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sport events Louis has attended as a guest recently:
UFC championship, Las Vegas - Dec 2023 Australian Open (tennis), Melbourne - Jan 2024 UEFA Euros (football), Germany - Jun/Jul 2024 F1 Italian Grand Prix, Monza, Italy - Sep 2024 NFL Super Bowl (American football), New Orleans - Feb 2025
#..and possibly that F1 event at the O2 in london tomorrow..?#just a little list to keep track...#very curious about this pattern#as yes he’s gone to football games and other sport things in the past but not as frequently as in the past 18 months I think#and all of these events have also been deliberate promo for him with partnerships and parties and red carpet appearances#bringing his styling team along#and the variety of sports is interesting too#louis#sports events#F1#euro 2024#m
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DAREDEVIL: BORN AGAIN | 1.01, 1.02 & 1.03
I'm not him anymore. And, I won't let myself be.
#Daredevil Born Again#Karen Page#Matt Murdock#Daredeviledit#Karedevil#ddba spoilers#Daredevil Spoilers#Not Revolution#GIF set#Mine#I'm aware the show's called Daredevil: Born Again and Matt Murdock is Daredevil. But he's not my fav character by a long shot.#I like Matt. His MO is a push-pull relationship. He doesn't trust easily. He's very self involved and he's naturally self destructive.#But currently there is too much Matt and not enough Other People. I'm missing my warm fuzzys. I'm missing the emotional element.#(I do not miss the ninjas. Do not bring back the ninjas.) I'm cautiously interested in the idea of Frank having#a f**ked up fanclub - who he has no interaction with and who are co-opting his symbol for bad. If that's what's even happening?#I'm curious about Matt and Fisk both falling into old patterns and mirroring each other. I like the tense undercurrent between Fisk and#Vanessa. I don't know where that's going but I'm happy to wait and see. I just need something to care about? I'm not sure what the goal is#Matt's life is too easy. He became a successful lawyer with a proper office with no effort and barely an inconvenience.#He now has the perfect law partner who keeps the office running and has no personal issues and never questions him. She even found him a gf#Now it's a little messed up that his gf is a therapist coz boy does he need some therapy but she is also not very interesting.#I want to see Karen's apartment in San Francisco. I want her to have a cat. I want her to be a reporter or an#investigator? Maybe she just comes back to NY on her own. Matt screws up BIG and she shows up. Because he needs family and#she's all the family he has left. I want bickering. I want laughter. I want tears. And glaring and eye rolls.#I did not sign up for a show where Matt pretends he wants to be a lawyer for 9 episodes.#If the original version of this show was 'Matt pretends he wants to be a lawyer for 18 episodes' I can see why they changed it.#(This is the least spoilery post ever... but better to be safe than sorry)
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Back when the Black Wolf and White Lion were nothing more than freshbloods recently saved from an overtaken encampment, a string of nightly mishaps leads to yet another fateful encounter with the garlean princes. (They're in the tent next to them, and Titus will always demand his beauty sleep when he can get it at this age)
#ffxiv#comic#gaius van baelsar#quintus van cinna#titus yae galvus#lucius yae galvus#what a mess of tags to post LOL#two hotheaded snipers and two chill frontliners in a medical tent#three of those four were about to take a coin to the dome if lucius didnt know his little brother as well as he did#Behold- the comic of gaius with a dad snore so powerful that quintus cant sleep#(I love writing the scenario of them being lower ranking soldiers together)#and- it wasnt gaius that woke titus. it was quin.#(angst ahoy- but he getting mad at gaius for it because he's hating that he's relying on knowing he's nearby)#(they woke up to their camp getting flanked and the injuries gaius got fucked up the pattern he was used to)#I missed drawing lucius-#the concept that he's so used to ducking into doorways even if he doesnt actually have to gets a chuckle out of me sometimes#luckily he takes care of his knees cause he's basically a dragoon and he needs that shit v-v#i also just want you to imagine this man as a legatus- but he is the nosey-est- golden retriever like man you can think of#the leader of the current front line but when he has nothing else to take care of he's chilling and drinking with his men#or looming over their shoulder because he's a very curious man#what im saying is that he just saw two younger soldiers go through some shit and went:#“I am looking after those kids(despite barely being older than quintus) myself for a while”
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Post 5 different characters from BL/GL/QL that reflect you best but…
don’t explain what aspects or at what point in their narrative arc you relate to them so your followers can just judge you in the comments lol
tagged by @watchingblsnowandforever <3
oooooof this is super difficult bc when i first read the prompt i was like "but there is no character that's exactly like me??" but then i thought about it some more and then i actually was able to come up with characters where i can see myself in some very specific aspects... well, have fun guessing as to what my reasoning for my choices might be kkjsdfjsdf
no1: third (theory of love)
(mutuals who were here in 2021 will have predicted this choice 🤭)
no2: hira (utsukushii kare)
(funny story about this one bc my mom actually sat me down for the first season of this and when we were done i was just sitting there, mouth agape as it slowly dawns on me that i have the tendency to act like hira in a certain aspect while my mom is just sitting next to me, laughing at me and my existential crisis, going "yeah. why do you think i wanted you to see this")
no3: kluen (star in my mind)
(this choice is actually EXTREMELY HILARIOUS when you know how much i love talking while kluen mostly speaks in one-word-sentences. however: trust me bro)
no4: pa (bad buddy)
(i feel like this one may break the pattern of the first 3 choices, if you could spot it dfkjkdjsg)
no5: ivy (summer night)
(i knowwww i know summer night isn't (officially) a ql but idc!!!!! i'm counting it!!!!! also since ivy is actually one of the canonically queer characters in this show anyway!!!!!)
onward tagging to: @telomeke @dribs-and-drabbles @lyknest @titkos--sideblog @nanihirunkits @grapejuicegay @ranchthoughts @gaym3bo1 @callipigio @cornflowershade @clemelntine
#i feel like there IS one thing all these characters do share which is something that's VERY me dkjkjsdg#except pa maybe. i feel like she does break that pattern#but there IS a reason why i chose her tho#it's a different aspect of hers#it's one of the aspects that i also chose ivy for#except ivy fits into the pattern i have with the boys too#i wonder if anyone can clock it dfkjkjfdsgds#tag game#adrm#send me a dm if you're curious about my reasoning(s) <3
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#i am the only person on earth who finds angel's abuse to be written Fine like. at best#idkkk they had me in bl2 but after 3 is just really feels like they have a vendetta against abused kids#especially canonizing the fact that angel killed her mom in 3#like ohhh yes every parent has definite justifications for abusing their children#yes angel really was a dangerous monster and jack was correct to see her that way because she did just murder his wife#does that excuse his actions of course not!!! however there ever being a 'reason' for the abuse always ruins it for me#and considering the implication was that she killed her mom before anyway but it was just left a little vague. it's canon i can't avoid that#but it just feels so so cheap every time. i am not a fan!!#i think the calypsos also ended up highlighting a lot of issues with the way the gearbox writers handle it#especially towards women#yes. i am keeping in mind that troy was the quiet and nice abused child while tyreen was the inherently violent one#like. gearbox just really hates to see a woman that was abused by her father it's craaaazy to me#moxxi and ellie as well. it's crazy how scooter's death is treated eith more respect than ellie and moxxi's abuse they still run from in 2#like idkkkk when you look at how blands treats abused women as a whole i really think angel stops being this beacon of fantastic writing#she falls into all the same patterns every other abused woman does#she is violent. she is treated like a tool by the writers. her abuse has a certain turning point in which it starts#idk. maybe the real cheap thing is portraying jack as a stand-up guy around his child prior to the abuse starting#idk. i'm tired and disorganized and i am forever and always very mad at gearbox so#generally my two cents is a borderlands woman will always be hindered by the male writers who hate that she has daddy issues#you can tell the writer's room is male dominated and very easily is all#<- all of this tells me i need to learn about aurelia more. i am sooo curious how they actually handle her#it is unfortunate her playstyle is doodoobootyasscheeks for me. but i shall persevere#rant
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baby updates:
before bed we crawl-chased each other down the hallway which makes him laugh and laugh. we also played the game where I collapse on the floor at one end of the hall and pretend to fall asleep, and then he crawls towards me at top crawl speeds (giggling to himself the whole way), clambers on top of me, and CHOMPS me on the cheek. gosh I love him so much.
I was also noticing today that he’s definitely going through some social-emotional changes lol… he’s always been prone to loudly complaining when he feels he’s been wronged in some way but lately has started having these little proto-tantrums when I say no to him or take a forbidden object away from him. before he was pretty easy to redirect and got over stuff fast but now he’s like oh my GOD I WILL NEVER FORGET THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and can really melt down about stuff for quite a long time. he has also started doing a thing where he tenses and extends his entire body with a ROAR OF WORDLESS RAGE when I’m trying to hold him after taking a forbidden object from him. THERE WILL BE NO SNUGGLING, MOTHER. I am positive this will get old fast as he gets older lol but for now it’s just kind of fun to observe as a social development thing.
he is waving now, not 100% of the time, but often enough that I think it counts as being able to wave lol. I enthusiastically say HI OWEN and BYE BYE OWEN and wave to him and he sort of stares blankly at me and then wiggles his fingers back in this vague half-hearted way, like hi weirdo… another day in your company, I guess…
he was sooooooo into music class today. all the other kids sit on their parents’ laps while we sing but he insists on crawling into the middle of the circle and sitting there by himself clapping and listening to the teacher play her ukulele or clap the rhythm. several times today we would finish singing a song as a group and then in the pause that followed he would sit up on his knees and break out into a long string of passionate “singing” sounds of his own while looking earnestly around at everyone with this expression of “I am here too contributing!!!” it was honestly kind of incredible to watch. like I’m not claiming that he’s a virtuoso musician or anything ahaha I think this is developmentally quite typical. but it’s soooo amazing to me that humans are so deeply wired for making music that a child that young can be so moved by people singing together that he spontaneously bursts into song on his own. also it’s such an incredible testament to humans’ deeply ingrained social instincts!! this little preverbal child wanting to be part of the group experience of making music together. it was so wonderful and we have such a good time there.
#I’m also curious about music and speech processing#he’s a very engaged babbler but he does NOT repeat sounds back to me#which the PT flagged as something to watch#but he seems to be quite interested in singing back#not mimicking the exact same sounds yet or anything but like#he seems to register it as a call and response pattern more often than he does with speech#I wonder if music and language processing is the same part of the brain or different
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Vibrating over that crossed out handler. Does Ortega remind him of his Farm handler or was his handler another person that was deeply important to him?
Cross-out? What cross-out? ;)
Haha, good spot! Referencing some easter eggs over here. And thank you for asking! <33
Again, got long. I simply cannot shut up about My Favourite Fucked Up Guy.
Yeahhhh, so. Josiah is very emotionally un-self-aware. Emotions, patterns of behaviour, cycles of abuse, he wasn't ever taught any of this. Even after he escaped, his priority was survival, his priority was not getting caught again; learning how to hide; learning how to function like a human being on a very 'make money, buy stuff, eat, make decisions, talk to people' level. And he's still very much stuck in this survival mode. This intense of a trauma will do that to you. Especially if he never talked about it to anybody, there never was anybody who would take him by the hand and say 'hey, what happened to you? that's not normal. that was fucked up and no one should have ever behaved towards you like that.' So to him, the Farm is the baseline Normal, and anything new he learns gets added on top of that. Even with his time as Sidestep, and then returning as a villain, foundations might have been shaken but not yet cracked.
With all this in mind, the patterns of life at the Farm are very much burned deeply into him. They are the earliest foundations of his reality, what he studied and replicated as he came into his own personhood. That includes patterns of relationships. Since he was a cuckoo, I don't think he was able to socialize much with other Regenes; especially adding the still-kind-of-uncertain Sidestep's special status there. Doubly so because of the cuckoo's education in blending in with human culture, I imagine that extra efforts would be extended that they do not internalize those lessons and try to replicate them in the Farm's social context. Isolating them more than others. Being trained by handlers and having to rely solely on them. Remember your place as only Tool, not Person.
And so that, that is Josiah's most formative relationship. In the psychodynamic branch of psychology, there is what's fancily called 'object relations theory' or more precisely, the theory of relationship to the Object. 'Object' specifically being the Mother, and how the relationship to one's mother (or any other primary caretaker) in the earliest days and years of life, and the type of attachment style developed towards her, will determine or at least heavily influence any future attachment styles to all other people in one's life. Whoof! That's a lot of fancy words to simply say that you replicate in your life what you've learned the earliest, and the earlier you learned something the harder it is to change later; because everything that you built atop it would have to be disrupted as well - and that, you know, is what builds up your entire identity as a person.
So. Josiah's earliest relationships, really the only relationships that he had, were with handlers. And that duology is what is very much burned into his brain. There is Person, and there is Tool. Master and slave. The one being provided for, and the one providing. Even after he escaped, all of his later relationships would follow this pattern to some extent, almost always with him falling back into the role of the Tool. Be useful, be needed, prove your worth, provide. If you're needed, you can't be rejected. If you provide, you will be rewarded (with affection, resources, safety). Not anything that would be in any way conscious, mind you. That was simply the only thing he knew. He latched onto the Rangers because that was the easiest group that he could offer something of himself to. He latched onto Ortega because he was the leader, and he dealt out assignments, and judged worth. So it was a priority to be judged by him, accepted by him. Even as they got closer as friends and then question-mark-something-more, Josiah was still very much stuck in the mode of providing, and unfortunately, that was also what held him back from commiting, from trying. Because he didn't believe that in that sort of a relationship, he would be able to provide much of anything at all. And Ortega would be disappointed, and grow bored with him, and their friendship would suffer from it too, and as such his position among the Rangers, and--
…Yeahhh. In his role as the villain, this time, Josiah positions himself as the Person. As the Master. He's the one giving out orders and making decisions now. And it is so empowering, and so thrilling, and-- if he ever realized that he is becoming a handler himself, he would shut down. Just like he does when he realizes that he's hurt the Puppet same as Shroud had hurt her, that he hadn't left his learned Regene patterns at all.
Whoof. Yeah. A lot, a lot of learning still ahead of him. A lot of terrifying realizations, a lot of having to question the reality you took for granted and a restructuring of identity. I'm curious who he will be on the other side of that.
#fallen hero#kaist speaks#hey hi hello i am a psychology student#excuse the impromptu lecture lmao#i know some fancy words and some of them sometimes i know what they mean! very rarely tho el-oh-el#josiah has been my guinea pig for so many classes#i love prying apart his brain. there's such a mess in there oh dear#if that made you curious though google object relations theory + attachment theory + bowlby's four attachment patterns#though do keep in mind; psychology (at least as i was taught it) is very much in the middle of the road between science and philosophy#there are a lot of branches and theories that do not agree with each other at all#so nothing i say at any time is any sort of bible. theyre just useful patterns of analysis and on here especially im just havin fun!#also#a lot of what im talking about here i explore to even more depth in an AU that i have between the two of my sidesteps#where josiah does for a time come to be something of a handler to mina once they both get free#and fuck me it's Rough#i do need to write it eventually there is. A Lot. to it#and i love it so much i love putting my guys through the torment nexus <33#thank you so much once again for the ask !!!!! i love to ramble so damn much these were SO fun SO SO damn fun !!!#i will send u something as well as a thank you <3
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Thinking about how the names of characters are introduced to us in EPIC, especially the gods. Most characters are introduced by either a character or the chorus saying their name.
Athena is introduced by Odysseus calling out her name and Aeolus is introduced by Odysseus speaking his name to address him. Hermes is introduced by Odysseus saying his name as he realises who he is. So all the "friendly"/helpful gods are introduced by Odysseus speaking to them, which automatically makes them a bit more familiar to the audience, more "human" if you will.
But Poseidon is introduced by the chorus (which is an audible representation of his divine power) chanting his name. It's a bold, terrifying introduction which emphasises his power and godhood above all else. And Zeus isnt introduced at all, his name is entirely up to the audience to infer, as if he knows his name precedes him (which it does, but is still arrogant. Especially alongside the whole "pride is a damsel in distress" speech). Both these introductions demonstrate the sheer power of the enemy gods, and a bit of a separation between them and the audience.
I think (correct me if I'm wrong) the only exception so far is Circe, whose name is first spoken by Hermes, a fellow god. It doesn't bring us super close to her, but also she's not present to demonstrate her power in that moment. And it makes sense for Circe to be the exception, because she's the only one who switches from enemy to friend
#to be clear im classifying athena and aeolus as 'friendly' bc yes athena and odysseus fall out#and aeolus wasnt Super helpful in the ocean saga he seemed more interested in messing with odysseus#but neither of them are ever Actively Malicious and they do ultimately take actions that benefit odysseus#like. aeolus deliberately sabotaged the 'dont open the bag' game but the worst thing that could happen is odysseus ends up in the same storm#as earlier. which is a neutral outcome even if a very frustrating one. and there WAS a chance of him succeeding which is a postive outcome#also. what pronouns does aeolus use lol im using he/him bc the actual god is a man but idkk#also im curious whetuer there's any pattern like this for humans and monsters#i think?? all the humans are introduced by odysseus (if theyre introduced at all)#which is part of why odysseus introducing a /god/ humanises them#but im not sure about the monsters#epic the musical
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okay an actual genuine question that i need an answer for before i work on finishing this post ive been trying to write to be comprehensible for like an hour now
does anyone actually care about my more in depth speculative meta posts about kip
or am i just too delusional at this point
#its about the evolution of the gear this time btw if you need to know#since i got curious after that last photo he dropped and i like drawing patterns and having thoughts#but like. is this worth anything? should i even finish and post this? like does anyone care??#just. just asking#i feel like ive been burned so many times recently trying to do something im just reaching the point of being very insecure about anything#im even slightly passionate or happy about so... just asking#night is an absolute mess on main
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I have decided to start this crochet project over for the fourth time.
#once more unto the breach!#(once more with feeling?)#I had said I would just find another pattern but...I haven't managed that#I bookmarked one that is similar only I'd have to pay for it and it's very meh so?#and I want to make this project with tunisian crochet so here I am#the really annoying thing? there are comments on the blog where the pattern is posted saying 'hey this is confusing and isn't working'#and every one has a reply saying 'send pattern questions to this email address'#to which I say 'sus'#but here we go!#(should be noted I am choosing to attempt this a fourth time instead of working on a crochet project my s-i-l specifically requested)#(because I hate that project with every fiber of my being and I'm sorry I was so blasé when she asked if I could make it)#(blasé? perhaps flippant...?)#(the words aren't wording today)#(also I need to have THAT project finished in a month)#for anyone curious about what's wrong with this pattern:#1) there are not stitch counts so you don't know if you're actually working the pattern correctly#2) there are several increases because the back sides and front are all worked together and the increase instructions are wrong#3) there's no actual picture of what the piece looks like laid out#or any diagrams#4) it's HUGE (I am sizing down both my hook and the pattern size)#yes I still refuse to make a gauge swatch
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also i got lots and lots of compliments on my outfit today and they were able to fix my necklace! i only wanted the big knot out but they fixed the other ones for me too and even cleaned it and for some reason they didn’t even charge me !! and i got my book ! yayyy
#successful day 😎👍🏻#also the part for my car arrived..now i just have 2 wait on my f*ther to replace it for me..#anyways#i didn’t even wanna get up out of bed today but i had to cause i had therapy and u know what#i ended up having a pretty good day -w-#i didn’t get to talk 2 the cute barista at starbucks but..whatever#but! i did end up dressing up a little and i felt so cute today and got lots of compliments which was nice#and i got all my shopping done and had fun..#im still surprised they fixed and cleaned my necklace and didn’t charge me..#i asked abt it and the guy said not to worry abt it and to just come back again sometime *wink*#and i said okay :D and left and then tripped on the curb outside when i was leaving#i’m not exactly in the market for fine jewelry and hopefully my necklace won’t implode on itself again at least for a while so..i probably#will not be going back anytime soon#i did kinda wanna ask if i could have like my ring size measured but i was too shy to ask#the guy behind the counter was kinda cute and very nice and i didn’t wanna bug him so i just sat and waited for my necklace ;-;#i don’t even wear rings im just curious#uhmm. what else. i got some ingredients to make cookies tonight :3#it was nice to have a good day for once -w- i just hope this isn’t a bad omen that things are about to get super fucked#im not trying to be negative!! but it is a genuine pattern in my life that whenever i have a good day or things go well for a bit#that means something disastrous is looming around the corner#i guess we’ll see :’)#snow.txt
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I probably just don’t understand how cat coat colors work, but. moderate? that cat’s been dipped in white paint!!

咪咪汤圆
#explanations very much welcome#I know nothing about cat genetics except that striped cats are usually female#(my understanding is that striped male cats have really uncommon sex gene combos going on)#I am curious about whatever is going on here#cat#edit!!! apparently I confused tabby with calico!#calicos are the ones where the funky coat patterns are related to which version of the X chromosome is active on different parts of the body
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one thing about us is. #colonialism
#thinking about our history with gangs & rap. obvs the rap part is obvs. but the gangs. ik it's obvious like. systemic oppression & poverty.#but did we just Do It did it Just Happen. did it start as a syndicate thing. or revolutionary causes gone astray. ik it's probs obvs#did our gangs rise alongside black gangs. ik the roots of both these r complicated but like. as a huge Cultural thing. in the 1920s.#1 thing that made a mark on me is how our gay men talked and how it's - apparently - connected to the history of how black gay people#talked. how they derived it from black women in the 1910-30s(?) idk i forgot it's been a long time i forgot where i picked that information#up from. but wow. and we mirrored that somehow. but when and how did that happen exactly#we were still under american rule until 1946#i think it was a fil-am internet personality who appropriated black speech nd culture. & comparing the speech patterns of black queer men#to our fil gay men it's like. yeah there are SOME similarities but i think it's still not easy to confuse the two styles of speeches#besides the obvious language difference#but idk maybe it's a subject of stereotypes. fils r definitely one for queer stereotyping but to infuse that w/the fact that we r not very#knowledgeable about how exactly queerness actually is. we're still stuck on that bakla and tomboy thing even now & the western knowledge is#very much not an accessible digestible information for lots of people except the youth#idkkkkk it's confusing this is all over the place but i'm so curious#and i definitely understand the stance of some who r like. hey not everything is about america#but i can't tell if it's just the big filipino ego flaring or if it's actually true. but i mean we were colonized for a long ass time#& when they talk about america they may only b talking about. white colonizers. which is not what that's about.#crazy how we haven't even reached 150 yrs in celebrating the day the first colonizer peaced out#and the oldest gay known icon i've found is from the '80s. no prominence given to the queer people from 1800s or early 1900s and#how they were like#but our pre-colonial era...punchign the wall. BRING IT BACK teach these things in school PLWEASE#but idk my research is shallow i'll dig deeper someday when i'm not busy (<- interrupted their own studying session to ramble knowing they#have a shit ton of things to study for finals tomorrow morning)#if anybody found this pls link me to some studies/articles or give me any info i'm crying over this rn and how stupd i am <3#rambles
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Since you're here, why don't you take a moment for yourself and stare into the spiral.
Really focus on it.
Feel that relaxing sensation start to fill your mind.
That sensation that just removes all the tension.
All the stress.
All those pesky thoughts that weigh you down.
Feel all that relaxation that just flows from the spiral letting it all melt away.
Because right now you want to be hypnotized.

You want to be mindless.
Maybe because you've been mindless before.
Or maybe because you're just so curious to find out how it will feel to be mindless right now.
Either way, you don't need to think about it.
You don't need to think at all.
You can just stare into the spiral and relax.

It's so easy to focus on the swirling pattern.
It's so easy to relax.
It's so easy fall into the pattern.
Perhaps you're wondering when the spiral starts and ends.
Wondering how hypnotized you already are.
Wondering what thoughts are remaining in your head.
All the while finding it so easy to follow the spiral.
So easy to follow my words.
So easy to sink down as you do.
Dropping deeper without even thinking about it.
Dropping as the spiral empties your mind.
Your thoughts floating away.
My words pulling you deeper.
Following them down.

Knowing this is what you want.
You want to feel relaxed.
Focused.
Controlled.
Empty.
Hypnotized.
That's right.
You want to be hypnotized.
And you are.
Following my words without a single thought.
Feeling the pleasure of mindlessness carrying you deeper.
Knowing there is no limit to how deep you can go.
No limit to how good you can feel.
Knowing this is what you want to be.
Mindless.
Entranced.
To be so completely captivated and enthralled.

And that's what you are.
Entranced.
Captivated.
Hypnotized.
So easily falling deeper from the spiral and my words.
The perfect mix to empty your mind and leave you feeling so good.

So happy.

So mindless.

So submissive.

So obedient.

And so very deep now.
Just the perfect hypnotized toy.
Perfectly content to follow and obey.
Allowing my words to simply fill your mind as you enjoy this feeling of mindless bliss.
Knowing you are such a good toy.
Knowing there is no limit to how deep you can sink into this trance.
Knowing you want to drop deeper and be a hypnotized toy more and more.
Knowing you've done such a good job sinking into this trance so easily, and I'm very pleased.
And you love to please.
Now, finding that you can enjoy this feeling of mindlessness for as long as you would like before rising back up to awareness.
Making sure before you wake to like, reblog, and leave a comment saying how good it feels to be a deeply hypnotized toy. Feeling a wave of pleasure as you obey.
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*gasp* It's me ( ˶°ㅁ°) !!
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✧ content warning: yandere themes, mentions of racial/species discrimination (your character is SEA/Filipino-coded), (y/n) uses they/them, the story takes place in a modern hybrid alternate universe where each planet (Belobog, Penacony, etc) is considered a country.
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You (name changeable) are a hardworking and full-pledged human cafe owner in Penacony City. Your Dreamjolt Cafe has been a go-to for residents and tourists alike. But your loved ones' lives took a sharp turn for the worst when you decided to take a much-needed vacation back to your homeland, Perlas. While your family eagerly awaited your arrival, you disappeared en route. Where did you go? How did this happen? Who did this? Was it...
☕ the prickly yet fascinating Prof. Veritas Ratio, your self-proclaimed avian-hybrid regular,
☕Kakavasha, your longest fellow human friend who always seems to have a secret or two;
☕ or Gallagher, your hound-hybrid roommate whose past is as peculiar as his loyalty?
☕ or are there two more you're forgetting?
... so...
𝒲𝐻𝒪 𝒹𝓇𝒶𝓃𝓀 𝒾𝓉?
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✧ Characters, Background Art and UI Credits
Hoyoverse assets sourced from the-astral-express-archive. I just tweaked em a bit!
Canva freestock images... Haha...
✧ Intro video, sprites & CG art Credits
Me!!! Hi <3 I hope you enjoyed them! I can't believe yall made me learn adobe after effects a bit for this-
✧ Music Credits
The main menu theme (the first song upon booting the game) is made by @naraven!
The rest of the royalty free music soundtrack (such as the music used for the video above) is sourced from Vodovoz Music Productions!!! Please show the creator some love!!! I was actually vibing so hard while listening to them lmao
✧ (Fan)Story
lol hi again!!! man. i feel like Argenti.
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#EVERYONE CHECK OUT BRYNN'S GAME#THIS WAS SO COOL >:0#for starters i love the trailer!! the edits. the text. the choice of music......aaahhh perfectly suspenseful and high-stakes#onto the game itself. big shoutout to ven for their music!! the main menu theme sounds so calm and reminds me of a joke i made about how th#colored illustration of the comic prologue reminds me of a slice-of-life isekai light novel. ven's music would definitely fit in as an ost#in that scenario. alas if only the story were that peaceful xD#cue me going “!!” every time i came across my special dialogue xD#i rlly enjoyed the demo. you did a good job at introducing the premise. y/n's background. and all of the characters >:3#AND THE CGS!! they were so pretty >:'0#i particularly like the sunday vs gallagher cg. when i first saw it i thought of hypnosis mic?? pokemon?? basically any Chara vs Chara pic~#i rlly like the dynamic between y/n and their friends. it perfectly shows why all three men would be yandere for them >:3#ohhh and quick shoutout for their sprites!! i rlly love how each character is styled. you already know how much i love ratio's glasses and#hi-waist pants. it suits him as a university professor. i like to view the brooch and shirt pattern as his personal style shining through ^#on the other hand. kakavasha's quite casually dressed. makes me all the more curious about his job#i was most surprised by gallagher's outfit!! didn't expect y/n's hound to be so effortlessly stylish. i see that dog collar though >:3#onto sunday. i'm very interested in his character. my first theory is that sunday imprisoned y/n and the demo only reinforced my theory <3#fingers crossed that he and argenti get their own routes!! i can already imagine how unique their stories with y/n will be#back to sunday specifically. i like his dynamic with y/n!! i'm guessing he is attracted to them bc of how honest y/n is with him. in#comparison to his political peers and allies#also the ao3 fic is wild. i need to know sunday's reaction to it. for all we know maybe he commissioned someone to write it xD#i picked 'no' to sunday's proposal ofc. like hell i'd abandon my cute little puppy xD#robin's involvement in this case is super interesting given what's at stake for her. hopefully we can trust her....and hopefully she won't#tamper with any evidence for the sake of her family <3#hmm i think that’s all i have to say?? i can’t wait to see what boothill and robin will do in their search for y/n#iirc the comic prologue was their interrogation with gallagher?? ahh can’t wait to hear about their lovely backstory <3#once again. you did an amazing job brynn!!#and knowing what happened in your last fic where the character and y/n owned a cafe…..i am scared of what will happen in this game#especially since this is yandere. ‘all routes lead to doom’ or whatever the tagline was in hamefura ig xD#hsr x reader#yandere hsr
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I love your selkie Jade fic!! It’s so good and so creative! I need a Floyd courting fic like I need air, maybe where Yuu has no idea what Floyd strange behavior is, but the octavinelle crew is acting very odd and extra smug when they see Floyd and the prefect together
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THANK YOU!!! I’m glad you liked the Jade Selkie fic AH!!! I really wanted to write a Floyd version too hehe, hope you enjoy~
Floyd Leech, ft. Selkie
Jade! Azul!
Floyd was confident no one would dare take his pelt. It was easy to steal a selkie’s pelt when it was left unattended (like Jade’s) or hidden (like Azul’s). Floyd always knew where his was - always, always, on his person.
When he had to go to the surface to attend NRC, their father gave him two pieces of advice. One, always pay attention to your footwear. And two, always keep your pelt with you. Whether it’s in your bag, over your shoulders, or under your clothes.
People expected Floyd to be more lax with his skin, but he took the advice to heart more than Jade, who liked showing it off tantalizingly to those grubby landers. So, Floyd’s pelt was always under his clothes. He hated the feeling of extra layers, but he hated being parted with the pelt even more. The very thought of being taken away from the ocean made his human skin crawl.
Imagine his panic when he couldn’t find it once he returned to his dorm after club practice.
He’d tied the pelt securely underneath his basketball jersey, and practice went off without a hitch. He was fired up that day too. He’d won points left and right, and left the gym feeling great. Up until he realized his pelt was no longer snugly tied to his torso, and his heart dropped. He’d passed through the gym, the entire school, the mirror chamber, and through the Lounge up to his dorm. He could’ve lost it anywhere. To anyone.
Jade opened their dorm door to see Floyd flinging things around their room, and launching himself to Jade’s side to dig through his things. “What in the Seven’s are you doing, Floyd?” He didn’t even need to a response when Floyd turned to him with sheer panic on his face. Jade felt his throat tighten. Floyd lost his pelt.
Meanwhile, you stared at the… cloth? in front of you. Earlier today, you’d stopped by the gym while running errands for Crowley. As you made your way across, you noticed a teal heap amidst the basketballs. You knelt, curious, and picked it up. Wait, isn’t this what Jade and Floyd wear?
You didn’t really know what it was, only that it seemed special to them. You never wanted to be rude and ask him about it though, since you figured Floyd had his reasons for hiding it, while Jade has his own for flaunting it.
That thing was massive. You didn’t even see a zipper on it, so it couldn’t be a jacket. Not to mention, it felt kind of… leathery, almost. Like fish skin or something.
When you got to Ramshackle, you folded it neatly before tucking it in a spare shoebox you had. It had a few jewelry pieces in it with shells and pearls. You also chucked a shoe polish in, as well as some funky patterned socks you didn’t want. You decided to leave them in, tucked under the cloth. Maybe Floyd would like them.
The next day, you walked into Mostro Lounge with the box. You overheard some students freaking out, whispering about Floyd being in one of his moods, but this time it was even worse.
You frowned, suddenly nervous. Floyd’s freaking out? Why? You clutched the box a bit tighter. Was it because of the cloth?
In Azul’s office, Floyd was damn near about to blow the whole dorm up. It took Jade wrestling him down and Azul placating him, to get him to calm down just a fraction.
Even now, Jade had to keep watchful eye on him while Azul had a million contracts on his desk, hair wild from running his hands through it. Currently, Floyd was staring listlessly at the wall, bouncing his leg wildly. Who could have possibly been brazen enough to take Floyd’s pelt…? Jade and Azul had an understanding. They’d make them pay for this.
You overheard someone say Floyd was in Azul’s office, so you knocked on the door. “Hey, is Floyd in there?” You called, walking in. Jade glanced at Floyd, who seemed to at least compose himself in front of you. How interesting.
You stopped in front of Floyd, who looked up at you from the couch. He looked up at you, irritated. You cleared your throat, presenting the box to him. “I found your… belongings so I thought I’d give it back to you. It was in the gym, I figured you didn’t want to lose it.”
Floyd’s eyes zeroed in on the box, sensing the pelt, and he grabbed it from you. He nearly tore the top off, but at last he had his pelt back. He almost tore his uniform off then and there to feel it against his skin when he suddenly stopped.
You gave it back to him. You, gave it back to him. You gave it back.
Jade and Azul stared wide eyed at you and Floyd. You cleared your throat uncomfortably, “I also put some extra stuff in the box too, if you want it.”
Floyd lifted the skin a bit, and his eyes went wide. Glittering jewelry, shells, and pearls nestled in the folds of the pelt. He could hear his heartbeat in his ears, and Jade and Azul gasped.
“Oho?” Jade said, grinning slowly. “Oho?” Azul looked shocked. Floyd lifted the pelt out, and more jewelry fell out between the folds. Jade lifted his hand to his mouth, looking sly, “how forward of you, (Name). And in front of us, too.” Azul rose an eyebrow, pleased, “I must say, I didn’t expect you to be the pelt thief. What an interesting development.”
Floyd was quiet, staring at everything in shock. He didn’t expect this from you, Shrimpy. You always were able to surprise him, but this took the bait. It was like everything started to make sense.
You had to know what you’d done. You gave Floyd jewelry, something merfolk did when they wanted to show affection. Not only that, you gave him things directly related to his interests. He eyed the shoe polish with interest, grinning widely. This was textbook courting rituals.
“Ne, shrimpy really is the best~” He stood, mood completely changed. You shrank back a bit as he leered over you. As he gazed into your eyes, you felt the acute sense that you just did something big.
“Don’t you worry Shrimpy, I’m gonna repay you back real good~” Floyd winked at you. You smiled nervously, conscious of the others’ smirks, “I-I should go.” You scurried out of Azul’s office, hearing Floyd’s raucous laughter echo behind you.
Floyd’s kinda weird today, you thought. You didn’t particularly mind it, though. Although dealing with Azul and Jade was a doozy.
Azul ran into you earlier, although you weren’t sure it was on accident. He’d hummed cryptically, with that sneaky businessman smirk he had when he knew something you didn’t. “I must say, it was incredibly forward of you to present Floyd’s pelt, especially with extra gifts. He was energetic all night, he hardly did any Lounge work,” Azul’s words somehow held little annoyance. Confusion filled you. His ‘pelt’? And the jewelry and shoe polish? Was it a big deal?
Azul continued, “You should find Jade later. He will want to speak to you, especially to go over your plans.” Your brow furrowed, echoing “plans?” Azul nodded, amused. “It’s more informal, since we’ve known you before. Just to discuss matters - the timing, ideal circumstance, your intentions, so forth.” He’d walked off before you could ask more. Your head swam.
You hadn’t been able to properly speak to Jade. He was all cordial smiles and, surprisingly, bowed to you multiple times. An amused smile graced his face, and he seemed to revel in your alarm. He’d brush past you just before you could ask him anything, and was always replaced by Floyd bounding up to you and taking you into his arms in giggles.
Ever since you gave him the box, Floyd was strangely clingy. His constant hugging and nuzzling you was borderline affectionate, and it made your heart stutter and stomach feel fluttery. You noted that he was wearing the jewelry you stuck in the box, next to the pelt peeking out of his shirt.
“Hey, (Name),” he said while leaning against you. You were both in the library. Floyd insisted on accompanying you everywhere, and seemed to be exhausted with how much he was yawning at you. “We should go swimmin,’ I’m bored here.”
You sighed, shutting your notebook. “I have work to do, Floyd.” You spied a couch nearby, “you could take a nap maybe, if you’re tired?” Floyd looked you up and down, before grinning. “Nah.”
He tossed you over his shoulder, and you shouted, making the ghost librarians shush you loudly. “Floyd!” He laughed and ran out before the ghosts could catch him.
He ran you all the way to the back of Mostro Lounge by the private fish tanks, where the tanks for the merfolk were. Finally he put you down, still cuddling you as the blue light from the waters washed over you.
Seeing the tanks, you suddenly remembered Azul talking about a pelt. Your mind flashed to the cloth you picked up from the gym. The skin-like texture. Floyd’s moodiness. The secrecy. You’d heard the word ‘Selkie’ being thrown around before, and you knew Floyd was a mer. The thought hid you like a truck - if the pelt belonged to Floyd, then was he a Selkie? Your heart pounded. And you gave the pelt back to him.
Jade walked in, holding a drink and potion in hand. “Ah, Floyd, you’re back.” Floyd grinned at him, shaking you side to side in his arms, “hey Jade~ me n’ Shrimpy are going to take a swim!” Jade smiled pleasantly, gaze locking onto you. “Could I have a moment with (name), please? It should only take a minute.”
Floyd pouted, but Jade gave him a look. Finally, let you go with a little sulk, but not before giving you a final squeeze. “I’ma be back, Shrimpy!~ Don’t go anywhere!” He flounced off, leaving you with Jade.
Jade handed you the drink and potion. “This is on the house, and this is an underwater breathing potion. I thought you may need one,” he said cryptically. You smiled warily at him, and you dumped the potion into the drink to mix it.
Jade sighed happily. “Mother and Father will be so thrilled.” You sipped your drink, throat feeling dry. “What do you mean?”
Jade continued as if he didn’t hear you, “please be gentle to Floyd. He’s never done this before, but I’ve never seen him so besotted with anything before.” Jade suddenly became serious, looking you in the eye. “You will not hurt him. And you won’t need to worry about him. I assure you, our parents took our lessons quite seriously where courting was concerned. He was always the one to wear his heart on his fins, so to speak. He’s quite romantic at heart, really.”
You nearly choked. “C-courting?!” Jade nodded, slowly grinning mischievously. “Of course. You made your intentions quite clear when you gave Floyd back his pelt. With some lovely courting gifts, no less.” Jade looked fondly at you, patting your shoulder. “You will be a welcome part of the family. Usually gifts such as jewelry come much later in the courting process, but I expect you’ll be betrothed quite soon with how taken Floyd is with you.”
Now you actually choked. “He- what?!” You couldn’t lie, you weren’t exactly upset about Floyd liking you, but courting? This was fast. Jade nodded. If he sensed your growing panic and confusion, he certainly ignored it (or found it entertaining) as he smiled at you. “Yes, he was quite pleased that you were the one who found his pelt. Ah, young love~”
You downed your drink as Floyd bounded back to you, sweeping you up. “Shrimpy~ I’m back!” He’d stripped off his outer garments. His pelt was draped over his shoulders like a towel, and he grinned down at you. “Let’s go~ I’ll keep ya safe, promise!”
As he waded into the waters, you decided to just accept your fate. You reached up and kissed Floyd on the cheek, pressing your face to his gently. He squished you against him as the water rose and his lower half meshed with the pelt, turning back into his eel form.
He rubbed his cheek against yours, “I’m happy you gave me back my pelt, Shrimpy.” You felt Floyd smile against your face, and you hugged him back. “Y’know what? I’m happy too, Floyd.”
THE MAN THE MYTH THE EEL!!! Floyd!!!!!
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