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— blog update

You may have noticed I have moved blogs far too many times in the last few months. It's been an experimental period for me, testing which system works better for most people, what is best for me and what is best for you.

Now, this post is the explanation of my last blog move ( for real this time ). I won't be reblogging this post, this will serve as a pinned in case anyone wishes to know what happened, and where to find me. My new blog is:

moved → @h0pefall

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He took the lollipop after all . . . And the ribbon writes: Happy Birthday

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     𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐃   "  𝐒𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐇   𝐎𝐑   𝐏𝐀𝐒𝐒  “   𝐅𝐎𝐑   𝐌𝐘   𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄   𝐓𝐎   𝐀𝐍𝐒𝐖𝐄𝐑   𝐇𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐋𝐘   𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓   𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐒.   𝐍𝐎   𝐋𝐘𝐈𝐍𝐆   𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐃  .

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Thinking of Levi and the ‘ No Name ’ concept: Might as well turn this to a subverse of my literature teacher and tea shop owner verse: In their teenage years, Levi, Hange and Mike had a band named ‘ No Name ’ with Levi as the singer. The three of them covered their faces so none other than their friends knew who they were. Also, they were kinda popular but all three of them lost interest soon and gave up on it ( meaning Levi didn't want to do this in the first place but they convinced him somehow and only for a while ).

And a panel from the manga ( Junior High ):

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It seems I'll be here after all . . . Levi muse is high ( when is it NOT? ) and I'm craving to write all possible threads for him and visuals and headcanons . . . Levi brainrot in the following days and Shoto will follow

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Animage: ACWNR Erwin & Levi Char Development Interview

There are several questions has been floating around about Erwin & Levi’s characterisation in ACWNR and here I would like to share the views of their character development from the SnK Animation Team, particularly the team supervisor Araki Tetsurou, source is from Animage January 2015 issue (cover shown above、I edited some parts to include the article title)

In which also include Isayama-sensei requested that Levi should not look too big in anime verse

Aim of this post: to explain Levi and Erwin’s character development by anime team

Warning: This is from the anime team point of view, not Isayama-sensei himself

Q: The main character, Levi, what kind of impression you had on him when he was drawn?

Araki: Well… actually we didn’t have much trouble in drawing him. More or less he is a rebel, but his thought on his friends…right, the point is, he actually cares for his comrade. That appeal is what clearly shown, also we added him with the charm of straight-forward way of thinking, so “when it comes to critical moment, his facial expression will be amazing”, that’s is our impression in his development but… (laugh)

Keep reading

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tw: gore, torture, murder

Me: Levi's the sweetest, softest and kindest muse I write. ( updated edition )

Levi in reality:

A murderer but so what

But at least, in his years in the underground he never had to learn how to torture! ( He was taught in the military )

Levi ‘I didn't know people ask questions before torturing someone’ Ackerman. My sweetheart, so innocent

Oh! And he's sweet and smooth when bothered

Like I said, the kindest muse I have and the kindest in the works. ( the second part is true though ) A soft parent figure.

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In honor of SPOTIFY WRAPPED,  send me a number 1-100 and I’ll write you a starter based on the song.

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ー 無 感 情 ー

for my friend, @ellazhen​～♡

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— levi and my favorite platonic (& romantic) ships

Farlan is first love. A pure love, blooming in the darkness of the underground. When there's nobody to rely on, when ‘trust’ is only a fairytale, two people find one another and learn how to find the light within them, through each other.

Erwin is toxic love. When there wasn't any reason for Levi to live, when everything he loved had perished, he found comfort in the numbness that man offered. In order not to kill himself, Erwin killed Levi's heart, saving him from what he could have become, but also dooming him in a life he didn't know how to live without him.

Eren is comfort love. The love of opposites: a passionate young soldier, who embraces his feelings like none, who'd fight for love, and the veteran who has seen the worst of life, and finds comfort solely in living one more day. The dreamer, and the man who can't dream any longer. What Levi lost a long time ago, what he gave up on, is embodied in Eren.

Petra is unrequited love. What could have been, but never would. A love that wasn't meant to survive, in a world to kill anything kind.

Onyankopon is mature love. Onyankopon doesn't need to know Levi. Who he used to be, what he's been through. After surviving hell, all that matters is to care of what was left of them all. Embrace the pain, the trauma, the heartache, with understanding that Levi once had it all, and was left with nothing to offer.

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Interviewer: Why did you decide to join the Survey Corps and dedicate your life to humanity?

Levi: Well, I was hired to infiltrate the Corps and murder Erwin. Not that I wouldn't have done it for free.

Interviewer: Erwin Smith? The Commander of the Survey Corps? The superior you mentioned you trust with your life?

Levi: Life was a bitch so I was forced to sell my soul to the devil.

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Whenever I write crossovers with Levi, I'm being reminded how everyone in the SNK universe either fears him or respects him. Like, there's not a single person not to look up to him or be careful with what they say as long as he's around.

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Levi being the most compassionate captain the Survey Corps could have / One of his first moments in SNK / Comforting his soldiers in their time of death

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2017 Character Directory

Since I have received a request, here is the full translation for the new fans book.

Disclaimer 1: Based on my observation in Japan, if you like Eruri, I think the interview should be good enough, but if you ship Erwin heavily, you may be disappointed by Isayama’s views of life and death or his interpretation to Erwin’s death.(Tbh, I generally share the same view as Isayama thus I am mutual to what he said)

Disclaimer 2: Better read the book together with Answers, otherwise, you won’t have a full picture.

Disclaimer 3: I tried my best to translated fully based on the printed words without bias. For points which I think needs clarification I have put it as Note, I put it in the bottom so that the comment won’t influenced your own interpretation when you are reading.

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1) Interview (IN): Erwin lost his life in Shiganshina Battle, that was a really shocking incident.

Isayama (IS): It was planned to let Erwin dead there from the beginning. I always wants to write Levi and Erwin as a mutual and equal relationship (対等な関係). Erwin joint the SC because of his innocent curiosity to know the “truth” and also his atonement for letting his father died. And gradually he became the leader of SC and he starts to get tripped between “a small child who is chasing his dream” and “a responsible adult”. In order to convince himself, Erwin has used “fighting for humanity” as an excuse to cheat himself. (Note 1)

2) IN: A man who can sacrifice his humanity can’t give up his dream, it was really a surprise.

IS: That’s also what Levi felt. Levi stayed with Erwin till now because he interpretates Erwin’s slogan “Fight for Humanity’s Future” as a very selfless (利他的) aim which he will never think of and he makes this target as his life mission. (Note 2). That’s why Levi also demanded Erwin to be a man who is “loyal to his mission” and “can make cruel decisions”. When Levi realized that Erwin also has a selfish (利己的) side for his dream, he has a feeling that he has been betrayed. But, at the same time, he also felt that a man who he thinks he can never defeat also has “a side like an innocent boy”. (Note 3)  

3) IN: Levi told Erwin to “Go to die” after he realized that this great man (偉大な男) is also a human like him. What a cruel decision……………..

IS: I started recall what I thought at that time. I think people reveal their truest self at the time when they have been pushed to the corner and need to face death. For Erwin, Shiganshina Battle is the place where he reveals his true self. What he reveals was a man waving between “his dream to go to the basement” and “his responsibility to fight against beast titan until the last minute”. Looking at Erwin, Levi felt that Erwin wants Levi to say “Give up your dream and go to die”. He caught what Erwin wants. With Levi’s word, Erwin was transformed to an adult who can give up his dream to fulfill his responsibility for the future.

4) IN: What Erwin recall in the last minute was his days with his father in the classroom which is also the beginning of his dream. Is that memory a happy memory to Erwin?

IS: No one knows. Erwin died before he know the answer. May be Erwin has chosen to left the answer behind unanswered forever. But you can’t say he has completely no regrets or maybe he really has. I was drawing that that time thinking that “all people are enslaved to sth” and for Erwin, it was his dream. As long as Erwin is alive, he will never get over his dream and the only way to set him free is death only. Levi giving up the chance to save Erwin for him (Note 4) and released Erwin from being a slave to his dream.    

5) IN: So Levi understood Erwin’s feeling (思い)………….

IS: Yes. At that scene to choose between Erwin life and death, Levi was also influenced by his experience with Kenny. When Kenny left him during his childhood, he always thought that “Kenny left because Levi failed to meet Kenny’s expectation”. That’s why when he met Kenny again during the revolution, he wanted to fulfill his childhood’s feeling (Note 5). But at the very end, when Kenny get heavily injured during the collapses, Kenny was not using the injection for himself but give the injection to Levi. From Levi’s point of view, it was a totally selfless act which he never thought a selfish man like Kenny will do. Based on this experience, Levi has chosen not to restore Erwin to life but to treat him as a human and let Erwin go (Note 6).        

Oh I also recalled now, some people said it is the best to not fulfill their dreams. It means a life which can chase dream forever may a better life. I drawn Erwin’s death based on this thought.

6) IN: May be dream is dream because you can never touch it and that’s why you can chase it forever. But because of this decision, Levi has lost Erwin, who is someone irreplaceable (かけがえのない存在) to him. So where will he look for his future fighting motivation?

IS: Yes, he is like a balloon dangling in the air (宙ぶらりん) (Note 7). Because to Levi, stayed with Erwin until Erwin’s last minute gave Levi a feeling that he has accomplished everything he needs to. Of course Levi still wants to kill the Beast Titan, for the hole in organization (Note 8) left by Erwin, Levi will look at Armin to fill it up maybe? Since the scene in Snk Vol 18 when they are searching for Reiner inside the wall, I intentionally portrayed Erwin and Armin as the “past” and the “future”. Erwin died without fulfilling his dream. Armin fulfilled his dream and now Armin can only look at the reality.

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Note 1: : Be aware Erwin is only cheating himself not other here

Note 2:  The phrase is written in a way that Levi is not really interest in saving the humanity, but more he is impressed by the selflessness in Erwin’s slogan

Note 3: Together with Answer => At the beginning, Levi felt “it was different from what Erwin told me before” and a sense of lost [喪失感, a feeling you feel when you lost sth dear to you], but it does not mean he felt distrusted to Erwin, later he starts give in and think “I will help you anyway (しょうがないから協力してやる)”

Note 4: “諦めて[くれた]” have a nuance that Levi is giving up for other (Erwin)

Note 5: I think it means to fight Kenny at full force to meet Kenny’s expectation

Note 6: I have a feeling that Levi was not treating Erwin as a human but a god like figure before he knew Erwin’s dream ;). Anyway, I think Isayama wants to emphasis that Levi’s choice is completely selfless (利他的), completely made for Erwin’s sake not himself i.e. selfish (利己的).

Note 7: I think what Isayama wants to say is Levi is unstable and lost or sth like that.  宙ぶらりん is a word saying you are tripped in the middle and dun know where to go.

Note 8: As mentioned before, Isayama specified that it only refers to the hole in organization (組織的な穴). I interpreted the nuance as there is hole other than organization i.e. mental or whatsoever :)

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Headcanons I'm going to work on in the next few days:

That ask where I describe in detail how Levi handles pain and trauma ( I've written most of it, I just need to add some info )

His attachment to his mother's dress

The one time he escaped the underground when he was a kid and the proof (?)

The reason he wasn't chosen as the Commander of the Survey Corps — his view on leadership

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Incorrect AOT quotes

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— Eren Yeager | luxaeterna​

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[ sms: brat ] Is this supposed to be a compliment?

[ sms: brat ] They look fine.