0ffbeatt

[0ffbeatt]

lowkey things are shaping up to be pretty odd

[0ffbeatt]

Pride and Prejudice (1995) + Text Posts (2/?)

[0ffbeatt]

we're going to have an OLDER BROTHER summer. we will be drinking MONSTER. we will be LIFTING WEIGHTS. we will be ignoring our MOM. we will be surviving off of CHIPS and NOODLES. we will NOT be SHOWERING. we will only be putting on AXE DEODORANT. we will be bothering PRETTY WOMEN and getting REJECTED. OLDER BROTHER SUMMER !!

[0ffbeatt]

hello people today i ask: what is your favorite artificial flavor, generally? like if you’re having a new artificially flavored thing and need to pick a standard flavor, what are you going for?

[0ffbeatt]

Natalie is the only one who never allowed herself even the illusion of normalcy or happiness after the rescue. The others made some attempt—however fragile—to rebuild their lives or blend into the world. Shauna and Melissa retreated into the façade of stability, marrying and raising children in the quiet rhythms of suburban life. Taissa found a family of her own and pursued a successful career as a lawyer and then a politician. Van poured herself into her pop culture passion by creating her video store and allowing herself to live through the past. Misty satisfied her need to be needed through her career as a geriatric nurse. Lottie created her cult (intentional community). Even Travis tried to build a life with someone (before Nat came back in).

But Nat never created anything for herself. She didn’t even let herself have a home, she lived out of motel rooms across the country for her whole life. She remained completely alone apart from toxic stints with Travis that ended disastrously and brief flings that she sabotaged before they could get anywhere.

Even though she’s colder, harsher, and less openly compassionate in the adult timeline, her moral compass is still strong. It's that very sense of right and wrong that condemns her. She can’t accept joy, can’t allow herself peace, because deep down, she believes she forfeited her right to those things in the wilderness. Every chance at connection, every moment of possible happiness, she sabotages—because she’s still carrying the weight of what they did, and she doesn't believe she deserves to ever put it down. While others try to bury the guilt of what they did out there, Nat wears it on her sleeve.

She’s the closest thing to a “savior” or “saint” in this story, but that’s exactly why she suffers the most.

[0ffbeatt]

tai being like "why the hell would you send that tape to SHAUNA" to melissa was so funny because yes, absolutely WHY would you. you were inviting the crazy back

[0ffbeatt]

I really wish the Yellowjackets fandom could accept Shauna is mentally ill in the same way Lottie is.

Obviously, yes, all of the Yellowjackets have severe PTSD. But it's like people get that Lottie is schizophrenic and that Tai suffers from some unspecified/undiagnosed dissociative disorder on top of having PTSD while Shauna's postpartum psychosis--the symptoms of which include but aren't limited to:

hallucinations

increased agitation/irritability

paranoia

persecutory delusions/feeling that others are out to get you

disruptive or aggressive behavior

withdrawing from loved ones & social activities

--is largely overlooked and instead her actions are treated as the result of her grief over losing Jackie and her baby.

Although it's understood that Shauna's labor and resulting stillbirth were uniquely damaging experiences that compounded her trauma in ways the others were spared from, she still gets lumped in with the other Yellowjackets as "only" suffering from PTSD. She just has *extra* PTSD. She suffered the most and it turned her into The Most Deranged and Bloodthirsty Yellowjacket.

But how would discussion of Shauna's season 3 arc look if her lashing out at Nat, her fixation on Ben as the culprit behind the cabin fire, her withdrawing socially from the group, and, yes, her extremely (often disproportionate) violent behavior were seen as being driven by her postpartum psychosis the way Lottie's faith in the wilderness is understood to be driven by her schizophrenia?

I don't know where I'm going with this, to be honest. I guess my point is that I think the fandom views the loss of wilderness baby as just a tragic event that compounded Shauna's grief and trauma when what we're actually seeing is the effects of an untreated severe mental health emergency not unlike Lottie's deterioration since running out of her meds.

[0ffbeatt]

YELLOWJACKETS 1.01 Pilot | 3.10 Full Circle

[0ffbeatt]

Seeing people be mad at Jeff for taking Callie and leaving Shauna is genuinely so confusing to me. I mean, everyone is entitled to their own opinion. But to me, it is so clear, Jeff understands that Shauna is GENUINELY DANGEROUS for Callie to be around. She has KILLED and Jeff is only trying to protect his daughter from being arrested or worse by separating them both from Shauna. And let's try to be honest with ourselves here... OTHER than the whole murdering stuff, Shauna was NOT a good mother to Callie. It is so clear to me that Shauna is emotionally neglectful to Callie... maybe even worse. And like I said before, everyone is allowed to have their own opinion! Hate on Jeff all you want and love Shauna all you want. But this misunderstanding of Jeffs actions just kinda gets to me, and I wanted to talk about it since I love Callie so much.

[0ffbeatt]

the fact that tai didnt let anyone else touch van. she made shauna wait in the car while she dug the grave. she made sure no one else was there when she honored her. the wilderness rituals were all group events, for lack of better word. everyone partook. it was a mass mourning process. this is private. this is intimate. this is heartbreaking.

[0ffbeatt]

Nat doesn't even know Mari's actually dead. Nat doesn't know that her biggest supporter was actually sacrificed.

[0ffbeatt]

YELLOWJACKETS 310. Full Circle

[0ffbeatt]

there's something so sick about how shauna wouldn't let them take jackies clothes but wouldn't even let mari keep her hair

[0ffbeatt]

im actually choosing to believe that travis hasn't been receiving ghost yuri brain beams from jackie and just kinda clocked that there was something there and decided to weaponize that knowledge to immediate and extreme success a year later

[0ffbeatt]

YELLOWJACKETS, 3x10 "Full Circle"

[0ffbeatt]

I love the layers that have been revealed in Misty and Natalie’s dynamic. They have both deeply wounded and betrayed each other— Natalie when she killed Ben and Misty when she broke the flight recorder. And I know that underlying resentment between them never went away. But they also have this loyalty and instinctive need to protect each other. They challenge each other, but there’s this gravitational pull between them that keeps drawing them back together despite everything. It's not a friendship in the traditional sense, but it's a connection that feels unbreakable in its own strange way. It is so rewarding to go back and watch their scenes together in the adult timeline after discovering their history.

[0ffbeatt]

Full rollercoaster of feelings about that finale. I loved Misty and Natalie’s alliance, it provides so much context to their adult relationship. I did not like that Lottie didn’t get a real, meaningful death scene. I loved Shauna’s Antler Queen reveal. I did not like the cheesy exposition-heavy flashbacks around Callie’s murder confession. I loved the ending of Natalie finally contacting rescue and being confirmed as the one who saved them all. I did not like the retcon of having more people at the Pit Girl bonfire just off to the side (even though they were clearly not present in the original scene in the pilot episode). I loved Mari as Pit Girl (even though I’m devastated to see her go). I did not like how rushed it all felt. I loved Taissa eating Van’s heart as a final act of love.