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I haven’t even thought about opening this app for so long because I’ve been with my friend and even though that meant being happy that also meant a lot of food but now I’m back because I have a concert at the end of the month that I have to choose an outfit for and right now it’s baggy jeans and hoodie because I don’t want anyone to see me🤢🤢

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Moots?

Sure :))

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But also seeing them fade makes me want more I just wish they weren’t keloids tfffff

My scars are so ugly that it makes me want to cut more when will it end

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My scars are so ugly that it makes me want to cut more when will it end

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Why can't I look like this😭

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I didn’t want to eat until 5pm and I didn’t but now I feel so nauseous I don’t know if this was better or just hunger.

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How to turn a junkorexic into an orthorexic ?

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Using Gabbriette as motivation because we’re the same height and similar body type

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I was so excited for Christmas and now I’m not at all i don’t want to be alive that long ughhh

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I only live for my mother and my cat and my best friend. I don’t want my future because I’m too scared because I know it’s not good. I don’t want any part of it. I have to be skinny or I have to kms and that’s that.

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I’ve never recovered or healed or gotten better I’ve just distracted myself enough to not think about things as much and pretend it was okay.

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I want to rip my skin off I don’t want to be hereeee I hate being me I wish I was somebody else so bad if I wasn’t in this body with this brain everything would be perfect the fact things will never change is what makes me want to die

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I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full. I hate the feeling of being full.

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PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

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Just want to live alone so I can have what I want in my fridge and not be questioned all the time on if I ate and what I ate and why aren’t I eating and if I’m going to eat.

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Had a dream I got sectioned (a big fear) for attempting too many times and refusing to eat and a dream that was just me trying to kill myself in different ways and failing.

Damn bitch how suicidal are you💀

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About to buy low cal snacks and Coke Zero and maybe some monsters I’m about to lock innnn just wait until my mom goes back to work next week it’s on.