#this is fully srs btw

[peak-dumbass]

For a show that has 3 times as much villains as it does heroes you’d think I’d make one of these for them awhile ago the problem is I don’t care about any of them nearly as much as I do the main cast (if you couldn’t tell by my other posts)

[susivoi]

Show is shit /hj but Plagg and Tikki are still as lovely as ever! /srs

[absolutedaisy]

What’s our stance on self-diagnosis IF one has read the dsm-5, talked to friends with the official diagnosis, and fulfills most qualifications?

[paradoxicalpaldeann]

been a while since i wrote up a big infodump post like this, but i had a really silly sr isekai au idea

tldr; kaif gets isekaid into a story he has a love hate relationship with and gets to make out with his blorbo

so. first things first. in kaif's starting world, literally all of sr does not exist. he's a bit lonely tbh, but he lives an almost entirely different life as a result. well, almost. he still ends up doing youtube. but without a 'cavalcade of fuckups' (direct quote) failing at wow to record and show off to the whole world, he ends up doing a different type of content.

he ends up becoming a media reviewer and critic. specifically, he reviews webcomics.

at first his channel is quite small, and he's okay with that. he's only doing this as a hobby during his time off work, and it's making him geniunely quite happy.

then one of his videos blows the fuck up. there's a sudden, sharp spike in viewship and the video in question even makes it to the trending page for a few, short, glorious hours.

the video in question is about aspiring hero's journal, a finished webcomic. now, kaif could go on for hours and hours about AHJ- it started off incredibly well despite having aspects clearly borrowed from other series (such as terminology, as powers are referred to as Quirks within the story) before both the webcomic and the author slowly devolved into a hellish toxic mess.

but he's not here to talk about the webcomic as a whole. no. he is here to talk about his favourite character, and the biggest point of drama in the AHJ community- how Elísabet "Entropy" Morgenstern had her character butchered and ending ruined all because the writer got salty that the community liked her over their self insert character.

about two thirds of the way through the webcomic, a poll was held on who the audience's favourite side character was. it wasnt known at the time, but the author was originally planning to make whoever won this poll the new protagonist after the planned death of the old one. the winner of this poll was Elísabet. the community absolutely loved her. Elísabet started out as quirkless, only developing her quirk Event Horizon at age 26. unfortunately for her, Event Horizon was so unfathomably powerful and uncontrollable that it nearly killed her and did infact kill hundreds of bystanders, leaving her with a permanent fear of using her quirk, as well as making her a prime target for the villain group of the week to sculpt into their ideal weapon of mass destruction. she did get a redemption, but her unique perspective and far more inventive ways of fighting had the community long believing that she should have been the protagonist instead.

so, she won the poll.

the author did not like this.

after one of the twitter rants of all time, the author began to update the comic far more frequently, with a sudden focus on Elísabet.

the audience did not like what they saw.

Elísabet suddenly had her 200+ chapters worth of therapy and development tossed out the window like it was nothing to reveal her as a random heel-turn traitor, going so far as to reinterpret her traumatic awakening as "the best moment of her life" and that she "enjoyed killing", as if said awakening did not also render her a burnt, broken husk. it made her into a stereotypical 'yandere' villain who was supposedly in love with the author's self insert out of nowhere, and completely eradicated her previous goal that she had been fighting for the entire comic- quirkless equality- and made her the leader of a secret quirkless society that was planning to... genocide quirked people, or something. nobody knows, their goal changed like every 5 minutes, and honestly nobody cares. even worse, the author decided that her quirk was no longer hers, and that it was infact stolen and Elísabet willingly chose to hold it (which completely went against her sudden ideology change to one of "all quirks are evil", but again, nobody gave a shit at this point) and that it was stolen from the author's self insert's dead girlfriend (???) who was never mentioned before this point despite supposedly being a pro hero (?????) and that part of her spirit (???????) still remained and that was why Elísabet was 'good' the whole time (?!?!?!?!) because it wasnt her it was this random fridged side character, or something.

AHJ fans do not talk about chapter 367. in fact, any 'fans' dont consider anything past 334 to be canon, but they ESPECIALLY dont talk about 367.

so, yes. kaif's three hour long well constructed rant about how his blorbo was done dirty is exceedingly popular.

he goes to bed, happy.

the next day he gets hit by a truck, because god forbid he has anything nice.

he wakes up in an apartment not his own, his appearance noticably different. since when has he had white streaks in his hair? and did he get younger?

after some incredible deduction and investigation skills (he opens his new wallet) he discovers he has been reincarnated. into Aspiring Hero's Journal. and not just as any character, no- he was reincarnated as the quirkless friend of the main villain, Sam Broulder, who's entire purpose is to be accidentally yet brutally slaughtered when the main villain violently awakens to his quirk several years late.

great.

anyway, kaif absolutely hauls ass upon realising he's got two weeks until sam's traumatic quirk awakening, putting in as many contingencies as possible and researching the world around him. he knows almost everything about what the canon timeline should be, after all.

after getting several things in order (such as why the fuck does this random unemployed guy that i now am have so much money) he decides to go out shopping to pick some stuff up for sam. after all, the entire reason sam's quirk causes him to go haywire in the beginning is that it turns him into a hemovore, requiring blood to survive. whilst sam's quirk, Maw, is the only hemovoric quirk mentioned in the webcomic, it takes him 5 seconds to realise that this is not the case in the actual world. so, he heads off to an out of the way butchers shop that is willing to sell animal blood to people who need it.

on his way there, he notices a commotion in an alleyway. nobody is paying attention to the man accosting the woman in the shadows, so nobody pays attention when kaif walks up, calmly places his bag down beside him, and decks the man in the face so hard he shatters his nose. after all, kaif can only get charged for vigilantism if he uses his quirk. bit hard to do that when he doesnt have one.

kaif leaves before seeing her face.

its only the next day when he wakes up in a panic does he realise that despite it all he managed to fucking miss something.

yesterday was the day that Elísabet Morgenstern was supposed to awaken her quirk.

frantically, he looks at the news, only to find no report on the massive explosion that should have gone off. all he can find is a report about a 'quirk accident' in a convenience store, which killed one would-be robber, injured another, and severely injured its user, who is now in a critical but stable condition thanks to the many healing quirks now availible. this- this isn't right, is it? he ends up resigning to the fact that the dates provided in the webnovel are not accurate to the ones in this reality, and promptly makes plans so that he never has to go into the district Elísabet will eventually wipe off the map in her debut as the villain Entropy.

he moves on, unsettled.

the next few days are fine. kaif has to piece together the memories of his predecessor- who he's come to simply call langley, as that was his last name- by himself, as he didn't start out with full access to them. he discovers a lot of things about the world. public transport is god's gift to the earth, unless there's a fight on your route. quirks have allowed for the creation of several interesting yet concerning new foods and drinks. he is out of the loop for so many pop culture references it's not funny. his best friend and roommate, sam broulder (who will NOT become the villain Nyarlathotep if he has anything to say about it- he doesn't deserve that fate) is a vegetarian, which is darkly ironic considering he's about to become a budget vampire, and in the original webcomic he became a rampant, unhinged cannibal.

the supposed 'secret evil quirkless society' from the webnovel is actually a quirkless and villain quirk support group that was named as a group of interest by the police due to belief that it is connected to several different instances of vigilantism.

kaif also finds out that he runs a quirkless and villain quirk support group which is definitely involved in a metric fuckton of vigilantism.

he does not panic. nope. not at all. he just calmly marks it down as a future kaif problem, and leaves his apartment, as today is the day he's meant to die.

he can worry about the potential quirkless mafia he's accidentally formed if he lives the night, thank you very much.

he goes to a hotel he's booked under a false name, before heading to the rooftop, bag full of everything he'll need for the day.

he spends a lot of time up there, and eventually it becomes night.

the door to the roof opens, and he freezes- only to hear someone gasp. he turns around and pauses, realising he recognises this person. it's the woman from a week and a bit ago. fun.

she comes and sits down next to him, smiling wide, and his heart stops because oh my fucking god that's Elísabet Morgenstern. oh my god. oh my god thats my favourite character. she seems injured, bandages still visibly peeking out from underneath her hoodie, eyes sunken and cheeks hollow, but still incredibly happy.

as he's trying not to panic, Elísabet thanks him quite openly for the other day, excitedly exclaiming that she FINALLY managed to get a restraining order against that bastard. he relaxes a little bit, and then tries very hard not to laugh (and fails) when Elísabet drops his name- it was the author's shitty self insert character.

she gets a little confused, asks why he laughed, and he accidentally lets slip that he runs an online quirkless support group and that he saw the name mentioned there. and then Elísabet starts crying because apparently she DID ask for help on his group, and the memory randomly comes back to him as she says this. bit of a cry, kaif comforts her.

then Elísabet casually drops that she's no longer quirkless and kaif is like WHAT since yknow, event horizon is supposed to destroy an entire district, but it turns out that was only due to stress, and kaif punching the self insert inadvertently prevented her original horrific awakening from ever happening. Elísabet also admits that she's going to that one university for heroes, and that originally it was just for quirk therapy but she ended up passing the entrance test with flying colours and now she's going to become a hero. kaif is understandably insanely proud of her, even if they've only just met.

they chat for a little bit, and Elísabet admits that her hero name is going to be Seraph. she also then tells kaif to just call her Ebbz because "thats what my friends call me" whilst she gives him her number, and he is too horrified by the fact that her nickname was never revealed in the webcomic, implying either she felt she never had any friends or she had so much of her personality destroyed by her first time as Entropy that she ended up leaving that part of her life behind that in true kaif fashion, he does not realise that she is flirting with him, and that the 'meeting' she wants to organise is very much a date.

don't worry! he realises exactly three days later when he wakes up in a cold sweat on the couch, loudly blurting "oh my god she was hitting on me" and causing his roommate sam to burst into laughter.

unfortunately for the both of them, sam's new quirk Maw which he is only just learning to control allows him to alter a lot of his body parts, but usually defaults to creating extra mouths in places (mainly a big one on his stomach) when he's not looking. sam can, in fact, use these mouths like normal mouths, and talk from them.

sam's startled kettle laugh ends up being so loud they get seven noise complaints.

[r0ttingsystem]

Frozen grapes stopped my suicidal urges

[coopers-pup-blog]

Messenger’s Rest

—a soft caregiver!Hermes drabble inspired by Epic: The Musical—

by me !! hope u enjoy reading

(this is all platonic btw, and all terms are gender neutral [imo] /srs)

You’re curled in on yourself again. Small. Quiet. Too many thoughts crowding your mind, like ink spilled across a page. But even in the haze, you feel it—

That hush of wind.

That shimmer of light.

That voice.

“There you are, little star.”

It’s him.

Hermes.

His tone is gentle, musical in that way only he can pull off—like poetry wrapped in velvet. He doesn’t make you speak. Just kneels beside you on the floor where you’ve nestled yourself in blankets and half-stuffed pillows. His presence is like the breeze before a summer storm—charged, alive, but careful not to shake the branches too hard.

“Thought I might find you here,” he says, brushing a knuckle against your cheek with feather-light care. “Tucked away like a verse I haven’t finished reading yet.”

You don’t answer, but you nuzzle into the touch. That’s all he needs.

Without a word, he folds himself beside you. His coat pools around the both of you, and a wing—not just metaphor now, real and warm—wraps around your back like a weighted blanket made of stardust. You hear the faint jingle of the golden chain at his neck as he moves.

"Your mind's been running sprints again, hasn't it, lovebug?" His words are soft, teasing only at the edges. “Always trying to outrun feelings instead of letting me carry a few.”

You sniffle. Shrug. Maybe.

Hermes hums, the sound low and soothing, like the first few lines of a lullaby. He reaches into his satchel and pulls out your favorite plushie—how does he always know?—and your sippy, filled with something cool and fruity.

“There we go. Hydration and hugs. Doctor’s orders,” he grins, pressing the cup into your hands and guiding it gently to your lips. “Can’t deliver sweet dreams on an empty tummy.”

You drink slowly, eyes flicking up to his. There’s no rush there, no pressure. Just patience. Just love.

“You don’t have to be big right now,” he murmurs. “Not with me. You can be soft. You can be quiet. I’ll speak loud enough for both of us, if you need.”

He pulls you into his arms fully then, your head resting on his shoulder, the beat of his heart steady beneath your cheek. He rocks you gently, back and forth like a metronome, voice a whisper meant only for you.

“I’m your messenger, sweet pea. And I’ve got a note from the universe just for you:

You’re safe. You’re loved. You’re not alone.

Not ever. Not while I’m here.”

And with his warmth around you and his words holding you close, you start to believe it.

[scorpioriesling]

On The Sand (H.C.)

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Pairing(s): Lucien x reader

Warning(s): none

Summary: A set of headcannons pertaining to a sweet beach day with your mate, Lucien.

SR’s Note: This turned out so cute! I'm grateful for the request, and @hardcoremarvelfan 's patience! It was a sweet little break from all the smut I've been writing lately, LOL. Between all of the requests I've been recieving (thank you for all of them, btw) and Kinktober prep... well, you get the gist. I hope you enjoy! This uses prompts #32, #43, and #60 from my prompt request masterlist. xoxo

Tags: @mellowmusings @rcarbo1 @lilah-asteria @kitsunetori @velarisdusk @nctsawrus (inbox me or comment if you'd like to be added!)

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You always woke up much earlier than Lucien, and normally you'd let him sleep in

Well, not today

He would be such a baby about being woken up early too, whining and grumbling in his morning voice

You'd run your fingers through his hair, scratching lightly at his scalp while he nuzzled his face against you

"Mmm... baby. I'm never letting you leave this bed again."

Your heart warmed at his words as he wound his muscular arms around you, holding you close

He would breathe deep, trying to fall back asleep before you'd squirm in his grasp

"Baby, c'mon we have to wake up -- we have a beach date today, right?"

He'd squint his eyes open, a soft smile tugging on his lips as he grinned up at you

"Oh right... how could I forget?"

You'd wiggle out of his arms, untangling the sheets before sliding out of bed

He'd groan behind you, stretching out his arms and yawning before rubbing a hand over his face

When he opened his eyes fully, he chuckled

"Is that my shirt?"

You tossed him a look over your shoulder, and twirled around in it once

"It's... comfy," you'd admit

He would only smile at you. "Looks much better on you, anyway my love."

The two of you would wear matching yellow suits, of course. Lucien pretended like he wasn't a fan, but the way his gaze kept drifting to the small string top you wore...

"I'll pack the picnic basket," you'd suggest

He of course, would help by packing the essentials; white wine, cheese, crackers, fruit, water

He'd also carry the basket -- first out to the car, then to the beach. Along with the umbrellas, the towels, the picnic blanket...

He truly believed you should never lift a finger

"Here is good!" You'd suggest, and help your mate unload all the supplies

You'd set out the blanket and basket, taking out the wine and glasses

You couldn't help where your gaze drifted, right up to your mate's strong legs, over the yellow trunks, up to his V line and then over his abs...

"Enjoying the view, dear?"

He always knew how to make you giggle

What was never funny though, was persuading him to wear sunscreen

"Lucien, everyone should wear it -- trust me. You won't want to be burnt and miserable in the morning."

"Would you take care of me if I was?"

That earned him an eyeroll

You spent the day chatting, eating, and sharing wine below the warm summer sun

After a while, Lucien took up surfing -- you watched as his board cut through the water, gliding across the wavetops

His muscles flexed with every action, and you allowed all the warmth you had to flow down the bond

It wasn't long before he was running up the beach, tossing down his board in favor of holding you instead

"Let's go look for shells!"

You were always happy to oblige

You'd found a few pretty ones, handing them to your mate to hold while you continued your search

As the sun set, he'd pick you up bridal style, twirling you around and kissing all over your sun-warmed cheeks

You laughed, full and loud as he set you down

The setting sun cast a orange glow around him, and you smiled up at him

"Why are you looking at me like that?"

You grinned, pressing up onto your toes and kissing him at once

"I just love you, that's all."

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[stardynamite]

who is your favorite turtle. this will influence if I develop a major crush on you or not/j/srs

Anyway do I pass your test? *blinks cutely* have you developed a major crush on me yet? *blinks even cuter*

Btw that was a fully genuine attempt at drawing raph 😭

[t1oui]

tastastastassss please would you share some percy weasley headcanons or thoughts about him in general

(just remembered he and oliver wood were in the same year and thus dorm... and percy gives me Massive twink energy, like a less dramatic francis abernathy)

HI YES i will indeed do this

so yeah in canon percy and oliver shared a dorm but in my mind there is no way percy weasley isn't in slytherin so my percy shares a dorm w marcus flint instead. anyways here are some headcanons

he's very bisexual and yes definitely a twink

he's also tall. probably one of if not the tallest guys in his year

good poker face but this man is a huge simp. for christmas, valentine's day, oliver's birthday, etc. he always panics on what to buy and gets oliver like 40 things including like 8 bouquets of flowers lol

penelope clearwater and marcus flint are his best friends other than oliver !! these four are chaotic. marauders vibes but they don't get caught

definitely a bit of a drama queen, but he hates when people (marcus) point it out b/c he does not see himself that way.

studies too hard for his own good and still has time for quidditch somehow (he's only playing to beat fred and george. he's a chaser btw)

actually very sensitive. like he will be stoic until something inconveniences him and then he will SOB

hates himself a little bit (sometimes a lot) because he's so different from his family

insecure about his freckles

takes younger slytherin students (like draco malfoy) under his wing because he knows what it's like to be part of the house everybody hates

fully despises dumbledore

always the first to notice when something's wrong (quirrell being sus, something being wrong with "moody"/crouch sr, etc) but alwasy the last person adults listen to

has been best friends with ginny since she was a little kid

does more for his siblings than they realize. cares about them so much, and his heart breaks every time they choose to fight with him or tease him instead of seeing how fucked up it is that he was shunned for being different

was almost put in gryffindor/is in gryffindor because he's extremely brave

was put in slytherin/almost put in slytherin because he will do anything for those he cares about, even if it's considered morally wrong

has and will use unforgivables; they're just spells to him, they're not anything scary or different

patronus is a crow

animagius form (i told you he and his friends were like the marauders lol) is a cat

if he notices two people pining for each other he will do everything in his power to make them date because he's quite the romantic. oliver helps.

has trained himself not to blush because he's so pale he just turns into a beet if he blushes at all (his friends, oliver especially, still make him go red occasionally)

cut off contact with arthur and molly for a little while after the war and was only really talking to ginny, occasionally charlie and bill

becomes head of the dmle

starts a petition after the war to get the atrium statue at the ministry - which shows a bunch of non-wizard creatures looking up to wizards like they're the superior beings - taken down. he does not shut up about this project until the statue is replaced, he hates it so much

that's all for now !! but feel free to send me more asks, ty for this one :)

[xx-k4nd1-1n-cyb3rsp4c3-xx]

Your opinions on tone indicators can be a sign you have some internalised ableism to process. /srs

If you follow me you might have seen I was part of a reblog chain where I was calling out what I believe to be internalised ableism against autistic people, from someone who's also autistic, who's blog I used to follow. I'm going to delete it I think, because the conversation didn't go anywhere. I'm going to include screenshots here, as a jumping off point for an issue I've noticed ever since the popularisation of tone indicators.

If you don't know, these are tone indicators:

They're a system for conveying tone through text, you add them to the end of your sentence to show how you meant it to come across.

They're 99% used online, and mostly by neurodivergent people. This has made them gain a reputation for being "chronically online cringe." This is cringe culture. This is "this is bad because it's weird." Unfortunately, things can often become "cringe" due to their association with marginalised people, and I don't think this is an exception. I fully believe tone indicators are only as hated as they are because of their association with neurodivergence. And as autistic people we are often primed to play into this! An autistic person is almost more likely to fall into this mindset because of not wanting to be "one of THOSE autistic people." Marginalised people often fall into the trap of finding a "lesser" kind of person to feel superior to, the same way their oppressors feel about them, as a source of validation.

So if you're reading this post as a neurodivergent person, I want you to question what any negative feelings you have about tone indicators might say about how you view other autistic people, most likely people with higher support needs to you or with different needs to you.

Before we get into the screenshots I want to talk about, I want to go through a small list of valid criticisms of tone indicators:

"They're overly complicated!" Yes, they kind of are. You can probably find an infinite amount of them. You can make up your own. Keeping track of what all of them mean can be difficult.

"I don't want to memorise what they all mean!" Completely fair. Especially when you have memory issues or a learning disability. But if you're just not bothered, that's fine too. What I will say, is that you've likely already learned so much internet slang and abbreviations and acronyms that this really isn't any different. I'd watch out for ableism in the fact that you might've learned what things like "TTYL," "BTW" or "LMAO" mean, and likely know hundreds more similar examples, but you aren't willing to learn what these abbreviations mean. I'd just question why if I were you.

"They're ineffective!" Yes. Many people are not familiar with this system. It's relatively niche. What good is it to a neurodivergent person if someone's using a tone indication system they're completely unfamiliar with? Miscommunication will happen regardless if that's the case.

"The abbreviations already mean something else!" True. This can be confusing. But it's usually clear from context what they mean. Sometimes context is hard for people, so I completely get this as a reason for you not to like or use them. But it's still very much possible to grasp that "nm I found it!" means "never mind I found it" and "could you please pick up your laundry from the floor? /nm" is the "not mad" tone indicator.

"There are better systems!" There are! Some people just don't abbreviate the tags. Some people like the parentheses system (tumblr meme). Some people just elaborate with more context. I personally favour tone indicators because they're just faster to type.

Now for some screenshots. I am censoring URLs for a reason. Do not seek out anyone involved to harass them. Sending a random internet user hate mail for disagreeing with you will never be productive. I do not condone harassment. This is not a personal attack on anyone involved.

this is the original post. I responded to. Here's my response.

I definitely think I could have worded this better. This was very in the heat of the moment. I assumed this person was not autistic themselves since I wanted to give them the benefit of the doubt and assume ignorance over malice. I couldn't quite believe "you really need to work on yourself" could be a response from an autistic person to a common symptom of our condition: not understanding sarcasm or tone in general.

I didn't think I had to explain why this is ableist. But as the reblog chain played out they refused to acknowledge this at all, and that was very disappointing to me. I think it highlights a wider trend of lower support needs autistic people often minimising the struggles of higher support needs autistic people because they don't experience those struggles themselves. Autism is such a broad spectrum. There are autistic experiences you will never understand. You have to accept that there are people like you who's lives you will never be able to relate to, even when they have the same diagnosis (including self diagnosis) as you. In a way, it's understandable, because neurotypicals often use the caricature of a higher support needs autistic person to bully us. But you have to realise, those people actually exist. People who are non verbal exist. People with extreme sensory issues exist. People overwhelmingly hyperfixated on weird or disturbing things exist. People who cannot socially interact normally exist. People who's stims are "embarrassing" exist. For every stereotypical autistic person you can think of, however malicious the caricature is, there is a real person out there who has similar traits and faces struggles you have never known because of it. So to you, "not understanding sarcasm" is a harmful autistic stereotype, which it can be, but many many autistic people face this real struggle. I get it, you've spent your whole life running from this stereotype, but you can't throw the people who actually have that struggle under the bus for your own validation.

The next reply and my response. I will repeat, being autistic yourself does not make you immune to being ableist.

now this is where this conversation stopped having any hope of being productive. You can personally find this system infantilising. Those are valid feelings, and a valid reason to not like or use this system for yourself. But nowhere did I ever demand people to use this system. Especially not in this reblog chain. You would have to really dig and cherry pick to find examples of people demanding everyone to adopt this system, I won't say they don't exist because they do, but they're by far not the majority of tone indicator users, and they're not an excuse to talk about them with ableist language.

What I find really insensitive here, is the comparison of people who like tone indicators to dogs... blatant dehumanisation of autistic people, BY AN AUTISTIC PERSON. I refuse to accept that this is OK, that this is not ableist. If that's how they personally make you feel, that's valid, but this is being said in a discussion about how calling them useless and unnecessary as a whole is not OK! How do you expect other autistic people who use tone indicators to feel upon reading that?!

And lastly... I believe this last point is comparable to victim blaming. As I said in my response, we all have a story about how we asked a genuine question with no malice and had a neurotypical blow up at us for being rude. Why do you think we wouldn't want to start asking questions to clarify?! Like no, I'm not saying you shouldn't advocate for yourself, I'm saying starting fights over miscommunications constantly in your everyday life is exhausting and not worth it! This can be traumatising, or retrigger old trauma. I don't like this implication that if an autistic person doesn't understand something and doesn't ask for a clarification, whatever happens after is their fault and they don't deserve grace for it, when we literally all have a story of asking the wrong question at the wrong time and getting treated horribly for it. Is it really so bad for us to just want systems to avoid the misunderstanding in the first place rather than having to constantly go through this anxiety inducing experience of asking for clarification and not knowing if this is going to spark some kind of huge conflict?

I want to go through an ask this person received after this interaction.

I'm not a helpless permanent victim. I'm using tools that make my life easier. What about anything I've said suggests that? And sometimes, believe it or not, people are victims of ableism. Yeah, it hurts to be reduced to that. I hate it too. But denial isn't going to help. Especially not for higher support needs autistic people who have it way worse than we do. You growing up autistic in the 90s is not an excuse for holding on to the ableism for higher support needs autistic people that was so prevelent at that time.

I think these replies from someone else really get to the heart of it.

Acknowledging that you are disabled and that you have different needs to most people is not infantilising. Me finding tone indicators helpful is not infantilising myself. I think this just reveals that you view higher supports needs autistic people through an infantalised lens.

I really really just want to encourage everyone to find understanding for the disabled people who aren't like you. To not use your own issues as an excuse to turn your self hatred onto us. I am not an animal or a self imposed helpless victim because I choose to acknowledge my disability and find tools to manage it, even when those aren't the right tools for you. ESPECIALLY if you're lower support needs, I want you to genuinely have a think about whether or not your feelings around tone indicators show you have deeper issues to address about how you view other autistic people. For some reason this is what snags most people's internalised ableism and gets them to make unhinged comments like these when normally they are decent people who view other autistic people with compassion.

[fadeling]

i’m obsessed with petra btw. i’m so curious about her and her mom after your last post what’s the deal with her mom

🥺 THANK YOU *EXPLODES*

I never named Petra's parents properly because I'm lazy but I do have some lore for them yay

Petra's mother was a saarebas under the Qun, before her magic emerged she was basically on the path towards working in agriculture. She actually did love that, especially plants, but shit happens sometimes. :( It definitely sucked but as someone living under that philosophy, she put a lot of effort into getting herself to be not entirely miserable about it. I think she even went unscathed for a long time, up until the moment someone decided her passive interest in herbs and asking so many questions about it when her controller doesn't need it is weird. Could be dangerous. For that crime it was decided she should no longer be allowed to speak. She's also extremely talented and very clever so that contributed to the decision

And as if things couldn't get any worse, her arvaarad ends up dissenting which is extremely annoying because his reasons to do that are definitely worse than hers. he has her control rod though so there's not a whole lot she can do about it. At that point she could only fully devote herself to the Qun in order to not be completely emotionally destroyed (even though it hurt her) and now she doesn't even get to have that either. 😔 her controller groups up with some other tal-vashoth along the wounded coast, and they kind of like having them because she's frankly cracked as a weapon. Actually this spurs in-fighting because some of them think they deserve to be the ones to own her -- it just doesn't really matter who does because in the end she's completely dehumanized by them. Considering where they came from, that's normal.

There was guy in their group, apparently a mason in the past which is weird to see among soldiers. He's kind of the odd one out because he wants to build homes to live in, but they let him stick around because he has a big hammer. She sees herself in him a little bit, and she's extremely fucking desperate so she attempts to secretly communicate with him via a developed sign language. Scares the fuck out of him at first but eventually their relationship and understanding of each other progress, and they become friends :^) one night he slaughters the keeper of her rod in his sleep and destroys it forever yay <3 and she obliterates everyone else ☺️

he built her a small farm that she protects pretty severely. Despite what she's been through she stays silly; safe within her family unit she's a huge gossip and likes to tease and nag the man who named their child after a stone because that was the best name he could come up with. Petra is absolutely not safe from this either, her mom definitely has a list of affectionate (but humiliating) nicknames she uses for her instead of her actual name most of the time. She also kinda gives off morticia Addams vibes? (Petra's dad is not very gomez though. I don't know what he is. he's kind of #srs)

[starry-sophrosyne]

Started stressing out abt this idea when I read through crashing's and eldette's reblog of my reblog of pen's post (GO READ IT IF YOU HAVEN'T BTW /srs HERES THE LINK.) so I'm gonna make this post for my own sake; and yes, even though it was so long ago, it's never left my mind.

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I'm also gonna put this under a cut, despite my original plan not to, bc I've seen everyone sharing the same ideas about this whole "we might get found out" notion. However, this still is a conception abt/for myself that I sincerely want people to see and understand/to talk abt, even it's not directly related to the "rpf community exposure" itself, so yeah. While this post is definitely unnecessarily long, esp considering how long it's been since the incident that prompted me to write this, I still think it's worth posting; Especially considering the fact that I don't think the "rpf-community-exposure-situation" will get better from here. Either way, thank you guys for understanding and reading. /srs /gen

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I've been pretty scared to reveal my really negative side within this community just bc of how I try to come off as/get perceived - i.e. the reason I use emoticons - so I haven't ever really fully crashed out in a post like I did previously. Even seeing Eldette's and Crashing's reblogs, they definitely put it a lot nicer than I did, which is fair and also credit to how probably they are irl; It's just that I think I'm very different regarding which parts of myself I expose to others, and you guys in particular, especially regarding my anger. I'm not going to edit that post because I think it's the blunt truth in the most unapologetic way possible, which is truthfully the way I am, but I hope that you guys understand that my negativity in those kinds of posts is not the same personality i have when I go about posting my regular things about the guys n stuff :_)

For that matter, I hope y'all don't see me differently or have a warped/changed view on personality/character. What I mean by this is that I'm hoping you all still like me despite seeing the bad parts of me. However, it's also something that's unavoidable, for people to not like you once they get to know the more uglier sides of you; So I guess what I want you guys to do more than genuinely like me is, that regardless of what y'all think now, you guys are all honest with me and yourself. If you don't wanna see "those" posts of mine bc they're a little extreme for you, but you wanna continue interacting with my other posts, that's fine, please do! I don't plan to post those seriously negative posts frequently at all. However, if you really find yourself really uncomfortable by those posts, esp knowing that I might slip up into that sort of personality in the future, please feel free to block me. I've blocked some pc crit blogs that I really wanted to see certain posts of theirs, but I couldn't stand seeing other posts they made, so I made a decision that was better for the both of us in the end, because I knew it wouldn't be worth it to continue interacting with them if that was how I truly felt. Either way, I won't take it personally if you do the same at all, because the truth is, if you don't like me, you just don't. Nothing I'm gonna do to try and change that, because more often than not, it's something that can't be helped. So uhh.. yeah- :,)

TLDR: If me crashing out in posts like this makes you uncomfortable, feel free to stop interacting; I won't be like that often but I do plan to let my true personality show a little more, hope you all still accept me despite what may be a very unnecessary fear of mine :)

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This is a side tangent that was written after the initial post was drafted, it's more relevant to clearing up my identity and the differences between me, my personas and my self-inserts in aus. It's too complicated to be TL:DR'ed, however, so read at your own will; it's not as important for ppl to fully understand either as the previous point, but extremely important to me and my definitions. /gen /srs.

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I've decided to label this alternate emotional state of mine (serious & comes out when talking about stuff regarding the pc rpf community, mainly as a whole/regarding the incidents that have and will continue to happen) as Rosyne, but not in relation to the april fools joke I did as "Rosyne". The personality of that "Rosyne" while blogging is more or less the personality of "Rosyne" as a character, rather than myself or my persona that's changed in regards to my self insert. I know that's all super confusing so let's just clarify:

Starry and Rosyne, by themselves, are just me; both part of my identity. Rosyne is my personality when I’m addressing serious stuff. Starry is my personality when I’m posting about anything else, aka my neutral state, and is (therefore) the name I go by on this blog. Starry and Rosyne, as self inserts, are representations of myself within fics/aus. They might have jobs/roles that are entirely inaccurate regarding my actual jobs/roles (or personal interests) irl, but they only have these in order to fit the narrative. Starry and Rosyne, as self inserts, are also two entirely different individuals, as it makes more sense than one person with two different identities. Either way though, they are supposed* to be genuine representations of myself, through and through. Starry and Rosyne, as general personas, however, are the designs of my identities; They still represent me, only giving me the ability to alter my appearance in a way I can't irl. However and more importantly, they also connect my self-inserts in aus to my identity, as they are the base design/reference for the self-inserts' appearances (which change depending on the au). I do have my general persona designs for both Rosyne and Starry, along with several self-inserts designs for diff fic aus, I just haven't posted them yet.

*This is where I've found this issue of some sorts. You see, I feel as if I've started to turn Starry and Rosyne into actual characters rather than my self-inserts within my writings about aus/fics. Especially Rosyne, although to a reasonable fault, as it's hard to characterize the part of you that only talks abt the actual pc rpf community issues. Either way, the writer side of me has become so obsessed with making them narratively-fleshed out that they don't really feel like direct representations of myself anymore; They feel more like ocs whose experiences & preferences are heavily influenced by the ones I have irl, and whose names are related to me, but they're unrealistic to what a direct 1-1 self insert/representation of myself would be.

I still plan to write about them, especially in regards to this post, but not only are "the-things-they've-experienced" not accurate to the things I've actually experienced irl, but they are also a bit more dramatized in general just for the sake of narrative/creative writing. Not to say that"the-things-they've-experienced" aren't influenced by my own personal experiences, of course. After all, aren't all of our ocs reflections of ourselves/our irl journeys/stories? Just expect me to continue anxiety tagging "dont-take-this-too-seriously!-(´ ᗣ ` )՞" in all my upcoming posts/drabbles about my TTOS "personas"-

[thecatspasta]

I'll bite, I'm needing a new anime to binge and berserk has been one I've heard the name of a lot over the years, so an infodump on it will be fun /gen

*NECK TWIST*

Kicks legs ok so the basics is like. Dark fantasy horror kinda thing set in 1500s europe (smth like that) where a guy called Guts goes around beating the shit out of bad ppl and then gets found family situation with the yoda elf, his ex, a religious sadist, her brother, a child witch and this random kid they picked off the streets and he does this all while god personally wants to spite him EXCEPT thats the most basic explanation I can give BC DEAR FUCKING LORD IS THIS THING COMPLEX

Under the cut is the infodump with spoilers up to the eclipse cuz I dont wanna spoil that

Major CSA tw, also self harm btw

Ok my very very shitty explanation was of arcs 3-5 we are talking arcs 1-2 cuz those are what I like most (literally just arc 2 ily golden age)

SO black swordsman arc is where we start opening page is monster fucking/srs. Everyone agrees its just to prepare you for what comes next LMFAO anyways guts kills the other guy (they were a demon) and then travels to a tavern where we meet puck (yoda elf) whos imprisoned cuz hes an elf. Guts kills some guys cuz hell yea and shows he is EXTREMELY touch averse when puck tries to heal him

Smth smth he beats the shit out of a snake dude, goes to sleep and gets harassed by an evil fetus cuz of smth called the brand of sacrifice, then goes to the mayor of the town and beats the shit out of that guy too. Except the mayor is nonhuman and all of the commotion summoned the 5 Godhands who are basically gods. And the mayor is given a choice, sacrifice his daughter and become fully nonhuman and powerful or die and join the rest of the souls in hell

The godhands pretty much ignore guts on the floor except for Femto whos like 'Hiii pookie' and guts is just yelling 'KYS' while writhing in pain bc of his brand of sacrifice (starts hurting around demons, but with godhands it causes sm pain he can genuinely die from it). Femtos just kicking his legs and giggling

ANYWAYS. Smth smth the mayor chooses not to sacrifice his daughter and gets sent to hell and the godhands fuck off. WOO black swordsman arc end now we get guts backstory trauma YAY

SO basically he was doomed from his start cuz when he was born his mom immediately killed herself and he was adopted by someone called Shizu who was like. In the army in some way? So hes been apart of that since he could lift a sword pretty much. Anyways she died when he was 3 and he was then taken in by gambino who I hate so very much. When he was 6 he started military training where he was abused by gambino for being a 'curse that killed shizu' and was sent into battle at age 9

And here is the CSA tw so um. Gambino sucks and sold him to this random ass man called donnovan who rapes this 9yo. Fuck both of them, but the day after they go into battle again and guts kills donnovan the very next day cuz fuck yes. That same battle Gambino loses his leg and has to retire. Guts is still attached to Gambino cuz like. Hes sorta a paternal figure to him and stuff but gambino could nawt give less of a shit abt Guts

One day he gets drunk and tries to murder guts but guts gets him first after discovering that donnovan wasnt lying and Gambino did indeed sell him!! Anyways guts kills him first, accidentally sets the camp on fire and gets shot trying to escape. But its ok he lives yay joy!!

2yrs later Guts is taking money to kill ppl cuz theres a war and one time when he was wandering after a successful battle he gets jumped by 3 guys who were traveling in a group of six (named casca, griffith, judeau, corkus and 2 others), he kills one and heavily wounds the other before the 3rd (corkus) runs off. Griffith, the leader of the group sends Casca to deal with Guts and then steps in himself right before guts kills Casca. Guts collapses from exhaustion and Griffith picks him up and takes him back to the camp

NOTE. EVERYONE IS 15. I did not realize this on first read thru, but they are all the same age

Anyways guts wakes up in the camp of the Band of Hawks, which is a mercenary group run by griffith. Casca hates him and doesnt understand why griffith took him back. Guts is just like 'Ok and' and then griffith is like 'Hey come with me pls :]'. They go to a hill and Griffith immediately says 'I want you guts' and guts calls him gay in response. /Srs its great. They then have a sword fight, if guts wins he can go and never think abt this again, if griffith wins guts has to join the band of hawk

Griffith gets the upper hand before Guts bites his fucking sword and sends them both rolling down a hill. It ends with Griffith dislocating Guts shoulder the fucking freak and now. Guts has to stay with the band of hawk. After this theyre just chilling, griff decides to start a water fight with guts where they just hurl buckets of water at eachother and it ends with griff having a bucket on his head. But its also where Guts notices this fun lil egg shaped necklace griffith has. And griffs like OH YEA this is a behelit Ive had it for ages. Basically brings good fortune :]. And guts is like THAT THING IS CREEPY AS FUCK I SWEAR ITS ALIVE

ANOTHER TIMESKIP theyre 17 now and doing a lot of battles. Casca still has beef with guts but its worse cuz Griffith keeps letting Guts do wtv tf he wants and Cascas just like ??? TAHTS NOT HOW IT WORKS??? They get hired by the king of the midlands (the main ruling force) and Griff gets a bunch of ppl simping for him. Its super funny cuz everytime someones like omg hes so hot would griffs just like :] and Im like Im so sry but that is a gay man

Anyways a bunch of ppl fucking hate griffith cuz the princess, charlotte, has a crush on him. Also he just gets a lot of praise and credit so the queen and this duke are like yea fuck this bitch and tries to kill him twice!! 1st with a poisoned arrow, 2nd with a poisoned drink. The 1st was stopped bc that lil behelit thing prevented griffith from being pierced by the arrow and the 2nd he was just very on edge so just. Faked being poisoned (iirc i havent reread in a bit)

Griffs like. Ah! Fuck! He then gets guts, shows him porn and tells him to kill the duke. Guts is like oh yea sure and does. But also kills the dukes son cuz he didnt see that the kid was there. Thats... one portion of the royal family gone. After that griffith sets fire to the queen and everyone she was working with with the help of griffith. Joy!!! The timeline may be off but thats the jist of it

CSA TW again. Anyways fun stuff happens and everyones off to battle again. Except shit goes wrong and Casca and Guts get thrown off a cliff. They find a cave to hide out in and just kinda have a bonding moment where guts is like 'Oh my god why the fuck are you on your period' and casca is like OK FUCK YOU also do you want my trauma :] and guts is like ya sure. So basically when casca was like 9-12 I cant remember she got sold off to just be someones slave and stuff but they stopped on the road for a bit and try to rape her but griffith comes in and kills the ppl before they can. Cascas like OMG!!! This is so banger can I join you and griffs like ya sure. Guts is like ah cool and then Cascas like hey did you know griffiths traumatized and guts is like. WHAT. So turns out. A lil while into knowing eachother and growing the band of hawks they come across this baron who has a bunch of child sex slaves and theyre made to work for him. Nobody likes this but they need the money. They lose a few ppl in the fight and this sorta sets griff off cuz hes like fuck were progressing too slowly. So. Child prostitution! That is implied to have happened more than once!! Casca finds him one time right before he gets raped and then confronts him the next day. Hes like 'Yea no this was fine and I needed to do it' and cascas like NO THE FUCK ITS NOT. Other things abt this scene is he FULLY ASKS HER IF SHE THINKS HES DIRTY AND THEN SELFHARMS SO BADLY. That scene fucks me up so bad man

Anyways guts is like. Holy shit. And then Cascas like 'Oh yea our next battle is against griffs rapist so be careful with him' and Guts is like :thumbs up:. So they go get this guy they win, but the baron recognizes griff and is like 'Hey nobody kill that guy I want him back' (griffith is 17 btw). This fails and griffith murders him bc fuck yes

After they head back guts overhears a convo between griffith and charlotte abt the fact that griffith Does Not Give A Shit Abt Anyone In The Band Of Hawks. Which is true for everyone EXCEPT guts. Im rly skipping over how gay these 2 are but like. Guts is my aroace king and griffith is. Hopelessly in love with him its kinda insane. Like holyyyy shit. This causes guts to go 'Hey I needa go off so I can prove that Im someone griffith cares abt' and then he does

Griffith. Does not take this well. He first tries to fight guts to get him to stay similar to their first meeting, but loses. So obviously he goes to find charlotte, fucks her while thinking abt Guts and immediately self harms after bc he will only have sex with ppl when he wants to punish himself and feel in control. Hes fascinating. Anyways her dad finds out and imprisons him where hes tortured for a year. Wow. Funtimes

Eventually Guts comes back to the band of hawk to find griffith gone and Casca in charge. Cascas like ok heres everything thats happened also were working with Charlotte to get griffith back. Guts helps and they go get him! Griffith is doing absolute dogshit!! Wow!! He doesnt even have the behelit anymore cuz that got taken off him. His torture was insane he cant speak and he had his tendons cut so he can barely move. Guts and the gang manage to get him out YAY and then they head back, fight a monkey and then Griffith overhears casca telling guts its not good for him to stay with the band of hawk and guts is like yeaaa I kinda wanna go too. So he manages to ignore the torture done to him, and run off to a river with a spear in it to try kill himself. He almost succeeds but hes too weak and instead finds the behelit again. And then the band of hawk catches up to him right as the eclipse starts

And the eclipse is where Everything Goes To Shit but you needa experience it for yourself

BUT YA THATS BERSERKS FIRST 2 ARCS VERY VERY SUMMARIZED SKIPPING OVER A LOT OF STUFF AND POSSIBLY MISREMEMBERED. JOY. I LOVE IT VERY MUCH

[iriswestscoffee]

i wanted to quickly doodle the two vanessas i draw most often, bbl vessa and the main vessa, side by side.

Some differences:

bbl vessa was 7 or something like that years older than our vessa (18) at death and thus an inch or so taller, accentuated by her higher heels, and a lot of srs and feminization surgeries and operations further than our poor vanessa, who never even got to experience the full effects of hrt 😔

In addition to being older physically she's a few hundred years older in practice as well. she's been dead a long time. she has much greater skill and wisdom, and she's grown bitter and resentful over the years.

one of the most important differences between them is that vessa covers her sallow skin with layers upon layers of foundation, and wears brown contacts to hide her clouded eyes, and just a TON of skanky perfume from the pharmacy or dollar store to hide the slight scent she has. i know the clouded eyes take longer than the hours she was dead before resurrection btw but i want them there bc they look cool so she develops them slowly over the first few months of her un-life. anyways, its very symbolic of their personalities. vessa will hide a lot of her traits and mannerisms and mask, both physically and mentally. she puts forth an extreme act to hide the things that would ostracize her or cause her harm or even a much more permanent death. bbl vessa is long past that. she wont lie so you dont harm her, she'll harm YOU the second you try.

this makes it seem like bbl vessa has fully accepted herself and all but she actually has the most fascinating form of self hatred of all of them, while vessa's act is purely logical. bbl vessa's habit of capturing other universes versions of herself and using them to experiment with neurosurgery and then unleashing them, lobotomized, to terrorize the world by eating human flesh, is definitely partially driven by her regrets about and hatred of certain traits or actions she displayed in the past, even if they're the only possible subjects, she definitely treats them with prejudice and unnecessary harshness.

both have sliiiightly discolored scleras and flesh inside of the mouth, plus yellowed teeth, although they were already yellower than usual in life.

bbl vessa is obviously half plastic (said affectionately and with respect for trans women who go hard when they transition medically) but unbeknownst to anyone but her mortician, our vessa paid a visit to a reconstruction specialist and got filler in her cheeks and temples because they sank significantly in death. without images to work on, she looks slightly different than she did before she was killed so theyve both had work done. bbl vessa doesnt mind the extra cheekbone herself, she already had them done!

fun fact: the stuff they inject into the deceased is basically the same stuff they use in plastic surgery on the living! like literally the same thing. reconstruction of a dead body, especially in difficult cases (advanced decay or very visible marks of death), and plastic surgery often have things in common actually.

some stuff bbl vessa has done/had done:

crazy extensions

nosejob

facial feminization surgery

bottom surgery

hrt

bbl (obviously)

liposuction (sad)

huge breast implants

electrolysis

fake nails at all times. if she breaks or chips one she immediately redoes it.

probably more but i'll be real, idk toooo much about plastic surgery lol

[megafreeman]

I was talking about Saints Row to someone who never played Saints Row recently, and they asked me why do I invest myself in this series' story if I hate it so much which is so funny. But you know what? I'm beginning to think that's what makes this series so appealing in the first place.

Thinking about it, Saints Row 1 was an amazing entrance to the series, and the start of the Saints saga. Not to mention that it was literally ahead of time in the terms of delivering a deep, thoughtful storyline that took itself seriously. And then, they did something insane, something that GTA never did (this is really important, considering that at time, the reputation it had was "GTA clone"), but did a direct sequel to the first game, with a lot of returning characters. All while perfectly capturing the mix of wacky fun and serious storytelling, and all that the same Rockstar rebooted GTA with brand new cast and direction, which made Saints Row stand out on its own as a series in comparison.

And then it just went downhill from there, getting further and further from the original deep and serious direction, even being a Mass Effect parody at one point (That's the part that made the person ask me this originally btw). This usually causes the fandom to pick a favorite entry and then base their entire perception of the series on the tone set (usually SR1 and SR2 claiming the majority)

And that's where it gets fun, where you form a unique bond with series. The fanart, the fanfiction, the fanon. Because every has their interpenetration of the series, everyone tends to reimagine their own take on the individual games to fit this interpenetration. From small things like adapting Saints Row 1 to be about a female Playa, to completely rewriting SRIV and removing sci-fi elements from it.

Dex and Troy are a perfect example, where everyone has their own take on the two characters because Volition did a terrible job writing them post-SR1, and we just soak that up, take notes from each other??? Can you imagine doing that in some other fandom? Imagine going to someone in Mass Effect fandom and telling them you rewrote their favorite character in the later games because you hate the direction devs took. You'd literally be put in witness protection.

And because everyone is doing this, this creates an unique environment in the fandom where we aren't really toxic to each other and our takes on the series, because we understand its just our different experiences of the series. Especially since almost everyone I met on Tumblr fully understands that fanon is something personal to a person writing it, and it makes the experience of sharing it and consuming it a lot better compared to someone on YT or Reddit writing their "ideal" SR sequel that always seems pushing their fanon as "one true canon" compared to being a cool little story you make and share with your friends.

[goodmorninglovelies42]

My least favorite take is that the story of Jamie’s dad is about substance abuse. It’s not. Addiction is a disease. At least in the US it’s classified as substance use disorder. And it’s a treatable condition that should be viewed as a public health matter and not a moral matter.

But that’s not the issue with James Tartt, Sr. The issue with James is that he’s abusive — physically, emotionally, and sexually — towards Jamie. Now, maybe that is exacerbated by substance use, particularly alcohol. But that doesn’t fully explain or excuse behavior.

And again, I believe that people can change. No matter how old they are or what horrible things they’ve done. And I believe that *societally* those people deserve second chances. But believing both of those things doesn’t require that the the *individual* they harmed extend forgiveness. Those are complex and individual choices.

The show implies that James Tartt Sr. is in rehab. And I think that’s great. People should absolutely get the medical treatment they need (AA isn’t evidence based, btw, but that’s a discussion for another day). But getting treatment for substance use disorder doesn’t automatically fix the behaviors he engaged in, even while under the influence. And me saying that doesn’t mean I’m demonizing people with substance use disorder.