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"average person suffers 2 lifetimes of suffering in their lifetime" factoid actually statistical error. Jesus Georg, who went to a garden and suffered the sins and sorrows of all mankind, is an outlier adn should not have been counted.

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You guys don’t even know. You don’t even know about my Book of Mormon playing cards

EDIT: my sincerest apologies; it seems there is a high demand to see said cards and I neglected to include them lol

Behold <3

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I had a companion on my mission who had the mantra “everything is a privilege.” Idk how she arrived at that conclusion but she clearly had long before the mission. she would bring it up in literally every context: “being a missionary is a privilege,” “having all our lessons cancel is a privilege,” even “being an apostle is a privilege” (when elder bednar visited our stake).

anyway I haven’t seen her in years but I should probably let her know that her philosophy has changed me on a spiritual level. as in dragging myself out of bed this morning for an 8:00 stake leadership meeting, muttering to myself “my calling is a privilege”

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It’s a Sunday, and I want to go to church. I know exactly why I’m not going. The wanting won’t go away.

I’m embarrassed. I shouldn’t want to go. It’s humiliating to be a queer person who wants to be Mormon. To love something so deeply, and to know that it will never love me back. Despite everything, the church feels like home. I’m desperate for it, even though it’s obvious that the church doesn’t want me.

Because he’d be there, in his purple tie. He always gives the best hugs. I could use a good hug today. He came with me when I had to step out of sacrament meeting, when it was too much for me. He sat with me in the foyer, stayed with me while I cried.

She’d be there, in her black boots. I think she’s giving a talk today. I miss the smile she’d give from the pulpit, like the next thing she said would be specifically for me. I bet her talk is about the Christ she believes in, the one who loves everyone so fiercely. When she talks about Him, I believe in Him too.

She’d be there, in her flowy, handmade dress. She’d save me a seat so I didn’t have to sit alone. She would catch my eye and we’d try to hold in laughter when a speaker said something stupid. Or we’d share an annoyed look when a speaker said something bigoted.

But he’d be there, buttoned up in his suit and tie. I imagine he’d tell me that he missed seeing me at church. But I can only think about the interview when I came out to him. He offered to set me up with LDS family services, so that I could get therapy to fix it. He’d probably say he didn’t mean it that way if I asked him.

And she’d be there, in a dress from her mission or something like that. I’ll admit I’ve never actually met her before. But she’s texted me a lot. She invited me to the temple, because I was on a list of “endowed sisters.” I told her that I’m not allowed to have a temple recommend as a trans person. She kept texting me, inviting me to a myriad of other relief society activities. I asked her to stop texting me.

And they won’t be there. I wish I could describe them. But they stopped going long before I did. I wish so badly I could make the church a safe place for them, even more than I wish I could make it safe for me. I don’t know if they ache to be there the way I do. Probably not. I’d feel their absence anyway.

But most of all, that will be there. That oppressive weight of knowing I’m not wanted. I’ve felt it my whole life, and it has become unbearable. No matter what, the church does not want me. No matter if my friends hug me, or smile at me, or laugh with me, or save me a seat. No matter who loves me. And I love them too. I love them with my entire heart. But I can’t keep engaging with an organization that hurts me like this. I don’t want to be where I’m not wanted.

It’s a Sunday, and I want to go to church. I could go put on my nice clothes right now and still make it in time.

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It’s a Sunday, and I want to go to church. I know exactly why I’m not going. The wanting won’t go away.

I’m embarrassed. I shouldn’t want to go. It’s humiliating to be a queer person who wants to be Mormon. To love something so deeply, and to know that it will never love me back. Despite everything, the church feels like home. I’m desperate for it, even though it’s obvious that the church doesn’t want me.

Because he’d be there, in his purple tie. He always gives the best hugs. I could use a good hug today. He came with me when I had to step out of sacrament meeting, when it was too much for me. He sat with me in the foyer, stayed with me while I cried.

She’d be there, in her black boots. I think she’s giving a talk today. I miss the smile she’d give from the pulpit, like the next thing she said would be specifically for me. I bet her talk is about the Christ she believes in, the one who loves everyone so fiercely. When she talks about Him, I believe in Him too.

She’d be there, in her flowy, handmade dress. She’d save me a seat so I didn’t have to sit alone. She would catch my eye and we’d try to hold in laughter when a speaker said something stupid. Or we’d share an annoyed look when a speaker said something bigoted.

But he’d be there, buttoned up in his suit and tie. I imagine he’d tell me that he missed seeing me at church. But I can only think about the interview when I came out to him. He offered to set me up with LDS family services, so that I could get therapy to fix it. He’d probably say he didn’t mean it that way if I asked him.

And she’d be there, in a dress from her mission or something like that. I’ll admit I’ve never actually met her before. But she’s texted me a lot. She invited me to the temple, because I was on a list of “endowed sisters.” I told her that I’m not allowed to have a temple recommend as a trans person. She kept texting me, inviting me to a myriad of other relief society activities. I asked her to stop texting me.

And they won’t be there. I wish I could describe them. But they stopped going long before I did. I wish so badly I could make the church a safe place for them, even more than I wish I could make it safe for me. I don’t know if they ache to be there the way I do. Probably not. I’d feel their absence anyway.

But most of all, that will be there. That oppressive weight of knowing I’m not wanted. I’ve felt it my whole life, and it has become unbearable. No matter what, the church does not want me. No matter if my friends hug me, or smile at me, or laugh with me, or save me a seat. No matter who loves me. And I love them too. I love them with my entire heart. But I can’t keep engaging with an organization that hurts me like this. I don’t want to be where I’m not wanted.

It’s a Sunday, and I want to go to church. I could go put on my nice clothes right now and still make it in time.

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Having religious beliefs doesn't mean people are homophobes. The Bible says it's a sin, there's no getting around that. It's not natural and LGBT people are always trying to groom children because you can't reproduce. You should check yourself, especially since you claim to be a Mormon. When I was growing up, we didn't hear about all these gay and trans people. You need to repent because surely this is a sign that the last days are here.

Wow, you packed so much ignorance and bigotry in just a few sentences.

You're telling me that an all-knowing, all-powerful God would allow so much variety in nature and in humans, only to be upset at homosexuality? Make it make sense

What's written in the Bible only has the authority that you and society give it, and it doesn't change the fact that some people are gay, lesbian, bi, trans, or whatever else. Most Christians ignore what the Bible says about food, about slavery, about polygamy, about divorce, about being rich, and they can choose to ignore what it says about particular sex acts if they wanted to.

Even if God has the exact opinion of homosexuality that you do, then I would not think of God as my Father but instead as my oppressor. I would need to separate myself from Him and His followers.

How can you say homosexuality isn't natural when it's been observed in over 1500 species of animals? It objectively IS natural. If you had a solid understanding of nature, you would affirm queerness is natural.

The reason you think queer people are conditioning, or in your words, are "grooming" children is because that is what you do, you try to train them to be cis and straight, as if that can be taught. What you're actually teaching are gender roles which aren't related to biology. Letting boys wear pink, take dance lessons, and play with dolls and kitchen sets isn't going to make them queer. Basic life skills like cooking & child rearing aren't just girl things. What you're doing is teaching your queer child that it's not safe to talk with their parents about this part of how they experience life.

Yes, I'm a Mormon, but the thing about religious beliefs is they are a choice and therefore subject to individual interpretation. Not all Christians are homophobes because they don't ascribe to the homophobic beliefs that some other Christians believe. I can choose my religious beliefs but I didn't choose to be gay, white, tall, male, or right handed, so I'm not going to deny a key part of my nature just so you feel better about your homophobic beliefs. To disagree with an inherent trait in another human being is nonsensical. It's not logical to be biased against traits that aren't harmful and don't impact others. To do so would be to disagree with how God created them.

Why wouldn't you want society to be less oppressive? Is it because you have a vested interest in seeing a minority group suffer? Racism, sexism, homophobia, transphobia, Islamophobia, antisemitism, xenophobia, and the like, do not live in the same space with decency, empathy, love, and logic.

You miss the days when it was easier to ignore and marginalize queer people? I also lived then. For most of my life I lived under laws that made gay sex illegal and also wouldn't allow me to get married. Opinions and beliefs like yours lead to oppressing people. Unfortunately, a lot of people feel that way and now have positions of power in our society and government. It's a scary time to be a queer person in the United States as transphobia and homophobia are normalized and a push is on to roll back the human rights of queer people. We are just normal humans who deserve the same dignity as others.

This world has had slavery, colonization, epidemics, natural disasters, and genocide. In the United States each year there are multiple school shootings, serial killers, and child abusers. Even with all that, you believe God sees queer people and thinks that humans have finally gone too far, time to wrap it up?

Yes, religious beliefs can be homophobic and I'm not going to apologize for saying that.

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"Why do ye adorn yourselves with that which hath no life, and yet suffer the hungry, and the needy, and the naked, and the sick and afflicted to pass by you, and notice them not?"

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"when tumblr crumbles let's all move to a google doc" queerstake does this twice a year for general conference. mormons ahead of the game for doomsday preparation as usual

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Nothing got me feeling the spirit like hymns do

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I hate doing this, but I could really use some prayers right about now. Tough time for my family and a tough time for me. Love y'all 💛

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Good news! I finished my missionary isekai short story or this year's Mormon Lit Blitz!

The deadline for submissions is May 10th, so I'll probably sit on it for a while for editing purposes. Somebody make sure I don't forget to submit it before then.

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We sometimes allow tradition to dictate our faith, and don't participate in spiritual acts with a genuine intention. While appropriate traditions are good, we need to keep the thought of Christ in mind to truly connect with Him and others.

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There are 5,600 Catholic bishops. There are 17,000 Mormon bishops. Who would win

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I love you mormons in my phone

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Once again, made the tumblrstake General Conference notes for community use :3

April 2025 General Conference Notes:

As always, obvs don't go crazy in there, but I'm excited for this weekend 🩷

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My grandma is in the hospital on an oxygen machine if you're a spiritual person of ANY kind please send prayers.