#vent incoming lol

[resident-rats]

I may be miserable and on the verge of biting someone - but at least I am writing✨

[styxxsyringe]

i want to delete my twitter account so fucking bad

[cosmosbunni]

Being an artist and slowly losing your ability to create due to disability has got to be something they make you go through in hell

[sugarstock]

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[kiwisandpearls]

it feels like it’s slowly getting harder for me to post my funny haha stupid little posts here. The world is going more and more to shit and I’m genuinely really scared for what’s going to happen to me and people like me in the future. But I still want to maintain the original purpose of this blog; to be a place where I rant and rave about my silly little interests. Things are going to be very hard, and sometimes I feel guilty for not constantly posting about real world issues on my blog. But I’m not sure that would help anyone, and I want to be able to have my spaces to be able to decompress so I’m able to at least help some people later down the line. Can’t help secure someone else’s oxygen mask before securing our own y’know

I guess this is all to say “fuck it we ball”

[dreamcast-official]

me when the disorder is disordering

[godhusksapostle]

Haha if I see ONE more person ping Satan-Offical ONE more time for some dumbass question I’m going to lose my marbles istg. You do not need to contact the oracle every five seconds, just figure out the goddam problem yourself. She’s probably tired of all of the notifs where it’s just like “what does satan think of this 🥺” and the post says something so fucking stupid like “hgggghghggh beans on toast” SHUT UP FOR A SECOJD, SENPAI IS NOT GOING TO NOTICE YOU.

[fenrishion]

growing older is weird once you start becoming more emotionally mature than your parents and start realizing how emotionally instable they are and that none of these fuckers should be allowed to have kids in the first place

[plantsucc]

it's like I'm still in the tutorial level of my life. but in such a way that I can't complete it so I'm stuck in an unsatisfying loop of trying again and again. like you should have a career by 30 right? I have the same job I had at 19. in terms of career, I haven't moved forward at all. it's always like nothing gets worse but nothing gets better either.

[dandyshucks]

ouhhhh the neighbour doesn't have any supplies of her own for crochet and I'm teaching her and my mother today starting in just over an hour

and i am ... not selfish with my supplies but i am unemployed and living off a very tight budget (cannot purchase any more yarn for projects unless i manage to do some pretty spectacular savings on my groceries for the month which is... not very doable) so I'm a tad worried she's going to be good at crocheting and want to Make Something with the yarn that i do have fjdskl and I would normally be totally fine with that but considering there's basically nowhere in town to buy yarn (i've had to buy online) and shipping is $20+ lately, that's not exactly a great thing for me right now 🧍‍♂️

[arbitersart]

i really oopsied taking on too much responsibility, huh

[hatake]

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[manic-pixie-aquarius]

I've now watched the teaser so many times.... working on writing down all my initial thoughts/reactions, but I just got to the 2 minute mark in the trailer after like 5 whole minutes spent rewinding the first minute...

This is all I have so far and I still have those quick flashes for which I need to slow down the playback for..😭

[misswynters]

Seb complaining to you after a days worth of work

short drabble

requested. by anon

Seb’s broad shoulders sagged as he shuffled inside, his gills flaring faintly with every irritated breath. Door creaking as he stepped inside still in his uniform, which carried a lingering dent of zauns smog and dust. He muttered something under his breath, probably about the day he’d had, as he unbuckled his utility belt and tossed it onto a nearby chair with a loud clunk.

You watched from the kitchen, leaning against the counter with a glass of water in hand, already bracing yourself for the incoming storm of complaints. Which he always does. He sure does love to complain about his job as enforcer.

“Long day?” you asked, breaking the silence.

Seb turned his wide, fish-like eyes toward you, his lower lip jutting out in an exaggerated pout. “You have no idea,” he groaned, flopping down onto the couch like a deflated balloon. His fin-like ears twitched as he rubbed at his temple, his webbed fingers dragging down his face dramatically. “I swear, if one more rookie enforcer tells me, ‘It’s just shimmer addicts, Seb,’ I’m gonna lose it. Like, yeah, Brad, shimmer addicts who could gut you with a rusty knife in two seconds flat. But sure, act tough.” (idk who’s brad lol, just a rando)

You bit back a laugh, crossing the room to sit beside him. “Brad again, huh?”

“Brad always,” Seb whined, throwing his head back against the couch and staring at the ceiling like it held all the answers. “It’s like babysitting with a badge.” He gestured wildly as he spoke, his fins flicking in irritation. “And don’t get me started on the paperwork. Hours of chasing down some punk, and then I have to sit there and write about it. I didn’t sign up for this. Well, okay, I did, but still.”

You leaned closer, resting your chin on your hand as you watched him rant. There was something endearing about the way he vented, his deep voice rising and falling with every exaggerated complaint.

“And then,” Seb continued, throwing his hands in the air for emphasis, “this shimmerhead threw a bottle at me. Me! Do I look like the kind of guy you throw a bottle at?”

You raised an eyebrow, pretending to think. “Well, you are pretty intimidating.”

Seb scoffed, crossing his arms over his chest. “Oh, come on. I’m a catch.” He paused, his lips twitching upward as he caught the unintended pun. “Literally.”

You snorted, nudging him with your elbow. “A very dramatic catch.”

“Hey, someone’s gotta keep things interesting,” he said, finally cracking a small smile. He turned his gaze to you, his big eyes softening. “You’re lucky you’re cute, or I’d really start whining.”

“Start whining?” you teased, earning a half-hearted glare.

Seb sighed, leaning back into the couch and letting his head loll toward you. “You know,” he murmured, his tone quieter now, “it’s not all bad. Coming home to you? Best part of the day.”

Your cheeks warmed at his sudden sincerity, and you reached out to take his hand. “Glad I can make it better,” you said softly.

He squeezed your hand, his usual dramatics replaced by a rare moment of tenderness. The two of you sat there in silence, his complaints forgotten for now. Seb might be a whirlwind of grumbling and theatrics, but you wouldn’t trade him for anything.

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[sairaverse]

omg I'm so curious. I remember when you said that you changed your blog when you changed your mindset and how you manifest. I wonder, what was your "manifestation mindset evolution" (if that makes sense, so like what you did before your current mindset) and how you got to that mindset/way of manifesting.

luv ya btw!! <3

GREAT QUESTION OMG (luv ya too! long post incoming+religion trauma dumping sorry if it's annoying but it gives a lot of context)

so before, I used to believe in allah and think muslims created loa 😭 i used to go off of ayat and think I needed to worship allah or else I wouldn't get my desire. (I'm not even joking, I used to think "oh maybe it didn't happen because I didn't thank allah enough" selfish ass god 😭) ANYWAY i used to think that allah loved repetition because of some stupid ass hadith I read where it was like "allah loves to hear the voices of those who beg again and again" (bullshit btw) so I would affirm again and again and again all day while praising allah. and yeah I would get my desire within a week or some shit but it was not worth all that work lmao

my old manifesting routine was:

decide you have what you want

thank allah for what you have

affirm all day and make duaa until you get it

how I got to my current mindset:

about a month ago I hated my life and I hated allah and islam and I thought I was going to hell for feeling this way so I prayed for guidance. about an hour or 2 later I saw a twitter thread about a user on here named 4dbarbie. They linked her archive bc she had deactivated (read here ifw! @4dbarbie-archive) and I scrolled through it allll day. I locked myself in my room and read so many posts on non dualism. after consuming all of that information, I paced around in my room telling myself everything I learned. (that's how I like to study 😝) but silly me, brainwashed by religion thought this was allah's doing. that he gave me the "right path" i was venting to chatgpt lol saying how I started to dislike islam and muslims a LOT but not allah. I kept feeling this way, all the time. and slowly but surely, I stopped practicing islam. I scrolled past islamic reminders, unfollowed muslim influencers, stopped praying...until I felt weird. like this sounds so typical and cringe but I felt so free. like I DIDN'T have to wake up at 4am and pray for no reason. I DIDN'T have to read quran every day to be reminded of eternal punishment if I didn't believe. I could just live my life and be..human.

it came to a point though, where I got scared all over again and I couldn't reach out to a sheikh so I fucking used chatgpt again 😭 (don't be mad at me pls okay I was going through a lot and I still am) i used like this muslim scholar thing and it just pissed me the fuck off all over again. I was so mad I was like "why the hell are muslims like this??"

I did some self reflection, I thought of every possible situation and outcome if i really did stop believing in god. I then realized I wouldn't stop believing in him because I never did in the first place! I was just reaching, I was claiming it was allah who gave me my manifestations but it was ME putting in the hardwork.

i thought about my trauma, how I was SA'ed and if allah was really real why did he just let that happen? I mean I get humans have free will but if you're an all loving lord wouldn't you protect me? I thought about how everytime I needed him the most he wasn't there. I thought about how he claims in his 99 names that he's the most loving, most merciful, most gentle whatever. None of that was true in my life. and he's not a liar....so that must mean he's not even real. islam was just one of the many religions that people follow for coping.

so I stopped being a loser and showed up for myself again like I always do. I remembered I wouldn't be here with "prayer" I was here because I fucking manifested it myself. I learned loa all over again. I looked back at the holy trio of sammy ingram, erik power of I am, and taylor tookes. from the perspective of ME being god. I just wanted to see what it was like. I tested something and manifested a guy kissing me 😝 all I did was say "because I am god, ___ is going to kiss me when we hangout" and then my slimmer face manifestation, which you guys know about.

my new mindset 🦄🦄✨✨

1 I AM god, nothing is outside of me, this world is mere play and I can do anything I want.

2 there are no limits, and imagination is the only reality.

3 allah isn't there and things will be okay.

my current manifesting routine 🦄🦄🦄🦄🦄

decide you have what you want

remind yourself it's real and you have it because you're god.

because you are god and nothing is outside of you, you already are the one with your desire. so just KNOW you have it.

sorry for the long ass post, I hope this was the context u needed. love uuuu ✨💗

[abyssmal666]

AU BELONGS TO @dyellogin !! ★★★

JOCELYN/ SHION

Username : @ shionn_ // PHR0GG1E_PUK3

pronouns: she/it/bun/doll/gore/bloodself

Favorite shit: Yagami Yato, MHA, Discord, Hot Topic, Dollskill, tododeku, alt fashion, leather straps, cute things, creepy things, riot grrrl, Higurashi, anime girl gore, BL.

Occupation: University student

Cosplayer, and “altcore” scene kid, Shionn dedicates her time to growing her fanbase through her eclectic, creepy-cute way of dressing. Her main form of income is through moderating discord servers, one of which includes Jerry’s nontoxic art disc server (I hc he has one). Other than that, she also moderates nitro giveaway servers, and those dating servers where guys can buy discord kittens nitro. When Shion isn’t at her classes, she’s dming her online boyfriends so they can buy her giftcards and nitro, and making ootd’s on tiktok, where she also speaks out against the police force (hello kitty says acab), advocates for lgbtqia+ rights, and spreads misandrist views, actively stating her hatred for men. She calls herself a “girlboss” for taking advantage of lonely NEETs online, but is secretly boy-crazy.

Additionally, she runs her own 12+ server, called “dollygore cemetary”, meant to be a pro-recov server, but it just consists of her spamming blacklists and venting to her members.

Shion is a fujishi, and has a fan account for Jerry, where she makes edits of him. Lol. She had a huge crush on him but would never admit to it, because she doesn’t wanna anger her misandrist fans.

At one point, Shion finds out ryuuu’s secret identity, and spends weeks making a callout doc, and manages to find his house coords. She makes a burner to post these on twt.

She’s secretly dating Bill. They met on a twt thread where he defended her when he thought she was an OF Model, and she didn’t stop bugging him after that. They started talking on discord, where they would go deep into political debates. Bill would think this would scare her off, but it didn’t. She wanted to “fix” him, like her own little social experiment, she thinks hes “too cute too give up on”, and since they both dont want to be seen together to not ruin their reputations, they stick to online dating. They have matching anime pfps. Bill finds her hella annoying, calling her a “blue pilled femenazi” with pronouns, but he’s too desperate to turn her down.

The kind of girl that hates uraraka for getting in the way of her gay ship, but insists it’s because “she appeals to the male gaze.”