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She picked up her fork to begin eating. “Well, to answer your question, yeah. I’ve thought about how maybe we went too fast,” she said honestly. “So I guess this was all inevitable.”

Awake ➤ Mel & Mar

“By fixing things now before they get even worse,” she said. “It’s okay,” she said, taking a sip of her wine.

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"How? I can't turn back time and not rush into marrying him," she said irritably before she hesitated, realizing her tone. "Sorry."

Awake ➤ Mel & Mar

She frowned, suddenly irritable. “Well, there were a few times during our relationship when I panicked and all anyone told me was to ‘listen to my heart and not my head’, so it’s a bit late for that,” she said defensively.

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She frowned, suddenly irritable. “Well, there were a few times during our relationship when I panicked and all anyone told me was to ‘listen to my heart and not my head’, so it’s a bit late for that,” she said defensively.

Awake ➤ Mel & Mar

After pouring two glasses, she set them down and moved to sit at the table. “You didn’t have to talk yourself out of being with him, but maybe just talking to him and saying you wanted to slow things down a bit.”

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“Everyone told me that if it felt right, it was right,” she stated, her eyes following Marlene as she moved through the kitchen. “And that it was silly to talk myself out of being with him because of moving too fast.”

Awake ➤ Mel & Mar

She moved to set the plate down in front of Mel before getting them both some wine. “You never thought that? Because I did, but you were so in love I never mentioned it.”

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“No, it isn’t. Everyone talks about a ‘honeymoon period’ for a reason. I reckon that’s supposed to last longer than five days.” She frowned, not liking how Marlene had vocalized the very thought she’d been trying not to entertain for weeks. “Not really,” she lied.

Awake ➤ Mel & Mar

She moved to get two plates out of the cabinet. “It’s not failure, Mel. It’s natural,” she said. “Did it ever occur to you that maybe you two just rushed into things too quickly?” 

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“You’re different. Fabian and I were nauseatingly in love for months before we got married. Pulling a 180 is practically broadcasting a failure. I’d rather not do that.” She busied herself with sitting at the kitchen table, shifting Cal in her arms.

Awake ➤ Mel & Mar

“It’s not embarrassing. I have relationship problems pretty constantly, and I don’t hesitate to tell you,” she pointed out. 

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She shrugged dismissively. “It’s embarrassing, I dunno. I didn’t tell anyone, so you shouldn’t be that offended.”

Awake ➤ Mel & Mar

“Well, you should learn to get used to it,” she said. “I’m still upset you never told me things were so bad.”

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“I’m just not used to thinking about me,” she admitted. “But I will say it feels loads better to be here right now. Home’s been stressful for a long time. You’re helping a lot.”

Awake ➤ Mel & Mar

“Look, there’s a reason you were confident in it. You knew it was a smart decision, so don’t make it seem like a bad one now.”

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She ducked her head in embarrassment. “Sorry. I swear I was sure of this earlier. I keep going through phases of regretting everything and being confident in my decision-making skills.”

Awake ➤ Mel & Mar

She gave her sister a look. “Mel, this was not a mistake. Stop being ridiculous.”

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“I’m calling you on your bluff.” She bit her lip. “Maybe this was all a big mistake. I don’t want to make the problem even bigger.”

Awake ➤ Mel & Mar

“He wasn’t awful,” she said, although her voice clearly said otherwise. “No, I reckon that’d make it worse.”

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She wrinkled her nose. “Which is your way of saying that he was awful,” she stated. “Should I owl him or something?”

Awake ➤ Mel & Mar

“Not an argument, it was definitely more one-sided,” she said. “He was… not the worst,” she said, not wanting to make her sister feel bad.

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“I know,” she said with a sigh, experiencing a brief swell of gratitude for her sister. “You had an argument, then? How awful of a state was he in?”

Awake ➤ Mel & Mar

“Because of how he made you feel uncomfortable and how he reacted when you didn’t remember things. And because of how you two have been having issues for months,” she said pointedly, going back to stirring the sauce.

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She frowned, looking down at Cal. “I am the one who moved out,” she said quietly, and she was reminded of how toxic the environment at home would have felt if she’d returned from Mungo’s. Fabian had a way of making her feel like their marital problems weighted on her shoulders, and she’d started to believe he was right long ago.

Awake ➤ Mel & Mar

“Excuse you, I can kick you out of my flat,” she teased. “Okay, I suppose,” she said, slowly. “He’s refusing to think that any of this could possibly have anything to do with him.”

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“You’re so annoying.” She popped another chocolate into her mouth, quiet for a moment before she spoke. “How...did it go?” she asked, her tone significantly more serious.

Awake ➤ Mel & Mar

She rolled her eyes. “I don’t want to be a guest, I want to be your loser sister who’s crashing on your couch for a week and not disrupting everyone’s lives.”

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She rolled her eyes. “I don’t want to be a guest, I want to be your loser sister who’s crashing on your couch for a week and not disrupting everyone’s lives.”

Awake ➤ Mel & Mar

“Even if you’re you, you’re still our guest and we’re going to treat you like one,” she said pointedly.

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Her mouth twitched into a small smile. “Nobody, I guess. I just don’t want you to spend this entire time trying to distract me because you feel bad or something. I’m honestly fine with you and everyone else just going about their lives as usual.”

Awake ➤ Mel & Mar

“I know, but I wanted to,” she said. She mockingly rose her eyesbrows in return. “Who said I had to be discrete?”

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"Please, you didn't even have to make me dinner. I'm sure it'll be great." She rose her eyebrows. "You're not very discrete with this whole trying to make me feel better thing "

Awake ➤ Mel & Mar

She smiled, popping the chocolate into her mouth. “Funny. What’re you making for dinner?”