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hate an x reader fic do not put me in a situation

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Ohhh so that's what that is (I didn't shame anyone just didn't feel like mine were valid and I was just being dumb)

Honestly the people who say cat scratches aren’t real sh are just projecting bc they don’t feel like their sh is valid

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good news i'm the most fuckable person at this vehicular manslaughter

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Anyone else after being in so many toxic relationships and then finally having semi good ones you either A) feel guilty like you don't deserve it or it's too good to be true

Or B) Want to be in a toxic relationship or bad headspace again?

I'm kinda feeling like I need something bad to happen to me rn. Shouldn't I be manipulated right now and in a bad headspace? Shouldn't I be thinking bad and hurting my brain thinking about it?

Like of course in my right mind I wouldn't go put myself in that situation I'm just worried what will happen if I'm not in the right headspace when something comes up...

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Real

Inside you there are two wolves…

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Honestly if I could do it all again I would.

I don't care about the trauma the abuse the yelling kicking screaming sleepless nights

I wanna be a kid again. I wanna go back IDC honestly just let me do it again maybe I could do it right and not fuck up shit and maybe even fix it.

I could helped more. Cleaned when my mom couldn't hid stuff that got me in trouble talked to people nicer be less stubborn.

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'this is bad'

'I want to feel good'

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vent

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- tw sexual content err language idk

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I know I'm not hypersexual because I'm not that sexual of a person. But I relate on the level of 'i v

Feel absolutely disgusting at any sexual feelings I have'

If I could never feel this way again I would. I feel shameful and gross. I'm like this the normal amount why do I hate it so much though? And why is this so hard to bring up anywhere? AND WHY IS THERE NO INFO ON IT!! I wasn't hurt or sa-ed or anything I just read Wattpad at like 11 and did shit on amino I wasn't supposed too.

I shouldn't be feeling this way??

I wanna tear apart my skin for even the sliver of a feeling.

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TW// vent

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Istg this is probably another weirdo anxious delusion or something, but my mom has been in the house all day I haven't seen her once. I haven't seen her once and now I'm scared in my own home because my stupid brain made me think that this isn't real and that if I go wake her up that it's not gonna be her sleeping there. I haven't seen her once today and I miss her I need to just see her with my own eyes she is in my house I have not seen her today I need to see her at least once omfg what if she isn't really there

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───⠀rakko pngs

all sourced from pinterest no need to credit me ,, f2u feel free to repost anywhere

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NGL kinda wanna crash out rn, I haven't done that since I lived with my step parents (they were strict) so like- do I break stuff and scream what do I do here?

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TW// MENTIONS OF GROOMING

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Maybe I'm being insensitive but as someone who HAS BEEN GROOMED BEFORE,

Why the ever living FUCK would anyone who hasn't experienced any form of it want it?? Like what the hell.

To me that just feels like either you got groomed and didn't realize it, heavily manipulated, or you just really want attention.

Sorry if this is offensive it's just REALLY hard to see that point of view of actively wanting to be groomed without any trauma of it happening to you?? If any of y'all wanna educate me on this your welcome too not trying to be rude might delete later idk

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People seriously underestimate the long term effects of constant loneliness

"why are you so weird?" Idk, maybe because being completely isolated while growing up has destroyed my brain and now I'm nothing more than a human-mimicking creature that bases all of my actions on what I think is normal human behavior rather than just doing things naturally