#tmhtb

[lumonceo]

I want to be able to articulate my relationship to the fanfiction I was writing in high school that continued a lot longer mostly because of the pandemic not only tho. Because there are 700 thousand words of it and many many people have read it and I started writing it when I was 15. 15!!!! I was writing 2000 words every day after my high school theater rehearsal. And loved it for like 6 years, which is also crazy because the writing I was doing towards the end of it is obviously so much better. And it’s like an artifact for what I loved for 6 years and what I was going through like I stretched out a pretty trite plot over a million pieces to the point where like it didn’t make sense it was simply my channeling what I wanted to write into characters I was obsessed with who were characters from something else but not really because I took their names and like a couple characteristics from the fucking marvel cinematic universe and then was telling my little story that I love(d) and was so incredibly attached to and it was like the main thing I thought about in high school and my first year of college. And I do love it and am proud that I did that as a teenager and live in fear of someone in my real life finding it and connecting it back to me. It has inspired real writing for me! Sometimes I reread it and am so embarrassed. I think it’s pretty good in some ways and also think it’s incredibly cringeworthy in others. I’m haunted by the epilogue I haven’t written for the last part of it. It was my labor of love! I still walk by places in nyc and I’m like that’s where this scene happened in my mind. Sometimes I can’t sleep because I’m like here’s how I would write it differently if I started now with my more mature understanding of storytelling and humans. I’m not gonna do that but it makes me sad that I’m not. My playlist for us is full of Ed Sheeran and Taylor swift but I will never delete it. I will never forget it I hope no one I love ever reads it it brought me a friend I will treasure forever I’m kind of embarrassed that it’s still up on the internet but don’t think I’ll ever bring it down it has made me love writing and honestly be such a better writer (700 thousand words!!!!!!) than I would be without it I can never let it go

[lumonceo]

Oh my god this is so so so gorgeous and made me so emotional WOW this is really beautiful I am just 🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧 god !!! Thank you for sharing this ahhhh

"Tell me how to breathe in and feel no hurt" by @cafelesbian is another Modern-AU Stucky fic and hands down, one of my favourites of all time. It also has several sequels that I want to bind eventually, but I haven't gotten around to them yet. This was also the first time I used golden metal corners.

[romeythehomie]

genuinely impressive how much of a cesspool any sort of marvel fandom is. this has always been true and i should not be surprised but sometimes you are in the mood to read about bucky barnes just being sad as shit and of thousands of people there’s like. two that deliver

[lumonceo]

sometimes i think about the scene where steve and bucky meet again and im like yeah i have to reread that again. it’s just so. it’s SO.

Omdjfhjsbf that is such high praise thank you babe

[lumonceo]

therapy: expensive rereading the tmhtb scene where bucky tells steve what happened to him while theyr in the bathrub: free

ajksdfghdkjkfg i love u

[lumonceo]

TELL ME HOW TO BREATHE listen my bestie sent this to me and didn’t say anything except “read it” and it’s so good it makes me SICK

Pls I need more, like it’s honestly essential to my survival 😌😌😌😌😌😌😌😌😌😌😌😌

(2) Listen the entirety of tmhtb is a work of art but the way you write all the beach scenes in the past/present truly make my ribs ACHE whenever I read them it’s like medicine (I would know, I’m a medical student, so I’m actually qualified to tell u this 😫🌹)

(3)RUNNING THROUGH STREETS THAT WERE PAINTED GOLD AAARRGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

please god I need more this fic is CRACK, I’m having withdrawal symptoms

PLEASE im gonna cry what did i do this week to deserve this much love !!!!!!!!! god !!!!!!!

[lumonceo]

Ok I hope this is the right blog lmao I saw it linked on ao3 but ...

TELL ME HOW TO BREATHE literally makes me stop breathing!!!! (See this is why I read other people’s writing because clearly I cannot write myself) but ahshdanajjsfhshah I do not have to words to express how good this series is I love you

(Also side note but literal death to Alexander pierce I hate him lmao)

Will I be able to watch anything with Robert Redford ever again? Probably not, but your writing is worth itttttttt.

(2) Ugh hello I just finished reading your ENTIRE tmhtb series from a rec list ...............

Please god I’m telling you now I need more, truly I will read another 500,000 words about these idiots eating breakfast I do not care literally ANYTHING shame on you for making me cry so much over the past week smh 😫

(3) Uhhhh even in the dark is so FUCKING INCREDIBLE how dare you write this absolute work of art.

You don’t understand for some reason I am incapable of reading 20 pages of uni work but I have inhaled the entire tmhtb series in less than 48 hours 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

(4)Holy shit a mutual just recommended tmhtb it’s the greatest literary work of our generation IDC, I NEED MORE 🌞

(No pressure or anything lol I just need u to understand how much I love it) 🌹🌷🌹🌷🌹🌷🌹

You GUYS I have no words this means so much to me aldjskfhskhfs i really just opened tumblr and had my entire day made :) and i am absolutely sure you will get more content maybe just in short bursts rather than long ass fics but I cannot let go of these two at all and it makes me very very very happy that other people think that too hehe :) also someone link me to this rec aldjskfhskhfskcb ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[lumonceo]

Hey I saw your answer to another anon the other day saying how you didn’t think you’d write another part to tmhtb but if you ever did, a new part about stucky becoming parents would be the best 😭😭😭

I’ve literally not stopped thinking about this series since I read it from a rec list, you are such an incredible writer! Also I hope this isn’t too weird and emotional but as someone who has struggled with a lot of the topics that you write about it’s literally the most validating and comforting thing especially since you write about it all so respectfully.

I’m sorry if this was too intense haha, I just wanted you to know how much I appreciate you and this series!!

💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

Hi my love!! This message made me so so happy on a day when I really needed it thank you for saying all that I am sending u endless love

Also !!! I don’t know if I’d write a chartered fix of them as parents mostly because I don’t want to put them through the conflict that would have to make it an interesting fic but I will absolutely write some short ones and in fact here is a sneak peak of one 💜

[lumonceo]

Every morning I wake up, drink coffee, and reread the scene from tmhtb where Bucky and Steve find eachtoerh again, bite me idc

lejkdfsghukjalf i hope that starts your day on a positive and cheerful note

[lumonceo]

“Moments like these, Bucky thinks, he can understand religion. Not the hateful, awful thing that was used against him as sharp as any weapon, but an awe at this kind of majesty, at facing something so beautiful with someone you love”

I am broken 🙂

SORHEJRH I apologize u can request damage fees on Venmo

[lumonceo]

im rereading the tmhtb trial right now and im just in awe of how incredible of a job you did writing it. it’s so plausible, i’d honestly think you were in law or something lol

hehe thank you this is like the best compliment i coudl get :)) i had a lot of fun writing that and learning about the legal system lol

[lumonceo]

I just saw your post saying you’re really anxious right now, and I’m so sorry, but it really made me laugh because whenever I’m anxious I reread tmhtb in it’s entirety so bestie ..... that’s my advice

I hope you feel better soon ❤️

this message made me laugh out loud thanks my love <3 i have slept and now i do feel better :)

[lumonceo]

Oh that I believe in us update has me tearing up in my Uber back home. Your writing is so tender, Addie

🥺thank you dear glad I could provide some uber ride entertainment

[lumonceo]

Ugh not to be sappy but tmhtb makes up an embarrassingly large part of my emotional support system - thank you so so so much for your dedication to the series. Literally love you

wow i LOVE YOU this means very very much to me im so !!! thank ou my love

[lumonceo]

I’ve literally just spent the last 3 days bingeing all your tmhtb content and it’s so incredible I’m literally re-reading it all because I don’t want it to end. Would you ever consider writing another part to it? It’s so so good!!! 😭😭😭😭😭

omg hi this makes me SO happy. idk if i'd write another long part to it but i will certainly be popping in with shorter pieces and one shots and stuff because i love that universe very much and can't let it go hehe so i am glad there are people who still want to read it :) thank you i love u

[lumonceo]

Addie I need more tmhtb

You’re amazing ⭐️

hehe i love u so much