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Im gonna write something controversial abt pre t trans guys that are into men and dating cis men at that time where they are pre t.

As a pre t trans guy who as of now has only dated cis ppl (one cis girl (i was in highschool back then I'm not calling her a girl cus of the use of sexist language where women are deemed girls), and 2 cis men) i fully understand the whole "you arent making that cis'het' man gay, he thinks hes making you into a woman" and in many situations this can be the case. Oftentimes however people are blatantly biphobic in this rhetoric and will call any cis man dating a trans man hetero (which is actually also just transphobic)

I also think we should understand that not everyone's attractions are the same. Some people have genital preference and others have physical appearance preference. The person i am dating at the time is into my current physique. To him genital preference isnt a thing, nor is clothing expression, its mainly physique+personality, he likes people with certain physiques whether they are trans or cis, male, female or nonbinary.

Because i know who i am, and have no doubts about myself, i allow myself fluidity. I dont fear changing and i believe certain people that like certain bodies will find themselves more attracted to me. Im not a transmedicalist btw, i think misgendering someone because they "dont present the 'right' way" is BAD.

I don't feel weird if a lesbian is into me or if a hetero man is into me. I can't change someone else's attraction to me. My biggest annoyance with this is when i see people talking about dating a bi person and them asking "okay but are they attracted to me because i look like this", cus what does it matter? Why does this only matter with cis people? Trans people are just as capable of invalidating your gender.

To end my rant: i fully understand many very young people especially early in their transition (as in discovery wise, i don't see medical transition as the only transition) will sometimes change to fit their partner and there are genuinely men out there whose entire thing is wanting to "fix" trans people.

Warning (baby) trans folks about this is 100% necessary, however not all cis men are this. Find people that care for YOU, listen to your boundaries, wants and desires. It doesn't matter if they're cis or trans, oftentimes it's easier to find people who have deconstructed certain beliefs when they are trans, but it's not a certainty. The same way theres cis folks who have done the work.

Okay rant over

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This week in Amsterdam is refugee welcome week btw!

Go and cheack out the calendar

https://www.refugeewelcomeweek.nl/

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A powerful and peaceful statement calling for justice, humanity, and an immediate end to the genocide against Palestinians. Grateful to have captured this historic moment from above. ❤️🇵🇸

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Had a constructive conversation in a tiktok comment section for the first time in my life i believe, got a little too confident and then immediately found someone saying the most braindead simple comment with "hope that helps" at the end at a different comment i posted

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job search

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Ik heb zo lang gewacht tot ik deze meme kon maken

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One of the things that made me laugh a lot abt Abbott elementary was that they spend an entire episode being pro strike, pro union, talking about how messed up crossing the picket line is, that scabbing is bad, and then have amazon packages as product placement

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My favourite thing to do in the sims3 is to create queer sims that would be a huge discourse online, but theyre just living their cool fun sims life. I just made a lesbian couple where one sim is a fat trans girl with a flat chest who does no makeup and has a fuckass bob, and her girlfriend is a historical fashion fan femme on T who loves wearing low cut tops with her hairy chest. They also have two cats called EvilWizard and i forgot the second cats name

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Was shadowing at a bakery today and it was so chaotic... The guy i was shadowing was braiding Challah but he went way too fast💀 he was like "yea this other person i showed who was a pattisier and went to school for baking immediately understood" and im just like... Can you pls just do it a lil slower, ive never gone to baking school.... They wlso apparently didnt have breaks during their 8hr shift so im not sure if i rlly wanna do this...

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So. The point of Severance isn’t to create perfect workers is it. It’s to create a world where humans never have to have any unpleasant experiences. Because their innies are doing it for them. That’s why they can’t think of innies as humans. Because then you realize……that you’re torturing people.

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I dont know if this is anything, but did Mark W calling Milchick, "Milkshake" not also feel like a micro-aggression at first? It was kind of confusing to me because how and why would an innie be racist, specifically this slightly more "subtle"/very specific form of it?

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I find it so funny that everybody mentions that Milchick lied about the waterfall (likely something he was told to mention by Lumon), but nobody ever mentions him for literally NO reason telling iMark to compliment Cobel's office. He probably had already heard her complain about it that day too.

I'm not sure if he tried to actually make her feel less uncomfortable with the office or if he purposefully set iMark up to fail. Personally i like to interpret it as him (like his many attempts) trying to brighten a mood and miserably failing

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One thing i find interesting about the break room in season 1 is that it is not just a punishment for the innies, but also seems like an awful task for Milchick, as if punishing him for being unable to keep the innies in line. He is forced to sit there in this dark room for what can be hours on end, whilst not even having been the person who "disobeyed" any rules.

In season 2 you can also see that he kind of forces himself to experience the break room, despite actually having renovated it for the innies

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also also! you never learn from said pain! mark s repeating in a sense what mark scout did (destroying peteys map = hiding away gemma's things)

you carry it, but never learn from history

no dentist's office. no writing christmas cards. no taking flights. a world where every pain or minor annoyance is dismissed as your consciousness is replaced with a different version of you. a life without pain, or agitation, or monotony. and conversely, a life full of only that for every version of you who experiences the chores you wished to evade.

forget skipping work or school or birth. try everything. never experience anything that expires a negative emotion. the ideal consciousness sold as a product for the price of a version of you that you'll never meet.

but it doesn't matter. you carry the hurt down with you. in your hands, in your mind, your mouth. the grief mark experiences carried into his innie, gemma feeling the pain she experienced in the rooms even after she's been severed.

it doesn't matter. you carry it with you.

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Cut out my face despite the pic being funny asf cus theres some weirdos on this app, but this was me ridiculing our seider plate of this year cus its just a normal ass plate (somehow my mom lost her seider plate during the de-chametzifying of her house💀)

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Do not dm me or comment on my posts asking for money i will IMMEDIATELY block you

I do NOT have the recourses to donate, and i cannot keep up with everything and everyone mentally. This account will not become a reblog account for your gofundmes. I will reblog things like that on cezarare.

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Shoutout to those who can't get rid of chametz this year.

Those who can't clean as thoroughly as they'd like, either from sharing a living space with others or just not having the energy or ability to do so.

Those whose safe foods aren't kosher for passover.

This has been such a stressful year, and I know for me cleaning is exhausting when I'm at my best (and this year I Am Not)

So if you're stressed and anxious about cleaning, struggling with the idea of losing access to safe foods for a week, experiencing the anxiety inertia of "oh no why haven't I done anything yet and why can't I bring myself to", or just don't have the energy needed to clean, know that you're not alone 💛