw him.

Everyone say happy birthday yugi

(ft. Yami and alt versions of Yugi alone and one without that dark overlay on Yami)

[radiovys]

okk

lets go

goin thru somthn rn brb gonna change my entire layout because it tastes like wet cardboard and i dont like that

[carmenbathwater]

Holds up a water gun

I’m the main blog behind fucked-up-and-evil-science, I saw ur reblog tags, (of the trade offer meme) talking about an oc named Charles, infodump about them Now, I would love to hear about who they are

(all /nf, I just kinda wanna read someone ramble about their oc LMAO)

HI ACCEPT CHARLES ENTIRE BEING

SO. to understand the Charles, I gotta give a bit of background abt the part of the world he lives in-

Basically Charles lives in a bordertown, which is part of a system of towns situated along the sector walls. The walls are there to seperate the sectors from the dead zone, which is basically a tectonic plate for corrupted and dying magic (in this world it's a bit of post post apocalypse)

The deadzones effects mostly involve corrupting sentient life into monsters, through a means similar to radiation poisoning(very graphic.) but the bordertowns are also receiving this magic irradiation! Because, as mentioned before, the dead zones move, similarly to tectonic plates in real life. However, this effect is much lesser than it is in the midst of deadzones, so the townspeople are not all given poisoning effects.

Now! The magic in this world is also dictated by sentient emotions, and humans are more susceptible to it- When a sentient being suffers a strong enough mental break there is a chance

THIS! is where Charles lore starts! Charles was an average bordertown citizen, he worked in an information job for the borderpatrol (soldiers to protect the walls and collect samples from the deadzones) Charles job was to assign soldiers to teams. This is emotionally stressful for him at first, because he makes friends with the soldiers only to see them repeatedly die out in the deadzones or succumb to other ailments.

Charles then has a relevation! He doesn't have to feel- Anything at all- He picks up drinking. This habit intensifies more as time goes on- he's eventually trapped in his own cycle of pushing everything away in favor of simple false pleasures-

Eventually this collapses in on itself and Charles suffers a mental break, loosing himself to his alcoholism and simply pretending every day to be completely happy. His coworkers admired his positive outlook on every situation-

Upon one day suffering in a sober state, he finds an advert for human testing- and calls the number to sign up. He believes himself to be more useful dead than alive in the moment and throws himself into instead, becomjnf another missing resident of the town. It's not out of the ordinary and life moves on without him

Charles meanwhile. Is tested on and used as a test subject for the effects of his magic irradiation levels. While there he suffers a contortion due to the pent up stress of his emotional state, and becomes....

THIS GUY!

Charles contortion is modeled after a drinky bird and tales the texture of plastic. When the experiment lab was done with him they declined to cull him as is usually done to contortions(because they tend to be insentient and dangerous to other people)

Charles who is different from his former self, but still sentient on some level, then roams the towns, often showing up in bars to drink and indulge in what the original Charles wanted. That being merrymaking in what he perceives as a happier world. He wanders the bordertown living his pretend life. Truly merely a shell of who he used to be, if confronted with attempts to make him see reality for what it is, sorrows included, he becomes hostile.

BUT THAT'S CHARLES! Enjoy him<3 thanks for prompting this rant :]

[mrpenguinpants]

Hey so that Dainsleif quest huh 👀

[Spoilers for those who haven't played it yet ofc]

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These are just some disorganized initial thoughts for your consideration:

So I'm pretty sure his "travel companion" that he keeps mentioning is our twin

Does that mean our twin has gone to the exact same places as we've been going?? Dainsleif seemed to be familiar with all the locations we visited in Mondstadt but I suppose that could've been from an even earlier journey

And the possibility that the Abyss is trying to mislead us bc we hadn't encountered any abyss mages since Dvalin 🤔🤔🤔 what do they want??? We know (kinda) that our twin is watching our progress and that they're the prince/princess of the Abyss so like are they trying to keep us from getting in the way of their plans so as not to accidentally hurt us? Though something tells me we're gonna get tangled up in it one way or the other lmao

Dainsleif said that his goal is to oppose the Abyss so perhaps he's got his own secret plans to try to stop our twin (as is also supported by what he said at the end of the mortal travails video about proving ourselves worthy of stopping "her"/Lumine probably)

Also turns out I'd been pronouncing his name wrong the whole time lmao I had been saying dains-leaf instead of dains-lif

No Vision as confirmed by his full character model

Also his eyepatch is more of a phantom of the opera mask lmao

Important observation he looks like post timeskip Dimitri from a distance when I had to meet him in Dvalin's Lair I legit thought he was Dimitri for a sec XD

Anyway those were my thoughts about the new quest lmao my internet was cutting out the whole time while I was trying to play like dsfkdksjf pls I just wanted to talk to blond eyepatch man

Important part of this post: 

I took a lot of pictures of Dainsleif if you want to use them as references (or appreciation).  The pictures are under the read more tag so if you don’t want spoilers, don’t read anything and skip to the read more. 

Also, he calls you and your sibling “idiots” through money.

He asks for 500 mora and (this is probably just a coincidence but considering Zhongli tips Xiangling 888 mora I’m sus). The number 250  [二百五] or ( èr bǎi wǔ) means “idiot”. 

If someone calls you 250, they can say (nǐ shì wǔ bǎi) or “You are [250]”. But if you give someone 500, this can be taken as saying two people are stupid (250 + 250 = 500). I mean, that’s probably not how it works but I think it’s funny to imagine Dainsleif being too polite to call us stupid. 

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I know right? When I saw the leak for it and seeing it confirmed in patch notes, I was so confused. Wha-Why are you here so early? I wasn’t expecting you for another 5 years at least. I’m happy to see you and your beautiful model in game but at the same time I was so worried that we were going to get crumbs of interactions. Same thing with Guizhong in Zhongli’s story quest. Genshin please...finish your stories (that’s fucking hilarious coming from me considering I still have a part 2 to Childe that I need to write), but I’m honestly just happy that he’s in the game. But yes 👀👀 more lore food. 

You know, I was talking about the archons a bit with @maagdalen and, I may have been misunderstanding or reading the wrong message, but they brought up the idea that what if the archons’ personality is based on their regions country's? So for example, Venti’s personality adopts the German mentality because Mondstadt was modelled after Germany? Obviously, I have no idea if that’s true because I’m not from or am German but in the context of Liyue and Zhongli. I can definitely see some sort of connection. 

But some food for thought:

“But cyro archon is very viable since she's suppose to be a kind hearted person that needed to be cold for the sake of freedom. or peace. something like that.”

 “Sorry, but this is stupidly Russian style. No matter what you say, people will always be dissatisfied. Of course it's not that bad...but it's something to think about.“ 

But yess, @svnflowery​ said the same thing. That Dainsleif was Lumine’s “guide” the same way Paimon is our guide. I actually think that’s an interesting idea. That Lumine has gone to the exact same places as we’ve been through. It actually makes me wonder (since we can play as both her and Aether), that Lumine went through the same story line as Aether. She met Venti, Zhongli, everything that’s happening right now. She’s already been through, then when she reached the Khaenri’ah chapter she failed. So she decided to spin the clock back and change destiny. I mean, this is me spit balling and I don’t think this happened but it’s something to think about. 

You know funny enough, hasn’t Venti been asleep for a while? Either way, he doesn’t really strike me as the type that truly wants to be an Archon. He says in his voicelines as well that “that’s a problem for Mondstadt to deal with”. So it would be easier for the Abyss Order to mess some things up. While Zhongli has been alive for 6000 years and I highly doubt Abyss Order can do anything to him haha. If we’re going on that “Lumine has already been through this journey” she could be trying to re-make or lead us on the same path. 

I wouldn’t be surprised if Dainsleif was our guide, then when Lumine spun the clock back and aligned herself with the abyss, that’s when they split. That could be a reason why he’s trying to oppose the abyss order but really I think it’s because the Abyss Order’s goal is to basically set the world on fire (or something like that). I always pronounce character names wrong and I don’t understand why people make such a big deal out of it. You know who I’m talking about, my pronunciation isn’t completely shit to the point you don’t know. So why do you keep yelling at me??

Also. The most important part of his quest was it was “Aether’s version” of the “We will be reunited” trailer. 

It even showed the crushed dandelion flower and the ruin guard footprints. IT’S OUR SISTER. 

I knoww, I was searching for his vision and got weird pics but that’s alright, I LOWKEY HATE THE OPERA MASK SO MUCH. GIVE ME ACTUAL MASK. THERE GOES THE “SEPERATE COLOURED EYE” ART OF KHAENRIAH PEOPLE. Yo, knock off Dimitri let’s go. 

I love Dainslief’s english voice but I hate Xiao’s en voice. What a dilemma. I usually play in chinese but wow does Dainslief sound old. Jp is slightly better but I hear grandpa vibes. Korean isn’t bad and I actually don’t mind korean xiao so korean we shall go. It’s weird. I like Dainsleif english voices, Xiao chinese voice, paimon korean voice haha. Jp is usually just good all around but I have preferences. But tyty for telling me your thoughts! I’d love to hear about the Xiao quest that just dropped. Beautiful boy 

sweats 

yeah about that...xiao scammed me. I wonder if his speech changes based on what you say. i kind of doubt it though. 

I’m looking at his outfit from every angle while Xiao stays pretty in the back. 

I like that you can see his magic arm there. 

While on this side you can’t. 

I swear this is for research. IM TRYING TO SEE IF HE HAS A VISION. IM INNOCENT!!

he also has some sort of weird...blue thingy on his foot?

Im using Xiao as a personfication of me BUT TELL ME YOUR SECRETS 

[eohachu]

Post pictures of your first ever (fictional/celeb) crush to the latest one and tag five others to continue the game.

Ali tagged me, thanks. I guess 😘 @lanzhansmiles​

A’ight so I’m simply taking this as an opportunity to show off my frankly impeccable taste 😌 *coughs into the crook of my elbow with my mask on and from a safe distance* More under the cut, godspeed!

I’m tagging uhh I really don’t want to expose anyone but uh. @morifinwes​ @ttaechwita​ @sunshine304​ @treemaidengeek​ @flamingwell​ no pressure tho!!

Since 2006

Janina Fautz: Die Wilden Kerle, anyone?? Tbh i had a crush on quite a lot of the characters/actors but in hindsight Janina was and is the most influential one. Also probably my first ever girl crush (again, in hindsight bc it took me until 3 years ago to finally find out i’m queer lol)

Eva-Maria May: Yeah well I’m not gonna talk about where I know her from let’s say it was an incredibly bad soap opera my mom used to watch. She was one of the reasons why I went Yeah I Have Always Been Into Girls. I was pretty obsessed with her to the point where mini me secretly printed out a photo of her to look at lmaooo the signs have always been there and it’s truly amazing how I had been missing them for years

Amy Adams: Her as Amelia Earhart in Night at the Museum was also definitely a huge Thing to young me. Again, I had been completely oblivious about this crush for years

David Luiz: HAH! This is the point where we do NOT get into my football/soccer crushes bc this list would get WAYYY too long hahaha. I had to cut loads of people from my list for this post bc I develop a new celebrity crush every 5 minutes basically but yeah. David Luiz was definitely my biggest football/soccer crush out of..... everyone else

M*rvel

I don’t have a lot to say about any of them since I’m not into m*rvel anymore TFATWS makes me want to stick the tip of my toe back into m*rvel waters but otherwise NO THANKS

Sebastian Stan was, if my judgement of my archive is right, the longest highkey celebrity crush I’ve ever had. Mostly because I love Bucky a lot and he was so amazing in Captain America: The Winter Soldier. I must’ve had a crush on him for as long as I had been in the m*rvel fandom

Recent Past

some celeb crushes from last year that were all more or less short-lived tbh

Ester Expósito: As it often goes I didn’t find her spectacular in the beginning but as Élite went on I started to develop a huge crush on her. I still find her pretty hot but I’m not invested in Élite so yeah..... I have no object permanence

Mina El Hammani: Got to know her through Élite, too. She’s so incredibly beautiful. Had a hard time choosing a photo of her bc I’d stare at every single one for ages. Wow.

Danger Days!Gerard Way: Hah! The ones of you who’ve been following me for longer might remember my posts about wanting to dye my hair neon red. Well, him’s the reason and also clinical depression. Ended up with natural red/ginger bc my hair is too thin for bleaching lel. ANYWAY

Maxence Danet Fauvel: Pretty short-lived crush from my Skam days

Ramy Moharam Fouad: So Ramy has a brother, Tamino-Amir Moharam Fouad, who makes INCREDIBLE music. Ramy made some of his music videos (directed them? not sure), that’s how he came to my attention. Idk man he’s just so incredibly beautiful.... gives me a hint of genvy, too......

Janelle Monáe: Became a fan when Make Me Feel came out, listened to the entire album for days and eventually inevitably crushed on her

Lera Abova: Saw her in ANИА and fell in love. I screamed to my friends for weeks about how she was the most beautiful human being I’d ever seen etc etc. Eventually my crush went away mostly, but I still think she’s stunning

Keiynan Lonsdale: Keiynan said FUCK gender and I said 😍😍😍 and that’s all you need to know.

Current

*deep breath* alright let’s gooo

Bright (Wachirawit Chivaaree): Crushed on him for as long as I watched 2gether/Still 2gether lmao. I still like him a lot and sometimes lose my mind over him but I’m not exceptionally Thirsty™

Tul (Pakorn Thanasrivanitchai) and Max (Nattapol Diloknawarit): If you search either of them on tumblr you will have to scroll for a long, long time to find seperate photos of them. However, I’m not patient enough so here we are. Re: Tul, actually I want to copy/paste what Ali said bc DAMN a man who is confident about his masculinity and sexuality really is kinda hot. Same goes for Max tbh. Also Max’ lips look so soft I [redacted]

Lukas von Horbatschewsky: Also known as Lukas Alexander. He did an amazing job in Druck and he’s just a person I admire in general. As one of the few out trans actors in Germany, he had a main role as a trans boy in Druck and also co-wrote Druck’s seasons 5 and 6. He’s just a huge role model to me and, apart from that, Big Crush Material (h i s  e y e s)

Li Wei: Someone suggested him as Hua Cheng for the TGCF live action and my life hasn’t been the same since. While I’m open for whoever will get that role in the end, I could look at his face for hours and not get bored. Major Genvy, too.

Li BoWen and Liu HaiKuan: I will have to deal with these two in one paragraph bc LanLan bc they have the exact same effect on me which is. that they’re not 100% my type but I WILL go absolutely feral about them at regular intervals, if you know what I mean

Song JiYang: ohh honey. oh honey.......... hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I have a natural affinity for aquarius ppl and this one lives in my heart rent free. I’d even make him soup if he’d ask.

Wang YiBo: WELL HOLY SHIT. listen. LISTEN! the hype around him is 100% justified imo he really is That Bitch and I love him so so much for it. Fucking ICON

Honorary Mentions: Gender Envy

Here’s to the People I Thought I Had A Crush On But Not Quite until I learned the word Gender Envy:

Zhu YiLong: Man, this is the person who’s mainly responsible for me finding out AT ALL about not being entirely cis. The POWER he holds!!! His performance as Ye Zun in Guardian was like a breakthrough point for me which. certain people witnessed in real time hahaha oh I love this fandom!!

Zhu ZanJin: HIM. AAAH!! He’s literally so beautiful and whenever I see him I just go ZANZAN!! in my head and in the tags bc. well. hIM.

Xiao Zhan With Long Hair: Look, Xiao Zhan is always amazing but BLESS the person who made these manips. I can finally rest.

Wang YiBo: uhh what’s he doing here again?? Tbh YiBo is one of the few, if not the only person that gives me Major Gender Envy that I would also [redacted] if they asked. Do I want to be him or be with him? The answer is Yes.

I skipped the fictional characters bc I tend not to crush on them 👉👈 Instead I will just directly crush on the actors/actresses lol!

Thank you for bearing with me. As a prize, you can choose between a ladder supported forehead kiss, or a bowl of homemade soup. ❤

[fencesandfrogs]

cloudtail’s daughter: jayfeather

alright, strap in, it's time for jayfeather. i've been holding it in on him for what feels like forever now; he's ya boy's favorite character

also, aside from dove and ivy, he's the character with the highest volume of changes to canon. even above cloudtail and brightheart, because they continue their lives, it's not a big deal. and lion and cinder go to the tribe, but like, that's it. (i'm figuring out if jay goes with them over the course of this essay. i think i said he did in holly? but he literally hasn't been mentioned once in that arc because there's a lot going on.) anyway lion and cinder don't get up to anything. but jay's priorities shift and we see that in his books. i'm really excited to write him but i need to finish arc 1 lmao.

but first, same deal as always. this is part of my cloudtail's daughter au, where dovekit and ivykit are born to cloudtail and brightheart. i don't know how well this will read preemptively, but i suspect it will be rather dependent on the others. cloudtail's daughter: dovewing and/or the long post that explains it are both good places to start, see the cloudtail's daughter tag on my blog.

[2.5k words, 14 minute read, one of the last warriors essays on this blog. i'm going to finish out with my character essays and then everything will be on new sideblog. so check out @mallowstep for more.]

section one: the leafpool business

at the beginning of this series, leafpool and jayfeather are on bad terms. they will stay on bad terms for basically the entirity of the book series. while one of my main complaints with po3/oots is the lack of acknowledgement of adoption, jayfeather has been lied to by his mother and his mentor, something neither hollyleaf or lionblaze have to contend with, and then his sister kills herself over it. obviously she doesn't, but from his perspective. so he blames leafpool because he was really close to hollyleaf and now she's gone, and it's his first real loss, and there's so much going on.

and so he's a grouch and he's unhappy and he's just trying to function when his whole support system has been dismantled over the course of what, like, a quarter moon? yeah so dovekit and ivykit are like "wow what a grouch he sucks" the same way they don't realize prey is dying of thirst & etc.

for the most part he's j chilling and then hollyleaf comes back and man is it some family drama. unfortunately it's postponed til book 4 because hollyleaf and jayfeather have journeys but anyway i'm getting ahead of myself, because this section should end and unlike the hollyleaf essay i want to actually have decent organization.

section two: hollyleaf is away (but jayfeather doesn't get to play)

holly, cinder, and dove go to deal with beavers. we only get jayfeather through lionblaze in the books, but jayfeather is...conflicted. he got his sister back and lost her again and oh i should say. i think jayfeather and hollyleaf are the closer pair of the siblings. not that they don't love lionblaze the same, but you know how cats pair bond? like, it's usually a trauma thing, but even in feral cats, you see very close friendships. anyway yeah so for other au's i've been sorting siblings n denmates into pairs for this purpose (mostly jaywing au because there's a lot re. dovepaw and jaypaw and remember they are reincarnated siblings they've got a close bond going.) and it's kind of...i don't know my point is jayfeather misses his sister because she's like, his best friend too. or she was. and then she died and now she's back and she left again, and lionblaze is more concerned about cinderheart, so jayfeather just comes off as grouchy all the time. but really he's lonely and sad.

so yeah, jayfeather is kind of moping around camp and then the tree falls and whoops now briarpaw/light is parapalegic.

and uhh this goes more or less as in canon but we don't get pov which is fine bc u can sub in canon. but jayfeather? he's still a sad boy but now he's a sad boy with purpose and that makes all the difference

yeah he's close with her. they're sweet. it's sweet. he's pressured by brambleclaw to take an apprentice. he's bristly and angry and "you're not my real father" you know?

beaver crew gets back. jayfeather, who had missed holly, is back to being angry for...angst and plot purpose, really.

but you know, when you love & miss someone and they leave and they come back and somehow that's worse because now they can leave you again? and you can't tell them you want them to stay because you're angry and hurt but you want them to stay? god i'm excited to write these chapters i love emotional turmoil.

he's protective of briarlight, he's trying to keep dovepaw from being a medicine cat, hollyleaf is apologizing but he's not ready to hear it and lionblaze and hollyleaf are beginning to reconnect and it feels like betrayal. so when cinderheart and lionblaze go to the tribe, he tags along. everyone, uh, strongly encourages he go. he is the big grouch.

section three: time travelling times

okay so the timeline for these books is...messy. if you track the chronology of my writing, it's messy. which is to say, i was thinking i could put forgotten warrior and distant whispers over the same time span, but that actually doesn't work, as i review my notes for FW because a big part of it is ivy and holly's relationship. so. fake news. whoops. that sucks.

or maybe it doesn't? idk i don't usually tell linear stories. i like messing with emotional impact of events. so writing 600k of very linear story telling is very not easy for me. but i'm trying.

right so basically the official order of events until i change my mind again is as follows (names abbreviated as DIHLJC because they're all unique): DCH returns from beavers, DILCJ go to tribe with some other random warrior undecided, J + rando return, JH start awkwardness (beginning of TFW, middle of DW), DILC return (end of DW), time travel stuff (middle to end of TFW). hopefully that was intelligble, but it is admittedly 85% for my own benefit.

alright so we've covered during beavers, now jayfeather and hmmmm let's say, uhhhh, let's say they go with, literally any interesting background character, uh, bumblestripe! he doesn't do anything in this au bumblestripe goes with them. also since his name starts w b i can still write DIHLJCB and have things be unambigious. and it means there are fewer bs in thunderclan and trust me you don't know how frustrating the existence of like 6 b characters is.

alright so we really have 3 sets of two pairs of cats here. maybe i won't go w bumblestripe, bc he doesn't have an existing relationship w jayfeather. i dunno. i'm a big fan of jay & briar, whether as a ship or just besties, but that's just out, and hollyleaf can't come a) because i said so and b) honestly maybe she can? actually wait hold on that solves my problems. hot damn so 6/6 of the pov cats go to the tribe and this will be one of the only times all six characters are plot relevant at the same time. but i'm going george r r martin on it and seperating the books not by time but into DICL + JH because they're two completely separate character arcs that happen to take place at the same time. (don't worry i'm going to resolve the fallen leaves thing. in this essay ig bc i've already covered hollyleaf.)

okay so yeah hollyleaf is sent bc jayfeather isn't planning on staying w tribe for long time. just short time. and he's all "firestar why"

"well jayfeather," firestar says, "you don't talk to your family."

"i talk to dovewing," jayfeather says

"you're not related to her," firestar says

"there's a whole prophecy about how i'm related to her," jayfeather says

"you know about that?" firestar says

and that's how the cat gets out of the bag.

so anyway. jayfeather and hollyleaf are sent because...hold on, spinning the wheel of reasons for a character to go on a field trip...because...because...because...because...jayfeather had one of those dreams. i don't know. rock or something. now he's going.

they get there, and this is where the books get a lil time wonky, bc jayfeather and hollyleaf stay for like a moon, during which jayfeather goes back in time. i think.

i haven't worked out the details and probably won't until i do an updated au synopsis because it's hard to keep track and i'm more concerned about character through lines. like, jayfeather does this and he feels sad, and hollyleaf is sad about her ghost boyfriend, and they're travelling back together, and hollyleaf is his sister and she doesn't make him feel like he needs protection and lionblaze is bad at that, and they start to talk again.

and yeah, they bond. again. it's kind of, on top of their old bond? like they don't repair anything, they bond like strangers. but it's not nothing, and that matters.

so jayfeather gets back, and we're moving into book five, and i don't remember when the last time i made a section break was or what number we're on, so...sorry.

section ???: old man yells at cloud

alright it's finally jayfeather's moment. you know, he's one of my favorite characters, and he only gets a book and a half. "but mateo," i hear you saying, "doesn't every character get a book and a half? and more importantly, 6x1.5 is 9, so how does every character get a book and a half?" well, yes, every character does, but dovewing and ivypool are relevant in books 1-3 and 6, cinderheart in 1-3 and 5, lionblaze in 1-3, and hollyleaf in 2-5 (and has a critical role in 1 and 6, just no character development), while jayfeather is just really essential to books 4-5, and has a background role in 3. that means he's about equal to lionblaze. he's equal to lionblaze. as far as the numbers go, i cannot tell you. it's a mystery.

right so the reason for this is because (a) jayfeather doesn't do that much in oots. i love him, but he's not, like, super important, and (b) he's going to work better in these books if he's concentrated. because his big theme is his relationship with hollyleaf and the past. they're both kind of stuck in it but in different ways. and that prevents them from ever properly healing. so jay never has a full arc in this. i mean he has a full arc, it's just not a satisfying one. and that means he's sort of got to be put in the containment units.

so anyway, he gets his real big moments in the fifth book, when he's reuniting starclan. i think this is one of the riskier decisions on my part: we'll see whether or not i can deliver on him the way i plan to. but i think i can pull it off so that his arc is more meaningful condensed as such.

right. so. jayfeather is decided. he is going to fix starclan. because dead cats need to get thier shit together and he dgaf.

he spends a decent amount of time arguing with yellowfang and bluestar, because basically no important cats have died. at least we're in omen of the stars so it still makes sense? i have no idea why yellow/blue are still so important. please kill more important cats. it makes us feel things.

but feathertail is also probably going to be involved, i don't know. i haven't read these books (specifically, books 4 and 5 of oots) in forever so i don't really remember what happens. but he's kind of, super done with everything. i think he'll probably try to get the support of mothwing and kestrelflight (which is canon i believe?) and try to work as a team. i feel like there's weirdness w shadowclan too i should sort out.

so yeah, there's some medicine cat bonding, everything is OK, sol is happening? but cinderheart is dealing with that. jayfeather is naturally very upset about disconnects with sol but like he's also dealing with stuff i...i really need to reread outcast and sign of the moon. well, they're on my list after "all of these fucking riverclan novels like why they don't show up in the main series but i still have to read a bunch to be able to write them that's not fair."

alright, well, with that very vague description of what happens, moving on, the prophecy gets revealed to the clans at a whole in like...the ending eighth of this book. trying to maximise the amount of exposure to other clans without messing with the pacing.

so jayfeather and undecided warrior B (definitively not hollyleaf) go to windclan. jayfeather is...very unhappy about this. he does not want to leave. thunderclan is his home, and he's blind, and it's really hard to adapt to a new space and he thinks everyone is going to treeat him badly.

and well, if you've read my culture posts, windclan is....very pro-medicine cats and pro-prophecy cats. funerals. mourning. prayer. is probably the best place to start, but to get to the meat of it, start with general clan culture. to summarize, windclan: religious. but kind of like catholics, they don't believe in an individual connection with starclan. only leaders, and medicine cats, and very rarely members of prophecies have a connection. so. jayfeather. he's twice over. that's very cool to windclan.

so cats are kind of falling over themselves to help him, and like. i mean jayfeather is a grouch and he hates that he needs someone to help him through the territory, but at least they don't treat it like a chore, or like he's pitiable. this is a desirable task. apprentices want to know about his powers. and kestrelflight is a respected part of the clan, arguably more important than onestar, and jayfeather has never really gotten over being shoved in the healer hole as a child like it was lesser or easier to be a medicine cat, and so it's a big change.

and yeah. so i mean. an unobservant reader might say jayfeather has sufficient ego. he does not need stroking. they, of course, would be wrong.

jayfeather has a complex, but it's not an ego issue. he's...he's been denied everything he's wanted, and he's jaded, and weary, and he's never really believed that his clan views him as able and equal. in canon, at present, he's lost almost every cat he's every cared about. alderheart is his strongest remaining tie, and his fear at losing him, but willingness to let him leave, is very telling.

so yeah, jayfeather enjoys being accepted. anyone would. he doesn't really have confidence issues, but....argh. i know why this is good i swear it'll come out in the writing.

anyway, that's...that's pretty much it. jayfeather? done.

[kingsofthering]

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(part 1, will be posting each muse seperately)

𝐖𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑:   a chill right down to the bones.   tobogganing.   teeth chattering.  sleeping all day. sitting by the fireplace. spending time with family. layered clothing. seeing another’s breath.  loving the cold.   a state of inactivity.   cold hands.   blistering winds shaking the closed windows.  a bookcase full of brand new books and all of the time in the world to read them.   cable knit socks.   a bitter remark.  a log cabin in the middle of nowhere.  hating the cold.   full-length windows to peer out of.  pale skin. deep conversations. watching the snow fall.  sharp edges.   hot cocoa.   smelling every candle in the store.   a wild snow storm. melancholy. lighting candles around the bathtub.   snow globes. expressing yourself but never finding quite the right words. the softest blankets. liking, but not loving something or someone.

𝐒𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆:    the smell after it rains. being in control of yourself.   a soft breeze blowing through your hair. lightning when it strikes. cherry blossoms.   bright mornings.  the first sign of hope.  the relief of finding something you lost.  paris in the spring.  birds chirping.   the art of growing.   a kiss on the cheek.  the clap of thunder.   a tornado in the valley.  smiling at a stranger.   planning.   saccharine pinks.   making promises. trying something new.  hugs when you need them the most. a bee sting.   sitting on the steps of the met. coming inside drenched from the thunderstorm.   picnics on a red checkered blanket in the new sun.  that feeling you get when you put on a good dress.  a long hike.  rushing when you can take your time.   going to the gym at ungodly hours.   excitement for what’s coming. becoming yourself.  rain boots.

𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐄𝐑:     lanterns lit around a campfire.   seeing the sunrise like it’s the first time again and again.  melting ice cream.   the warmth of the sun rays on your skin.  fireworks.   the feeling of never wanting something to end.   beach days.  the lone blow-up floaty left in the pool.  drifting with the warm nights breeze and nothing else.   music blasting at 3am.  palms trees on sunset boulevard.   longer days and shorter nights.  wanderlust.   nights spent staring at the stars.  sand castles.  road trips.   blood orange sunsets. leaving the laundry to hang outside.  flowers in bloom.  sneaking out of your room late at night. pure contentment.  barefoot in the sand.   the street lights coming on.   the sound of the ocean in the seashells.   freshly squeezed lemonade. loose clothing. a cannonball into the pool. sunflowers.   the hazy pink before dawn.   relaxation.

𝐅𝐀𝐋𝐋:     the leaves changing colors.   a heavy backpack.  the smell of old books. eating until you’re stuffed.   deep, dark woods.   the silence in loudness.   abandoned houses.ripped jeans.   crunching leaves beneath feet.   feeling like you’ve been somewhere before.  sitting at a bay window.  having endless amount of homework.   charcoal drawings.   screaming into a pillow as loud as you can.   pumpkin patches. creaky floorboards. accepting that some things have to change.   museums.   small talk.   being ignored. procrastinating.   a door slamming shut.   going to bed early.   baking pies.  the fear of walking alone in the dark.   feeling completely and terribly lost.   a twig snapping.   crisp, cool days.   belly laughter after crying.   converse.  foggy mornings at the shoreline. writing a daily entry in a journal.   a lonely day.

[loghainmactir]

For the OC asks: 1, 6, 12, 14, 18, 21, 28 :)

there r so many here 😱😱😱 thank u sm…. i love love love love talking abt my OCs but i can never do it unless someone prompts me and this one is gonna get LONG so buckle in kids!!! (I’m also on mobile, so the questions have been shortened bc I just wrote ‘em down before I got into bed I’m sorry 😭) I’m also going to do 6 as a whole seperate post bc I wanna talk a little about my D&D world, tbh!

1. Three useless facts about your favourite OC.

I can’t 100% choose a favourite OC (… ok its Padril) so! I’m gonna do one useless facts for three characters:

A) Padril once tricked Tamlen as a kid into believing he’d gotten his hand bitten off by the Dread Wolf by sucking it into his shirt and wailing. The clan was not impressed, lmao.

B) Braewyn and her twin, Bradley, often binge-watch Golden Girls when they’re together and have free time

C) Irving owns a set of dragonbone dice and he has no idea how to play dice games. Like, none.

12. Favourite relationship between OCs?

I’ve done this already BUT… my other favourite relationship is between my character, Leon, and his daughter, Jordan, who’s a teenager.

Leon’s essentially got the role of Cullen for modern-day Inquisition mixed w some Leliana stuff, but he’s the one who trains everyone and orders about spies/troops. He’s an incredibly thoughtful and kindhearted guy, though a bit married to his work and sometimes it’s difficult for him to remove himself from it.

BUT… Jordan is the apple of his eye and encourages him to go out and socialise and do things Not Involving Work. They were estranged for a bit bc his work’s dangerous, but now she’s older so they spend time together offen. Similarly, Leon tries to set a good example for her and tries to encourage self-love; Leon’s black, and so is Jordan, n he knows she’s been bullied before so he tries his hardest to encourage self love re: natural hair & dark skin & imperfections like scars (bc he has a lot himself) (He’s also so fuckin awkward lmfao, he tells so many dad jokes when they’re together)

14. Which OC is most like you?

Ok so I have two. Bradley and Raul: Bradley has always a LOT of my ADHD/BPD traits and shares a decent chunk of my trauma even before I knew about it all myself. He’s also bi like me n helped me realize I was, too. Bradley’s much older n more Out There than me, though, but he really is a comfort character in the sense that it’s kinda like “u can and will be ok, he was so u can b too”.

There’s also Raul, who’s like me personality-wise; he’s a smartass, a writer, a feminist, and he really just wants to help people. He’s also afraid of large bodies of open water (like me), and he’s fuzzy n chunky like me too. I swear to god he is his own OC though akgkakf

18. Favourite things to research about OCs?

I rarely research OC things anymore, tbh, unless I’m REALLY uneducated on topics that cannot Just Be Made Up (like Harry and his world— I haven’t researched shit for that, lmao). One OC I researched a tonne on was my OC, Anthony (who’s Bradley’s child). They’re nonbinary, so I spent hours researching what that meant and how to politely portray them… and then I realized I was trans through that. I love them bc of that.

21. Describe each OC as shittily as possible.

God, I won’t do All of them, but:

Padril: that friend from university who’s now dating a man twice their age and is an “artist” (though it’s not going anywhere)

Jakeem: Gaudy Local Man Can’t Stop Bringing Dead Dogs Back To Life; Click For The Full Story! (clicking requires u to sign up & give yr credit card details lmao)

Harry: (to the tune of Hit Me Baby One More Time) MY LOWER BACK / IS KILLING ME / AND I / I MUST CONFESS / SO ARE MY KNEES (are my knees!)

Irving: You Won’t Believe How Much This Bear Can Cry!

Braewyn: “Hehehe! Got your nose!”/“Got your wallet!”

28. If they had tumblrs, what kinds of blogs would they have?

Padril: aesthetic art/travel blog…. occasionally posts selfies of himself on Loghain’s lap. Extensive tagging. Hashtag nature, hashtag beautiful, hashtag art, hashtag daddy (HE WOULD THOUGH)

Harry: completely untagged personal blog. entirely in lower case. probably black w red font. lots of complaints, lots of depressing posts, the occasional COMPLETELY indecipherable meme reblogged by @ltsarahkerrigan’s eustace (occasionally he’d post selfies of them, too). Has, like, 3 followers lmao

Jakeem: fashion/dogblr blog. Has a decent amount of followers because he often posts outfit photoshoots, except most of the outfits are from KMart/Walmart and are cleverly disguised. Definitely gets called out on a regular basis. Basic tags, still gets a tonne of notes.

Irving: a mish-mash of fandom (at least, art, photosets and gifsets), photography, and recipes. Is That Person who always leaves actual comments on posts (and often they’re irrelevant) and uses tags but uses them all wrong (for example he does them in all caps and there’s never a break in them, like: YUM RECIPIE FOOD STEAK BACON VEGGIES). Probably shouldn’t be on tumblr but he’s enthusiastic about it at least!

[yeonjuins]

yes!! june from plt omg, my favourite HASSSSS TO be The moment, its my top scrobbled song from him on lastfm, i came across him on one of those krnb playlists on yt lmao, then i became stupid obsessed w blah, i wish june would drop more </33 i love his voice

i enjoy the other artists too! gaho pink walk and ride, villain w bank robber (when i first heard it i accidently had the album on repeat then it kind of haunted me in the next coming days LOOL)

i agree i think zines are so fun, maybe you know alr him but theres this indie ish artist called colde and someone made a zine for his latest project, i came across it when i was just browsing and then i was like yea. i wanna do something like this - then i never did it in time.

Gygule will always be iconic, its kind of what inspired me to do open an account and just share work and improve :)) (NOT TO BE UP UR ASS OR ANYTHING LOL)

no serioulsy tumblr gfx creators are nuts when it comes to gfx so im slowly trying to be just as good as them

and thank u! and no ur not prying its okay lool, im acc from the uk and i think canada and the uk are kind of similar in some ways idk

okay thank you for the seperate post on organisation omg, making a mental note to save stuff individually because that would really help sometimes in case i need to go back and fix something haha - this post will help for when i really get started so THANKK U AGAIN!! (Ur tags under that post lmao, I would delete my files once school work was submitted then it would come back and haunt me when I suddenly and magically needed it again smh)

i literally just found about billlie the other day and i AGREEE i think theyre due to cb soon?? saw something on twt idk LOL - MY FRIEND LITERALLY FORCED DAY6 ONTO ME PROBABLY WINTER2020 ? literally against my will but i grew to love their music sm <3 my favourite is when the sea sleeps, she played it on her bass for me for my birthday, and yea wonpils voice!! >>

i dont listen to epik high regularly but they do collab with my faves so when i dooo ik its gonna be a good song, i've never heard that album so ill be sure to give it a listen, crush and leehi are on it SO I HAVE TO LISTEN!!! I love ph-1 sm, i always have these phaases in music where i listen to one person mainly for like a month and he was one of those people - his solos and features are so good! (tbh i think that happens when i like alot of their discography so it makes sense - rn im in my edgy indie main character syndrome remi wolf and dominic fike era)

if i had to say my top favourites by ph-1 would be oscar on the higher blue tape (thats when i first found out ab him), aura w junny, ummm by BOYCOLD w sik-k , game night? and his 0X1=lovesong feature obviously. ( A LOT OF FEATURES BUT I CANT HELP THAT HE SOUNDS REALLY GOOD ON THEM WTH )

that song by def/jb was my first of hearing of leon but i really liked his part, and i get what u mean LMAO, nothing else can describe the feeling other than 'vibes' LOL

wow dpr live jasmine had me in a chokehold like man. SO GOOD!!!! also one of my first krnb artists. I heard him and ian might be going on world tour soon and i really wanna go diajojw, watching their head in the clouds set last year made me really want to see them live AND THEIR WHOLE DISCOGRAPHY OFC

okay orignally when i wanted to send u a rec i had a completely diff song in mind but i got sooooooo carried away and forgot 🥲

Same - SOLE ft THAMA

i say i have a million and one favourite songs but this is truly truly really really my favourite one

I hope you had a good day the last few days too, and hoping for many more (what a mouthful💀)

ENJOY :]

-june anon

(lengthy response!)

god i dont rmbr how i came across plt but i remember finding hocus pocus and being absolutely in love... not only the mv was SOOOO pretty but the song was SOOO GOOD !!?!? BLAH IS SOOOO GOOD OH MY GOD june is insane... i love plt overall they truly have my heart <3 i rmbr being obsessed with igoholic (esp villains part (on another note villain is insane i LOVE his discography so much))

BANK ROBBER... SOOO FUCKING TRUE june anon ur taste in music is immaculate oh my god... literally plt is so underrated i'm so ((":

I LOVE COLDE... PLEASE fan projects are SOOO absolutely sick it looks SOOO good ;; i rmbr stumbling across a soda can edit for txt's songs (also posted on behanced!) and it was SO LOVELY ;; istg anything posted on behanced is automatically a good edit PHAHAHA despite not being able to do it on time, i'm sure you can still do it whenever your more free (": it's still good to build the skill nonetheless imo hehe

PLEASE GYUGLE HAD THAT SORT OF IMPACT ?!?! ? i'm so honoured.. that was literally my second time creating gifs and i'm so surprised of how much love it got (": i rmbr going through my old posts and when i first posted it my entire dash was just... gyugle PAHHHA AND IT WAS SO INSANE because several people were making posts about how everyone was losing it over gyugle ): i'm truly glad to be in such a loving community and i'm glad gyugle was able to reach you my love ):

ah yes uk and canada... PAHHAHA canada was originally apart of the british empire so that makes 100% sense imo (<- slept through all history lessons . yet recalls mundane facts)

NO YEAH I USED TO JUST . delete the files the moment i was done with it so if i wanted to edit i would just NOT BE ABLE TOO... a bit too hard of an extremists for the wrong things ;; i rlly hope it helps !! i felt like i needed to do u more justice in contrast to my uh . how to learn ae tutorial . LMFAO

god i really want to get into billie so badly because their concept is just so cool... i saw their album cover and i thought the design was SOOOOO GOOD.... + i think i watched like their album unboxing and i just LOVED the concept entirely please... i’m slightly convinced i only buy albums purely to gush over the design (<- how i feel towards all of nct’s albums) 

suhyun from AKDONG musicians is also on the album !! iu as well (”: i think the song i had the most on repeat was ‘the benefits of heartbreak’ but ‘here comes the regret’ ft lee hi is SOOOO good... this was like epik high’s comeback album so they DEFINATELY went all out for it and it was SOOO good... genuinely had this album on repeat for several days back when it first came out (”: 

LOOOOL REMI WOLFE AND DOMINIC FIKE AKA . U LISTEN TO PHOTO ID . PAHAHAHAHHAAH i have the same exact song on my playlist (”: absolutely obsessed with the line “visuals in these frames look better than the ones that she posted on facebook” !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i also love dominic fike (<- has a huge crush on him) i listened to his song ‘why’ on repeat after seeing an edit of him to the point that it became my most listened too song this month............ LMFAO 

dpr jasmine still has me in a chokehold LMFAO I FEEL LIKE . EVERY DPR SONG HAS EVERYONE IN A CHOKEHOLD dpr is truly on something else imo... not just live but like dpr ian and cream... the whole entire team is just SOOO good and i feel like their individualism within the music industry stands out so much i love it 

I ACC FEEL LIKE I LISTENED TO THIS SONG NOT TOO LONG AGO OMG sole is so pretty wtf her vocals are so good... this is definitely a feelsgood song (”: the upbeat energy is so lovely and refreshing ty for the song rec my love thama’s part is (mind explosion) 

ty for dropping by my love <3 i’m glad my blog has morphed into a makeshift music discussion blog this is so absolutely cute PAHAHHA