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I hate myself

Today my partner told me that they don’t find me attractive. I knew they had some questions about themselves and what they find appealing in a relationship, so I asked some clarifying questions.

Eventually we got to the question of “Do you lack all romantic/sexual attraction, or is it just me?” And the response I got was “Just you.” I’ve always been very self-conscious about my body, and we’ve talked about whether or not my body bothered them, and they’ve always assured me that my body was fine.

There was also a comment made about how they really only sleep with me to satisfy a need, not because they love me.

We live together, so it’s not like we can just avoid each other. We’ve been together for years and they’re just now saying something. I feel disgusting and used.

Maybe if I was skinnier things would be different. Maybe if I was prettier or more handsome they’d actually like me. I wish I hadn’t given them so much of myself. All that time and energy, the hours I spent reassuring them or comforting them, the things I went out of my way to do just so they would be comfortable was wasted on someone who used me to satisfy a need.

I feel sick. I hate who I am, and I hate my body. I hate everything about myself.

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Tattoos & Thinspo

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I’m back on my bs. I got better for a while, but I’m back now. Honestly, I don’t really care if anyone sees this blog, I just need a place to put all my thoughts and/or progress.

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I know I don’t post much anymore but my inbox is always open if you need someone to talk to

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I made the mistake of talking to a therapist about my eating habits and now I have to find a way to defend not eating for two days and then eating my entire kitchen

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realising i'm the fattest one in my class

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I was sitting down to my only meal of the day (2 slices of toast) when I mentioned that my stomach hurt (because I ate cheese when I’m lactose intolerant) and my brother said “it’s because you’re always eating”.

So I purged dinner.

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Dunno if anyones interested but heres this

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Im done being fat.

Im delcaring war upon myself.

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flower thinspo 

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Life hack:

You cant eat after getting a tongue piercing.

Instead of binging for the tenth time this month i went and got my tongue stabbed and now i cant eat. Yay

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Sweater thinspo

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Reblog this If: You’re ashamed of your weight Youve been called fat before You have thought of killing yourself You have self harmed You are trying to lose 10+ pounds

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dreaming of the day...🤍☁️