#warning:depression

[kaisooficrec]

The Deflowering of Do Kyungsoo

Author: writingblankspaces

Genre: College AU, Slow Build, First Time

Rating: R

Kinks/Warnings: First kiss, Self-esteem issues, References to depression

Length: Chaptered (ongoing)

Summary: Kyungsoo likes to be alone. In fact, he's found comfort and a sort of happiness in being by himself. It's easier that way. That changes when Coffee Shop Jongin, the boy who Kyungsoo's been eyeing, asks him out on a date.

Admin Macaroon’s Notes: i’m so excited for this fic! i think kyungsoo’s character is very relatable and i’m already enjoying this a lot. first times are always amazing to read too! 

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[sebaekficrec]

Illuminae

Author: WordsBurnGold

Genre: Gods and Goddesses!AU, Fluff, Angst 

Rating: PG-13

Warnings: References to depression 

Length: Chaptered 

This is a story about how the guardian of light learned to understand the darkness.

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[whiteroseismyotp]

Whiterose Week day 3

https://archiveofourown.org/works/14917952

[ghostnerddan]

Bruises and Bottles

My mind just fell down the angst hole and I have no way out. Good luck is all I got to say. This is the Sides!Human Au and will star the ever loved Virgil. This story will be a big project for me so updates on it will be a bit slow. but that won’t stop me from doing prompts and other small stuff for anyone who wants them! Anyway enjoy!

Warnings: Abuse(both verbal and physical), alcohol, self-hatred, blood and self harming 

Chapter 1: Rest

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Virgil had always lived with his parents, he couldn’t go anywhere. He had no money, no job and a debt who hang over his head as college demanded it. So he gave up leaving a long time ago, but that didn’t mean he wasn’t wishing he could.

“Hey! Dipshit, get down here!” There it was the call of his father, no doubt wanting to take out the frustration of his work day by claiming Virgil did or didn’t do something. Taking a deep breath to stop the shaking of his hands, he headed downstairs. He looked up to see his father angrily threw his jacket on the floor, something Virgil would be expected to clean up later. When his father noticed him his face screw up in disgust a face Virgil had grown use to seeing. He staggered past Virgil mumbling, “Be useful for once and get me something to drink.” Virgil silently did as he was told getting a beer from the fridge, holding it caused his stomach to turn and he was sick of the smell which claimed the house.

He headed to the living room, TV blaring in the dimly lit room his father sitting on the worn out couch. He coughed catching his father’s attention, looking at the ground he handed the bottle to his father who looked it over before looking back at Virgil. He hated the way his father looked at him, like he was wasting space by just existing. Which was true since his parents didn’t miss a day to tell him he was a mistake, an accident they wish they never had. Virgil was dragged out of his thoughts as something flew past him and smashed into the wall. Virgil couldn’t help flinching away, looking at the wall the remains of glass and alcohol laid on the wooden floor. “Your such a fucking wimp. Clean that up and get out of my sight.” Virgil ran to clean the mess as fast as possible, just graceful that was the worst of the abuse today. Once everything was picked up and thrown away he quietly ran into his room. He let out a breath he didn’t know he was holding. His hands were shaking and his heart seemed ready to break out of his chest. Wet tears fell as his legs gave out as he slid down against his door. Raising his hands over his mouth he tried to muffle the sobs falling from his lips.

God he hated it here, every day was a living hell. The smell of alcohol, the reminders of how useless he was, how he shouldn’t even exist. He hated it, everything felt fake like some bad nightmare. He’ll wake up to find a family that wanted him, needed him and loved him. Fat chance, why would anyone want someone who just puts them in debt and can’t even find a job. Virgil didn’t know when but at some point he had crawled towards his bed staring underneath it. It was a mess, trash and lost items littered the floor, but in the middle was a small box. His hands moved on their own as he shakily pulled it out. No bigger than a music box this black case sat on his lap, it’s weight pushing down on Virgil. He was going to open it when a buzz came from his hoodie’s pocket. Quickly hiding the box, he took out his phone to see a text sent from Patton. He relaxed slightly as he read the message. Patton had met Virgil on the first day of college, Patton had seen Virgil sitting alone so he took it upon himself to become friends with him. Virgil really didn’t mind, he had never had a friend and anyone who tried abandoned him after learning how pessimistic and dark his sense of humor was. None of this bothered Patton, in fact it just encouraged him to try and show Virgil the brighter things in life. It was nice to be able to share some of his thoughts with someone, although his family life was a no go. He didn’t want to drag other people into his mess of parent and depression issues. Causing needless worry was the last thing he wanted, it would just show how weak and useless he was. Virgil stood up and laid on his bed hearing it creak under his weight, chatting with Patton had calmed him down and by the time Patton had to leave-something about chemistry homework- Virgil was ready to pass out. He hadn’t had any real sleep in a long time and it seemed to drag him under as his eyes fell. At least he hoped to get a couple hours of sleep in before waking back into the hell hole of his life.

[exo-ffics]

Title: APATHY

Author: ExoDoll Length: Chaptered Status: Ongoing Rated: M Warning: Depression Genre: Arranged Marriage AU, Romance, Angst

Summary: “Sorry for being so fucked up. Sorry for being such a failure.  Sorry for being a disgrace. Sorry for being me.”

{AFF}

[chie7231]

He surfaces after his first attempt, to find a delighted Sirius clapping for him. Sirius swims closer, pulling a shocked Regulus onto his back. Regulus, almost instinctively, wraps his arms gently around his brother’s shoulders. Sirius glides forward in the water before turning his head and winking.

“Remember what I said about holding your breath?”

Regulus nods, an easy smile painted across his face.

Sirius smirks before diving underneath the blue, glasslike water. Regulus tightly holding onto his back. Regulus finds himself absentmindedly noting each and every fish that swims alongside them.

They pop up a moment later, both taking a gargantuan gulp of fresh air. Sirius pulls he and Regulus onto the dock, shaking out his long locks of hair before settling down. Head tilted back easily, staring at a cloudless blue sky.

Regulus’ eyes slowly open as he is dragged into the uneasy depths of the cave waters. Claws digging into his ankles, though he doesn’t feel the sting as strongly as he initially had.

Kreacher seems miles away, his already small form growing smaller and smaller as he plummets into the icy, cold depths of the lake.

He moves his legs back and forth, fruitlessly, to escape the numerous arms binding and pulling him down. The initial intensity with which he kicked grows lethargic, legs kicks have turned into toe twitches.

Though his lungs burn, and his chest feels as if it will explode..Regulus holds his breath.

The last relic of a seemingly forgotten happy memory.

[tinybutwicked]

Maylor with 86 please! I love your writing ❤️

//thank you lovie! Here you go, it got a bit heavy but i hope y'all appreciate :) //

This got a bit on the heavy side, handling depression. So if you're not comfortable with that, please skip this one

Roger was at the end of his rope. He didn't know what to do, he didn't know how to help, and it was driving him towards insanity at an increasing pace.

Brian wasn't well, he hadn't been well in a long time. And every morning they woke up, the guitarist refusing to get out of bed, Roger's willingness to believe that everything would be okay was eaten away. Bit by bit. He wanted to believe, he wanted to help, but he didn't know how because nothing worked.

The drummer knew that depression was a thing that would always be there. He had known it when he had declared his love for Brian for the first time, he had known it when they had moved in together and he had been alright with it. He still was, and his love for Brian was still as unwavering as ever.

But he was tired of not being able to help, of just having to sit by and watch the man he loved waste away in the grimy, unapologetic hands of his depression.

Nothing Roger did was good enough. Because nothing helped.

"Bri? I brought you breakfast" The bedroom was stuffy and dark, the curtains still blocking the sunlight from outside. Because maybe enough sleep would help Brian feel better?

It had become a norm in the past few weeks that Roger's words were left unanswered, so he walked to the bed trying to not mind the heavy silence too much. Because it wasn't Brian's fault.

"I got you some strawberries and the vegan bread you like so much. It's still warm, they had just baked it" Setting the tray down on the bedside table, the drummer sat on the edge of the bed, waiting for Brian to turn and face him.

He didn't, and Roger wanted to scream.

"There's tea and coffee in the kitchen. Do you have a preference today?" The sheets rustled slightly in the rhythm of Brian's breathing, but the guitarist still wasn't looking at him.

Roger wanted to snap, he really did.

But this wasn't Brian's fault.

"Just… you need to eat, Bri. Otherwise the wind will manage to push you over the next time you go outside" The attempted humor didn't really work, because it didn't get an answer from Brian and now Roger couldn't help but think that maybe the guitarist would never go outside again.

Stop that

"Could you.. Look at me, please?" He was craving for some kind of contact. Anything, really, because even if they held each other through most nights, it still felt like Brian was somewhere far away.

And once again, there was no answer to Roger's plea.

"Please, Brian? Answer me, please? Look at me, say something so that I -" The blonde bit his tongue. It wasn't Brian's fault, he shouldn't push.

"Just… Yell, scream, cry - just say something"

"I'm sorry" It was the first time in days that Roger heard Brian's voice, and it broke his heart. Because of course Brian would apologise, ask for forgiveness for something he couldn't help at the moment. Of course that'd be the first thing he says.

"No, it's not your fault. I'm sorry for pushing, I just worry. It's okay" The blonde reached to lay a comforting hand on the guitarist's shoulder, feeling the older man lean against it.

It wasn't all lost yet, because Brian didn't mean to push him away.

"I love you, Brian. Remember that, alright?" The silence was back, but now Roger had a little more hope again that it wouldn't last forever.

[moonlight-alphafemale]

I needed a bit of angst, so here😢

Pain and hope

Omega! Chojuro x Alpha! Reader

Warning:depression, mentions of miscarriage, mentions of premature babie, a sad baby shark 🥺

Don't worry, there's a happy ending

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“Dinner time....” You said as you softly knocked on the door under the stairs where Chojuro built his nest. It was a tiny space under the stairs so you had it altered so Chojuro could fit comfortably.

As usual, no response came from behind the closed door. You opened the door to find your mate, tucked into the far corner of the modified space.

This time today, the exact day 2 years ago. The day you and Chojuro's premature pup died. It took Chojuro a while, but he finally recovered and eventually managed to build his courage to get pregnant again.

But nine weeks ago Chojuro suffered a miscarriage. This completely broke Chojuro.

He stopped talking almost completely and holed himself up in his nest, only leaving to use the bathroom. Chojuro always wanted to have pups, making the healing process very difficult for him.

You sat down in front of the entrance, Chojuro had yet to ever give you permission to enter his nest yet so you didn't want to invade in your mates personally space.

“Chojuro, it's time to eat...” You cooed. But again, no response. He usually looked up at you when you called him but this time, he didn't move or even look up from where he laid.

You normally wouldn't bother him when he does this, cause he's probably asleep. But you knew he wasn't asleep, he flinched slightly when you called him. Despite him not having given you permission, You carefully entered the soft and warm nest, making sure to not mess up anything.

You wanted to make sure your mate was alright. You just wanted to check on him.

“Chojuro...?” You called again, he finally turned his head a bit but he wouldn't look at you.

“What are you doing babe...?” You asked as you sat down next to him. He rolled over and burying his face into your chest. He had something in his hands held close to his chest.

“What's that?” You ask, pointing at the paper object in his hands that had caught your attention. He doesn't say anything but just simply held up the item in his hands.

Well, items.

He held up the ultrasound pictures of his first and second pups.

“I miss them... So much...” He said softly, for the first time in nine weeks. You wrapped your arms around him, tenderly stroking his head.

“Could... We try again for a baby...?” Chojuro spoke softly, hiding his face from you and hugging you tightly. You could hear the extreme want, as well as the fear in his voice.

He wanted a baby but he was afraid of trying again, he didn't want to give up but he found himself hesitating.

“You hesitate... Are you such...?” You wanted to make sure he was ready to try again. It hadn't been that long. If he wasn't completely ready for it, it would destroy him if he lost another pup.

“Yes... I really want to try again...” He said firmly yet softly, looking up at you with a soft smile.

“Ok.... We can try again if you really want” You finally said softly, pressing a gentle kiss against his forehead.

“Do you want some food..? It should still be nice and hot.” You asked. Chojuro nodded with a smile.

You nodded, holding Chojuro's hand and leading him out of his nest.

[bts-is-my-life-as-always]

Bts reaction to you being suicidal. Jimin and V.

Warning:depressing and suicidal stuff.

Behind the reaction: you and bts’s relationship was revealed and the fans absolutely hate you guys, and you fall into depression.

(Credits to gif owners)

Jimin:

Jimin never imagined you without a smile, your face always lit up when he was near you, when he would hug you from the back and whisper sweet nothings and when he would just hold your hand for hours.

“Oppa, my hands are sweaty”

“I don’t care, can’t I just hold hands with the love of my life?”

“Your so much cringe”

This is how you would laugh With him, completely lost in your two worlds.

But lately it seemed like, that world was crumbling beneath you, like nothing mattered to the both of you anymore, in stead of I love you’s it was covered by silence.

“Y/N did you taste any of this? It’s gross”

“I did taste it, there’s nothing wrong with it”

He frowned clearly agitated.

“Well it’s not, it’s really gross, it tastes like metal”

“Well then don’t eat it, go get something else, or you can cook, it’s not that easy when your cooking for a picky eater”

You started to complain, now the only type of communication that the two of you had.

“Fine”

Not even 5 minuets later he was screaming from the kitchen.

“ARE YOU SERIOUS?! CANT YOU AT LEAST WASH THE DISHES PROPERLY?! WHAT DO YOU KNOW HOW TO DO?!”

“Jimin keep it down, what’s your problem, I just forgot to wash them, I’ll wash them later”

“WELL YOUR LATERS NEVER COME, YOU ALWAYS SAY LATER, GOSH WHY ARE YOU SO LAZY? YOUR SO USELESS!”

This hurt you, and that was evident in your voice now.

“Well I’m sorry I’m so useless,”

“WHAT THE HELL THROWING SUCH SMART REMARKS ISN’T GOING TO HELP, CLEAN THIS UP”

You looked into his eyes, the usual warm and inviting ones replaced with a cold and harsh one, your own feelings too much to control, maybe his fans were right, you were useless, maybe he was only with you so you could do all the chores that he didn’t want to do.

With a clenching pain in your heart, you ran out the house, jimin noticing what he just said, instantly regretting as soon as he heard the door shut,

“Y/N! IM SORRY, STOP WHERE ARE YOU GOING?”

You pressed the elevator door shut and went to the roof, this place used to make you feel special and happy, but now it only reminded you of how miserable you were.

Jimin thought to himself “where is she going, the roof? What’s she doing at the roof, come on elevator hurry”

The elevator being too slow, jimin started to run up the stairs, afraid of what your state of mind would end up doing.

You slowly stepped forwards, you stood on the edge, one wrong movement and you’d fall straight to your death, there was no way of survival, but they say, that falling to death, maybe the most peaceful ways to die.

You looked down, he wasn’t coming, you didn’t mean anything to him, as you inched closer, you felt two strong arms engulf you and pull you back down.

“HAVE YOU GONE INSANE? YOU COULD HAVE FALLEN TO YOUR DEATH!”

You started to chuckle, the kind of sound you make when you don’t know whether to be astonished or just completely gobsmacked

“Jimin are you that dense, that’s the point, no one comes up to the roof to live, usually they come up to die, and usually they do it in one go, Do you wanna know how many times I’ve been up here?”

“Don’t, please, I’m sorry, I’m rea..”

“I’ve been up here, more than you can count, I just want to be at peace, no longer this damaged, I just want to escape”

“No, no please, you said that I’m your escape, please don’t leave me”

“You were my escape, you know, maybe their right, maybe the fans were right, your only here because you pity me”

Jimin was desperate, it seemed like all the pain you were going through was completely masking his desperation,

“Maybe their all rig....”

He smashed his lips with yours, anything to get you to stop, anything to prove that he still cared and loved you, anything.

He let go of you,

“I’m sorry, it’s not true, none of it is true, I’m sorry, your the greatest thing that’s ever happened to me”

(I genuinely don’t know why this gif just made me cry, idk he looks so happy yet soo sad)

V:

You loved long train journeys, it was one of your favourite dates, Just riding the train to nowhere, the train was like a second home, somewhere where you and v could just enjoy each other’s company, maybe eat a few boiled eggs together.

This was the case until Just 2 weeks ago, when your relationship went public, the affection and love went sour, he no longer told you I love you, the kisses that he used to shower you with, no longer existed, it was instead replaced with frustrated sighs and sometimes annoyed remarks.

After a week, he just didn’t want to talk to you anymore, he didn’t come home, he “didn’t feel like talking to someone who couldn’t be mature about things”

He used to tell you how much he loved your childlike behaviours, he used to hug you and give you comfort, now he only made you feel like a burden and someone that was just extremely clingy, but you still went on train rides, it was long, and sad, and lonely.

Today was the day you thought, the day that you can finally let go of everything, you wrote a letter to tae and left it at your apartment, tae was extremely worried about you, he wanted to check up on you, so he used the excuse of I’m here for the hoodie, when he entered your apartment with a spare key you gave him, and he saw how silent it was, the letter on your desk was the first thing he noticed.

Dear tae,

If your reading this, I’m sorry, I’m sorry I left you, I know you’ll be disappointed in me, but forget me and please move on, I’ll be somewhere that makes me happy, please don’t blame yourself, please don’t feel like your at fault,

Love from Y/N.

He was scared, he felt like his heaven was crumbling, he ran out the house, not knowing if he was too late, or if he was on time to stop you, he wanted to find you and hug you, and kiss you and tell you how sorry he was, then he thought, the train station, today was one of the days that you would enjoy train rides together,

As soon as he arrived he saw you, standing on the edge, the train that was not stopping this time, ready to pass through way too fast

“Y/N” he ran towards you and pulled you into him,

“Tae? What are you doing here”

He was crying, screaming, throwing a damn fit

“HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU, HOW?”

“Tae...I....”

“NO, YOUR NOT GOING ANYWHERE, NOT WITHOUT ME, PROMISE ME, TELL ME, HUG ME, KISS ME, anything to prove that your still alive, that your still with me, because otherwise I don’t want to be here”

[thejokersenigma]

Loki Laufeyson Masterlist

Series

A Match Made in Hel (Loki x Reader)

Slow Dance (Loki x Reader) [COMPLETE]

F**ked up (Loki x Reader) [COMPLETE]

Swipe Right (Loki x Reader) [COMPLETE]

Cat’s Eyes (Loki x Reader)

The Classics (Loki x Reader) [COMPLETE]

Intern (Loki x Reader)

Runes (Loki x Reader)

Stone in Your Shoe Part 1   Part 2 (Loki x Reader!Anxiety)

It’s All Coming Back to Me Now (Loki x Reader)

Oneshots

Grapes of War (Loki x Reader)

Diabolical Cup of Tea (Loki x Reader) [WARNING:DEPRESSION]

Hickey (Loki x Reader)

Two Guys - Oneshot Request (Loki x Reader x Joker)

Relax (Loki x Reader) [SMUT]

Drunken Care (Loki x Reader)

The Morning After (Loki x Reader)

Shirt and Tie (Loki x Reader)

Confess and Confide (Loki x Reader!Depression)

If Only (Loki x Reader) [SMUT]

Breakdown (Loki x Depressed!Reader)

Scary Movie (Loki x Reader)

Holding Hands (Loki x Reader)

[kaisooficrec]

Any KaiSoo fics with selfharm/depression/anxiety?

[Major major trigger warning for this post] Hi lovelies, here’s some fics we found that deal with themes of anxiety, depression, and self-harm. Please head the warnings in each fic and read at your own discretion.

anxiety: (can be separately or w depression tho)

can we stop the clock - Kyungsoo is the product of anxiety and a growing obsession with the numbers on his watch. Jongin is a beautiful dancer that shies away from the spotlight. What happens when fate - or their best friends - brings the two together?(anxiety, OCD)

Not Just in Fairytales - smut, jongin is anxious caused by the unhealthy relationship with his ex and ksoo meets him in the mid of attack at the party and calms him down (subspace, D/S, Body Worship, TopSoo)

Running Home - mama au, jongin has trained all life to get accepted to Julliard but his life changes 180 degrees after he discovers he can teleport (anxiety and panic attacks)

Aberration - hs au, ksoo is a photograph and he loves taking photos of his favourite dancer jongin; unfortunately he’s a bit (a lot) socially awkward

Stomach Tied in Knots - teacher au, jongin is used to routine but that changes one day when he meets a new teacher at his school

nothing’s gonna change (my love for you) - uni au, jongin has a big big crush on his friend kyungsoo but he’s more than nervous to approach him let alone ask him out (panic attacks, insomnia)

Blind But Not Oblivious - jongin is just very socially awkward and his big crush his a popular and handsome football captain kyungsoo whom jongin cheers on the sideline in his bear costume as the school’s mascot

drowning in answers, all out of questions - Kyungsoo finds that he has a hard time caring about anything at all. He finds himself unwilling to care about his grades, his colleagues or his family. They’re not even worth the effort. Kim Jongin, however, is actually worth the effort. And so much more. (anxiety, depression)

depression:

gross - non au, tw for eating disorders (ksoo), depression. this lit just got submitted to our blog aah

The Diary of Do Kyungsoo - Soo has depression and the only good thing in his life is Jongin

le collectionneur - Jongin collects pieces of Kyungsoo, but fails to notice how he hands Kyungsoo pieces of himself in exchange. (fragile!soo and protective!jongin)

I Love You, Just Like This - Soo loves his straight BFF Jongin

French Vanilla - Jongin is divorced and unhappy til he meets Soo, who is about to commit suicide

bring back the light in my eyes - ksoo is depressed but jongin is the reason he carries on

i know you (i walked with you once upon a dream) - from bdool, depression and sleeping disorder, jongin rather than going outside dwells in his dreams and this is also where meets kyungsoo

where were you? - they both start talking regularly when jongin calls the crisis helpline. based on the song by the fray

pull me out of the deep blue -  Because Jongin is Kyungsoo’s sweet memory he keeps on daydreaming about.

where the lights are - Celebrity AU in which Kyungsoo is a well-known celebrity and Jongin is his secret lover in the shades.

Love Me - they’re married, jongin suffers from depression and there are days when he finds hard even waking up and facing the world but soo is here to distract him (comfort, emotional smut)

selfharm:

a good day in one hundred -Kyungsoo convinced himself that cutting would help. The rush of adrenaline, the buzz that he got after cutting, it was enough to fill the empty space in his chest. smut w body worship

edges of a broken glass - Nothing changes a man drastically more than a lust for revenge.

baby don’t cry - chaptered and ongoing, side pairings… self harm

Under Broken Glass - Soo’s past haunts him and he hurts himself to cope until he meets Jongin

An everlasting promise. - Soo constantly gets bullied both in and outside of school

Off Course - Kyungsoo moves away to another coutnry after a failed suicide attempt and he meets new people, makes new friends and there’s a boy who he likes more than a friend 

Don’t - Jongin wants to commit suicide but Kyungsoo won’t have any of that

release - :( eating disorders

Shadows - gotta balance out the fluff with some good old thriller fics ;)

strangers in a café - jongin suffers from panic attacks and selfharm but he isnt alone as he thought

House of Cards - jongin is hospitalized for a numerous attempt of hurting himself and there he meets his idol, a rising actor kyungsoo who got in an accident leaving him bound to a wheelchair (soo suffers here with anxiety and depression) 

previous fics with anxiety/depression/self-harm here. please be careful and read the warnings for all of the stories! 

- Admins I, J, W

[bts-is-my-life-as-always]

Bts reaction to you being suicidal. Suga and Jhope.

Warning:depressing and suicidal stuff.

Behind the reaction: you and bts’s relationship was revealed and the fans absolutely hate you guys, and you fall into depression.

(Credits to gif owners)

Suga:

To be honest suga has gone through this faze before, and whenever he was down, you made sure to bring him back up, and you made sure that he didn’t fall back into depression.

So when his fans started hating you, you made sure to never show suga the mean comments, as soon as someone commented you made sure to delete it, because you knew Yoongi would be reading them, but that didn’t mean that you didn’t look at them, there were fans that supported you, but double the fans that hated you.

Everything you read, it felt like your heart was ripping, you started to cover yourself a bit more, hid more and stay home more, all of this suga didn’t know.

You sat there feeling worthless again, suga didn’t deserve such a burden, you went into the bathroom, and you automatically bought the blade up to your wrist, the red ripples running over your skin, like this was the one thing, that kept you sane.

You were so into the thought that you didn’t hear the bathroom door opening,

“Y/n?”

You looked up and saw a horrified suga, and then you saw your wrists, you shook your head from side to side vigorously.

“What are you doing? God your bleeding so much”

He grabbed your wrists and a towel, and dragged you outside and into his car, he didn’t say anything throughout the whole journey, until you got to the hospital, they took care of your wound, and suga stayed there, he wasn’t saying one word.

“Oppa? Are you mad at me? I’m sorry”

He sighed, and lifted his head, where you could see the traces of tears.

“Why? When? How? Who? Who made you like this? Was it me?”

“No it’s not you, it’s not please don’t”

“We promised to heal together, so why?”

“I…I.. Didn’t want you to hurt”

“Didn’t you think seeing you like this would rip my heart into pieces”

“Oppa I’m sorry, I’m really sorry”

“Who was it” he was now angry, ready to kill whoever made you feel like this.

“No one… it’s the fans….”

“What? My fans? I haven’t seen anythi….”

“That’s cause I delete them so you won’t see, so you won’t hurt, so you won’t hate your fans”

“Y/n, I’m gonna fix this, their going to stop, and your no longer going to delete them, nor read them, I don’t want to see you like this.”

You nodded and he took you home, he laid you down onto the bed and crawled in next to you, hugging you, as if to protect you from the world.

“I’m sorry, I should’ve been here to protect you, I’m not going anywhere, I’m going to be right here”

Jhope:

Jhope loves his fans, almost as much as loving you, but obviously he loved you more, he made sure to show you this, and continue to show you all his feelings.

So fighting with him was always out the frame, but you and hoseok kept fighting, about anything really, anything little things made you upset.

“I don’t understand why you can’t be here more?”

“Y/n you know I’m busy, we’re having a comeback, you know that”

“But that doesn’t mean you can’t spend a little more time with me, you’ve been able to stay with me with all your other comebacks”

“This comeback is different, you know how important this is to me”

“No I don’t, what could be more important than your girlfriend, my friends boyfriends are always there, whenever we go out they drop them off, yet I can’t even see you in our own home”

“Well Maybe you should date them instead then? If you like them that much, no one is stopping you”

You shook your head, not believing the extent of this fight, so you ran out.

You started walking, aimlessly, to nowhere, you kept walking until you came across a busy high way, cars were zooming past, very quickly, while you were struggling to think straight, hoseok was looking for you, he asked his members and managers to help search for you, he was starting to worry, he called your phone many times, the one thing that you took, you had no money on you and he was afraid that you would be cold, outside somewhere, he was going mad searching for you.

You sat on the edge of the road, now ready, to jump in front of a car, any to end this pain, until your phone started to ring, you knew who it was, and you answered it.

“Y/n? Thank god where are you? Baby I’m sorry, I’m really sorry, where are you?”

“I’m sorry, don’t look for me, please, give your heart to someone who deserve it”

“Y/n what are you talking about, stop saying that, where ar….”

You ended the call without letting him finish his sentence, he looked up from his phone and saw you, across from him, you started to rise and walk forward he ran towards you, and engulfed you into a hug, as soon as your bodies came in contact, you knew who it was, you tried to push him off you, but he stayed there.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it, I didn’t mean any of it, I want you to stay, by my side, I’m sorry, let’s fix this, let’s fix all of it”

[imayoyo]

The one where they're perfectly normal men in the twenty-first century. Except for where they really aren't.

[kaisooficrec]

EXOGEDDON 2017 - kadi fics IV.

EXOGEDDON part IV. is here! Don’t forget to leave a comment and kudos, it is the least you can do to make the authors happy ♥

#13: Point Zero

Genre: Alternate Universe - Dystopia, Romance, Slow Burn, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Slight Violence / Blood

Rating: R

Length: 26,015 w

Summary: There's something different about the prisoner in Unit 24, something that makes him stand out from all the other prisoners and every other damned soul in this city. Jongin thinks it's called courage.

#14: Demonic Domesticity and Other Signs of the Apocalypse

Genre: Demons, Alternate Universe - Supernatural (TV), Alternate, Universe - Bar/Pub, Apocalypse, Comedy, Smut (kinks on AO3)

Rating: NC-17

Length: 12,757 w

Summary: Kyungsoo should have left town. Demons should not be this cute. Holy Water probably shouldn't be made in toilets, but they're all things that happen, anyway.

#15: Helion

Genre: Pre-Apocalypse, Dark Themes (warnings on AO3)

Rating: NC-17

Length: 9,214 w

Summary: In these invisible silhouettes carved by the absence of the sun, men grow hungry.

#16: Counting Stars

Genre: Angels Demons AU

Rating: R

Length: 10,060 w

Summary: Jongin falls from the sky, and Kyungsoo is spit out from the underworld. The human world is dangerous for Jongin - to Kyungsoo? It's wayyyyy too cold. They team up to figure out a way to get back to their respective worlds - at least, they try to.