#tw paranoia inducing

[schizopositivity]

To all the people telling me "I'm in your walls" is a harmless meme and "if you are sensitive enough to be triggered by it you shouldn't be on the Internet", please read this and then tell me it's a meme that has nothing to do with schizophrenia, it's a harmless meme, and if me and other people with schizophrenia get 'triggered' by it we are too sensitive.

It was literally made to purposely trigger people in psychosis/ people with schizophrenia specifically. Me and many other people who post about our schizophrenia/psychosis online get spammed with this type of thing, I get anons pretty regularly. I actively try to avoid it but it doesn't matter. I can't think of any other popular "meme" that purposely triggers people online who are already vulnerable. It is blatant sanism/ableism.

There is no way you can divorce the "joke" from its original intended purpose. And why do you guys fight so hard to justify this "joke"? It's not ever funny, it's not clever or creative, it's just bullying a minority, that's literally it.

Those of us with schizophrenia/psychosis deserve to be on the Internet just like everybody else. It's not our fault that there is a popular meme made specifically to target our vulnerabilities. Even if we try our hardest to avoid these types of jokes, people will seek us out and harass us regardless.

Notice on the Know Your Meme page, all the other related searches that are more "memes" meant to trigger, harass, or make fun of people with psychosis/schizophrenia. A lot of these memes have only started/become popular in the last few years. And yet no one seems to be speaking up about how fucked up that is. Not even neurodivergent/mental illness awareness online. And when those of us with schizophrenia try ourselves to call it out, guess what kind of comments we get 🙄

[future-foundation-system]

As someone with paranoia related to being watched and/or listened to, the antivirus popups my computer gives me that say crap like “Someone might be watching you” or “Could someone be listening to you?” should be illegal.

[borderline-culture-is]

bpd/hpd culture is

when is it me. when is it me. when is it me. when is it me. when is it me. when is it me. when is it me. when is it me. when is it me. when is it me. when is it me. when is it me. when is it me. when is it me. when is it me. when is it me. when is it my turn. when is it my turn. when is it my turn. when is it my turn. when is it my turn. when is it my turn. when is it my turn. when is it my turn. when is it my turn. when is it my turn. when is it my turn. when is it my turn.

(this is not directed at anyone specific, and I am not upset at anyone reading this :] also please tag this as "tw repetition" and "tw paranoia inducing" if it's not any trouble!)

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[yourbelgianthings]

white noise live at the vermont hollywood, will wood / once in a lifetime, talking heads / from all hail west texas liner notes, the mountain goats / #2122, houses at night series, todd hido / welcome to night vale episode 244, liminal spaces / homecoming, green day / mabel episode 8, the freeze

[mickedy]

Nobody is watching.

[hazyaltcare]

Typing quirk suggestions for a...

Mark Heathcliff

(Mandela Catalogue)

Character Adjustments:

Add a period after the letters "m," "a," and "d" Ex. "maple" becomes "m.a.ple," "dam" becomes "d.a.m." and "modifiable" becomes "m.od.ifia.ble"

Replace all spaces between words with "_" Ex. "Type_like_this."

Replace "i" with "👁"

Replace "l" with "1"

Replace "one" and "1" with "1️⃣" Ex. "everyone" becomes "every1️⃣," and "backbone" becomes "backb1️⃣."

Replace "6" with "『𝟞』"

Word Adjustments:

Capitalize he/him/his pronouns.

Capitalize the word "intruder."

Replace "another," "different," and other synonyms with "alternate."

Replace "break" with "snap."

Replace "forget" with "erase."

Replace "knowledge" and "wisdom" with "awareness."

Replace "mad" with "MAD." (You can take this further by using the replacement in parts of words. Ex: "armadillo" becomes "arMADillo," and "hamadryad" becomes "haMADryad.")

Replace "person" with "watcher."

Replace "religious" with "sacrilegious."

Replace "recall" and "repeat" with "playback."

Replace "remember" and "record" with "tape."

Replace "reverse" with "rewind."

Replace "skip," "rush," and other words for moving quickly/rashly with "fast forward."

Replace "speak" with "broadcast."

Replace "video," "show," and "movie" with "recording."

Replace "wise," "smart," "intelligent" and other synonyms with "aware."

Text Prefixes & Suffixes:

✝️ <text>

📼💬 <text>

👥👥 <text> 👥👥

𝖕𝖆𝖗𝖆 <text> 𝖓𝖔𝖎𝖆

<text> 👁ɪᴄᴜ👁

<text> ↜𝙽𝚘𝚠 𝚘𝚗 𝚅𝙷𝚂!

Phrases To Use:

"An alternate in human skin." A person or thing that appears friendly or harmless, but is really hostile.

"A scared boy with a gun." A phrase describing something or someone that may be pitiful, tragic, or flawed but still endearing or worthy of sympathy. This phrase is to be said with the same implied ironic/pseudo-sympathetic tone as the phrase "A pathetic little meow meow."

"Go back to the corkboard." A phrase that states something the subject has done has not been successful and that the subject will have to start again or try another idea

"Keep an eye out." A phrase that means to look our for something with particular attention.

"May your tapes always be wound, and may your prayers always be answered." A phrase that can have some religious undertones, but can also be used secularly to generally wish someone well.

"More tainted than the THINK Principle." A phrase that calls the subject unforgiveably corrupted; untouchable.

"Pull the trigger." An idiom that means to commit to a final decision.

"Watch this!" A phrase generally used to announce a demonstration.

General Quirk Suggestions:

Occasionally use 90s slang and 90s terms for things, as Mark Heathcliff was last alive during the early 1990s in his source.

Mod Haze (🎮Greyson & 🪳Maker)

[beyond-the-threshold]

Don't look up don't look behind don't look don't look don't look don't look they will KNOW

[the-crystal-femmes]

I could realistically be found in your backyard. Not even as a woodpecker. Beware. :)

[schizopositivity]

i don't know if that makes sense, but whenever i start holding specifically a paranoid belief, it helps me to make up a fake counter-fact.

it's a little dangerous because i am still making myself believe in things contrary to reality, but so far it's worked without me losing myself in them.

a little example and of course tw for unreality, hallucinations and potentially paranoia inducing thoughts:

i always was incredibly terrified about something unknown being in my apartment - chasing me, watching me sleep, etc - to the point i started hallucinating it. but then i gave the "thing" a name and some rules, and now i'm (mostly) okay!

if i hear something at night, especially auditory hallucinations i can simply blame my "thing" flatmate, Adrien. he KNOWS he's not supposed to come into my room at night! he can roam freely when i'm out of the house, but once i'm home he has to stay in the other room.

he's also not allowed in the bathroom, which has greatly alleviated my reflection induced hallucinations (i barely get them at all anymore!)

I actually love this, it made me giggle. I'm such a fan of out-of-the-box coping strategies (as long as they aren't harmful of course). Especially with psychotic symptoms, they are usually nonsensical, so your own way of dealing with it can be kinda nonsensical too.

I myself have created similarly strange coping skills that have actually helped me a lot over the years. Like naming my cat Demon (what I called my old persistent hallucination). So now instead of being like "what's that noise at night??? Is it Demon??? >:0" I will be like "what's that noise at night? Is it my sweet baby boy Demon?! :D". I also love putting stuff like "creepy" dolls or a full size skeleton, and other Halloween decorations in my apartment, because that way the hallucinations can kinda just blend in, and I'm more desensitized to seeing random eyes staring at me in the dark lol.

[arsenic-clownip]

Is it ok if you make the "I'm in your walls" joke to your friends only? Who are ok with it ofc

another tw for "in your walls" "jokes"

genuienly iwould say not. theres simply just no way to separate the meaning from the joke, its still harmed psychotics so much, its simply inseparable from its true meaning.

screenshot from "know your meme"

screenshot from @/schizopostivity

[centipedve]

people will make a post about how """people who think they were abused through organized means are usually victims of false memories implanted into them by therapists""" and then go ummmm i'm gonna tag this oneeee #cult survivor

[mickedy]

as metal breaks and bends..

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[eclipses-relationship-adventure]

You know those jokes of "something scary is around" and similar? As someone with psychosis, I don't mind them much except for one specific type of joke. First of all, please understand, only makes those jokes with people who you know are okay with such humor. Not sure? Ask first. And a little piece of advice, it's best to not bring up such jokes to a person who is anxious or has recently been triggered, even if they previously stated they are fine with such jokes. So, I used to date this man, our relationship was… not the best. I will probably explain further why in another post, but one of the earliest signs he wasn't the best happened at a late night. He used to be in a server with my friends, in that server, we all stated our boundaries, one of my boundaries was to not make a very specific unreality joke, what happened wasn't in the server but it's still important to mention. Him and I were in DMs, and then I got triggered by something I saw, he comforted me, and though I felt mostly calm, I was still on the edge. We continued talking, then he made that specific joke, not like a single message, but multiple messages, even acting like it was actually happening. I was rightfully upset, and I called him out for it and told him I would go to bed. While I was in bed, my body was in complete pain, barely able to move a muscle, and my mind wouldn't focus on anything, I thought that "something" was inevitable. Ten minutes later, what do I get? A message from that dude saying "One mistake it's all it takes", which triggered my abandonment issues and I immediately answered apologizing for getting mad. Even when I was apologizing for lashing out at him, I mentioned how the joke made me upset, but he went on about how I hurt him, when I was the one who should have gotten an apology. I was in physical and psychological pain, I was trying to calm him down despite not being in the best headspace to do it, and I never got a proper apology. He claimed he "didn't know" that would cause a reaction when I stated my boundaries in that server with my friends, and that I was being cruel to him for an "honest mistake". Even if he truly didn't know, I DESERVED AN APOLOGY, I WAS THE ONE TRIGGERED. While writing this, I've accidentally triggered myself. I don't usually get triggered by strangers saying eerie stuff, but when it comes from a person close to me, it just, breaks me. To end this post, I understand if someone forgets a very "niche" boundary, but if the other person won't apologize for breaking a boundary, it's best to distance yourself from them.

[matchlocks]

random ocd intrusive thoughts include:

“i sure love [insert horrible person who’s committed atrocities here]. i can’t stop thinking about them! i probably want to fuck them.”

“what if i killed and ate my mom”

“i think i’m an abuser. im pretty sure of it. im skilled in the art of abuse. i’ll abuse anyone.”

“hey there are people watching me and they can read my thoughts too. even the bad ones. especially the bad ones. what’s the worst thing i can imagine right now?”

“it’s morally indecent to watch cartoons. they’ll infect my mind. and everyone can see it. they’re watching me right now.”

“stop looking at me”

“my dog has been outside for one minute and he’s out of my line of sight. he’s dead. i know he’s dead.”

“everyone i love is dead.”

“sorry i was watching you sleep i needed to make sure you were still breathing. also i was just planning your funeral in case you were dead. could i get some of your opinions on funeral arrangements”

“if i research politics i’ll get emotionally contaminated by the worst politician and i’ll become them. in fact i’m the reincarnation of them. no it doesn’t matter if they’re still alive. everyone can see that i’ve turned into them.”

“if i listen to music past 6am i’ll lose my mind entirely and have to spend the rest of my life in a mental hospital.”

“i’m a serial killer. i genuinely really enjoy thinking about murdering people and im going to snap. im going to become an extremist and tie up some innocent people and torture them to death.”

“if i just scroll through a few more tumblr blogs the mind readers will be satiated and won’t think i’m immoral anymore. what do you mean i’ve been scrolling for five hours straight.”

[rebellum]

You know what'd be so fucking weird. If it turned out reality shifting was real and you found out because y/n reality shifted into your reality in a quest to find out who they really are. Like, y/n from the fics.

[arsenic-clownip]

How is “I’m in your walls” triggering? /genq

tw for "in your walls" "joke"

its a joke literally created for harming psychotics/schizophrenics. its literally just sanism/ablesim.

can trigger paranoia its so awful noot even funny "joke".

im not well at explaining, ihave trouble whenever trying to explain something, but if youwant to hear more, read this post by @/schizopostivity, an amazing account that speaks up for psychotics and schizospecs !! genuinely a great account !!