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[vamp-luvr999]

I am suffering

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I think I might sign myself out of the psych ward. This place only makes me worse. Tomorrow my doctor is here so I’ll just sign the form. Worst case scenario: I end up in front of a judge with him telling me that I’ll be admitted to a state facility.

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Anyone else hate when other’s, close or not, try to convince you that you’re not weird/a freak/abnormal/etc. ??

Like, girl, I support the rehabilitation of paraphiles (yes, even those) into society and hospitals.

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They want to send me to a state hospital because of my many hospitalizations. I don’t want to go there. What if they never let me out

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I couldn’t, do it , sorry momma

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I can feel my heart beat pounding in my cheeks. I have to do it. I have to. I’m sorry. Life won’t get better, it wasn’t bound to get better for me. Whether I become paralyzed or I die, it’s all worth it in the end. If I can do it once, I can do it again .

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I’m so scared rn lol

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#On my way! To jump off a super high building lol

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Oh, they just abandoned me.

They don’t want me anymore.

[vamp-luvr999]

What did I do wrong? I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry

What the fuck am I supposed to be sorry for?

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I’m not really sure what I did wrong, but maybe I deserve it?

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Like always, imm the one in trouble. Always always always

I’m a trouble maker always

Never the good kid, no matter how hard I try

I’m always the brat

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She’s right. Nobody wants me. Not my mom. Not my sisters not my dad not my friends not my boyfriend

Nobody wants a washed up mentally ill loser like myself

Not even me

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I can’t even say this isn’t my fault, can’t even say I’m suicidal. Can’t even say that I don’t deserve this.

My tears mean absolutely nothing to anyone. I can cry and cry and cry and cry but they just think I’m a crybaby

I’m still a child.

Fuck being 18

I’m still a child

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I’m just having a bad day overall dude

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They done content labeled my most popular post, are you jerking me rn bro?????!!!!

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Why did I even decide to talk to them? Nothing good ever comes out of talking to them. I hate them. I hate them all.

I hope her heart attack gets worse, I hope his neuropathy gets bad, and I hope she kills herself.

You don’t deserve me.

I don’t want you.

Fuck you.