tinytulluk

[tinytulluk]

this

that struggle between wanting to be honest with your therapist but also not wanting to be declared mentally incompetent and forcibly imprisoned by the state

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why when i try to lose weight i don't see any results

but then, I try to recover and start eating more I lose weight

and then, it gives me motivation to go back to the edblr

I try to lose weight but don't see any results

but then, I try to recover...

and it goes on and on again, feeling like a Sisyphus

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When he thinks u dont want him going through your phone bc ur cheating but you just dont want him to find your edblr

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my mil noticed that i'm much thinner than i used to and tells me to eat more, so glad o don't see her much (even though she's a wonderful woman)

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i'm not listening to my body anymore she's a fat bitch

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me every 3 months ✌️

me returning to edblr after trying to recover 💀

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from 65 kg to 59 kg

I now don't feel the need to eat more than once a day

my stomach feels full after a few bites

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ppl who force me to aet at work are sooo annoying I just want to scream-

I KNOW I DIDN'T EAT TODAY, NO I DON'T WANT TO EAT NOW, NO I'M NOT GOING TO FAINT THANK YOU LEAVE ME ALONE

but I just say-"I'm not allowed to eat this due to medical reasons" or "I already ate"

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I’m tired and I want to snuggle and sleep but I also want to have sex for like three hours

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being thin but not skinny enough is so awful

like you are so close yet so far from being pretty

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even little portions of food make me feel guilt

even one meal a day make me feel awful

everytime I eat now I want to puke

I want to clean myself from food

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ate today-now I don't want anyone to see me, i want to shred my skin and leave just bones

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i was making a salad for myself and he said "do you really cook rn, you're going to eat?"

AND NOW I HATE MY BODY I HATE THAT HE SEES ME I HATE THAT HE SAID THAT BECAUSE NOW I FEEL LIKE SHIT

but it's okay, I wanted to ⭐️ve anyway so

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"do you live on tea and water"

it is bad that I liked that question, but still so glad he noticed and moreover glad he didn't insist on buying me food

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I was in recovery but now I feel like I need to in control of my own life and stop eat garbage food, I am so devastated that I put on more weight even though others still say that I look thinner than I used to I need to eat less

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i got bigger and now i want to end my life

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i'm so fucked up rn that when my bf said "i weighted my cat recently and she weights 3.5 kgs" and i litteraly thought wow goals 💀