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will you be running this event again this year? 🫶🏼💖

Hi! I would love to, but to be honest I am very busy this year. I went back to college full time last fall and I am also working 20-30 hours/week, so I am pretty stretched thin already. That being said, I am definitely thinking about it for sure!

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my art for here's my confession (i'm kind of hooked on you) by the wonderful @donationwayne ! (can confirm, the fic's insanely good)

finally got to participate in the 118 big bang and despite my struggles with both my time and wrist pains it was an incredible experience with the absolute coolest author to be paired up with!! 💫💫

(thank you to the wrist pain i mentioned earlier for the sketchier look on this one)

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📝 long road home 🗺️

my works for this year’s @118bigbang 💖 i was paired up with the excellent @not-blonde-yet for their wonderful fic linked above, these were such a blast to draw and thanks for being a great work partner! 💖

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still the bone remembers, still it wants | chapters 9/9 | 148k | explicit | eddie-centric/buddie | completed | on ao3

for @118bigbang

The thing is, wanting has always been easy. The thing is, wanting has always been so hard. or, eddie goes to therapy and learns how to want. buck helps.

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An instrumental playlist for Titan Heart by @mangacat201 as part of @118bigbang.

The future has not been written. There is no fate but what we make for ourselves.

Includes tracks from: the Terminator franchise, Annihilation, Captain America: The Winter Soldier, The Expanse, Into The Badlands, The Iron Giant, Mad Max: Fury Road, Real Steel, Robots, Snowpiercer, and more...

(spotify | outtakes)

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i'll be the ship, i'll be the shore

for @118bigbang

“Daddy!” Ellie calls for him, and Buck spins around, smile stretching over his face. “Ellie!” he calls back, opening his arms and crouching a little so he can catch her when she takes a leap. He spins her around once before he sets her back down onto her feet. “Hi, sweetheart, how was school?” “It was good,” she says, slipping her small hand into his. “But I’m excited to go home.” “Yeah?” he asks. “Because we’re hanging out with the Diazes?” She grins up at him. “Yes! And because we’re making lasagna.” Buck laughs, and, over his shoulder, calls to Eddie and Christopher, “You guys hear that? You’re gonna have to compete with the lasagna for Ellie’s attention.” “Ohh, lasagna,” Christopher says dreamily, and Buck and Eddie grin at each other. ~ in a world where buck has a daughter christopher’s age, he first meets eddie at their kids’ school. things progress from there.

single dads AU, rated M, 40k

please also check out the podfic by @alliaskisthepossibilityoflove and art by @colebegins!!

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image credit: 911 and freepik.com

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for @doeeyeseddie’s amazing fic “i’ll be the ship, i’ll be the shore” for the @118bigbang

“Daddy!” Ellie calls for him, and Buck spins around, smile stretching over his face.

“Ellie!” he calls back, opening his arms and crouching a little so he can catch her when she takes a leap. He spins her around once before he sets her back down onto her feet. “Hi, sweetheart, how was school?”

“It was good,” she says, slipping her small hand into his. “But I’m excited to go home.”

“Yeah?” he asks. “Because we’re hanging out with the Diazes?”

She grins up at him. “Yes! And because we’re making lasagna.”

Buck laughs, and, over his shoulder, calls to Eddie and Christopher, “You guys hear that? You’re gonna have to compete with the lasagna for Ellie’s attention.”

“Ohh, lasagna,” Christopher says dreamily, and Buck and Eddie grin at each other.

in a world where buck has a daughter christopher’s age, he first meets eddie at their kids’ school. things progress from there.

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[podfic] I'll be the ship, i'll be the shore (part 1/2)

written by farfromthstars, art by colebegins, read by all_i_ask

a @118bigbang collaboration

Buddie, mature (eventually 😁, in part 2), ~ 2hr 15min

summary:

In a world where Buck has a daughter Christopher's age, he first meets Eddie at their kids' school. Things progress from there.

a snippet:

and the full recording of the first half of the story is on AO3 (i will eventually post the second half, too, i just have to, you know, find the time to record it 😅)

my biggest thanks to @farfromthstars for letting me tag along on this journey 😍😍😍😍 go read the whole story here ❣️❣️❣️❣️

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should we talk about the weather

(go check out Kaitlin’s amazing cover art!!!)

rated M // 20,259 words

part of the @118bigbang

And then, in Los Angeles, 2018, Eddie had met Buck. Then, huddled over a man with a bomb in his leg, Eddie had needed gauze and Buck’s hand had moved. Then, in the parking lot bathed in the light of an ambulance on fire, Buck had inhaled and Eddie's lungs expanded. And, well, that was that.

This description felt too long for ao3 but here’s what I pitched to the Big Bang server:

“In a world where certain individuals are capable of sharing their own instincts and feelings — and even occasionally physical strength — with their likewise capable partners, Eddie and Buck, and Hen and Chim are what people sometimes call congeneric minds. It comes in handy in a high stakes profession like firefighting to have two people in such synchronization, able to warn each other of danger without ever having to waste time opening their mouths to speak.

Being so in sync with someone doesn’t necessarily mean smooth sailing communication however. Recently back at work after taking time off post-shooting, Eddie worries about Buck and how he’s been dealing with the events of the last year (last several years, really) but doesn’t know how to bring it up when he himself has always kind of encouraged them to move past life changing events with little discussion. While Hen and Chim are getting along just fine, Chimney and Maddie are dancing around each other and their recent breakup, and Hen feels trapped between disappointing her mother or her wife while being roped into backyard wedding planning.

With danger ever present on the job and turmoil seemingly always bubbling outside it, will everyone find the right words before it’s too late?

AKA what if people could be drift compatible in regular life without giant robots, and they’re all disasters at communicating anyway”

Tag list!

@theotherbuckley @steadfastsaturnsrings @mcityxe @thehyperfixationspeedrunner @dangerpronebuddie @jenniferscraftlife @phdmama @bbbugzzz @leothil @pantsaretherealheroes @giddyupbuck @hobbitnarwhal @kaseysgirl86-blog @thebrofriends @lillathelegend @thewolvesof1998 @devirnis @bigfootsmom @blahblahwoofwoof @lover-of-mine @queerdiazs @eddiebabygirldiaz

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Title card by britbrit99

Another new fic! The Potential to Turn a Life Around, created for the @118bigbang. 31,097 words, Explicit. Buddie. Omegaverse AU where Connor and Kameron ask Buck to donate his eggs. When a false heat turns out to be the real deal, Eddie and Buck's lives are changed forever. Filled with all the good stuff: domestic fluff, mutual pining, jealousy, scenting, sharing a bed, nesting...and of course a happy ending!

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Sophia Diaz arrives at the 118 with a newborn and no desire to be a mother. She’s convinced into staying. (Strongarmed in a way a caring stubborn sibling can get away with). Sophia, Eddie, Buck, Christopher, and baby all move in together. Eventually Buck/Eddie come together as Sophia finds her feet again. Written as a family +comfort fic. Art by @half-bakedboy

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still the bone remembers, still it wants | chapter 3/9 | 18k | read on ao3

The thing is, wanting has always been easy.

The thing is, wanting has always been so hard.

or, eddie goes to therapy and learns how to want. buck helps.

snippet:

And then, suddenly, there’s softness.

Softness that directly follows a violent crack and the slamming of wood. Softness that whimpers and treads close but not too close. Softness in the form of a large, bulking body made to be deceptively small. Softness in blue eyes and a wavering voice. Softness in a hand reaching out to comfort, to steady, to save.

Eddie would flinch back from it, but he’s too tired, aching from head to toe, sore beyond belief from every hit he made and all the sobs wracking through his body. He can only turn to Buck, who is crouched beside him and so blurry through Eddie’s tears that he’s almost convinced Buck isn’t real, but his voice calls out to Eddie and Eddie has to answer, he has to get this out of him.

“They’re all dead. Everyone that I saved. They’re all dead. ”

And then it bellows out in a chant he can’t stop, trembling like the shivers crawling down his spine, shattering the air between him and Buck like everything else that Eddie touches.

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Defect

It's been a while since I teased it, but here it is...my submission to @118bigbang including gorgeous art from @mangacat201 Please see below for summary, as well as a screenshot of the tags (please mind them, there a lot of things that are typical of the cyberpunk/neo-noir genre and none of them are gratuitous) and some moodboards I made and Mangcat's beautiful artwork

Pairing: Buddie II Chapter word count: 12,166 II Rating: E II Archive Warning: Graphic Depictions of Violence

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Mangcat's art masterpost on ao3

Summary:

In 2547, the L.A Undercity lives in constant darkness, envious of the topsiders who know what the sun is. Evan Buckley is lonely, having been abandoned by his parents and having no word from his sister for ten years, he seeks escape in a dream land where he has a husband and a son. Until he finds them in his waking life. Eddie Diaz returned from the army to find his wife murdered, and nobody seems to want to help him find the culprit and bring them to justice. Taking matters into his own hands, he leans on friends and contacts to find the truth, and he might just have an in when he meets the brother-in-law of the most likely suspect. What he can’t figure out is if Evan Buckley is working with Kendall Corp and is just a good actor, or whether the man really is as sweet as he seems. When secrets are revealed and the past continues to haunt them, putting then in danger, can they help each other discover some light in their dark world, and maybe find the life Buck’s been dreaming about?

Banner artwork by Mangcat

ao3 tags

Moodboard 1 - earth 2547

Moodboard 2 - Psidon - dreamworld

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still the bone remembers, still it wants | chapter 2/9 | 20k | read on ao3

The thing is, wanting has always been easy.

The thing is, wanting has always been so hard.

or, eddie goes to therapy and learns how to want. buck helps.

snippet:

Okay, so. A list.

Just a list.

A list that Eddie can write down on the spare piece of paper he ripped out of one of the dozens of notebooks Chris leaves lying around, feeling only a little bit (a lot) guilty when he did so.

He immediately put get Chris another notebook on the very first line. Then he crossed it out because he could hear Frank saying it’s about you, Eddie, just you on a loop in his head, all deep and foreboding and judgemental. And then he rewrote it again because his son deserves all the notebooks goddammit, especially one that doesn’t have a crudely missing page because of Eddie.

But now he is doing this for real. He’s thinking about himself. He’s gonna come up with some things he wants and write them down.

He’s been trying to do that for fifteen minutes now.

Maybe he should have waited, started this at a time when he wasn’t fresh from therapy, when his insides don’t feel so tightly strung and his brain doesn’t feel like a goopy mess that’s been pried apart and rummaged through by his own trembling, cracked hands.

But time isn’t something Eddie really has a lot of.

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I didn't know (that it could be good)

Buddie || 27k || Explicit

Written for the @118bigbang, featuring art by the wonderful @inlovewithsaturn 🥰🥰🥰

Tags: Post Season 7, Eddie Diaz Loves Evan "Buck" Buckley, Evan "Buck" Buckley Loves Eddie Diaz, Friends With Benefits, the benefit is eternal love and devotion, Resolved Sexual Tension, Unresolved Romantic Tension, Sharing Clothes, Mario Kart References, Christopher Diaz is a National Treasure, Didn't Know They Were Dating, Eddie Diaz Gardening, Butterflies, Gardens & Gardening, Past Evan "Buck" Buckley/Tommy Kinard, No character bashing, Domestic Fluff, Masturbation, Accidental Voyeurism, Blow Jobs, Hand Jobs, Frottage, Morning Sex, Anal Sex, Rimming, Minor Injuries, Bisexual Evan "Buck" Buckley, Gay Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Soft Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz

Summary:

They're friends, that's all there is to it. Until Eddie lets himself into Buck's apartment unannounced, and finds him in a compromising position. That should be nothing, just something to laugh about down the line, except afterwards, it's like a switch has flipped, and neither of them can get it out of their minds. The solution? They need to get it out of their systems. Just one time, and things will go back to normal. But one time turns to two, which turns to more nights spent together than apart, and still, they haven't actually spoken about what any of this means for them. They're still just friends, right?

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And Stars May Collide

words by @beforeastorm, art by @screaming-universe for the @118bigbang

Pairing: Buddie Chapters: 7/8 Words: 31,339 Rating: Teen Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Chapter Summary:

Buck and Bobby finally talk. Buck and Eddie are interrupted by Maddie; Eddie needs to learn how to say goodbye.

There's also a Spotify Playlist featuring the songs they're skating to!

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Buck is mesmerized as Eddie takes the ice. He’d seen the costume sketch, watched as Eddie went through the initial fitting, hell, he’d even seen him in costume. But not on the ice, under the lights. [...] Eddie breaks the spin as the chaotic music transitions into something more sedate. There’s no trace of the nervousness Eddie had about this section earlier; the man looks positively transcendent as he floats across the ice, sweeping gestures holding the entire audience in his thrall. The music peaks into the final recitation of the melody and Eddie leans back, arms unfurled into a simple spread eagle. As far as Buck’s concerned, Eddie’s the only star in the night sky and he is utterly transfixed. 

art for And Stars May Collide by @beforeastorm, Chapter 6, part of @118bigbang

Eddie skates to Jupiter from Holst's The Planets. His costume was inspired by one of the comets depicted in the Augsburg Book of Miracles.