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no, because my first thought reading this was how saxon not getting that dog resulted in him subconsciously making lochlan his dog, taking care of and grooming him. so in the end, he did get what he wanted, and his parents actually unknowingly delivered it to him

As a child Saxon really wanted a dog, begged his parents for years. He pleaded and promised he’d take care of it himself. He begged and begged but Victoria didn’t like pets, too messy, eventually he gave up.

As a child Lochlan really wanted a pet of his own, but he knew not to ask.

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lochlan x saxon: 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘦𝘧𝘵 𝘶𝘯𝘴𝘱𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘯

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currently watching dd: born again and I just need them to hold each other and dry their tears and be the ones who understand where noone else can and-

— DAREDEVIL: BORN AGAIN | 1.04 Sic Semper Systema

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guess I really went and became a white lotus account for my beginnings on here, but I'm actually...in so many fandoms that I'm gonna start posting abt those, as well :)

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lochy is so desperate to please but Saxon is Also desperate to please. He wants Lochy to do everything he wants, yes, but he also is getting off on the fact that Lochlan enjoys it. He has nothing going for him but Lochlan disagrees, and that makes Saxon desperate to prove himself! Like i do genuinely believe, under all of the grooming and using lochlan for his own benefit, part of him wanted to make Lochy feel good. Part of him wanted to give lochy pleasure, and he wanted to see that in front of him (ie why he’s even there when Lochy loses his virginity)

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It's fun when Sax tops because I like when protein-chugging jocks pound adorable twinks, and it's fun when Lochy tops because I like when the aforementioned jocks cum so hard from a dick up their ass their entire world shifts.

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au where lochlan does actually die and we get to see saxon gently suffocating himself on lochy's old shirts while he humps the mattress and whimpers like a sick dog. for the culture.

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If it‘s not hitting the soul what‘s the point

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ultraviolence

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soulless finance bro i saw you yearning on the yacht while you watched your little brother fuck someone else while lowkey wishing it were you

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I love this sequence so much... The memory of the kiss being the only old scene in a list of new ones that happened that night, meaning it's not the Saxon of episode 6 randomly remembering it but the Saxon of that night thinking about it... The way that kiss is in between the scene of Saxon looking at Chloe kiss Lochlan and the scene of him with his eyes closed and then opening them to look at Lochy again... He's so down bad.

Also, sure there's disgust and confusion here but the fear? The fear is delicious. We get Saxon seeing his brother, remembering he looked at him making out and having sex with a woman while he himself thought abt their own kiss and jerked off to it all. Then Lochlan sits down and Saxon is so scared he's gonna bring it up but Lochlan's first words are "I don't remember anything.". In which Saxon plays right into. And then he remembers even more, him still jerking off and Lochlan seeming disburbed for a little second while looking at Saxon. Which makes Saxon throw up. It's not (just) about the incest from both sides happening or Lochlan being a boy. It's about his own actions, his own way of needing and wanting Lochlan.

(which makes their last real interaction even more fucked up with saxon blaming lochlan bc boy YOU KNOW DAMN WELL) (and the audacity to look at him when timothy talks about trauma like SIR YOU DID THAT YOURSELF)

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strangers

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funniest souvenir from this vacation by far is Saxon never being able to masturbate peacefully again. whenever he does he’s going to accidentally think of Lochlan right before the point of climax, but it will be brief enough that it doesn’t unsettle him too much, but then every year or so it’s gonna build up until he can’t stop himself from mentally going all in and furiously thinking of Lochlan the entire time and cumming so hard he nearly blacks out. and he loses sleep about it for at least a week, and this will be just one of many cycles always in rotation that’s gonna have them doing something insane and gay together every five years or so

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i haven’t talked abt it on here yet because i haven’t been ready to get into all that but i’ve been having some Big feelings about the white lotus season three (particularly the Strange way people were discussing the storyline + specifically lochlan’s character) and well there’s this substack essay analyzing some of the bigger picture consequences subconsciously learned conservative ideals can have… feel free to give it a read if that sounds like something that would interest you!

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you found it disgusting and immoral i found it sexy and arousing that’s why i’m happier than you

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Confidence, Loch. Okay, that's how you get people to do what you want.

insp. by this post by @amoresenza.