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update:

i’m coming out as non-binary. i feel most comfortable this way. i managed to get another crush somehow but i know it’ll just make me sad. oh well i guess.

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wait is it normal for your friends to say “hey whatever your name is i don’t even know anymore hahaha” because that’s what they do to me, and when i ask to be called a certain name they groan and they tell me i should just choose. is that normal or do i have bad friends?

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the power went out at my house because of a storm :/

this week has been an emotional wreck and i don’t know why maybe the universe still things it’s 2019 or something

i hope next week is better

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I AM HEATED GEKAKDKSKDJ

okay so at school i told my guy friend that i was late on my period and last month i started started on the seventh and today’s the eighth so i’m late and he had the NERVE to tell ME THAT I WOULD START TOMORROW BECAUSE OF LEAP YEAR i was so mad like who says that to someone so i told him that’s not how it works and he said “well don’t come crying to me when you’re bleeding tomorrow” like WTF HDJSKDJSH he’s said stupid things like that before i’m ready to drop him

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this is about an amazing dream i had

i had a wonderful dream that i could sing. and my school was doing a musical of my favorite musical ever, the phantom of the opera, and since i could sing in the dream, i auditioned for christine’s role and i got it! i was so happy! then it came time for me to preform and i did amazing! everyone was saying i did a good job and even teachers were telling me that! i had never been so happy. then i woke up. i cried for a little bit cause i wish it was real. i wish i could sing. i wish i had a talent in genral. but, i don’t and i need to accept it. it felt nice to dream though :)

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so i’m at the doctors today and as soon as i walked in i saw a classmate of mine. he’s in band with me and in spanish class. he’s a pretty fun guy and his girlfriend is pretty annoying. she’s on the dance team and in show choir. i had a crush on him last year but that quickly went away. it’s just weird seeing at the doctors office. we made eye contact for a second and then we pretended like we didn’t know each other, it’s probably for the best. i hope my mom doesn’t see his band hoodie on and go “oh you’re in band like my daughter!” ugh that would be so embarrassing. anyway there’s a guy who likes me but i don’t like him. he dated two of my friends. i also had a crush on him last year. there’s a dance coming up this friday and and i am a little nervous about it. that’s about all, byee :)

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honestly i don’t really know anymore

do i want to know?

how many times do i have to come out before i can actually feel like myself?

i’m not sure

i think i may be genderfluid and bisexual so i hope everyone accepts me

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tonight was my last football game to play at. next year i’ll be in high school so i’ll have to march with normal/soprano clarinet instead of bass. i didn’t realize how fun these games were until this one tonight. we finally got to play word up, it’s one of our stan tunes. i’m gonna miss the football games at simmons. now that this is all over, i want to cry because i’ll have go back home and stay in my room. i’ll have to sit there, knowing how lonely i am and how i don’t really have any true friends. i don’t really have anyone. well thanks for letting me vent :)

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you know that feeling when you just know you’re gonna be alone forever and no one is ever gonna love you cause like same

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i like a guy

long story short i’m gonna end up getting my hopes up (which i already have) and then my heart is gonna break (it’s already started)

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i don’t really know what to type today, nothing interesting in my lesbian world has been happening. my dad told me to never get with a guy until i’m 30, little does he know..hehe

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when you’re too scared to say no to a girl that you thought cared about you :’)

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mood rn

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i met a girl and i liked her for a little bit. I thought we could be something lmao

she kept saying she would wait as long as she needed to to be with me and then she said that she didn’t want to be with me because she wanted to keep me safe?? i don’t know i’m confused and i miss her for some reason i’m just dumb i guess

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i’m starting to feel like i don’t like T anymore. i don’t know why. maybe it’s because i know she doesn’t like me. maybe i just realized it would never happen. what ever it is, i guess i don’t have a crush anymore. oh well 🤷‍♀️

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i’m crying while listening to dear evan hansen. i hope one day i’ll be found, i don’t want to be alone. it scares me. i hope there’s a reason for me to believe i’ll be okay but i’m not really sure. i’ll be okay by morning though. i’ll tell myself that anyway.

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today was okay i guess. it wasn’t the worst day but it also wasn’t the best. i was still really sad but i got to talk to T more which made me happy. i still barely ate today which doesn’t matter. oh well i guess