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Pretty accurate and powerful!

“Everyone thinks the life of an addict is so exciting and eventful, like how it’s portrayed in drug movies. You picture dirty junkies running through the streets, stealing from cars and old ladies, drug cartels and gun shots, you picture us with other people, other addicts like us. Truth is, our lives are nothing like those of the junkies in Hollywood— it’s much more pathetic, I’ll still be an addict when that two hour movie begins rolling credits. Here’s reality; Every day is spent figuring out how to get your hands on $40, finding drugs, doing drugs, hiding drugs, finding places to do drugs, being high, being too high, not being high enough, coming down, going up, hating drugs, loving drugs, hating yourself, being too high to hate anything, making friends, losing friends, dead friends, having no friends, getting sober, relapsing and then finding $40 again. It appears exciting in the beginning but after watching the same scenes year after year, it quickly becomes your least favorite movie. When you look around you’ll notice the theater’s empty because all of your friends moved onto other movies, the front row now feels painfully lonely. Junkie bonds never last very long and they’re just as unreliable as the drugs they revolve around, when you’re trying hard not to love yourself it’s nearly impossible to love someone else. Once in awhile we’ll give into the loneliness and make an attempt at establishing meaningful connections but they inevitably fall apart like Candy and Dan. Maybe it’s subconscious or maybe we’re aware but fact is, we’ll always love the drugs more. We’re in love with euphoria, we’re in love with the numb and it’s a love so powerful that sometimes we forget about all we loved before. Hollywood has cleverly directed movies which give us false hope that one day we’ll meet someone so incredible that drugs won’t compare, like an angel sent to bring us to sobriety. After having your heart broken a dozen times it becomes obvious that those happy endings were nothing but fabricated lies. There won’t ever be an angel and there is nothing that compares. The film industry has provided society with an inaccurate representation of addiction, we’re often the villain, the liar, the thief who’s never remorseful, the unstoppable bulldozer destroying everything in it’s path. It’s one of the reasons so many hate or fear us, they watch us stealing candy from babies and pushing down the elderly. In reality drug addicts are usually overwhelmed by the amount of guilt they feel. For instance, I feel guilt after realizing my baby brother’s birthday was the week prior and I completely forgot, or when it’s my aunts wedding and I’m arriving as the reception’s ending because I was stuck in a parking lot for hours, waiting. The guilt is especially heavy each time I look my best friend in the eye and promise her that I’ll stop getting high, only to pick up a syringe before the end of the night. Sometimes I think it would be easier if we felt no remorse for the disappointment we cause because then it would make more sense when we did it ten more times and then five more after that. But we do feel guilty, we do know the hurt we’re causing but we can’t stop.. I can’t stop. Wouldn’t it be kind of nice if our lives could be like our favorite drug movies? Don’t you wish that we could have our happy ending, maybe be able to quit cold turkey or get a goodbye kiss from a woman as beautiful as Brittany Murphy.. if our lives were a drug movie, the nightmare would be over when the credits start rolling. Think about it.. after two hours we’d be able to live our own lives, leave the theater and choose a different film in a new genre. If this was a perfect world, my life would be a drug movie and I’d end up happy like the Hollywood junkies. Too bad rock bottom only plays one channel and I still need that $40.”

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-anonymous (via drunktofeellove)

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(via vein-damage)

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1000+ followers!!!

Thank you to everyone who is following my blog, I'll keep my story going and I appreciate all of you. I didn't wake up one morning and say "hey, when I grow up I wanna be an addict", and although I don't struggle like I used to, I still have them from time to time and it's ok. I used to get so angry and upset with myself when I would relapse. I've said this a lot throughout the years previously I would just say it to say it but now I understand it and believe this..... it's not how hard you fall, it doesn't matter where it happened but it matters that you get up and take that next step forward!

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Finding Craigslist.....

So me and a couple buddies went out drinking one night and I ended up getting pretty hammered. While I was at the bar for some reason I thought about finding some stuff and some female company. Unfortunately I did not have any connections as I lost all them from moving out of Colorado and then back again. I went home and jumped online and did a search for ways to find crystal and in one of the forums it said go to Craigslist. It told me where to go to post and so I did. I ended up falling asleep but woke up around 5 AM still craving. I checked the craigslist post and had a few responses. I ended up meeting someone and the shit that I got was fantastic (this person ended up becoming my plug and really good friend). I then started browsing some of the personals and ended up posting again looking to pnp and ended up hooking up with this hot ass blonde and her brunette friend..... Did this for about three or four days and had to get clean as I did not want to lose my job. However, with access to the good shit and the Internet to find "party gals" to pnp with..... changes were on the horizon.....

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After 2 1/2 years in the deep south......

So when I started tweak'n in the deep south, I started making the usual bad decisions that led to losing my job and not being able to afford my rent so I was in the process of getting evicted from my place. I had a back up plan and place for the last couple months which actually allowed me to move back to Colorado where I was able to enjoy another two years clean! I had a place to live, reconnected with a lot of friends and had a great job. Things were going great but I'm a glutton for self sabotage and once again my inner addict started knocking on my skull.....

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Hello I'm just wondering if your name might be Andrew? I know anonymity is important and I respect that,you just have a very familiar face .,if not it's good to meet you anyways. I'm in Denver Spun,😜

Hi there, that's not my name

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Colorado Ladies...let's PNP!

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Colorado Ladies...let's PNP!

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So the shit found me....

So I found out the guy that my friend had come over to my place knew how to make crystal. He pretty much had most of the ingredients with him we just needed some Sudafed. Thank goodness for 24 hour drugstores! Next thing you know he and I get my car and drive to a very remote location in the middle of nowhere. Next thing you know we're taking turns shaking this plastic bottle and bleeding it after each time so it doesn't blow up in our hands (yes, really intelligent I know… Lol!). After what seemed to be an eternity we went back to my place or he told my friend and I go into the other bathroom in my house. He goes in with his mask type thing and about 15 minutes later he comes out, pours the shit out to dry and presto..... we had some homemade shit. Did not have any glass at the time so we used aluminum foil. Holy fuck this shit was good and we had about a half an ounce quantity which kept me up for seven days straight. After that he made a few more batches of it and it was always really good. He would bring his chick over and she was pretty freaky so I got several good deep throats by her which on the shit we had was fucking unbelievable!

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I haven’t seen a post like this and feel like it’s valuable enough to share. Feel free to add your own gained knowledge, correct anything I’m wrong about, or give better solutions.

Here’s what hours of reading harm reduction material for injecting methamphetamine DIDNT teach me:

When it burns or hurts that means you probably aren’t in the vein anymore. Pull back on the plunger to see if you draw blood into the barrel. Adjust until you get blood again then finish.

Elevate the place where you miss a shot above your heart quickly, massage it to help prevent it swelling. Put a warm compress on ASAP then switch between cold and warm compresses 15 minutes every few hours. If you need to see a doctor then go. It’s not worth losing your arm or something nuts.

The safest areas are your arms, hands, legs or feet as a last resort. No no zones are your neck, genitals and groin and wrists.

The veins in a female’s breasts are frail and I wouldn’t use them but if you must then use extreme caution and inject slowly. Maybe use two veins if you’re doing a big shot.

If you’re using a small, damaged, or frail vein water it down and inject slowly!!!! Be more gentle with delicate veins, they need it. This is for hands, feet or any thin vein you use.

It’s always a good idea to do a double register (pull the plunger back to make sure you still get blood) about halfway through your shots.

Honey holes are the places you can count on to hit 9/10 times. Save at least one for medical purposes but two is better so that you have one for yourself when you’re rushed.

If you’re shaking you’re gonna fuck it up and it’s time for self care. Eat a snack, drink some water, take some deep breaths or whatever relaxes you, check your hands and try again when they’re steady.

Invest in full coverage makeup that’s powerful enough to cover tattoos. Match it to your arms not your face and use it to cover bruises and track marks if you need to. Trust me that it’s worth the money and you will wanna have it eventually.

You’re still going to get dry mouth so don’t let your dental hygeine be neglected.

You aren’t imagining that weird smell. It’s you because you put a bunch of weird shit in your arm. Go take a shower. Do so daily.

You’re one of the big boys now and the rules to the game don’t apply anymore. Look out for yourself first and be prepared to take your l’s. You’re gonna get your heartbroken a few times that’s just part of the game. Learn to give your trust only when it’s earned.

Lock boxes are cheaper than having your shit jacked. People lose themselves when drugs take over.

Thick shots aren’t for beginners unless you’re into wasting your shit and having a shitty ass high. Water them down when you’re learning to hit a vein and worry about rolling with the big dogs once you know wtf you’re doing.

When your shot is thick like syrup put that in a juicy vein that can handle the acidity and consistency. I recommend elbow crooks, the fat bois that go down your forearm. In your legs you can use the big ones on the inside and outside of your knees.

Eventually you’re going to overamp yourself, it happens to everyone. The first time it happens remember that it’s not impossible but it’s really difficult to fatally OD on meth. You might think you’re dying but you aren’t. Lay down where you are, close your eyes, breathe deeply, and try to relax and let it pass. Panicking will only make it worse. You aren’t having a heart attack, it’s just chest pain. It will pass.

If you have any kind of heart condition I think you should do pretty much anything else besides injecting stimulants.

Don’t let just anyone doctor you (hit you with the needle). Watch them do themselves or someone else first. Make them stop if you don’t feel safe or it hurts. There’s nothing wrong with giving someone directions when they have a needle in your arm.

Mark your rigs when using with other people so that you know which ones you’re responsible for getting rid of.

Slamming meth isn’t like doing an opiate in your IV. Site rotation HAS to happen because of the extra damage done to your veins.

Don’t slap your veins, that makes them move away from the skin bc that’s how your body works, it avoids pain. Instead of that, press gently on the vein rapidly and that will help it bulge.

You can stop veins from rolling by pinning them but I haven’t found a way to do that alone. To pin a vein you just have to press down on the vein a couple inches below where the shot will go in. Once there is register you’re good to let it go.

Tying your arm off isn’t as easy as it seems and will take practice. Everyone does it different and don’t worry about what someone else uses as tourniquet. We’ve all used some weird shit, it just be like that.

Dont muscle a meth shot. It hurts, you don’t really get the high you want, and it’s just not worth it. Booty bumping is better when you do it the right way.

Don’t put it in your vein if the blood clotted in the barrel. You could give yourself a stroke or embolism I believe. Big yikes. Booty bump that one too.

If you don’t know something, there are people on tumblr you can ask. Most of us won’t tell you wrong answers on purpose but if you feel like it’s wrong ask someone else. A lot of the drug and harm reduction community has diminished but it’s still here and is a resource. Not everyone will want to help but a lot of us do.

Do your own research on proper and safe injecting. There is a lot out there and google searches give you whole pdf phamphlets complete with pictures.

Use your common sense. Wash your hands before you make a shot and before you inject it if you can. Sterilize with the highest % of rubbing alcohol you can get. And don’t fucking share needles. I know everyone knows but I had to say it.

Don’t cook a meth shot unless you’re trying to just burn off the dope. It dissolves completely in water. You don’t need to cook most drugs unless you’re extracting from a patch or have real deal tar heroin.

Know your limits and respect your body. Self care is more important than ever. Eat food, hydrate a lot, lay the fuck down and let your body rest even if you’re not sleeping, shower, brush your teeth, and take breaks so you can recover.

You can PM me or send me asks (I don’t think I have anonymous turned on. I’ll check and turn it on if it’s off.) I might not know the answer but I’ll help you find it. I have experience with slamming most pills, meth, heroin, fentanyl, speedballing in various mixes, and the safest ways to make the shots. As far as general drug experience I’ve done most of your basic street drugs except crack, psychedelics, and research chemicals. I’m not in a position to judge anyone else’s drug use but if I can help you be safer, I will.

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Methamphetamine Harm Reduction

From the Freenet site: Methamphetamine Harm Reduction

A freesite for information and harm reduction strategies for Methamphetamine users.

Route of Administration (ROA)

Listed from least harmful to most harmful.

Oral/Parachuting

METHOD: Wrap the dose in a small amount of tissue paper and take with water.

DRAWBACKS:

The longer (days) someone uses Methamphetamine, the higher the likelihood that they will progress to more harmful ROAs.

Not as effective unless taken on an empty stomach.

HARM REDUCTION:

TIPS/NOTES:

Results in a pleasant and long-lasting high with good body effects.

Onset is slow. Hours can pass before wanting to take another dose.

Bioavailability is less than other methods so increase the dose a little.

Potentiating: Baking soda in water reduces stomach Ph and increases digestibility. (Good)

Potentiating: Zinc (NOT RECOMMENDED, uncomfortable)

Anal/Plugging

METHOD: Crush a dose into powder and mix with Saline solution. Insert an oral syringe into the anus and release. Do not insert dry.

DRAWBACKS:

HARM REDUCTION:

TIPS/NOTES: Rectal drug administrations have fast onset and high bioavailability.

Methamphetamine is corrosive to body tissues. Repeated doses may cause tissue damage.

The authors have no experience with this method.

Nasal/Insufflation

METHOD: Cover the drug with something like currency or heavy paper. Press a card down flat on top of it and scrape over the covering to crush it. Once satisfied with the sound, remove the covering and complete by chopping into a fine powder.

No drug loss from flying fragments, less evidence of use in the area.

DRAWBACKS: This ROA is addictive and hazardous long-term.

Enough usage will cause inflammation, tissue damage, and halted mucous production (very painful).

Can cause “Perforated Septum” or, a hole in the nose.

Insufflating Methamphetamine is painful.

HARM REDUCTION:

Use the plugging method nasally to reduce irritation and dryness.

Keep Saline spray available.

Manually clean your nasal passages to reduce tissue damage.

Use nasal irrigation to flush Sinuses. Use a 50/50 mix of pure Sea Salt and Baking Soda. A proper amount will be comfortable, too much or too little will cause some burning. Works better than sprays.

Nasal decongestants create dependency after about 72 hours of use and can cause congestion. Use sparingly.

Steroid allergy mists can reduce inflammation. Packaging for these products recommends only short-term use. Steroid therapy may be harmful long-term.

Crush into fine powder. Avoid chunks.

Use this ROA sparingly, see other methods above.

TIPS/NOTES:

Participants should each use their own tube to reduce infection risk.

Somewhat long-term to medium-term high, less than oral administration.

Smoking/Freebasing

METHOD: Takes practice to learn.

Turn the pipe while smoking, this helps heat the drug evenly and conserve.

Simmer, do not boil. Keep the color clear, too much heat makes it darker.

Learn from an experienced smoker.

DRAWBACKS: Highly addictive ROA. Causes habitual and frequent dosing.

You will not realize how high you are getting. Some users get Amphetamine psychosis.

Pipes can be hard to clean. Broken pipes create additional evidence. Purchasing pipes will affect your reputation and also informs strangers of your drug use. Most pipes are poor quality.

Uses supplies very quickly.

HARM REDUCTION:

See methods above for alternatives.

Methamphetamine residue will collect in your mouth and on your teeth. Clean your mouth.

TIPS/NOTES:

Avoid this ROA. Famous Methamphetamine chemist Uncle Fester writes that if insufflation is not enough and a user must smoke Methamphetamine then they need to quit.

Try to coat the pipe evenly when preparing a dose. Carefully heat it up enough to begin melting it, then turn the pipe around while it cools.

Some batches will have impurities that show up as black speckles when smoked. Toxic. Choose another ROA until you get a cleaner batch.

Highly bioavailable method of administration

Short-term high

Intravenous/Injected

This section is not specific to Methamphetamine, but to needle use in general.

METHOD: The substance, in powdered form, is measured and and dissolved in an aqueous solution such as water and then drawn into a syringe. The injection site will be identified and is typically somewhere in the arms, hands, legs, and feet. A tourniquet, such as a belt or a strap, is often wrapped around the limb between the torso and injection site to restrict blood flow and make the vein larger. The hypodermic needle is inserted and its placement tested by drawing blood into the syringe. The tourniquet is loosened, and the injection is performed. Air entering the bloodstream can be fatal and it is good practice to force air bubbles out of the syringe by flicking the syringe and using the plunger to push any collected air out of the needle.

Intramuscular injection is an alternate method of administration. It may not be suitable for Methamphetamine, but is a notable ROA. The risks and method are different for this type of injection, and it is notably painful.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intravenous_therapy https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intramuscular_injection

NOTE: The amount and quality of the drug, the amount of its dilution, and the rate of administration are all crucial for a needle user to get a dose that is greater than threshold and less than an overdose. Users also need sterile, functional needles and must be able to administer their dose safely while minimizing harm. They will also need to be able to care for and revive victims of overdose. Drug users, especially those in poverty, can experience a variety of serious problems but intravenous drug users are at particular risk.

DRAWBACKS AND NOTES:

Syringes are designed to be disposable. They are immediately contaminated and fail quickly, but users will be forced to reuse them as much as possible. Dull needle points are more difficult to insert into the injection site, more easily creating track marks and increasing likelihood of tissue damage.

Veins will become unsuitable if overused for injections. In time sites will be difficult to find and hard to reach. Vein inflammation (Phlebitis) can occur because of infection or the presence of drug solutions and/or needles. Long-term, frequent use of this ROA will build painful scar tissue and make injections difficult. “Track marks” will become less visible with time if needles are no longer used, but they don’t heal completely.

Syringes are hard to acquire. In most locations, sales are routinely denied to suspicious customers and are likely to be reported. Some locations are safe and provide clean syringes to users, but they are monitored by law enforcement.

Intravenous administrations provide a direct route for impurities and pathogens to poison and infect a user and should be avoided. Likelihood of severe health problems are extremely high, and they can be irreversible and/or fatal. Moisture introduced to injection sites while washing greatly increases the risk of infection.

Extreme public disdain for the practice. Users are demonized and marginalized.

Law enforcement and health services will quickly become aware of users. The likelihood of interaction with these officials is high to near-certain, depending on the length and frequency of use.

Personal behavior and community opinion may force needle users into association with only other people with the same habit. Depending on the situation, it may progress to also include health officials, rehabilitation industry, and law enforcement.

Makes life bad.

HARM REDUCTION:

See the methods above for alternatives.

TIPS/NOTES:

Reports of burning discomfort on injection, especially if the injection site is missed.

The condition meth mouth is generally most severe in users who inject the drug, rather than swallow, smoke, or inhale it. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Methamphetamine

Bioavailability is 100% for intravenous injections.

Onset is about 15-30 seconds after administration.

Self-Care

Many problems Methamphetamine users have are caused by malnutrition and poor self-care. These problems will not go away. It is your responsibility to address them as they arise, or else things will get worse. Methamphetamine creates so much pleasure for users that they are unaware of the damage they are doing to themselves. Once it wears off, users will start again to notice the pains, stresses, and problems created by their self-neglect. Avoiding this awareness is a common reason to get more drugs.

If you spend a lot of time being suspicious of traffic, looking out the window, etc., you need to take some time off. Eat some food, get some rest, unwind. Unfortunately, some people get into that state of mind very easily. This is related to Amphetamine Psychosis. It might be time for you to find a new drug if it happens to you.

Nutrition

Drink water and fluids that contain electrolytes, like Gatorade. Methamphetamine users need Gatorade for the same reason athletes do.

Avoid sugary drinks and, in some cases, Alcohol. Sugary drinks are bad for oral health. While mixing Alcohol with methamphetamine is not as risky, drinking with some other types of amphetamines can make the heart work so hard that it kills you.

Obviously, you will not be eating much. Even when you do eat, you will likely favor poor quality food. At the least, try to eat properly when you are not using.

Methamphetamine (and drugs in general) alters the body’s nutritional needs. That, combined with a diet that is low in quality and quantity, nutrient balances can be affected quite strongly. You need to learn how to have a proper diet and what vitamins and minerals you need. Calcium, vitamin C, vitamin D, and B vitamins are all important and can be found in food as well as supplements.

It has been suggested, based on animal research, that Calcitriol, the active metabolite of vitamin D, can provide significant protection against the DA- and 5-HT-depleting effects of neurotoxic doses of methamphetamine. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Methamphetamine

Keep powdered protein supplements available. They are easy to consume even if you are not hungry.

Methamphetamine use slows food digestion.

Hygiene

Be aware of body odor. Keep your hair, crotch and anus, armpits, mouth, and feet clean.

Moisturize your body shortly after you bathe. This will help reduce itchy skin. Your skin will absorb lotions and oils easier if the skin has been wet recently.

Health

Amphetamines are known to have been an instrumental factor in heart attacks.

Exercise

Enjoy your high, but you have to take a little time for maintenance.

Stimulant users tend to fall into certain patterns of behavior over time. Think about your habitual behaviors and decide what fitness routines you could implement to offset the toll on your body. Strenuous exercise can raise heart rates dramatically, so perform them in your “off” time. You don’t want to pop!

Find out about relaxation techniques and implement them.

MentalAmphetamine/Stimulant Psychosis

Psychotic behavior is extremely likely to result in interactions with the authorities. Be careful!

Drugs in the class of amphetamines, or substituted amphetamines, are known to induce “amphetamine psychosis” typically when chronically abused or used in high doses. Common amphetamines include dextroamphetamine, cathinone, DOM, ephedrine, MDMA, methamphetamine, and methcathinone though a large number of such compounds have been synthesized. Methylphenidate (a cocaine analog) is sometimes incorrectly included in this class, although is nonetheless still capable of producing stimulant psychosis.

Stimulant psychosis, also known as stimulant-induced psychotic disorder, is a psychosis symptom which involves hallucinations, paranoia, and/or delusions and typically occurs following an overdose on psychostimulants. The most common causes are amphetamines, including cathinones, as well as certain dopamine reuptake inhibitors such as cocaine or methylphenidate.

The symptoms of stimulant psychosis vary depending on the drug ingested, but generally involve the symptoms of organic psychosis such as hallucinations, delusions, paranoia, and thought disorder. Other symptoms may include mania, erratic behavior, and aggression.

The symptoms of acute amphetamine psychosis are very similar to those of the acute phase of schizophrenia although in amphetamine psychosis visual hallucinations are more common and thought disorder is rare. Amphetamine psychosis may be purely related to high drug usage, or high drug usage may trigger an underlying vulnerability to schizophrenia. The disorders are often distinguished by a rapid resolution of symptoms in amphetamine psychosis, while schizophrenia is more likely to follow a chronic course.

Along with a clear consciousness and prominent extreme agitation, symptoms of amphetamine psychosis include:

auditory and visual hallucinations (Hearing and seeing things. Lack of sleep can cause minor visual distortions and/or noticing things that seem to be moving just outside one’s field of vision. Simple hallucinations such as those do not indicate psychosis. However, things such as seeing and talking to people that are not visible to other people is a symptom of psychosis and cause for alarm.)

grandiosity (an individual thinking they are very special, different from others, and being unrealistic about their past or future achievements.)

delusions of persecution (The individual thinks that harm is occurring, or is going to occur. The individual thinks that the perceived persecutor has the intention to cause harm.)

delusions of reference (an individual’s experiencing insignificant events or mere coincidences and believing they have strong personal significance.)

Treatment consists of supportive care during the acute intoxication phase: maintaining hydration, body temperature, blood pressure, and heart rate at acceptable levels until the drug is sufficiently metabolized to allow vital signs to return to baseline. Typical and atypical antipsychotics have been shown to be helpful in the early stages of treatment. This is followed by abstinence from psychostimulants supported with counseling or medication designed to assist the individual preventing a relapse and the resumption of a psychotic state.

even at a small dose, the psychosis can be quickly reestablished.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stimulant_psychosis

Sex

Methamphetamine causes strong hormonal changes and will affect sexual behavior. The strong pleasure signals brought on are going to lower a user’s defenses to risky sexual behavior.

Be aware that:

promiscuity

desire

stamina

sex without protection

sometimes even orientation

will be affected.

Meth Mouth

Methamphetamine users and addicts may lose their teeth abnormally quickly, regardless of the route of administration, from a condition informally known as meth mouth. The condition is generally most severe in users who inject the drug, rather than swallow, smoke, or inhale it. According to the American Dental Association, meth mouth “is probably caused by a combination of drug-induced psychological and physiological changes resulting in xerostomia (dry mouth), extended periods of poor oral hygiene, frequent consumption of high-calorie, carbonated beverages and bruxism (teeth grinding and clenching)”. As dry mouth is also a common side effect of other stimulants, which are not known to contribute severe tooth decay, many researchers suggest that methamphetamine associated tooth decay is more due to users’ other choices. They suggest the side effect has been exaggerated and stylized to create a stereotype of current users as a deterrence for new ones. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Methamphetamine

Dentists may be required by law to report Methamphetamine users to law enforcement.

Users need to take meticulous care of their mouth with both hygiene and nutrition to prevent tooth decay, gum disease, and tooth loss.

Minimal care includes avoiding dry mouth. Your mouth needs saliva to stay healthy, decay potential increases without it.

Many toothpastes now include a synthetic material called nanohydroxyapatite. It will remineralize your teeth and is effective to prevent tooth decay. Start using it before you develop problems and use it often.

Find or buy Ramiel Nigel - Cure Tooth Decay.pdf if this key does not work.

If your gums get irritated and/or your mouth feels like garbage, try swishing some Sea Salt in warm/hot tap water a few times. Baking soda is optional, but it will help regulate your mouth’s Ph balance. People tend towards acidic Ph.

Dental guards are available for people who grind their teeth while sleeping.

Withdrawal and Ceasing Use

Let’s face it, people should not use Methamphetamine. However, this drug is a career for many people. Even people in their seventies might use it.

ABOUT: Withdrawal intensity varies with length of use (months, years) and amounts used. Effects can progress from needing sleep and boredom/apathy to mood swings and uncontrollable rage and panic. At high levels of addiction a user may need up to 5 days of continuous sleep, be prone to outbursts of screaming and violence, cry uncontrollably, and consider or commit suicide. If they are able to stay off Methamphetamine, they should stabilize at around two very difficult weeks.

TIPS/NOTES FOR HIGHLY ADDICTED USERS:

Sleeping may be difficult after around 72 hours. Find a sleep aid.

Have something for stress relief available. Be aware that almost nothing will work very well. It will only help a little.

If you detox by yourself, it is a good idea to avoid social contact. Emotional volatility will be extremely high.

Do not kill yourself when detoxing. Methamphetamine may have become the most important thing in your life. Give yourself time to recover.

Rehabilitation

Users might choose or be forced to go into rehabilitation. There are different levels of drug rehabilitation. Detox is treatment for the symptoms of withdrawal. Treatment programs are longer and encourage long-term sobriety by education and other means. You will not be able to leave easily. Treatment organizations are community groups that are available to the public, including anyone in treatment programs. Visits to treatment organizations may be forced or voluntary.

Treatment Centers

Treatment centers (“rehab”) are overwhelmingly based on the 12 step program. Alcoholics Anonymous and Narcotics Anonymous are examples of 12 step groups.

Treatment Organizations12 Step Groups

USE CAUTION 12 step groups are autonomous social groups who meet to admit past, current, and future behaviors and experiences. These groups encourage frequent meetups and demand it of voluntary, active members.  They also have their roots in a controversial religious club known as the Oxford group. Some people like 12 step groups very much. They become long-term members and feel that they are part of a family. Others completely avoid being with involved with the 12 step groups and think of them as a cult. 12 step literature is available in many printed languages and available in bookstores, online, and at meetings. For a critical viewpoint of the 12 step groups, look for the “Orange Papers” website, last known to exist at www.orange-papers.org or www.orange-papers.com. 12 step groups have a symbiotic relationship with the criminal justice system.

Al-Anon/Narc-Anon/Alateen

WARNING Al-Anon Family Groups are a “worldwide fellowship that offers a program of recovery for the families and friends of alcoholics, whether or not the alcoholic recognizes the existence of a drinking problem or seeks help.” They also are part of the Scientology organization. Scientology’s recruiting efforts are strong in prisons.

Moderation Management

“Moderation Management is a secular non-profit organization providing peer-run non-coercive support groups for anyone who would like to reduce their alcohol consumption. MM was founded in 1994 to create an alternative to Alcoholics Anonymous and similar addiction recovery groups for non-dependent problem drinkers who do not necessarily want to stop drinking, but moderate their amount of alcohol consumed to reduce its detrimental consequences.”

Others

There are other organizations, but you will have to find them yourself. Many of them have been formed as alternatives to Alcoholics Anonymous. One is even done by mail, rather than meetings. Even if you do not choose to adopt a program of treatment, you would benefit by seeing what’s available. Better to learn by choice than being forced to as a drug offender.

Notes

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy is scientifically proven. Results can be effective and lasting.

Arrest Prevention

Social

If you have been awake for 48 hours or more, avoid going out in public. As time increases, your functioning will become increasingly impaired. High arrest risk.

You are engaging in highly illegal behavior. This part of life is not a social club. Most drug users either act like teenagers or they go to jail often.

Arrest risk is increased if you are traveling with Methamphetamine while intoxicated. Be as sober as possible when making purchases.

Drug Connections

Establish relationships with and do business with only 1 or 2 contacts. Build trust with them rather than collecting drug dealers. If you ignore this advice, your risk of attracting informants and stings are high.

Guard your contacts. Do not mention anything about them in conversations with others unless all other participants already know them. Only you should be meeting your dealer to do business. The exception to this is if your companion has a pre-existing relationship with the dealer. Don’t introduce new clients unless you have a good reason and existing trust in them. Don’t increase informant and sting risk.

Do not make purchases or sales in public places like parking lots. High risk of surveillance and arrest.

Use Common Sense

Don’t steal from people to get money for drugs, especially people you know. Everyone needs support networks. You won’t keep friends if you steal their cameras.

Meth users have a bad reputation. Remember, you must be honest if you want to live outside the law.

Pipe Maintenance

If you smoke, you should buy quality pipes and keep them working as long as possible. As stated above, buying pipes is not good for your reputation and it creates evidence. Keeping a clean pipe is easy if you know how to do it.

Strike lighters leave soot on the pipe. Jet lighters can overheat and destroy the drug.

If drug garbage accumulates it will contaminate what you put in it later. The pipe needs cleaning once brown filth has accumulated and the taste goes bad.

Eraser pads are ideal for cleaning a pipe. Eraser pads are household cleaning product made of rough foam, and are perfect for the job.

Cleaning solutions will not work very well, what does the job is abrasion. If you want to try anyway, rubbing alcohol is a suitable cleaner. Harsh chemicals don’t clean any better and are toxic.

Polish the surface when cleaning, pressure will break the pipe.  

Use nothing stronger than a toothpick or straightened paper clip when cleaning a pipe.

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Why do I let shit like this find me?

So I’m living in the deep south and everything has been great for the last two years. I had just gotten off work and I am sitting at home after dinner when I received a phone call from a friend of mine named Desi. She just being kicked out by her ex-husband after moving in with him and trying to make it work (real smart I know), and needed a place to stay. Since I was friends with both of these people, I gave him a call and he said it was cool with him. She crashed over at my place because I had a spare bedroom. We started talking and catch up a little bit, and then the subject of cocaine and crystal came up. She needed to get some weed and her friend had some really good coke so me, not being able to say no, drove her to her contact and damn this coke was awesome! We got back to my place and it turns out she had forgot her weed back there so while she showered, I headed back to get her shit. When I got back to my place about half an hour to 45 minutes later, I walked in and she was in the kitchen with some dude I never met. I was pretty fucking pissed off until she gave me an introduction and said my friend here knows how to make crystal…… Upon hearing that my attitude really changed and I decided to listen to what he had to say (to be continued)….,

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After the locks got changed….

I ended up moving back in with my dad and stepmom, and I’m very glad they took me in. I got clean, was starting to feel normal again and look for work so I could get my own place again. This lasted for about a week and a half as I heard the familiar voice of crystal start to call my name. I called one of those chat lines again this see if anybody was partying and lo and behold. I found the same people that I had just partied with few weeks before. I ended up spending the week with them, getting high and fucking the same chick I fucked for a week the last time. But wouldn’t you know, as the week went on I started running out of money, but also had a realization that if I kept getting spun, I was going to go nowhere and end up in jail, homeless or maybe even dead. I get my mom a call and told her what was going on, and she had recommended that I move to the deep south as I have family there, and the economy wasn’t as crappy as it was in Denver. So my mom flew out and we drove for three days down to the deep south, and it was exactly what I needed. I got clean, made some incredible friends, got my own place on a golf course, and had a really nice job. It’s awesome what happens to one when there’s no drugs involved. All the shit you’ve lost in the past suddenly reappears….. since I have liked to self sabotage myself, my two years of not “meth’n” around was about to come to an end.

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500+ Followers!

Just wanted to say thank you to everyone US follow my blog so far… Looking forward to keeping this going, and to the next 500!

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Sticking with it!

As I mentioned before in one of my first posts, I had two previous blogs before this one, which in my opinion, were really good blogs. However, each time I got clean, I deleted the blog because my thought process was that I keep looking at the blog I’m just going to relapse and do more crystal. So a few weeks ago I did go out and party for a few days immediately, I thought to delete this blog. However, if I’m gonna go out and party and get spun, then I’m going to do it regardless of a blog or not. I have a story to share, plus there is a lot of good information out there that is helpful to those of us who get spun and there is a lot of humorous shit too in regards to getting spracked. It’s always my hope not to relapse, but it is what it is. Hopefully the more I go on with my story people will find it helpful that if you want to quit, you can quit. If you don’t then hopefully some of the should I share, can keep you in better health and in a better frame of mind. So that said, I’m just gonna keep on pressing on and moving forward!

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Tracked out, sayings that I’ve come up with over the years when I’ve really been tracked out….lmao!

I’m high

I’m really high

I’m so fuck’n high

I’m really fuck’n high

Fuck I’m high

Holy fuck I’m high

Holy fuck I’m fucking high

I’m twacked

I’m twacked out of my skull

I’m spracked

I’m spracked out of my skull

I’m Count Sprackula

I’m a Sprackasaurus

I’m a Sprackasaurus Rex

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More info on the fucking moron known as Jeff the lovable loser!

So as I mentioned in my previous post about this piece of shit… I carried his ass for about 12 years and then my life started to spiral out of control. I was living with him and his fiancé at the time and of this day, I’m grateful they gave me a roof over my head. However, I was still doing way too much cocaine and smoking too much crack. So during my stay…

I remember calling one of those chat lines to find a lady who liked to party and ended up finding one. However, this turned out to be a couple, but as I mentioned in a previous post, I am hanging out with the chicks mom for about a week had a lot of fun. I had spent all of my money and it was time to go home. When I got back to the house, the locks were changed, my so-called best friend would not answer the door nor would he answer his phone. It wasn’t until three days later, when my so-called best friend finally called, said that since my stuff was in their house, it was now their stuff. In any event in another three or four days, I was able to get my shit out of the house and my best friend 12 years turned his back on me. The chick he was marrying, came from serious money, and heaven forbid, helping me out through my shit was nowhere on his radar. Even though they had kicked me out of the house, and it was the first part of the month, I ended up paying them back the rent that I owed for that month even though I did not live there. Fast forward about 12 years later, he still hold his grudge that that one event put such a strain on his relationship. I guess the golden parachute is little more important to people than friendship. In any event for some reason, he still thinks I own that rent money even though it was paid back but I know what happened back in 2009 when I paid him back that money… He put it right back up his fucking nose. And today he thinks he’s better than anybody and everybody but you know what Jeff? I’m not here to judge you because you will be judged. You’re just part of the story that I’m sharing and hopefully people will take note of these parts that I shared and be able to not associate themselves with toxic people who are really wolves in sheep’s clothing.

Even though he is the way he is, to this yeah I wish and had enough went down that way that I could’ve kept control and not let my inner addict fuck everything up. It is what it is though, and even though I have apologize and am remorseful, there are some people out there who just can’t forgive, and it’s really fucking sad.