#took a while but here it is!

[jihyocentric]

after jihyo’s first pregnancy with jisoo, the changes that her pregnancy forces her to go through become part of her life, never really losing the habits brought to her by her new responsibility as a mom, even after giving birth.

jihyo becomes organized, grows as an adult during the nine months she waits for jisoo, finding pleasure in keeping her life as stable and in order as she could. for that reason, jihyo can’t understand how she fails to notice something as crucial as her body’s rejection to her birth control pills.

jihyo should’ve noticed sooner.

if only her job wasn’t demanding special attention from her during the past weeks, she would’ve known that the pills weren’t working for her anymore. the excessive stress and, among other things, the lack of sleep, weren’t only caused by her hectic schedule, but also because her body was going through changes.

and so, jihyo only understands something might be happening with her when other emotions are affected.

she cries more often and has drastic mood swings, her body demands more food, her clothes don’t quite get tight but jihyo notices her tummy is just slightly elevated, just barely, nearly impossible to see and feel. if she wasn’t attentive, it would take her longer to acknowledge the subtleties of an early pregnancy blooming into her.

jihyo looks at the mirror, raising her shirt carefully, stopping when her belly is visible. she’d been afraid of looking at the mirror from the moment that being pregnant again became a real possibility, but she gathers enough courage to look at herself, impatient to know if her suspicions were true.

“oh,” jihyo holds her breath, turning to the side, checking if she was seeing herself clearly.

nayeon would have never noticed something as little as a bump that was barely there, but jihyo did. the moment she puts her eyes on her tummy, a hand instinctively nuzzling her bump, she knows nayeon managed to get what she wanted. through unexpected ways and without jihyo’s approval, but she did. and jihyo couldn’t be happier.

“you okay there, hyo?” nayeon knocks at the door. jihyo hadn’t locked it, but she waits for jihyo to ask her to come in, a sleepy jisoo in her arms equally eager to see her mom but barely awake.

jihyo lets the shirt fall to her thighs, trying to hide the smile on her face as she opens the door.

all nayeon knew was that jihyo felt sick, which was true — she had woken up with the urge to throw up. while jihyo wasn’t exactly as sick as she was when she told nayeon she’d skip work for the day, she still needed a day off to get her mind in place.

“hi mommy,” jisoo yawns, arms leaving nayeon’s neck to wrap around jihyo’s, being received with open arms by her mom.

jihyo laughs softly at the way jisoo holds her plushie bunny, her tiny fist grabbing the bunny tightly by its big ears, diligently taking care of her mama’s gift, not letting it fall to the ground or taking her eyes off of it for a second.

“good morning bun,” jihyo kisses her little girl’s head, a happy sigh slipping past her lips.

nayeon checks on jihyo, still worried about her. “i know you’re not feeling well and i’ll get her ready to daycare, but she wanted to see you.”

jihyo pouts without realizing she was doing so, shaking her head when nayeon mentions taking jisoo away, not wanting to waste her day off without her baby to make her company.

“she’s not going today,” jihyo mutters, pecking jisoo’s forehead a couple times, the baby dozing off slowly in her lap, too sleepy to be happy about not going to school. “i feel better now, i’ll stay home with her.”

jihyo wasn’t going to stay at home, but she tells nayeon she will to let her heart at ease while nayeon was working. there were things she had to do outside, getting a pregnancy test was one of them.

although she had seen the changes on her body with her own eyes, jihyo had to be sure that it was all real, that jisoo would get a sibling and that nayeon would get the second baby she yearned for.

“are you sure?” nayeon bites her lip. “i could stay too.”

“no!” jihyo cuts her off way too eagerly, making nayeon mumble a small ‘eh?’. “we’ll be fine, nayeon. i know how to take care of myself and you should use your sick day when you’re actually sick.”

nayeon wants to tell jihyo that she doesn’t care if she’s a grown adult that’s more than capable of taking care of herself. for nayeon, jihyo was still the same girl she fell for in high school. nayeon wants to stay, take care of her apparently sick wife and not miss out on the fun their daughter.

but jihyo was, unfortunately, right. nayeon had flexible schedules, certainly less hectic than jihyo’s, but it was better to keep her sick day safe for emergencies in case anything were to happen.

“fine,” nayeon sighs. “but i’ll do my best to leave early.”

“you better.” jihyo smiles, swaying jisoo gently in her arms.

after nayeon leaves, jihyo allows herself to sleep some more. she wasn’t the type of person to stay in bed, but she hasn’t been sleeping properly and she didn’t want to disturb the baby in her arms, going back to bed as soon as nayeon kisses her goodbye.

she’s awaken by jisoo’s soft giggles, hearing loud purring next to her. bbuyo, jisoo’s dear friend, could never leave her alone, even when she was sleeping.

“good morning, mommy!” jisoo sits on jihyo’s tummy while jihyo yawns, complying as bbuyo asked for pets, exposing his tummy for her to rub.

“good morning, soo,” jihyo smiles.

jihyo had slept with jisoo on her lap, something that used to be routine for them. jihyo used to have jisoo glued on her at all times when she was a smaller baby.

they would sleep in the same position jisoo was before she got busy with their cat: with jisoo’s head tucked into jihyo’s neck while jihyo held her comfortably, keeping her safe and sound in her mom’s warm embrace.

“hey, bun,” jihyo calls and jisoo looks at her. jihyo runs her hand over her baby’s hair softly, caressing her lovingly. “since you’re not going to school today, what do you want to do?”

“stay with you, mommy,” jisoo replies, falling back to her original place with her head on jihyo’s chest, looking up at her mommy with her eyes shining.

jisoo was truly just like nayeon, despite carrying most of jihyo’s features. in love with her mom to the point she’d easily skip anything else to stay with her, no matter how tempting other activities outside might be. besides, if her two best friends weren’t with her to play outside, then there was no point on playing at all.

“we could go to the park,” jihyo offers with a small smile on her lips. “and take bbuyo with us.”

“what about beom and wannie?” jisoo asks, only interested in playing at the park if she had her friends with her.

“they’re at school, bun.” jihyo explains. “but we could go see your auntie and wait for them there.”

jisoo gets excited at the thought of seeing jeongyeon. it’s mostly because visiting her auntie meant eating good food, and whenever her mom stayed home with her, the meals wouldn’t be the best (or edible at all). her stomach rumbles as she thinks about lunch made by her auntie instead of her mom.

but at least jihyo’s breakfast wasn’t necessarily bad and jisoo eats well before jihyo gives her a shower and gets her ready to go out, not even complaining about the fact that jihyo gave her the fruits she didn’t like, all because she knew jihyo was sick. nayeon had told jisoo to do her best and behave, promising to her baby that her mommy would heal faster if she was a good girl.

as for jihyo, she decides that nayeon would know about their little trip to jeongyeon’s later. jihyo would only let her know that she was at jeongyeon’s when she knew nayeon would be returning home, not wanting her to worry, aware that nayeon would drop everything if she thought jihyo was seriously sick or walking around while she was sick.

jihyo takes a different path on her way to jeongyeon’s, keeping her eye on jisoo and bbuyo in the backseat, jisoo on her safety seat and bbuyo in his carrier. she makes a quick stop to get what would determine if she was pregnant or not, getting no questions from her daughter except when jisoo becomes interested in the gummy bears displaying next to the cashier.

it’s still early when she arrives at jeongyeon and momo’s house, and she knew jeongyeon would be there because jeongyeon often worked from home.

“am i babysitting today?” jeongyeon asks as she opens the door. bbuyo scratches his carrier, wanting to get out, and only then jeongyeon realizes jihyo brought the entire crew with her. “i’ll stay with the baby. the cat is not welcome here.”

“leave him alone.” jihyo warns, making her way in with jisoo holding her hand.

“make yourself home, i guess.” jeongyeon stares at bbuyo as jihyo releases him. jisoo leaves jihyo’s side and runs to jeongyeon, raising her arms for jeongyeon to pick her up, making the older woman forget about the menace walking around in her house freely now. “and how are you, babygirl?”

jisoo settles comfortably in jeongyeon’s lap, a fan of being held. “i’m okay, but mommy is sick!”

“sick?” jeongyeon looks at jihyo questioningly. she seemed fine for her.

“a little…” jihyo blushes, thinking about a way to tell jeongyeon without letting jisoo find out. “but i got medicine to make it better.”

jihyo shows jeongyeon the pregnancy test inside her bag. jisoo couldn’t understand what was written in the package, not even aware of what was inside, but jeongyeon freezes when she understands the type of sickness jihyo felt.

“oh.” jeongyeon gasps. “that’s...”

jisoo gets distracted with jeongyeon’s hair and jihyo allows herself to bite her lip nervously, deep down already knowing that she was pregnant, but getting the confirmation that she was indeed carrying nayeon’s baby a second time would make it all real.

“should i take it now?” jihyo asks, her heart racing.

jeongyeon nods. “go ahead.”

although she knew it would take long seconds of waiting for the results to be ready, jihyo steps into the nearest bathroom in a hurry, undoing her pants as swiftly as she could.

on the other side, jeongyeon tries to process the information while talking to jisoo, asking her where her toys were, even offering beom and wannie’s toys because she knew they wouldn’t mind lending them to their favorite girl.

jihyo puts her pants back on once she’s done with the test, impatient as she waited, biting her nails, walking back and forth. she wonders what nayeon’s reaction would be if she found out she was getting another baby, able to visualize the happiest smile on nayeon’s face.

jihyo was happy, truly happy, but part of her felt angry. she wanted to be aware when she made love with nayeon aiming for a baby, just like they did with jisoo. she wanted to have planned the baby before getting pregnant, upset because she couldn’t control it the way she wanted — but still wishing that the test came out as positive.

“how did it go?” jeongyeon knocks at the door, taking jihyo away from her thoughts.

“wait,” jihyo opens the door. “where’s jisoo?”

“playing the twins’ stuff.” jeongyeon steps inside. “are you…?”

“i don’t know! i think so.” jihyo sighs. “see the result for me.”

jeongyeon, apparently as eager as jihyo, snatches the test from the counter, her eyes widening when she sees two perfect lines.

“i guess i’m getting another copy of you to babysit soon,” jeongyeon mutters, showing jihyo what she’d just seen. “does nayeon know about this?”

“fuck.” jihyo takes a deep breath, trying hard not to cry in front of jeongyeon, but her attempt is useless. “uh, no she doesn’t. and she won’t.”

jeongyeon places the test back on the counter. “why? did you two fight?”

“no…” jihyo sniffles, hugging jeongyeon, who only hugs her back because jihyo was pregnant. jeongyeon rolls her eyes, thinking about the next months she would have to spend treating jihyo well because she felt guilty if she poked fun at her while she was pregnant, slightly annoyed at the news solely because of that. “i-i’m not ready to stop saying no when she asks for another baby. she’s s-so cute, jeong!”

jihyo cries harder into jeongyeon’s chest, happy tears that she can’t control, her body starting to understand that she was pregnant again, making her sensitive.

“you two are disgusting.” jeongyeon sighs, knowing jihyo wasn’t listening to her at all, too busy thinking about a thousand things involving pregnancy, nayeon and jisoo’s new sibling.

jihyo only allows jeongyeon to break the hug when she hears jisoo’s voice calling for her, drying her tears quickly to go tend to her baby, almost crying again when she sees jisoo and hears the word ‘mommy’, wondering what jisoo would think about having a sibling to share her mommies with.

[njere]

who's ready to swing? ☆

bonus: live skyfire reaction

i also included the hearts of steel design i made for skyfire, since I needed one to make the meme (i ended up really liking it ngl i love this big man)

[oureddie]

#denial is a river in egypt

[naiad-r]

Cage me like an animal A crown with gems and gold Eat me like a cannibal Chase the neon throne If I could only let go

Death pact, fulfilled.

[egophiliac]

I loved your drawing(and I love your style in general) with Leia in your recent post! If/when you have time can we see more of her in your style? I get so happy whenever I actually see people mention/talk about her and she’s not just forgotten because we didn’t get to see much of her. 😭

thank you! 💙💙💙 Leia/Leah/Lea/whatever is fascinating to me. she is the ultimate unknown. what was she like? how involved (or even aware of any details of the invasion) was she? Silver's basically a physical carbon copy of his biodad, so what did he get from her? like, I understand why the two of them kind of have to stay as these super vague and mysterious figures -- the whole point of them is that their story ended 400+ years ago and they're not really relevant anymore (and. well. the more that gets explained about them, the less that can just kinda be handwaved as "oh the politics were Very Messy") (we can sit here and theorize all day but let us acknowledge that, ultimately, canon gave us almost nothing about them post-Meleanor and we'd just be making things up). I do still wonder about her though! RIP Lea, we never knew you and we probably never will.

actually you know what, as long as we're here, I think I WILL go ahead and just make some stuff up about what Silver might've inherited from her instead.

[andrewsleftarmband]

I don’t think I’ve ever seen anyone else point this out but Mary liked exy too. In like chapter three of tfc, Neil is remembering the little league games that she took him too, and she says that it was THE ONLY TIME HE REMEMBERED SEEING HER SMILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why does no one talk about this???? Why does no talk about the fact that the only reason Neil loves exy, and loved it as a kid was because Mary encouraged it. Look, I get it, the little league games were training for his Edgar Allen audition. But if that was all it was, she wouldn’t clap and cheer in the stands. She wouldn’t have SMILED.

Idk, this little detail is so telling to me, but I don’t think I’ve seen anyone bring it up ever.

[oobbbear]

I want to post this here too because I’ve seen it happen a few times

Please understand that there are cultural differences and language differences, if you see this happening let the person clarify what they meant, that person might just not be familiar with words the western side of the internet use

[soapyakships]

BDAY TO THE BLORBO

[onlysushicat]

They got thrown into a water tank to drown and instead of finding an escape they ended up talking about their feelings, making out and then dying 😑😑😑

Doomed idiots

[tomboyyyaoi]

wash the blood out

[xxplastic-cubexx]

[right to left]

finally finished This Wip from Ever ago and so now i ask you ever look into another dudes eyes and suddenly want to do whatever he wants

[viarayy01-blog]

whatever you choose to be

[ezariumi]

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[go-aywey]

I feel so embarrassed.

I met a lot of radfems when I was still a libfem and despite the gnawing feeling that they were making sense I still talked over them, blocked them, silenced them as “TERF”s etc… I can’t even find them and apologize cause all my accounts on other platforms are banned..

Wherever you are, I’m sorry, and thank you 😔

[l4tchk3y]

Welcome interruption during training. You know... because the waterfall meditation thing...

[hyakunana]

"My friend, my partner… my Guardian."