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"ew you like diet coke/diet pepsi/diet whatever???" i am a type one diabetic and sometimes i wanna have a pop without having to waste an expensive liquid that keeps me alive (insulin) leave me alone

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hey by the way non diabetics making jokes about diabetes isnt funny please stop

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hi reminder that the 4 textbook type 1 diabetes symptoms are:

frequent urination

extreme thirst

visible weight loss

tired

doctors often refer to them as the 4 t's (toilet, thirsty, tired, thinner)

BUT there is also:

irribility

blurry vision

slow healing wounds

extreme hunger

weight gain (i lost a lot of weight and then gained a lot of weight and then lost it again prior to being diagnosed)

dry mouth

dry skin

easier bruising (related to slow healing wounds)

if you have these symptoms. please. for the love of all things holy. please get it checked. undiagnosed and untreated type 1 can lead to MANY problems including death

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"can you go to the bathroom or somethign it's weird i dont wanna see it" okay but like. i could die. so fuck you nuh uh

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"why are you wearing an airpod case on your arm" what.

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hi todays shoutout goes to the type 1 diabetic high school students yall are so cool (i am you this shit sucks)

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hi this is what it’s like being a type 1 diabetic in high school.

people with a working pancreas (non-diabetics) go and get pens, pencils, new bag, cute little clothes, maybe some pastel highlighters to match their aesthetic. my version of back to school prep looks like i’m raiding the pharmacy like a raccoon in the night. snacks that are easy to carb count (because god forbid i pick something with no nutrition label and have to use my brain), snacks for lows, glucose tabs (aka overpriced chalk candy), juice boxes that live permanently in my bag like emotional support animals, glucose monitors, lancets, test strips, ketone strips, insulin, spare pump supplies if you’re on one… basically i don’t have a “backpack,” i have a portable ICU

then there’s actually being in school. my friends are worrying about math homework and if they studied enough. me? i’m sitting in the back of class like “okay my sugar is 300, i feel like a balloon animal that’s about to pop, do i correct right now and risk everyone staring at me while i stab myself or do i go to the bathroom and correct it there?” or the opposite: being low in the middle of writing an essay for english. my brain literally malfunctions like a corrupted file, my hands are shaky, i’m sweating, and i have to break out the glucose tabs while my classmates side-eye me like i just pulled out drugs

and it never stops. it’s constant. do i eat the cookie my friend offered me or do i spend the rest of the day on the blood sugar rollercoaster? do i take my supplies to the bathroom so nobody stares or do i just check in class and accept my fate as “that one diabetic kid”? do i raise my hand and say i need to leave because i’m going low, or do i sit there pale and twitchy hoping i don’t hit the floor before the bell rings? like yeah, everyone else is stressed about gym class, i’m stressed about whether my pump site will rip out mid-dodgeball game

and the mental load?? insane. people without diabetes don’t realize how much space this takes up in your brain. while they’re worrying about homework, i’m calculating carbs in the cafeteria, wondering if i have enough snacks to make it through the day, checking if i packed extra strips, worrying about my site adhesive holding up during gym, hoping i don’t run out of juice boxes, all while trying to look like i’m just a “normal student.” and then tests? don’t even get me started. if i’m high, i have to do long division with brain fog that feels like concrete. if i’m low, i have to either interrupt the test to save myself or risk literally fainting on the Scantron

and socially?? people stare. people comment. “oh i could never inject myself like that” okay thanks, but i have to or i die. “so you can’t eat sugar, right?” i am this close to eating a cupcake in front of you just to prove a point. teachers don’t always understand, so when i say “hey i need to go test” they act like i’m asking for a spa day. and god help me if someone cracks a type 2 diabetes joke because then i either have to give a TED Talk on the difference or just sit there stewing in rage

so while everyone else is planning their cute little first-day outfit and stocking up on pens, i’m planning whether i’ve got enough supplies to last through 7 hours without my body collapsing in front of 30 people. it’s not just “being in high school with diabetes,” it’s being in high school while also running a full-time job as my own pancreas

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"you arent trans youre just autistic" what.

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Now I am not safe with you, captain.

*gunshot* *scream* *fire alarms* *sobbing*

[vampfire1]

i need someone to fight me whenever i just throw my clothes on the ground

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as much as i love my bilingual/plyglot foxes, i do find it very amusing that most likely they all fucking suck at their secondary languages. they’re americans for fucks sake. I’ve seen the spanish they teach them, I probably am not crazy to think the twin’s german must be kinda shitty, especially if they only took it to get an easy A in highschool. it may get better as they practice with Nicky (bc i feel like Nicky must be better at it; german boyfriend and all) but at the same time they use it to communicate in specific situations so idk how much practice theyre actually getting in. I’ll give kevin and his japanese and french grace bc im going to assume both jean and riko would not let him get away with bastardizing their languages. neil im undecided on, could truly go either way.

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"you talk too much about your mental illnesses you're probably faking it" what

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"you're being annoying" okay well you're also being annoying AND making me feel like shit for being disabled so! fuck you!

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"you're not disabled you just experience episodic paralysis" what.

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school starts soon time to reread all of aftg in 5 days and cry because school should Not start at 8 in the morning

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"you aren't native you have blonde hair and green eyes and you're pale" bbg im. literally. mixed.

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hey by the way. as someone with multiple chronic illnesses and disabilities. yall arent funny for making jokes about chronic illnesses and disabilities if you don't have them. your seizure jokes ARENT FUCKING FUNNY. seizures are scary and they can kill you and my first seizure gave me a tbi. that's terrifying. do i joke about having epilepsy sometimes? YES! because that's how i cope! if you have seizures, go ahead and fucking joke about it, but if you dont, you need to shut the fuck up.

ALSO if you think that non epileptic seizures are worse than epileptic seizures i hope you explode! i've experienced both, they are both horrifying. yes, non epileptic seizures are often harder to diagnose because the cause isn't as obvious. i lost conciousness, have full body muscle spasms AND stiffening (it depends entirely on the seizure), bite my tongue, piss myself, brain fog and fatigue are so bad i can't think, but sometimes they're just absence seizures (which are harder to notice because they can look like zoning out). they're both bad, and they can both lead to horrible outcomes (including death and severe injuries). stop comparing them.