#to me it's a sign of self-confidence when I and others can see and discuss the weaknesses in our works

[petiolata]

For me it's not the self-conscious part of my brain. My creations are not a product for consumption. I will talk about my works' flaws and my struggles with making them, those are parts of my creative process and I like to share those with others, and I like when others artists and writers do the same.

I don't have to pretend to be perfect, or that my work is perfect. Nor do my summaries, notes, tags, have to be designed with maximum appeal to a consumer.

I understand that some people have a problem with self-deprecation and shame about their works, but not everyone discussing the flaws in their work is having an unhealthy mental process at play. Some of us are objective in our observations, or at the very least, our observations are not being driven by negative emotions.

I would not advise people to pretend they think their work is good, if they don't. There's not really a reason to fake confidence unless you have a concrete goal it serves, like getting accepted into a college or job, or better selling products. Outside of that, it serves no purpose in itself.

Now, actually changing the way you think about or view your work--that can be good. But simply hiding the bad thoughts is doing just that--hiding them, sweeping them under the rug. They still exist.

you'll get the urge as an artist or a writer to say out loud the things you're worried about "the proportions are off" "kind of out of character" "i'm not good at summaries" "didn't get as much detail as i wanted" "i made a mistake and here's how" and that's the self-conscious part of your brain telling you "it's bad and if you don't tell them you know it's bad then they'll think you're stupid" but you've got to ignore that little voice and pretend you think it's good or else that little voice is going to ruin your life

[tarotwithavi]

What is coming into your life?

+ some messages that you need to hear

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How to choose a pile?

Close your eyes and take a deep breath and ask the angels to show you the right pile for you and open your eyes. The first pile that catches your attention is the right pile for you.

This is a general reading so take what resonates and leave the rest.

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Pile 1

The first thing I’m getting is that many of you have been focusing on personal growth, and it’s paying off. I see a lot of you realizing that you’re truly capable of achieving anything you set your mind to. You’re stepping into a powerful energy of self-confidence and self-love, and this shift is going to attract a lot of good things into your life.

Keep your eyes open for new ideas, projects, or invitations that come your way. Whether it’s a sudden thought or an offer to attend an event, these opportunities could be really beneficial for you. Trust your instincts.

Some of you might be considering doing something that no one in your family has done before. This could be a bold move or a unique choice. I want to encourage you to take that leap. By doing so, you will break a cycle of family patterns, especially around standing up for yourself and your dreams. It’s a brave step, but it’s one that will bring healing and growth.

I’m also picking up that some of you will soon spend quality time with an important male figure in your life. This could be your father, grandfather, or someone you look up to with strong masculine energy. This time together will feel meaningful and may even strengthen your relationship. Some of you are thinking about having an important conversation with your parents. This could be about expressing gratitude for everything they’ve done for you, or it could be about something else on your mind. Either way, I see this discussion changing perspectives in a positive way, bringing deeper understanding.

I also sense that many of you will receive a new opportunity related to making more money. This might come through a job offer, a project, or a chance to use your talents in a way that allows you to earn from them. This is a great time to explore how your skills can be turned into something valuable.

However, I do feel that some of you are worried or stressed about something, particularly when it comes to the outcome of an exam, test, or project. Let me reassure you—you don’t need to worry. The results will be positive, and you’ll feel satisfied with how things turn out.

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Pile 2

You need to stop giving your time and energy to people who don’t appreciate or value you. If you are in a position where you can protect and care for the people you love, then do so without overthinking the outcome. However, if you’re not in a place to make decisions for them, it’s important not to try and control everything. Remember, before you can protect or help others, you need to protect yourself first. Secure your own place, take care of your own well-being, and then you can support those around you.

It’s also important to understand that you don’t always have to be strong. It’s okay to just be yourself. You don’t need to carry the weight of everyone else’s problems. Be honest about how you feel, and don’t be afraid to show vulnerability.

I see that many of you are incredibly talented, with unique skills and gifts. But what’s holding you back is your own self-doubt. You might feel like your talents won’t be appreciated or recognized, so you keep them hidden. But how will you ever find people who truly appreciate you if you don’t share what makes you special? Take this as a sign to put yourself out there. Show your talents to the world so you can connect with those who truly see your worth and value your skills.

For some of you, there’s a big change coming. You may be pushed in a new direction or forced to change the path you’re currently on because it’s no longer good for you. Don’t see this as a bad thing; instead, view it as an opportunity for growth and self-improvement. This change could lead you to a better version of yourself.

I also sense that some of you are stuck in a confusing or unstable relationship. The person you’re talking to or have feelings for might be giving you mixed signals , one moment they seem totally in love with you, and the next, they act like you don’t matter to them. If this is the case, it’s important to recognize that this is not a healthy situation. When someone’s actions make you doubt yourself, it’s a clear sign that something isn’t right. It’s better to walk away now, before it hurts you more in the long run.

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Pile 3

I see that in the coming weeks, you’re going to need to work very hard on something important. This could be related to a project, job, or personal goal you’ve been focused on. However, all this hard work might take a toll on your health, so it’s important to be extra careful and take good care of yourself. Don’t push yourself too hard. If you feel stressed or overwhelmed, make sure to take small breaks when needed. Remember, it’s okay to slow down sometimes.

The good news is that what you’re working on ; whether it’s something you’re involved with now or something you’ll start soon , is something you’ve been wanting for a long time. You’ve probably dreamed about this moment, so stay positive and trust the process.

I feel the need to remind you that you are deeply loved by the higher power, whether you believe in God, the universe, or Mother Nature. No matter how many mistakes you make or how unworthy you may feel at times, you are always loved and supported. You are part of something greater, and that love is unconditional.

Now, take a moment to think of a yes-or-no question that’s been on your mind. The answer to that question is “no.” This might be the guidance you need to help you move forward.

Back to the main message, something significant is going to happen within the next few weeks. I would say by the end of this month or the first week of October, you’ll experience an event that will bring up strong emotions. It could be overwhelming happiness or sadness, but either way, the feelings will be intense. Be prepared, and try not to let the situation control how you react. Stay calm and centered, no matter what comes your way.

Also, a little advice: some of you need to wear more yellow or add yellow to your wardrobe. This color might bring positive energy into your life. If you’ve been feeling unwell, like having a fever or headache, I see that it will likely pass within 48 hours. But if you’ve been having constant headaches, don’t ignore them ,it might be time to see a doctor just to be safe.

Lastly, angel wings and a purple or pink dress will be meaningful symbols for you, so keep an eye out for them. They might show up in your life in some special way.

I also feel like adding this

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[the-cosmic-cauldron]

Unpopular Synastry Opinions 💘💓❣️💚💞💖💙💛🖤💗💜💔❤️💕

Disclaimer: This is a long post. If it doesn’t apply, let it fly. These explanations in my perspective resonate most with your Synastry based on the Whole Sign system.

💕 For me, in order to have a romantic connection with someone, their planets must fall into the houses of romance in your chart. If not, it doesn’t mean you won’t have a romantic relationship, but it does suggest that the connection might be more rooted in friendship, familiarity, work, career, or business rather than romance.

🏡The houses of romance are the 5th, 7th, 8th, and 12th houses.

1️⃣ The 1st house in synastry isn’t particularly amazing to me. In fact, I think it can cause more issues than it provides benefits. The reason is that everything becomes tied to the house person’s identity. For example, if your Sun falls in their 1st house, everything revolves around the house person’s sense of self. While there might be attraction and allure, it also creates a dynamic where the focus is heavily on one person. To me, this doesn’t really scream romance as much as it functions as a confidence booster for the house person. I think it works well if there are other connections to the romantic houses (5th, 7th, 8th, or 12th), as the 1st house overlay can complement those by boosting someone’s confidence within the relationship. However, on its own, I don’t see the 1st house as particularly compelling or significant for fostering deep romance.

(My first house falls in the Moon of my ex, and although he always gave me so many compliments, I never felt like I was extending that same energy to him. This can sometimes lead to the planet person feeling used. First house energy can often come across as selfish.)

2️⃣The 2nd house in synastry always points to a business partnership, working on a project, or trying to accomplish a goal together. To me, it is not a romantic house. It’s heavily focused on assets, finances, and values. While some people tend to romanticize it—because that’s part of the allure of synastry and the desire to find romantic connections—it’s ultimately a serious house. This is where you and the other person are likely to focus on discussions about goals, plans for making money, or increasing stability, rather than romance.It’s not a romantic house at all, and it can also be easily afflicted because it deals with sensitive matters like finances and personal values. If the planetary interactions aren’t beneficial, it can become detrimental. Someone’s planets in your 2nd house could mess up your money, disrupt your goals, complicate business ventures, or undermine your responsibilities and stability.

( All the people I’ve met whose planets fell in my second house were people I encountered when I was trying to accomplish something, had a goal in mind, or was driven and focused on achieving that goal. That’s why I believe the second house isn’t really a house of romance—when you meet these people, you’re not necessarily looking for romance; you’re focused on your goals.

For example, I met two people whose planets fell in my second house while I was in cosmetology school, focused on earning my cosmetology license. I also met a guy in college while I was working toward my degree and pursuing education. Another time, I met someone whose planet fell into my second house, and they actually introduced me to someone else whose planet also fell into my second house.

I’ve noticed a consistent theme: most of the time, when you meet people whose planets fall in your second house, it’s in structured environments like work or school. You might meet them while handling finances at the bank or while pursuing a skill or goal in life. These connections often happen when you’re focused on something significant.

However, these relationships can go either way—they may uplift and support you, or they may become a detriment. In my experience, many of these people ended up being more of a detriment than a positive influence, likely because the second house can sometimes be afflicted and easily lean into its negative aspects.)

3️⃣The 3rd house, to me, is best suited for friendships. The reason it works well for friendships is that it fosters a talkative dynamic. With someone’s planets in your 3rd house, you’re likely to have a relationship where you both enjoy talking about your day-to-day lives, sharing what’s going on, gossiping, and having casual chit-chat.This placement often involves doing things together around town, like going to the mall, visiting restaurants, hanging out at bars or clubs, spending time in nature, or attending events. The energy of the 3rd house brings a sense of local community and a hometown vibe. It emphasizes communication, sharing ideas, and bouncing thoughts off one another.Because of this, the 3rd house is ideal for friendships, as it creates a lighthearted, engaging, and socially active connection.

(The third house is another place where you can meet people, particularly in learning environments. This could include retreats, workshops, hobby classes (like candle-making), or even orientations at school or work. Essentially, any setting where learning takes place is a likely spot to meet someone whose planet falls into your third house.

For example, I once met someone whose Ascendant fell into my third house, and what’s interesting is that we met in a communication class in college. I always find that so fitting for third house energy. When we started talking, we really hit it off—we were texting 24/7, chatting constantly, and hanging out frequently. We’d go to local places like restaurants or ice cream shops, which is so typical of third house energy.

Our activities were very local: we’d attend festivals, events, bars, and clubs together. It wasn’t about long-distance travel; it was about enjoying day-to-day life in the same area. We’d gossip, share details about our daily lives, and even FaceTime when one of us went on vacation—she would literally show me her day in real time.

The third house energy also shaped the tone of our conversations. Since her Ascendant was in Aquarius, we often had open-ended discussions about the future, radical ideas, activism, and LGBTQ topics. This placement is fantastic for friendships—it’s the “bestie energy,” where you always want to hang out locally and talk endlessly. It’s the type of connection where you’re constantly saying, “Let’s go anywhere in town and just hang out.”)

4️⃣The 4th house, to me, is not really a good house for romance or friendship. The reason I say this is that for romance, the 4th house is about familiarity, but that familiarity doesn’t always feel good. It can be something like, “Oh, you remind me of home,” but what is home? That’s different for everyone. People come from all sorts of backgrounds, and what feels familiar to one person might be unhealthy. For some, home could mean toxic people, manipulators, narcissists, abusers, or individuals who lack compassion. Navigating the 4th house can be difficult because not everyone has a positive experience with familiarity. This house also focuses a lot on home life, and when it’s negatively afflicted, it can cause tension between you and this person’s family. Their family might not accept you, they could judge you, or it could simply create a dependent relationship. In friendships or romantic relationships, the 4th house can trigger old wounds, leading to feelings of being stuck, codependent, or bogged down.That said, if someone comes from a healthy, nurturing home environment and has a positive background, the 4th house can create a sense of comfort and security, especially if familiarity is what they’re seeking. However, most people are often looking for something different than their family or roots when they seek a partner or even a friend. They want something new and different. So, for many, the 4th house can be an afflicted house.

(In my experience with people whose planets fell into my fourth house, the relationship always felt like I already knew them. With fourth house energy, there’s this overwhelming sense of familiarity—you feel like you’ve met this person before, or they remind you of someone from your family or home life. It’s almost as if they embody the essence of your upbringing, and that familiarity can create an instant connection.

When you meet someone with planets in your fourth house, they might remind you of your family or your home life, making it feel like you can understand them easily. There’s a sense of relating to them on a deep level because they reflect so much of what you’ve already experienced.

However, what I don’t like about fourth house energy is how it mirrors so much of your home life and your past. The relationship tends to reflect your prior experiences, including your upbringing and relationships within your family. If your home life wasn’t healthy or was filled with challenges, this can be incredibly triggering.

For example, I grew up dealing with manipulation at home, and I met someone whose personal planet fell into my fourth house who was also very manipulative. Another person with this placement was extremely emotional, which mirrored the highly emotional environment I grew up in. Like me, this person had also grown up in an emotionally destabilized home and dealt with similar abuses. Relationships like these can create a trauma bond because you’re connecting over shared wounds and struggles from your past.

Of course, if you had a healthy and happy home life, this dynamic might feel completely different and positive. But when that’s not the case, it can feel overwhelming and even draining. Most of the fourth house relationships I’ve been in have felt familiar and similar to me, but that similarity wasn’t always a good thing. At times, it felt like it hindered the relationship because it didn’t foster growth or bring anything new to the table.

The fourth house energy often brings relationships that reflect what you’re used to. But I think most people, myself included, are usually looking for something different—something outside of their comfort zone and past experiences. Fourth house relationships tend to repeat patterns from the past or bring people who are too similar to you.

For instance, I tend to avoid confrontation when I have issues, and I can be quite passive. I met someone whose planet fell into my fourth house, and they were exactly the same way. Instead of addressing problems, they just blocked me, which is something I’ve been guilty of doing as well.

People whose planets fall into your fourth house can act like a mirror, reflecting your past or your unresolved issues. They can be so similar to you that it becomes difficult to grow or create the kind of relationship you truly want. These relationships often feel like they have unresolved tension or lingering issues, and they don’t always foster a deep or fulfilling connection.)

5️⃣ To me, the 5th house is all about romance. Some people often talk about how the 5th house is fleeting, but you have to understand that they only attribute that perception because they’re projecting their own idea of romance onto the 5th house. The 5th house represents the type of romance you see in the movies, where someone gives you flowers, shows up for dates, writes love letters, and you’re going to different places together, enjoying time with each other. It’s the kind of romance where you’re so in love and captivated with one another, always wanting to be around each other, bringing each other happiness. You smile more when you’re together, and life just feels better because you’re doing things you love, inspired by the other person. The 5th house is a deeply romantic house. I don’t fall into the trap of thinking, “Oh, it’s not long-lasting.” I think people often say that because they’re projecting their own idea of romance onto it. But the 5th house brings that idealized, cheesy romance—the kind where you write each other love letters, poems, or even sing to each other. It’s giving gifts, roses, and all the Pinterest-worthy relationship moments. That’s the energy the 5th house brings.When you see an artsy couple painting together, that’s 5th house energy. When you see a couple who’s always laughing, giggling, and having fun, that’s 5th house energy. And when you see a couple who can’t keep their hands off each other, always touching and feeling on each other, that’s 5th house energy too. It’s a house that brings a fun, playful, and passionate vibe to relationships.

( The people whose personal planets fall in my fifth house always make everything feel like a fun time, where the focus is really just on fun, romance, and romantic things. Even with my sister, whose personal planet falls in my fifth house, we are really close. She’s done so many romantic things for me, like giving me romantic gifts, and we’re affectionate with each other. We write each other long paragraphs, compliment each other, and do fun things together. We try out hobbies like planting plants, doing artwork, and doing makeup together. We just have so much fun—we laugh together and always watch these dramatic shows, which is such fifth house energy.

Even in friendships, the fifth house energy makes things so enjoyable. You’re always going out to eat, doing things that make you laugh, and creating memories together. You’re really loyal to each other and don’t want that loyalty to ever break. You go on a lot of dates and genuinely have fun. My ex, whose personal planet also fell into my fifth house, and I did the same things. We’d go to Dave & Buster’s to have fun, ride scooters all around town, and spend hours on FaceTime joking and laughing. We’d go out to eat together, enjoying food, and listen to music together. We wanted to start things together like hobbies. He’d write me love letters, send me paragraphs expressing his love, and dedicate songs to me. We had songs that were “ours.” He’d get me flowers and buy me gifts, things he didn’t do for other girls. He was so deeply in love with me and wanted to do all the cheesy and romantic things.

Fifth house energy is truly needed—it makes you feel so attracted to each other. You just appreciate each other so much, and giving gifts, compliments, and doing romantic things comes effortlessly. Even in friendships, you’re always ready to have a good time. You really become besties because you enjoy each other that much.)

6️⃣Again, I know a lot of people romanticize certain houses, but the 6th house is not one to romanticize. The 6th house is a boring house. It is not about romance. I think it’s a good house to have in your relationship with your parents. If you have a parent with a 6th house placement, it can make them a great, responsible parent to you. The 6th house handles day-to-day routines, work, goals, projects, responsibilities, and health. So, yes, if you have a relationship with your parent that involves the 6th house, that’s fine.However, you don’t want to have a friendship in the 6th house. It leads to a boring friendship—one that you probably have because you work together or attend school together. It’s a friendship that’s likely to fizzle out because, outside of the goal or task you’re working on, it lacks depth and becomes dull. It also requires a lot of work. With a parent and child, the 6th house is somewhat inevitable because parenting is a lot of work. But in a friendship or romantic relationship, if it requires too much work, it can cause strain. It can make you feel miserable, as if there’s no romance in the relationship.There’s also a level of service and duty in the 6th house. You might even feel obligated to the other person. That’s why I said the 6th house is best for parent-child relationships. In that dynamic, you’re more likely to feel obligated, but in a friendship or romance, it can feel burdensome.

(The sixth house is really a boring placement for me. I know a couple of people whose personal planets fall into my sixth house, and there’s always this sense of boredom. I feel like they’re boring, and I want more fun, adventure, and excitement, but they just can’t provide that for me. That’s what the sixth house is—it has a very dry energy, and it often comes with a feeling of obligation and work. You might feel obligated to these people, even if you genuinely don’t want to do things with them. You might still feel like, “Oh, I just have to do this for this person,” or, “Let me just suck it up and go hang out with them,” because that’s the energy they bring.

One thing I’ve noticed is that there are often really boring periods in the relationship where nothing exciting is happening. All your hangouts feel really dry—maybe you don’t have much to talk about or share. You’re only talking about your job or your goals, and there’s nothing else you’re really discussing. People with a sixth house placement will talk a lot about work, responsibilities, and their goals. There’s rarely any deep or fun conversation. A lot of these people focus on education or other serious topics, which adds to the boring feel.

Also, with sixth house energy, these are the kind of people who might give you only what they can offer, rather than meeting your expectations. You might expect more romance, fun, or excitement, but they’ll just give you, “Oh, let’s hang out and do this,” and nothing else is really planned. I had one person whose personal planet fell in my sixth house, and they were so boring to talk to—it was just a snooze fest. Another person, I always felt like I never had fun around them. Everything just felt dry. Communication can be deep in some aspects, but I feel like a lot of what they want to do is super boring and routine. They really just want to stick to their routine, and that’s what I don’t like about people whose personal planets fall into your sixth house—they’re unwilling to break out of their routine. You have to adjust to their routine, and if it’s someone in your family, you’re going to feel heavily obligated to them. You may not even care to be around them, but you still feel like you have to stick around and do things for them.)

7️⃣ The seventh house represents the quintessential romance that we are told about—opposites attract, and you find someone who completes you. The whole idea of the seventh house is that you meet someone who complements you, someone who makes you feel loved and makes everything in your life more meaningful. The seventh house is about opposites attracting. You come to this earth with only a certain amount of traits, attributes, or space for yourself, and then you find a partner who completes that picture for you. So, the seventh house is all about finding a soulmate. To me, the seventh house really indicates soulmate energy—the energy of your other half, the energy of what we could even call a twin flame. That’s the energy I get from the seventh house.For example, if you’re an Aries Rising, the seventh house would be Libra for you. In saying that, the seventh house is Libra for you, meaning Aries holds a certain energy opposite to Libra, and Libra holds a certain energy opposite to Aries. When they come together, they almost become complementary. The passive and the assertive unite to create a wholesome picture.When you think about the seventh house, you think about people bringing different qualities. You think about Libra bringing the romance, flowers, and all the beautiful romantic things. You think about Aries as the provider, the protector, the person who takes care of the house, makes sure the bills are paid, and makes decisions. It’s a traditional type of relationship that you get with the seventh house.For some people, they prefer the romance of the fifth house, but I would say the seventh house is more about a traditional relationship. It’s where the woman is more submissive and the man takes on the role of the head or the leader of the house. The seventh house energy suggests that we have roles that we’re assigned and we play, and that’s how we navigate our relationship. The seventh house is about courtship—the person you’re with courts you. It follows the traditional steps, like courting, proposing, getting married, and living happily ever after.

(People forget that your 7th house is based on your rising sign, not your sun sign. A lot of people will say, “Oh, I couldn’t go with this type of person based on their sun sign,” but it’s based on your rising. Every person I’ve met whose personal planet fell into my 7th house has had a crush on me. They’ve been interested, thought I was attractive, and enjoyed our conversations. I’ve had two people whose planets fell into my 7th house, and yes, they did find me attractive, but at the same time, they got really into me when we were talking. Just being able to have discussions with me drew them in even more. I feel like a lot of them thought I was the perfect person for them or the “good girl” for them.

I feel like 7th house energy represents someone feeling like you’re the right person for them. With friendships, it’s that type of bond where the other person really understands you. I had someone whose personal planet fell into my 7th house, and I felt like they truly understood me. They easily grasped my perspective, and I also felt like they were my vibe. I like to talk a lot, and they liked to talk a lot too—we just clicked.

7th house friendships can be really fun. Every time someone I’m around lands in my 7th house with any planet, they always want to talk to me. They get curious about me, feel like I’m a good person, and are drawn to the positive elements of me. I feel like people with a personal planet in my 7th house really like me. That’s what you often get—an affinity for you, even if you’re just friends. If you’re in a relationship, they always kind of like you. Even if you’re different, they’re interested in those differences. They don’t shy away from them; in fact, the differences pull them in. )

8️⃣Unlike the 5th and 7th houses—where the 5th house represents cheesy, romantic, fun couple goals, and the 7th house represents the traditional couple that leads to marriage—the 8th house represents the deep couple. Imagine a couple that has long, meaningful conversations, getting to know each other on a level most others don’t, where they can read each other’s minds and pick up on cues without speaking.Imagine a relationship where you can have tantric intimacy, or where just being around each other creates a sense of arousal. Picture a bond so strong that you feel like a ride-or-die partner, with unshakable loyalty to the deepest degree. No matter what happens, you remain devoted to this person, willing to go through thick and thin, hell and high waters, as long as you’re together. This is the type of person you would fight for—literally. It’s the kind of relationship where you protect your partner to the highest degree, never allowing anyone to disrespect them. That’s 8th house energy.The 8th house energy is staying up late, talking for hours about each other’s lives, bonding over past experiences, traumas, fears, and the most vulnerable parts of yourselves. It’s the kind of relationship where you can stare into each other’s eyes and see straight into each other’s souls. This type of relationship teaches you so much about yourself, both inside and outside the bedroom. It’s a bond where you trust your partner so deeply that you share things with them you wouldn’t with anyone else—your secrets, your money, your entire self.The 8th house energy is not for everyone, just as 7th house energy isn’t for everyone. The 8th house demands a level of depth, vulnerability, rawness, authenticity, and intimacy that touches every aspect of the relationship. It’s not a surface-level bond. It’s not the type of relationship you post about online for the aesthetic. Instead, it’s the type where you pour your heart out, writing five-page letters detailing every reason you love this person.The 8th house energy can feel so intertwined that when your partner goes through something, it feels like you’re going through it too. At times, the intensity can become overwhelming, leading to moments when you feel the need to take a step back and catch your breath. These relationships often experience heated arguments and deeply emotional highs and lows. Yet, despite the challenges, this is the type of relationship that fosters immense growth. It’s the ultimate catalyst for personal and relational evolution.

(Be prepared for deep bonds when someone’s personal planets are in your eighth house. Every person I’ve had dealings with whose personal planet is in my eighth house has resulted in a deep relationship. Usually, what happens is that if you’re dealing with someone of a gender you’re attracted to, there’s automatically a lot of focus on intimacy. That comes to the forefront, and it’s something that isn’t always talked about, but the eighth house brings up raw, primal energy—those suppressed desires. When you’re around that person, you just really want to unleash them. It also gives you this perspective of navigating intense emotions and channeling them into physical intimacy.

With friendships, the relationships are very deep, with a lot of loyalty. You can easily talk about deep topics quickly, often diving into trauma bonding. You discuss your fears and vulnerabilities, and you may feel more open to talk about things you normally wouldn’t. But with other people, especially in romantic dynamics, the eighth house energy can also be fearful and uncertain. You may not know if you can trust the person, and sometimes those bonds never fully develop because there’s a lack of trust. Trust issues often arise with eighth house energy.

I’ve had eighth house energy with people where I could talk to them on the phone for hours. With this energy, when you’re around them, you can feel their emotions. It creates an empathetic bond, especially depending on the sign it’s in. I’ve also noticed that eighth house energy prompts you to confront your trauma or unpack your issues. So, a lot of talking about personal struggles, trauma, and vulnerabilities happens. It creates a very ride-or-die relationship—you might hate the person one minute and love them the next, but there’s a loyalty that remains. It’s a very passionate relationship, and there’s a lot of passion shared between you.

What I’ve noticed in eighth house relationships is that they often go through cycles. You may be super close, then fall off, and then come back together. You’ll never really forget someone whose planet falls in your eighth house, or vice versa. They’re the type of person you think about deeply, even if things are no longer happening. These relationships can get overwhelming at times, and you may need space from each other. At some point, stepping back from the situation is necessary. Money often comes into play with eighth house energy—either the person doesn’t want to spend on you, they’re going through a financial crisis, you need money, or you end up loaning them money. Money is always somehow tied to eighth house relationships.)

9️⃣The 9th house is not typically seen as an ideal house to share with someone in a relationship. It often represents distance, usually physical distance. Whether the relationship is with a family member, a friend, or a lover, there’s likely to be some physical separation involved. At some point, you may find yourselves apart due to opportunities for personal growth, education, or differing life paths—such as one person moving to a new city while the other stays behind. This distance can create challenges and make the relationship feel tricky to navigate.Another aspect of 9th house relationships is the potential for arguments and conflicts, especially when it comes to philosophies, beliefs, and education. Everyone has their own perspective, and if these perspectives clash, it can lead to constant disagreements. For example, if you and the other person have opposing beliefs, the relationship may turn into a cycle of asserting your viewpoints without finding common ground. This might look like one person being Christian and the other Muslim, which can create difficulties in navigating shared values. Or it could be a dynamic where one person is highly spiritual while the other is deeply religious, like a mother forcing religion on a child who leans more toward spirituality. In romantic relationships, differing beliefs can also show up in lifestyle choices, such as one partner favoring traditional provider roles while the other prefers a 50-50 partnership. These clashes over philosophies can make the relationship feel strained. However, if both people share similar beliefs, the 9th house energy can foster open discussions, thoughtful debates, and mutual growth. It becomes a space for diving deep into shared values, exploring ideas, and expanding together. This mutual understanding can make the energy of the 9th house productive and rewarding. The challenges of the 9th house also include the physical distance that often arises. Travel may be necessary to see each other, and the lack of physical closeness can take away from the intimacy of the relationship. Additionally, the 9th house often focuses on growth and expansion, which can mean that personal journeys take precedence over the relationship itself. One person may prioritize their personal development or career, while the other might not, creating a mismatch in priorities.In summary, while the 9th house can provide opportunities for intellectual growth and shared exploration when beliefs align, it often comes with challenges like physical distance, differing philosophies, and an emphasis on individual journeys over the relationship. In my personal perspective, it’s not the easiest placement for building a strong, intimate connection.

(I’ve had two relationships with people whose personal planets fell in my ninth house, and what I can tell you is that, at some point, there’s going to be distance. At some point, it’s going to be long distance, and you’ll have to decide which path you want to go on: do you want to stay together, or are you growing apart? Ninth house energy often leads to relationships where you just grow apart. You get together initially, share common philosophies, outlooks, perspectives, and beliefs, but then you grow apart as you’re on different paths, and it no longer aligns.

In both of those relationships, there were clearly two different belief systems, and I feel like that’s usually what happens with ninth house placements. It typically means that you come from two different backgrounds. For the first person, I wasn’t religious, but they were. For the second person, we had different upbringings—I grew up in apartments with both parents, and they grew up in a house with a single mother. Just two different lifestyles. Both of these people had different beliefs from mine, and it created a lot of tension because we had conflicting belief systems and perspectives. That was a big struggle for me.

Ninth house relationships can sometimes feel like you’re longing for something you’re not getting. You’re yearning for something, and it’s more about hope than reality. Another thing I’ve noticed in ninth house relationships is that they tend to occur when you’re going through a period of growth, challenges, or transition—when you’re moving on to the next chapter. You often meet these people when you need someone to pull you out of your circumstances or give you a new perspective. You might meet them when you’re more closed-minded, struggling, or isolated. But what I’ve found is that these relationships are often meant to help you in the moment, and then, at some point, you break up and move on because they don’t last forever, on and off again relationship)

1️⃣0️⃣To me, the 10th house is not a good house for anything other than work. It functions well in a professional setting because, in the workplace, there’s an inherent understanding and acceptance of authority. You expect to have a manager, boss, or supervisor—someone above you in the hierarchy, such as a CEO. Even if you dislike your manager or supervisor, you generally respect the roles and the structure. This hierarchy makes sense in the context of work, but when it comes to friendships and romantic relationships, the dynamics become trickier. The 10th house works better in a parent-child relationship. For example, having a 10th house placement with your mother or father can be beneficial. They can provide structure, guidance, and support in making decisions about your education, career, and other life matters. Parents in this placement can help you build discipline and make strategic choices. However, in any other relationship, particularly romantic or platonic, the 10th house tends to introduce issues like power imbalances, abuse of authority, narcissism, and overly critical or forceful behavior. This house can easily become afflicted and detrimental.In romantic relationships, authority is not a desirable dynamic unless you’re someone who explicitly seeks a traditional structure, such as a woman looking for a man to be the provider, leader, or authority figure. However, in modern times, many people don’t want that kind of dynamic in their relationships, and as a result, 10th house placements in romance often create friction. Additionally, the 10th house focuses heavily on public image—how you’re perceived by the world around you. This can lead to relationships or friendships that look perfect on the surface but are completely different behind closed doors.For example, a romantic couple with 10th house energy might appear polished and ideal to the outside world—they dress well, present themselves as successful, and seem like the “it couple.�� But privately, their relationship could be riddled with conflict, domestic violence, or toxicity. Think about Beyoncé and Jay-Z: they were seen as the ultimate power couple, but behind the scenes, they faced challenges that tarnished that perfect image. Similarly, a 10th house friendship might look like two people who are inseparable and deeply connected, but in reality, they talk down to each other, bully one another, or even blackmail each other. The public perception is completely at odds with the truth. When the 10th house energy is working positively, it might involve mutual support to achieve success or maintaining a strong public image together. However, even in its best form, it lacks depth and intimacy. It’s more about external appearances and worldly accomplishments than genuine emotional connection. For this reason, I don’t see the 10th house as conducive to romantic relationships. Its focus on power dynamics, public image, and superficial success often overshadows the qualities that make a partnership meaningful.

(In the relationships I’ve had with people whose personal planets fall in my 10th house, one being a romantic relationship and the other a friendship, I’ve noticed a pattern. The person with the planets in my 10th house often idealizes you for your appearance or public image, even before they get to know you. They might be attracted to you simply because you’re pretty, have a nice style, or present yourself well. It’s not in a dreamy, Piscean way, but more in a superficial, external way—they want to be part of your life because of how you look or what you represent.

For example, the first guy I dated with personal planets in my 10th house thought I was attractive and liked my style, but he focused more on how we looked as a couple and wanted to present a perfect image. He would tell everyone how much he loved me, but behind closed doors, he treated me terribly. He was rude, critical, and even talked to other women. The second guy was similar, but in this case, he made me look good publicly, like we were close friends, but secretly had a crush on me. Eventually, he started expressing his feelings, and everything turned awkward.

What I’ve learned is that 10th house relationships can be very mismatched. What’s presented to the public isn’t always what’s happening behind the scenes. You might look good on the outside, but your relationship could be falling apart, or vice versa. There’s often a disconnect between how things are presented to others and what’s really going on privately.)

1️⃣1️⃣To me, the 11th house is really just a house for friends. It can also work well in parenting, especially as the parent-child relationship evolves and the child gets older. With 11th house energy, a parent might be more accepting, allowing their child to fully embrace who they are. This house also functions well in a work environment, where you’re collaborating with people you respect, find intriguing, and genuinely enjoy being around. That kind of energy makes for a great professional setting. However, when it comes to romantic relationships, the 11th house doesn’t feel romantic to me. Unless you’re looking for something unconventional—like a friends-with-benefits situation, a sneaky link, or a polyamorous relationship such as a thruple—the 11th house is not ideal for romance. This house gives off a vibe of I like being around you, but I don’t want any strings attached. Some people argue that 11th house energy represents “besties to lovers,” but I disagree. Synergy in a romantic relationship is something that typically exists from the beginning and continues throughout the relationship. I don’t believe it starts as friendship and then grows into something deeper. Instead, 11th house relationships often lead to situationships. For example, when someone says, We’ve been talking for three months, but they haven’t brought up commitment, that could be a result of 11th house energy. It tends to avoid true commitment and romance, sticking instead to a friendship-like dynamic. In our modern culture, when you’re dealing with someone you’re physically attracted to, this energy might naturally lead to intimacy, but that doesn’t necessarily mean it will lead to commitment. If you share 11th house placements with someone, it’s important to recognize that the relationship will likely be unconventional. That’s just the nature of the 11th house—it prioritizes friendship and camaraderie over romantic spark.For example, have you ever seen a couple who are so alike in personality that they seem more like friends? They can laugh, goof around, and have a great time together, but imagining them being romantically intimate feels almost impossible because their energy is so platonic. That’s 11th house energy. It’s the type of connection where someone might say, We’re sneaky links; we hang out late at night, but I’m not trying to commit to this long term. Couples with 11th house energy might describe each other as my best friend, not necessarily because they’re deeply in love but because that’s exactly how they view each other—as best friends. This is the person they talk to about everything, the person who gets them like no one else. While that dynamic can be valuable in a relationship, I don’t personally see it as romantic. It feels more like a friendship with an unconventional twist, rather than a deep, lifelong romantic partnership.

( People with personal planets in my 11th house feel like good friends to me. One relationship I had, I felt like it messed up the romantic part because I just wanted to be friends and be intimate whenever we felt like it. That’s the energy the 11th house brings—it’s very friendly.

We shared common interests, like nature, traveling, good food, and psychology. Another person I knew had similar interests, like anime, photography, and activism. I’ve found friendships with 11th house people are easy to develop because we click right away. It’s also the kind of unconventional friendship where the person might be a bit “weird” or have niche interests.

In romantic relationships with 11th house people, I’ve never been able to stay in them. Even when a friend wanted to try a romantic relationship, it felt like we were just better off as friends. The connection felt more like friendship than romance, and that’s how I’ve felt in all 11th house relationships. Even with someone I was in an actual relationship with, it felt more like a friendship than a romance. We shared interests, had fun together, and talked a lot—often through online mediums. I met one person online, and we communicated a lot this way. So, relationships with 11th house people tend to be more about friendship and shared experiences.)

1️⃣2️⃣The 12th house is a controversial house because it represents many things that can easily be misunderstood. It is undeniably a romantic house because all the water houses are inherently romantic. Water represents emotions, depth, and the connections that bond us together through shared emotional experiences. Romance, at its core, is built on emotions—falling in love and staying in love are deeply emotional processes. However, the 12th house can be difficult to navigate because we live in a concrete, practical world. We’re expected to work, go to school, and handle daily responsibilities, which often strips away the romantic energy to begin with. The 12th house is especially challenging because it represents a spiritual kind of love, and many people don’t focus on spirituality in their daily lives. Instead, they’re preoccupied with the practical.Additionally, our cultural ideas about romance—such as courting, dating, talking stages, and following a linear progression to commitment—don’t align with 12th house energy. This energy doesn’t follow those parameters. If you’re looking for a relationship that fits into your physical, practical day-to-day life, 12th house energy might feel out of place or even disruptive. This is why some people with 12th house energy in their relationships may end up having secret affairs. For example, someone who doesn’t have time for romance in their primary relationship might seek out a secret connection to fulfill that desire for something mystical and boundless. The 12th house is a house without boundaries, concreteness, or structure, which can lead to things like secret love affairs or deception. However, people often misunderstand what 12th house energy truly is. It’s a spiritual love, a telepathic connection. It’s when you meet someone and feel like you can read their mind. It’s when you feel an inexplicable familiarity, as though you’ve known them in a past life. It’s soulmate energy, often tied to karmic lessons and spiritual growth. This is the type of love where you might dream about each other before even meeting or have dreams that predict the circumstances of your first encounter. It’s a connection where you feel deeply attuned to one another’s energy, where simply being in each other’s presence feels like entering another dimension. Words often fail to capture the depth of this connection because it’s not a verbal or physical relationship—it’s intuitive and telepathic. This type of bond is reflected in relationships where couples explore spirituality together. They might meditate for hours, burn incense, study astrology, or discuss esoteric topics. It’s a relationship that transcends the physical and focuses on the soul. You see past each other’s flaws and physical appearance, loving the person’s essence unconditionally. In a 12th house relationship, you often want to escape from the world together. This isn’t a connection where you want to be surrounded by crowds or in busy, chaotic environments. Instead, you crave solitude with this person—whether that’s staying at home, retreating to a cabin in the woods, or finding some secluded, peaceful place to be together. Even intimacy in this relationship feels deeper than the physical. It’s about unlocking parts of your subconscious and evolving together. You help each other discover more about yourselves, exploring hidden facets of your being and diving into the depths of your soul. The 12th house often leads to relationships where you avoid focusing on practical matters. Instead, you want to engage in hobbies, dance, play, or simply escape reality together. This avoidance of the practical is what makes the 12th house dangerous for romance—it lacks boundaries and isn’t rooted in the physical world. It’s boundless, spiritual, and open, which can feel both freeing and unsettling. Ultimately, the 12th house is about a love that transcends reality, existing in a realm of its own.

( Relationships where someone’s personal planet falls in my 12th house are really hard to manage. Often, you’re not even prepared for what that relationship brings. I had an ex with their personal planet in my 12th house, and we kept coming together. There was so much between us—he’d walk me to the train station, call me all the time, and we were great with intimacy. But I had intense feelings I couldn’t understand. That’s the thing with 12th house energy—it’s confusing. You can love someone deeply and feel close to them, but sometimes the lines blur, and you can’t figure out how you really feel. The 12th house energy is internal, spiritual, and psychological, not as physical. Sometimes, you feel so close to someone, yet distant at the same time. There’s a lot of weirdness in these relationships. You end up talking about things you’ve never discussed with others, and sometimes you find yourself attracted to the person in a way you’re not used to. You care deeply, but it’s hard to express that care. This energy also requires a lot of alone time. You feel like you can only truly be yourself with each other. When you’re around other people, you act differently. It can be a very private relationship where you don’t share many details about each other or the connection. The relationship just happens, and you keep it to yourselves. There can be weird tension when you’re together, as it feels like you’re picking up on each other’s emotions without knowing how to interpret them. Trust issues often come up, and the energy can feel confusing. In one situation, I literally thought, “This is my soulmate,” but at the same time, I felt the need to get away from him. It’s a confusing, isolated energy. These relationships do best when they exist in their own world, but trying to bring others into it can cause problems. There’s a lot of love and care in 12th house connections, but it’s not always easy for others to understand.)

💜My favorite aspects in synastry are trines and oppositions. The reason I love trines is that they come naturally. There’s nothing you need to do in the relationship to create that element—it simply exists when you’re with this person. It’s like being with your mom, who naturally wants to make food for you, nourish you, and pamper you. You don’t have to ask her every day, “Can you make me food?” She just comes home, whips up a pot, and serves it to you. That’s the energy of a trine��effortless, nurturing, and harmonious. Oppositions, on the other hand, remind me of a defiant child. For example, a child might insist on touching a hot stove despite their parent’s warnings. They’re so set in their thoughts and feelings that they ignore the warning, touch the stove, and get burned. Then the parent says, “I told you so.” Oppositions are about growth. They challenge you to expand your perspective and adapt to new ways of thinking, feeling, and living. For example, a naturally passive person might enter a relationship with someone assertive. While the passive individual may have always “gotten away” with their passivity, this relationship teaches them that they must assert themselves at times. They learn a life lesson through this dynamic. That’s why I appreciate oppositions—they foster personal development and growth.Now, sextiles are not my favorite because they feel underutilized. To me, sextiles are like having a talent or hobby you enjoy, such as digital art. You love creating digital art, but you’re too busy with responsibilities to actually pursue it. A sextile is similar—it’s an energy that doesn’t naturally show up in a relationship unless you consciously decide to activate it. That can be frustrating, especially if life is too chaotic or busy to make use of the potential. You might experience small glimpses of the energy, but it doesn’t fully manifest, leaving you feeling unfulfilled.As for squares, I don’t like them because they feel overly contentious. Squares remind me of a Karen—the type of person you see in viral videos, arguing with strangers in public or refusing to learn, change, or compromise. They’re stuck in their ways, and no amount of reasoning or problem-solving will get through to them. Instead, they escalate situations, creating unnecessary tension and conflict. In a relationship, a square feels like constant resistance, drama, and pushback. It’s exhausting and difficult to navigate, which is why I avoid squares as much as possible.

💚I think it’s important to also look at the aspects and the signs involved. A lot of people might say something like, “Oh, my Venus conjuncts my partner’s Venus!” but overlook the fact that both Venuses are in Gemini. If you’re looking for that romantic, ooey-gooey love story, and your Venuses are conjunct in Gemini, well, it’s not the same as you might expect. Gemini isn’t a traditionally romantic sign. It’s a sign that focuses on duality, intellect, versatility, creativity, and sociability—it’s not centered on romance.If your Venus is conjunct someone else’s Venus, but it’s in a sign that values intellect and versatility over deep emotional connection, what does that mean for your relationship? And more importantly, is that what you want in a relationship? That’s why I don’t place a lot of weight on conjunctions alone. For instance, if your Venus is conjunct someone else’s Venus in Pisces or Cancer, that’s different because those are more emotionally-centered, romantic signs. But if your Venus is conjunct in Aquarius, for example, Aquarius represents innovation, progressiveness, and community. Sure, you both might value free thinking, but that doesn’t necessarily translate to romance.When analyzing a chart, you need to consider the signs, not just the aspects like conjunctions, trines, or sextiles. The signs tell you how the energy of the aspect will manifest. Otherwise, you might enter a relationship thinking, “We have so many romantic aspects!” only to realize that they’re not as romantic as you thought when you dig deeper. For example, let’s say your Mercury is in Aries and your partner’s Mercury is in Libra. This creates an opposition. You might immediately think, “Oh no, we’re going to argue all the time.” And yes, that can be true. Most people don’t know how to navigate relationships, whether interpersonal or romantic, in a healthy way. Many people are still maturing, learning, and, honestly, in need of therapy. So yes, even a single opposition can create tension in your relationship because as a species, we’re not always emotionally evolved enough to handle relationships harmoniously from the start.If you’re naturally fast to speak and your partner is slow and methodical, that opposition will come up again and again in conversations. It’s inevitable. But that doesn’t mean the relationship is doomed—it just means that oppositions highlight areas where growth and compromise are necessary. Relationships are part of our evolutionary process, and most of what we learn about ourselves happens through those challenges. That’s why I don’t believe in a perfect synastry chart. Do I think there are synastry charts that favor romance and foster loving, emotionally deep, and physically intimate relationships? Absolutely. But people often romanticize aspects like “His Venus conjuncts my Venus—he’s my soulmate!” without considering the nuances. For example, if both Venuses are in Leo, you might struggle with pride and ego clashes, constantly feeling like the other person is wrong and you’re right. That kind of energy requires work and self-awareness.In synastry, it’s crucial to acknowledge that as humans, we’re still evolving emotionally. Relationships will inevitably reflect tricky elements from the chart. And no matter how many positive aspects exist, challenging ones like oppositions will have an impact. It’s up to us to decide whether we’re willing to grow through those challenges or not.

💘 Lastly, some people’s charts simply aren’t geared toward romance, so their relationships are going to look a bit different. For instance, there are people with very heavy Earth charts. Earth energy is practical and focused on everyday life, routine, work, and responsibilities—it’s not naturally inclined toward romance. The same applies to Air signs. Air signs prioritize intellect, communication, and social connections over traditional romantic gestures. In contrast, Fire and Water signs tend to be more romantic, at least from my perspective. People with strong Fire and Water placements crave romance. They want the cheesy, heartfelt gestures. They’re drawn to passion, intimacy, and the idea of partnership. Fire and Water individuals often seek traditional or deeply emotional connections. On the other hand, someone with a heavy Air chart might not want a traditional relationship. They may prefer a bond centered on intellectual connection or friendship rather than emotional depth or physical closeness. Similarly, someone with a heavy Earth chart may desire a relationship but also value personal space. They might not be interested in moving in together or merging every aspect of their lives.

💛This is why it’s so important to understand both your own needs and the needs of the other person. For example, I have a water-based chart, so I need that emotional connection. I also have a fire influence, which means I crave passion and excitement. Not everyone is going to need or value the same things in a relationship. Before diving into synastry, it’s helpful to ask the other person questions like:

• Do you care about romance?

• How do you feel about commitment?

• Do you want to get married someday?

• Are you looking for a soulmate?

• How deep do you want love to be in your life?

• In friendships, what do you value most? Hobbies? Going to events? Daily conversations?

These questions can reveal a lot about someone’s priorities and expectations. When you pair that with synastry, it becomes easier to see how a relationship might play out. Sometimes, what people call “unrequited love” is just a mismatch in romantic inclinations. For instance, there’s this growing sentiment that men aren’t courting women as much anymore, but I think a lot of men just aren’t naturally romantic. These might be men who don’t see the value in grand gestures like flowers or serenades. Instead, they express commitment by simply being present or spending time together—but they’re not especially affectionate or expressive. Looking at a person’s chart can give insight into this. If you’re dating someone with the Moon in Aquarius, can you really expect the same level of romanticism as someone with a Moon in Pisces? Or if someone has a Pisces rising, they may approach love with sensitivity and idealism, whereas a Capricorn rising might prioritize pragmatism and stability over emotional expression.I once knew someone who valued friendships far more than romantic relationships. He was mainly interested in physical intimacy and wasn’t emotionally invested in long-term commitments. Understanding these differences is crucial when dating. You need to ask yourself:

• Am I okay with someone who’s more focused on casual connections?

• Or am I looking for a deep, long-term commitment?

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Astrology observations Nr. 5

Hello everyone! Here are some observations, please don't take them too seriously as they are my observations and not facts! 💞 I hope you have fun reading them. 🩷

Princess Diana was a libra rising. I am not going to discuss this in any way, but she screams libra rising. She was one of the most influential people when it comes to fashion, even people calling her the most influential fashion icon of all time.

Her grace, charm and sweetness, her love of dancing, her need for a stable and loving home (moon in the 4th house). Her cold and unstable childhood and the divorce of her parents that traumatized her for life (Capricorn IC, Saturn in the 4th house).

Sun in the 5th house folks love being photographed. They really love standing in front of a camera, doing lots and lots of photo shoots. They love portraying themselves and they love being the Center of attention. They're not shy or insecure about loving the spotlight.

Sun trine Ascendant need the admiration and approval of others. It makes a persons chart even more extroverted, they need attention like the air they breathe. For me, they are too braggy, almost snobbish because of their achievements. They are not the ones to be quiet about their life's, they will rub just anything under your nose if it makes them look good.

I can with almost 100% certainty spot a Cancer Moon. They have this half moon face, not as squishy and loveable like cancer risings have it. Their faces are more boney, more serious and almost hard. They do have big teeth though and big and wide smiles. They are always smiling on photographs.

Venus in Sagittarius will put money aside to travel the world, especially with a loved one or their significant other. They have no problem being away for longer for example to do a trip around the world for months.

Sister signs do have a magnetic effect on each other. I always see Leo's and Aquarius' in friendships, and also a lot of Scorpio and Taurus friendships. The sister sign doesn't have to be only the sun, but also involves the other planets and the moon.

Fixed signs attract each other a LOT! Especially Aquarius & Scorpio, Aquarius & Leo, Taurus & Scorpio, Taurus & Leo, Leo & Scorpio. It's like a moth to a flame, they need each others stability and fixed signs are more alike than most people think.

Libra Venus is the sweetest lover you could ever wish for. They'll buy you your favorite treats, always have flowers around for you and will always make sure you're alright and well fed. 🥺

Even though I am a Gemini Moon myself, I cannot stand other Gemini moons. They are somewhat self centered with a self-confidence that is absolutely not justified. They are the ones who are convinced they are the epitome of wisdom and knowledge. And Geminis are not the ones to do a lot of research, so most of their statements and opinions are false or not 100% correct. And it bothers me so much! 🙄

Anyway, that's all I have in mind! Hope you have a wonderful day, please read them carefully and with a bit of humor! Until soon, bye! 🩷

[yushi-ni]

ෆ OH SION ෆ 𝗇𝗌𝖿𝗐 𝖺𝖻𝖼

꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱ masterlist

summary; oh sion bf nsfw abc

genre; suggestive

warnings; 18+!!!! title is very self explanatory; contains smut content. mentions of kinks - and obviously mature card games!!!!

notes; hiii loves!!!! this one got requested SO MANY TIMES after my yushi version so i hope you like this one as well. i didn’t proofread this one so please ignore grammar mistakes. i’m still busy with all my other requests, so please be a little patient with me. love you all, have a good one my loves 🪷🪷

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A = aftercare (what he’s like after sex)

i think we can all unitedly agree that sion is the biggest and softest boy ever. aftercare is quite literally the exact opposite of the full-action-no-mercy side he shows during the deed itself. he’s so gentle and giggly afterwards. you want to take a shower? he’s up and ready to join. you want to just lay down and stay close to him? girl his arms are spread open waiting for you. he’s so sweet, massaging your body with his soft fingers (after absolutely aching all your muscles) sweet little kisses and cuddles. he’s all yours

B = body part (his fav body part of himself and yours)

he said it himself but he loves his abs. not necessarily in a showing off way but he just likes his own physique (understandable) he knows he looks good so it definitely boosts his confidence. on you he loves your eyes. your eyes speak the words your mouth can’t always tell. he loves how expressive you are and he can literally drown in your eyes. oh and he also loves your behind hihihihi for reasons not needed to be said

C = cum (anything to do with cum)

ngl he’s an all or nothing typa man. not scared to make a mess either. it depends on the day tho, sometimes he’s coming in you, other times he pulls out and paints your stomach (or back depending on your position) with his cum. tbh he can’t always control his own orgasm so sometimes he’s already at his climax before he can even consider pulling out. (ps. loves coming in your mouth but that’s a secret for another time)

D = dirty secret (yes.)

big fucking switch. but he won’t tell you out loud. his ego or manly pride stands in his way (it’s crystal clear tho, he can’t hide it even if his life depended on it) he’s definitely a dominant player but boyyyy does he love when you take the lead. he’s genuinely so down bad and all yours whenever you dominate him. he can jump up and down as much as he wants, he’s a switch. no discussion

E = experience (how experienced is he?)

what can i say. look at him, if he has 0 experience then i’m santa clause. he’s not one to play around and have fuck buddies here and there but he definitely knows the rules of the game and it shows too. he knows what to do and is also very quick to pick up on your likings. as soon as he figures out your body along the way… ma’am you’re in it for a ride

F = fav position (self explanatory hihi)

ok he’s not a picky guy at all, why pick one position when you can do multiple a night??? hihihi. whatever he’s in the mood for at that moment. but if he really had to choose, it’s either doggy or the classic missionary. taking full control of your body and hitting it from behind; sign him tf up. but he also loves being able to see your face and feel you closer and more ‘personal’ in missionary. (your legs in his neck. pls he’s begging)

G = goofy and giggles (is he serious or goofy)

cmon sion is the #1 ijbol person ever. he won’t be bursting out weird dad jokes during the show but he’ll definitely let out a giggle or two. his love and affection will show in many ways like soft spoken words or little laughs. some days he’s more serious other days he’s just happy to be there hahaha depends on his mood

H = hair (how does it look downstairs?)

mmh he’s clean but not like he has his legs up in yoga positions to shave and have it spanky smooth every two days. if you prefer it trimmed, he’ll gladly take care of it. if you don’t mind a little more .. something, he will also be comfortable and good to go like that.

I = intimacy (how intimate is he during the game)

he’s a very romantic guy. especially when it comes to you, you just bring out the best in him. (hehe) it’s almost unreal how much love and affection he has, in- or outside of the bedroom. can definitely get caught up in the act itself but it’s never to an extent that he’s overdoing things. the intimacy and love is just so strong. skin to skin, lots of eye contact, sweet words and soft touches. oh sion is a man of many qualities. especially when you’ve been together for a while!!!

J = jack off (his 1-1 playtime with his lil friend)

nothing compares to your hands (or mouth) but he’s definitely not one to shy away from being his own helping hand. it’s not in his daily routine and if he’s seeing you later he can wait as well but let’s say he’s overseas or he just can’t see you for a few days, then he will definitely please himself when needed. very open about it tho, might actually let you know when he’s doing it just because he gets a kick out of it. (i said what i said)

K = kink (no need for further explanation)

his mouth goes on adventures, trust you’ll be marked up after a night together. he loves hickies (giving and receiving) bonus points if they’re on plain sight for others to see. okkkk and hear me out, overstimulating ESPECIALLY when he’s receiving. he’s a whiner (1000000% fight me here and now) but he absolutely loves it. the way you handle his body? he’s literally in heaven. oh and his wandering hands might find their way around your neck too every now and then!!

L = location (his fav places to play card games)

his fav is definitely his (or your) bedroom. the comfort and possibilities in your own bed is the best. (also a locked door ofc) and his bathroom, it’s a safe zone and he knows nothing can happen. but when you’re home alone he’ll definitely take you on the couch. he won’t ever go too far in more public places since yk uh privacy but any room with a lock on the door is enough for him when he really really needs it.

M = motivation (what turns him on?)

ngl it’s pretty easy to get him worked up. he’s head over heels for you. your wandering hands can be enough, kiss his neck or straddle his lap and he’s locked in already. make outs are his favorite type of foreplay so whenever you initiate a messy lips locking session, he’s a goner. he’s very sensitive to your touch so tbh whatever you do it riles him up quite easily.

N = no no no (something he wouldn’t do - turn offs)

no pain kinks. he loves hair pulling and might laugh (in a cute giggly way) if you’re sore and aching the next day but he’s absolutely not a fan of purposely hurting you in the name of ‘making love’. no spanking or anything else, no. he won’t even hurt a fly when it comes to it so let alone hurt the person he loves the most in this world. he’s very open to try new things but he knows his limits too

O = oral (is he a receiver or giver)

happy to spend hours between your legs, 100%. he knows your body and he LOVES the way you react to him. pls grab his hair, pls move your hips or push his face (impossibly) deeper into your parts, he loves it. but.. more than anything he loves having your mouth around him. he’s so vocal; deep groans, moans, whining???? he lets it all out fr. definitely a hair grabber, a fist full of your hair and his head thrown backwards as low groans leave his mouth. yup yup yup. he’s skilled with his mouth but whatever it is that you’re doing has him seeing stars fr.

P = pace (fast? - slow? - rough?)

everyday is a party with a different theme when it comes to sion. one thing for sure, he’ll make sure you know you’re loved and appreciated. some days that might be with a very sensual, eyes locked, hands intertwined and soft ily’s. other days it’s all or nothing like there will be a zombie apocalypse the next day. he can be ‘rough’, leaving you sore the next day, quick - sharp thrusts, but sometimes he just wants to feel you close, barely rolling his hips

Q = quickie (his view on quickies)

what can i say, he’s always down. definitely depends on your surroundings and the overall situation you’re in at that moment but if a chance arises, he’s not one to push away an opportunity. not his absolute favorite but i can just imagine his giggles. he thinks it’s fun every now and then. definitely needs a good round when you have the time to make up for it tho. nothing tops a good - not rushed play of cards!!!

R = risk (does he take risks??)

he’s pretty open for lots of things, as long as it’s with you. if you’re comfortable and willing to try new things then so is he. he’s fun and eager to learn and explore with you.

S = stamina (how many rounds etc how long)

it’s a build up pleasure when it comes to sion. definitely can go 3 rounds, not every time tho. sometimes he’s tired and taps out after one round but both his and your pleasure are equally as important to him so he won’t leave you hanging. when you have the time and energy, he can go for another round. might need a little breather in between because yk it’s a bit of a work out sometimes but give him some good - personal attention and he’s all yours again!!!

T = toys (is he team yes or no)

team sure if you’re team yes. doesn’t necessarily come up with new toys he wants to try out of his own interest but definitely down to try something new if you’re the one bringing it up. he likes the idea of hand cuffs but doesn’t see it as a necessity!! definitely prefers toys when it’s the female receiving, but also thinks his fingers are enough to get you begging for him so doesn’t necessarily see the need to use a vibrator. not really a fan of men toys but you never know what the future brings

U = unfair (is he into teasing?)

such a tease. in and outside of the bedroom. he likes to joke around so he’s definitely one to pull some strings. he’s not afraid of some pda so he’ll try and get some reaction out of you anywhere at any time. if you’re accompanied by someone he’s comfortable with like riku or yushi he’ll definitely be a handsy man when no one is watching. hands under the table, lingering touches etc etc. will follow you into the kitchen to ‘get some drinks’ just to turn you around and lock your lips with his in a very passionate - quick - messy kiss, hands on your ass and his lower abdomen pressed against yours to just turn around and walk out like nothing happened. he likes to test your limits (and patience hehe) but never crosses the line!!!! he just likes your reaction

V = volume (is he vocal or quiet)

volume up for sure. moans - groans - whimpers - heavy breathing, this man has it all. not particularly loud but definitely vocal. he’ll let you know when he feels good, he’s not ashamed to do so at all. it happens without him even realising it but since he’s so into the whole act he can’t help himself. also loves when you’re vocal too. please let him hear how he’s making you feel.

W = wild card (random thought)

loves loves loves loves morning sex. waking up next to you, looking so cute and relaxed, lips swollen and your hair a little messy. he’s hard before he even knows it. spooning you, pressing his hard on into you, he’s going to let you know he wants you right there and then. he’s so sensitive in the morning so it doesn’t take long before he comes. also in general loves doing it in the morning before he has to go to work, a good starter of his day.

X = x-ray (what does his lil friend look like?)

not hung like a horse but boy is definitely packed. no further explanation needed.

Y = yearning (how high is his sex drive)

ngl he’s a young guy. desperately in love with you. he’s literally always ready to go whenever you are. he won’t necessarily show it to you since he does have some self control but it’s almost as if he can let his little friend wake up and grow hard on command. it’s not his fault tho (at least that’s what he says) you’re just too perfect, he wants you all the time.

Z = zzz (does he fall asleep afterwards)

sometimes he falls asleep pretty fast (after cleaning you both up ofc) other days he’s so energised and bubbly that it makes you wonder if those 3 rounds were still not enough to tire him out even a little bit. will just lay down and hold you close if that’s what the both of you are feeling like but is also ok with just washing up and continuing on with your day.

[maedhrus]

“you are now running the risk about me yapping about how edward little is good at and well suited to command” BESTIE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I NEED THIS

i mean i shouldn't really OK OK YOU'VE TWISTED MY ARM i suppose i have to!! (also this got Soooo insanely long my apologies. my ranting and raving continues under the read more)

so the predominant fanon interpretation of edward little, from what i've seen in fic, posts, etc., is that he's a wet paper towel of a man who fumbles his way from mishap to mishap. now, i definitely agree that there's an element of truth there. he strikes me as a man who's had a number of battles with something like depression/anxiety throughout his life, and costuming does a great job making matthew mcnulty look woebegone and wretched and insanely fuckable

however! i think a lot of these takes focus too much on how edward fucks up his command/power without examining the Why and, when you properly look at the circumstances in which his big Fuck Ups happen, it's not exactly illustrative of a man who's shit at his job. actually, to me at least, it speaks of a man who's actually very competent but is being repeatedly shot in the leg by factors outside of his control. he succeeds in command pretty much as often as he fails and these successes are very hidden and threaded into the background that it's really easy to miss them if they're not what you're looking for

when we first see edward properly, he's eating dinner with the rest of the expedition's command and is happy and relaxed. at this stage of the expedition, they've met and even exceeded expectations by covering a good bit of distance, making it through one winter with only 3 deaths (and the deaths are not officers, which probably says a lot about class and rank and how the officers aren't particularly grieved by this loss but that's another essay methinks), and have no reason (thus far) to suspect that the rest of the passage won't be as easy. then, franklin mentions old ice to which crozier's alarm bells start ringing and - importantly - he immediately looks to edward, who meets his gaze and seems to be equally concerned. this suggests to me that, even though edward has had no prior experience in polar service, he's either learned or been taught enough to discuss the conditions and environment with his commanding officer. and crozier clearly trusts him enough with these logical concerns. it suggests to me that they've previously discussed the ice conditions and are aware of warning signs of a colder winter, and that edward has learned enough to respond to these conditions. despite his lack of experience, he has adapted and learned and is working well enough that crozier (who is already pretty grumpy and self-pitying atp but also one of the most capable polar explorers of the navy) looks to him, only him, and seems to communicate "we'll have to consider this. it's a bigger deal than franklin makes it out to be". this whole episode is just edward confident and capable and succeeding in his station

we next see edward in ep 3 talking to crozier about silna. in the book, he leads the north party in search of leads and is snowblinded by this but i view that as only quasi-canonical to the show. now, the manner in which edward is speaking about silna and the netsilik is indisputably racist and countless other people smarter than me have dissected silna's treatment by the expedition men and provided incredible commentary on their inherent imperialism and its harms. but for the purposes of ned little, i think it's important to consider what he's arguing. we can assume edward knows next to nothing about the netsilik aside from what has been reproduced to him by victorian author etc., reproducing an inherently racist worldview. this informs his concerns and is why he's worried about the possibility of a retaliatory attack. he expresses what are (to his mind) valid concerns about (crucially) the survival and well-being of the crew. crozier, who knows more about the netsilik, dismisses these concerns in a sarcastic manner. edward is a considerate and empathetic man, but still one who is subject to the biases of the time he lives in. when crozier asks if they should have put her down the hole as well, edward's expression is one of "yeah fucking of course not but are we not even going to talk about what might happen" and the exchange both serves as a demonstration of the expedition's racism and imperialism, but also shows the first signs of the relationship between edward and crozier beginning to unravel. crozier isn't explaining his previous interactions with the netsilik to edward, he's dismissing his concerns entirely. you could make a point that crozier ay have previously mentioned his dealings with the netsilik but still, to dismiss his second's concerns easily and in the manner in which he did is a failure of crozier's leadership, not edward's. blanky is the one who check edward for his biases while also reminding him logically why the don't need to fear the netsilik retaliating. franklin also dies in this episode, and we see edward on deck with hodgson and irving where he's attempting to keep an eye on the hunting blind. crozier comes up and he immediately passes his spyglass to crozier, at which point crozier spots the trouble, issues a command that edward immediately follows, and terror responds. effective captain and lieutenant command allowing a trickle-down of efficiency. edward is next seen with a mourning jfj, looking sad in the face of his commande's grief. this doesn't have anything to do with command, per se, but does again show edward's empathy. nothing about edward in this episode suggests poor leadership. if anything, he's considering the men when crozier isn't (though hidden beneath period-typical racism)

what happens next is ep 4, and crozier's alcoholism in the face of a worsening expedition and more dire circumstances is in turn effecting his ability to command. as a result, his lieutenants (and steward) are having to work overtime to compensate for this and it's starting to wear. when jopson comes in to tell crozier that edward wants to know if he wants the command meeting rescheduled, crozier is shocked that the meeting "is tonight". i've already yapped here on why this is very telling and Not! edward pushing responsibility onto jopson but the tldr is that he knows crozier likes jopson and trusts him with a good deal, but also, more importantly, edward is Pissed that he needs to do this, and crozier is so consistently drunk that he just Cannot be approached. tuunbaq then comes onto the ship and kills strong and evans, and edward is seen on deck with crozier who tells him that "[the creature's] come onto the ship, edward." because even here! they haven't lost trust in each other entirely! edward is relying on crozier's expertise and crozier is sharing his concerns with his second, who he then gives orders to (open up the armory etc.), which edward sees carried out (calling peglar, who is a petty officer and is considered trustworthy by command). he then informs crozier of the lack of tracks found and crozier takes this information on board. irving suggests silna's knowledge of the creature and crozier agrees that they'll question her at some point. effective leadership between the three of them! at this point, silna is kidnapped and hickey, manson, and hartnell are brought before command to answer for this. crozier, jfj, and edward all become fed up with hickey's manipulation of the situation and both jfj and edward attempt to make him shut up (unsuccessful. he's never even been on a ship before). when crozier deals out punishments for the three, edward is the one to vocalise his protest. (iirc there's a post somewhere that talks about lashing in this period and i THINK anything over 10 was deemed excessive but do NOT quote me on that and if anyone has the post in question PLEASE send it to me) edward protests because he's very firmly entrenched in naval regulations but also, imo, because he recognises that the amount of lashes is excessive (this also possibly harkens back to his distrust of the netsilik and him knowing that crozier did, ultimately, want silna questioned so a degree of bias is undoubtedly at work here). he uses the argument of a court martial being necessary because that's the element of due process they should be following but crozier immediately shuts him down with a technicality. they aren't, entirely "lost", but the situation is such that the admiralty would probably want a court martial in this situation). hickey continues to aggravate crozier (successful. he has no idea of command hierarchy and thinks the captain's his BFF) at which point crozier reaches his limit and order hickey be punished as a boy, an excessive punishment made to humiliate and done in part due to crozier's own pride being challenged ("disrepect to the girl. and to me"). because crozier is now incensed (and because he has given edward a direct order) edward has no choice but to obey at risk of he himself being arrested for mutiny. he assembles the crew for punishment and then, again pissed at crozier's attitude (ultimately, in a drunken stuptor, he had three men lashed to excess, violating due process and seeking to humiliate one because of personal insult) he sends irving in to tell crozier the necessary information about the poll, not because edward's scared, but because he is infuriated and wishes to protest crozier's command in the only way he can; avoidance. edward is trying to lead effectively, but crozier's own failings are offsetting this

ep 5! ned rage time! he is angry. angry, angry, angry. most of the men have left, they're running a ship with 10 crew, and even as a decorated lieutenant, he is reduced to an errand boy, used to further his captain's addiction, being made to lie to his commanding officer, and is made to go out - with other men - in conditions that could easily kill any of them. i think it could be argued that, at this point, crozier is aware that edward's upset with him and is sending him out intentionally, not only because as first lieutenant it's on edward to mediate between crozier and fitzjames, but because he wants edward out of sight, out of mind. on erebus, edward communicates with jfj and is made to escort silna back to terror (a fact he protests because of bias but, more significantly, because he's aware that the men on terror are the men who kidnapped her initially and so is concerned over her safety). he then permits goodsir to accompany them. hornby dies before they reach terror and, whenhe edward goes to inform crozier of this, crozier is upset, but more so at the fact that they've run out of whiskey. when jopson comes in, edward can't cope with the fact that hornby's death is being mentioned alongside the liquor situation. as if the two are of equal weight. edward is now facing a captain whose concern for his men is taking a second place to his concern for his drink. and yet, he cannot protest this. not with a captain who has demonstrated himself to be wholly unreasonable. not when to question his order could rightfully be called mutiny. he accompanies silna to the meeting, treats her courteously, is rightfully confused/terrified when she tells them it's not a bear, but a funky Spirit Bear, is shut down by crozier who again dismisses his fear (not necessarily incorrectly). when crozier's patience again runs out and he orders edward remove her from terror, edward vocally protests which is actually kind of huge! he's supposed to follow crozier's orders and knows that crozier's temper is on a knife's edge but he also knows that to kick silna out - especially when she's so clearly scared - is the wrong thing to do. blanky is the one who protests the most vocally (and the look he and edward exchange suggests that they share a certain confidence and have perhaps discussed the extend of crozier's command abuses) before jfj enters and, when crozier becomes physically violent, edward (along with blanky and jopson) immediately leaps to respond, helping to pull crozier away to protect fitzjames and stop a captain who has clearly exceeded his directive and is now dictatorial in command. when the tuunbaq comes onto the ship, we see edward helping to distribute guns (foreshadowing) and he both comes onto deck to help out, and also is the first off the ship to see if tuunbaq is lying dead, ascertaining the direction it ran off to which is no mean feat, especially because he's now one of the few who knows the bear is, to some degree, spiritual and a rogue element. he is seen sitting in silence with crozier before fitzjames, mcdonald, and jopson enter, and when crozier leaves, he put the gun down not necessarily because he's being a bad leader, but because the reality's hit him that he's in command of terror, second in command of the expedition (he started off as fifth), and that crozier and his experience and knowledge is absent, and may leave altogether. he's once again leading to the best extend that crozier in his self-destruction will let him

we see edward in ep 6, exhausted from having to assume captaincy while also maintaining the illusion that crozier's unwell. he gets the men gathered for dundy to yap to and shares a Meaningful Look with jopson as they both gear up for more of the work that is frankly beyond their pay grades. hickey tries to ask him for juicy juicy info and edward ignores him. not the worst advice for dealing with the rat king. he discusses their ration situation with jfj and worries about having enough supplies for walking out which jfj shuts down and they do both ultimately have a point here. they need enough food they can effectively carry. but, again, this is just edward being a good leader and considering the best survival prospects for his crew! at carnival, he accompanies crozier through his bad trip and we can see, when crozier orders men out of the bath, it's edward whose command they follow when he nods at them to scurry. the last bit we really see of edward leader-ing in this ep is when he helps the other officers clear a way for the men to escape when stanley flambés and is there in the background assisting clean-up

ep 7 shows that edward has successfully led the advance party to establish land camp and i think that this fact alone can dispute any arguments that doubt his capabilities but! regardless! what is notable is his discussion with crozier, where they seem to rekindle some of their earlier repertoire. edward speaks bluntly where crozier doesn't ("if you're referring to the bear...") and then, when tozer approaches them, even though he primarily shows respect and adherence to edward, edward still yields the final call to crozier and while, he is vocal on his disagreement, he still buttresses crozier's command. and this is what is required when leading a lot of people! preserve an illusion of consistency in command! (and as a quick aside, he's rightfully stressed to har the news about their rotting supplies but still goes to reassure irving who is spacing tf out and is then the happiest in the room to have jopson promoted because he Cares) crozier then, to the extent of our knowledge, voices that some of tozer's names aren't "sound" without telling edward just what names he doubts, namely hickey's, which is important considering that crozier is aware of hickey's risk, doesn't love tozer's plan, and also hears the name alongside armitage's who - at this point - he still trusts. when hartnell corrects him on this, we again don't see crozier communicate this to edward and this is so so relevant to ep 8!! edward doesn't know armitage is in the Hickey Squad and, because he has worked with tozer and seems to respect him, has little reason to not trust them with the guns, especially when, at that point, crozier's mandate has changed (the fog has rolled in) and, to take the guns back at that stage would very likely result in a riot. the men are scared. they are uninformed. edward is alone in command because fitzjames and hodgson aren't there. he only knows that irving (his friend) is dead. he doesn't have the authority to shut it down because the situation is quickly evolving beyond one where any authority can! for more on this see the tags here. then, when crozier and co returns, fitzjames seems to immediately throw edward under the bus and crozier (who, at this point, has to deal with the fact that they've burned away any potential of help from the netsilik so is incredibly stressed) speaks to him in a manner where you'd be forgiven thinking that edward is a lieutenant, non an ab. yes, he is subordinate to crozier, but he also followed the order crozier gave him (again, the fog had rolled in) and is being corrected for being the only one in authority there who took Any charge of the situation. when crozier mentions hickey, edward queries the evidence against him because the last time crozier punished hickey, it was to excess and designed to humiliate him. edward thus far has no reason to think that crozier isn't victimizing whiskey and scapegoating him for irving's death. when edward ultimately learns that his biases were wrong, irving was killed by his countrymen, this kind of visibly destroys him and he immediately course-corrects, admitting fault and ensuring that crozier knows the marines under tozer aren't to be trusted. a service that crozier never paid him. he freezes when tuunbaq attacks the camp because, again, he's very aware that it's an Evil Spirit Bear and once crozier jolts him to awareness, he immediately follows and goes off on his own to re-arrest tozer. even when tozer informs him of all the ways crozier has let them all down, edward remains loyal to his captain before armitage scrambles his brains like alphabet spaghetti. worth noting that in this episode he also has george "i do say" hodgson in his ear looking for reassurance that his murder of the netsilik family was justified, a reassurance that edward doesn't quite give him, instead evading and trying to comfort hodgson as best he can because, again, as a leader he needs to ensure that hodgson (his own second) maintains a working relationship with him and is capable enough to do the job, something he's not going to get Unless he reassures him.

he fucks up in terror camp because crozier failed to disclose his suspicions fully, he was essentially abandoned by his commanders, he's scared of the spirit bear eating them, and he's trying to do right by his dead friend and the men he's leading. men who are looking to him for leadership

in ep 9, he's seen scouting ahead to keep a visual on tuunbaq and the mutineers then takes his own turn hauling alongside the men. he's seen patting men on the back and helping peglar when he falls because, again, edward cares so! fucking! much! about these men and he's naturally inclined towards physical comfort. we get to the command meeting and, from the glances shared between edward and dundy, i get the sense that dundy was the one to approach edward with the idea of abandoning the sick and edward felt honour-bound to raise this point, both because dundy brought it to him and out of concern for the men. because it's harsh, but it's also true that they don't have the supplies necessary to care for the sick and the healthy atp. pulling the sick significantly raises the chances that they'll die alongside them and edward knows this but it Kills him to raise this point. he can't fully meet jopson's eyes because he's ashamed of having raised this point, and it might be one he doesn't even fully agree with but he has to raise it. because it's not just about what he wants. he has around 60 men who are looking to them for deliverence home and if they don't get there, it will be edward who carries that guilt. it's not cowardly; it took courage to voice it and he hated himself doing so. most importantly, he did it because command needed to consider the option at the very least. when golding comes with news of leads, edward's entire face lights up because he's a way for them to save the sick as well. here is deliverance. but it's a lie and there's so much anger bubbling inside edward, disappointment to see hodgson there, grief when hartnell's shot that he can't bring himself to lower his gun. crozier has to make him and of course he does. crozier was the one to arm him. he lays the burden of command on edward's shoulder. he lays the lives of the men on edward's shoulders and edward carries it. vows that they will live

we finally get to ep 10 where edward, having been abandoned by crozier, still fights his corner, echoes his points, reminds the crew how much they need him. he fights for the sick and he fights for the men and he's essentially mutineed against by dundy who called a vote knowing edward was still asleep (and yeah it's funny how ned came back and immediately went for Nap Time but also! he's just kind of doing what crozier did in ep 4. "i'm not sending men out into a squall. not tonight.). dundy is supposed to be edward's second. he's supposed to support his command decisions, not undermine them by stoking the fears of the men who don't want to waste more effort and time rescuing a captain who has, for so much of this expedition, been absent to them. he's in that tent, alone, his only support lying nearly dead, and his only choices are to follow the men or go alone. he can't go alone. he would be outnumbered, outgunned. he cannot rally the men because, at this point, they cannot be rallied. not these men. not to save crozier. but edward leads them forward because he has to. because he was ordered to. because he still hopes that the sacrifice and loss will be worth it and even one man can get home. but his hope fails him. his circumstances fail him. all he ever gets is close. he tried to lead and did his very best. they were in an impossible situation and no one could have given more. it just wasn't enough

what makes edward a good leader is his empathy, steadfastness, and earnestness. he considers the men beneath him and advocates on their behalf (hickey's punishment). he mitigates the poor leadership of his captain to the best of his ability and as far as the hierarchy allows him (intercedes on silna's behalf). he is cautious and measured, aiming to do right by the greatest number of people, for good of the whole (wants to leave the sick in the hopes than more men will live because of this). he is forward-thinking and seeks to address problems before they arise (marines wanting to form a perimeter). his empathy is taken advantage of, his command is undermined by those who should buttress it, and he is left to die at the side of the man who (debatably) condemned him to it

i acknowledge that this monster of a post that was only supposed to talk about edward's leadership diverged into a play-by-play of his every appearance but! his character is inexorably tied to his rank. he lives and breathes naval hierarchy and, ultimately, dies still in uniform

tldr; edward fulfiled his role as first lieutenant and one of the expedition commanders as well as he was able in the face of a captain who didn't trust him, crew who he trusted too much, and circumstances that none of the crew could survive (they've been dead since the beginning). his character traits including his caution and earnestness make him suited to command and he displayed an aptitude at doing so. portraying edward as incapable and snivelling is entirely in the perogative of the individual creator and has its uses! however, it is also an uncharitable reading that neglects the evidence we've been shown and the circumstances surrounding it

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Sun signs and your core identity

Hey! It's been a time for the Western astrology, right? I've been thinking about it for a couple of days. This next post is going to be about the Sun in signs. The Sun is the most important planet in Western astrology and it represents our zodiac sign. It can also represents our identity, who we are outside, our external world, what makes us seen or shine, how we attract attention, this and that. Hope you'll find it interesting. It's Sunday, the Sun-ruled day, so I think I couldn't choose better day for this post. Take is as it resonates and leave the rest, as you already know. Why am I even talking about it? Anyway, let's just get into the topic!

Sun in Aries: Well, you may attract attention by just being yourself. Aries rules over the 1st house of self, personality and body, so you are someone who has a strong personality and are mostly authentic. The Sun is exalted in this sign, which is a great placement for this planet in general. You might be the type of person who always put yourself first over anyone and are really confident, unless you have some air or water placements in your chart. I'm about to stop it there, 'cause i don't want to tell you what to do. I know you don't like that, hahaha.

Sun in Taurus: I sense that you're calmed individuals and you don't like to rush things. Stubbornness is a characteristic which always reminds me of you, since Taurus is a fixed earth sign, which goes hand in hand. You may also like expansive and luxurious things which are mostly related to drink and food. Taurus is being ruled by Venus which represents pleasure, so you might be hedonistic and seek for pleasurable moments. You might even be lazy sometimes with this placement, but it depends on other natal placements of yours. You just seem to be normal people who like when things are going as they should do.

Sun in Gemini: This placement tells me that you're communicative and like to discuss about everything. Mercury is a planet of communication and intellect, so you might be extremely smart too. Mercury also represents controversy, so you might say things which aren't that comfortable to the average people. Other people like your presence and it's easy for you to make friends with everyone, sine Gemini is the air sign. You're father might be communicative as well. You might also be duplicitous, say one thing and then do another thing, 'cause Gemini is a dual sign represented by the twins. Or you're just versatile in general. It really depends.

Sun in Cancer: You might be naturally sensitive and emotional is what I'm getting. You're someone who is inclined into family, nostalgia and you might share love to your own home and land. The 4th house is associated with the home and childhood after all. You may be a kind of person who rules over your own family or simply a provider for your partner or any other person, since Cancer is the water and the cardinal sign at the same time. You might not be into a career that much or you might be worried about your career path. I feel like you may be a great parent because of your caring nature, but it depends on your Moon's placement too.

Sun in Leo: The Sun is in domicile and in its own sign in Leo, making a Leo sign the best placement for the Sun possible. Whatever you do, you may attract attention easily. Leo rules over the 5th house of creativity, stage, fun and children, so you might be seen by using your creative abilities, being into a spotlight, having fun or even act childish. There's also a potential for you to be a highly spiritual person, 'cause 5th house also represents spirituality. Creativity and spirituality usually goes together pretty well. This is an individuality placement at its finest, I would tell, and this is the moment where I see similarities between the Aries Sun and the Leo Sun.

Sun in Virgo: I don't know exactly why, but whenever I hear about this placement, it reminds me on anxiety at some point. Maybe you feel this way often. This sign is being ruled by Mercury, but here comes the analytical version of the Mercury. You might have a great sense of working and reading the people as they're open books. I sense that you may struggle with confidence because of your overthinking tendencies or you may be seen as nervous and anxious individual. You may encourage people to work and to not be loose all the time. I know one person I met online with this placement and this person is very judgmental and has a natural critical thinking, so you might behave like this person too. You may also have a great eye for details. Your father could be a doctor or work at any other health industry.

Sun in Libra: I find people with this placement really beautiful, which is kinda obvious, 'cause Libra is being ruled by Venus, the planet of beauty and love. You may be doing well while interacting with the other people, since Libra rules over the 7th house of other people and even the long-term relationships. The Sun is in fall in the sign of Libra, which is not a good placement for this planet, 'cause the Sun represents individuality, while Libra represents collectivity. But the positive side of this placement could be that you may have a good relationships with almost everyone and that you might be likeable a lot. Great placement for any artistic endeavors. It can also tell that your father might be a lawyer, but it doesn't have to the case with all of you.

Sun in Scorpio: You may naturally give off dark and mysterious vibes or you just present yourself this way. I feel that you could have deep emotions within you that need to be expressed. You may get successful after you do something what you're passionate about and maybe that's what makes you shine and seen. You might also be interested in criminalistics, criminology, forensic science or your father may work in these fields. This sign goes after Libra, so you may also hang out with others easily and you likely interact well with them. You attract attention while you stand up with your own power or when you embrace your mysteriousness. You may also be very intuitive, interested in occultic or have some kind of a hard life, 'cause the 8th house represents challenges, occultic and spirituality.

Sun in Sagittarius: This is such a fun placement to have. Whenever I was with these natives, I had such a good time. Having fun and partying is the best with these natives, for sure. Sagittarius is ruled by Jupiter, which is the planet of luck, so you might be naturally lucky and express joy with this placement. You are naturally adventurous and you may find happiness in foreign lands, since the 9th house is related to travel and abroad places. Sagittarius and Jupiter both represent wisdom, so you might love having meaningful conversations about the meaning of life or about any other philosophies. There can also be a talent to teach other people. We can learn almost everything from you.

Sun in Capricorn: You guys could be very ambitious and career-oriented. This may be a great placement for entrepreneurship or for anything related to leadership. Whatever you do could be successful, but it will take time, 'cause Saturn represents hard work and time. Your life might become better when you get older, especially in your 30s, but we need to look for your Saturn's placements to clarify that. your teeth, bones and nose might look beautiful or may be prominent in your body, 'cause these body parts are ruled by Saturn, but I think people with Capricorn Rising may resonate more to this statement.

Sun in Aquarius: This may be one of the weirdest placement to describe it. Well, you may be one of the most unique people out there or you can be the most average people out there. You stand out from the crowd by you being different from the rest, no doubt about it. The Sun is in detriment position in Aquarius, which is not a great placement for this planet. Aquarius rules over the 11th house of friendships, masses of people, finances etc., so you get along with people well and you care about how much money you make. Let's be real, Aquarius people can be materialistic, 'cause they're also ruled by Saturn. Your father might be a founder of some kind of organization or he might have a lot of friends.

Sun in Pisces: You might be very creative, sensitive and intuitive with this placement. There's a natural inclination to spirituality and foreign countries, since Pisces is ruled by Jupiter and it rules over the 12th house of spirituality, foreign lands an even isolation. You could isolate yourself from people around you and you don't mind to be alone. I sense some kind of introvert and old soul energy here. You can adapt yourself into any situation or to any people, since Pisces is a mutable sign, which makes sense. You might be naturally wise from your age and you can share your knowledge to others. I also feel that you are altruistic and you love to help other people and give yourself to people unselfishly.

Well, that could be very everything for today. I really hope you enjoyed it and that you could resonate with these messages. You can ask me which topic you would like me to discuss on if you want to. You can also book a reading with me. The link is in the 'Masterlist' post. I'm sending lots of love to all of you. Keep rising and shining!

Best regards, Paky McGee

[beerdobaradoblog]

I Met My Mentor Accidentally

with Patton Ozlivon & Nia Sarpong

In the past few days, Patton had no tattoos yet, he had many doubts about life…

2. Keeping up with young entrepreneurs...

3. While Patton was busy talking on his cell phone, someone approached him.

4. Nia: Sir, Hello there sir… Patton: ???

5. Patton: Who are you?

6. Nia: Umm, excuse me sir, and good evening too…

7. Nia: My name is Nia Sarpong, I'm a Tattoo Artist…

Patton: What do you need?

8. Nia: I was passing by this street and saw the signs posted in front of your house, are you a Tattoo Artist too?

9. Patton: Nope and my business has not started yet.

Nia: Oh, is that so?

10. Patton: Why do you ask that? Do you have a connection to what I mentioned? Nia: it's possible!

11. Nia: before I answer your questions...We're practically neighbors, I live in the other building so we're not far apart if we meet again.

12. Nia: I've been tattooing for a long time, ever since I was a teenager. I inherited it from my parents. Patton: Wow, that's wonderful!

13. Patton: Me? We are different, neither of us has the experience you mentioned.

14. Nia: Why do you have Tattoo Signs in front of your house?

15. Patton: I invested with a business partner, a Tattoo Artist but he left me in the air so my Tattoo Parlor is stagnant. Why, can you help me with my situation?

Nia: I can help you with that….but not in that way…

16. Nia: Sir, all you need is courage and self-confidence.

Patton: What do you mean?

17. Nia: You will run your own business, you will be the Tattoo Artist yourself!

Patton: I'm old enough to be a Tattoo Artist.

18. Nia: There's no age limit, everyone starts from nothing. I'll teach you myself so you can get started…

Patton: Hmm, let's see if I can still do it?

19. Patton: And besides, clients won't believe me that I'm a Tattoo Artist because my skin is so virgin, there's no art at all and everything is clean.

Nia: Sir, remember that I am a woman and I have also done men's work as a Tattoo Artist.

20. Patton: I admire you because you were brave and took on that job!

Nia: Sir, I need to support my family, especially in my case, I have one child to raise!

21. Patton: Oh, is that so? I need to get married so I can really have something to do?

Nia: Sir, even if you're single, you can do that!

22. Nia: All you need to do is take action and start a new perspective on life and hope!

Patton: Yeah, you're right, I lost sight of those things. I need to get them back!

23. They discussed getting tattoos on Patton's body, tattooing customers, and more for hours, but the moon was too high to interrupt the conversation.

24. For Patton, it was a good start when he met Nia Sarpong.

25. The same goes for Nia Sarpong, who had a happy night meeting Patton Ozlivon.

To be continued...

[youthofpandas]

Emil Sinclair & Frau Eva

A consistent problem I’ve run into while discussing the novel Demian is the rejection of Emil’s relationship with Eva in favor and treating it as if it is nothing but a tool to analyze the relationship that he shares with Demian. People treat his feelings towards Eva as fake, imagined, and entirely as misplaced affections that he holds towards Demian and become quite defensive when told that isn’t the case in the actual text of the book. I’m no stranger to interpreting things in ways that don’t quite match canon, especially when they make me uncomfortable, and it is clear to me that discomfort or even disgust is how a lot of people view this relationship as given the age gap between them and the general preference for seeing Emil with Demian instead of Eva. I have no problems with that aspect of this little debate, discomfort is more than allowed and I’m not writing this to force people into liking the idea of their relationship.

What I am writing this for, and what I do find a problem with, is the way that people attempt to force an erasure of this aspect of the book and will accuse people of misreading the novel when acknowledging its existence. To say that someone does not understand the book or Emil’s character because they made reference to his love for Eva or his general affinity for mature women just seems to signal that there is a confusion of what the book actually says. Emil does love Eva and it is not misplaced love for Demian. From the moment he dreams of her to the moment Demian passes a kiss from his mother to Emil, Emil loves her. (That doesn’t mean he doesn’t also love Demian, by the way, but this post/essay isn’t about that, so I won’t be dwelling on the feelings he holds for Demian).

This is not going to be a complete, in-depth look at her character and role in the story and will instead simply focus on the actual relationship Emil has with her throughout the story and the ways that the novel sets up their relationship and makes it explicitly clear what sort of relationship exists between them. I feel it has been a massive disservice to her character to view her as nothing more than a woman getting in the way of a relationship or as if all of the quite beautiful descriptions of her person and effect on Emil are inconsequential and/or imagined, so I hope that this does some justice to Hesse’s work.

All quotes taken from the translation of the novel done by W. J. Strachan.

To begin, I will actually be talking about Max Demian himself, because Eva can be understood through son as he acts as a bit of a proto-Eva in Emil's life. They have a similar appearance, as it is often noted, they both bear the ‘sign’, they are deeply linked to Emil’s personal growth and relationship with the world, so to get a full grasp of his relationship with Eva it is also important to look at how he sees Demian and the key overlaps between them. So, let's look at one of the descriptions Emil writes of his dear friend.

This remarkable boy seemed older than he looked; he did not in fact seem like a boy at all. He moved among us more childish members of the school strangely mature, like a man, or rather a gentleman. He was not popular; he took no part in games, still less in the general rough and tumble and it was only the firm self-confident tone he adapted in his attitude towards the masters that won him favour with the other boys. He was called Max Demian.

Note how it focuses on his age and maturity, even though he is literally a couple years older than Emil, spiritually, thematically, he is older than even that. He is like a man, an adult. Here's a similar passage from another moment where Emil describes his friend:

I saw Demian's face and remarked that it was not a boy's face but a man's and then I saw, or rather became aware, that it was not really the face of a man either; it had something different about it, almost a feminine element. And for the time being his face seemed neither masculine nor childish, neither old nor young but a hundred years old, almost timeless and bearing the mark of other periods of history than our own.

Once again we see that he is more than a child, Demian is aged, grown, but not old nor young. In contrast to Emil who is youthful and immature, someone who has not yet begun his true journey. Here we also see a hint at there being a feminine element to Demian. Demian represents not just the fact that he is mature and capable of leading Emil through the spiritual journey he so longs for, but that he is not limited to just one world. He is not stuck in the dichotomy of light and dark, of masculine and feminine, of age and youth, he is both and neither.

Continuing the subject of maturity, we can take a look at the moment we share with Alfons Beck, a relationship that Emil describes with "we seemed to have a perfect understanding of each other" and, while a character who does not stay around long, acts as a mentor in the way he teaches Emil to grow up when it concerns sexuality and affections. It isn't long after this moment that Emil begins his venture into the world of darkness and almost loses himself to indulgence and excess of drinking and what have you, but it is clear from the later scenes with Knauer that Emil retains this personal growth surrounding sex and desire.

I heard amazing things; things I would not have thought possible were trotted out as part of everyday reality and seemed quite normal. Alfons Beck had already gained experience of women in his less than eighteen years of life. He had learned, for example, that girls were only out for flirtation and attention, which was all very agreeable but not the real thing. There was more chance of that with mature women. They were much more reasonable. You could talk with Frau Jaggelt who kept the stationer's shop, and a book could not contain all the various goings-on behind her counter. I sat there spell-bound and stupefied. Certainly I could never have loved Frau Jaggelt - but nevertheless it was terrific. There seemed to be hidden springs as least for my seniors, whose existence had never suspected. It all had a false ring about it, a more ordinary and insignificant flavour than love should have, in my opinion, but at all events it was life and adventure and I was sitting next to someone who had actually experienced it and to whom it seemed a normal thing.

By the end of this talk, Emil feels like a boy listening to a man. He understands that in this area he is behind, yet still is drawn to it. Alfons Beck is here, quite clearly, setting up and building upon the themes of maturity, especially that of women. This is very important seeing how it is one of the first times he is so explicit about his feelings regarding sexuality, and it is not by accident that this conversation regards mature, older women.

Another element here is that Emil points out that he finds more passing encounters, attraction without the intent to form a significant relationship, to be not founded in love - or at least the type of love he desires. I point this out because it establishes the idea that the types of relationships and attraction Emil is most interested in are ones that are serious and lasting. Quick, temporary connections excite him, intrigue him, because of course they do, he is a young man away from home and free to explore the world for the first time in his life and he has wants and desires. But, as we will see in his actions towards Eva later on, what he is most interested in a more true kind of love.

I'm going to hop straight to the painting next, as it is the real start of his relationship with Eva. There's a lot with the painting that I don't believe needs to be quoted directly so I've chosen a description of his realization of who it reminds him of.

Then one morning when I awoke from one of these dreams, I suddenly recognized it. It looked so fantastically familiar and seemed to call out my name. It appeared to know me as a mother, as if its eyes had been fixed on me all my life. I stared at the picture with beating heart, the close, brown hair, the half-feminine mouth, the strong forehead with its strange brightness-which it had assumed of its own accord-and I realized that my recognition, my rediscovery and knowledge of it were becoming more and more a reality.

He says after this that it resembles Demian, it was not his features exactly but there is no mistaking the fact that it was ultimately Demian's face. A motherly, matured woman version of Demian. This will later be seen to be the same description he gives Eva, even beyond the fact that he explicitly states that it is her as I'll quote later.

The effects this painting have on him are, as we all know, quite extreme and trigger many contradictory feelings within him. It is obvious that he worships it, he puts it on the wall in a way he can look at the face first thing in the morning, the same way one would look at a lover in bed upon waking up, he cries over it and clearly experiences intense lust and attraction towards the figure depicted in it. He also finds these feelings towards it revolting and terrifying, and would sometimes call it a devil and a murderer. At this point in the story, he still has lingering shame for these sorts of desires, even if he has begun to embrace them in some ways, he hasn’t fully overcome his belief that the world is separated in two halves and as a result views many things in extremes of both the most beautiful parts of the world of the light and the worst of the tempting world of darkness.

But for full context on this painting, we also need to look at the dream in which its subject appeared in, the most important dream of his life that he dreamed of night after night.

This dream, the most important and enduring of my life, followed this pattern: I was on my way to my parents' home and over the main entrance the heraldic bird gleamed gold on an azure ground. My mother walked towards me but when I entered and she was about to kiss me, it was no longer she but a form I had never set eyes on, tall and strong with a look of Max Demian and my painted portrait - yet it was somehow different and despite the robust frame, very feminine. The form drew me to itself and enveloped me in a deep, shuddering embrace. My feelings were a mixture of ecstasy and horror, the embrace was at once an act of worship and a crime. The form that embraced me had something about it of both my mother and my friend Demian and also this embrace violated every sense of religious awe, yet it was bliss. Sometimes I awoke out of this dream with a feeling of ecstasy, sometimes in mortal fear and with a tortured conscience as if I had committed some terrible sin.

Here we see Emil's most important dream: one where he is filled with ecstasy when embracing a figure that is a sort of halfway point between his mother and his friend. I'm going to share another passage from later, when he sees Frau Eva for the first time since childhood.

Sensing my interest in them, she took me into the house, looked out a leather album and showed me a photograph of Demian's mother. I could hardly remember her but now that I had the small photograph before me my heart stood still. It was the picture of my dreams. There she was, the tall, almost masculine figure, looking like her son, but with maternal traits, traits of severity and deep passion, beautiful and alluring, beautiful and unapproachable, daimon and mother, fate and lover. There was no mistaking her! The discovery that my dream image existed on this earth affected me like some fantastic miracle! So there was a woman who looked like that, who bore the features of my destiny! Where was she? Where? And she was Demian's mother!

So, this figure he dreams about, the figure he paints? It is Frau Eva. And we see here that, much like how her son is described as feminine, she is described as masculine. She also is inherently full of contrasts: daimon and mother, beautiful and unapproachable. Frau Eva and Demian follow the same pattern of being opposing natures who exist in one, the deconstruction of the binary and embracing something that is less easy to categorize. They embody the same ideals as Abraxas, of Emil's dreams.

Speaking of Abraxas and Frau Eva, here is his proper introduction to her as an adult.

With eyes moistened with tears I gazed at my painting, absorbed in my reflections. Then my glance dropped. Under the picture of the bird in the opened door stood a tall woman in a dark dress. It was she. I was unable to utter a word. From a face that resembled her son's, timeless and ageless and full of inward strength, the beautiful, dignified woman gave me a friendly smile. Her gaze was fulfillment, her greeting a homecoming. Silently I stretched out my hands towards her. She took them both in her warm. firm hands. "You are Sinclair. I recognized you at once. Welcome!" Her voice was deep and warm. I drank it up like sweet wine. And now I looked up and into her quiet face, the black unfathomable eyes, at her fresh, ripe lips, the open, queenly brow that bore the 'sign.' "How glad I am!" I said and kissed her hands. "I believe I have been on my way here the whole of my life and now I have reached home at last." She gave a motherly smile.

Eva makes her entrance quite literally alongside the painting of Abraxas Emil painted not long after he put a name to the face of the painting he made of her. He describes this as reaching home, incredibly important to him after he has been feeling so outcast from the home he grew up in. And he loves her deep voice, her quiet face that resembles her son's, and her friendly, motherly smile.

Eva and Abraxas, the god he worships and adores, are linked beings. This all builds on to the Demian and Cain, Eva and Eve connections. Eve the mother of both Cain the murderer and Abel the victim, Eve the woman born of God who spoke to the Devil and committed the first sin (which to bearer's of the Sign was surely not a sin), is now properly linked to Abraxas and it all feeds quite well into a similar theme. Eva is mother and she is home.

Eva is the origin of Demian, an embodiment of his ideals with even more maturity, she created the one who created Emil in a manner of speaking. She truly represents a world that is not divided into light and darkness, the very world that Emil chases after and wishes to believe in. It only makes sense, then, that he would find her so attractive and want her, desire her. By this point, so late into the novel, Emil is quite grown up, literally and spiritually, compared to the young, lost boy he was at the start. He has accepted sexual desires, accepted the world is complex and rejected many of the beliefs he held as a child, and he wants Eva the way any grown man might.

But, of course as we established earlier, Emil wants more than a passing encounter fueled by lust. He wants a real kind of love. And when he has gotten to know her and understand her as a real person rather than just a figure in his dreams, he writes the following, detailed, heavily romantic, filled with yearning and love passage:

On many occasions I believed that it was not really just her as a person, whom I yearned for with all my being, but that she existed as an outward symbol of my inner self and her sole purpose was to lead me more deeply into myself. Things she said often sounded like replies from my unconscious mind to burning questions which tormented me. There were other moments when as I sat beside her I was consumed with sensual desire and kissed objects which she had touched. And little by little sensual and transcendental love, reality and symbol mingled together. As I thought about her in my room at home in tranquil absorption, I felt her hand in mine and her lips touching my lips. Or I would be conscious of her presence, look into her face, speak with her and hear her voice, not knowing whether she was real or a dream. I began to realize how one can be possessed of a lasting and immortal love. I would gain knowledge of a new religion from my reading, and it would give me the same feeling as a kiss from Eva. She stroked my hair and smiled with all her warm affection, and I had the same feeling as when I took a step forward in knowledge of my inner self. Her person embraced everything that was significant and fateful for me. She could be transformed into each one of my thoughts and each of my thoughts could be transformed into her.

This paragraph here always sticks with me, the way his love transcends reality. It mirrors the way that Demian's existence is questionably real, that the moments he shared with the Demian family are somewhere fundamentally between imagined and real. Does she kiss him or is it imagined? It hardly matters, because reality and symbol are mixing together and becoming one and the same. These are his manifestations, these are his calls to the world to make his love true. And that love is so true in his heart he can hardly tell when it is real.

Also I just want to point out how cute he is when he's in love... kissing the things that belong to her, linking his learning and his growth as a person to her. It is similar to his behavior with Beatrice, in that this woman is helping inspire him to improve upon himself, but now it is not the desperate clutch to an unknown figure as a guiding light he can never speak to, it is a woman who pulls answers from his own mind, a woman who exists as a symbol of his inner self. Frau Eva, again just like Demian, is an extension of Emil's self and soul.

Alright, so I have now established Emil's feelings towards Frau Eva, but what of her feelings towards him? This following passage comes immediately after the one before

When I arrived back at H-- I stayed away from her for two days in order to savour this security and independence from her physical presence. I had dreams too in which my union with her was consummated in a symbolic act. She was a star and I was a star on my way to her, and we met and mutually attracted, remained together and circled round each other blissfully in all eternity to the accompaniment of the music of the spheres. I told her this dream on my first visit on returning. "It is a lovely dream," she said quietly, "Make it true!"

Emil tells her that he had a dream of the two of them in which they consummated their union (which, just to make this abundantly clear, means having sex. there is no getting around that fact) through a symbolic act of entwining around each other for all of eternity and Frau Eva tells him to make it true. She tells him, explicitly, that this dream he has of them making love is lovely and that he should work on making it happen in reality. This is of course a further extension of her trying to help Emil manifest a kind of mutual attraction between them through his extended longing and deep, honest desires. While she does not currently reciprocate the romantic affections he has for her, she is clear about being open to the idea of that one day being the case.

Let's also look at this bit, which is mostly about Sinclair's affections towards her but provides a bit of a conclusion to this theme of manifesting her love.

One day this foreboding came over me with such force that my love for Eva flared up suddenly and caused me great pain. My God, what a short time I had left; soon I should no longer be seeing her, no longer hearing her good, assured step about the house, no longer finding her flowers on my table! And what had I achieved? I had luxuriated in dreams and comfort instead of winning her, instead of struggling for her and clasping her to me forever! Everything she had told me about true love came back to me, a kindred stirring, admonitory messages, and as many gentle promises and words of encouragement, too, perhaps; and what had I made out of it all? Nothing. I stood in the middle of the room, summoned my whole conscious being and thought of Eva. I wanted to gather all the power of my soul in order to make her aware of my love and attract her to me. She must come; she must long for my embrace, my kisses must tremble on her ripe lips.

Emil is realizing that despite her encouragements and his continued love for her, he has never truly spent the energy required to make his love reciprocated. These things, him wanting her be his forever, him wanting to kiss her so much that he shakes, to attract her to him so that she desires him in the same way that he does her... those are the things Eva wanted him to manifest. Now, this also makes it clear that for as much time as they spent together (the book mentions that Max was out for long stretches of time, leaving Emil alone with Eva for the majority of his days there), they did not get to do any of the things he wanted so passionately AND that she had still be encouraging him to manifest this.

And does she get this message? Yes! She does, only there is The War starting and so she does not go herself to him, but she does tell him that she heard his appeal and to do it again if he should ever need her.

Now, let's talk about the ending of the book, about the kiss.

"And there is something else. Frau Eva said that if things ever went badly with you, I was to pass on a kiss from her which she gave me … Close your eyes, Sinclair." I closed my eyes in obedience. I felt the brush of a kiss on my lips on which there was a bead of blood that never seemed to diminish. Then I fell asleep.

Demian (who is made clear to be a hallucination or a purely spiritual being at this moment, regardless of what you believe his regular appearances are that of a real actual boy or a reflection of Emil's self or a mixture of the two. in this scene he is a dream-like being existing from Emil's mind here to help conclude the narrative) passes on a kiss that his mother gave to him. Eva wanted to give this kiss to Emil after all of those appeals he made for her love, and uses Demian as a vessel to give this to him.

Now I am absolutely not here to deny any sort of queerness in this moment, in the fact that it is not Eva herself who appears but rather Max. What I am trying to say is that Eva and Max are linked people, especially in the mind of Emil, and therefore it makes thematic sense for the boy who had introduced him to the world of the enlightened and to the woman he would come to love to be here in this quiet, scary moment and pass on a message from his mother. I am trying to say that denying that this kiss is even the slightest bit from Eva and 100% Max's moment is ignoring her entire character and a large, large portion of Emil's.

I could’ve gone on for longer, I skipped over the story she tells Emil of the man in love with a star and how that star eventually came to love him in return and how Frau Eva is his star. His last description of her before leaving for the war is about the myriad of stars glowing in the night sky and it is quite romantic, but I feel getting into the star symbolism in Demian would double the length of this and her feelings towards him cannot get any clearer than the part where she encourages consummating their union, which itself is still linked to the star story. This was all done taking passages I remembered off the top of my head and not a full reread of the book, but I feel like this does more than enough to explain my point.

In conclusion: never tell me again that I misunderstood the 1919 novel Demian: The Story of Emil Sinclair's Youth by Hermann Hesse because I joked about how Emil is into MILFs. He is.

[writerblue275]

Heya! Love your writings. I feel like I'm going insane whenever I read your HCs I just- Aaah! I'm getting sidetracked. Can I see your personal take on how HEARTSTEEL boys would take compliments? Imagining Kayn trying to play it off but then the second he gets alone he's jumping around and- Getting side tracked again. Sorry. LOL

Hiya there Anonnie! I’m so glad you’re enjoying my stuff!! I hope insanity in this case is a positive lmao. Happy to drag some of you along with me in my brain rot! 🤣 But you ABSOLUTELY can have my personal take on this. I LOVE this idea! Thank you for requesting it! 💙

How Heartsteel Handles Compliments

Inspiration: Requested

Genre: Headcanons

Type: FLUFFFF

Gender: Gender Neutral Reader!

TW: Swearing. Slight discussion of HS Ez and HS Kayn past which includes low self-esteem.

Extra: So obviously below I’m going to go more in depth for each member, but as a generalization, I think Aphelios and Yone would react similarly, K’Sante and Sett would react similarly, and then (double trouble) Ezreal and Kayn would react similarly when it comes to getting compliments.

Aphelios

Aphelios is interesting for this. I think in general his reactions to compliments depends on a couple factors. 1. Who is complimenting him? 2. What is the compliment about? (Either him personally/his personality or his work, his outfit, etc.)

If the compliment is from someone else (besides you or Heartsteel) about his work, he’ll give a soft smile and say/sign “thank you” to the person. He really puts a lot of love into his music so if people recognize that, then that makes him happy for sure! If the compliment comes from someone else but it’s about him specifically, he’d be shy about it.

Now with the other Heartsteel members and Alune, he knows them. Phel is comfortable with them. So compliments from them don’t phase him too much. He’ll thank them quickly. But even though he knows you and is comfortable with you (I mean you’re his significant other), you’re unique.

Compliments from you are a different story. He really loves it when you compliment him. When you compliment something personal about him? It makes him so happy he nearly short circuits. And it might sound a bit weird but with you he doesn’t express his appreciation verbally.

You will notice his actions express his appreciation instead. Like Aphelios will hold your hand more frequently. Or you notice his cuddles/hugs get a little tighter, his kisses more passionate. That sort of thing. A special sort of non-verbal appreciation and affection for the special person in his life.

Ezreal

Ohhhhhh my goodness. Ezreal needs compliments like someone needs water to survive a desert. Critically. Words of affirmation is his receiving love language, after all.

Not to mention his rougher history in the music industry. When his album got panned, it really shattered his confidence, especially since he was younger. So while he seems like he’s very confident and such, really a lot of that is a mask over some very deep-seeded insecurities. In reality, he puts a lot of value on compliments and how he’s perceived by other people.

Ezreal would d respond to other people’s compliments with that lovely cheeky grin he has. I think he’d want to play it off like “You like my outfit? Thanks! I gotta put my best foot forward for my fans, you know? It’s what they deserve!” It’s hard to describe what exactly that energy is. Self assured might be the best way to put it. (But you know the truth.)

And I think that’s also what energy he’d use early on in your relationship. He wants to seem cool for you. But I don’t think it would take too long for you to see the real him. Once he opens up and shows you that insecurity and vulnerability he’s hiding deep down, that’s when you know you’ve really earned his trust.

So at that point, please give Ez all the compliments you want to at all times. He loves it. He’ll be even more affectionate with you as thanks and will always be happy to compliment you in return. And while he eventually gets a little more used to compliments from the public, I don’t think he’ll ever get used receiving compliments from you. They help him more than you’ll ever know.

Kayn

(A/N: Anon I really like and agree with the direction you headed in your request, though I think there’s some added nuance to it which I will talk about below!)

With the general public/your relationship early on Kayn would play things cool until he’s alone. He has an image to maintain damnit. He’s the “rebel” remember?

But with you? As things progress and your relationship becomes more established, you see a remarkable shift in Kayn when it comes to how he accepts praise/compliments. At least with you/in private.

Part of the reason he brushed off compliments early on was due to inner insecurities after being kicked out of his old group. Not to mention people who were just shmoozing up to him to use him/his fame (fucking social climbers). But as he realizes you’re sincere when you compliment him, you love Shieda Kayn and not just Kayn the rockstar, and you’re not going anywhere, well it’s like a switch is flipped!

Now he needs/wants compliments from you like he needs air to breathe. And he’s far more open about accepting them. He’ll even ask you to elaborate on what you mean. 😂 “I mean I know I’m sexy, baby, but why specifically do you think I’m sexy?” And when you do compliment him, those are the moments when his giving love language of physical touch manifests itself to show his appreciation (use your imaginations).

His receiving love language is words of affirmation. So give him all the compliments you desire. He’ll accept them all! (He still tries to play things cool when he’s in public though, that’s just how it be.)

K’Sante

The fucking epitome of self-confidence like my god. K’Sante knows he’s HIM. (As he should because he absolutely is!) His self-confidence is a goal all of us should attempt to go for. (Literally like wow king go the fuck off I fully support this.)

K’Sante is definitely one of the members who will play it off the easiest. Not in a way where he makes it seem like it’s unappreciated, no no no, definitely not. But rather compliments don’t really fluster him or phase him that much compared to some of the others.

That being said, he still enjoys getting complimented by other people (deep down, don’t we all?), and he’ll thank them. He might be self-confident but he wasn’t raised to be a jerk. He appreciates the kindness of others! He might even respond in kind with a compliment for whoever he’s talking to! Or if it’s you then he’ll have like ten compliments ready to fire back at you off the top of his head.

The one area of his life where compliments really fluster K’Sante have to do with his designs. He puts a lot of effort into each piece he designs and creates, so for someone to notice and compliment that effort is something he very much appreciates. When he is flustered, you’ll notice he has to take a second to gather his thoughts and the right words.

Obviously your opinion means more to him than the opinion of others, so when you do compliment him, watch his smile get wider, watch his posture get a little taller, and watch as his energy gets even brighter and more infectious for those around him.

Sett

Similar to K’Sante, Sett knows he’s HIM. He’s called “The Boss” after all. That’s certainly not a nickname given to just anyone. Whether in the studio or in the ring, Sett knows he’s the man and 98% of the time he doesn’t care about anyone else’s opinion or approval.

So because of that, again he’s one of the ones who will play off most compliments fairly easily. He’s not super flustered by them, though he appreciates them. And because Ma is the best and raised him with fucking manners, he of course, will always thank the person who complimented him for their kind words.

But now it’s time to focus on the 2% of the time he does care. I’m sure this comes as no shock, but there are only two people’s opinions he reeeeeally cares about. Yours and Ma’s. The two most important people in his life. When the two of you compliment him on something, this giant, confident, usually composed man actually gets a little flustered! Especially when those compliments come from you.

Sett really doesn’t seem like a blusher when it comes to other people, but when you compliment him on something innocent, his cheeks immediately turn just the sweetest bit pink as he gets the happiest grin on his face. (His reaction is definitely different when your compliments are regarding more…private matters, but I’m not going to focus on that rn.)

And his EARS. His ears are the biggest telltale sign he’s flustered. His ears happily flick back and forth, which is admittedly really cute. It’s just very sweet honestly, seeing how much your opinion means to “The Boss!” (He just has such a soft spot for you and I love it.)

Yone

Yone would be in a similar boat to Aphelios. Again it depends on who is complimenting him, what they’re complimenting him about, and the setting he’s being complimented in.

Now Yone is extremely talented at what he does. (We all know this.) And he knows he’s talented. Of course he doesn’t let that make him too arrogant or anything. Any compliments he receives on his music, he genuinely appreciates and will he show/express that sincere appreciation to whoever is giving him the compliment. Making music takes a lot of effort and to become respected like him is only a dream for so many other artists. That’s something he realizes and he is extremely grateful for the fans and everyone else who helped him get to where he is.

Personal compliments he’s just a lot more reserved about, especially ones having to do with his appearance. Like he knows he’s considered attractive, but honestly the only opinion he cares about regarding his appearance is yours. Anyone else he’ll give a soft smile and a “thank you.” But he wouldn’t blush or anything crazy.

But with YOU???? Any compliment you give him makes his entire day, week, month, etc. And when you compliment him on his appearance (because let’s be real how could you not??? That man is so FUCKING FINE) he actually feels pride about how he looks. (AS HE SHOULD.)

Compliments from you make that stoic exterior crack. Yone actually blushes a bit. And your compliments make him smile wider and bring a spring to his step. Compliments from you are what get Yone teased by the other Heartsteel members for reacting just a little bit like a happy puppy at times. (They’re in awe of you for having that power.) That’s your influence over him, honestly, and that’s how much he values your opinion.

Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoyed! Thank you so much for requesting, Anon! I hope I did your request justice! This was so cute and fun to write! Lmao the way I’d be complimenting them all the time because they deserve it. 💙

[paddedlittleparadise]

Hi, I’m asking different related blogs if they have any advice for this because I’m not sure what to do when the time comes and I’d like some help if thats okay?

So I recently talked to my boyfriend, who is a little, about the idea of him possibly trying diapers because I think he would look and feel adorable. We had a long discussion about it because I knew it was a hard limit for him at first but he told me he doesn’t actually know why it’s a hard limit, rather more so being a stigma he’s created in his head about trying them. I told them he wouldn’t have to use them or anything, I’d reassure him all he needed and I’d take good care of him.

Now he’s telling me he wants to try it because he knows I’d make him feel safe. However he said he’s been thinking about it a lot and he’s afraid that he’ll try it and not like it and disappoint me (there’s no way he ever could, I love him too much)

Basically what I’m trying to ask is how could I make the experience, when it happens, the most comfortable and safest? How can I make him enjoy it/let himself be looked after? How can I ease him into this? He’s also autistic so gets overwhelmed easily. I just love him so much and I want him to be comfortable and make this enjoyable for him. Also what are like… the best ones? Idk. Like what would be the comfiest for him I guess. He’s very skinny if that helps

Hey there, Anon – thanks for the thoughtful question, and so sorry it's been so long since you asked this! I wanted to give you a proper response, and life was so crazy that I'm only just now getting to it.

First off, I'm no authority on this stuff. I'm just one kinky person on the internet, so please don't take my opinions as gospel. But right at the outset, I'd say that it sounds like you're starting in a very good place. You both are communicating, and you're both aware of hard and soft limits. You're also both open to negotiating, which is a great sign of a healthy relationship – so long as you can also maintain healthy boundaries for yourselves.

It's really so sweet what you've shared about your boyfriend, and it's super relatable! Few of us want to disappoint our loved ones, and certainly when we're trying new and intimate things, it can be SO easy to feel pressure to like stuff just because we know our partner wants us to like it. I therefore think what you both will need is a bit more courage and self-assertion. Ideally, he will find the courage and the confidence to say when he dislikes something after trying it for you, since he knows that that you'll still love him regardless.

This idea is obviously something you've communicated to him verbally, but perhaps you can find other ways to show it as well by example? Maybe try watching a show he really likes – or a food, or music, or a hobby – and don't be afraid to tell him if and when you don't like it? And encourage him to do the same with you? If you can establish a relationship in which you both feel it's okay to be different in your likes and dislikes, that can make open differences in intimate affairs that much easier to communicate.

You know, for example: "Hey, I know you really like tomato soup, and that's cool! It's just really not for me. How about we have it only once a week instead of twice?" "You know, I'm so glad you love that new Taylor album! It doesn't do much for me, but I do love seeing you happy. So don't worry – I'm totally fine with listening to it on repeat now and then."

Anyway, about making a first diaper experience comfortable and enjoyable! A few thoughts:

Let him try training pants instead of full-on diapers. Goodnites come in XL sizes these days (140+ pounds); they are super cheap and easy to find at many grocery/drug stores or Amazon. In case you aren't aware, these are pull-on, thin, disposable underwear made for bedwetting teens. Because they're essentially thicker, disposable underwear and they come with an assortment of cute/cool designs printed on them, they will likely be a great way to ease into diaper play. If he's unable to fit into them, maybe check Amazon for sample packs of 2 AB/DL diapers and see if there are some with designs he might like. Pretty much any AB/DL diaper will be soft and comfy. :-)

Don't make a big deal of it. When adults are wearing something babyish, we're often embarrassed by the experience. Sometimes what we want is to be able to duck into our room – maybe at our loved one's suggestion/command – and put the thing on ourselves. Wear pants over it, maybe. And then be completely, utterly normal about it. Let life go on. Have supper. Cuddle on the couch. Watch a show. Do whatever you normally would when he's in little space. Maybe let a hand stray down there and give a little pat, complimenting him on obeying you. Tell him how cute HE is (not the diaper; it's him you love. You want to show that you're not making him into your fetish dispensing machine.). And check in casually to ask how he's doing, or if he wants to take it off. Basically, the less of a deal you make of a potentially embarrassing ordeal, the easier and less overwhelming it will likely be for him.

After a try, don't rush. Give it some time – sleep on it. Check in a day or two later, maybe. See how he feels about it. If it works for you, try again – or maybe consider putting the ball in his court and let him tell you when he'd like to try again.

Communicate your own gratitude and concern. It sounds as though your boyfriend has a strong desire to please, so giving him a sense of how much fulfillment and joy he is bringing you can be essential. Sure, it will function as positive reinforcement and make it more likely that he might want to wear again. But more importantly, it will bring him relief and joy to know that he did well, that you still love him, and that even if/when he isn't wearing something special, you love him all the same.

Again, I'm very sorry for the delayed response. I hope these few thoughts will be helpful – and best of luck to you both!

-PLP

[saveadancejustforyou]

Here you go ❤️

Right let's get this chart started shall we lmao!

Right off of the bat, I personally really enjoy this chart, you have all 4 groups within your chart in relevant places which tells me your chart is balanced and that most likely translates into your life as well!

Sun in leo, we all know the stereotypes (which are there for a reason when it comes to you guys imo🤭) cool, confident and charming. What I find really interesting is the fact that your mercury is in leo as well. All that tells me is you know how to hold tf out of a conversation😩

Mercury in leo is a deeply, deeply creative placement and you probably shine your brightest when presenting ideas to a group of people who are receptive to your energy (especially when you have your own personal interest within the topics you're communicating), your energy is infectious and your enthusiasm is at the forefront of your conversations me thinks. There's really a flair for the dramatics with this placement, I immediately think of someone who is bold, animated, and expressive within not only their vocabulary but also the topics they choose to discuss. With both your Sun and mercury in leo I do see you leaning more towards extroverted tendencies and opposed to introverted ones, although if you do lean more towards introversion I believe you're probably very sensitive to the energy of a room and are able to cater your personality and aura to adapt to your environment and thrive within many social settings. I can see you being labelled as magnetic and someone who most likely has a lot of friends and acquaintances. You're most likely bold, firm, and unwavering when it comes to your opinions, which some might find off-putting if they're not used to being around someone so firm in their ideas and sense of self.

Keywords:charming, magnetic, alluring, adaptable, sensitive, dramatic, quirky, abundant

The mars in gemini (I have the same placement🤭) is incredibly complimentary to both your Sun and mercury because of the great compatibility between leo and gemini as signs in general (also mercury rules over gemini!).

This placement is allllll about intellectual prowess, it's a little more rigid than the leo placements as it really focuses on analysis, effective communication and cold hard facts as opposed to the flowy, lead by charisma energy of the leo mercury but to me this just reads that all of your aforementioned ideas and communicative quips are based in logic which only boosts your reputation because people can tell you can talk the talk and walk the walk! You probably thrive in situations where you can quickly flesh out an idea to what you feel like is its fullest potential, then move onto something else in order to keep your mind stimulated. There is a definite craving for change within small routines with this placement, you may need to change up your environment slightly or make alterations to your day in order to keep yourself entertained and feeling productive, you work best when exchanging ideas with others and being adaptable. There could be an issue with needing to do an abundance of tasks in order to feel fulfilled and productive though, also if you're anything like me, when a task does nothing for you in terms of interest, you are not interested lmaooooo. Also, what I've noticed is that we have a multitude of things we can really sink our teeth into, but said things don't keep our attention for too long😩

Keywords:witty, scattered , curious, ambidextrous, intelligent, distracted, restless, knowledgeable

The venus in libra👀 if the phrase "protecting my peace" had an assigned placement it would be this lmao! All this tells me is that you value your relationships deeply and allow yourself to fully immerse yourself in the different dynamics you have with your friends and romantic partners. Feeling equal, listened to and understood are probably things you value above all else within these relationships, you want to feel a sense of community and give-take that satisfies your interpretation of what a healthy relationship looks like (platonic or romantic). There could be a tendency to be a real fence sitter with this placement, oftentimes not allowing yourself to pick sides when it comes to confrontation either out of fear or genuine disinterest lmao. Obviously, no placement stands alone and works in conjunction with your other placements, so your other placements could make certain traits of your venus either soften or intensify. When it comes to romantic relationships you most likely enjoy traditional trajectories, I'm seeing proper courting, really getting to know a person before investing time into them (again, this placement is severely about wanting to keep the peace but also feeling at peace) and just generally wanting to be around someone whom you can be open with without disrupting their or your own peace(I can't necessarily see this as an impulsive placement for you). This placement is deeply romantic and you probably do crave that intimate connection with someone that does lean more towards "conventional" relationships. You want the roses, the wining and dining, and the candlelit beach picnics.

Keywords: dreamy, rose tinted, ethereal, romantic, balanced, peaceful, non-confrontational

Lilith in taurus, this was a standout to me because it it SUCH a sensual placement but not in the dreamy, romantic way that your venus in libra alludes to. This placement is essentially about abundance/overindulgence whether it comes to romantic relationships, money or just generally materialistic things. It shows that you have an unwavering drive in order to gain whatever monetary currency you feel that you need in order to live more than comfortably. Deep connection is probably something that is craved by you although it may have been something that you have either repressed of your own accord, or had repressed by the reactions of others. This may have lead you to be closed off in terms of romantic interactions, choosing to be alone which doesn't necessarily align with this placement or your venus in libra (venus in libra typically crave to feel wanted and seen in all of their multifaceted glory), which could have made you feel lonely or envious in that aspect. This placement is truly lust personified and it's encouraged to explore all facets of your mind, sensuality and body in order to quench this placements thirst.

Keywords:indulgent, materialistic, comfortable, sensual, passionate, desperate, lavish

The last thing that jumped out to me was that aquarius rising👁the oddballs of the zodiac for sure, I did mention this in a reading the other day but aqaurians are not always outwardly quirky, it really can be small idiosyncrasies that are only noticeable to those that know your pattern of behaviour. I think the aquarius rising mixed with your mercury in leo will most likely just add some extra *flair* within your communication mainly, but you guys are known for wanting to push the norm in terms of appearance, you may revel in your own distinctive qualities and allow yourself to be unpredictable to those around you, it may come as a thrill. You may have a trademark feature, something unique that people recognise you by, this placement also oftentimes means that you are a late bloomer in terms of appearance and may have matured past your peers, this is a trendsetter placement, you don't follow the curve, you are the curve.

Keywords:unconventional, rebellious, odd, unique, animated, mature, distinctive

[fuck-customers]

I started making tiktoks in January as a way to boost my self-confidence (it’s working, which is nice). The other day while hanging around with my girlfriend I noticed that one of my bosses had viewed my profile. It’s not unusual for people I work with to look at my page, since I’m friends with and/or follow most of the ones that do, and they’re being supportive. But it is weird to see my boss there, as it’s the first time they’ve ever looked at my page. I mentioned to gf, and later to my bestie, that it seemed fishy that my boss was on my page.

Later today when I got in to work, I was checking my emails and saw a recent one from my supervisor (they’re just under the boss who was looking at my page, kind of like an AM). They said that they were informed that I’d been making videos, and that I’d been filming while at work. I wasn’t told it wasn’t allowed or that I’ve really done anything wrong, but they said they “do not feel comfortable” with an employee recording on work property during shift hours, and that because we live in a small town we want our community members to feel safe coming to the hospital, and that as an employee I’m a representative of the hospital so I need to be cautious in what I post.

There’s no policy about recording videos or anything else while at work/on property. I haven’t broken any rules. I never mention any personal information about patients or their visitors, or anything that could even identify a patient (if I’m telling a story from the ER I always use gender neutral pronouns, don’t necessarily say what the patient was dealing with, but rather talk about something funny/interesting they said or did while at the hospital). I get maybe 300 views on my videos, on average, and don’t have some insane amount of followers. Most of my videos are my complaining about something or another that has nothing to do with work or the ER, and it’s just personal nonsense. I also make sure to never show any material from the hospital, like logos, and I’ve never mentioned where I work or live, so I can’t really be pinpointed down.

I can understand why they wouldn’t want me filming during shift. I’m paid to work, not make videos. Even though I’ve only ever done it during downtime when we haven’t had a patient in for hours. But I get it. And lately I feel more comfortable recording in my car anyway, so I can change that without a fuss. And maybe I could understand the argument about wanting our community to feel safe coming to the hospital, except it’s not like I’m belittling anyone or making fun of them for having come in to the ER.

But what gets me is that I shouldn’t have to be worried about what I do in my personal life when I never signed up to be an ambassador of the hospital. I’m paid to check people in and handle paperwork, not be some kind of shining representative to make them look good. As long as I’m not saying horrible shit about my job, or badmouthing people I work with by name, or breaking the law by revealing patient information, I shouldn’t have to be bothered with making sure I’m performing for my company every minute of the day.

Employees should not be persecuted for what they do outside of work, so long as it’s not harmful to anyone. We shouldn’t have to be concerned that a potential, or current, employer might see a video we make and then try to discuss it with us later on. We shouldn’t have to police everything we do and say in fear of our companies retaliating against us.

I like my bosses in general. They’re usually pretty cool about things like this. But this just rubbed me the wrong way. If it’s not important enough to have an actual policy about, then it’s not important enough to talk to me about. If you don’t like what I’m saying just get off my page.

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[ms-m-astrologer]

Transiting Sun enters Sagittarius

Thursday, November 21 - Saturday, December 21, 2024

Sagittarius the Centaur*:

• Fire (identity - enthusiastic, energetic, creative, passionate, assertive, freedom-loving)

• Yang (levity - outgoing, expressive, logical, left-brained)

• Mutable (adapting to learning - distributing, connecting, flexible, scattered)

• Transpersonal (universal - focused on ideals and abstractions)

• "I seek"

• Ruler - Jupiter; exalted - Neptune (in Ms M’s Cosmos)

• Color: rich, deep reds and burgundies. Think royal robes.

*Gleaned almost completely from the book Astrology for Yourself by Bloch and George; the rulerships and color are my own theory/belief.)

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Sometimes when I am doing the research and setting up the document, I see very clearly what and how the transit is liable to go down. And this is one of those times.

What stands out to me is that, less than an hour after the Sun enters Sagittarius, a sextile matures: Sun/Sag sextile Pluto/Aquarius. It’s the first major, non-lunar aspect to be made to Pluto in its new sign. (Although if you’re sensitive to lunar aspects, the Moon opposes Pluto on Wednesday the 20th at 13:52 UT.) Since it’s the Sun in Sag, I think we start this transit out with high hopes. We can see opportunities (sextile) and are eager to take advantage of them. But, it’s a long transit for Pluto the Water-Bearer. And we can’t approach it with the same old attitudes and rules.

(Tangent - Pluto the Water-Bearer - what’s he carrying? A full chamber pot? A pitcher of margaritas? What do you think?)

Anyway. Allow a day or so on either side of these aspects:

Thursday, November 21 - Sun/Sagittarius sextile Pluto/Aquarius, 0°02’. As discussed, we’re eager to get underway.

Sunday, November 24 - Wednesday, November 27:

Sun/Sagittarius trine North Node/Aries, sextile South Node/Libra, 3°27’

Sun/Sagittarius (4°30’) sesquiquad Chiron Rx/Aries (19°30’)

Sun/Sagittarius trine Mars/Leo, 5°34’

Mars is moving terribly slowly as it approaches its retrograde station. In other circumstances, these aspects would signal a huge boost in self-confidence. But, Mars is only nine days away from that Rx station, and the sesquiquad to Chiron indicates that our timing is off. Be careful that bravado doesn’t backfire or blow up in your face; recognize where you’re overdoing it, or being overbearing. (Trines don’t necessarily mean good; they just mean easy.)

Saturday, November 30 - Sunday, December 1:

Sun/Sagittarius semi-sextile Juno/Scorpio, 9°28’

Sun/Sagittarius (9°32’) sesquiquad Eris Rx/Aries (24°32’)

New Moon, 9°33’ Sagittarius

New Moons mean the time is right to start something - but with that Eris sesquiquad, we may be too angry right now; and with Juno, we may be getting bad advice. Remember also that Mercury is retrograde, and Mars is about to be - not good auspices for starting anything.

Wednesday, December 4 - Saturday, December 7:

Sun/Sagittarius square Saturn/Pisces, 13°01’

Sun/Sagittarius conjunct Mercury Rx/Sagittarius, 14°27’

Sun/Sagittarius (14°36’) semi-square Ceres/Capricorn (29°36’)

Sun/Sagittarius (15°22’) semi-square Pluto/Aquarius (0°22’)

Sun/Sagittarius opposite Jupiter Rx/Gemini, 16°15’

Damn. This, I think, is where we learn about old attitudes not working any more. We need a thorough overhaul of how our brains work. Much of the Mercury Rx in Sag is about wrapping our brains around very “foreign,” “alien” ideas. I would hope that, if we’re thwarted, we can learn and grow…? Hold your tongue, no matter how much you want to speak and be heard - even if the words come out the way you want them to, it’s going to piss someone off. Besides, “Better to remain silent and be thought a fool, than to speak and remove all doubt.”

Wednesday, December 11 - Thursday, December 12:

Sun/Sagittarius (20°24’) semi-square Venus/Aquarius (5°24’)

Sun/Sagittarius (20°58’) sesquiquad Mars Rx/Leo (5°58’)

Sun/Sagittarius sextile Vesta/Libra, 21°11’

This setup has obvious sexual/romantic connotations. Here the Sun is aggravating the Venus-Mars opposition - maybe unintentionally, maybe with good intentions, but still making things worse. Mars is hot hot hot, and Venus is ice cold. And Vesta just wants to get back to the library. Maybe if we stay in the library, we can avoid this stuff, or postpone it for better times.

Sunday, December 15:

Full Moon, 23°53’ Gemini

Sun/Sagittarius inconjunct Uranus Rx/Taurus, 24°07’

Sun/Sagittarius trine Eris Rx/Aries, 24°07’

Perhaps a little verbal blowing off steam. The Sag Sun loves to preach, the Gemini Moon likes to talk, Eris is pissed off, and Uranus likes to provoke.

Wednesday, December 18 - Sun/Sagittarius square Neptune/Pisces, 27°10’. Ending on the proverbial wistful note. We really do have a lot of work ahead of us. Are we going to dedicate ourselves to working on a better world, or are we going to drift off into escapism?

[oraclekleo]

[Tarot Article] Reading Tarot for Yourself

Hello my dear followers and random visitors of this blog!

Let’s discuss the topic of reading tarot and other types of divination cards for oneself today. I have heard multiple times that even experienced readers face difficulties when trying to read cards for themselves and so it’s surely worth it to cast some light on this.

Personal Journey

When I started with tarot I was reading cards only for myself. That was 17 years ago. I wouldn’t dare to read for anybody else, unless I could see there was some relevance in what the cards say to me. Once I felt slightly more confident, I read cards for close family members and friends. About 3-4 years ago I started reading cards for online friends and strangers online. This was my personal journey. As you see, I always read tarot for myself, right from the very start and I do so up to this day.

And yes, sometimes the messages can be a bit confusing but that happens when I read for others, too. I have no real problem reading tarot for myself and I can share some tips on how you can enjoy this part of tarot practice, too, if you are currently struggling.

How to read cards for yourself

Tarot for yourself is the same as doing the reading for your querents. Only your querent is you. In theory, it should be easier because you already know everything about yourself, your signs, your life situation, your relationships, etc., right? So why does it seem more difficult for many readers?

The possible explanation is that you can’t be unbiased about yourself. You always approach a reading with a subconscious wish on how it should look, what’s the answer you want to see in the cards. This might taint your vision, your intuition might get foggy, suddenly the cards make no sense and you are left more bewildered than before, enlightenment and insight didn’t happen for you. How to fix this? How to become unbiased about yourself?

Start with questions where you don’t care what the result is and you are open to any answer!

When doing reading for yourself, try to first do readings where you genuinely don’t care about the result. Ask about things where you are open to any outcome. Meaning - don’t ask about your future spouse because you do have preferences there. 😀 Ask about something neutral or even about things you feel zero interest in. That way, it’s more likely for you to be unbiased and see a clear answer in the cards. You can browse pinterest for tarot spreads inspirations and just try some of them out, preferably the ones where you don’t care what the result is going to be. If you want to try a relationship couple reading, do it with a person you don’t love nor dislike, someone you feel neutral about. Just to be clear here, this is not the final stage, this is only the beginning. You will be able to do readings about things that matter to you in time. 🙂

Many people turn to self reading at times of stress or turmoil going on in their life and that might also cause troubles. When your own mind is a mess, it’s very likely to affect your cards, too. You might experience more confusion from the reading.

Calm your mind and soul down before reading for yourself!

Whatever technique works for you, use it. Meditation, hot bath, listening to music, gardening, yoga, jogging, a walk outside, breath work, exercise, dancing, reading a book, staring at a wall… Try to calm yourself down before the tarot reading so you don’t approach your cards agitated and on the verge of blowing out. With your mind becoming more peaceful, you are more likely to see clear messages in your cards.

It often happens that people are unsatisfied with the answer and keep asking again and again the same question. Stop that. Life ain’t a rose garden, you won’t always get the kind of answer you want.

Learn to accept uncomfortable, negative, even hurtful information without them ruining your day!

Nothing in life is permanent. Hard times pass, life hurricanes blow over. If you see something you don’t like in the cards, don’t waste time asking repeatedly. What tarot shows is something based on the current situation. Stop trying to change the cards and better change something about your life and reality. Some things are inevitable, even the more hurtful ones. When my mom had cancer, my cards never said she’s not going to make it. They kept saying I’m going to become responsible for the entire household and make my own decisions. It was clear what cards meant by it. And I did everything to help mom but at the same time I prepared for the worst case scenario, I overtook every single responsibility mom was still trying to keep for herself. When she truly passed away, it was devastating but it didn’t break me down and it didn’t throw my life into chaos because I already had everything in my hands. I didn’t want to see those messages in the cards but I had to accept them so I could cope and adapt. This is an extreme example but it will work with less dramatic unfavourable life situations, too.

Even if you follow the above suggestions, you might still feel confused sometimes about your cards.

Don’t be afraid to ask!

Brainstorm with other tarot readers about the cards and possible meanings. Sometimes other people notice tiny details about the cards you overlooked. Other people have different perspectives on the meanings than you do and can come up with a possible explanation you would never think of. My friend, who also has a tarot blog @starwell-tarot would confirm that I sometimes send her my cards so I can discuss what they could possibly mean. And her different point of view and insight truly help a great deal. So don’t be afraid to discuss and ask and learn.

Never stop trying and practising!

Nobody is born an expert. With continued practice, knowledge and skill improvement come to you. Just keep trying. Don’t give up. Read for yourself. Do daily pulls for yourself. Try the variety of spreads available. Be creative and come up with your own types of readings. Participate in tarot challenges! (Very subtle self-promotion, right? 😂) Start a tarot journal. Do patchwork readings (just randomly laying down cards without a question on your mind and see what the cards tell you, you can combine with other divination tools like runes, oracle cards, Lenormand, etc., creating a patchwork collage). Simply do whatever brings joy to your tarot practice.

The basic rules for reading cards for yourself:

Try to be unbiased

Calm your mind

Accept and adapt to unwanted messages

Brainstorm with others

Keep trying and practising!

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°•T B P CHARACTERS POSSIBLE ZODIAC SIGNS HEADCANONS•°

Author's note : I'm open to discuss different opinions about these ones , since we barely know some characters entire persona or birth chart , I can't even pick one to define them lol . Sorry if the reasons are too lazy or any spelling mistakes , always remember that the sun is important ( the sign that you were born ) but your birth chart is the one that describes your personality ENTIRELY , that being said , enjoy these lazy ass headcanons that I didn't know I started a long time ago .

FINNEY BLAKE

Cancer ♋

Shy , caring , attentive , sensitive and a reserved personality , one that cares about their loved ones more than anything and it's eager to help them whenever they can , intuitive , tendency for the melancholy and loneliness , modest , I think it fits him , besides they're also observant and smart , usually mistaken as " too naive " , but if needed , they can be mean , serious and cold headed if the situation demands it . Second close to the spiritual and / or magic world sign , but they tend to get more negative answers from it than good .

Virgo ♍

Just like the previous one this one is because of his shy and reserved persona , but , the one who has the sign is a very smart , logical and responsable person , a little bit more rational than emotional . Patient yet not so patient . Great at observation . They take responsibility and are determined to finish whatever task they have to whatever costs it has . They can think straight in the worst situations and tend to usually outsmart the moment that they're living .

Escorpio ♏

Emotional , not so social , good with people until they break them down and they explode in a terrifying rage , because they tent to suck all the negative emotions inside them , until that day comes and their true persona comes to the surface , it kinda reminds me to his confident boost in the end of the movie . Scorpio as a sign planet represent the death , the resurrection and the spiritual transformation of someone metaphorically speaking when their old self " dies " after a bad period of their lives and the new one is " born " . Good thing is that the people with this sign know for sure that every change that comes heavy brings experience and calm after the storm .

ROBIN ARELLANO

Aquarius ♒

Independent . Chill yet chaotic people . Either a social butterfly or someone with little friends . Blunt honest . In a negative light they cannot fear being disrespectful or agressive towards people . Loyal friends if so friends had their respect . The type of people that will watch more than 40+ times a movie that they already saw before . Idk he looks like one

Taurus ♉

Practical and firm believers of their ideas , funny with their close ones , only cares about what people say if it doubts their social status / respect , determined , challenging if provoked , in a negative light they can be proud physical fighters , if it was his sign I wouldn't be surprised

Aries ♈

If there's a sign that loves challenges , it's the Aries sign , specially the men or masculine inclined people . Loyalty on friendship are their second names , would not hesitate to throw hands for a friend or loved one , just like it happened on the movie . Fan of adrenaline and the danger . They're not too empathetic with people outside their circle , but the ones inside can see their servitude and attentiveness . Very impulsive .

GWENDOLYN BLAKE

Aries ♈

Now , Aries sign girl's or female inclined people are not so impulsive and seeking of challenges like the previous one but for sure will stay on their ground to defend themselves and others if they think it's unfair and accept one if they think they're capable of finish so challenge . This little girl is energetic , funny , honest and perseverant , I think this sign could fit her like a ring on a finger .

Gemini ♊

Very smart , curious , funny and good at socializing , this sign could be also fitting for her sarcasm and mischievous part , her insistence on finding the real truth of something or someone , better memory than people give them credit for , it ain't too crazy to think about it

Piscis ♓

In a good light , generous , sympathetic , caring , empathetic , teasing and optimistic people with this sign can be , social too , funny , with a fantastic intuition and a special religious and spiritual connection , they handle bad emotions in a really volatile way ,so hey , miss Blake can also be water sign too !

BILLY SHOWALTER

Taurus ♉

Practical and direct people , really stubborn and hate when they ain't being heard or treated with respect , they tend to be bossy at times , cautious , reserved and hard working along with materialistic , they believe that financial safety is a priority on life , i believe he's one because , why else a kid would wake up early to ride all the town if it wasn't for money ? Anyways , here's top 1 zodiac sign for paper boy

Capricorn ♑

Capricorn men tend to be honest , patient , realistic , responsable , mature and modest , they are hard working too , and they likely are more able to get mad when someone ain't listening their advice than rejecting so advice , there's no more reasons, he just looks like one lol

Libra ♎

This boy takes care of his looks and it shows , that's a Libra sign thing to do , they usually are nice but in their rage moment they loose all politeness and calm in them , wich is something that we saw happening on the movie . They're either nice to everyone but reserved or very social and popular , depends if you view him as a quiet or more extrovert one . Anyways , Libra on the 3rd place for this guy !

GRIFFIN STAGG

Virgo ♍

They tend to be shy and reserved , they won't talk unless it's necessary or they're are approached first , with a close one , that shyness goes away and their funny sarcasm and playful nature is on display to those they trust . Smart , responsable and more likely to be the " geeks " or " weirdos " of the class , no one can pass as invisible more than them , so there's a big big possibly in my opinion for the floating kid to be one .

Piscis ♓

Differently from the previous sign that is more on a serious aspect until fully trusting a person , in a bad light of this sign ( because in a good one tend to be really social and loved for their generosity / personality ) they can be really shy and afraid of judgement , but they treat everyone nicely anyway. Smart yet easily distracted , playful yet somehow petty , no surprise if he has this sign

Gemini ♊

Air signs are more rational and overthinking than the other element ones , handle really bad negative emotions and tend to isolate or vent their feelings towards other people ( either verbally or aggressively ) , but the good thing is that those negative emotions usually don't last an hour or maximum a day ( there's the famous stereotype of them being " bipolar " ) , either because they found a solution , someone made them laugh , let it all out , etc . No much to say , I feel like he can be one , that's it .

BRUCE YAMADA

Gemini ♊

The good thing about this sign is that whatever role they want to be they will be , the sassy weirdo , the quiet smart kid , the students president , the popular one , etc . If this sign is combined correctly with other signs on his chart , a popular Gemini guy will be charismatic , playful , flirty , funny , lively and smart if the planets want to as well . Even if they're usually carefree people , they have their moody side or their social battery low somedays , but as long as you invite him to a fun party or place to go , he'll be back to normal in no time !

Sagittarius ♐

Smart yet they prefer to play the lazy / indifferent card if it helps to avoid certain things , this sign is flirtatious , playful and ironic , they love sports and physical activities and will be competitive if the people they care about hype them up enough , they're also the people that secretly wishes to fight but they can't because they don't want a bad reputation on them . Mental hippies , they're really open minded and even if they're usually party goers they enjoy deep talks and quiet activities from time to time . It can be an option too .

Libra ♎

" Innocent " flirts and good care takers of themselves , they tend to be chill people that enjoys socializing and care about they're reputation a lot , categorized as polite fellas , they usually suck the anger and frustration up to put a smile for the crowd , but that's only a facade , because their death stare shows their real emotions behind the cockiness or cool persona , kinda like the moment he gave the nasty glare to Finney for almost win the game , idk he can be .

VANCE HOPPER

Leo ♌

Intense types that stick to their hobby / partner / friends like a cat to a curtain , in the outside he's confident , smartass , tough , independent , individualist , cocky and brave , but in the inside , they're empathetic , caring , insecure , sensitive , loyal , altruist and hope for their close ones to like them and not see his flaws or weaknesses . Fire signs tend to be competitive and in a bad light aggressive , in this case of the sign we are talking , mostly for respect or make sure " they know with who they are messing around " .

Scorpio ♏

In a bad light this sign can be antisocial and had little interest on people , tending to be aggressive or rude to those that come across them , and if they have a bad luck to trigger their pent up rage or do a little mistake on a bad day that ruins something in their eyes , they will encounter a emotional dynamite human that might resort to physical violence to back away the people or push them away . Even in negative turn , these people are loyal and protective to those that try to understand them or not judge them , although they are really not fan of the idea of sharing their worries, deepest thoughts and feelings , even if they are sensitive to everything that happens around them .

Aries ♈

Aries sign men are usually the " badass guy with anger issues that have only a soft spot for certain people " kind of men , they either love sports and physical activities or resort to more visual type of hobbies like video games ( *cough* Or arcade games ) , marathon of movies , series , animations , etc , although if they imply some type of challenge or difficulty to be done or understood the better . Like the previous sign they're not good with handling feelings but it's more obvious for the rest , different from the last one . Care little about other people problems , smart / bad mouths , they tend to be grumpy and are more pron to give a physical warning than a verbal one , usually because their bossy commands weren't listened . This sign has a lot of masculine energy , which uh , combined wrong with other energies might make the person the " I need to fight everything that moves and pisses me off" kind of masculine , and it's not good , but it fits the character .