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Your emotions are the culprit of the way your life turns out. Of how you perceive it to be. Don’t let them get lost.

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"Get over it"

Right. Didn’t cross my mind.

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You belittled me. By you I mean you made me do it myself. Not that it’s your fault. I should’ve known better. I should’ve known myself better than to give into this.

You’re not really at fault here, right?

I did it to myself surely, but to be in that position you’ll never experience.

You know why?

You’re the guy that loves too much in appearences. You’re the guy who makes it it’s duty to fix. You’re the guy who takes my words and twist them to your advantage. You’re the guy who takes the insecurties I confided in you and turns them against me. You’re the guy I thought really wanted to help me, but again you’re the fixer. You needed to be. You needed to remind me that I couldn’t do it without you. That without you I would drown.

The thing is. I told you this.

Those were my words in a moment of weakness. Where you broke us is the moment you decided that you wouldn’t help me help myself. You took ownership of the solution. Presented it like a drug that can’t be replaced. That’s where you tried to take me away from myself. That’s the moment I knew it wasn’t us anymore, it was just you. You and a twisted savior complex that would only bring you pride, not love. A little project you needed to be accomplished. That’s where the love left. That’s where I left.

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"It's one of my theories that when people give you advice, they're really just talking to themselves in the past."

Lunas-worlds-blog

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Love isn’t easy to describe. It can exist in so many ways. Sometimes two people can feel it in different ways. In different levels maybe. However, those different ways always end up crossing paths and sometimes interfering with one another. So then it ends. The love goes another way. And those crossed paths never shall cross again. Short story with a deeply sad simplicity.

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If you find a little self-love you’ll stop sabotaging yourself over love you think you don’t deserve.

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We were supposed to be done. That’s life. It happened. Let it be that way.

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Being tough is tiring, but being soft is heartbreaking.

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She’s kinda weird in her head; the kind of messy you cannot untangle

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Am I going to paradise for having carried hell in my head?

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It’s frustrating how you’re able to let things go. To make the better choice for yourself. Like a fool I’ve offered you your way out. Without thinking for a second that you would be capable of taking it. But just like that, you grabbed it. Like an apple out of a tree. And casually walked away with it.

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I sometimes want to get out of my skin and dissolve into billion of butterflies in a very Tarkovskian way

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When Anaïs Nin said “I don’t want worship. I want understanding,” and when George Orwell said “Perhaps one did not want to be loved so much as to be understood,” and when Marina Tsvetaeva said “In my early childhood, for as long as I can remember, I thought that I wanted to be loved. Now I know and tell everyone: I don’t need love, I need understanding.”

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Virginia Woolf, Between the Acts.

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leave a toxic relationship and fall back in love with yourself

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I hate that social media has created this environment where, if you aren’t talking about or posting something online, people assume it doesn’t exist. Even including your personality. Some stuff is just personal and so much goes on behind the scenes, I don’t need to bait my whole life out and reveal every thought and opinion just to ‘prove’ to randoms that I’m an interesting person and that I’m doing something with my life. Like who am I trying to impress? Who am I living for, you or me? If you wanna know who I am then talk to me, don’t think you know me cos you follow me on social media lool

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