thatonepersecutor

[thatonepersecutor]

hey systems I would advise you to keep a certain number of things out of your bio because OSDDID inherently says a lot about your past and triggers so there are certain details only your close friends should know, and not just anyone perusing the internet

your age - predators are more than happy to fake their age to match yours. Being young and plural are unfortunately traits prone to manipulation

your headcount - aside from assholes fakeclaiming you, people can take it and use it against you.

who your trauma holders are, and, more generally, the roles of your alters. it's basically telling abusers who to target and who to avoid

any information about your littles whatsoever. For all the world knows, you have none. same with who age regresses.

any system descriptors beyond DID/OSDD1/PDID/etc. the internet does not need to know if you have complex DID or something like that; it's your trauma.

what your triggers are. people will try to trigger you on purpose. this includes front triggers

all your other disorders, particularly personality disorders - abusers can try to make you dependent, "favorite" them, avoid others, etc.

These aren't rules, and there are obviously different situations that call for different levels of privacy. Just use your judgment: who can see this? anyone who came across my blog or people I friended on simply plural? trusted friends on simply plural? Systems are very vulnerable to further abuse because of their fragmentation and trauma mindsets. Don't let anyone take advantage of that.

[thatonepersecutor]

Just in case anyone wants to take part and has the time!

Study on Alter Relationships within DID/OSDD/UDD Systems

Hello! I’ve recently been interested in what way the relationships between alters in my system present, and so have decided to run a study to see how things are for other systems. I also wanted to research possible factors behind why relationships between alters differ between systems, so I thought this study could provide some interesting information on the DID/OSDD community generally.

All responses are 100% confidential, and there’s a longer informed consent statement which you’ll see before you start the study. It should take no longer than 5-10 minutes.

People who are eligible to take part in the study:

- DID/OSDD/UDD and other traumagenic systems. (You do notneed to be diagnosed, self diagnosed systems may take part.)

- Systems who apply to the above but do not have romantic or familial relationships in their system (Your response is still valuable!)

People who are NOT eligible to take part in the study:

- Endogenic systems or other system types who do not consider themselves to have DID/OSDD/UDD. (This is a study on how these relationships manifest in DID/OSDD/UDD specifically.)

- Anyone else who does not have DID/OSDD/UDD.

- Systems who do not have any knowledge on the relationships between their alters. (You may not be able to answer the required questions.)

I would really appreciate as many responses as possible, so I can have a big enough data set to draw some theories, so find the link below:

Even if you’re not eligible for the study, I would greatly appreciate any reblogs so that as many people as possible can take part.

I don’t have any set time for the study to close yet, but am aiming for at least 150-200 responses before it does. Stay tuned for any updates on that.

[thatonepersecutor]

Why we celebrate Alters birthdays and why that's important to us:

Why do alters have birthdays?

Not all alters have birthdays, and those who do either formed with their birthdays or chose a date to represent their birthday. An alter's birthday might be an important date to them such as a trauma date, the date they were created or a date from their own memories. Regardless of whether the date was consciously chosen or came automatically as that alter formed it may be important to that alter to celebrate.

Why is it important, for us at least, to celebrate an alters birthday?

Birthdays in general are a day to celebrate that person. So for someone who works hard to help support and help the function of a traumatised system, this day is especially important to recognise the hard work they do to help the system in whatever way that may be.

Whilst also helping to recognise and appreciate the alter, it can also help further with internal relationships, communication and even help alters with specific roles (such as persecutors) to feel welcomed in the system.

Furthermore it can be a day for an alter to have entirely to them, to front and be able to express themselves in their own way. It could be a way for an alter to spend time with their loved ones and create positive memories in an alter who is severely traumatised.

There are many benefits to celebrating an alters birthday where possible and we actually recommend it! As a persecutor, it's helped me calm down and recognise that I'm wanted and needed in the system as much as everyone else. It's helped me to feel appreciated, and just that has helped me to open up in therapy, work towards healthier coping mechanisms, and communicate with my system in a healthier and safer way.

[thatonepersecutor]

if I see people mix up fusion and integration one more time…

INTEGRATION IS WHEN YOU LOWER AMNESIC AND COMMUNICATION BARRIERS BETWEEN ALTERS THIS IS A GOOD THING AND YOU SHOULD BE WORKING TOWARDS THIS NO MATTER YOUR RECOVERY GOAL

FUSION IS WHEN 2+ PARTS BECOME ONE PART

THESE WORDS ARE NOT INTERCHANGEABLE THEY MEAN COMPLETELY DIFFERENT THINGS

[thatonepersecutor]

So sick of the mental health services in the UK. Its shit.

Got misgendered, gaslit, invalidated and then spoken to like a child in the span of a 5 minute phone call with a "mental health specialist".

Actually gonna fucking scream.

[thatonepersecutor]

harsh fucking reminder that telling someone they're "too young" to have the disability they have does not change the fact they have it. mind your own damn business.

sincerely, a teen with arthritis.

[thatonepersecutor]

Really not doing good atm, my ed is kicking my ass, I'm dissociated asf all the time and we keep having nightmares.. I hate this

[thatonepersecutor]

Final fusion is valid

Functional Multiplicity is valid

Not wanting therapy is valid

Not being ready for recovery is valid

Wherever you are in your system journey, you are valid. And whatever recovery goal you want or even don't want, you're valid!

Let's not berate other systems for the way they choose to heal ♥︎

[thatonepersecutor]

When the dissociative amnesia dissociates a little too hard

[thatonepersecutor]

Sometimes blurry means there's too many near front to figure out who is in control

Somtimes blurry means we don't feel like anyone at all

Sometimes blurry means we're someone, but they're new or unknown so we can't tell

Sometimes blurry means there's a mix of a few of us and it's easier to just say we're blurry

Sometimes blurry means we're so dissociated we can't process who we are at all

[thatonepersecutor]

This!! We've had people grab our wheelchair, lean on our wheelchair or attempt to push our wheelchair without our consent. It feels so invasive and offensive, like just don't do it?

disabled people aren't overreacting when we get angry and defensive if you grab our aids without our permission. those are extensions of our bodies. if you've touched my white cane or my friend's oxygen tanks or someone's wheelchair or AAC device without our permission then you've touched or grabbed us without permission. it's not overreacting to defend yourself when part of your daily life involves people invading your personal space and grabbing you and your aids without caring what you want

[thatonepersecutor]

i thought you were based but you put non-trauma related systems and transmedicalists both in the dni list

both viewpoints use the same medicalist logic that causes real harm

Let me make this real simple. Trans people without dysphoria aren't doing anything wrong, aren't inserting themselves into a disabled community they fundamentally do not understand.

"non traumagenic system" is an oxymoron that describes a group of people bullying their way into a community of disabled people, who then cry ableism of all things after explicitly defining themselves as not disabled.

Goodbye.

[thatonepersecutor]

Does anyone else hate that DID/OSDD is glorified so much online? Like I hate this condition. I want my own life and my own body. I despise being part of a system. Seeing someone else in the mirror is terrifying and upsetting. Our body looks nothing like me and I hate it. And don't even get me started on all the PTSD and DPDR symptoms.

Like yes please show the positives to being a system and please show that you CAN be happy and function well as a system. I just feel like it's made out to be a mockery a lot online and it really infuriates me.

(NOTE: This is not hatred towards systems that find being a system helpful and/or enjoy being a system, you're valid! I'm just rambling)

[thatonepersecutor]

The host has been struggling with a lot of PTSD symptoms lately so I've been fronting almost constantly. And our body hurts so much due to the chronic illness we have and I just don't wanna deal with this. Its making me snappy and annoyed.

[thatonepersecutor]

Resources we recommend to learn about Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) and Otherwise Specified Dissociative Disorder (OSDD):

YouTube:

Multiplicity And Me

Jess is now recovered from DID, but she has previously posted tons of educational videos on DID that are backed by studies and professionals. We recommend this channel to systems and to professionals wanting to learn more in depth detail about not only DID, but communication with the system, alter roles and internal relationships.

Websites (UK):

The NHS website

DID-research.org

Mind

Whilst I know we don't have a lot of resources, these are the places in which we have learned about DID. With both MultiplicityAndMe and DID-research sourcing their information from research papers, the DSM and ICD as well as professionals who specialise in trauma and dissociation, these are the sources of information we trust and recommend the most.

The NHS website and Mind do have information on dissociative disorders. Although this is just basic information and not in depth, it's still a good read if you need a basic definition of dissociative disorders and their symptoms.

If you have any more recommendations for YouTube channels that do educational videos on dissociative disorders (that are also backed by research papers & professionals), please feel free to recommend them, and we'll check them out!

[thatonepersecutor]

This is another reminder to not treat your persecutors like shit. No one can heal locked up and isolated. Give them the room to just exist and help guide them to better coping mechanisms. Show them some kindness. I'm tired of persecutors always being hated and feared and deemed evil. They're traumatized. Give them the space they need to learn and grow. Putting a plant in a smaller container away from water, light, and any interaction is gonna fucking kill it. But if you water it, put it in the sun, give it more room, talk to it, it'll grow and flourish. Give. Them. Room. To. HEAL.

Sincerely, an ex persecutor.

-Mocha

[thatonepersecutor]

Literally. I'm a 5'6" skinny cis guy and I'm in a taller, larger trans body. It's weird asf, I hate it.

one thing that I don’t see talked about often is headmates with different body types in the innerworld and how it can be difficult to adjust to the body

so here’s a shout out to:

alters that are plus sized within the innerworld but in a skinny body

alters that are skinny within the innerworld but in a plus sized body

alters with nonhuman features within the innerworld but in a human body

alters that are tall within the innerworld but in a short body

alters that are short within the innerworld but in a tall body

alters that have a different skin tone within the innerworld than the body

and anyone else I forgot!

I know that we aren’t actually how we see ourselves in the innerworld, though it can be a struggle to adjust to the body and come to terms with the fact that we are not how we perceive ourselves

(Endos and related, please do not interact)

-Arlene🪽🩵