#why do ppl do this lol. ‘i hate this thing so ill go up to fans of it and start telling them unprompted that it sucks’ <- how u act

[marsbotz]

stop putting ur hater takes in the main tag of the thing u r hating on. NOBODY GAF

[connormoving]

okay sooo 1. once little man is done with my laptop i need to do the ssn shit bc i have the letter 2. in an hour i need to switch my laundry to the dryer and at Some point i need to sleep preferablyyyy i oush as long as i can its been 28 hours i Think? since i woke up i dont avtually remember its all kind of a blur i do have a headache and my fuckshit tooth is bothering me but whatever . once i get the ssn login thing done im pretty sure i can get a new card like right away and then once that gets here i can go and get my permit And by then my new glasses will be here which is epics and ummm at some point not today bc im tired and have a headache aka not at my best. so once those 2 things r not the case i need to do the science and math ged practice tests ive been putting them off bc im scared ill do bad SKULL.but i need to get those done ... and omce i have the permit and everything thennnnnn i can go do my actual proper ged tests and once those r done ill have my ged and an id and thus can start applying for jobs again And ill be so brave and ask my mom to teach me how to drive . YIPPEE

[bartandthesimpsons]

Lost a pregnancy, my grandfather, and had a really scary time with my mom in the hospital this year but since I don't care to tell my coworkers my whole life story I get to deal with even more bullshit !!!!

[snekdood]

welp, at this point if anyone in the crowd of Bad Faith People Who Stalk Me And Hate Me Bc Of Someone Else's Compulsive Lying tries to accuse me of antisemitism bc i have a vampire whos a villain in my comic, i'm gonna ask them what their take was on allll of this going on. if its anything like "israelis and/or zionists are all evil people" then ik i never have to take their opinion seriously bc they dont even know what antisemitism means.

[olderthannetfic]

Im neither a proshipper nor an anti at this current stage in life, but at one point i was an anti i guess? And I hate it say it, but looking back, I understand why. I don't think I actually gave a fuck about Harmful Fanfic or whatever, it was just a substitute for therapy that i couldn't get at the time (because "literally neurodivergent and a minor" or whatever, but like...actually literally neurodivergent and a minor LOL).

As weird as it sounds like, no one cared about my ACTUAL PAIN, and that made me feel EVEN MORE PAIN, so i took it out on ppl who shipped "abuse", or whatever.

It's so stupid now, as an adult who is mentally better than I was then, but as ridiculous as it was, seeing someone ship an "abusive" ship or a "queer erasing ship" (like a canonically gay character with someone of the other binary gender)...it felt eerily similar to the actual abuse I was facing and the stress that everyone was putting on me to find a boyfriend or ask why my (closeted lesbian) self didn't like any boys.

But it was so much easier to keyboard warrior about how people who ship Bad things are Bad people, than it was to fix any problems in my actual life because...well, the actual problems in my life COULDN'T be fixed. That isn't a learned helplessness thing, there was genuinely nothing I could've done. So pissing off Shippers was, like, a vessel for that, and it *felt* like I was getting to lash out at the same people who were ACTUALLY hurting me, even though that obviously is not the case. Funny thing is, it wasn't actual fandom discourse that made me switch sides, it was getting to learn more about youth liberation movements and stuff, because it was then that I recognized the actual structures that were making me hurt.

I think one silver lining is it's made me more compassionate an adult. While I don't have any defense for the antis who do actual horrendous stuff like doxxing or sending death/rape threats, etc, I do have a lot of defense for the ones who were like me and would just make posts talking about how Wrong it is to ship certain things. I know that not all antis are in the same place that I was once was, and some are just genuinely immature brats, but it's like. . . I get it, you know?

The cycle of abuse/bullying is weird and it's not often a 1:1 "I had an abusive parent so now i'll be an abusive parent", sometimes it's the chronically online stuff like I did. It's also why I'm careful-careful to not engage and to just block or, even try to have a mature discussion if I can, and if the person I'm talking to is just "a little bit annoying" rather than "actual bully doing/sending illegal stuff". A lot of them just want to be heard, I think, and it really makes me sad that this is the way they choose to be heard...but also i get it, because i was that.

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Yup. We often discuss anti tendencies in this framework.

People want control over their environment when they have none. They want the world to make sense and for there to be simple rules they can follow to Never Mess Up. This is a very common reaction to trauma and also typical of brains that like order and neat boxes and a world full of justice and logic.

The trouble is that a critical mass of "I'm just pointing this out" type posts does tend to make all the other teens with an issue around moral scrupulosity implode. (And let's be real, plenty of the antis themselves are secretly into dark content and are trying to pray the gay kink away.)

I have some sympathy, but I'm still going to tell people they're sealioning when they are and tell them they're flat out wrong about how fantasies work, not sugar coat it because they're probably a delicate teen. There's no need to be excessively mean or treat people as irredeemable, but I also don't like how we talk endlessly about compassion for teen antis and not for teens targeted by antis. It's similar to how there are all those complaints like "Hey, I work hard to manage my mental illness, but all the support seems to go to people who are letting their issues rampage..."

[kisimet]

hii miwo!!! i just saw ur reblog on my dumb shiggy though and it made me giggle omg and now i REALLY need to know more of your shiggy headcanons/thoughts/WHATEVER (if it’s not too much trouble for you ofc) cause the way you talk abt him is giving very much that’s YOUR boyfriend and your boyfriend only so it think itd be fun to hear :) plus i wanna make sure i get his character right in my fics!! (rather die than butcher him)

ok hopefully i haven’t bothered you too much LOL but thank u in advance :D

AUEUEUEUAUEU HAIII OMD I LOVE UR FICS ITS ALL SO CUTIEE LIKE AUGEUEUGHH GENIUS ,,,,, WHY DIDNT I YHINK OF THAY …… cue devious hypothetical giggles . (U DIDNT BUTCHER HIM AT ALLLLL)

BUT IN ALL FOREALSIES ITS ALG HONESTLY IDMMM !! Idek how to like format this but i fear most of my hcs r like generic unless i like have a urethra (/ref) moment out of the blue on a nice sunny day with an ice cream truck blaring in the distance.

I JUST KNOWW that man games at night so if ur like sharing a bedroom be prepared to get utterly FLASHED by that blue light radiation like wozah dude please its like 2:30 am it doesnt need to be THAT bright (im being hypocritical cus i shamefully do that too …)

this is pretty much canon but hes absolutely touch starved like STARVED STARVED ,, even simple little gestures / touches makes him fumble BUT its diff when its him cus yk his quirk hes 100% afraid of hurting his s/o idek where ppl got the idea where he would harm his lover like ganglang no he would TWEAK OUTT he doesnt want u to end up like mon-chan ☹️☹️

absolutely hates getting into arguments, it triggers his abandonment issues so yeah

nonchalant but like in a little loser way (idek man)

Ik this trends like died out but he listens n he doesnt judge, like if u say smth like “when ur sleeping ill pinch ur toes” he’ll be confused but tolerate it kinda …. (IF UR HIS LOVER OR KNOW HIM WELL ,, kinda cant just go “hey watch out in ur sleep bud ill tickle ur toes n pinch them, give em a lil kiss” to the LEADER OF THE LOV??! like ur DESTINED to be turned to ashes on the spot i fear)

does NOT go easy on u when u game (loves it when u praise him or celebrate his win like yes king u ate me up now PLEASE STOP GETTING LUCKY AT MARIP KART LAWD TAKE AWAY HIS SWITCH I REPEAT TAKE AWAY HIS SWITCH I CANT KEEP GETTING SHELLED MY HIM …) he adores it when u game with him tho cus he just loves bonding with u ober this

will make the most nerdiest gamer boy references ever and i fear u just gotta tolerate that /J EMBRACE THAT THING U CANT LOVE SHIFGY N HATE GAMES THAT JUST CLASHES 🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️

he gets ur references so u dont look like ur searching for lost archaic footage trying to explain it to him, ur just locked in and interlinked in minds FUH REAL (my source is the voices)

He def has minecraft boxers n pjs .. ON MY LIFE I SWEARR HE DOES WE LITERALLY HAVE MATCHING TRUSTTT

Unironically puts ur minecraft beds together, if u move his bed a block away hes gonna think ur mad at him /silly

Switches in yapper or listener like he’ll listen to u yap abt wtvr n then he’ll yap n u have to listen (ITS THE LAW I SAID SO..)

if u play multiplayer games n theres the option to be together (dating/married, or wtvr as long as ur togeyher) hes taking that chance

if theres a mandatory romance option in the game (that isnt u) he’ll pick yhe one thats the most similar to u, if there isnt then he’ll just straight up delete the game

has an interruped sleep schedule, someyimes bc of nightmares or bc his body is like “ykw its tjme to wake up hunny bunny” so yeah if u catch him staring into ur soul at 4:15 in the morning thats why

after u came along most of the LOV could see positive changes in him like hes more mentally stable than he was without u <3

isnt exactlt fond of nicknames but likes it when u do it "ur the only exception" ahh

is ur #1 defender. someone shit talks u? gowneee u will never see their ass again

when he first developed feelings he was uncertain of what to do n panicked a little, maybe perhaps confided in kurogiri (before he got locked up 💔💔💔) for advice cus he was like GENUINELY confused and flabbergasted, highkey thought u had a secret quirk that u used on him

thought he was sneaky w his feelings until dabi called him out on it spinner noticed too but most of the league was like "its okay guys we have to support him in the most sneaktastic way possible" until dabi let it slip when he was teasinh shig

hb was slightly mortified or not i really cant tyell the voices didnt settle on this one gang hes just such a cutie and i lubb him ,, ur gonna have to take thay ho away from my COLD DEAD HANDSSS idk this hc list was so random more silly than actual hcs so sorry 😓😓 currently stuck with some bumass fever so HOPEFULLY ONE DAY ILL MAKE SMTH SERIPUS teeth cghatters as i feed little crumbs to the shiggy army in the cold tundra's of winter🤞🤞🤞 (we ignore that its incredibly ooc and highly delusional ,,, we support my delusions gang ,,,,, we support my delusions ....)

[fumifooms]

Personally I love Hanahaki only when it's chronic not terminal, terminal rushes the loved and the plot in general. Chronic has that delicious delicious pining and stupids and hiding and you can keep the big sads if you want by making them hide it forever or if it could potentially become terminal if untreated. Do you like hanahaki when it's chronic? So hard to find fics for thoughhhj a

Marcille at first being plagued by obvious Chilchuck flowers like coffee and beer ingredients like hops and barley, doesn't hurt too bad. Thinks she can handle it forever, basic Marcille burden carrying and overconfidence she thinks can rival Chills as if she's not the most open book with one slip up lol. Learns more about him and DANGIT now she loves him more and now there's anxiousness from mushrooms and nostalgia flowers from his childhood home and symbolisms like iris, lotus, zineas and lavender for loyalty, faithfulness, and chastity while away from what he loves, peonies for bravery, bluebells for greatfullness, and amaryllis for shyness (sometimes).

Confrontation forced not by Chillchuck desperately trying to fall in love on the spot but because all the flowers smells together becomes too nauseating to hide over time and him spying worryingly on her SURPRISE you fell headfirst into the trap of love doofus.

Or not reflecting what they think/know of them, but how their dear loves feelings/vibes have been lately. Chilchuck planning to take it to the grave til despite coughing from smelling Marcilles sincere anemones, respectful passionate sunflowers, bluebells, desperate romantic primroses, facinated carnations (girlie has so many emotions shes experiencing and projecting the whole garden lol) willfull promise morning glories, and but of course, typical hanahaki longing camelias getting in the way of his job. Until suddenly they become goodbye sweetpeas and fritillaria cursed loves and forgotten memories and abandonment red spider lilies and he doesn't know about hanahaki doesnt know WHY but he smells the sad from her and hates it more than the evil that is tAlKiNg aBOuT FEliNgS.

Hanahaki where one THINKS it's terminal and learns in secret and tries to force themselves to fall in love with them or at least spend all their sweet poor little loves last days with them and LOL you fell in love for a new happier futur-ahemEMBARASSING NOTHING WORRIED ME TO UPSET TUMMY NOTHING YOU LITTLE PROBLEM. WOE SPONGEBOB PIE EPISODE BE UPON YE

The they can never love again if they pull the roots from the heart thing except WHOOPSIE you didnt know absence makes the heart grow fonder is literal and grows new flowers when they return next and you payed all those medical bills for freaking nothing >:'(

Hanahaki where it doesn't have to be unrequited just ASSUMED unrequited, hanahaki smelled by anyone, the party wondering why the heck everything smells like bluebells and lavender all the freaking time (they match :') so they can't notice each other's :'( ). Laios being the first to notice to their horror and unsubtly Scooby Doo level always same team and search split ups together until they want to kill him jadhdjdjcj

There's soooo many POSSIBILITIES I wish ppl would go nuts with it im starving 😭

WHAT IS THY NAMEEEE ANON THOU ART COOKING MY LIEGE………

This is like home delivery marchil fanfic tysm….. I'm not really a fan of hanahaki, I'm mostly indifferent… BUT I LOVE fantasy and speculative biology, so fantasy illnesses are right up that alley to me. Kinda like how I like to compare being low on mana with anemia and for my half-foot mage oc it's like having POTS. All this to say, myself having a chronic illness no less- Yes!!!! Chronic hanahaki is fascinating!!! It's so fun to think of how people would have developed tips and tricks, tools or treatments to live with it or lessen its effects… What you mentioned about Chilchuck trying to poison the hanahaki plants and Marcille using ancient magic is so so fun. Your plant choices are also so cute and lovely too 🥺 🥺

You should try writing a fanfic if it sounds like fun!! Be the change you want to see in the world!! This is already such fertile ground (ba-dum-tss) for a hanahaki fic, you have all the outline and ingredients and The Vision already :D

I've been thinking about Marcille longing a lot recently myself… Like this poem. I'd dump a lot of poems on here but I'll keep it for a web weaving... The marchil experience is having way too much daydream and poetry about mourning their lover's death gdbdgdg

No dying with chronic hanahaki though! I also like the added imagery that comes with hanahaki being chronic that like… Love is something to be taken care of and nurtured like a plant, that may grow healthy with enough attention, that can be learned to live with even when it's more inconvenient or hurtful. Heartbreak can make you feel like you're about to die, but it can be just as much prolonged agony instead. With water and care though it can become manageable, just maybe… You know who aren't going to do this or face their issues, and neglect themselves though? These two idiots. Unless we force their hand just a little <3

[oscconfessions]

Hot take but why are Cabby and Suitcase haters one in the same, if ykyk hate what you want ig but why so, aggressive abt it, why go into places that are all for this character and then start yapping abt how much you hate the character

then complain… when ppl tell u to stop… like you put urself in this situation… you could’ve avoided that… this rlly goes for all haters of characters who intentionally bother fans of said character for whatever reason like just hate with other haters why bother going into spaces where you know it’s gonna be a fan club of a character hate I don’t understand

Back to cabcase // not the ship but calling ‘em cabcase to address same issues // but erm… do you guys have a problem with women winning or… “ugh ur reaching this is not misogynistic!! biggest reach ever u have no real reasons!!”

Idkkk chat I think constantly berating and belittling two characters for being ‘too emotional and sensitive’ as well as actively believing the only reason they won is bc they have mental issues is… iffy… just maybe…

and just to b sure I don’t come off as bias. I WANTED KNIFE TO WIN. I WANTED HIM TO WIN SO BADDD UGHHHHHH!!! WDYM HE DIDNT WIN!!!!

But watching these Case haters come out of no where… saying shit like “oh I’ve always hated Suitcase” “She was better when she spoke less” “She only won bc she’s a mentally ill woman” girl don’t pmo I know what you are and nobody is surprised to see that these are the same ppl who were mad when Cabby won; and fyi again I WANTED BALLOON TO WIN TOO UGHHHHHH I CAN NEVER WINNNNNNNN

But genuinely all of this shit that’s targeted towards Cabcase feels so misogynistic it’s not even funny especially the “over dramatic” bits

fym overdramatic?? If you got your reality shattered or constantly felt you had to prove you weren’t a manipulative monster you would probably “raise your voice a little” too

Balloon can be overdramatic, ofc he can be overdramatic he’s a goddamn poet. A POET. He literally screams and yells and raises his voice more than Suitcase ever did and y’all wanna call her overdramatic and whiny?

Knife literally killed ppl lol! He has a Dora doll as a comfort item! // good for him // He resorts to violence as his first instinct to emotional turmoil!! When he got his reality shattered same time as Case He got so overwhelmed with his anger (which is an emotion) he “DRAMATICALLY” flew across the room to punch that CEO (dramatically) but Suits crying?? CRYING THAT UR NOT REAL?? That’s too far!!! Be a man!!

Cabby crying?? Cabby being angry?? Bc she’s afraid she’ll never be anything more than just a screw up? No matter how hard she tries?? That’s too much!! She’s being overdramatic!! Wahwahwah!! She needs to “man” up!!

I will never ever fw a cabcase hater, I live by the // hate what you wanna hate, love what you wanna love // mentality. But as somebody who could probably care less for these two winners and was literally pissed tf when they won… the hatred they get is so blatantly rooted in the fact they’re women. And no matter how much I bring up these talking points bitches will still go and yell “REACHING WAAAA REACHINGGGG UGGHHHH THEYRE FICTIONALLL” while simultaneously saying the most absurd things abt real women // fiction affects reality //

If you hate cabcase, more power to you. If you actively put down ppl who love cabcase I’ll be the first to tell you that you are a very miserable kind of person.

Hate responsibly ig. Idgaf it’s midnight I’m tired I’m a ghostly ghoul I’m a lesbian protector I’m Knife from Inanimate Insanity and I should’ve won and hating women is not cool goodnight or don’t I guess

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[marsbotz]

i like when characters r boring as fuck and not fun to be around and have nothing interesting going. but they tend to be the butt of the joke a lot 💔

[hy4c1nthh]

Broski... can you yap to me about the first three survivors of forsaken.... olease... 🙏

YES I CAN UHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO STARTING WITH ELLIOOOTTTTTTT I LVOE ELLIOT SO

game-wise, elliot is a healer. he's pretty good!! just evade the killer and go after survivors who get hurt (from a distance to be safe) STORY WISEEEE....we actually NEEEEDD more info on elliot since he was envolved with wtv ARG they had going on but. that hasnt updated in. months. and. probably wont be <//3....BUT he worked most of the jobs at Builder Brother's pizza, and his dad owned the buissness. He, Elliot Builder, had a little sister named Mia builder. Overall elliot loved his job, he rlly did!!! it meant a lot to him, seeing people happy, serving people, seeing others smile made him smile. Its kinda unknown how he ended up getting forsaken but. gurughrugur. He is SUCH nice guy. Hes a voice of reason, probably the most reasonable of the bunch.......and hes just. sorry my brain isnt getting th words out GUHHHUHUGR. c00lkidd and sev used to frequent Builder Brother's pizza and (based off the irl c00lkidd WaaPP exploit attacks from early 2010s) c00lkidd would essentially. hack the place lol. cause chaos. Elliot wouldnt hate CK tho, he would rather get upset at sev (007n7). eventually he blacklisted him. you could say elliot "hates" sev but. he would never yell or snap at him. elliot is a nice and reasonable guy. Now getting into more....hc stuff? but its kinda just. like its. ???reasonable idk UHM Elliot of course was always destined to be taking over the buisness when he got older, and he didnt. mind that. yet he started working and getting busy pretty quickly. He didnt have the time to get burnt out, he just couldnt afford to. Him and mia's dad...wasnt...abusive...moreso just. neglectful. He cared for them, yes, but it was clear he also well..cared for the buisness...you could say...but elliot still worked. Yes he considered "what if i did my own thing" but for now. he's staying there.

shedletsky: uhhhhhh hes like. he like stuns the killer ig.

jk ill give you some insight on him. wahtever. I HATE THAT FFFFAAAA............guy.

shedletsky??? sh.she. shed le.....OKay i. uehrhe i dont feel qualified to say his lore because IM NOT. super well-versed in his lore. plus iirc a lot of it is kinda........fan-made..? i dont wanna say fan-made but moreso... implied and takin a well-educated guess UHM okay.

hes. a retired admin. sfoth swords i needa...do more research on but it goes somehting like this:

He used to be "Telamon" essentially....i dont wann say a god..? but yeah basically that. also he was kinda an ass or wtv but uHHHH 1x (who was made by the actualy john shedletsky, an old roblox admin, as a fake account where he rumoured that 1x was an hacker) is actually shed's manifestation of hatred. a lot of what happened between 1x, why and how 1x exists, what happend with telamon, etc etc, is specualted, but you can sum it up to telamon "retired", taking a mortal form and going under the alias of well..shedletsky. he does sword fights and whatever and yeahhh hes A DUMBASS. someone PLEASE EXPLAIN THIS BETTER TO ME. i like him but i NEED MORE. info. ppls. I rlly like him actually BUt yeah.

noob. UAUHUHUGR soren could explain noob a lot better also BUT. GUHHHHHHHHHH I CANT. WORDS. Noob. FUCK i actually. okay in my defense we have like. not a lot. MORE AFTER NOLI THO WOOOOOO. okay so. Noob was a pretty outgoing lad, yk? parties...talkative....and BOOM their best friend guest 666!!! aka sixer. they were absolute besties UGHAUGH they make me SIICKKK but. They ended up getting into an argument.....and sixer started to distance and next thing you know sixer just. "suddenly left". Noob was planning to send her a letter but they (under unknown circumstances) ended up getting forsaken. okay im a bit tired rn Abut BUT read the wiki...looks at different iterations....just. yeah. god i feel so bad this is probably such mischaracterization

[heatlightning-mp3]

ik a lot of people are much more private about chronic illness / mental health / pretty much life in general and i also know that people find it pretty odd that we "overshare" so often.

and ik a lot of why we do that is

a) processing thoughts and emotions and documenting them so we know they are Real

b) being scared that people won't believe us about our reality bc other ppl have spent so much time invalidating it

c) feeling the need to be fully transparent so that people actually want to help us financially bc we've had times where ppl have tried to say we're scamming and picking our posts apart and stalking us and its very scary because without the help we get on tumblr we genuinely wouldn't be earthside anymore

and

d) a lot of the health stuff we talk about are things that people are afraid to approach because of stigma. we feel like, in sharing our story, that we can help people both advocate for themselves, realize it's okay to be disabled and/or use accommodations, and also recognize what is and isn't a "normal" so that they can try and reach a point of self acceptance

we used to have a personal main/sideblogs that we would abandon and restart every time we lost a friend or someone we were afraid of found it. we've been on this site 12 years and we fully admit that sometimes we fuck up sometimes + we have a stalker anon who says scary/threatening/paranoia inducing every time we have anon on and that is probably hate following, maybe more more than one ngl

but like. sometime in 2024 we realized that constantly remaking and abandoning our personal blogs only fed into our fear of being perceived negatively. it definitely fed into the paranoia and ocd for sure, at the very least.

we've realized over the last year or two that people we try to avoid seem to find us anyways no matter what. it sucks and it can be scary af when we're extra paranoid but the thing is that. like. we've been through a lot. our entire life, really, but its been kinda of extra bad between health shit and being unhoused. i think we've come to the point or where a lot of things that really freaked us out really does not matter as much as we thought.

and that's not to say that like! our fuck ups dont matter! but being terrified of messing up constantly was actually affecting our relationships because like. we'd get super defensive whenever we were given criticism instead of listening to the feedback and giving it thought. it also made it do we didn't think critically and just tended to just go with whatever the people around us did which is like. not healthy

so anyways that's our ramble about why we tend to share lol

[catzz089]

omg Ive come back from war (ADHD burnout) and i missed imedently seeing two posts!! first off THE CHAPTER NAMES ur a comedic genius!! YESS MAX TAKING CARE OF CHARLES IM SOO HAPPY! sorry Mr Stroll pt2 wtf get that bag tho max ig. CARLOS CALLING THE SHOTS LOL! i love the carlos max friendship to be fair. hmmmm a backstory who are these exs hmmm??? AHH YEP LETS KILL JOS I WILL ILL HIT HIM WITH MY CAR FEEL THE POWER OF A BOXER ENGINE IN AN 18 YEAR OLD SUBARU! lol i feel charles panic about max seeing guns and shit on a personal level, like when someone i went to school with found pic of me shooting and showed them around my english class i panicked!! I lowkey wanna know how max reacts when he wakes up on top of charles like im down for cuddles with the homies buttt it gets to a point… INFORMANT HUUUHH (pls be oscar pls be oscar) Banger of a chapter it was like crack to me after disappearing into the oblivian that is uni.

CHAP 14!! iconic title once again! WHY TF R U IN A SHOP TILL 3AM not it! Max bby youve been attacked once lets not go for a second time drive the car (edit: i was mistaken fuck) someone wanna wife me up and let me drive their Ferrari like pls (or Corvette im not picky jk i want the Corvette)!!! PLS TELL CHARLES U FEEL LIKE UR STILL BEING WATCHED TF! yep vroom vroom i love cars :) was forced out of my hole to go do burnouts with friends (leagally) and i had soo much fun i rose again. NOOO NOT THE FERRARI!! JK MAX PLS BE OK!! yea ok fuck u rico u dog! yea its actually so crazy to me that ppl who give their cars to friends and their friends crash get pissed about the car straight away like ok champ u knew the risks. anyway shout charles being a decent person once again! AWWW MY BABIES YES THE HURT/COMFORT!! AND GOOD CAT DAD LIKE YEA FEED THEM CATS! fuck i hate concussions like genuinely they traumatised me. dont get into fights kids (or just dont block with ur face)! SHARE THE FUCKING BED U PUSSIES! YAYYY OK MAX PUT THAT HOT MAN IN UR BED! just letting u know u have “Mad threw his shirt across the room and flopped down, staring at Charles.” if u want to fix it to Max :) (if u even read all this lol ive rambled i havent had connection in daysss). oop good with cars max wanna tell charles why ur good with cars hmm so we can kill jos faster :) DAMMNN  THAT SLEEPING POSITION OK GAYS SORRY GUYS! 

YIPPIE SORRY TO HAVE LEFT YOU SO LONG!! BUT I ABSOLUTELY LIVED AS USUAL!!! 🩵

LBHA RETURNS!!!!

Thank you thank you, honestly sometimes I’m more proud of the names than the chapter

Max so eager and desperate to return the favour he forgot to check if Charles was actually sick or not 💔

Mr Stroll just comes in for a chat at least once a month, Charles freaks out every time but Max lowkey loves him so he can never do anything about it. “Oh, Charles. Lawrence came in again today! Oh he was so nice, he was telling me about his house back in Canada and how a deer ran into his house! Apparently it was really sweet, and his son coerced him back out of the house with some carrots. He’s such a great guy, honestly.” Meanwhile Charles is grinding his teeth thinking back on just how many shipments they’d stolen.(less since Max came about- significantly less)

Crazy amount of exes, crazy behaviour from them. All of them.

Bro you can’t just casually mention shooting things 😭😭 my very English mind cannot comprehend it

He’s thrilled. Completely thrilled. And panicked, he doesn’t want Charles to hate him (completely ignoring the insane amount of times he gets dragged into Charles’ arms) so he escapes. But he thinks about it for the rest of the week month day.

Big fan of informant! RIP for the Unj grind

Look they were having a rough, rough day at work, Charles feels really bad, he’s about to pay Max 5 times the regular overtime pay.

Yes Max. Take the car so you don’t get into any trouble…

LMAOOOOO, too real though I just want to marry rich

Don’t even worry, Charles knows Max feels watch, or at least, he knows Max is being watched. He won’t let anything happen to him again. Especially not like the first time. Any and all protections he has must be put in place for Max because anything less than safe is failure.

Poor Ferrari 💔 how will it recover 💔

I understand it if the friend is like drunk driving or smth, but if it’s not their fault the stfu. Max is just simply panicking for no reason tho, bc he’s just a little dramatic

I’m such a sucker for hurt/comfort it’s the best genre ever

BRO WHO WERE U FIGHTING??(and did you win??)

NOOOOO OMG EVER TIME BRO EVERY DAMN TIME IT BECOMES MAD 😭😭

Hasn’t even crossed Max’s mind I’m afraid, it’s actually totally normal for his father to be a bit odd and overbearing nothing wrong w it at all

THANK YOU QUEEN 💞💞💞💞💞💞♥️♥️♥️♥️

[priceforrottenjudgement]

Ive seen a lot of bitching about hotd in the tag, which surprised me bc there was none of this two weeks ago and now all these ppl are acting like season 2 sucks and its badly written and its rewriting the books and bla bla. This surprised me, so i did a little snooping

Like. First off, isnt grrm consulting them this time? I know he was doing it for s1 and im sure i read he was doing s2 too. I cant say anything about bad writing, tbh i havent examined it that closely bc nothing about pacing or dialogue has bothered me enough to spend time thinking about it.

The "its not like the book!!!" Thing really bothers me though bc have you read the book? Lmao im not so sure bc some of the stuff you complain about is so weird, also how did you miss that fire & blood has deeply unreliable narrators? It literally says gyldayn is an unreliable narrator on the Wikipedia, hes taking a bunch of biased sources and kind of patches the history of house targaryen together. If you had read the book, youd KNOW that it isnt a definitive chronicle and stuff was likely altered, embellished and left out. Some of the alterations make sense, because why would some maester know about these ppls private lives. Fire and blood is full of propaganda, rumours and bias. Also the stuff that WAS changed isnt really that deep? I really like the change to the rhaenicent dynamic (ill come back to this, theres a reason ppl seem to hate this change lmao), i dont care about maelor and the nettes changes dont bother me that much? (Some ppl are convinced rhaena will get the ENTIRE nettles storyline. Which would indeed suck cough cough, but i dont think thats where theyre going at all lmao)

So i took a look at some of the other opinions of ppl who really really HATE s2 and, WOOOOOOWWWWW,there sure is a lot of homophobia on the yuri Website huh? All of a sudden it makes sense why these ppl popped up 2 weeks ago huh? (And why theyre so bitchy about the changes to alicents character not being a wicked stepmother but more of an... almost lover) Wow, what a fucking pathetic reason to be a hater. Awww nooooooooo this female character is kissing women noooo, theyre ruined!! Even though the relationship was kind of maybe sort of a little implied in the book. (Granted the book talks about a close relationship between rhaenyra, mysaria and DAMON, but see above for rumours and inaccuracies) Also there are a lot of ppl who were genuinely Team green (i did not realise those ppl existed unironically, gonna be honest) who are mad that Team green is portrayed more negatively than Team black and apparently thats unfair. Yeah, idk what to say about that, do you always expect to opposing sides of a fictional conflict to be treated the same and to be equally good and justified? Granted, the "pick a side" Marketing was dumb and encouraged this sort of thinking, but those two teams are not equal lol you can still like the characters even though theyre cheaters, usurpers and Bad ppl.

If you had genuinely read and UNDERSTOOD the books and that theyre full of propaganda you would understand why SOME PPL are either portrayed more positively or more negatively in the show than they were in the book. Just consider WHO was writing the history for one sec.

Yeah, rant over, this was just too ridiculous not to get off my chest.

Like yeah, you can criticise some of the changes and the simple fact that 8 ep seasons are SHIT for building a plot, but considering some ppl call an ep "filler" just because nobody got roasted by a dragon, maybe we dont deserve 20 ep seasons with a slow building of plot and tension anymore....

[inconsideratekidney]

10/9/24

hey guys,

something's wrong with my computer. it can barely run all my chrome tabs anymore like it used to. it still functions i suppose, but its very slow and doesn't charge with this one charger i have--my backup charger. i bring this one around so i don't have to bring my big one. the big one that is like my only dependable charger apparently. this backup charger works on my phone and my tablet, but my laptop just won't accept it as a charger for whatever reason. it's super cool and lights up when it's plugged into a power source. it's got 3 different offshoots for usb-c, lightning cable, and something else idk what it's called but it's like an hdmi-shaped version of the lightning cable sized one. anyway, who cares about all that. my laptop has not turned on while the cable is plugged in and it pisses me off so much. i wish my laptop would finally explode like it wants to so i can get a new one.

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im not really sure what kind of audience is actually reading my blogs. i know most don't keep up, cuz its a blog and no one wants to read about someones personal life go on and on, but it is very therapeutic for me. i honestly dgaf who reads it or doesn't. just that i have a place to put my thoughts. i would love feedback or any kind of response literally, like idc what, i like to have conversations with ppl so if u want to go ahead. ill try to stop asking, but i feel like ppl don't feel right doing it or are straight up just not reading any of this. who knows. womp womp.

speaking of which, the things i write about are the kinds of topics i want to talk about with ppl, but are the ones that ppl dont stay on for too long. what i mean to say is that i can bring something up and not have the time to say it all, or the interest of the other person to listen; wait; then let me finish my thoughts, and then actually want a response from them. i often find myself wanting someone to just listen to me go on and on, and most ppl can't stand that or can't stay on the same topic i want to talk about. if i ever do find myself with someone who will let me talk, i'm so conditioned to change the subject for fear that i'm bothering them and sub-consciously/consciously change the subject so i don't lose ppl in conversation.

i had no idea how to recruit "fans" or whatever lol. i had no idea who really wanted to read these blogs. i just find them fun--i'd like to think i'm funny sometimes and that people enjoy what i have to say, so that they can read into what i'm thinking about on their own time. i don't have to bother people with my existence in a conversation back and forth if they don't want to. if you can't stand my writing u can just click away. it's not a big deal. my whole thing is that if you really did want to respond, i'd be down to have a chat with you. i feel satisfied after getting this all out that i can decide to respond or not once i'm done because i've already gotten my thoughts out without being interrupted. you don't watch me type or see my edits, you only see the final product and that puts me at ease a bit. when i speak out loud, i typically say everything i'm thinking or not enough. often i say the wrong thing and people are quick to jump in and ask for clarification or even correct me. i'm not finished. many ppl aren't patient anymore and it's frustrating when my brain doesn't function the way most peoples brains do.

i think of something, then i think "why the hell did that pop into my head? what on earth is this related to?" trick question--its never related to anything most times. my brain just picks up on slight things in my environment and misconstrues them as something relevant to some memory and brings one up, or comes up with something new. i'd assume most people think like that. i just don't know how to explain that to ppl in conversation when were talking about one thing, or we're not talking at all and i just bring something up. that's when it makes sense to me. typically i think of everything at once so it's all relevant to me.

i like this shark. going in circles endlessly in one small space. he knows he can't go anywhere, but maybe he likes it. it's safe, reliable, and cushiony. i put the shark here for our entertainment, but i wont release him (cuz i will forget) but he shall remain happy or maybe he's hitting his head against the walls, thinking "when will she stop yapping" idk.

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im sweating like a madwoman. make it stoppppp. i was trying to experiment by not wearing deodorant/antiperspirant to see if it was all in my head and it is not. it's quite real and i hate it. i hate sweating so much. i don't sweat in my hands or back. just my armpits and private bits (it's really just my thighs lol). i wanna lose weight tbh. i hate my thighs rubbing together, it hurts when i'm wearing shorts and they just slide up and chafe. ugh i get so uncomfortable thinking about it. also my body just gets hot. it's just so annoying. i feel like this hyperhydrosis condition really spiked when i entered college. that's when i really noticed it first a least. my mom has it and i've been trying all different deodorants and antiperspirants with her, but i still sweat regardless. i think she said some work for her for a bit, but then don't again. i think lumē worked for her but just smells weird. who knows. maybe i'll try mens deodorant or antiperspirant. i don't want to throw out my current one cuz yk, money, but it ain't working...

idkkkkk.

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in the time i've written this, the charger still isn't working and even when i hold down the power button there's no response from my conputer to even tell me it's dead. i'm concerned but still couldn't care less. its not fanning bc i let it stop before it turned off. i think it just died and this charger isn't working. i sure hope it works when i get home tho. fuck this shit.

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this body positivity movement related to hair on women is progressing more i think. i haven't researched it or anything, but i notice more ppl than i did before who seem female presenting or have feminine features to have body hair and i love to see it. it's still very scarce, but this is only one place in the world. ofc my hometown there's like no one and my mother makes fun of me all the damn time, so i never forget it. i just wish it didn't look so bad. like i don't care about it cosmetically in the sense that women shouldn't have it cuz it looks bad or cuz its not feminine, but i just don't think it ever matches my outfits. it pisses me off kinda. i don't feel like i give off hairy vibes. maybe i do. those aren't the vibes i wanna put out there. but see in that mindset, i'm stereotyping myself and still have the same schema. "what they're wearing is weird that doesn't match what i assume their style is!" type shit. i don't enjoy this mindset and it comes along with other stereotypical, generalizing mindsets i still have from growing up and am still trying to eradicate, but dang its hard.

i also study peoples behavior and people watch to learn and copy whats socially acceptable. so believe me when i say, it's fucking hard having hairy legs when it's still not common everywhere i go. it's kind of a fucking nightmare sometimes. and i know i sound like "oh, woe is me!" and sometimes i do feel like that, but its because i don't see enough representation--thats another reason why i do it. my real reason is that i don't care to keep up with shaving and i don't want to do it bc i feel like i have to. i don't feel like i want to, so i just don't. if one day i wake up and feel like shaving, then damnit i will. but i don't need anyone's approval or advice on it. i'm angry bc of what my mother says to me, so this is mainly directed towards the comments she's made, and my father, hell, both of em. i'm not taking this outta thin air. there are ppl attacking me, it's my family...

that's the funny thing. i haven't gotten any backlash from a single other person. funny... if they keep it to themselves, wonderful! i honestly don't care what they think, but do care that they are being considerate.

anyshways, thats why i don't love socks that pull on the hair and why i feel awkward in tank tops and short shirts cuz i still haven't gotten over the socially different part yet. this is revolutionizing for me even if it isn't for anyone else.

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if you actually read everything so far, you're cool, but if you're at the end and readin this, you're still cool but u just don't know what i said. i'll sum it up for you-

tdlr (i hate myself):

- computer bout to shit itself

- i have social anxiety and am a clinical yapper

- computer still boutta die

- ahh scary! hair on woman!!

youre here now.

yipee!!

i'll try to post Tuesdays through Thursdays i have decided. try to check then if u can....

love yall,

kD :p

[punk-o-ween]

oh. my god. my brain chemistry is completely altered from this movie WOW. spoilers for kpop demon hunters below cut, this is a review

tagging @scary-friend specifically since theyre the bestie that got me to watch <3 what would i actually do without you

first off before i review, i just wanna say THIS is what animated movies should be. i hate the fact that this was a netflix movie only. i can just imagine all the people that wouldve been so happy to see this in theatres on the big screen, especially in imax/dolby where you can hear the music and see the visuals so clearly and beautifully. thats the one thing i hate about our digital age is that a lot of the breathtakingly stunning movies are hid behind a subscription wall but all the lackluster movies are put into theatres and we wonder why ppl dont go to the movies anymore like before. 😭 kpop demon hunters was AMAZING and i wish i couldve seen this in theatres… now onto the actual review ^^

at first i wasnt going to watch this movie. i honestly thought it was just going to be the average movie that everyone was a fan of at the moment (im one of those petty ppl whos like “oh well its popular so i mean ehh idk if imma watch 😓” but this movie was SO MUCH MORE and it had such a beautiful message to it

i first wanna talk about the characters though and how each one of them was introduced because it definitely sets up the whole movie in general. i loved all of them! especially zoey, i relate with her a lot 😅 i also liked how the saja boys in their boy band state were designed because they looked EXACTLY like those usual kpop boy bands you see where theyre all bright and colourful and i liked that detail. also can we make a bobby fan club bc i love him 💔💔 plus… ill hear yall out on literally everyone yall r simping for. idk the fandom but im LISTENING. my bi panic was all over the place LOL

secondly i just wanna say the music was BEAUTIFUL, especially the one rumi and jinu sang together when they met up towards the middle of the movie where rumi was talking about how she finds her voice when she’s with him. absolute FUCKING cinema witnessed in front of my big brown eyes i felt like i was seeing light LMAOO !!! you KNOW a movie is gonna be a fucking banger when they make their OWN soundtrack and not have too many bigger/huge artists just come together to make one like many other animated movies do. like yeah we got twice (MY OG POOKIES) but thats like the only people ive seen so like… POINT STILL STANDS. takedown? BANGER. golden? BANGER. how its done? BANGER AFTER BANGER AFTER BANGER /ref . everyone who worked on musical compositions n lyrics n melodies n ofc the people who actually sung them all should get like 50 grammys each deadass

thirdly idk what it is about cultural magical movies but im absolutely sat for everyone they come out with. this movie reminded me of turning red in the best way possible, both movies show that once you accept who you are and when you stop hiding your true self, you’ll be happier in the end with people who actually love you and care for you because of who YOU are, not how you made urself out to be and i love that. i enjoyed learning a bit more about korean culture while watching this movie and im ngl it makes me wanna pick up a book to learn the language (knowing id flop LMFAO) but whatever it was just BEAUTIFUL i loved the theme and messages from how magical and cultural everything was

im ngl though, i feel like this movie couldve did better with cleaning up the story because for a moment i was a bit overstimulated like WOAH the movie just started i barely know abt these demons yet and we get hit with “OKAY WELL RUMI IS ONE!!!” LIKE HUH 😨!!!! but i feel like that was the only problem i had with the whole movie, the rest was excellent and honestly i would watch this again! i also wish this movie was a series rather than a movie. i feel like so much more couldve gotten explained thru seasons and i wouldve loved for this to be like the new miraculous ladybug where they get into some shenanigans and fight off baddies. love those kinda shows idc idc 🙏 and i also absolutely wish this movie was around back in like 2018-2020 when a lot of movies like this were coming out and when kpop was literally at its peak due to bts and blackpink (who i was a BIG fan of at the time) and i wouldve been SO insane for this movie if it came out back then but i digress. 😅

overall id give this movie a 9.5/10 and as i said in the beginning i absolutely wish this movie came out in theatres so i couldve seen it on the silver screen instead of on my sticky slimy finger ridden apple pencil damaged blurry ahh ipad (LMFAO) but whateves that was just overall a gorgeous gorgeous film and i highly recommend watching it 🫶🫶

[pastelpousay]

That anon was a total moron. They call themselves normal when they’re literally a tumblr user lmao. Like we tumblr ushers are not normal that’s why we’re on tumblr 😂

Like I’m anti-proship and all that’s stuff too and I genuinely don’t see anything wrong with your self ship with Hades! There’s nothing controversial about Rina and Hades! I mean Rina is 25 so…idk what they were talking about fr. I self shipped with older dudes when I was 15 too (of course I did the same thing you do by making the ocs legal lmao) 😂 I think we’ve ALL been guilty of that I mean look at those “I was sold to One Direction” fics on Wattpad back in like 2014 😂 Legit I self ship with dudes old enough to be my grandad like c’mon dude! Nearly half of tumblr ships themselves with old men lmao its what we’re all about 🤣

As long as the character isn’t a p*do or doing in*est stuff or horribly illegal stuff or stuff like that then you go for it! Hades literally a Disney villain like the most controversial thing he’s done is try to kill baby Herc lmao and he didn’t even succeed in that lmao, that god is just a big ol hotheaded dork lmao! Idk if that anon was an adult or not, but they should be ashamed if they were. The older self ship community should be looking out for the younger ones too! I think Rina and Hades are adorable! Keep up the awesome art and writing!!! I’m glad you didn’t let that anon get to you! Good job standing up for yourself! ☺️💕 (and sorry if this came off as weird! 😅😅 I wasn’t trying to be! I was just saying I did the same thing when I was a teen so I know how it is lol)

HIHI ANA!! DW YOU DIDNT COME OFF AS WEIRD AT ALL WHAT YOU SAID WAS VERY SWEET AND SO SO TRUTHFUL!!!💗

ALSO YES LITERALLY THE WORST THING HE DID WAS TRY AND KILL HIS NEPHEW LIKE WHAT AND IM ACTUALLY BAFFLED THEY HAD THE AUDACITY TO CALL HIM A “problematic character” 💀 LITERALLY WHAT CHAT?!? I HAD TO SIT THERE FOR A GOOD 5 MINUTES ACTUALLY PROCESSING THAT THROUGH WITHOUT LAUGHING MY ASS OFF 💀 NGL I THOUGHT IT WAS A PRANK AT FIRST. ALSO LITERALLY YES WHY ARE YOU GROUPING YOURSELF AS NORMAL YOUR ON TUMBLR FIRST OF ALL SECOND IM ASSUMING THEYRE A SELF SHIPPER CUZ HOW ELSE WOULD THEY FIND MY ACC 😭 SO LIKE DUDE THATS BASICALLY A DOUBLE NEGATIVE TO BEING NORMAL MY GUY💀😭. I LITERALLY DONT KNOW WHY THEY HAD THE AUDACITY TO COME HERE WITH THIS “ur a proshipper 😿” BULLSHIT LIKE DUDE I LITERALLY MADE SURE RINAS BRAIN WAS FULLY DEVELOPED BEFORE I EVEN MADE LORE 💀😭 like yea it’s an age gap but like she’s literally a human and Hades is a whole ass god LIKE WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO😭 but ohhh when someone else ships themselves with Dracula it’s not a problem 💀. I WAS LOWK HOPING IT WOULD JUST BE ME THO THEY SENT THIS TOO CUZ IM A BIT CONCERNED LIKE WHAT IF THEYRE SPREADING HATE TO OTHER HADES SELF SHIPPERS OR LIKE OTHER SELF SHIPPERS IN GENERAL. I was honestly contemplating on deleting it but I’m too petty for that lmaoao ALSO THANK YOU SMM ILL BE SURE TO KEEP UP WITH ALL MY STUFF AND I WILL CONTINUE TO DRAW THEM SMOOCHING JUST TO PISS PPL LIKE THIS OFF 💪😼 It gives me life.

THANK YOU AGAIN ANA THIS WAS SO SWEET 💗 I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD DAYYY, NIGHT WHATEVER TIME IT IS IDK BUT YEA!! If this person comes in ur inbox dw 💪🐺 I’ll take care of them /j