#this is mostly just for personal reference

[kynimdraws]

References in the older generation of demon hunters from the movie KPOP DEMON HUNTERS

It is not the BEST animated movie of all time but it got all the little Korean cultural references that feel like it is catering to me....in particular I really loved the narration sequence of how the Demon Hunters came to be!!! So I decided to make a post about it

The first generation of demon hunters we see are set in the 조선 (Chosun) era, which is a VERY common place to start for a lot of Korean media. There are no specific singers/performers they are referring to here, but they are based on 무당 (mudang). Korean female shamans. There are male shamans as well but those are not as well known and not popular. That is why the boy band Saja Boys are based on 저승사자 (Jeosung Saja) aka Korean underworld magistrate/grim reaper.

Anyway the mudang have various roles in Korean paganism/spiritualism. Instead of flashy musical numbers with weapons, they perform 굿 (gut), rituals that vary by region and function.

The second generation of hunters we see have the flapper girl aesthetic (American 1920s fashion) which was popular in Korea around the 1960-70s. This also is probably shouting out to the og Korean "girl group" aka the Kim Sisters (김시스터스) of the 1950-60s. They might not have been the MAIN influence but the trio singer composition and their fame for being popular among US troops in Korea (which launched their career in the US) doesn't feel like just coincidence.

The third generation we see has the Korean 1970s to maybe super early 80s aesthetic. I couldn't think/find any trio girl groups during this time, but they feel like a mix of The Pearl Sisters (펄 시스터즈), Lily Sisters (릴리 시스터즈) and Kye Eunsook (계은숙). Not the most confident with this one. Thanks to a kind bsky person, it does seem like it was MOSTLY based on the Pearl sisters, esp if you look at an old video of their performance.

The fourth generation is the 1980s, which is when the word "k-pop" starts being used to describe the songs. BUT MAN, THIS SET PISSES ME OFF BECAUSE WHY ARE THEY ALL DIFFERENT 80S KPOP STYLES? COORDINATE GIRLS!!! Again no specific girl groups jump out at me but looks like this is a reference to Settorae (세또래, aka "The three friends") seen by their performance video, which capture similar vibes.

The fifth and final generation we see before Rumi/Mira/Zoey are STRONG 90s K-POP. The whole aesthetic of stars and the hairstyles SCREAMS S.E.S which is one of the classic 90s kpop girl groups of the time.

In particular their appearance for the music video "Dreams Come True" comes to mind. The video now feels really dated but back in the day, the effects and stuff they used were the HOT SHIT. Extremely nostalgic Korean media

And ofc we got the modern trio, which I won't really comment on because they are mix of the current (2010s to 2020s) kpop and I feel like the current fans will have better knowledge of this than I about it. so that's it for now! Of course there may be some other stuff I missed or got wrong possibly, which I will fix if anything comes up. Feel free to correct me as well in the replies!

Update 6/26/25: I think people got confused on what I was trying to cite in terms of time period for the hunters. If we go by strict fashion sense it definitely harks earlier decades of AMERICAN HISTORY. But I am looking at all of this thru a Korean lens so some of the recognizeable early American fashion were popular during different times in Korea specifically. Feel free to reblog/comment the fashion refs bc that in itself is interesting too.

And speaking of fashion, I do really like how each of them have the iridescent accents on their outfits, which are reminescent of Najeonchilgi (나전칠기), the Korean art of inlaid mother of pearl pieces on furniture, jewlery, etc.

Update 6/27/25: I decided to write about the movie's use of Korean spiritualism/Muism to make Honmoon, which you can read here :)

[sirenesolace]

Repeating Astrological Patterns ᕱ⑅ᕱ ᰔ (long post)

Inner planet reference for the astrological patterns in my life:

I’m Cancer sun, Taurus moon, Scorpio asc, Leo mercury + mars and Gemini Venus

DISCLAIMER!: these are observations of things I’ve noticed in MY life. Not every single sign i mentioned act like that. Synastry plays a big role on how we interact with different signs hence why I stated my inner placements.

Most of my friends are fire signs (mostly Aries and Sagittarius). The people I consider extremely funny are always Aries’. It’s such a repeating occurrence in my life that as soon as a stranger tells me they’re an Aries, I immediately know we’ll get along.

Although I’m a Water dominant, I don’t really get along with water signs😭:

I barely make water sign friends and if I rarely do, they’re cancer. We have good conversations but have 0 friendship or romantic chemistry. Honestly hanging out with other Cancers is always boring to me because we’re too alike.

Pisces was my crush sign growing up. Every👏Single👏One👏 of my crushes were Pisces up until age 16 without a fail. I blame 5th house synastry😭 Pisces rules my 5th house (the house of crushes and flirty romance) so I’m not surprised 💀

My feelings about scorpios are hard to pin point. I either vibe with them or I completely dislike them, no in between.

The strongest relationship and feelings I’ve ever had in my life was for a Taurus man. We had 8th house synastry, 1st house synastry, moon conjunct moon and 12th house synastry😭 what people tell you about water sign synastry and moon contacts is NO JOKE!! The way I’ve deeply felt about this man is something I’ve never experienced in my whole life and I feel like he felt the same way too. Even tho we texting online and considered each other as friends, there was always this underlying tension between us that sometimes felt suffocating. We acted like lovers and best friends (moon 11th house synastry) all at the same time.

I haven’t had a single good experience with Air signs in MY life 💀

Libras (in MY life) were always two faced (men and women)😭 they always talk shit about their friends behind their back, or they love to make snarky comments to “humble” you. Just straight up hater energy😭 I swear all observations I hear about Geminis apply to the libras I meet. Libra is in my 12th house (hidden enemies) so maybe this is why I feel this way about them.

Don’t even get my STARTED on geminis💀 to be fair, if your have Gemini inner planets instead of sun, you have a good chance of me liking you or finding you hot because we have 8th house synastry. Gemini sun on the other hand…please exit the premises (jk I don’t judge u base on zodiac PLS). In my life tho, most of my bullies were Geminis so I did feel very strongly about that sign back then. Since Middle school, I haven’t really met or been friends with any Gemini (and I like it that way😞)

Aquarius is such a forgettable sign in my life. I only had a single person in my life who was an Aquarius. He has a huge crush on me and everyone (including my parents and his) shipped us together. I personally only saw him as a friend and was unable to see him as more than that. Funny enough tho, that man would ALWAYS pop up in my dream; the weirder thing is that the minute he appears in my dreams, I suddenly see him in a romantic way, then it would fizzle out. This was a common occurrence for 8 years STRAIGHT!! I wish I knew his big 3 because that’s just crazy to me. I’m sure his sun conjuncts my Neptune (planet of illusion) and because Neptune trines Venus in my natal, his sun probably trine my Venus.

Almost every single person in my family is a Virgo 😭 and they’re all September Virgos mind you LMFAOA😭 all the guy Virgo in my family act nonchalant and calm. The women are very meticulous and always look stunning.

On the topic of earth sign women, they’re definitely one of the people I find ricdicoulsy attractive. Like are you even real??🤨 Taurus women take the cake tho. I know a woman has Taurus in her big 3 when I have strong feeling for her and find her crazy hot. Virgo women are top 2. They look like literally angels or fairies. The most gorgeous people on earth.

Just like Aquarius, Capricorn is the least common sign that pops up in my life. Every single Capricorn I met were so different that I don’t have a specific way to feel about them. Capricorn sits in my 3rd house which is funny because you’d think I would be having a lot of conversations with Capricorns but nope. Rarely ever talk to them and if we do, it’s kinda awkward. Saturn in my 9th house (cancer) so it’s opposite from that house. Maybe that’s why it’s awkward? Just a theory.

Synastry Bonus

Small synastry bonus!

I’ve noticed that too much trine and conjunctions always made friendships and relationships boring. While some ppl may like this, I’m a water + fire dom, and I have a lot of squares in my chart. I feel like too much trines and conjunctions in a synastry just doesn’t work for me. A balance is definitely preferable. I love when a relationship can bring new conversations and ways of thinking. With Cancers, it felt like we were talking about the same thing over, over , and over again. I think sextile and semi-sextile (UNDERRATED ASPECT!!) are probably my favorite easy aspects when it comes to a synastry.

11th house synastry is underrated !! It gives the relationship that friends to lovers type of vibe that i absolutely love!! It also makes things light hearted especially when you have heavy moon, 8th house and 12th house synastry. You guys feel like you can be weird together.

Good luck trying to move on or forget someone you have Saturn synastry with, especially if it’s Venus-Saturn aspects😭😭 the Astro girlies were NOT lying when they said it’s biding. My Venus conjuncts this Taurus man’s Saturn and I’ve been in love with him since 2021. Literally everytime I feel like forgetting about him and moving on, he comes back to my mind. 💀 If you’ve been Saturn in that type of synastry, I need to know what it was like for you🫶

Moon-Moon aspects are the BEST!!! Even the squares!! All my besties have their moon square mine and the way we feel and understand each other on a deeper level is so amazing. It’s the best synastry aspect of you want a deep friendship or relationship for sure imo. It’s also forgiving synastry aspect. I have it in conjunction with the Taurus man’s moon and usually we’re both petty people but when it comes to him, I seriously can’t help to put my ego aside. I think he’s the only person I’m so patient and forgiving with and the same can be said for him. We both let so much stuff slide when it comes to one another. Meanwhile if someone else did it, they’re immediately cut off. Make sure to not constantly break your boundaries when it comes to this synastry.

I had so much fun writing this and missed posting :) Please lmk if you guys want a pt 2 and have you also experience some of the observations?

[luxiomahariel]

Okay this might be taken the wrong way but I find it genuinely funny- I saw a transandrophobic blog post being really bitter about how “tme’s” sometimes make posts tagged as TMA (in the context of talking about trans women’s issues in an obviously exclusionary manner) about The Magnus Archives and like. This post was super salty about it- and the fact that the fandom is mostly made up of trans guys and nonbinary people was actually like. Very important (I vaguely remember the post referring to it as a “tme show” that— damn! Sounds real fucking familiar to my parents pointing out that pretty much anything I liked, because I liked it, was a ‘chick flick’ and therefore didn’t deserve respect) things to note:

1. The implication. Is that they tagged their posts talking about these things with ‘TMA’. Or that trans guys are looking at something that says TMA somewhere and making it about this stupid podcast

2. I know there’s a good reason to be bitter if a serious topic happens to share a name with a fandom. I know it’s infuriating to try to talk about your issues and then when you look at the tag it’s people talking about their blorbos BUT this is something that just. Happens whether you like it or not, I have a pretty sincere feeling that whatever this lady is complaining about only happened once by some kid who’s ignorant of the discourse going on right now.

3. TMA— THE NORMAL AND EXTREMELY COMMONLY USED ABBREVIATION FOR *THE MAGNUS ARCHIVES-* IS WILDLY POPULAR! Like! I’d argue! There are way more tma fans than people who use tme/tma! It is an extremely popular podcast! If you go into the tag that says tma, I guarantee you will find 99 (example) people talking about this popular horror podcast and 1 person talking about TIRF shit!

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[somewheres-woods]

why hello, a little wheel of cheese told me you like talking about your oc lore, so can you tell us about the yautja in your drabble with us hunting and fighting the mantis thing (i can't spell to save my life)

This has been rotting in my inbox for a while, so sorry about that!

Auhta is who you're referring to! He's one of my personal favourites so far.

When I was writing first writing for him, I had the idea of a college frat boy as a yautja lmao. However, I obviously tweaked a few details in order to make him more yautja-like, obviously, since they're mostly a very serious species.

However, not the kind of frat boy who's obnoxious and rude or anything like that. He's obnoxious, sure, but not to the degree of most frat boys.

Auhta is very boyish in nature. He enjoys teasing his friends, wrestling with them, and generally making an ass out of himself for the fun of it. He's often the one who initiates physical contact. He's a very touchy person and enjoys physical contact with those he cares about.

However, if and when he takes it too far, he takes his scoldings on the chin and makes up for it by leaving a dead animal on the doorstep of the one he wronged. It's his way of apologising.

So, while he's a bit of nuisance to the clan, he's got a heart of gold and will always work to earn forgiveness. He mostly just keeps to his group of friends, though.

He's a bit like a dog, though, if I had to characterise him that way... probably a golden retriever or a german shepherd.

Cocky but not to the point of being arrogant.

He does have his arrogant moments, though.

Despite being coded as a bit of a frat boy, he's absolutely not a himbo by any means. He's intelligent and very capable. He's only a dumbass because of the influence of his friends or being around people he trusts. If he's hunting you down, he's gonna be brutal yet efficient if he isn't trying to show off.

[teriterina]

this. I used to take the shit he took (paroxetine), and the withdrawals were. um. bad.

bad enough that he was in love with kamimura, his mental state quickly grew dependent on his company, to an unhealthy level. this let him to the state of despair, when he literally forsaken his relationships with his family

toshi became a remedy for him, and ken became a different person after his death

also your “what “knowing” stood for” theory is really cool! just like this analysis! personally, I choose to believe he referred to knowing about kamimura's feelings and the life they could have had, mostly to make myself more at peace with that ark heh

The thing about Hasegawa’s spiral is that it wasn’t one thing that set him off. It wasn’t just Kamimura’s death, or any romantic feelings that might’ve been/were there. It was all of his circumstances combined with the type of person he is.

As someone who also has anxiety, I always notice that I want to be alone and it takes a lot to be with people I’m not comfortable with. But when you isolate it’s really easy to get resentful, especially if everyone around you isn’t aware or compassionate of your circumstance. When you don’t talk with anyone it’s easy to latch onto one thought you have and slowly make that a facet of your identity, without anyone (including you) noticing the change (especially if you’re putting up a facade for them already in the first place).

Hasegawa had run out of his anxiety meds, he was dealing with grief and loneliness, and he was still in a really really stressful and horrible environment. He knew that all of his pain was being broadcasted and displayed, and he knew that even despite that, it didn’t mean a thing.

Kazutoshi was more than a friend or a crush to him. Kazutoshi was someone he actually wanted to talk to. He was a second opinion, someone Ken could speak his thoughts aloud to. Ken heard the voices in his head in his every waking moment, but when Kazutoshi was alive, he heard Kazutoshi’s voice too.

The two of them talked about who they thought would kill. They talked about their grief and their anger, and they had each other to listen and reply. They could keep each other sane. And Ken listened when Kazutoshi spoke, because he liked being around him. When Kazutoshi said neither of them would kill anyone, it made sense to him. Why would they?

Even if any of the others had tried to talk to Ken or make the same promises after Kazutoshi, what would that matter? Ken had already built up walls in his mind. Their words didn’t mean anything to him. He trusted Kazutoshi, and he told Kazutoshi his thoughts. When you tell someone else what you’re thinking, you can hear it too. Sometimes you realize you don’t actually mean it.

True horror is knowing. It wasn’t just grief or heartbreak or anger that broke him. It was that the voices outside of his head couldn’t reach the voices inside his head anymore. It was that after Kazutoshi’s voice was silenced, he only had his own to listen to. If you’re lost in a pitch black forest, it’s hard to stay in a straight line if your only source of light is yourself.

[lynxgriffin]

I gotta be totally honest, I've just never cared about the "big" fandom memes. Maybe I'm too old for this or something, but just looking at it straight I'm like "...okay? Where's the funny part?" Like even the Ralsei with a gun or Ralsei with a giant blunt memes from back in the day never seemed like much to me. I DID see some folks who could pull off the memes and make them funny (lupusc's Cyber World animation featuring the Ralsei blunt meme made me laugh!) but most of the time they feel like a punchline without any setup.

But ehh, I'm probably just old, ignore me.

Transmasc Dess and asexual Asriel, GO!

I think no matter Susie wears, Noelle is going to think she looks hot in it! (Because she's both correct and has good taste)

I don't ever recall a character referring to the Knight as "he." I think it's pretty much only been "they" or "it." That seems to hint towards more going on with the Knight than just them being a particular person.

That said, once again: Transmasc Dess, GO!

"Bangin' sermon my man" was SUCH a good option, I was laughing so much.

And I DUNNO WHY YOU'D DRINK IT IN FRONT OF ALPHYS THAT IS MEAN. Like I know she's the teacher but that's just. So awkward!

Yes, I've watched the vid. Like I said last time, I'm sorry, but I remain unconvinced.

I think that mostly means I need to get around to playing Mother 3 soon.

I don't think boss monsters exist in Deltarune.

No, he was putting off those creepy stalker vibes in these chapters for sure. It was funny with the "eggs husband" joke in chapter two, like he did just run into her and tried to be funny about it. But him popping out of the bushes with the flowers she clearly didn't want? The "they'll all see and then we'll be a happy family again" business with the conspiracy corkboard? Come on dude, tone it down, because it's getting gross.

Maybe if he was a little easier than the secret bosses we DID get...

[genshin-scenarios]

welcome to new teyvat!

Summary: Genshin characters in a Zenless Zone Zero AU! This post doesn’t follow ZZZ’s plotline exactly, so there aren’t significant spoilers — but the contents do reference a lot of the worldbuilding so it’s easier to understand if you’ve played it before.

Note: The reader is in the role of the player-proxy!

Characters: Venti, Wanderer, Xiao, Albedo, Kazuha, Lyney

Venti

The mysterious idol ‘Barbatos’ is an internet sensation who releases songs throughout the year, with an annual live concert that takes over the entire city of New Teyvat! It’s always on the anniversary of the city’s founding (new year), spreading wonder and hope across a night of twinkling stars.

Barbatos’ career started when Old Teyvat had just collapsed, as a small musician name that soothed many during a period of great change. What no one knows however, is that Barbatos is not one person… but two!

That’s right; it’s a role shared by Venti and Himmel (Nameless Bard, who is alive in this AU!) Due to their similar appearances, they often swap between songs in concerts and share the role of songwriting & mixing. Fans are aware that there are ‘two people’ to Barbatos, but have been pretty good about respecting their privacy (it helps that their agency, who liaise with the Knights of Favonius and Church, are vigilant about their safety, too.)

Despite having grown into a big brand, they’ve always stuck to composing their own songs and the personal values that fueled them in Old Teyvat’s fall. While Himmel prefers a quieter life of visiting videogame stores, trying the newest cafes, and managing their social media accounts — Venti’s more keen on socialising and is more of an ‘actor’ in early-New Teyvat development. He has the ability to go into Hollows, and sometimes does his own mysterious investigations as part of his cooperation with the other ‘Archons.’ 

Basically… Himmel’s a civilian, whose dream was actually to see the world (before said world collapsed during an apocalyptic incident), while Venti has a hidden side to him (growing combative abilities that can rival other high-ranking agents, though he hides it beneath a lighthearted, ‘helpless,’ tone). Venti’s goal is mostly to make Himmel’s wish come true; getting rid of the corrosion that’s eating away their world so that it can once again heal. And perhaps, if they’re lucky — the fields of cecilias and asters can bloom once again. 

Venti’s chirpy and charismatic as always; you met when he commissioned you to help with a hollow visit ‘for artistic inspiration,’ and never learnt about its ‘true’ purpose despite feeling like there’s more than meets the eye. There is also the possibility that Venti just wanted to get his mind off something and blow off some steam, of course. Despite acting like a helpless civilian 80% of the way.

You only realize he’s Barbatos at the end of the quest (when you finally meet face-to-face), and Venti runs off seconds after, leaving you to process the cliffhanger alone. Eventually he does return to visit your videostore though, borrowing movies for ‘inspiration’ (it was actually for Himmel and his bodyguards). 

He likes to butter you up with endearments like ‘my favourite proxy’ and ‘beloved fan,’ often hanging off your arm while he drags you around the city to explore the shops and such. He’s often undercover, and you get the feeling that he’s less interested in the places you go to, and more about running away from Himmel or Jean (their manager) whenever his mood isn’t the best.

You do meet Himmel at some point when he’s in the arcade causing a stir! (Beating all the highest records to claim a grand prize). You thought he was Venti at first before noticing their differences in demeanor, which immediately made Himmel adopt you as his companion for the day (their one similarity is their penchant for dragging you around. Albeit you can tell that Himmel actually is interested in the items he’s browsing in the stores, rather than having his mind wander elsewhere like Venti does. …It does make you wonder just how much is on his mind.)

However, you’ve always wondered about the logistics of them being Barbatos (does one write the songs and the other sing?), which was answered when Venti took part in a high-stakes mission with Jean and Diluc (the Mondstadt prologue team!), responding to your concern about his concert that night with ‘oh, no need to worry about that. I will still be performing, even if we’re in the hollow all night!’

It’s kind of impressive how Himmel and Venti can seamlessly copy each other, though. If you didn’t know either of them well enough, you could have certainly been fooled by watching back on the tapes of Himmel mimicking Venti’s upbeat, bubbly crowdwork (and tricked into situations where Himmel was trying to push you and Venti’s crushes on each other along, by leaving you voicemails asking you on a date from Venti’s phone. He is your number one shipper).

Wanderer

A hacker and ‘childhood friend’ of yours from the now-fallen Old Teyvat, Wanderer disappeared off the grid for a bit before reappearing as Nahida’s aide many years later when you were caught in a Bad Situation (your secret identity as the proxy ‘Viator’ was almost leaked to the press!)

After the fiasco (chasing down the people responsible, who turned out to be tied to the fall of Old Teyvat,) Wanderer moved in on the street where you lived to help ‘keep an eye on things’ (he was worried about you being in danger and wants to personally make sure you’re safe).

Despite how you’ve been separated for a while, your friendship resumed in a seamless manner as the both of you catch up on each other’s lives: Wanderer is working as a double agent right now who’s infiltrating the Fatui as ‘the Balladeer,’ while you’ve become a proxy to find out more about the fall of Old Teyvat (your previous home) and missing companion (Aether, Lumine, or both!) 

While the both of you have high-stakes secret lives, Wanderer’s civilian cover-up is pretty simple. He runs a bangboo workshop for select customers (whoever doesn’t get on his nerves) and usually shuts himself into his apartment, but has established a new routine of visiting your store once a week; usually in inconspicuous clothing like a hoodie or such. If you don’t invite him to get lunch or dinner he will get huffy.

He likes to quip that ‘trying to appear normal’ is pointless due to the nature of your double lives. But you begin to help him (to Nahida’s joy) open up his world to more friends over time. They're usually his co-workers, who he avoids talking to more than necessary (because of his double agent work), but now that you're acquainted with them too he can't just let you wander off to meet them alone, right? He's affiliated with Nahida but you can never be too careful. (He'll never admit that he's a worrywart).

Wanderer does get a bit jealous whenever you hang out with agents, saying he doesn't know what the big deal is. ‘Being able to fight in hollows doesn't make them special.’ Because of this, you didn’t even know that he can work as an agent too — Wanderer just doesn’t do it often because after the Old Teyvat incident, half of his body had to be replaced with new metal parts (made of Nahida's new tech, rather than Raiden's), which he's still getting used to!

The first time you see him in the hollows is when someone dug up and tried to blackmail him with his past (ties to Raiden Ei). Naturally, you’re the only one he trusts to back him up (you knew vaguely about his family ties from your time in Old Teyvat, and the loss of his close friends during the city’s fall — the mechanics and metalsmiths (of Tatarasuna).

His story quest concludes with you calling for backup from Childe (one of the few Fatui who Wanderer’s begrudgingly okay with you being acquainted with). After they successfully escape, Childe drops Wanderer off at your video-store, saying that he’d probably want to see you the moment he wakes up.

‘Even when he wasn't able to move anymore… the only thing on his mind was making sure they wouldn’t target you, too.’ 

‘...He cares about you more than you think. But I guess you don't need me to tell you that.’

Xiao

The Adepti are a special operations unit that served under Zhongli after the fall of Old Teyvat, and are now begrudgingly affiliated under the Liyue Qixing (if Zhongli wasn’t still behind-the-scenes with them, they would've probably retired by now). 

Now that things are peacefuller, most of the Adepti live as civilians and only go on field missions once in a while — save for Xiao, who’s one of the most active units and a workaholic to boot. 

He has a fanbase (think like Section 6). While they've only seen him with his yaksha mask on, they’re convinced just from the way he walks and talks, that Xiao must be an incredibly attractive man. They aren’t wrong, but his co-workers tease him a lot for it, which he ignores as he disappears midway through news conferences and interviews, leaving it to his them instead. 

You met during one of his missions, of course — and in true Miyabi fashion — Xiao was actually trying to arrest you and treated you as a potential enemy at first, due to your Proxy work. 

But after you saved him in a hollow (purifying him of ether corrosion) and he saved you from Ethereals, you formed a reluctant alliance that turned into slow friendship after it was clarified that you were no longer on the Liyue Qixing's wanted list. On the contrary, you're now an ally!

You learn that during the fall of Old Teyvat, Xiao and the other yakshas were hit heavily by ether corrosion after spending an extended period of days in the hollows; most of them are fine now, but as Xiao took the brunt of it, he’s somewhat ill like Harumasa and has to be checked on by Baizhu regularly. 

Though he often soldiers on and pretends he’s fine, his coworkers ask you to invite him out for lunch and errands so that he’d rest instead of training all the time. —It’s what everyone admires him for, but they’re just as concerned about how hard he is on himself. 

You are one of the few people who he’d stop training for and take breaks with, if you ask. You think it’s because Xiao has the impression that you’re a workaholic too, and that by complying he’s helping you rest. 

Xiao doesn’t see the point in engaging in civilian relationships because he considers his ether corrosion to be a deadline of sorts; before he’s unable to fight any longer, he wants to do his best to protect New Teyvat and eradicate the source of ‘evils’ — so that no one else is lost to the endless void. 

Despite that, many people gravitate towards Xiao. You learn he actually has more friends than he lets on (Venti, Yelan, Keqing, Ganyu, Cloud Retainer and the other adepti, to name a few), and every time you run into them on your hangouts, Xiao almost seems… embarrassed?

You soon learn that this is because everyone knows that he has a soft spot for you and really wants to see Xiao acting all domestic (waiting outside your video-store because he arrived early, carrying your bags, walking to you immediately if he sees you…)

Xiao would rather eat cement than put on a show for them so he often ushers you away (as you can tell, the main angst in this AU is his corrosion since the other yakshas are alive. It's otherwise quite casual and fun!)

He is so obvious about his favouritism, though. The yakshas (basically his family) have been trying to invite you for dinner for the longest time, but Xiao is too wary of what kind of things they might ask you once you’re there. 

When the dinner finally happens, though, you all hit it off! Bosacius teases Xiao, asking if what he was really worried about was sharing your attention, seeing as you’re now distracted on the side.

Of course, all Xiao gives in response is a little huff. "...What a ridiculous thought.” 

Albedo 

A clinic owner by day and scientist by night! Albedo specializes in treating non-regular people, like Thierens, those with machine parts, ether corrosion, and… your eye implants! (A unique ‘gadget’ you got from your old teacher.)

Albedo seems to be especially interested in you. He likes to test the limits of your ability to connect to your bangboo and notes that people often seem to be drawn to you. …As a proxy, of course. What’s putting that blush on your face? 

Awful, awful. He’s way too flirty for a doctor, but you guess it's also your fault for befriending him outside of work. You had no idea what you were in for when you agreed to be his research partner; and after a few days of radio silence, you were suddenly called upon to ‘fetch’ Albedo from the hollows like it was just another Tuesday afternoon.

This becomes a normal occurrence quickly, due to Albedo’s inability to sit still when a theory comes to mind. He is also very unafraid of Ethereals and is immune to corrosion (as a homunculus,) which means that his reaction to you finding him is always a little smile (playing innocent), as if you’d just found him on an evening walk (how did he carry so many vials into the hollow? And are those bones???)

Only a handful of people would believe you if you told them about his hobbies, though. For the most part Albedo is an elusive, pretty face in the neighborhood who’s known for being a top-notch scientist. He often exchanges research with Baizhu and Tighnari, and Cyno and Xingqiu too?

The latter is more towards his art account online (Albedo went viral for his genius, ‘surely those who post art without captions are a different beast!’) As such, he’s able to bid his paintings off to fund his scientific endeavors. You tried becoming his ‘art agent’ for a function once and swore you’d never attempt it again, though. Art aficionados are terrifying…

Funny thing, by the way: when you first met Albedo, he was a villain to be reckoned with in your eyes, as the Knights of Favonius reached out to you with an urgent commission to catch a rogue scientist.

You were entirely convinced that Albedo was some kind of evil criminal until you finally caught him in the hollows — only for the knights to go ‘if you do this one more time we really won’t be able to cover for you!’

…Turns out, Albedo is affiliated with the knights, though he doesn’t work in their HQ and such. He is indeed a genius but has the tendency to use abnormal approaches, sometimes to the point of suspicion from other governmental bodies (meaning the Knights of Favonius have to sometimes cover his neck.)

Emotionally betrayed (from being led on) about the ‘dangerous, unpredictable individual’, you tried to leave right after you got your commission payment from the knights (this is Kaeya’s fault. Kaeya never clarified things because he thought it’d be funny. And then as you were chasing down Albedo, he also caught onto your misconception and played along. They’re both horrible!)

Albedo still likes to tease you about it these days, and in your early friendship he’d ‘act’ the part of a villain and stress you out with lines like ‘I don’t know, Proxy, will you be able to keep me in check?’ Or ‘You would know how unpredictable I can be.’ 

Or: ‘Don’t worry, you know my will is malleable to yours.’ ‘…And what about the law?’ ‘Well,, there is no emotional compulsion tying me to that.’

You know he’s a good person, but sometimes the way he looks at you from beneath his lashes does make your heart skip a beat. Out of stress, surely. Not… anything else.

Kazuha

Representing the Alcor in the Outer Ring as their duelist, Kazuha isn’t seen in the city very often due to his sensitivity to crowds and loud sounds. 

The first time you met, however, was in the city's outskirts: he was escorting an important shipment and was taking a late-night break — and archons, Kazuha was so ethereal with his hair down and gazing up at the moon, that you thought he might’ve been a figment of your imagination. 

You’re proven wrong a few days later when Heizou (renowned detective) asks if you can travel out to help the Alcor with a shipment task. They’re being targeted by rival groups as a large tournament is coming up; but Heizou feels like there’s more to this ‘competitiveness’ than meets the eye. Also… it’s the first year since Kazuha’s close friend, Tomo, was lost in an accident last year. So Heizou thinks your arrival would be a good distraction.

While your sense of direction mainly comes in navigating mazes, Kazuha shows you a different way of moving through the world. He’s able to find his way throughout the Outer Ring no matter where he’s dropped; ‘reading the wind’ with his senses, he says, while keeping you close to his side with fingers entwined. 

Yeah. Kazuha’s a bit of a romantic, claiming that your second meeting must’ve been a work of fate; but you soon realize there might be something more meaningful in your interactions after learning about the burn marks on his hands. 

While they're still recovering, the fact he tries to hold you close is a show of trust — and, a way for him to memorize your presence in case something urgent happens during the tournament. That way, he’d be able to rescue you even if smoke and thunder raged, muddling his other senses.

When said drama does occur during the night of the tournament (rogue groups attacking, xyz), you weren’t in the vicinity when Kazuha was fighting off foes. You do however rescue him from being surrounded by enemies, via grabbing and pulling him through a hollow rift by the hand. There, you helped the Alcor regroup and sort out their counter-attack, and Kazuha still hasn’t gotten over the moment your fingers wrapped around his skin; somehow, he did recognize your touch. 

It’s ironic how his intentions to protect you concluded in the opposite; after the drama in the Outer Ring passes, you do encounter Kazuha quite often in the quieter parts of the city. Beidou has been sending him on errands more often ever since she noticed your friendship, and doesn’t want Kazuha to get all mopey from not seeing you for too long (he likes to send you pictures from his strolls around the Outer Ring though, of desert landscapes and orange sunsets that seem to consume the clouds.)

Kazuha also quite enjoys movie nights with you! He prefers this in the comfort of your living room rather than the cinema, since there’s less people (and it’s easier for him to double as a bodyguard for your store). 

He reminds you that you’re more high-profile than you think, and to be careful because of the risks of your double life. Most importantly… he’ll always come to your rescue if you need it, be it through wind or storm. So don’t hesitate to contact him (he really can’t stomach the thought of losing another friend.)

People know of Kazuha as the cutie from the Outer Ring who hangs out with you often!! He also has friends in the city like Heizou, Kokomi, Gorou and etc, but they claim that he’s hard to get a hold of and disappears quite quickly. Which is strange considering how Kazuha often spends the night at your store’s guest room or couch after long movie marathons, or only departs reluctantly way later into the night.

Lyney

The Fatui’s House of Hearth deploys stealth agents of all kinds; Lyney and Lynette in particular are their best, able to disguise themselves in a myriad of ways and changing identities at the drop of a hat. It’s almost like magic, some might say. 

To be honest, Lyney’s a little bit in love with the job since it also deals with surprising people with tricks — and while he and Lynette do street magic and small shows every now and then as civilians — it’s not their ‘job’ like it is in the canonical game. They're more active in the House of Hearth’s missions, especially as they’re one of the few with the ability to go into hollows and withstand their corrosion.

Therefore, Lyney’s love for magic is a little bit suppressed! They have to keep a low profile after all, since it’d be pretty easy to trace an amazing magician’s acts to his flamboyant mission escapes if he isn’t careful. So when you come along, well… You’re one of the few outsiders who know about both his lives. And that makes things special, because he can now excitedly show you the newest tricks he’s been practicing!! Both for missions and civilian shows.

You met when the House of Hearth needed a Proxy for a rather difficult mission; leading them through an undiscovered hollow and getting very stressed out because you thought they’d been cornered by Ethereals, only for the twins to… disappear?

Well, just for a second, so that they’d swap places with the Ethereals and were now the ones cornering them. The entire mission starts and ends with you only hearing Lyney and Lynette’s voice, and that was supposed to be it; until they decided you’d be worth befriending after hearing the concern and panic in your voice. 

Lyney visits first, to make sure things are safe before giving Lynette the okay to drop by in the future (can’t be too careful!) He comes disguised as a regular customer before he then admits that you’re even cuter in real life — and that’s when you realize why he sounds so familiar! 

Before you can blurt out his mission name however, Lyney puts a finger to his lips and reaches behind your ear… revealing a flower and envelope. You’ll later find that it’s a ticket to his and Lynette’s next big show! 

Lyney departs with a little smile and thanks, and you never could’ve expected that his civilian appearance would look so… unassuming. (He doesn’t wear a hat when he doesn’t want to get noticed, and even has glasses!)

A few civilian hangouts later, you learn that he does need the glasses; it’s just that during missions and shows he wears contacts because of all the moving around. Lyney even jokes about buying a new pair that’s the same shade as your eyes, so that he can be reminded of you (they’re such an enchanting colour, I could gaze into the mirror all day!)

Lyney’s always appearing in different disguises and styles, but the look in his eyes and soft, familiar smile always helps you identify that it’s him. (In a later scenario, Lynette stoically says it’s the look of love, causing both you and her brother to turn tomato red.)

Your favourite hangouts have to be when Lyney is his ‘most genuine,’ or relaxed — when he drops by the video store around sunset or the evening — and the world is too busy in their own homes to worry about the phantom thief roosting at your door (a little bit like a cat wandering home. Though Lyney’s a lot chattier and willing to charm than any feline you’ve met.)

[yyumehh]

small TADC theory ?

i know lots of people makes theories about tadc stuff and tbh i’m just here for the ride. i haven’t thought too hard about what it’s building towards, i’ve just been enjoying the characters and story— BUT, with that being said… i don’t think the “rules system” set up in episode one is accurate? or it’s changing?

ok so, in episode 5, they introduced the voting system, where a majority vote from the characters could change the events of the adventures. it didn’t seem harmless and it was mostly used for funny bits. jax being voted to be a vegan was an ongoing bit of the episode, nothing too serious, except for this small moment after the egg whites line jax didn’t intend to say. jax said “ i thought caine couldn’t—“ v

couldn’t what?

i’ve seen some people really sussed out about this moment. and when i thought about it a little bit more, it clicked, so figured i’d share in case someone wants to know ? maybe people have already connected this but i digress.

i think jax was referring to episode 1, when it was established as a rule that caine can’t control their minds. v

upon blurting out words he didn’t intend to say in episode 5, jax realizes caine did, in fact, control him in that moment with the egg whites.

i’m not sure what this could lead to and i’m not sure the whole parameters of this either. and i don’t think it’s a “jax is an npc” thing. tbh i feel like episode 5 really solidified him as a person— plus, the ominous ending with the npc is setting up what it will actually be like with a rogue npc on the loose.

so is the idea “caine can control your minds when it’s agreed upon by other characters?” or “caine can control your minds when you start to abstract?” or “caine’s lying about this ability in some way?” or is it just a simple “jax is losing it?”

so yeah, i’m not sure what it means so this is less of a theory and more me just connecting some dots and speculating, but overall, jax is now questioning what caine is capable of. curious to see where it all leads.

anywho see ya later skater :)

[mau-erik]

Sorry

First, I want to apologize if I offended anyone, that was not my intention.

Second, this is the last post I make on the subject, I am not the person who tries to convince by force (sometimes yes, but not by force, with logical arguments)

So I've earned a hater, XD.

Ok, yesterday there was a discussion, where at least I felt that way 🤡.

I just want you to know that I don't like either the CarChase or the Chaxari, I'm more of a Carulia, Roundashadow and Roundalstrom person.

Maybe they'll tell me, you don't like CarChase because you're a Carulia fan and that ruins your ship.

And no, I was a fan of CarChase, but I knew it wasn't canon, just like Carulia and some others (Carulia was denied by its creator)

If the creator says canon, it is canon to me, unless he says it's a joke.

I'm not trying to change your mind with this, you're free, just don't bother, that's why fandoms get criticized later.

At least you won't change my mind, ChaZary is canon at least for me, even if I don't like it.

And I say that because I would long for Chase x Shasowsan to be canon (but it isn't)

And sorry to the user I tagged earlier, I didn't mean for him to delete his blog, sorry.

This is mostly for the user who started the conflict in the comments yesterday (and yes, I also started it because I'm an idiot, but I'm referring to the other one, the first comment)

Why yesterday while I was sleeping he sent me this.

And so I answered him the following:

What I'm getting at with all this is my last post on the subject. Yes, I'll keep drawing. Yes, I apologize, too.

And a thousand times sorry.

Clarifications and evidence.

Okay, I think I got this message yesterday.

And if the guy says that Carmen x Chase is canon, that the Zari thing is just a myth of Carulia fans, etc., and I think I would believe that too, but it's not real, I have canon proof, and now I will show it.

(I had to show it from the beginning but XD)

Clarifications:

What I'm going to say is completely canon, it's not my invention.

Yes, I am a fan of Carulia.

I'm not trying to argue or anything like that with this, I just want to show proof that my information is true and I'm not lying, so you can trust me.

If you want to believe, fine, if not, fine too, that's your problem, I didn't force you to think like me.

Now you do the testing.

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1.

Although this was in Spanish, I translated it. It's from Wattpad. In short, it says that the author of the work and the voice actors canonize this ship. I'll post the original text right now.

Here goes another one.

There is the proof, and it is video.

Before you tell me "edition," no, it isn't, search for it on YouTube under Carmen Sandiego Trivia Part 2 and you'll find it.

Although it is in Spanish, activate subtitles.

3.

That was said in Instagram Lives, although I didn't see them, there are two sources who saw it and confirm it. Maybe they're recorded on the internet, I don't know, I'll investigate.

____________________________________________________________

Conclusions

I'm not the type of person who likes to argue or anything like that, I just want to inform, clarify, and refute (and provide evidence at the same time).

This is not intended to offend anyone, you are free to believe whatever you want.

This goes mostly to the user.

@devineauxagency

That's my report, drink water bye.

[itsalice3940]

ANNOUCING THE WINNERSSSS!!!

1st Place Entry by @crescent-loyd

2nd Place Entry!!! by @1shcakes

3rd Place Entry by @hayatiayad !!!

4th Place Entry by @rosemaryduexx !!!

5th Place Entry by @mooncloudz !!!

1-3 winners will get full body illustrations! I will contact you guys soon! I just need to gather on what kind I can do and the same for the Chibi full body 4-5th winners, so please be patient with me. Apologies :'3!

Now, participants, this doesn't mean you guys won't also get prizes as well. In fact, you guys can get a free doodle of your character or ocfrom me! You just need to reblog this with your reference or send it to me in Dm! I still appreciate each and every one of your entries, so I wanna give this surprise to the rest of the participants! Because I'm so thankful for all these entries of my children! Again, thank you so much for all of you entering!😭😭😭💗💗💖💗💖💗💖💖💗💖💗💖💗💖💗💖(Do note that doodles I'll be doing will mostly be lineart and colour as I'll be super busy next month with other personal projects. I apologies but I have to prioritise some important stuff :'3)

But again, genuinely thank you all so much for the 200 followers. I'm happy that some people like my stuff it helps me to keep doing it...truly, you guys are RAD!!!

[feathermouth]

[EDITED WITH MORE INFO!]

do we still fw pressure OCs?

i have not decided on a name for them yet. im gonna try to pick something thats typically feminine, but i dont want it to be boring, so suggestions are absolutely encouraged!

this fellas name is lamis! its an arabic name that means "soft to the touch."

they are african-american (i still need to determine the specifics, this is a super rough concept so far)

lamis is egyptian ethnically, so, around north africa. lamis was born in america. US citizenship.

im probably gonna end up choosing a dif. set of pronouns for them once ive got the rest of their identity solidified

lamis is definitely a lady. but shes the type of person to not really gaf what people refer to her as.

i also feel like the design is a little cluttered, but i do not gaf. this is very self-indulgent at the moment. plus its pretty.

^ this still holds true. i dont wanna change the design, so im trying to think of ways to justify it. im considering the idea that she was engineered predominantly for aesthetics and was sorta just ... forgotten about.

their current design consists of a black dragonfish and a yellow stingray. i originally wanted to put a poison dart frog in there, but im not sure if an amphibian would fit too well in the rest of the pressure setting. their design is crazy, yes, but it will be LORE APPROPRIATE

^ still the same! if i go with my new idea, maybe they wouldve taken some liberties and used an amphibian. maybe.

they have eyes by the way. i just felt like drawing it closed. their eyes are a similar yellow. im considering changing the eyes to black instead.

her eyes are gonna be iridescent, similar to a black dragonfish. sometimes theyll look black, sometimes yellow, sometimes white—all depends on the angle and lighting.

they are bioluminescent (result of the black dragonfish dna) but their yellow patterns ONLY glow in low-light environments. they aint shining all the time. thatd be so annoying

^ still the same! except im gonna move around the areas that glow. i want them to look more "biological," like, less like a royal engraving, so i mostly need to clean up her chest and stomach. the markings will be less sharp next time i draw her.

their face looks kinda peeled back/smooth intentionally, its not just my art style. the animals they were mixed with are Very Smooth. aerodynamic or something. they had more defined features before they were mutated.

lamis' face is thinned out because of the taught skin of the animals shes mixed with. fish tend to have very smooth faces. before being experimented on, lamis had a meatier nose, deep-set eyes, and rounder cheeks.

im still unsure of what i want their role to be, if any. i dont want anything too special, i dont really like making 'main-character' characters as OCs. i dont have any ideas as to what i could do.

yeah i still dont wanna make a "special" character. i dont like when OCs disrupt canon. lamis is Very Much So an outside addition.

i know that theyre swift, quiet, and glow in the dark, so maybe some sort of rare encounter for the player? like a guide in a particularly dark set of rooms, or a mini-encounter similar to the bottomfeeder? (im aware that those ideas show two very different moral alignments, i havent fleshed out their personality yet.)

well, lamis was forgotten about after her experiments concluded, so i imagine she would be bitter. she'll probably try to force players into dim-lit areas so that she can get near them. i dont think lamis is the type of person to kill outright, but rather maim. definitely lurks in darker places and doesnt enjoy coming out into the light, so shed be a specific-situation encounter, if nothing else.

this is the only pressure oc im currently willing to make public, because my others are ENTIRELY self-serving, and you couldnt WATERBOARD my writing out of me.

anyway! suggestions are encouraged! i need feedback. please .....

[hillyroberts]

Pete Wentz and Mikey Way Shared A New Mexico Sunset 20 Years Ago. Why Are We Still Talking About It?

Disclaimer: I do not ship them nor do I claim to know what happened. This is just a compilation of everything that happened between Pete and Mikey (all information that is accessible to the public) and everyone can draw their own conclusions.

This isn't even a completely comprehensive dive into Petekey. This is mostly mostly a written analysis of Pete's blog posts and lyrics and how they can be interpreted in a way that may pertain to Mikey.

"Amazing New Mexico sunset. I'm hanging on a bridge with my friend Mikey Way from My Chem. It's all orange and pink above us. We went to another waterpark again. I love high fives again. Totally back in love." -Pete Wentz, June 28, 2005

PART 1

Warped Tour 2005: Summer of Like

It was the summer of 2005 and Fall Out Boy and My Chemical Romance went on the Vans Warped Tour together. The bassists of the two bands, Pete Wentz and Mikey Way, struck up a close friendship, noted by Pete’s LiveJournal blog posts, online and in person q&a responses, and reports from fans who attended Warped Tour and saw them interact.

Throughout the summer, Pete Wentz’s LiveJournal posts describe a new and passionate love affair. But when the summer ends, his blog posts turn sour, full of sadness, loneliness and regret. He details this whirlwind romance, speaking directly to the person who broke his heart through his LiveJournal from the summer of 2005 and all the way throughout 2006. The content of these blog posts later become lyrics to songs on Fall Out Boy’s 2007 album Infinity on High and more.

It is clear that Pete had an affair during Warped Tour in the summer of 2005 which inspired his song lyrics for years to come. The only question is, why do people believe this affair was with Mikey Way?

Warped Tour 2005: Background

FOB and MCR met for the first time in 2003 and the members became friends. The two bands were under the same record label and both a part of Warped Tour in 2004. In 2005, they shared the Bishop Stage during Warped Tour and even traded members frequently during their performances.

During this time, Pete and Mikey started a “gang” called Sweet Little Dudes. Pete often refers to this gang with Mikey in his q&a’s during this time. It seems like some of the other band members were also in the “gang” initially, but it ended up just being Pete and Mikey. They even had Sweet Little Dudes tee shirts! The two of them also started another two man “gang” that they called The Fraternal Order of the Handsome Boy. (This seems silly but remember it, I promise!)

The two were also reported to be very close by fans. When they weren’t playing together, they would watch each other’s performances from the side stage. There is an infamous story from fans who caught them coming out of a trailer together early in the morning, looking very tired and holding hands, and they asked the fans to not take photos. Pete and Mikey had a security guard after this point who kept fans from getting too close to them and taking photos. There are very few pictures of them together during Warped Tour 2005 because of this (and due to the fact that people had more limited access to cameras than we do today). At the time, fans were very conscious of the closeness between them and rumors of a relationship circulated.

So let's take a look at Pete's LiveJournal posts from the summer of 2005.

Totally back in love…

“Amazing New Mexico sunset. I’m hanging on a bridge with my friend Mikey Way from My Chem. It’s all orange and pink above us. We went to another waterpark again. I love high fives again. Totally back in love. Saw the most amazing movie… I think it’s called Spirited Away. Watch it. Peterpan” June 28, 2005

On June 28th, Pete makes this iconic post, detailing the fun times he is having with Mikey and how much he is enjoying the summer. This is only ten days into Warped Tour, and this is the start of speculation that Pete and Mikey were more than friends.

Fourth of July

“I love the way you have me”“Like a boy loves a boy”“I love your tired eyes trying to keep up with us on stage. I love the way you’re gonna make me an honest man”“I love waking up at 9am. I love the night. I love living forever. I love summer. I am loving this and you and everything”“You can’t miss me, baby boy, we’re doing big things”“Hot and miserable but totally in love.” July 4, 2005

On July 4th, Pete makes several cryptic posts, also detailing how much he is enjoying summer and the people he is with - specifically “you”.

July is when Pete begins directing his posts at the mysterious “you”. Previously, when he was talking about his ex-girlfriend, he used her name and spoke about her with third person pronouns. From now on, his posts are genderless, and directed at “you”.

Remember this... the 4th of July.

Baby, I’ve got it bad for you

“Close your eyes and put the speaker next to your pillow. Dream away. Dream yourself to life. Stop wasting your eyes trying to figure out who is the heart - the smile - the voice - the words. You can't pull them apart. It’s just a mess. How you understand us is so one dimensional. But changes are coming. You won't wrap your head around us so easily. "You're nobody until somebody loves you" at least that's half true. Let's not make it through the night. Come on. You look so wrong but you feel so right. "He tastes like you only sweeter he tastes like you only sweeter he tastes like you only sweeter he tastes like you only sweeter..." and so on until the end. Sometimes I'm just a goddamned lunatic. But I only keep myself this sick in the head cause I know how you get off on these words. Baby, I’ve got it bad for you.” July 12, 2005

Pete has a habit of debuting future FOB lyrics in his cryptic blog posts. His July 12th ramblings contain references to Thnks fr th Mmrs and I’m Like A Lawyer…

Thnks fr th Mmrs (2007):

I noticed that both in the post and the lyrics, "He tastes like you only sweeter" is in quotes. We'll talk more about this song later

I’m Like A Lawyer With The Way I’m Always Trying To Get You Off (Me & You) (2007)

Here we go...

Better off as lovers

“Wrote you a goodbye note (you just wrote me off) on your arm when you passed out. Bestfriends, exfriends - better off as lovers not the other way around. Racing through the city in the back of yellow checkered cars. The takeoffs are the worst but the skin from your shoulder to your ear makes it all worth it. And I’m sorry the way my moods flicker on and off like old light on your porch, but I know you wouldn’t have it any other way. Sneaking in your window instead of out. The way you hold a cigarette cause you don’t know what to do with your hands when we are sitting this close. The way waists of pants feel better at the ankles. The way you were always my best excuse for calling in sick to everyone else. I miss you. Petey” July 19, 2005

Here, (when FOB left Warped Tour to flying out for the Kimmel show for one day) Pete is reflecting on the secret relationship he has embarked on, with someone who is supposed to be just a friend. He admits that this relationship is not perfect, but this affair brings him great thrill, and he has fallen hard. He’s gone for one day and he says “I miss you”.

Bang The Doldrums (2007)

Again... better off as more than just friends.

Fictional Stories

I'm going to break this post down into smaller parts to analyze because it is long! It is from July 21, 2005.

“Lately I’ve been into believing fictional stories like the ones about me and you being happy. They’ve gotta be science fiction because how else can you have a monster fall in love with a boy with no heart? Actually I’m pretty sure you have a heart, but I’m just as certain it’ll never be mine. I can tell you’re willing to be loved somewhere on the inside but that doesn’t do me any good when I’m still seeing things through thick curtains over windows and padlocked doors on the outside."

Who is the monster and who is the boy with no heart? Pete follows it up with “I’m pretty sure you have a heart” which implies Pete is referring to himself as the monster who fell in love with a boy… He does not go on to refer to the other person as a monster, he instead goes on to talk about their heart. He feels like this person is shutting him out, resisting to be loved.

Also, “fictional stories… about me and you being happy”? Like all the rumors that they were dating? When in reality it was more complicated and messier than that?

“Bitter regrets, predictable forfeits. We lit a fire that was nothing but smoke and hot air. Ashes. My hands are empty and you hold all the cards, kind of funny how you don’t even want them/me. The final nail in my coffin stabbed me in the heart - from my back. You once made my heart skip a beat, now you make it want to skip this. You’ve got salty nails ripping my wounds open that you’re telling me to let heal. Love is a mirage, you only think it’s there for so long… til you either wise up or die of hydration. Love is the way to blow your brains out minus the gun, I swear. It’s the stupidest form of suicide cause you don’t die. And whatever doesn’t kill you only laughs at you for coming close enough to."

He fell hard, and now he feels like he is being betrayed and hurt, both by his lover and by his own heart for letting himself fall.

Also, I think he means “dehydration” not “hydration”.

“Sorry, it’s just the bitterness talking. Ignore it/me. I’m just loose words hanging on the ends of your lips, even looser when I’m anywhere near your hips. Poetry written from blistered fingertips and sleep deprived eyes that was better before the ink dried. He said, ‘I should have stayed with her,’ and I should have stayed away."

“He” thinks he should have stayed with a “her” and Pete should have stayed away. Interesting, interesting.

“I tried, I gave it/you my all, but all I can do is give up. I don’t tell you my insecurities so you can use them against me, but help me get over them. Instead you said and did the worst thing you could do. Worse than cheating to me, I hope you know. But whatever I don’t even know, I guess sometimes it takes losing what you had to see what you didn’t. Sooo yeah, this is where I actually admit I’m tired, and I go to bed. Sweet. Goodnight.” July 21, 2005

Pete feels hopeless, close to giving up. This person has really wronged him - with something “worse than cheating” - after he was so vulnerable with them.

Something happened between July 19th, where things were starting to get contentious, and July 21st, where Pete now feels wronged and heartbroken. The person he is talking to knows what they did - “you said and did the worst thing you could do” but we do not know what this means. This post is targeted for the mysterious “you” as the reader.

Some last notes on Warped Tour...

Messages on your arm

“The Warped Tour was fun. Since being home I remembered that showering and sleeping are fun too. My real feelings on the sunburst bass. I loved that thing. But then it started cheating on me in a mikey way. I had to hit it. It’s not my fault- spousal abuse is an ugly thing. I’m in therapy that includes playing lots of warcraft online. Writing messages on your arm for someone to see at a show is the new away message - stealing peoples real diary is the new livejournal.” August 19, 2005

Similar to “wrote a goodbye note on your arm when you passed out”, Pete talks about writing messages on someone’s arm again here. Mikey often appeared with words written on his arm during the tour. These say “EASY” and “FUCKED”.

I <3 Revenge

According to fans, Pete would often dedicate Fall Out Boy songs to “Mikey Revenge” on stage before they played them. Mikey changed his social media handles to “Mikey Revenge” for a while - MCR’s album at the time was called Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge.

 Additionally, during the Warped Tour Pete often wore a custom made shirt that said “I heart Revenge”.  He also often wore a pin with Mikey’s face on it.

Clandestine Industries

Quick side note because I did not know where else to put this: Clandestine Industries is Pete’s clothing brand. Mikey was a big fan and often hung out with Pete at the Clandestine tent on tour.

So... Warped Tour 2005

Pete’s LiveJournal posts during the summer of 2005 paint a clear picture of a relationship he had during this tour that was short lived, sexual, and had a profound impact on him.

His references to Mikey, their close relationship noted by fans, and the fact that language in Pete’s posts point to him speaking about another man begs the question:

If Pete’s Warped Tour lover was not Mikey, then who was it?

Mikey is the only person he was reported to be so close with during this time - he was not rumored to be dating anyone else, man or woman.

During this time, Pete makes references to lots of other people in his posts, mainly William Beckett from The Academy, Patrick Stump, and Frank Iero. He makes a lot of sexual jokes about how much he loves these friends of his, but he does not speak this same way about Mikey - the one person he was actually rumored to be with.

Time to move on from the summer that Pete has never moved on from…

The Fallout After Warped Tour

Me and You

“I always put my money on the longshots. And no matter where my head was in the world I always dreamed of waking up next to the biggest brown eyes I have ever seen/‘me and you underneath the honeymoon’. And you imagine yourself moving deep into the summer and disappearing, and for me it was always with you. And then things got crazy. You stopped calling me back. I stopped trying to call but not in my head. And then you got malicious but I’m guessing only because you learned from the best. Baby boy, you’re gonna be okay. Hearts between our knees sticking to the summer sheets. Are you catching my drift…. it’s gonna be alright. Your love would be hell but it’s just not hot enough, baby.” September 4th, 2005

He’s reminiscing about the summer and his fond, romantic memories with the person he was with. He is upset that “things got crazy” and the person stopped calling him back and started acting malicious once summer ended.

“Waking up next to the biggest brown eyes I have ever seen Me and you underneath the honeymoon”

I’m Like A Lawyer With The Way I’m Always Trying To Get You Off (Me & You) (2007)

We previously talked about the “I only keep myself this sick in the head” line in this song, but the chorus of this song comes from this September 4th blog post.

The song, alternatively titled “Me & You”, was a single on FOB’s 2007 album.

The use of the word “honeymoon” both in the blog post and in the song is interesting, because he says they are “underneath the honeymoon” and “setting in a honeymoon” - it sounds like he might be referring to the actual moon.

Dear world, fuck you

“The reason we never told anyone is because we knew the world would ruin it. And at the end of the day it did. And you were my home. It didn’t matter what was said when our heads were on the sides of the pillows. It’s so hard to find someone who likes me for me and not because I am Pete from Fall Out Boy. And I found them. And then watched it fade. Dear world, fuck you.” September 6th, 2005

Two days later, Pete is very bitter thinking about the love he has lost. It is interesting that he uses gender neutral language when he says he found “them”. It also makes sense that someone who was also a musician in a similarly popular band would see Pete as more than just “Pete from Fall out Boy”.

Because this is only two days after the post where he talked about “imagining yourself moving deep into the summer and disappearing”, it is safe to assume this relationship that was kept a secret is the same as the summer fling he was just talking about.

Duke of Handsomeness

Don’t worry! Pete and Mikey are still friends. On November 13th, 2005 he responds to a fan who asks “how good are you friends with Mikey Way??”

This gang stuff is going somewhere, I promise!

Just something to keep me hanging onto

“I wrote you a letter a few hours ago that I never intended to give you in the first place and then ripped it up and threw it away because it’s much too personal to say on paper. Even over a phone. The words I said in it I need to say to you in person. I guess it felt better to write it all out. It’s easier to say “I only need 5 seconds with you than a lifetime with someone else” than it is to live it. To be honest, I’m dying from it. I’m really not ready for what you want from me, but with how you’re never around it makes me wonder what you really do want from me. Honestly, it sure doesn’t feel like much. I said I’d be fine if you gave me a little note or a call once and a while, once a day even, just something to keep hanging onto, but you can’t even do that so yeah… I don’t know. Am I being ridiculous? It’s just hard for me to keep going like this… my heart is lots easier to fool than me. I think that’s what makes this so hard.” November 23, 2005

The heartbreak and desperate attempt to keep this person in his life is detailed here. He is posting this message to the world, but it is directed towards the one person who he feels is ignoring him, who he is so desperate to talk to on the phone, who he wants to write a letter to, but can’t bear to send it.

You and me are the last hot day of summer

“I love how I thought this was all over and I have to face the same two months replayed for the rest of my life. My head and heart are beating the shit out of me trying to see what hurts worse. Kinda like us. Yep. Summer wasn’t hot enough but I had hoped winter was gonna be the coolest. I obviously thought wrong. You and me are the last hot day in summer. We’re just fading before the fall.” December 22, 2005

Pete is continuing to pine after his summer fling into December. He is plagued with the memories of summer replaying in his mind.

Something surprising happened around Christmas of 2005 - Mikey got engaged to his first wife, Alicia. They only dated for a brief period of time, as she stated they were not together during Warped Tour 2005, although she was a guitar tech on the tour.

Could this be why Mikey began ignoring Pete and his phone calls in the fall of 2005, because he had begun dating the girl he planned on marrying?

Let's look at what happened in 2006 and beyond...

Link to Part 2 - 2006 And Beyond:

https://www.tumblr.com/hillyroberts/787601865437216768/pete-wentz-and-mikey-way-shared-a-new-mexico?source=share

Link to Part 3 - Song Analysis:

https://www.tumblr.com/hillyroberts/787601879691591680/pete-wentz-and-mikey-way-shared-a-new-mexico?source=share

[foolishmortal]

yeah while I am supportive of the ship because we always love seeing more queer people on screen, I'm not personally that invested at them. we never got to see them get together, and in order to do that, they should have started building the relationship in season two, instead of whatever the fuck that Hannibal and Alana thing was that they did.

I had this whole conceit of what would happen in season 2, and part of it was definitely Freddie and Alana putting aside their mutual animosity from season 1 to investigate some things that just don't feel right. both of them strike up an unlikely bond, and who knows where that might have gone?

if you really wanted to set up Margot and Alana in season 2, you could have just simply made Alana her therapist. and maybe at some point Alana realizes that her feelings are a little too intense, and so she excuses herself from being Margot's therapist and refers her to her trusted colleague ... Hannibal. Hannibal is where Margot dumps all of her dark thoughts and feelings, so that she can be an unburdened version of herself for Alana. and Hannibal exploits the hell out of that.

just like.. SCREAMS. there's so much great stuff here, but I feel like seasons two and three were mostly based on scenes they wanted to shoot, and the plot was secondary. I've been mad about it basically ever since it aired, but it's hard to talk about without sounding unsupportive of the show or these characters. Alana's overarching multi-season plot and character development is all over the place. I don't think they had a plan for that character at all - Bryan just wanted to work with Caroline Dhavernas again. Which is his prerogative as director but as a viewer following one of the only main female leads in this show, it was incredibly frustrating.

I'm really enjoying the tags and comments from everybody in this post.

Unpopular opinion: Alana and Margot have zero chemistry. Like, both beautiful, can see both as lesbians, but theirs is the most uninspiring ship imaginable.

I am very curious how you guys feel about this one.

[eidollatry]

We want to make a proper intro eventually, but right now I'm just thinking about some of our different kintypes..

Edward: vampirekin, gargoylekin, elfkin, unicornkin dollhearted

Edward Lurancy (also goes by just Lurancy: vampirekin, haunted dollkin, gargoylekin, elfkin, questioning fallen angelkin & ghostkin

Ever: werewolf/wolfkin, faekin, questioning crowkin

Samhain: dogkin, questioning demonkin

Brighton: angelkin

Payton: dollhearted, angelhearted, rabbithearted

Shiloh: plushlink/toylink, androidhearted

Hudson: dollhearted

Lovelace: dollkin

[ihavesomejays]

text transcription:

Many springs ago, I perceived a sea of flowers upon a lake. I thought to myself that those fleeting colors held indescribable beauty.

The next time I perceived those colors was many years later, when the medic’s tent had blinded me to all but red. The radiance of that shining star was lost on my eyes.

Now, my eyes no longer perceive the subtleties in the colors around me.

But I am content.

For I can now see the most brilliant colors in my universe.

anyways yeah why did they fucking do that to jiaoqiu bro

the planning for this experimentalish comic is under keep reading

[7cfc00]

Cast: Hermie the Unworthy as Theatre Kid with Identity Issues!