#thinking about the hollow knight forever and ever and ever and

[aspectpriority]

Do you ever think about how almost all of hollow knight is genuinely horrifying actually?

The infection, the fact that whatever Hallownest was is Long gone, the concept of the city locking it's gates forever and the slow, horrific consequences thereof. Abyss *exists??* The handful of bugs that haven't lost their mind probably go weeks or months without seeing anyone else, with the exception of the bugs in Dirtmouth. Deepnest is like, at least 60% corpses. Most places have at least a few corpses. Hell, they fall from the fucking sky in Kingdom's Edge.

I think the art style and the fact that the player character doesn't acknowledge any of it goes a long way into pushing the horror of the setting into the background, but like. You could write some absolutely nightmarish shit I think

[sketchyartthings]

While I was drawing/looking at reference images, I realized that the king doesn’t look like he was killed by anything void related at all. His eyes don’t drip with void like every other character killed by overexposure to void in game, so what happened? What if he sealed himself away not to save himself, but to preserve the kingsoul? I mean, if I wanted to preserve an important object within me, I would think the dream realm would be a very suitable place to go. Evidently, the king hasn’t survived this, but it doesn’t look like there was a struggle. There was no evidence of the formation of a void creature in the room to have killed him the old fashion way, and no injury on the body itself. Nothing but a force of nature like the knight was ever going to get in or out of that room past all of those saw blades, and based on that, I don’t think the king planned on leaving that room. It looks to me that the king simply let himself wither away on his throne, and that he did it on purpose. The king was by no means a fool. He did not assume that locking himself in a room forever would be safe, and even if he did, he would’ve done more to solve his problems. The king had no workshop for him to toil in, no library to research from, and there was no effort made to stop the infection after he resigned himself to that room. The king was not there to save his kingdom in safety, and he was most certainly not there because he wanted to outlast the infection. The king wanted to die somewhere that was near impossible to reach. Somewhere in a near impregnable dream behind a nigh unwalkable path. But I don’t think that’s because he didn’t want to be found. After all, the king has tried tasking his children with a near impossible task in the hopes one will rise to meet the challenge before, and it worked. If we trust The White Lady’s perspective, The Hollow Knight was the perfect vessel before it was “tainted by an idea instilled,” so the idea that the king trusted the strength of his children enough to predict, or at the very least hope that one of them would reach the king would despite these measures, is not out of the question. In fact, the increased security of a task like this would make sense as a more intense test of the purity of a vessel. If the parkour skills needed to define THK as hollow were as simple as escaping the abyss, then the saw blades could certainly be explained as either a revised test of a vessel’s purity, or its will. Maybe the king predicted the creation of the void heart? If the vessel’s will is being tested, it would support the idea that the king knew about the possibility of the void heart, as it unites the void behind the bearer’s will. If this is true, then it may explain why The White Lady gives you the white fragment with the following quote. “I have a gift, held long for one of your kind. When united, great power is granted, and on the path ahead, great power it shall need.” This is most definitely referring to the unification of the king soul, but what if it were also a thematic parallel to the great power granted with the unification of the void? If this is the case, I don’t believe that the white lady was informed about all of the details, but likely just that a vessel was needed to end the infection, and that she must give the white fragment to a vessel she deems worthy. To ask the last question about this theory I could think of, why is the corpse of the king in a room dark with what is likely void if void is not what killed him? It could be deduced that the king’s regrets’ darkening of the room was meant to be a more subtle nod to his disposition at the time of his death than a hint as to what killed him, as the void tears found on those killed by void serve that purpose well and wouldn’t have impeded his design, but a darker room alone would be an interesting thematic note as evidence of a nagging question in the king’s head: “Have we payed a cost this great for nothing?” Anyways. Call me a deranged lunatic in the notes.

[starogeorgina]

𝐂𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐫𝐚𝐠𝐨𝐧

Warnings: Swearing

Pairing: Aegon ii Targaryen × OC

1.12

You stare at Aegon as he sleeps, your eyes glued to his chest, terrified his breathing would stop at any moment. The hour was late, and your children were asleep with several knights posted outside the nursery they slept in, along with Rhaenyra’s younger sons. With everything that had happened recently, the castle had an eerie silence to it, making everyone more on edge, waiting for the next attack to happen and the next tragedy to strike. In the last few days, your heart feels like it's been ripped apart, leaving you empty and hollow, making it hard for you to think straight.

The flames of three candles flicker gently, casting a warm glow around the room and providing just enough light to see the sorrow etched on your uncle's face. He knew what you were feeling, as he had lost his second wife during childbirth along with their baby, and now he and Rhaenyra had lost a daughter.

“You may go, uncle,” you say quietly. “The hour is late, and the queen needs you by her side, so there's no point in you exhausting yourself and staying up all night.”

“It was Rhaenyra who told me to watch over you.”

Of course. Daemon was your babysitter until you could be trusted not to burn anything else down.

A few hours after you returned to Dragonstone, Daemon informed you, Alyssa, that your sweet daughter had been killed, and ever since you felt a mixture of emotions, grief being the strongest one. The question of whether you could have saved her if you stayed will haunt you forever. You clench your fists tightly, feeling the weight of both Alyssa and Harys loss pressing heavily on you. Both of them had been taken from you in a devastating manner, one that no parent should ever have to live through. Two rat catchers Daemon had hired to kill Aemond after he attacked Lucerys, double-crossed him, and killed your daughter as she slept.

It was unclear who paid blood and cheese to return to Dragonstone and commit such a horrendous act against a child, but you didn’t believe it was Aemond. Not when he still thought your children—at least your daughters—were his own.

The person you once were was long gone, and in the place of a princess who was once selfish and carefree was a scattered and broken woman. Your insides burn with an unyielding determination to avenge those you lost, yet you remain close to your family.

“Theo?”

Hearing Aegon’s hoarse voice pulls you away from your thoughts. Leaning forward, you take his unburnt hand and press a gentle kiss to the back of it multiple times. “You're awake.”

“I dread to think about what I’ve woken up to. I was dreaming of us.”

“Of us?” Your eyes shoot across the room to Daemon, who bows his head slightly before leaving the room. You doubted he would go far, but at least he was gracing you with some privacy.

“Do you remember when I gave you a foot rub and Aeron copied me? I dreamt I was back there, with you and the children.”

You remember the memory fondly. It wasn’t long after the bump of your third pregnancy started to show your ankles started to swell. Your daughters played with their toys on the floor beside the chair you sat on in your bedchamber while you squirmed in pain. Aegon took pity on you and gently removed one of your shoes and began massaging your foot to try and relieve the pain. Aeron watched Aegon for a few moments, then pulled your other shoe off and started trying to copy his ‘uncle’. The both of you smiled at how sweet your son was.

“You had the babe.”

The feeling of his hand resting against your soft stomach brings you back to reality. You press your hand atop his as tears roll down your cheeks. The cheerfulness in his voice pains you. “I had the baby,” your voice cracks. “It was a boy; I named him Harys.”

“Is he asleep? I suppose the hour is late; I wish to see him when he wakes.” The drowsiness in his voice from the milk of the poppy becomes more evident the more Aegon speaks. “Theodora?”

The pain of delivering bad news was something you weren’t familiar with. Up until recently, nothing bad had really ever happened in your life aside from losing Tracy, and now, in the space of ten days, your father had died, Rhaenyra had her crown usurped, the both of you had given birth to dead babe’s, Alyssa was murdered, and both Lucerys and Aegon almost died. You look at your brother and can see the fear and uncertainty in his eyes as you mentally prepare to tell him everything.

“Theo,” he says, turning to you, sensing the gravity of the situation. His brows knit together in concern. “What is it? What happened?”

“Harys,” you begin, swallowing hard. “Harys didn't make it.”

—

After breaking fast with Aerion and Alina, you watch the two of them tearfully as the ladies-in-wait chosen by Rhaneyra prepare to help you get dressed. You were still in pain from Dallax crashing into the water and giving birth, but you refused the maester when he offered you something for the pain. You didn’t wish to cloud your judgment anymore.

“Which gown, princess?” The younger lady in waiting asks while holding up two dresses. One was crimson red with black detailing, and the other was black with a red undercoat.

“The black one.”

She nods and hands the other dress to the lady behind her. Her soft eyes flicker between you and your children. “Do you wish for them to be taken to the nursery while you are getting ready?”

“No, leave them be.” Although it was deemed improper, your son and daughter had both witnessed much worse than their mother getting changed in the same room as them. Alina would be too young to comprehend or remember anything that had happened, but it fills you with fear knowing Aeron would.

Neither your son nor your daughter look up from their toys while you get changed. The fabric of the dress was smooth against your freshly oiled skin. Since you arrived back in Dragonstone, all the gowns brought to you had the color black incorporated, a very obvious sign of showing what side you were backing.

The thought of being a family divided made your eyes well up with tears again, but they didn't fall this time. You need to be much stronger than usual; you need to hold it together; otherwise, grief would consume you.

“Mama?”

You look down at Alina. “Yes, sweetling?”

“Can we visit Uncle Aegon now?”

You chew on your bottom lip, unsure. Aegon was devastated when you told him your babe didn’t survive childbirth, but learning Alyssa died completely broke him. You stayed by his side and slept into the night until the milk of the poppy took effect and he fell into a deep slumber again.

Forcing a smile, you say, “Perhaps we shall see how he is feeling first.”

—

“Aegon,” you say quietly, not wanting to disturb your brother if he hasn’t fully woken up yet. “I have a young prince and princess here who wish to say hello. Do you feel up—”

“Yes,” he answers before you even finish the question.

Hearing Aegon’s voice, Alina brushes by your legs and runs to him excitedly, but she pauses, and when she reaches the bed, she notices the damp bandages covering one side of his body. Alina climbs up onto the bed and snuggles beside Aegon’s good side. Smiling, you pick up Aeron and walk over to the bed. He seems more frightened than his sister by Aegon’s appearance and buries his head into your neck.

You sit down across from the bed, still holding your son. Prince Daemon had been lurking nearby all morning, making sure you didn’t do anything rash, but knowing he and two knights were outside the room made you feel a little safer.

After some time, both children fall asleep, and you place Aeron beside his sister on the bed. In a hushed tone, Aegon begins speaking with you in your mother tongue. “Have you heard from our mother or Aemond?”

You stare at him for a moment, trying to determine if he’s being serious or if the milk of the poppy is messing with his mind. “What would Aemond say to me? I’m sorry, I almost killed you and started a war by attacking our nephew.”

“We started the war.”

“No, we didn’t,” you snap defensively. “We did what we thought was right, that is all. We had nothing to do with Aemond attacking Lucerys.”

“No, we didn’t. But we are the reason Aemond snapped. Do you really think he wouldn’t have put two and two together when I left with Aeron?”

Your lip trembles. You had spent years flaunting the privilege of being a princess without facing consequences for any ill actions. You had even started to become a little brazen with your affair while pregnant with your twins. But you still didn’t believe Aemond knew the truth; if he had, he would have flown on Vhagar to Dragonstone and burned it to the ground, or at least died trying.

A lump forms in your throat. “What can we do about it now? We’ve all made our choices and need to live with them.”

“Does he know the babe is gone? That my daughter is gone?”

“No, I did think about letting our mother know, but I wouldn’t know what to say. We have no idea of what version she has heard.” Your eyes tear up again. Despite everything, you never wanted to be at war with Aemond; he was still your brother. “I don’t know how to make this right, Aegon. I can’t bring Alyssa back; I don’t know how to make this pain go away.”

All the pent-up emotions burst out at once as you began to sob hysterically. The pain of losing two children was far too much for you to bear. When you regain composure, you almost chuckle, seeing that both your children are still sleeping.

Aegon carefully stretches his inburnt arm over and cups your face. “I think you should write to mother.”

“What about our sister? I don’t want her to think this is a slight against her if I do.”

The door to the room opens, and Prince Daemon, who had been eavesdropping, enters with a stern look on his face. “I shall speak with our Queen while you write to your mother. Word has just come from King's landing; it is believed you and Aegon are dead.”

—

You stand around the painted table, joined by the others in the black council, as they discuss war plans. Although your sister is advised to take her dragons into battle, Rhaenyra shows restraint and refuses to bring dragons into war, knowing that more innocent lives would be lost than enemies defeated. Plus, bringing the dragons into battle meant risking their riders' lives, and that’s not a mistake she would make again when it came to her family.

Daemon slams his hand against the table, “fucking green usurper cunts!”

Rhaenyra dismisses everyone from the room aside from yourself, Daemon, Rhaena, and Lord Coryls. Prince Jacaerys insisted on not leaving his brother's side unless absolutely necessary, and Princess Rhaenys and Lady Baela had gone to Rook’s rest on the dragon's back. The most recent news from the keep had the black council furious. “I fear this is a story fabricated by my grandsire. Twisting the truth to suit his own agenda is a skill he excels at.”

Apparently the stress of the death of King Viserys caused you to lose your babe, and you had gone mad with grief. The fearless King Aegon II of his name and Prince Aemond had gone flying on their dragons to attempt to bring you back home safely when you were attacked by the blacks. The dragons fought, and Aemond was the only survivor, and he claimed his brother died saving him.

“Is anyone foolish enough to believe this?” Lady Rhaena asks.

“No,” you answer plainly. “But nobody on the King's Council will question the story, not if they value their lives. Aegon told me our grandsire had lords who refused to bend the knee hanged in the courtyard, even those who were loyal allies to my father.”

Rhaenyra places her head on her chest as her eyes become teary. She seems genuinely shocked and upset by this news.

“Forgive me your grace, I assumed—” you're cut off when a knight enters the room, holding a scroll in his hand.

The knight bows his head at his queen. “My Queen,” he says, then turns to face you and nods his head. “Princess, a raven has arrived from the king's landing addressed to you.”

Your heart flutters with nervousness as you take it from him; you recognise the handwriting as your mother’s, and a little flicker of hope bubbles inside you. If anyone could help meditate, it was her; she would be furious with you and Aegon, but you prayed she would understand. Your hands shake as you open the letter and start to read it.

“Well?” Daemon says it impatiently. “Who is it from?”

“My mother,” you gasp, tears of rage forming in your eyes.

Rhaenyra holds onto her husband's arm, concern etched on her face as you ball your hand into a fist, scrunching the letter. Her gentle touch softens Daemon’s facial expression as they both realize something is wrong. Stomach acid burns in the back of your throat. How could she? How could she?

“Theodora, what’s wrong?”

Seconds before a piercing scream of anger erupts from your throat, Dallax roars loudly in the distance.

[rotting-ink]

This ask is a bit different from the “wanting kids” one. What about a surprise pregnancy for the ROs? (For the ones who can’t, let’s say magic was involved).

~ 🦇

L Rawlins: Quietly over the moon. Wants your confirmation that you wanna keep it before allowing them to grow attached to the tiny bump. Talks to it, cares for you, protectiveness goes up a thousand percent more. Loves them already so so much. Does get out their own kid's old stuff and dusts it off and is quietly so excited. You can tell by their tail in wolf form and by their pleased little smile in human form.

S Della Rovere- ASTOUNDED. "babe, im dead. not supposed to have any working bits." also scared shitless. they're not built for taking care of tiny things like a baby. Needs a pep talk and then they're in. Starts immediately baby proofing a section of the manor. "Babe, they get three whole rooms to tumble around in, i refuse to alter our horny rooms."

Z Chambers- Horrified. "But... What will it be? I'm a reaper, i'm a specter... What if it comes out as some sort of ghoul?" Demands excessive checks on it from Starling before they relax. Yes, it has a heartbeat, yes, it's growing well. Yes, Starling doesn't think that it's some sort of undead abomination. Then they're in awe. Whispers to it. So happy.

V De Winters- Terrified. Will not listen to you. Starts setting up a new apartment for you to stay in, close to their home, organises private doctor visits, lots of baby clothes but you won't see a lot of them. They're too busy. You need to flag them down and sit by them and hold them. You need to confirm that you'll be okay, the child is okay, and they'll be okay. V will have to cry a lot for a while and then they suit up. Quietly pleased. Gets to set up an account just for baby money so you can spend things on the lil one too.

Seir-"... Ehe." Smug. You're riddled with their demon spawn and they cannot WAIT for the thing to pop out and help bring around the end of the world bit by bit. But for now, they're curled up like a happy cat around you, purring away and nuzzling at you in their human form.

Saleos- Oh fuck yeah, their dominion needed an heir. Pampers you, treating you with a decree of pleased adoration. Their spawn is on the way, you're an excellent parent to share your genetics with it, their dominion is safe, Seir is seething and they get to bind you forever to them. Wonderful.

Starling Knight- Another grey hair sprouts. Head in hands. Does asks you what you want to do. Then they take a shot of whiskey and gets to work. Flatly cuts half their time at whichever of their jobs pays worse, so they can start prepping their tiny house, or prepping your cottage. Fine with splitting their time between their own house and yours, unless you want to move in together. Works out what you gotta be eating and your resting time. Becomes a helicopter parent early but only for the pregnancy. Is soft tho. You can see it in the way they quietly makes plans for you three to visit Egypt for a long while as they fully believe their childhood was made better for being there. That and getting out some of their old childhood things.

A Lancaster- Worried. They're in the hunter, they're not supposed to have kids or long standing romances, etc. Would either quit the hunters or pay for you to follow them back to head quarters and sequester you in the city. But if you lean on them, they'd quit and stay in South Hollow with you. They become saddened but after a week or two, they snap into parental mode, throwing them into this new life long endeavor to look after you and their child.

E Rawlins- INSANELY HAPPY. RUNS IN A CIRCLE AROUND YOU, PANTING AND WIGGLING. SO EXICTED. Finally would let L back in their life full time, they're not afraid of you being stolen away. Waits on you hand and foot, already so excited. Also hornier than ever.

Quincy Beaumont- Struck dumb for a moment. "... R... Really? Huh." Shocked, didn't think they'd be able to have kids. Is at a cross roads. They want to still do their work but the tour would take them away from you. Wants you to move to Kaer Llundain, they prefer the city and they have a larger home there! Also, needs an actual support system as they dont believe they won't be a good parent. If you insist on staying in South Hollow, they'd struggle a bit more. Needs a lot of talks between you two. But reassures you of them staying with you by coming by, holding very pretty little baby outfits to give you to you.

D Woolf- Might pass out. Are you kidding them? They... They.... They... They need a long sit down. A tea. No, a coffee. No, a brandy. No, a hug. They will need a long moment, head in hands. They're happy! Just stunned! Can they be a parent? A good parent? What do they do? Needs to go to A and Z and Starling and ask for tips, fidgeting all the way. Does start getting books they want to start reading to the tiny bump that is the baby already. They're never too young to hear about Heidi! He loves Heidi. Does reread Der Struwwelpeter, decides its way too scary for your baby bump and hides it away. Seir fuckin finds it so cool though.

[marshvlovestv]

In honor of me having so much video game music downloaded on my phone that I ran out of storage and had to buy a new phone. My favorite track from each video game OST I have!

Bastion: Brusher Patrol (Such a bizarre clash of styles, I can't help but love this one. Shout-out to the part that sounds like Darren quietly scatting in the background.) (Also special shout-out to Build That Wall, probably my favorite vocal track in any Supergiant game)

Celeste: Scattered and Lost (I am such a normie for this choice but face it this track absolutely slaps.)

Chicory: A Colorful Tale: Song of the Wielders (I love how this song has actual lyrics but I still prefer to sing along with the Simlish version that Pizza and Chicory sing.)

The Cosmic Wheel Sisterhood: Illusion (First of all I love how every character in this game has their own theme I go feral for that kind of thing. Kurielle is probably one of the characters who stood out to me the least but by god is her theme gorgeous. I love the vocals and how a later track includes a sneaky reprise.)

Cuphead: Dramatic Fanatic (Tap dancing :D)

There are literally thirty of these so I'm doing a read more

Death's Door: The Grey Crow (A heartbreaking boss fight scored with the appropriate amount of anguish)

Deltarune: Cyber Battle (This melody is so underrated and ya know what, so are the characters associated with it. Sweet Cap'n Cakes forever.)

Elsinore: Donne, The Boat Boy (I love this song because it's associated with Lady Guildenstern, aka the best character in gaming full stop, but it's also just a fun little sea shanty that I think they made up for this game so I love that. Also has a lyrical version.)

Evergate: Police (Okay so the level with the police drones is one of the more frustrating ones in the game but the music is hauntingly beautiful so I give it a pass)

Going Under: trust fall (Marv is easily one of the most hateable video game antagonists of all time but damn if his boss theme doesn't slap)

Hades: Last Words (The rolling and the tolling of the bells bells bells bells bells)

Harmony: The Fall of Reverie: Reverie Ascendant (Lena Raine does these medley tracks so good man)

Hollow Knight: Dung Defender (By far the catchiest song about poop on my entire phone)

Ikenfell: Rose Thorns (So the insanely long final boss fight against Oxley overshadowed Aeldra's boss fight in my memory for a long time, but when I watched another playthrough and bought the OST I realized "Oh her theme bops SO much harder than his ever could")

Inscryption: A Final Duel (A hardcore remix of The Scrybe of Magicks, aka one of the only melodic tracks on the album and therefore the one every YouTube video about Inscryption uses in the background. I prefer the epic version just a bit more because honestly that Magnificus setpiece is the best moment in the game)

Jimmy and the Pulsating Mass: Fun, Sunny Day (A fun and silly track as the title suggests, elevated even more by the context in which it plays in the game. The area music alternates between this and the more somber Rainy Sunday to illustrate that Jimmy mother is bipolar [very cute and silly game])

Omori: Bready Steady Go (Like the absolute dipshit I am I actually completely missed the optional Orange Oasis when I played this game myself. Every Let's Player finds it somehow, though, and when they fight the Unbread Twins I invariably stand up and dance along to the boss music.)

One Step from Eden: Perpetual Motion (It's just a good-ass track y'all)

Ori and the Blind Forest: Conundrum (In a soundtrack of sweeping orchestral pieces, this more subdued version of theme that only plays during one small puzzle section might seem a weird choice. But I've always really liked it)

Ori and the Will of the Wisps: Kwolok's Malaise (Kwolok's leitmotif is perfect for a giant frog and the boss remix takes it to it's logical conclusion)

Paradise Killer: Go! Go! Style (This track makes me feel like I'm having a sugar rush. The whole OST does actually but this one especially)

Pyre: Path to Glory (It's just got a really unique vibe to it. I like it)

Scarlet Hollow: Avery (Chill and really beautiful. Avery themself is kind of a sleeper character at this point but I can't wait for Brandon to remix their theme when they get assimilated into a giant plant monster)

Slay the Princess: The Princess (Okay full disclosure I've only played this game once so I don't have the full context for a lot of the tracks on this OST. Maybe hearing them alongside their respective princesses will make me like them more, but for now the title theme is too iconic to beat.)

Sounds of Sympathy (the OST for the game anthology Essays on Empathy): Zen and the Art of Transhumanism (In the Essays on Empathy documentary, fingerspit talked about how she prefers writing obscenely long tracks so the loop doesn't get annoying. Unfortunately for her my favorite track on this album is only three minutes long. It's a lovely little bop.)

Spiritfarer: Mind Palace (I played Spiritfarer before any of the character updates were released, so I didn't get Daria's mind palace sequences in my game. And I mean, they look very platforming-heavy so I'm okay with that, but god this is a gorgeous piece.)

Transistor: Impossible (I think this is Royce Bracket's boss theme? I don't know when any of the tracks on this OST specifically play in game. Regardless of all that this one gets me pumped.)

Unavowed: One Man's Power (I couldn't find a video of this one, but it's gentle saxophone solo that plays when Logan Brown is introduced. I think it fits is character really well and just sounds really nice)

Undertale: Death by Glamour (Best song for best character, enough said)

Wandersong: Moonscape (God knows this game gave me a lot of great options to pick from, but I settled on this one because it's so uplifting.)

[xavalav]

hi, please tell me about The Character

HI HELLO I LOVE TALKING ABOUT THE CHARACTER!!!!!!

okay so recently The Character for me has been the hollow knight from the titular game hollow knight. i loveeeeeeeee that freak,, it has so many fucking issues and i'm obsessed. i have typed out novels about that funky bugg in a discord server w my friends bc i have been rotating it in my microwave for like a month now. actually i'm gonna put a bunch of stuff under a readmore bc i have sooooo many thoughts and feelings abt the hollow knight and their whole deal. but if you would like a tl;dr this image is pretty much what you're going to get under the readmore.

hello. welcome to it is 3am and i am exploding forever and ever abt buggs. i went through my discord to find screenshots of my rants bc they really encapsulate my thoughts and feelings abt that silly little thang

the aftermath of thinking about buges until 5am:

anyways these are all my rants bc i didn't wanna type them out again but holy shit. the hollow knight makes me froth at the mouth bc they are ultimately about devotion and deception and the suffocating lack of choice and personal freedom. and i like the pale king a lot too bc while there isn't a lot of concrete lore about him, he is the one who kicked the whole story off and gave the hollow knight sooooo many issues. i love the themes and i love the whole "no mind to think, no will to break, no voice to cry suffering" thing in reference to the vessels because i am of the opinion that none of the vessels were truly hollow and that the pale king's plan was always going to fail. it's the futility and the sunk cost fallacy and "no cost to great" of it all <3 and just. man. the hollow knight was doomed by the narrative the minute they made it to the top of that platform.

here are sketches of my buggs that i've been doing too. i'm still fleshing out designs and details but they've been on da mind and i had to get them onto a page before they ate all my neurons

anyways. thank you for reading and looking at my long ass post with. soso much. and thank you for giving me an opportunity to go insaneo style about hollow knight bc i haven't gotten the chance to besides in private discords and reblog sprees. here's some funny silly messages:

[xxx-theartofsuicide-xxx]

Took the weekend to celebrate my birthday. For those of you who care, I went to the playground with my mom, my sister and our babies (they're the same age, birth month twins, we shared a pregnancy) and got lots of sun and fresh air. The playground has an industrial strength adult-sized seesaw and it let's you touch the fucking sky, bless. After lunch at my favorite Chinese buffet that serves the best shrimp I've ever had in my life, we went back home and my best friend was sitting on the porch to surprise me with a case of fancy beer and two new games for the PS5 I got for Christmas 💕 Hollow Knight and Elden Ring, imma tear that shit up whenever I get sick of Fallout. Then my husband's parents came and they gave me $70 and this rad Beetlejuice T-shirt.

It's big too so I can cut it however I want 🥰

After everybody left, husband pulled this scrumptious strawberry krunch ice cream cake out of nowhere and solo'd me the happy birthday song 😊 with feeling.

Then I got dicked down professionally and got to indulge my insomniac tendencies and stay up all night playing video games with the reassurance that he had baby tomorrow, I could sleep in as late as I want. 31 is going to be a fantastic year for me. I have a lot of big things happening.

Now. For the angry mob in my ask box:

Didn't read a word of that. I muted Tumblr the night before my birthday and this morning my wonderful husband filtered through and deleted all the ugly ones for me so I wouldn't even have to skim any of your garbage. I am dearly loved.

Not looking at notifications either. In fact, consider Tumblr notifs off for me forever. Y'all can have my attention when I feel like giving it and only when I feel like giving it. Abusive reblogs will also be blocked and forgotten. Trying to communicate with you imbeciles is like trying to teach trigonometry to toddlers (say that five times fast), so let me spell this out as simply as I can for you single-celled organisms.

• I reblogged one of Spike's posts three times (our one and only conversation) before blocking him

• At this point, I began receiving nonstop anonymous harassment that went on for about 1-2 weeks. I did not retaliate in kind because I don't believe in it. I've been the recipient of anonymous harassment for many years due to my dead dove content. My candid responses are sharp and cruel enough on their own without need of anonymity. The very notion offends my pride. I cannot abide cowardice.

• I did not report Spike. Not once, not for any of it, not even the abusive anons that I fully believe came from him. Why? Because there's no proving it, I'm not going to waste anyone's time on a hunch, and I have gotten so much hate over the years that I don't bother with any of that frill. It's too time-consuming. If I reported everything that offended me, I would never leave this stupid app.

• If I had reported Spike, you can bet your simple ass I would be sitting here gloating and taking credit. He's a shitstain and he deserves bad things. But I didn't! It sure is fucking funny that it happened though, and it's unspeakably flattering that you utter buffoons legitimately believe I'm capable of this, that I even have that kind of power. Have y'all not seen my notes? What kind of numbers do you think I'm pulling? How many people do you think I have under hypnosis? Cause I'm tellin' you right now it's like 2-3 bitches and none of them would ever do anything like that at my behest. It would damage our mutual respect.

Real Rae and anon-answering Rae are two different people. The person I am when I am responding to anonymous harassment is a cold, ruthless cunt with no concern for your thoughts, feelings, or intentions. Once an individual has decided that they're going to hide their identity in order to manipulate me, I shut down and turn to stone. This is a carefully cultivated defense mechanism.

"Don't eat me. I'm toxic."

A simple way to avoid ever interacting with this character I put on is by never leaving anonymous harassment in my askbox. And no, I won't turn off anons for you to make you comfy bc wahh you don't like me and I'm a meanie lmao. Utilize that block button, child. Learn how to enforce boundaries and respect the boundaries of others. Neither Spike nor any of his braindead minions are entitled to my time and attention.

It's incredibly valuable.

Now onto the next order of business: Laura/Afterthefuneral? Who was in my server for a little while before I booted her after she was criminally obnoxious? Who is now buddying up to Spike and intentionally trolling, feeding his paranoia with complete and total fabrications? (I have never even visited Bluesky. I don't even know what the user interface looks like.)

Here's a screenshot of how she really feels about Spike. It's the only thing we ever agreed on:

And here's a video of her cussing out her sickly cat, Pumpkin, after he was incapable of consuming the salty processed meat she left out for him:

TW: Animal abuse, disturbing footage

Pumpkin is 20~ years old. Pumpkin has cancer and a whole host of other health issues, several of which clearly stem from neglect.

Laura insists that she is unable to afford treatment/euthanasia/nail trimmings for him despite how often (and it was miserably often) she showed off her newest Beetlejuice-themed swag purchases, price tag and all. Laura believes in supporting small creators, you see. Amazon isn't good enough for her. Anyone who shared space in Dante's with Laura can attest that her treatment of Pumpkin is nothing short of inhumane, and that we were all (with the exception of a special few who tried their best) peace-keeping cowards who never held her accountable in any real way. Pumpkin deserves better.

I never wanted to make this post, Laura, but I will not continue concealing your hideous truths while you perpetuate egregious lies. I wish you had just listened to us the handful of times you were gently encouraged to please ease his visible suffering. Instead, you paraded him. Thinking about him is painful. Thinking about you is repugnant. Thinking about my inaction, and how I had to be pushed this far to get just a drop of justice for that pitiful animal riddles me with guilt. The bitch I was five years ago would have chewed you up and spit you out the first time you posted a picture of his poor, grimacing face and those painfully ingrown claws with the audacity to call it "sexy" (much less endured the months of countless indignifying photoshoots and captions that followed) but these sensitive motherfuckers out here got me caring more about optics than justice ‒ and that's what's really wrong with all of us, ain't it?

Y'all want a confession out of me? This is what I'm guilty of. I ignored Laura's animal abuse because I was afraid that if I pushed it, our mutual friends would be upset with me. Cowardly shit. I'm sorry, Pumpkin. I don't know what I could have done for you, but I didn't do enough and it's selfish of me to use you now as a primary character witness.

I'm going to take some more me time to tend my garden and reflect on the type of person I want to be. It saddens and angers me greatly that I allowed fear of backlash to compromise my rigid moral compass. What was I even afraid of? That's not who I am and I refuse to ever play that role again.

To the nice, harmless folks in my askbox, thank you for the love and I'll be getting back to you...when I know how to gather myself enough to answer all that. For now, I think I want to write nasty beetlebabes. It's been too long.

[quietwingsinthesky]

20 Fanfic Author Questions

I was tagged by @quicksilver-castiel!

1. How many works on AO3?

Once I filter out my podfics, I'm at 1,383 works!

2. Total AO3 Word Count?

I am currently at 908,139 words, so million word mile mark coming soon! bit by bit.

3. Top 5 fics by Kudos

Extremely funny looking at this list because one of my top kudosed fics is actually an anonymous fic I have never revealed and probably never will lmao. But aside from that. You'll Figure It Out When You Get There - Five Nights at Freddy's - 1,445 Kudos and so the tower fell - Supernatural - 544 Baby Bird - Supernatural - 444 Reboot - Five Nights at Freddy's - 403 Home Woven From Broken Parts - Hollow Knight - 346

4. What fandoms do you write for?

At the moment, I am like. deeply caught by Assassin's Creed, and while I'd really like to write for other fandoms, I genuinely can't focus on anything else. The hyperfixation bug is fucking real and I do not know how long it'll last.

5. Do you respond to comments?

I... try.

6. Angstiest Ending?

I feel like because it's about a kid being murdered, A Dark and Stormy Night probably qualifies as the angstiest.

7. Fic with the Happiest Ending?

Off the top of my head, and I do have a poor memory about even the things I've written, it's probably Mother of All Monsters just because it is sappy and sweet and there's a very pregnant devil in it.

8. Do you get hate?

When I get noticed, at least someone is gonna get mad about it. Such is the way of these things.

9. Do you write smut?

lmao. yeah <3 let me put it this way. at least 36% of my posted works are smut.

10. Do you write crossovers?

On occasion, when the mood strikes. I'm not much of a crossover writer or reader, but sometimes, sometimes, something pops out as a possibility and won't leave me alone.

11. Ever had a fic stolen?

Not to my knowledge, no.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! It's a delightful thing to me! I'm so proud of it! There's translations in Russian, Chinese, and German.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

I have not, not at this point. I'd quite like to!

14. All time favourite ship?

Forever and always Samifer <3 you couldn't tear me away from it if you tried.

15. WIPs you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Do we mean posted or just on my harddrive because. there are horrors in there. just a graveyard of unfinished fic.

16. Writing strengths?

I like to think, and I do take pride in this, that I am very good at writing smut. In all that entails, from the physical description to the emotions involved in the act and such.

17. Writing Weaknesses?

Jesus christ i hate dialogue i hate dialogue i hatee dialogue i don't understand how people talk.

18. Thoughts on mixed language dialogue?

I... am perhaps not the best person to ask? Monolingual ass. Sometimes it's quite jarring, sometimes it comes across very naturally. Sorry, terminal assassin's creed brain, but I can find it very jarring when reading AC fic specifically where the characters only use one or two words in another language, when the source material will have that, yes, but also entire sentences of dialogue translated. It's why I generally avoid doing it. If I can't actually speak Italian, I don't want to make a damn fool of myself.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Posted? Star Wars. Written down anywhere? Probably Guardians of Ga'Hoole. Just thought about it in my head constantly? you ever seen the animated kids classic bolt.

20. Favourite fic you’ve ever written?

christ there's over a thousand of them uhhhhhhhhhhh fuck it im deciding it's my jilco fic this week. everyone go read with enough love (you'll get your hands dirty). it's a damn good fic, and jinx was so fun to write the manerisms of, and all of my favorite fics i've ever written are ones that hold that delicate balance of being about an indefinably intimate relationship.

anyhow! i shall now tag @73chn1c0l0rr3v3l, @seanwinchester, @honestlydarkprincess, @holyfreaks, @19catsncounting, @samiferboy, @soulless-angel25, and @uss-genderprise. and whomever else sees this, please do! I really love reading these sorts of questionnaires from my mutuals aklsjdakjd

[wowitscoldout]

Videogames are my favorite medium of storytelling because of how they try and explain the ability to respawn. I'm sure I said that before but there's so much lore that goes into explaining why You The Player can respawn but other characters (sometimes) can't.

Like ok, rain world. Right? You have to respawn so they're like "nothing ever actually dies. It's a cycle, a repeating pattern. Everything experiences it. That's why you can come back again and again."

Ofc idk what came first, but I don't really think that the story of "there's this ancient race of people and they want to escape the cycle of immortality, so they create these massive godlike supercomputers to solve the great question of Forever Death" would come about if you didn't have to explain a respawn mechanic. Yk?

Or like in dead cells how there's the loop with the timekeeper and the beheaded is an immortal homunculus.

Or like, idk, hollow knight. The shades and shit yk?

Just stuff that wouldn't be in a traditional book or story because usually there isn't a respawn mechanic in those, but in games there ARE respawn mechanics.

It's so fuckin cool I love it

[thecrowfinder]

Can you list all of your fandoms

Also, if you could choose to be a disembodied voice in someone's head or be the person with the voice inside their head, which would you choose?

well, i didnt make a fandom list because i have a REALLY bad memory, and my ability to recall all of the stuff im interested in is kinda shit, but uh.. i can try my best?? under the cut so people can decide if they wanna see all that or not

please note that this list is entirely based on my current fandoms right now + all the other stuff i can remember off the top of my head, and will not be accurate forever

Major Interests

(stuff i will post about a lot, or reblog on my sideblog frequently)

OK K.O.! Let's Be Heroes

Half-Life VR but the AI is Self-Aware

Minor Interests

(stuff i post/reblog semi-frequently, typically because i follow people who post about it, or i passively seek it out)

Half-Life

In Stars and Time

Wandersong

Hollow Knight

Invader Zim

Dayshift at Freddy's

Miraculous Ladybug

Undertale/Deltarune

Adventure Time

Sleeper Interests

(the stuff im not currently thinking about and dont interact much with, but WILL make spontaneous unholy resurgences at some point)

Five Nights at Freddy's

Avatar: The Last Airbender

The Owl House

Inscryption

Homestuck

Bendy and the Ink Machine

Cuphead

Spark the Electric Jester

Portal

Digimon

Danger Planet

Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles

Lego Monkie Kid

Welcome to Hell

Wakfu

Transformers Animated

as for the other half of this ask, thats a strange question, but i will still answer it. being a disembodied voice could let me be helpful and encouraging to someone, but i dont think disembodied voices can eat mac n cheese or spaghetti, so i guess id choose to have the voice in my head?? it really wouldnt be the weirdest thing to ever happen to me

[augmentedlavender]

5, 🖋️

Ty for submitting an ask!!

Preview: Reigen brings up his high school essay again to Serizawa. He doesn't know why.

Writing under the cut!

Reigen unlocked the door to his apartment, rather forcefully pushing it open then shutting it with his heel. He takes off his suit jacket and tosses it on his bed. The sun’s already gone down, so he has to flip on his lights, at least for now. Typically the sunbeams that come in through his window suffice for lighting (which is a blessing for his electricity bill), but after coming home late from Spirits & Such, he can’t rely on it.

He tries to ignore the buzz from his phone in his pocket– tries to ignore that it’s the third one since he was closing up. There was only one person that’d be messaging him– Katsuya.

“Y’know, I had to write this essay back in highschool. It was about our futures and all that junk. I said I wanted to be someone.”

Reigen doesn’t really know why he had brought it up. He’d forgotten about it after graduation, and he’d been rather avoidant of the whole thing since it had been brought back up. He felt hollow, almost, mentioning it. Like he was supposed to be feeling something. As if someone had been putting pressure on a wounded limb that's gone numb from blood loss– but that wouldn’t make sense, because it wasn’t a big deal. It had happened years ago. 

“I don’t think you wanted to be someone,” Katsuya had said rather simply, moving through Reigen’s kitchen as if it was his own. He stirred the sauteing vegetables as they satisfyingly sizzled. “I think you wanted someone to care.”

Reigen leaned against his desk, socked-feet threatening to slip on the non-carpeted floor. “That’s awfully cheesy, isn’t it?” he retorts, because he’s not quite sure how to reply to his statement. 

Katsuya had shrugged, turning back to face him with a smile that’s so undeniably him– soft, patient, and kind. Reigen smiles back at him, but looks away before Katsuya could’ve judged his smile the same way.

“Is everything okay?” Katsuya asked, turning back towards the vegetables only for a moment to take them off the heat, then turn off the stove. After that, all of his attention was directed on Reigen. Something about it made him squirm. He doesn’t know why. 

Reigen opened his mouth to say something, but as he adjusted his posture his feet slid out from underneath him, making him yell and fall on the ground. He narrowly missed hitting his head on his desk. 

He let out a laugh as Katusya frantically rushed over to him, and before he knew it, Katsuya was laughing too. He shakes his head and offers Reigen a hand to get up. 

“My knight in shining armor,” Reigen joked, taking his hand and letting him pull him up. “What would I ever do without you?”

“You’d be stuck on the floor forever,” Katsuya quipped back, only it had lacked the intonation of Reigen’s remark. Still, he can guess the light-hearted nature of the words based on his slight smile.

Reigen’s scrutinizing over it now. Now that he’s alone in his sad, empty apartment. 

He’d vaguely noticed that the first night he’d stayed here– that the apartment took on a whole different feeling at different times of day. Once the sun goes down, it's nothing more than a dark, cramped room with little decoration. It doesn’t matter. He works late most nights. 

He glances out his window. Damn light pollution’s making it hard to see any of the stars, but it’s still a nice thought. He sighs and closes his blinds, as he always does at this time, and turns to go change into pajamas. 

He pauses when his eyes catch on his desk, where he’d fallen over just a couple of days ago, and suddenly that feeling is back again. The same one that’d caused him to bring up his dumb essay in the first place. A stupid feeling to bring up something stupid, he supposes. 

Continuing his routine, Reigen starts unbuttoning his shirt. He’d tossed off his tie a while ago, leaving it carelessly tossed aside on the floor. A part of him wants to just leave it there, the other part of him tells him that the tie’s old enough to get trashed if he does– and he’s not ready just yet to buy a new one. 

So, Reigen picks it up. 

After rehanging up his suit, he takes out his baggy shirt and sweatpants. He slips on the shirt and then the sweatpants, then collapses onto his couch holding the TV remote. 

“I think this is something you should address, Taka.” Katsuya’s voice nags in the back of his head. Why should he, if there wasn’t anything wrong? 

If there was something wrong, he would know. I mean, geez, does Katsuya think he’s blind? It's not like he’s struggling to function. There’s nothing serious about anything he’s urged Reigen to reassess. 

Reigen comes to the conclusion that Katsuya is just a worrier. This isn’t necessarily a bad thing, but at the moment, it’s causing him to stress out over nothing. 

…Still, he should give him some time away. Just so he doesn’t trap him in a cycle of worrying again. Katsuya deserves a bit of a break. 

A break from what, though? From him? If that’s the case, then he doesn’t think this relationship is going to work out at any level. Afterall, the implications of him needing a break from Reigen at all implies that he’s something bad. Something that can’t be constantly taken in. 

He’s always known that he needs Serizawa more than he needs him, but… 

Reigen finally settles on a TV channel after mindlessly switching it about twenty times. He leans back into the sofa cushions, and tries to relax, even as his brain doesn’t hang on to a single word they’re saying. After all, he’s just following his routine, and this is a part of it too.

[ropes3amthoughts]

You ever meet a girl and she’s so great that you can’t help but gush to everybody about how cool she is and hope that you guys can be friends forever? Like I’ve been talking to this girl and she’s the best at like everything she’s an amazing artist and writer and she can play multiple instruments and do multiple sports and she’s super duper smart and she likes How To Train Your Dragon and Hollow Knight and her favorite HK character is Hornet which is my favorite too and she’s just so fun to talk to and she remembers stuff I say and she’s just the best.

She matches my energy too. Not like she matches my freak but she matches my whimsy. I say “bug” and point at a bug on the ground and she’ll say something like “that’s so cool looking” and then we’ll both get down on the ground and just look at the bug for like two minutes and say some random stuff like “how do you think it died” and “what would you do if you were a cicada” and like she gets me like nobody else you guys. Also we were playing tennis today and I accidentally hit two balls over the fence and into some bushes where they got lost and she was trying to take the blame for me even though I told her not to and it was my fault because I was the one who hit them over. Neither of us got in trouble though because the guy who lent us the balls was really understanding and chill about it so that’s nice. She’s so nice and cool and everything she’s just awesome.

She said after the grading period is over and school chills out we could hang out and maybe I could give her tips on Hollow Knight because I beat the whole game (except for the Pantheons lmao I’m like halfway through with those they’re pretty tricky also I haven’t got the speed running achievement because I am slow af) and so she thinks I’m like a cool expert gamer and like that’s awesome she’s cool and she thinks I’m cool??? Wow

I love friendship so much I love all of my friends and I think she’s like one of the coolest people I’ve ever met

[hamsandwich4736251]

Masterlist

It’s taken me months to finally gets around to doing this but welp here we go

Hi! I’m me, you can call me Ham (bc thats what i can think of rn!) or another thing if we talk and you come up with literally anything better

But ya, im technically a MINOR!!!, so please no nsfw yall -but also heavily traumatized so warning i do not act like a minor when i complain

Ive got a lot of interests so i’ll try to keep it short and spare us all from the rambling (if you would like in depth rambling however i am so down to chat away with people about blorbos and theories so ya!)

Ok enough stalling, now introducing the interests:

Dragons!!

Pokemon

Rocks

Theories

Cats

Tickles (a more recent thing, might ramble later on how i got introduced and how different things caused my first Ler and Lee moods but not here lol)

Books!!

Video games - mostly lore and designs sorry not really multiplayers

And fashion a bit

Ok and now the fandoms, this might take a while and i’ll probably need to update later:

Pokemon

Wings of Fire

And other dragon series, mainly The Waking Fire series and another series i dont remember the name of but i think one of the books in it is called The Fire Within

Undertale

Hoh boy this one goes deep -i got into it right before covid started and between a lot of sudden free time, and a need to escape, and the fact right when i got into it was when the Aus were really picking up— it goes so deep you dont understand i can Ramble about theories i heard years ago like theres no tomorrow its insane

Deltarune

Glitchtale

Legend of Zelda

Arcane

Fnaf (a bit, only got into it bc of security breach bc i do NOT like jumpscares at all ;-;)

Genshin Impact (my friends dragged me into it)

Dune (slowly getting into it bc of my family)

Grishaverse

Especially Six of Crows!!!!!

Daredevil (yo religious trauma goes crazy with liking this show lmao)

Hadestown (only heard the audio but i love it)

Hollow Knight

Voltron

Bleach (first anime ever, standards are high lol)(some of the best soundtracks ive ever heard i swear)

HunterxHunter (again, dragged into by friends- still like tho)

Anddddd a bunch of others i don’t remember rn, but if youre into the stuff above im always happy to get more interests lol

Cuphead (the music is so good)

Bendy and the Ink Machine (THE FAN SONGS ARE WHAT GOT WE INTO IT AND THEYRE SO GOOD ADKWKANSJWKSKEI)

Sk8 the Infinity (i love the characters so much)(except for Adam fuc dat guy all the way until the very last couple scenes where he stops being as excessive)(then hes just odd instead of No)

Ok, youve made it this far?? Damn congrats bro

Youve unlocked a few broad things i dont like!!:

Bugs

Bigots

Homophobes

Spiders

Trybophobia

Needles (this one is 100% a phobia)

Racists

Bullying (teasing is completely fine but bullying is a no bc ✨trauma✨ lmao)

Non consent anything (other than maybe health)

Like being forced to eat if you havent eaten in 3 days is not good, but its not bad either yk? But being forced to stand for 5 hours in heels bc youre “supposed to” or anything forced s*xually is a no -yk?

Pedophiles

Almond milk (i am so sorry girlfriend, but i hate it so much you would not believe)(nothing political it just immediately makes me gag lmao)(all the almond milk we get will forever be yours)

The ending of voltron (WHY JUST WHY)

Okkkkk thats all i can think of rn, sorry there arent any cool visuals

I am not good at being open socially (trauma and even before trauma lol) but if you wanna be friends you can totally contact me- i just might not respond at first lol

Last note:

*Tickle community*

i’m still learning and i’m still a bit new

PLEASE nothing sexual

Mainly a ler, but thats bc my girlfriend is exclusively a lee

Would probably be a switch if people tickled me more than a poke every couple weeks but oh well

Oh also i am unbelievably touchstarved so uh theres that too

Its actually so extreme touchstarved but thats embarrassing to say lmao

But anyway, the only way ive really interacted with tickling is from my girfriend, so i tend to see it as kinda romantic- and at the very least intimate yk (cant tell if thats the trauma and touch starvation talking but oh well)

Also i am unbelievably socially anxious for the first like 5 interactions with someone just to warn anyone who read the insanity above and wants to be friends

Basically: totally down to be friends!!! Im just gonna be hella anxious at first lol

OKKKKKKKK if youve made it this far that is truly impressive, so congrats!!!!! Also you might want to grab to eat or drink bc holy smalonoli i rambled and that probably took a while to read

[distrxst]

Hollow Knight! For the fandom thing

send me a fandom and i'll tell you :

the first character i first fell in love with: honestly ?? quirrel . such a nice character , and it's just kind of hard to find anything to dislike . he's one of the first characters you meet , and is just charming overall . i've only got one save where i've sat with him at the lake , i don't have much of a heart to do it again unfortunately .

the character i never expected to love as much as i do now: nailsmith brothers , specifically mato and oro . originally they were just kind of meh to me but with mato being so happy to see you and oro finding a place to keep the delicate flower - plus their dream nail dialogue , they just grew on me way more than i originally intended .

the character everyone else loves that i don’t: the jokes funny but zote i hate you to death </3

the character i love that everyone else hates: not that she's really hated ? but i've always found divine to be just be pretty funny ? not much more to say about it though .

the character i used to love but don’t any longer: anyone i love in that game is loved forever and ever i can't think of anyone i really stopped liking ?

the character i would totally smooch: i do not think i would kiss any of the bugs i fear .

the character i’d want to be like: not many since almost everyone is dead and suffering . but honestly ? sly . he makes money and talks funny not much more to say .

the character i’d slap: pale king destruction i need him in the ground

a pairing that i love: grollow forever .. grimm and hollow i have thoughts about them . they drive me insane . grollow i miss you .

a pairing that i despise: ghost x anyone . they're literally just a kiddo in the world .

[wyrm-with-a-why]

Ty @skeletonsgeorg for tagging me yayyyy

1.How many works do you have on ao3? 35

2.Whats your total ao3 word count? 82,086

3.What fandoms do you write for? Transformers but mostly about Megatron and stuff :3

4.what are your top five fics by kudos?

The faded mourner named Megatron

Isaac’s latest assistant

I trust you(valveplug)

Permission to touch(valveplug)

Well, Well, what do you have here?(valveplug request)

Sorry for the nsfw ones I’m just warning lol👉👈

5.do you respond to comments? Yessums I love responding!

6.what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Ooh- um my Jetfire angst fic : Just your toy // I’ll never be clean again. No comfort only ptsd :C

7.the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Idk I have fics that aren’t finished yet I’m not really sure! Maybe my Megasound fics :3

8.do you get hate on fics? Not yet!

9.do you write smut? Yes. A lot. Like a degenerate🌸

10.do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve ever done? I do but only two, a dbd x transformers au for two fics or my shade lord from hollow knight x d-16 fic

11.have you ever had a fic stolen? I doubt it my fics are dumb and not worth stealing so

12.have you ever had a fic translated? Naur

13.have you ever co-written a fic before? Yeah I’m currently doing one with mainenorth but he hasn’t continued his part yet I gotta remind him 😅

14.whats your all time favourite ship? Kilomegs, megamax and megafire :3 but I have so many ships with Megatron I love I could go on forever and ever. I just gave my top three to save time

15.whats a wip you wanna finish but doubt you ever will? Ough idk I have a lot but I wanna finish :((((

16.what are your writing strengths? Uhhhh megatron stories. Being so real. I can do well when Megatron’s in my works which is most of them

17.writing weaknesses? I start a fic and don’t finish it :(

18.thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? I haven’t written in my second language yet but I think it’s cool when people do that! I read a dbd fic where the huntress spoke in Russian! Yummy stuff

19.first fandom you wrote for? Transformers again

20.favourite fic you’ve written? Um- idk I’m too critical on myself-

Tagging uhhhh : @withoutalice @mainenorth @steelthroat uhhhh

And anyone else who wants to join🌸

[lucky-draws]

bosselot ranting and raving which genuinely makes no sense and isn't worth reading ↓

something something big boss becoming a lone, paranoid figure who trusts no one because of his series of betrayals i.e. the boss' "defection", les enfants terribles, the boss' (perceived) abandonment of him in her desire for peace, kaz's involvement with cipher etc. something something when you trust no one but yourself maybe you Would have quite a fascination with someone who is your phantom/copy/double/clone/you. unlike les enfants terribles venom is the kind of "clone" that bb can forge a twisted affection for, due to his absolute loyalty and due to his being, well, him. am i about to start "shipping bbvenom" well not really i'm just pondering big boss and also, as usual, pondering my favourite phenomenon of People Who Are Identical But Not Quite. im big boss and so are you. im maria s/ilent hill and so are you. im solid and im liquid we're the stupid brothers. etc

also. sigh. basically im attempting to write a fic (who knows if it will ever see the light of day) where ocelot gives himself big boss' scar. just for fun/because he's insane. 1964: i wanted to eat the same food as him -> 1973ish: i wanted to permanently mark myself with the same scar he gave himself which also happens to be my mother's scar from birthing me etc. #justocelotthings. and big boss goes through 10000 shrimp colour stages of anger/grief/fascination/horny/acceptance in reaction to it.

and i was thinking about post pw incident where bb is beginning his shift into a much darker, closed off figure and he's full of bitterness in the wake of all his chucking-her-bandana-into-the-ocean The Boss Feelings and also his divorce with kaz. and how maybe his feelings towards ocelot (which are as insane as they've ever been due to the recent development of The Scar) are also shifting a little. up until now he's accepted ocelots promises of devotion and loyalty and he's reciprocated ocelot's affection because he does genuinely Like Him Despite Everything and they have had their weird little Thing going on for many years. but now it's like. concepts such as loyalty to the end and unconditional devotion are beginning to lose their credibility; bb questions whether even ocelot might not be his ally forever. and does BB even Want ocelot's loyalty? he's a useful person but BB never ASKED for ocelots loyalty. loyalty, devotion, subservience - these are hollow promises. he likes ocelot when he's a real human and not a soldier. he likes ocelot as his equal. one might even go as far as to say - he likes ocelot best as an extension of himself. he likes ocelot as his mirror. "you're not a snake and im not an ocelot?" wrong. we're both snakes. as you said yourself, ocelot, in a nice little scene in approximately chapter 2 (doesn't exist), now that you've given yourself that scar, "we match". we're nothing but a pair of snakes. we're red string of fate tied to each other more than ever. we're the sons of the boss; we're twin snakes. we're metal gear solid: the twin snakes 2004 developed by konami and silicon knights for the nintendo gamecube. but we're not just two snakes, we're an ourobouros. i don't just want you to pledge your loyalty to "big boss", i want you to be big boss. i want to you to live my dream, not just be an ally to it.

in actual fact maybe he is just in love with ocelot (squee!) but this is big boss we're talking about so. he is literally a weapon he is war itself he's the war machine he's a soulless dead fish of a man. and either destroying or assimilating everything in his path forever is kind of his whole theme. and ocelot as a literal child of the battlefield will never escape it either. so they both just blow up and go to hell forever.

OR DO THEY. maybe bb is actually like wow everyone is betraying me the boss has abandoned me and ive abandoned her except never entirely even if i did throw her bandana into the sea in a moment of rage ive still got this scar on my chest. and so does ocelot because he's insane about me hm to be honest maybe i should just Give Up War and we can both retire and live on a ranch together forever the end.maybe that's actually what happens. life could be dream.

also please god let me find a job soon ive been unemployed for 7 months this is what happens when i don't have a job it gives me the time to think about bosselot until my brain melts and oozes and i start writing very long incomprehensible posts on my art blog at 3pm which does nobody any good. sigh